#HI ANON. IM STIMMING SO FUCKING MUCH TY
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can i ask for some Jono Starsmore headcanons 👀
OHHH MY GOD ANON. GRABS YOU WITH MY TEETH BARED. OF COURSE YOU CAN.
ill get the obvious ones out of the way first. i think hes transmasc and bi and somewhere on the ace spectrum. and also autistic.
jonos family was fucking ecstatic when he was born because all his cousins are boys so he was the only 'girl' and he kind of felt an obligation to not come out because of that. though it just began to hurt so he came out and nothing really changed but he was glad to at least have it out there. even if only to his parents.
jono has a weird relationship to gender at best. he is transmasc and uses he/him exclusively but there is something going on with it where its slightly to the left. his parents 'accept' he is trans but dont really acknowledge it. they still call him by his deadname and misgender him and he honestly has given up on trying to correct them. he never really tried to begin with. they do support trans people and him by extension but they just dont really understand hes not a girl .
since he left for america he has cut contact with his parents entirely. his father being tiring for apocalypse reasons and his mother being tiring for a myriad of other reasons. he kind of hates his dad and his fathers side of the family and its this whole thing- since his father explained to him he was related to someone that wanted to essentially end the world and how hes expected to help that guy hes been kinda fucking pissed at him.
in an annual he was bitten by dracula, so i think he still has a scar from the bite as it was hinted that there would be a ongoing thing with that (there wasn't, unless you consider apocalypse/dracula to be an aknowledgement of the event as it featured jono's ancestors) and if he wasn't already so (gestures to him) he'd have more obvious side-effects from that. it may have strengthened how he communicates- making his voice a lot clearer in others heads. this is attributed to him just practicing, though.
sometimes he doesn't 'talk' for extended periods of times. this can be spurred on by him getting overhwelmed or sometimes just because. and i think communicating in the way he does can be really fucking tiring
hes kind of extremely blunt. its hard for him to actually not be as relearning how to express tact and tone mentally is difficult and (honestly) quite draining.
the thing with sugar kane fucked him up a bit more than he lets on. he began to mask more afterwards and kind of just avoided talking to anyone about it at all.
on krakoa he is avoiding the shit out of apocalypse he does not want to talk to peepaw (theyre related and no one fucking remembers when that was established and it makes me a little insane.)
before the explosion he was in a really shitty punk band. he may have sung but he played guitar mainly.
#anon#jono starsmore#headcanons#HI ANON. IM STIMMING SO FUCKING MUCH TY#if u want me to like elaborate on anything pleasee feel free to send another ask or even dm.#also sorry this took so long i was chatting with my friends when this came in.
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hi so ive been reading a lot of your mad liberation stuff (i think thats the term i cant actually remember atm) and im having trouble understanding some of it so i want to like ask this for clarification
is it like. not quite antirecovery but that "recovery" shouldnt be the default? like mad ppl should be able to live as is, and if they want to seek recovery they can but shouldnt be looked down on for not doing that?
or that like. "recovery" doesnt look like psychiatric definitions?
sorry i dont know if im phrasing things right im pretty dissociated lol
ty for your time tho!
hi anon!
I'm always happy to answer clarification questions. I know when I was first learning about antipsych stuff, there were so many terms and concepts that were new to me, and I'm always still learning more.
A lot of what you've said is stuff I agree with! When I'm thinking about the concept of recovery, it feels important to me to really analyze what people really mean when they say "recovery" in the current psych system. I might ask questions like:
Who gets to define recovery? Is the mad/mentally ill/neurodivergent person supported in setting their own priorities and goals, or is the only thing prioritized the mental health professional's ideas about wellness?
How do ableist concepts of normality and conformity contribute to our ideas about recovery? What ways might recovery frameworks get in the way of radical acceptance of mad/MI/ND people's traits? How do ideas of recovery contribute to stigma and violence against mad/MI/ND people?
What ways does the psych system enforce recovery, even at the cost of bodily autonomy and freedom? What ways does psych treatment use violence to enforce recovery?
Within the current psych system, I think that "recovery" is not a neutral concept, and I think it's one that contributes to a lot of fucked up patterns within the psych system. There's so many ableist and sanist ideas that label mad/MI/ND people just existing as a threat, and force cure on us instead of building a society that embraces madness/MI/ND. The language about being a "danger to yourself and others" reveals the ways that mad/MI/ND people are often labeled as inherently unsafe if we're existing in public, if we have nonconforming behaviors, if we talk to ourselves in public, if we stim, etc. There's this pattern set up within the psych system where unless we're actively compliant with treatment, unless we're institutionalized, unless we're taking our meds and going to therapy and doing every little thing the psych system asks us to, we're labeled as dangerous and unstable.
In a system where "treatment" is often violent, coercive, and oppressive, I think that the way recovery is defined is a really harmful framework. Recovery in the psych system is more about compliance then it is about actually listening to our needs. It treats mad/MI/ND people as unworthy unless we're doing every single thing that the psych system wants us to. And I think that mindset is super damaging to mad/MI/ND people. It makes us feel like we're not deserving of support, care, accommodations, and community unless we're willing to give up our autonomy, conform to ableist ideals about "normal" behavior, and give up so much of ourselves. I'm much more interested in separating morality from our ideas of health and wellness, meeting people where they're at, and embracing the idea that it is totally fine to exist openly and fully as a mad person. We do not have to change ourselves in ways we don't want to. My mad community is always going to be one that embraces + prioritizes people who have no interest in recovery, who want and need to keep using behaviors labeled as dangerous, odd, and crazy, who don't comply with treatment and who demand the right to exist anyway.
I think that as mad/MI/ND people, we should have the room to define healing/coping/resistance/resilience/care in a way that is affirming and supportive for us, instead of just being restricted to "recovery." Our distress, pain, and hurt is very real, and we deserve support, skills, resources to help us navigate that in a way where we aren't shamed and aren't forced into coercive treatment. We should be able to set our own goals and priorities about what actually feels important for us in making our lives better/more tolerable. I'm not super interested in telling mad/MI/ND people to stop using the term recovery because I think for a lot of people it's a familiar shorthand to sort of describe a lot of different ways of healing. But I think it really is worth critiquing the concept, doing self inquiry about what it actually means to us, and analyzing the ways we use recovery in our communities and who that might exclude.
Personally, I don't like to use recovery language around a lot of my own madness, because it's important to me to be able to validate and affirm the ways I exist as a crazy person in the world. I think of my bipolar & psychosis as fundamental ways that I engage with the world, and I'm really glad that those are the ways I experience my life. I don't think of my bipolar and psychosis as a transient state that I will "recover" from and wake up one day and have all that taken away from me. I find a lot of value and meaning in my psychosis and my mood cycles, and I think I would lose a lot if I no longer experienced them. At the same time, there are ways that my psychosis and bipolar have changed the way my bad days look, ways that my self harm has really caused me a lot of distress and was really debilitating, and ways that my relationship with suicide is incredibly, incredibly difficult. I've been able to find support, healing, and care from places outside the psych system in a way that feels more meaningful for me than the psychiatric systems definition of recovery. Every time I go into the mental health system and try to express that I don't want to stop having hallucinations, that I want to use harm reduction for my self harm, and that I don't want to go on meds, I am labeled as noncompliant, antirecovery, dangerous, and incapable of living outside of institutions. This is despite the fact that I have worked really hard in building up a support system, access tons of resources, have found a bunch of coping strategies that work for me, and have built a life that accommodates my madness.
So to answer your question, I am against the ideas the recovery should be the default and I am really critical of the way the psych system uses recovery as a foundation for coercive treatment, but I fully support mad/MI/ND people's right to find healing, support, resistance, care, coping skills, resources in whatever way makes sense to them and fits with their needs and autonomy.
Summary: The current concept of recovery in our mental health system is based on ableist ideas about normality and labels mad/MI/ND as dangerous for just existing as mad people. Coercive treatment like psych wards tries to force ideas about recovery onto all mad/MI/ND people, and makes us feel like we are unworthy if we aren't doing everything we can to be compliant. Mad/MI/ND people have the right to define what healing/coping/resistance/care means to them, and if that means rejecting ideas of recovery, treatment, and conformity, our autonomy should be respected.
Feel free to ask any other questions!
#asks#antipsych#antipsychiatry#psych abolition#mad liberation#self harm mention tw#suicide mention tw#other antipsych mutuals if anyone wants to add on what being antirecovery might mean to u. feel free!#i don't usually use the language 'antirecovery' on tumblr because i think it's pretty associated with fatphobic pro ana content on here#but i do think antirecovery like i've laid out on this post is super important to me!
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