I love that kevin grieved riko. like, of course, he did. don’t people say that grief is the final form of love? and kevin did love him, I think. he loved him once, before, and he loved him after, still. loved him in a way a kicked dog still loves its owner, because even with face twisted in anger and palms shaking from violence that owner is still the same person that gave it a home once. he grieved him because when someone suddenly becomes undeserving of your love– does it ever leave? that love? or does it grow its own legs and continue to wander this world without regard for the validity of its existence
of course kevin grieved. the aftertaste of his love for riko was still fresh on his tongue
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I just watched Basket Case
Lumen is mine
I claim him
He's my child now
I adopt him
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"Er-ge, oh, Er-ge!"
Lan Xichen had no patience for Nie Huaisang's little troubles, not at that place and time, but the younger man sounded and looked so distraught and unconsolable that he felt obligated to help him. Even his tears looked real and honest, not just the dramatic ones he conjured when he was too lazy to bother with sect things.
"Yes, Nie Huaisang?" The younger - and smaller, weaker, his conscience whispered - man threw himself in his arms, tears flowing without his unnecessary sobbing noises.
Lan Xichen had a soft spot for his sworn brother's didi, his didi. And maybe helping him with whatever trouble he found himself in this time, he could hopefully pretend that the love of his life wasn't getting married to his beloved bride.
"Er-ge..." Nie Huaisang sniffled. "I'm in trouble."
"I already guessed that. What happened, A-Sang?" He asked, his hands buried into the soft locks of his younger brother.
Nie Huaisang pulled away, his eyes big and teary, tugging on his heartstrings. "No, Er-ge. I'm in trouble."
It took Lan Xichen more time than he would like to admit to finally understand the meaning of those words. Nie Huaisang was in trouble.
Oh, the irresponsible man!
"Who? Is it somebody in our status? Is there anybody who knows this? You need to get married immediately." He went into problem solving mood, his questions coming like rapid fire.
Nie Huaisang just cried.
"Nie Huaisang, this is serious!" He wanted to shake the boy. How could he be so- "Who is the father?!"
The answer came like a slap in the face. "Da-ge."
Oh.
Oh, the poor boy.
"I..." A sharp inhale. "I will help you. Nobody has to know."
His heart beats for Jin Guangyao, but he always had a soft spot for Nie Huaisang. It wouldn't be love, not the way it should be, but he would take care of the younger man and his unborn child. Da-ge's unborn child.
"Th-Thank you," Nie Huaisang stuttered. Tears were still gathering in the corner of his eyes, but he looked relieved.
Lan Xichen was glad he could be helpful. He was glad he could offer a good solution for his- his betrothed?
"I knew I could count on Er-ge's help," Nie Huaisang said, his usual fan fluttering in front of his face.
"You can always count on me," he promised. It was a promise he was intended to keep.
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