#GOD THIS WAS SUPER RAMBLY. BUT TYSM YES THIS IDEA IS GIVING ME BRAINROT TO THE NTH DEGREE

[sandificatedman]

GOD the idea they weren't close pre-death. Like sure they had a special connection but it wasn't anywhere near what it's like now in canon. They just kinda acknowledged their souls were twinned and just went about their lives not thinking much of it- Then Despair dies, and suddenly Desire feels this indescribable feeling of *emptiness* Like their very heart has been ripped from their chest. And it lingers even after Despair 2.0 is born, A heavy guilt from not appreciating their first twin enough, For not understanding just how special their bond really was. And the knowledge can Never live through that again.

AAAA!!! you are in my head cultivating new species of Brain Worms about these characters. I’m going to explode now :

LIKE YES!! YES EXACTLY!!! Because we’re given so little in the comics about How and Why Despair was killed, the process, the Before, etc, there’s so much ROOM for interpretation, and I personally LOVE the idea that they weren’t as close pre-death.

The whole thing becomes even sadder when I think about how Despair was THE FIRST of the Endless to die.

Desire is losing their twin, the sibling they’ve worked the most with, the sibling who is literally perpendicular to Desire’s role in the universe. A sibling they were somehow so distant to, despite everything. AND ON TOP OF IT ALL, Desire (and the rest of the Endless) are having to grapple with the very first death of one of their own, ever.

The fact that they’re TWINS is what gets me the worst. Not just siblings, but specifically twins. Their roles are symbiotic, they were created together and work in tandem. One was not MEANT to exist without the other.

SORRY IM RAMBLING A BIT BUT JUST. YEAH. GOD. FUCK. O U C H.