#HFLJKDLKFGJKFDJGLKK AVEREY SELF LOATHIGN HOURS??????

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@galaxietm : “you can tell how dangerous a person is by the way that they hold their anger in themselves quietly.” things one might need to hear : natalia & averey.

within the sanctuary of the secret garden he keeps, only the knight can see the crimson flowers he has planted, their petals sway in the wind while he stands among the flowers in the dark. he goes there every night after making sure that the princess has someone guarding her quarters, goes there when he has to remember the past against his will. the red reminds him of the ground 'neath his childish body when they threw him into the dried river - his own parents - left him to rot and die because they deemed him cursed. it reminds him of the blood he's been forced to spill from the moment he was able to take any sort of paying job. but most importantly, it reminds him of the red hot rage he cages underneath his ribs, the anger that makes his heart pound until all he hears is his own pulse. the crimson flowers are like a sponge, seemingly soaking up his conflicting emotions before he crushes one under his shoe and moves on. continues as if nothing had ever happened. he remains silent, biting his tongue at the princess' words, nods as if she didn't just metaphorically threw a boulder at him. his chest tightens, feels heavy. worry surges through him like a tidal wave, she can't know, can she? there is no way she could possibly know. his anger never came up around her and he made sure to keep it well under wraps so nobody would ever face it. like a two sided blade he made sure to dull, until only the side facing him remained sharp.

❛ you make an excellent point, your highness. ❜

his voice is almost void of emotion, professional and cool as amber eye stares ahead into nothingness - occasionally glancing around the room as if to ensure he seemed normal if tense from the meeting he had with the high-ranking knights a bit ago. he'd look anywhere but at natalia if it meant she wouldn't see through this act, wouldn't see the disgusting side of him he so desperately tried to deny. to get rid of. he didn't want to be dangerous, he didn't want to be the monster he'd been called all of his life - he wanted to protect the childhood friend that gave a purpose to his life. thats all he wanted to do. if he could, he would tear his heart out to get rid of these pesky, negative emotions. if it meant he could be the person he wants the princess to perceive him as rather than the horrible, ghastly monster in human skin he already is.

❛ do you think a dangerous person can be good? ❜