#Geoff and Jawn where there too

[knuffeltrein]

I just saw Awsten Knight at the supermarket???

[citrus-swirls]

I have a playlist for Something About Blood Feeding the Garden. I associate music with books/fics a lot of the time and would love to hear if anyone has any songs they associate with my fic, or what songs you associate with other fics (parx or not!).

The order to this playlist is not in order of how I see it in the fic, but rather how I like how it sounds lol. There is a lot of my thinking behind plot points and behind the scenes stuff below too if you are interested :) I never want my author's notes to be very long so hopefully someone out there is interested in these rambles.

Pesticides Remix - Moselle & Matt Hip. This is where the title comes from, and is the ethos of the fic. Even though it's from Geoff's POV, to me I feel like Awsten is still responsible for the inciting actions and this is Awsten's song. I was interested in writing about the grief process, and how that differs from person to person and how we handle how other people mourn. I heard this song for the first time when V and I were outlining the story, and this just felt like fate and really shaped the story I wanted to tell.

my tears ricochet - Taylor Swift. This is Geoff's grief song. I think he feels very stagnant, especially in part 2 and most of part 3. This song also was a good theme for when Awsten and Geoff weren't speaking to each other.

Are You Really Okay? - Sleep Token. This song comes mostly into play in parts 2 & 3 as well. "And I cannot fix your wounds this time / But I don't believe you when you tell me you are fine".

This Empty Northern Hemisphere - Gregory Alan Isakov. This song inspired the radio station, with the lines "While you were sleeping I was the turning the dials / And I walled up your kingdom with radio wires / And the bells of the choir came in low and rumbling ". Fun fact there was originally going to be a radio station at the Zoo; I had imagined Great Uncle Joseph as this very eccentric old man with a million hobbies, and I wanted Awsten to start running the station and Travis & Jawn hear them and try to find them. But I quickly ran into the issue of...how would Travis & Jawn know where to find a random radio station in backwoods Texas lol.

Something in the Orange - Zach Bryan. This song is for right after Otto and Geoff's kiss in part 1. "If you leave today, I'll just stare at the way / The orange touches all things around / The grass, trees and dew, how I just hate you / Please turn those headlights around"

The Prophecy - Taylor Swift. Ugh, what part of this song ISN'T perfect for this fic? This song is mostly for part 6, with Awsten desperate to change the tides.

Gilded Lily - Cults. This is Aria's theme song actually. I was hoping someone by now would comment on it but nobody has haha, Aria and Owen are meant to be a direct mirror of Awsten and Otto. Desperate, crazy, stupid, with ill conceived plans but enough love to make it worth it.

Dinner & Diatribes - Hozier. I'll be honest this one is mainly because it sounds good audibly with the rest of the playlist and it helps when I listen to music while writing. Take that as you will.

Mylo Xyloto and Hurts Like Heaven - both by Coldplay. This entire album (also called Mylo Xyloto) has influenced this fic so badly I had to include it. Mylo Xyloto is an intro song that flows into Hurts Like Heaven, and Hurts Like Heaven is the first song they hear in part one on the CB radio. I wanted them to have something joyous and magnificent and hopeful and loving. I love listening to this album full blast driving down the highway with the windows down.

Who'll Stop The Rain - Creedence Clearwater Revival. This song has been on every zombie apocalypse playlist I've ever made, and it's never named but it is the second song they hear in part one on the radio. This song is included mostly for vibes.

Button On Brown - Alan Gogoll. Another song for vibes/background for writing.

Soon You'll Get Better (feat. The Chicks) - Taylor Swift. This will come into play......later. :)

As the World Caves In - Matt Maltese. Another vibes song that works for apocalypse/dying romance setting.

Spiral - Flyte. This album (The Loved Ones) is one of my all time favorites. This is Geoff and Awsten in the sunflower hut in part 3, kissing for the first time.

Killing Me - Conan Gray. I feel this is part 3 when Geoff & Awsten aren't talking. Originally there was going to be a huge part where Geoff feels jealous how Awsten has been mourning Otto, and feels he can't compete for his love. And then I was like well that is stupid. But the song stays because it's great.

The Very First Night - Taylor Swift. This is like Geoff and Awsten's love for Otto basically. "I wish I could fly / I'd pick you up and we'd go back in time / I'd write this in the sky / I miss you like it was the very first night"

I Know The End - Phoebe Bridgers. Classic apocalypse playlist song, really.

Polarize - Twenty One Pilots. I'm not sure I realized how long this playlist is until right now. This song is very Geoff to me.

Swim - Maggie Miles. This song was at V's request for Otto. It's a banger. "Roamin' through a dream with an unfulfilling motive / Say you're better now but your mouth fills with poison"

Swimming In The Glow - Joywave. Another song at V's request for Otto. This kind of feeling of perpetual waiting.

Little Lion Man - Mumford & Sons. This song just sounds good with the rest. Filler. I suppose you could argue this is another Geoff song but that was not its purpose to me.

Vignette - Twenty One Pilots. THE Zombie Otto song. This song inspired Otto having an inner world, this and the movie I Saw The TV Glow which honestly is not a movie I enjoyed much but it did remind me of a fanfiction I read on Livejournal when I was maybe thirteen of a similar plotline, where someone was sick and had an elaborate ongoing fantasy to cope.

Pink Skies - Zach Bryan. This song comes into play in part 6. :)

You And Whose Army? - Radiohead. Vibes song.

Jesus From Texas - Semler. A friend recently recommended this to me and I sobbed thinking of Geoff in this au.

Fable - Gigi Perez. Another very recent add. It reminded me of Nick, strangely enough, which is a perfect segue into my OCs. I love these OCs I have created. I know OCs aren't everyone's cup of tea, and to be frank I normally despise OCs in fics and think they are annoying and filler, but I needed a better balance to make this world truly feel like an apocalypse. I needed a family we didn't know for the Zoo so Awsten & Geoff could mourn safely, I needed a compound of migrants who settled around a military base because that is something that would happen. I needed a matriarch, I needed children, I needed characters who are coping just fine and others who haven't coped at all. So I hope you love them, because I do. And if you don't, well. The fic is almost over haha.

I hope you enjoyed this! Would love to chat if you have any thoughts or suggested songs, or if you have your own fic playlists. Also sorry for the numbering issues, Tumblr made me break them up for character limit reasons.

[waterparksdrama]

I think the little bit at the beginning of ybpt where they all switched instruments was so endearing I just decided it was the best one. I think it did the props and empty room the best out of them too. I didnt like not warriors/crybaby even tho I love both those songs bc the transition was so jarring and I didn't think it had a real concept within the video it was just awsten in a room and then they killed a yellow car (Ciara??) - unless you have a better explanation? And I didn't see the new wave one but I'll watch now!

i'm sideeyeing you anon i won't lie....but i will explain anyways

the entire concept of the not warriors/crybaby video (and also the we need to talk video) is about awsten going through his final breakup with ciara. during the writing and recording of entertainment, they had an on again off again relationship and it was made during one of their smaller breakups to say the least. awsten mostly suffered through the final breakup alone because i don't think it was really something he talked over with any of his close friends (jawn, geoff, otto) which is why half the video is awsten going through the motions alone while geoff and otto are unaware of it all.

the car thing at the end does represent ciara but also the album itself because the meaning, all the love songs, all the hope that they'd get through their problems, got flipped on its head once they had their final breakup before the album was released. nothing left to do but destroy the memory himself with his friends at least. it's an interesting transition (or kinda, lack of) because it goes from this all out love song about needing someone in this kind of obsessive way to this brooding song about that same obsessive nature of the relationship slowly eating at him which is why it makes more sense in the context of the video - iz

[notwxrriors]

hear me out just. just hear me out for a sec. ik it's never been discussed but jawn just gives off an Energy of a god-fearing kid growing up in a religious town and so . what if he has to be drinking to be with geoff. like they've never done anything sober. which sounds (and Is) unhealthy but geoff helps him work thru it. and geoff is nervous bc. yk. when the party ends will you still love who i am? but jawn does Really Really like geoff

oh trust me I am def hearing u out

jawns like. mostly a good boy excerpt for the cigarettes but his family def does not know ab all that. he spends most of his time w awsten, who his parents approve of, and otto, who they like less but don't tell him he can't b around

and then geoff joins their group and starts hanging out w them all, and jawn likes geoff a lot bc geoff is like actually cool, not just some nerd like the three of them, pretending to be cool. geoff was serious ab his guitar playing and he was like genuinely talented and knew what he was doing and gave a shit ab the band

geoff seemed to like being around jawn too, and he'd bum cigs off him sometimes and they'd smoke outside together. geoffs the first person jawns ever met that smoked weed, so in return for cigarettes, sometimes geoff would roll him a joint, and jawn feels so special bc of it

weed makes jawn feel less anxious around geoff bc when he's sober all he can think ab is how his feelings for geoff r definitely strange and Not Okay. geoff's been in love w him like the whole time but he hasn't said anything bc he doesn't want to scare him away

the first night that drink together, jawns such a lightweight compared to geoff so he def gets sloppy off one (1) beer and they share a first kiss that jawn initiates but geoff cuts short bc he feels weird ab it w their levelsof sobriety. jawn doesn't rly remember it the next day and he's appalled when geoff brings it up and apologizes a ton

but it does start this rly bad cycle for awhile where they'd get intoxicated together and then be intimate, like kissing to making out to handjobs or mutual masturbation. jawns tolerance increases so he does typically have a fuzzy memory of it at that point. he feels gross and wrong and sinful for it, but nothing feels as good as sitting in geoffs lap and shotgunning a joint. geoffs stopped bringing it up bc jawn just shuts down when he tries but he doesn't love the situation. he just wants to love jawn all the time :(

as they get older tho jawn does have some moment of deconstruction, and w geoff's help, they're able to have all new (sober) firsts :)🥰

[milcycyrus-archived]

when: may 10th 2023 where: somewhere in america people mentioned: awsten knight, tish cyrus, geoff winginton, otto wood, jawn. plot line: miley’s waters break while in the hotel room but manges to give birth at the hospital with some minor complications. 

miley: being on tour with your boyfriend's band was something that miley should have expected to be happy about but when you were pretty much over due and being pregnant was something else, thankfully they had everything all sorted out and everyone on speed dail just encase something were to happen which in the new brunettes dismay she hoped that she wasn't going to be going into labour without her mom by her side, taking a deep breath as miley cupped her belly and giving it a bit of a rub....though she felt something wet dripping down leg had she peed herself? "fuck" miley thought to herself hoping it wasn't an accident grabbing cellphone miley dailed her phone to awsten's number as she awaited for him to answer she could feel some kind of pain from her stomach was she about to give birth right here? she hoped not, why does this had to happen when he wasn't here or not near her.

awsten: at the moment, awsten was lost in soundcheck with his band and bothering lucas and jawn as well. it was different having his girlfriend on the road with him, but he felt it was easier for now with her being pregnancy and in case she went into labour while he was away he could be right there. freezing for a moment, cutting in the middle of the song having the rest of the band and crew look at him curiously, the redhead looked at his phone upon miley calling. taking a deep breath before answering, motioning for everyone else to shut up. "hey, babe, what's up?" he asked trying to act as cool as possible, but mentally he was freaking out some. a glance of heterchromic eyes to the blue ones of geoff like a silent cry for help and a nod before the guitarist went over to jawn to explain what could happen depending.

miley: finally hearing the sound of his voice that was on the other end miley was happy to hear "babe" the musican stammered softly "it broke..." the brunette stated trying to hide the pain that was coming from her stomach she didn't want awsten to panic known that he did have to concerate but at the same time she knew that he would be there for her in a matter of time known that the baby was finally on the way, she didn't know that this was going to happen so quickly, the first person she was obviously going to call was the father of her child before anyone else "my water....it broke, i thought it was piss but it's not piss" she groaned through the cellphone.

awsten: for a moment he looked at jawn and geoff as he listened to miley speak "wh-what broke?" awsten asked curiously as he waited for her to answer, mouthing to the other two it was time to go before telling her, "okay.. i'm coming, where are you?" he said quickly as he tossed the mic down and ran over to find miley, while holding the phone towards his ear before running backstage to inform others he'd be heading out but be back for the show that night. he didn't want to miss his show, but he couldn't miss this, he had to be there for miley and see their daughter the moment she entered the world.

miley: putting the phone on the speaker miley placed it down on the side of the table in the hotel room, it wasn't too far from where they were preforming which was probably why they booked it as slight groans parted from her lips "ow....these conractions fucking hurt" miley stated she knew that the labour was going to be painful from hearing stories about it and watching some videos on youtube. "i-in the hotel room right now" she mentioned known that this was probably going to be such a long and hard day/evening for the both of them.

awsten: grabbing his backpack, awsten heard what she said and he rushed towards the car where he met up with jawn and geoff to drive him to the hotel to meet up with miley. "i'll be there soon, babe just.. try and call the doctor, i'm on my way now," he said as they started driving to the hotel. there was a feeling of both nervousness and excitement mixed within the redhead musician about the fact that him and miley were about to become parents. right now, all he was thinking about was the pain she was in and wanting to be there for her. the faster this was all over and she was feeling better again, the better awsten would feel. plus seeing their little's face and holding them finally would also be amazing too.

miley: even though he couldn't see it she nodded her head in silence and hung up the phone so he could concerate on the drive and not cause into any accidents while being on the road, once she hung up miley groaned out in pain from the conractions as she tried to press the dial that was for her doctor, she knew that there birthing plan wasn't ever going to be followed step by step but what plan was? this wasn't on the cards to have a baby specially while he was on tour and just starting a tour too. hearing the phone dailing the number miley hoped that he was able to answer the phone call and not be busy "hello" the midwife said in the stern voice yet loving voice "hi, it's miley -- my waters have broken and it really fucking hurts" she said "where are you honey? please don't panic...how far along are your conractions?" she questioned "hotel room, and every five min...owe" she groaned.

awsten: it probably took a good five or ten minutes before they reached the hotel, not wanting to cause any accidents. awsten told them to wait for him to get back before he rushed in to the hotel going straight to the room to see miley. the moment his eyes saw her he ran over to her and put one arm around her, grabbing one of her hands with the other for her to squeeze. it was the only reason that one hand lacked his infamous rings. "baby, breathe and you think you can walk with me to the car? it's waiting right outside for us," he asked, mentally panicking some over how things could go wrong, but he was also mentally praying for the best, something he hasn't done in a long ass time.

miley: miley couldn't believe that this was all happening right now but it was, they always say babies have their own mind and come when they were ready and obviously this baby was ready to come and she was on time too certaintly nothing like her mother that was going to be pushing her out of her. gripping her stomach slightly as she felt the baby pushing into her guts, miley lifted her head as she heard the familar voice of her boyfriend finally entering their hotel room "thank fuck you're here!" the brunette said in a shivering kind of a voice as she was in pain. "i'm trying to breathe but it's hard" she frowned and moaned tilting her head back as 'owing' sounds left her lips "i-i can try" she said in her tennesse accent as she started to try and walk towards the door.

awsten: awsten held onto her as she tried to walk, but he could easily tell and hear how much pain she was in so taking a quick deep breath before taking his hold away from her, taking a small moment to stretch his arms before picking up miley bridal style. "just hold on, i'll get you to the car," he said as he walked towards the door and slipped out, just barely managing to close it behind them. rushing out of the hotel as fast as he could while carrying his pregnant girlfriend before reaching the car outside. jawn was sitting outside waiting, to open the car door for them helping awsten get miley in as carefully as possible. once they did they both got back in and jawn started the drive to the hospital. "miley, how we doing? how far apart? did you contact the hospital? say we're on our way?" jawn asked glancing at the couple in the back through the rear view mirror. as awsten sat next to her, he held onto her hand and gently massaged his back with the other hand that was the only one still remaining with a few rings currently.

miley: trying to remain calm was the hardest thing to do right now after hearing pregnancy scary stories she knew that things wouldn't ever go to plan though of course that was miley through and through not doing things according to plan, maybe this was just the way things was meant to have been for the two of them. keeping her head down for a moment as she slowly walked out of the hotel room and out of the hotel, it was hard trying not to be seen by the papz too though of course they literally followed her wherever she went despit trying to be lowkey and off the grid as possible. once she was in the car the brunette tilted her head back once again it was the only way she knew how to keep the pain from being too obvious, she turned to look at her boyfriend and nodded her head "of course i did, and every five minutes.." miley groaned that parted from her lips she closed her eyes tightly as she squeezed his hand trying not to break it in the process. awsten: as jawn drove them to the hospital geoff was in the passenger seat texting the rest of the band and crew what was going on and awsten was focused on just trying his best to help miley through this til they made it to the hospital and currently jawn was moving as fast as possible without getting into any accidents. the second they got there, jawn stopped the car close to the hospital and hopped out to once again help get miley inside, leaving the keys for geoff to park the car. "okay, babe, we're here, come on," he kept a tight hold on her hand, for her to squeeze as hard as she'd liked. miley: in this moment she wished her mom and step father was here to be able to see their grandbaby being born but as always things just don't happen the way they would like to, as miley kept squeezing his hand the musican moaned out another 'owing' sound from her lips, she wasn't trying to break his hand but the pain without the drugs that the doctors / nurses give you it was very painful. miley tried hoping out of the car the best she could, once feeling the cold air hit her they all walked into the hospital double doors. it wasn't the hospital they had their appointments at but they were on tour after all of course it wasn't going to be. "fucking hell...this shit hurts" miley groaned out as she kept her hand gripping on her stomach. awsten: jawn offered to get them all checked in as awsten mouthed a couple swears sometimes as miley squeezed his hand through the pain, it wasn't too bad, but it wasn't that great either and he could only imagine how much worse it was for her. "do you want me to see if i can get your mom here on video chat or something?" he knew she wouldn't want to do any of this without her mother and of course she could bring her fiancee was well if she'd like. however, this was a bit of a way so miley had no idea the little surprise he had step up for her. he planned a few days ago for her mom and step father to come in for her today, but now he just had to contact her so she knew where they were to come meet them for the birth. miley: miley nodded her head quicker than ever before she wasn't obviously going to be missing this, she was going to be her first person to know, though of course back in the day it probably would have been her father. once they were checked in, miley could only feel the pain getting more and more harder to deal with and this was coming from someone who had been through a lot of crap in their life. "if i break your hand i'm sorry" she whispered almost once she had let go of his hand when they had walked up to the private room, she noticed it had already been set up just for her miley narrowed down her eyes for a moment as a slight gasp passed her lips "mom" she grinned walking up to her to give her the biggest hug "hi babygirl, how you doing, you in pain?" Tish asked in her strong accent as miley nodded her head before letting go "yes but haven't had a conraction in about three minutes" miley stated as she turned her head to look at her boyfriend "have i said you're the best boyfriend ever?" she grinned it'd been the happiest she'd been since her water had broken "fuck....here comes the pain again" the brunette groaned as she held on to the wall rocking her body back and forth. awsten: "i think my hand can take it.. it's all for our daughter after all," awsten said with a bit of pain within his voice, but he still held on, jawn soon joining again to help get miley in the private room and the moment they saw tish there awsten couldn't help but smile some, before seeing miley make it over to hug her mom. there was no way he'd want her to go through this without her mother. once she joined him again the redhead musician smiled kissing miley's cheek. "could have you go through this without her. gently walking over to her as she went through pain again, he gently rubbed her back, not sure what else to do for her currently. there wasn't really much he could anyway, but he was going to try, it was just the kinda person he was and he hated seeing miley in all this pain. miley: it was still serreal known that they were about to be having a daughter at some point today, or tomorrow or maybe even the day after tomorrow since babies did run on their own schedule on when they want to enter the world, but with these conractions on how far apart they were it felt like they were going to be parents sooner than expected. miley shook her head known for a fact that she couldn't have gone through this without her, not for a second. "it's okay sweetie just breath...nice and slowly...." tish being the expert and having five kids known how to handle this situation "awsten go and get her some ice chips, she's probably not able to eat anything properly untill she's given birth" tish suggested known it might help as the midwife knocked on the door "good afternoon ladies, you must be miley?" the nurse stated holding a clip board "do you mind answering a few questions for me miley?" she continued, miley nodded "has your contractions started since your water broke?" she asked as miley nodded "great, how far along are they?" she added "five minutes" "okay let me see, how far you" miley turned her body and slowly walked over to the bed and get her bottom half undressed the nurse did her thing to see how many centermets she was "you're about eight centermeters deliated, i'll come back when your nine or ten alright, can i get you something water?" she asked, miley nodded her head as she groaned in pain. awsten: the whole time things went on awsten stayed by miley's side til he heard what tish said, looking at her for a moment before giving a nod, he gently moved away from miley walking over to jawn to head out just as the midwife came in. taking a moment to hear what was being said before moving to help his girlfriend get on the bed and get half undressed before going back near the door with jawn, leaving behind the midwife to get the ice chips he was asked to. small chatter between them about how this was really happening, that the redhead was going to be a father probably today. it was crazy to think about. a couple minutes later both men walked back in and awsten walked over to miley to hand her the cup of ice chips. "i'll be right here the whole time, my love" he said gently kissing the top of her head. miley: this wasn't the fun part of waiting for the baby's arrival, being the final number of being centimeters deliated she couldn't wait for that part - though of course pushing was going to be the hardest part of them all, she was a little concerced to make sure she wasn't going to be having a smooth birth but you just don't, she hope that there wasn't going to be any complications. miley smiled as she felt his kiss on her forehead as she held out her hand to hold his "i promise i won't break it, not deliating right now" she chuckled honestly she just wanted to hold his hand "and thank you, thank you for bringing my mom here, it really means alot" she grinned at him before feeling another contraction flowing "how the fuck aren't i at ten centermeters.." she groaned as she held her stomach. awsten: holding her hand again firmly kissing the back of it and smiling at her for a moment, listening to what she said. "break it if you want, you're going through a lot, i can handle a broken hand," awsten said with a slight chuckle as his thumb gently rubbed the back of her hand for a moment. "of course. i knew you'd want her here for this and i knew she'd want to be here. i could have this moment be missed and she's already been amazing," as he said the last part, his heterchromic eyes looked from miley to tish, smiling some at her mother for a moment before hearing her in pain and looked back to her, gently rubbing her back again with his free hand. "i'm here for you and squeeze my hand as hard as you need to," he added really hoping for this all to be over soon so she wasn't in so much pain. miley-couple of hours later- miley had gotten herself changed into hospital robs known it was almost time the nurse had been and gone she was finally getting close to giving birth, these conratctions weren't getting any easier, though she had been offered drugs and apart of wanted to do it drug free though she had been given gas to help every so often needed it she would breathe in and it did help. the nurse came in again to feel how many she had been "alright sweetie looks like you're ready to push...you sure you don't want the epidural or something before we start pushing?" the nurse asked as miley shook her head she was a little thrilled known she was able to start pushing finally "now once you start having another contraction, you push okay? don't worry about if you poo we've seen it all" the nurse laughed softly as miley felt her first contraction since being able to push she started to squeeze down and holding her moms hand as she started to push. awsten: once everything got started, jawn stepped out of the room, waiting outside only leaving awsten with miley and her mother. this very moment made everything feel all the more real, they were close from bringing a small human into the world, their daughter and it was really starting to hit him some. he was about to be a father and was working currently, on tour, this was probably why the band worried, surely he'd want that time off with the baby, but working helped provide their lives and made him happy. it's why he had miley there with him to still be as present as possible and as long as she was free and wanted to of course. now was the moment, as tish held one hand, awsten held her other, gently using his free hand to occasionally massage her back as she pushed, or help get her hair out of her face after. miley: it didn't take too long before she was pushing and breathing well trying to breath more like panting as she was more focused on giving birth, this was the part people had been telling her about giving her horror stories, yet everything was going too smooth for miley's liking the room was filled with equipment and a few more extra hands to help deliver this baby, though just like that "come on miley, you can do it sweet girl" tish said trying to push, it wasn't like miley not to even say something but she was just in the zone of pushing "one big massive push and the butt is crowning she's coming butt first." as miley gave the biggest push she had ever done in her life "congratulations momma..." the nurse said as miley was covered in sweat from pushing, her hair all of the place, her breathing catching up to her "why isn't she crying? what's wrong..awsten, why isn't she crying?" miley said as the nurse held the baby for a moment "grandma wanna cut the cord?" she asked as she tish walked over to the nurse holding the instrument to cut it and then the cry filled the room, miley sighed with relife as she settled back down. awsten: during the whole time, awsten kept a close tight grip on miley's hand, even telling her words of encouragement through it to help out as best as he could along with her mother. before they knew it out came their daughter and the moment awsten's eyes landed on the newborn he froze for a moment, now it was real, he was a father. not even caring if he looked like a fool with his mouth open some, eyes kinda wide as he saw the newborn, his daughter. "fuck" he muttered as he loosened his grip on miley looking at her and kissing the back of her hand. "you did it, congrats, baby," he said in a low voice til she started panicking and he did for a moment too looking to the nurse and baby for a moment til the baby started crying and an immediate wave of relief filled awsten just as it had for miley. "can you actually believe we're parents?" he said to his girlfriend as he gently moved some of her hair to fully look at her, still clearly exhausted miley: the nurse brought the baby back once she had started to cry it was the sweet sound that she had been wanting to hear since coming out of her, this cry was probably going to be hearing for a couple of months or maybe even years, miley was exhausted it's the most tired she had felt she was also proud of herself for not using any of the drugs being offered to her. the nurse brought the baby back to the new parents for some skin on skin time straight away "i can't believe we have one of these tiny humans now" she chuckled so tiredly as she calmed her down "do we have any names?" tish asked as she walked over to awsten to give him a hug of congratulations "we do actually,we talked about calling her nova melody" miley said in her tired voice "and we're joining our last names cyrus-knight" the musican added, the name just suited her it wasn't too out there for them it just right.

[miafic]

if the mia/rt characters were to read fanfiction then what would be their favourite kinds/genres/tropes?

shane would read kpop stuff haha. he likes 100k+ slow burn romance between guys in the same group, but he likes hurt/comfort oneshots, too. he’d also love a story about rival kpop groups competing for a prize. 

ashton only reads ones that other people send to him and tell him are good. he doesn’t really care about fanfic, but if one of his friends liked it, he’ll probably like it, too. he likes found family stuff and fluff. everything he reads needs to have a happy ending. 

jawn only reads short-but-intense hurt/comfort fics for whatever fandoms he’s into at the moment. he just finished an anime and absorbed one of the characters’ personalities? he is reading every sickfic about them that he can get his hands on. he’s searching for miscommunication fics where people get left behind. he wants to find stories where one of the characters die and the others are left to comfort each other. 

otto used to like cool, well thought out killjoy fanfics and fun gravity falls fanfics, but after The Incident, he almost exclusively reads violent, intense, angsty mcr fic on livejournal. he figures out eventually that he’s essentially trying to trigger himself and he tries to stop looking for them, but he can’t. 

awsten exclusively reads dumb crackfic about his favorite cartoons, but one time he comes across something actually good and he’s like, holy shit. i could see it being like. dipper and mabel go to different colleges in the same city. and awsten thinks it’s gonna be funny and a joke but it’s actually really good and it’s about mabel trying to make friends with her polar-opposite roommate (wednesday addams??) and dipper is working on some awesome science project and crushing on one of his TAs. and then something bad happens and one of the twins needs the other one’s help so they have to make some big sacrifice but it’s worth it because they’re best friends and they’ll always come first to each other. (this is not a real fic lol im just making things up.) and awsten’s like whoaaaaaa i really like this!!! and he spends literal months trying to find anything remotely as good as that but there’s nothing. 

no shade to emily but she exclusively reads reader insert fics on wattpad hahaha

geoff unironically enjoys modern shakespeare fanfics and modern spins on classic stories/plays. he’s ao3 only. 

lucas reads game of thrones fanfic. zakk does, too, but zakk reads love stories between characters that would never get together or even meet in canon. lucas reads the war stories where it’s battles being fought and alliances being formed and people getting betrayed and killed left and right. lucas doesn’t like witcher fanfic unless it’s exclusively about geralt. he’s not into geraskier at all and that’s like 80% of the fics in that fandom lol. 

zakk also likes coffee shop aus and the whole “there’s only one bed” thing. fake dating, fake married, soulmate aus, etc. he’s into all of it. does not care about the website or the year it was written. he also reads smut. 

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voluntarily reads smut: 

zakk, shane, jawn

reads smut if it’s there but doesn’t seek it out:

emily, otto

sometimes reads smut accidentally:

geoff (stops immediately) & lucas and awsten (who both stop if it gets too weird but always give it a chance)

has never even heard of smut before: 

ashton

[n-ctarinenga]

New Wallapaper [ awsten knight ]

a @calmlftv​​​ birthday special! | word count: 2,302 | masterlist

After probably the longest birthday of your life, you fell back into the warm embrace of your bed. 

Your day had started early, your best friends and roommates waking you up with breakfast in bed, before promptly shoving you downstairs and insisting on pampering you. 

By lunchtime, you'd played an intense game of monopoly, had a sparkling manicure, tasted endless mocktails with stupid pun names, and watched all of the 5 seconds of summer cocktail chats videos on the large TV in your living room. 

You were happy you'd agreed to a chill day at home for your 23rd, taking the day off work and scolding your friends when they decided to do the same. You had taken the time to celebrate with your workmates and extended friend group over the weekend, having dinner with your family the night before on Sunday before finally settling in to take time out for yourself, which your friends were happy about considering you were always the first to help everyone else before yourself. There was no doubt in your mind that you were loved by the people around you though, all of them reminding you of it constantly through the day.

At first, you didn't understand why they insisted on having dinner early, and grew suspicious that maybe they had something planned for tonight that you were yet to be told about. 

"Who has dinner at two pm?" You ask, watching one of your friends prepare a filet steak just the way you like, the large fat of the meat being put to the side for her dog later.

"We do, now stop questioning it." Another answers, shoving yet another red velvet cupcake iced to look like a sunflower into your hands. 

You narrow your eyes at the three of them, all glancing at each other and speaking in eye movements and hand gestures so you couldn't decipher their words. 

Your attention is pulled away though by your phone that sits in your lap, a new text from your boyfriend, Awsten, filling the screen. 

While you wished he could be with you for your birthday, you knew what you signed up for when you started to fall in love with a musician, and that was weeks and months on end of facetimes and texts while miles apart. 

Awsten was currently on the other side of the country, but that didn't stop him from blowing up your phone any moment he could with his newest invention, birthday bombing, aka putting a party hat on anything he could find to show you that you were being celebrated even if you couldn't see it in person. 

The thought alone was enough to make your heart swell with joy, but as you received yet another picture of your boyfriend wearing a line of hats like dinosaur spikes down his back, you couldn't help but burst out laughing.

At the sudden noise, one of your friends looks over your shoulder, laughing at the picture you were quickly setting as your lockscreen. 

"Your man is a nerd." She chuckles, and you shake your head with a laugh, smiling fondly as you lock your phone again. 

"Yeah, he is." 

Little did you know, Awsten was a lot closer than the 200+ miles away you thought he was. 

In fact, Awsten was currently running around Houston searching for the exact perfect items he needed for your surprise, periodically sending you the pictures he had had Geoff, Otto and Jawn help him stockpile before his flight back this morning.

He pocketed his phone after sending you his personal favorite of the bunch, his fantastic dinosaur impersonation, and returned to picking out his birthday cards for you, drawn to the biggest and most decorative ones on the shelves. 

Ever since the day you told him about your lack of celebration for your birthday in your teenage and recent years, Awsten had the idea in his head to make sure you got to celebrate the special day in some way, someday. After all, it was the day his favorite person was born. 

Adding a 19th, 20th, 21st, 22nd, and 23rd birthday card to the growing pile in his arms, Awsten walked to the counter, where the assistant gave him a suspicious look. 

"Girlfriend's birthday." He explains with a smile, earning a small nod from the woman as she placed them all into a bag. 

"Either you have a lot of making up to do or you have a very humorous girlfriend." She comments, handing him the back and grabbing a pen from a display beside the counter, throwing it in too. 

"You're probably gonna need it." She whispers, a kind smile on her face as a grin spreads across his. 

"A bit of both, and you're right, thank you." He laughs, sending her a nod of thanks as he walks out. 

With the cards and your present already taken care of, all that remained was the picnic basket he had to fill and the flowers he was set to pick up next. 

While you sat at the head of the dining table, your friends hands over your eyes as the other two carried and lit your cake, Awsten was already walking into the flower shop packed to the brim with fragrance and colour. 

"Happy birthday, dear y/n, happy birthday to you!" Your friends cheer, eyes uncovered to see a large, delicately iced red velvet cake, very similar to the cupcakes you had been handed throughout the day, but this time with two gold and white candles lit on top, a bright and shiny 23 right in the middle. 

You can't help the wide grin that covers your face once again as you make your wish, blowing out the candles with light dancing in your eyes as a friend snaps pictures of you for later.

Cake and presents are taken care of before the hour is up, and after showering you with buckets of affection all day, your friends finally let you escape for some time alone, letting you know if you need absolutely anything to just call them, all of them still heavily dedicated to their role as birthday elves. 

A smile still plays on your lips as you relax on your bed, the sound of Daphne Blue by the band CAMINO playing on your record player across the room letting you relax as the day sank in, a content sigh escaping you as you recall the events of the day.

You're confused though as you hear the sound of music still playing well after the end of Honest, the needle on your vinyl travelling to the middle of the record and waiting on you to flip it in silence. 

With a confused frown, you climb off your bed, walking over to your window to investigate the source of the noise. 

Catching a sight of bright green, a small scream escapes your lips as you see Awsten standing below your window, a bluetooth speaker held above his head playing Blink 182 on full volume. 

"Happy birthday babe!!" He cheers loudly, his heart racing as you hang your head out of your window, shock evident on your face.

"Awsten!! How the fuck did you get here so quick, crazy??" You call back, happy tears gathering in your eyes. 

"For you? Yeah. Now are you gonna let me in so I can kiss you or what?" He asks teasingly, making you shake your head at him, grinning as you close your window and run out of your room, basically flying down the stairs and past your grinning best friends. 

You swing the door open, and hit Awsten's body full force as his arms wrap around you tightly, tears starting to fall as you actually get to touch him again. 

"Hey sweetheart." He grins, kissing the top of your head and drinking in the familiar scent of your shampoo and conditioner. 

"You're home." You cry into his chest before pulling back so you can hold his face with both of your hands, still in shock that he's real and in front of you. 

"And I still like you even though you're twenty three." He jokes, his hands on your hips pulling you closer to him so he can finally kiss you after so long apart. 

The small action made your heart burst, the feeling of having him so close again like taking a breath after feeling your lungs burn under water. It made your skin shiver and your heartbeat race, even with your best friends wolf whistling in the background. 

"Speaking of, why did you go all 'boombox outside my window'?" You ask, pulling back and frowning at him. 

"I wanted to be romantic." He shrugs, making you shake your head as you laugh. 

"Dork." You say lovingly to assure him, making a wider smile spread across his face. 

"Okay," He pecks your lips one more time, nodding in the direction of the stairs, "there's more surprise to go so you go wait up there while I get everything else." 

You try to fight his instructions for a moment, wanting to help, but give up when he gives you a look that says 'don't even try'. 

It takes Awsten all of three minutes to run from your door to his car and back again, picnic basket and presents in hand as he mouths a thank you to the girls in the living room, them helping him all along without your knowledge. 

Confusion washes over you as you see the picnic basket in his hand as he walks in, proudly and confidently walking towards you and dropping a bag down on the bed beside where you sit. 

"Open." He instructs, pointing to the bag that you eye suspiciously. 

"What have you done here, Knight?" You ask, watching as he takes the blanket from off the end of your bed to lay on the floor and opening the bag to peak inside. 

"We are having a very special edition air conditioned picnic where I don't have to worry about my gorgeous girlfriend being bitten by ten million mosquitoes." He explains, still making your cheeks heat up at his words just as easily as he always had. 

Awsten occupies himself setting up the indoor picnic as you take the top envelope from the bag, opening the small pastel pink package to see a very glittery, very girly happy 1st birthday card. 

"Sweetheart," you laugh lightly, "I think you got the wrong card." 

"No I didn't, I got you a card for every year you've been alive because we're celebrating all the birthdays you didn't before." He states simply, but it hits you as anything but simple. 

"Awsten…" You trail off, opening another few cards with tears in your eyes. 

"Do you… do you like it?" He asks, walking over on his knees to kneel in front of you, suddenly unsure of the gesture of the cards. 

The tears start to fall as you look down at him, pulling him into a kiss that makes him melt like putty in your hands. 

"I absolutely love it. I'm gonna put them all up like another wallpaper." You laugh happily, while he wipes away the tears that fall down your cheeks. 

"Sounds like a plan to me. But first," He points to the open picnic basket on your floor, "we have some tacos to take care of." 

You thank your lucky stars for the bright, in every sense of the word, man in front of you as you eat, happily exchanging stories of nightmare customers you'd had in recent weeks for his stories of venues that made your toes curl. 

When the tiredness finally took over, Awsten pulled you into bed, legs tangling together and his arms around you once again as he fell asleep, while you stayed awake a little bit longer, reading the messages placed all through the 23 cards you had been given while relaxing back into the arms of the man you love. 

You could feel his breath on your neck behind you, comforting and familiar as you finally reach card 23, a gasp leaving you as the simple but gorgeous necklace tucked inside falls onto your bed beside you.

You pick up the small tear shaped ruby gem necklace from beside you and hold onto it tightly, unknowingly moving closer to the man near squeezing the breath out of you even in his sleep. 

Reading the card in the soft light of your bedside lamp gets harder as tears cloud your vision, but you do your best to push through it. 

Today, we celebrate 23 years since the love of my life was born. You, not Carlos Santana. You know I toe the line of being cheesy every day, but I apologize in advance for diving over the edge for a moment. For a long time I felt like I had to escape who I was, and for a while, I did, but I lost a home that I couldn't find no matter where I searched for it. The closest I ever got to that home was your arms that night you pulled me in, and thank god you didn't let me go, because you've proven to me over and over again that I do have a home, and it's in the spot right by your side. You're the one thing in my life I know I got right, and you deserve to feel like the most important person in the world, because to me, you are. There would never be enough space in a card for me to tell you how much I love you, but I plan on letting you know every day for the rest of my life. I still like you, I still love you, and I still think you're an actual angel. Happy birthday sunshine. 

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[wlwmiki]

things about the parx concert that i liked

awsten getting everyone to sing to help him because he was sick “and sing really loudly into your phone so no one on your snapchat knows i suck”

geoff’s birthday song !!!

people started throwing money onstage halfway through, and awsten went, “did someone just throw a dollar ?? now THAT’S something i can get behind !”

otto’s birthday song !!!

someone threw their flannel onstage and awsten thought they were pants and called them disgusting

awsten got jawn to come onstage and bring awsten his phone so he could make us do vocal warmups, and he said he should just play warmups instead of house music “so we don’t fuck up our voices”

also, elijah doesn’t do vocal warmups and he thought singers just did them because they’re narcissistic and like to hear their own voices ??? so we flipped elijah off (he was at the balcony) and he flipped us off back

awsten had SO much energy even though he was sick

GEOFFS SINGING AND MOVING AROUND WHEN HE WAS PLAYING 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

there was a part where otto came out and we all started chanting for him and at the end awsten kinda gestured at him like “ok back u go !”

ALL OF TURBULENT ?????

all the jumping and circle pits and everyone in the pit was so sweet, someone taller than me took my phone and recorded for me near the beginning because i was too short to see a lot from where i was

one of the openers was kitten, and awsten went “did you guys like kitten ?” and ALL the lesbians screamed and he went “yea me too, now if you see me doing hot yoga we’ll have something in common to talk about” awsten knight lesbian KING

and yea it was just a really cool concert 10/10 would cry thinking abt it again

[littletantrums]

while on tour, Aws brings bottles/sippies/pacis/other regression items with him since everyone he tours with knows about his regression. and he leaves them laying out in the open, so anytime someone who doesn’t know about his regression is coming onto the bus, Otto and Geoff have to scramble to put all of Aws’ things away bc it’s hard to explain and Awsten gets very embarrassed easily

tbh i feel like he'd be anxious enough to keep everything neat and put away, but whenever anyone is coming onto the bus he's always so worried he forgot something.

I feel like Jawn would be the one that mostly picks up after him, because he knows almost better than Awsten where Aws likes all of his things to go. He probably has a glasses case or something like that underneath his pillow for pacis, a specific corner of a cabinet for sippies, coloring books/crayons in a specific pocket of his backpack, etc.

also, i just. really wanna see Lucas giving him a piggy back ride to starbucks bc he's too sleepy to walk 😢

[kyleknight]

candy-coated

Geoff + gingerbread houses ❄️🍪🍬🎅

here’s a short, sweet little polyparx fic for parxmas!! happy holidays!

~~~

“I think when it gets to this point, it’s not even a house anymore,” Jawn says. He’s walking slowly around their gingerbread creation , filming it from every angle. Geoff keeps watching him to make sure he doesn’t accidentally bump it, even though he knows Awsten or Otto are far more likely to do that.

“That’s not the point,” Awsten says, waving his arms and making Geoff’s heart race with panic. “We can’t win this thing by just making a house. Have you seen the pictures of the stuff from previous years?”

“Some of those are in the professional division,” Geoff points out. “We’re in the amateur division.”

“I don’t even know how they made that cool ass pirate ship…” Awsten says. “But anyway, we have to have something cool and original!”

“So you made—”

“The gingerbread version of the treehouse I’m gonna live in someday,” Otto says, his voice muffled from the candy cane sticking out of his mouth. He’s the only one who’s sitting a safe distance away from the gingerbread treehouse. Okay, maybe Geoff is a little protective of the structure, but he’s put so much time and work into it. It’s the product of an exhausting week of working on it in every spare minute he’s had. And it’s turned out so beautiful.

“No way, this thing is way nicer than the place you’re going to end up in,” Awsten says. “Otto, you’re going to end up in like, a leaky shack somewhere in the middle of the woods.”

“As long as I can get Chipotle delivery—”

“You won’t get anything but rain and spiders—”

“Oh no!” Geoff yells, making everyone stop, including Jawn.

“What?” Jawn says.

Geoff points at a spot on the main part of the treehouse. “I forgot a doorknob right there. Do we still have those candied peanuts that I used for the other doors?”

“Uh…” Otto says in a very guilty tone.

“Otto!” Awsten scolds. “You fucked it up!”

“Does it have to be the same peanuts?” Jawn says, setting his camera down and peering close to look.

Geoff’s shoulders slump. “I guess… I could use something else. It’ll be okay...”

“No!” Awsten yells, grabbing Jawn by the back of his shirt and starting to haul him away. “Come on, Otto, you’re coming too. Geoff, we’ll be right back! We’ve still got a couple hours before we have to drive it over to the judging place, right?”

“Yeah, but you don’t have to—”

“No, we’re going!” Awsten says. He pulls Otto out of his chair and the three of them tumble messily out of the door.

Geoff waits until he hears Jawn’s car engine start. Then he breaks into a smile and goes to one of the kitchen cabinets that nobody ever opens. He takes out a plastic container and brings it over to the table where the gingerbread treehouse is standing. Ever so carefully, he takes out the four little figures made out of gingerbread and candy, each one decorated to look like him and his boyfriends. He places each gingerbread man at a special place on the treehouse, then steps back to admire his work.

It’ll be a nice little surprise for when they come home.

[boysdontcryblood]

I have a question about the boys!!!! Otto and Awsten are there, Jawn is the reason they got sent there, but where is Geoff????

Currently, we don’t have plans to include Geoff in this story. He’s a good boy. The others are all good boys too but they just get caught up in things and have to face the consequences.

[awstensmind]

Where to even begin today? It all started off so great, I was happy, feeling like I lucked out getting food with Colson and Casie, my family, and now I'm hiding out in Geoff and Otto's airbnb because I'm too scared and anxious to go home, lying to everyone all for the "greater good".

Jawn is rightly unbelievably mad. It sucks to make him feel the panic that he probably does, but right now, it's better than the alternative. I can't do that to him. It has to be my little secret until he's ready to at the very least find her.

I got food with Caise and Colson before heading to the studio this morning, and honestly, it was everything. Playing footsie under the tables, people watching and making stupid life stories for anyone semi-interesting we saw. It's crazy to say that I do have a family of my own now. It finally happened. Casie's such a joy, too. I adore her.

Once we'd eaten, they dropped me off at the studio. They probably think I was lying about that, too, but I wasn't. We're almost done with all of the lead guitar parts. We started recording Otto's drums so I slipped out for what I told everyone was Therapy. That technically wasn't a lie - what I was doing was approved by Sam, and was something I knew that was about to be incredibly healing for me.

As soon as I left, I tugged my hat and hoodie on, made my way to my car and drove further out of town. Stopped off at our agreed location, parked a 10 minute walk away and went inside the restaurant.

We both cried as we hugged. We kept it brief, though, not wanting to draw any attention to ourselves. It felt so good to see her in person rather than a tiny screen. To see every little detail of her face, her eyes, her smile. I was so, so happy and it made everything worth it to see her smile.

We sat there for an hour, eating some lunch and laughing about how ironic it was for the both of us. There's gotta be a joke about that, right?

We decided to head somewhere else to minimise our risk of being noticed, walked around some weird haunted thrift shop and messing around just like we used to when we were younger. It's crazy that it's been so long. It felt weird without Jawn there, too. He would've enjoyed that place.

I took so many precautions. Covered my hair, wore 'normal' clothes. She even had a damn realistic wig on. We still got caught by those paparazzi though. They're relentless. That wasn't the worst though...

It wasn't bad enough that the headlines were alluding to me cheating on Colson within the hour, saying I was sneaking around with a mystery woman. Of course, Twitter makes everything so much worse, instantly jumping on the news and trying to pick apart who she was.

I'm so fucking grateful they all settled for Ciara. I never thought I'd ever say that, haha.

"this isn’t you, it doesn’t make SENSE"

"what did she say to you to get you to have fucking lunch with her"

Lying to Jawn wasn't as difficult as i thought. It was so easy to run with the thought of me meeting up with Ciara because what i was saying wasn't completely a lie - I had spoken to Ciara recently, albeit a few weeks ago. I had listened to whatever she had to say just because I needed to know her reasoning, and I did stand my ground. I felt nothing. I got the closure I needed.

She doesn't have power over me anymore.

Not only was it the truth, but it was easier to have Jawn get mad and think I'm losing my mind or something than to know the truth. He's said multiple times, he's not ready to find out if she's okay or where she is. I respect that. I'm never gonna push him into doing that unless he's ready. That's why I had to protect this with my entire chest. I would've told Colson but I couldn't risk it slipping out when he's drunk or stoned, or they're fighting. I know he wouldn't do it purposely, but accidents happen.

Fuck, Colson... I know he knows. My phone has been blowing up but I turned it off. Went back to the studio and wrote three more songs that I do not need because I just felt so much. Absolute joy that we somewhat managed to pull off today. Excitement for the band, this album is gonna be so fucking good. Guilt for semi-lying to Jawn. Guilt for not answering my phone. Anxiety to go home and face Colson.

I knew it would end up making things worse, but if Jawn reacted like that to me being out with Ciara, there's a big chance he's told Colson exactly what he thinks. I can't go home. I don't think I have the strength right now to go and have that conversation with him because i'd just tell him the truth, and I can't do that right now. I went back to Geoff and Otto's airbnb under the guise that Colson knew and I just wanted to spend time with them. My phone was switched off so they knew no different. I liked being able to relax, even if everyone else was stressed and worried about me at the time.

-

It's 4am and I'm finally heading home. I still don't think I can face Colson, so hopefully that can wait until morning. He should be asleep by now. I turned my phone on and replied to everyone. Tried to explain myself the best that I could, but I don't know if it'll be enough. I'll just crawl into bed and hope things blow over soon.

Yeah... today was worth it, though.

[waterparksdrama]

I have kinda weird question cause I'm supposed to go to m&g with parx this summer and it will be my first time meeting them so I wanted to ask what do you guys talk about to them? And also I have some gift ideas for Awsten, Geoff or even Jawn but what Otto likes or what kind of gifts people usually give him? You know his lack of social media doesn't help with that I'm lowkey nervous about the whole m&g thing honestly

Usually they say like "thanks for coming" and might even compliment stuff you're wearing too and if you're giving gifts they usually talk about that. Like for me the last time i met them when i went to hug them they all said "thanks for coming", geoff complimented me shirt too and then we figured out where to stand, we took the picture and then awsten and geoff complimented my glasses and i showed them my button and they loved it so it just depends ya know

As for otto i think for the most part he enjoys anything people give him? Idk maybe some people can send some ideas and help out!

But i wouldnt worry so much about meeting them they always make it a nice and easy environment no intimidation at all 😊

-blue

[notwxrriors]

i really want to write fic about this but i dont have time so im gonna send it to you instead i think you will appreciate it. polyparx+j where otto and jawn are the first to fuck. i feel like everyone starts with awtto which like yeah. .. but like.. otto who is so so crushing on awsten but awsten just refuses to believe it he keeps ignoring it and playing it off and so otto gets with jawn because he just needs Something at least. anyways awsten gets a little jealous and he and jawn get in a fight about it and eventually jawn is just like "well maybe if you weren't so fucking stupid you could see he's more in love with you than he ever was with me." (obv he doesnt really mean it because now otto just has feelings for both of them and he basically played himself) anyways then i think they would have nasty freaky gay sex. and geoff shows up somewhere in the mix eventually. thoughts?? (sorry for the long ass ask btw)

this isn't even in the top ten longest asks I've received do not b concerned my friend

this is soo interesting like what era r u thinking like o9k or like early parx? or even later parx? I'm thinking early parx and I'll explain why but lmk op

anyways otto having feelings for aws first is so sweet and aws like. knows but he's too scared or like still kinds dealing w religious trauma and he just is not ready for all that. so. otto hooks up w jawn BECAUSE jawn has feelings for geoff but he's feeling sorta anxious ab the whole geoff being a boy thing and ottos like I'm gonna help him by letting him get some experience w a dude and mayb it'll have the side benefit of making aws jealous >:)

and jawn n otto have been friends a long time so jawn trusts him and agrees and he knows ab the whole aws thing and they fuck and jawns not as scared anymore but it def does make aws jealous and they argue and jawns like "I don't even like otto like that and he doesn't give a shit ab me get over it and go talk to him" and aws is mad and he doesn't really get it and yeah otto does Start feeling some typa way ab jawn but he knows jawn loves geoff

but that's when they all figure out polyamory is a thing and they can All b happy w each other still 🥰 but otto and jawn always sorta have a particular thing between the two of them bc they started it,

[fivesaucekisses]

RARE || Awsten Knight Fanfic 1

Chapter Two:

I introduced Waterparks effortlessly and quietly walked off the stage as the curtain drew showing the three men behind me.  They apparently just released an album two days before the show and from the response of the crowd at least a good handful knew about it already.  The crowd roared excitedly as the sound of guitars filled my ears.  The beat made my head bob, but the voice that came out of lilac man was something I was prepared for.  It was rare, you could tell he meant every word he was singing.

I stood behind the curtains, not taking my eyes off of the stage just as infixed as the audience.  My foot started tapping to the beat as I reached for my phone and quickly typed a note to myself: "Waterparks."  I'd have to check them out later.

"Sophia, let's get you back to your seat," Isabel states, coming up from behind me.

"Actually," I smiled, turning around to face her.  "Could I maybe stick around back stage just for a little while?"

She gave me a look that made it seem like I had just inconvenienced her plans, but she sighed giving in.  "I mean I guess you could hang out back here for just a few more minutes, but please be back to your seat after the next commercial break," she pleaded.

I tried to hide my excitement as I eagerly clapped my hands, turning back to the performance just in time to see both guitar players bouncing around the stage.  A few moments later, Otto, the drummer finished with an impressive solo before the lights went out and the crowd erupted yet again.  The curtain fell and the three men came jogging off stage, goofing off as they did so.

"Good job guys!" a man yelled as he met up with the three of them a few feet from me.  He had a camera around his neck and a head of bright red hair.  A colorful bunch, I note.

"I got so nervous just as the curtains came up," lilac guy admits, letting out a breath it seemed like he had been holding.  "I can't believe we just did that," he's suddenly beaming, jumping up and down some.

A smile spreads across my face as I finally take the opportunity to approach them.  "Hey, I just wanted to say that you guys were really great out there," I say as nonchalantly as possible.

"Really?" lilac man questions, shooting me a wide grin.  The other two say 'thank you' in unison before turning to their friend with the red hair who seems intent on not speaking at all as he blatantly stares in my direction.

I give him a smile, trying to hold in my laughter before responding to his question.  "Honestly, I put your bands name into my phone halfway through the song because I wanted to hear more later," I admitted, tucking a stray piece of hair behind my ear.

"Do you want to hear more right now?" he asks tilting his head to the side just slightly, reminding me of a very cute dog.

"Definitely," I grin, knowing full well I was going to get in trouble with Isabel when I wasn't back in a few minutes.

"I'm Awsten by the way," he says, holding his hand out to me for a simple handshake.  "That's spelled with a 'w'," he clarifies as I nod.

"Noted."

"That's Geoff, and Otto," he says pointing out the other two members of his band as we walk back towards the dressing room I had first noticed him.  "Oh and Jawn, he's our photographer.  He spells his name with a 'w' too, in case you were curious."

Forty minutes later I was sitting cross legged in my Versace dress on the floor in their green room, listening to demo's off of Awsten's lap top he just happened to have on him.  We'd gotten past the star struck phase and gone straight into Awsten's universe and I was so okay with it.

"And right here, I was thinking I could add in some cool harmonies and it would add this dope effect to the sound, so I decided to throw something together and, well just listen," he's talking quickly, quieting down when he wants me to hear something specific.  His music is good, better than good, it's fantastic and his passion speaks for itself.

"Hey Sophia," his friend Jawn says, pulling me out of my trance.

"Hmm?" I hum, looking up at him from the ground where Awsten and I were crouched.

"Is it weird if I ask for a picture?" he asks, clearly trying to tread lightly.  I appreciate his asking and not just doing.

"Oh yeah, totally," I say, running a hand through my hair some in preparation as I began to stand.

"No no, you can stay down there, I just-" he pauses, looking down at Awsten and over to me.  "you two looked really candid, and it'll make the band look pretty cool," he stated as Awsten's face began to get a red tint.

I look over at Awsten who's just a few feet away from me and smile some.  I guess I didn't always have to have the exact right angle for a photo.  Falling back down beside him, I gesture towards his lap top.  "Alright, what's next."

We stay that way for a while, all five of us talking as the music continues to play in the background.  The longer I'm there, the more they seem to relax around me.  They begin kidding with each other, talking about anything and everything, laughing loudly and occasionally embarrassing themselves or each other.  These are the moments I missed the most when I was working 24/7.  Every person I spoke to was normally older, my boss, or a coworker who acted like they liked me for the sake of a film.  A content sigh leaves my lips as my head bobs to the music.

A knock on the door causes us all to quiet down.  It opens seconds later and I see a familiar face come into view.  "Sophia are you kidding me right now?"  Isabel says in a very similar tone to that of my own mother.

"Isabel," I say, standing up quickly, flattening out the ripples in my dress, "Hey."  The four guys stand up, trying to clear out as fast as possible, causing me to frown some.  "Way to ditch," I mutter as Awsten waves at me, a playful smile on his lips as he runs for the door.

"Do you even know what time it is?" She's now shrieking as she grabs my wrist and begins pulling me out the door.  "You have to be at Andy Cohen's after party in less than 30 minutes.  The award show is over and you dipped literally half way into the show.  Not a good come back for you, Sophia."  Her lecture seems to have ceased for now as we walked in silence towards the exit.  I look around in hopes of spotting Awsten or Jawn's bright colored hair but they're nowhere in sight.

A few minutes and a lot more lecture later, I had finally made it to the overly crowded club.  It's now becoming clear to me that I missed the memo of free booze at the event making me one of the only sober people in the room.  As soon as we're through the door's Isabel is gone, probably already beginning to network.  More power to her if she wants to spend every waking moment of her life working.

"Sophia, so good to see you!" I hear a slurred voice say as a clearly drunk Andy Cohen makes his way over to me.

"Hey Andy, this party is amazing.  Thank you for the invite," I say giving him a hug and a smile.

"Oh stop it, you know you're always invited to my parties babe, you're one of America's favorite faces, who by the way has to make an appearance on my show now that you're back in the spotlight" he laughs, shooting me a wink.  I had to hold back the urge to roll my eyes.

"You're too sweet, but I'm only back for the night." I wave off his statement as best I can, patting his arm.

"That's a real shame Sophia.  Don't let that dumb boy stop you from being the true star I know you are," he coos, wrapping an arm around my shoulders.  "I've got to go make my rounds sweetie and you've got to get a drink in that hand of yours," he states, turning me towards the bar before letting go of me.  My eyes can't help but notice a familiar head of purple hair.  No way.  "Go have some fun," he mutters into my ear before disappearing into the sea of people.

Third time's a charm right? I wonder to myself before taking a deep breath and walking over to him.  He's leaning against the bar, staring at the bar tender who keeps blatantly ignoring him and taking other's people's orders.  "Need some help?" I ask, squeezing in beside him.

He glances over to me briefly, smiling some when he does.  "Hey Sophia, are you stalking me?"

I laugh at his comment, trying to hide the redness in my cheeks.  "Actually, I was going to ask you that."  I look back over at the bartender and catch his attention with a quick wave and a smile.  "Hey, could I get a glass of champagne? And whatever he wants," I say gesturing over to Awsten who's just staring at me incredulously.

"Water please," he says, breaking eye contact with me to look at the bar tender who just scoffs at him.

"Water?" I question, furrowing my eyebrows together.  "Bold choice," I grin.

He lets out a slight chuckle, looking down at his hands in front of him.  "I'm a risk taker, what can I say?"

The bartender hands us our drinks and I take a small sip, looking over at Awsten.  He was attractive and his purple hair looked good against his lighter skin tone.  He peers up at me from his glass, noticing that I'm staring.  "Do you have two different colored eyes?" I ask, flicking my eyes back and forth between his.

He lets out a laugh at my bluntness and nods, "yeah, look!" he says excitedly, opening his eyes a little wider and leaning into me some.

I giggle more than okay with him closing the gap between us.  I stare at his eyes intently, noticing the slightly darker hue of his right eye.  "Your eyes sort of remind me of the ocean," I smile some as I see pupils dilate.

He leans back a little, a smile spread across his lips.  "You're very smooth," he admits honestly, laughing some as his cheeks slightly redden.  He grabs his glass off the counter and takes a quick drink.  "For the record, your eyes are a much prettier blue," he says with a nod.

I lean on the bar some, taking another sip of my drink as I bat my eyes at him playfully.  "You think so?"

"You got something in your eye?" he quips back, causing me to drop my act and begin giggling.  He smiles wide again as the silence falls between us, "you're pretty cool," he states matter of factly, seemingly happy with his discovery.

"Do you not think I was cool before this?" I ask, genuinely curious.

"No, I've always thought you were cool," he clarifies, "it's just been that most actresses are fake these days," he winces some at how that came off.  "Wow, uh I'm sorry, that was the worst way I could have said that.  You're great, I swear I think you're the coolest, you're talented, you're beautiful, I mean you're you, you know?" Awsten is full on rambling, trying to dig himself out of a hole and I can't help but smile.

My face is starting to hurt from smiling so much in one sitting.  I cover my mouth with my hand to try and hide my amusement as he continues.  He doesn't stop until he's completely out of breath.  "Can we pretend I stopped talking after I said you were cool?" he asks, red in the face from talking so fast.

"And ignore the fact that you said I was beautiful?" I grin as he scratches his head, now avoiding eye contact with me. "Absolutely not."

"Awsten!" I hear someone shout as we both jump apart.  Jawn comes plowing through the crowded bar and over to the two of us, camera still hanging from his neck.  "We thought you'd gotten lost," Jawn states, shaking his head at Awsten before turning to see me.  "Oh hey Sophia," he smiles and gives me a quick wave.

Awsten shakes his head some rolling his eyes at his friend.  "I've literally been gone ten minutes."

"I can let you get back to your party," I interject, "I've got to make my rounds anyways."

"Hey before you go," Jawn says, turning towards me.  "Can I actually get a picture of you and the band?"

"What he's asking is for you to give us free promo," Awsten says, nudging my side with his elbow.  "Which I think is a fantastically generous thing to do with your social media power," he states holding his hand over his heart.

Jawn laughs as he leads us away from the crowded bar to the tables near the edge of the club.  "Otto, Geoff, come here for a sec," he beckons.  The two are sitting at a booth talking back and forth with drinks in their hands.  They look up to see the three of us and walk over.  "Hey Sophia!" Geoff waves happily as he approaches.  I wave back with just as much excitement.

"Group photo," Jawn states, the four of us come together, Awsten's on one knee in front of me, his elbow resting on his knee and his chin resting on his hand.  God.  Otto and Geoff are on either side of me, smiling wide.  The camera goes off and we all relax before Awsten stops us.

"Wait wait, I need one on my phone, Travis will never believe this if I don't text him immediately," he insists handing the phone over to Jawn before hopping up and standing directly in front of me.  "This is the perfect picture," he says through laughter, his entire frame blocking me from view.  What a nerd.

"Funny," I fake laugh, pushing him to the side a little to pose for the camera a beaming smile on my face as Awsten looks down at me still laughing at his own joke.  Jawn takes the picture amid the chaos and nods with approval at his job well done.

He hands the phone back to Awsten and starts looking through his camera at his other photos.  "This is great!" Awsten shouts, laughing at his phone before turning it to face me.  It was a pretty great picture.  The two of us are in the center, both smiling extremely wide, while Geoff and Otto are on the outsides, with looks between a smile and confusion.  "Please tag me in this if you post it."

"I'll tag you in it, but you can't get a follow from me," he states seriously.  I stop smiling for a second and furrow my eyebrows.

"What? Why?"

"I don't just follow anybody," he says as if I should somehow know this.  Meanwhile I'm literally following thousands of people.

"How many people do you follow?" I ask, now completely curious about this.

"Like 350 maybe?" he says, thinking for a moment.

I stare at him for a moment, in awe.  "You're pretty cool," I laugh, quoting his statement from earlier.

He takes the compliment with an eye roll and a scoff, "I'm posting it right now."  With that he unlocks his phone and opens Instagram instantly.

I try not to stare at his phone too intently as he begins editing the photo, looking up at me briefly.  "What's your handle?" he chuckles before adding.  "God what a millennial thing to ask."

"It's 'thesophiamontgomery'," I say leaning in some to take another glance at the picture.

"Hey hey, look away, you'll see it soon enough," he says, shooing me away, turning his back to me.

"Sophia!" I hear Isabel shout over the noise.  "Sophia, we've got to get going.  There's another party I want to hit before we're done for the night," she says as she approaches me.

The smile I had been sporting almost all night slowly fell from my face.  "Another party?" I ask, trying my hardest not to sound like I was whining, even if I was.

Isabel looks behind me at Awsten who's turned around now, phone slid away.  "Again?" she whispers to me as if he couldn't tell she was talking about him.  Shaking her head some she sighs, "say goodbye to your friends, we have to go," and just like that she's gone again, holding her hand in the air wiggling her fingers around to indicate I had exactly 5 minutes to say my goodbyes.

I turn around to face Awsten who's giving me an understanding look.  "If I follow you on twitter, will you at least consider giving me a follow back?" I ask, as his eyes light up.

He nods, "Absolutely."

Before I know what's come over me, I wrap my arms around him and give him a quick hug.  "It was really great meeting you," I smile as I pull away.

"You too," his cheeks are still flushed pink and I can't help but smile.

I give a small wave to his bandmates and Jawn who wave back.  "Goodnight Awsten," I say, tucking some hair behind my ear as I turn and walk back into the crowd of people, towards the exit.

Chapter Three X

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This was a long one, but it was also super Awsten heavy so you’re welcome.  This story can also be found on wattpad if that’s more your scene for fic.  Also I’m picturing Sophia as Barbara Palvin, but you’re welcome to picture her however you please.  This story will eventually have some social media stuff and I needed someone, you know?  Anyways, I hope you enjoy and I’ll see you with another chapter in a week.

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I was just thinking and I came up with a question (even tho you're doing an ask game rn if you wanna save it till later that's cool) but what are everyone's favorite tv shows? I know zakk and Lucas like game of thrones, and awsten likes gravity falls.

no, i can do it now! questions are welcome at any time; you know that <3 

i’ve done these tv ones before but i can never find them so if there are inconsistencies in my answers im sorry lol 

ashton (starting with ash!! i just know the answer to his best lol) loooooves reality cooking shows. hell’s kitchen, the great british bake-off, chopped, worst cooks in america, baking championship, kitchen nightmares, etc etc etc. he also really likes documentaries, particularly if they’re about conspiracies. 

awsten likes cartoons, yeah! he’s not into the raunchy ones - he only goes about as far into the “adult” cartoon world as bob’s burgers and otherwise sticks to kid stuff. he doesn’t realize this, but it’s comforting to him. a lot of the humor is also on par with his humor lol. cheesy stuff, stupid stuff, puns, the occasional fart joke, etc. 

geoff watches documentaries but about real people and historical events. he also watches the news sometimes, but he’d rather read it in the paper. 

jawn grew up watching a lot of soap operas with his mom so he’s sick of those but he’ll turn them on every once in a while. normally, he likes “gritty” shows like they’d run on hbo or showtime where they swear a lot and shoot each other in the face and have a lot of nudity and cheating and sex scenes. the first show popping into my head for him right now is called mr. mercedes. i’ve only seen the first season but i think he’d like it. it’s intense and violent and weird, and there’s a mystery element, too. 

lucas and zakk definitely love game of thrones, yes! zakk likes shows like parks and rec and schitt’s creek, too. lucas is watching got or sports and that’s it. 

travis likes kids shows, and that’s all he watches. it’s good, because it catches him up on a lot of what he missed learning about. sesame street is a good one for him. and also for benny! t loves winnie the pooh the most, though. they don’t get a lot of tv time, but they don’t mind. they’d rather be playing.