#GHOOODDDD UR POINT ABT LUNAR STAYING AND THATS JUST WHAT LEADS TO LUNARA. AAUGGHHHH YOURE LITERALLY RIGHT FUCK EVERYTHINGGGGG

[starheirxero]

Firstly, I am glad you enjoy my silly little words! :D And you are really, really fucking cool!! I love seeing everything you post, from thoughts and rambles to even just the things you reblog, and what you say about them in the tags!! I am eating it all up-

As for the Laes episode…I AM GOING SO FUCKING INSANE- IF I COULD, I WOULD RUN UP MY WALLS AND TOSS MY PHONE AROUND LIKE A CHEW TOY-

THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS SUCH A FUCKED UP MESS- IT IS SO TOXIC, IT IS SO TRAGIC, IT IS MY FAVORITE THING- EVERYTHING INVOLVING THESE TWO TOGETHER MAKES ME SCREECH IN EXCITEMENT-

WHERE THE HELL DO I EVEN BEGIN??! WHERE CAN I BEGIN??? THERE'S SO MUCH GROUND TO COVER!!!

For one, Lunar sought out the conversation!!! They didn't have to, they could've simply walked away, yet they saw him and called out his name, asking him what he's doing with nothing but curiosity! Insisting on talking to him even! There was no fear, no hesitation even! WHAT IF A PART OF THEM KNOWS, THAT ECLIPSE COULD'VE BEEN SOLAR- WHAT IF THAT REALIZATION WAS WHAT MADE THEM REACH OUT, WHAT TOOK AWAY THEIR FEAR-

They did not fall for his taunts either- They did not get angry, only showing exasperation- They are so used to this, so familiar with this sharade, now that the terror is gone- DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW PHYSICALLY ILL THIS MAKES ME/POS

LUNAR TRYING TO UNDERSTAND WHAT HE'S DOING, ECLIPSE TELLING THEM, THEIR "SMALL MIND" WOULD NOT UNDERSTAND, LUNAR ASKING HIM HOW MANY VOLTS ARE IN A LIGHTING BOLT- Jesus christ, there's something so tragically desperate in there, even though I might just read too much into it- Eclipse always called them an idiot, always called them stupid and small minded- It was his go-to insult- And here Lunar is, trying to prove that they are smart enough to understand, trying to get him to see it, to see them- Please, I can't-

The way Eclipse keeps calling himself a copy- Everytime he comes back, he feels like less- He sees himself as less everytime, to the point of refusing to see himself as the "real Eclipse" - Lunar told him, that he is a real person, yet he refuses to hear it- THEY CAN'T JUST DO THAT, OW-

THE FACT, THAT LUNAR TOLD ECLIPSE FACE TO FACE THAT THEY ARE TERRIFIED OF HIM, THAT HE TAKES THEM BACK TO THE TIME, IN WHICH LUNAR WAS A TOOL- I cannot tell you, how emotional this makes me! Lunar was created as a brother, with the knowledge of being a tool. with the knowledge, that they are disposable, if they mess up, something they told old Moon-

They lived with the knowledge, that their brother, who they were made to love, didn't love them back, didn't care- Monty told Eclipse he'd get the star, if he killed Lunar, Eclipse not even hesitating, and then they tried to tell them, Eclipse didn't care- Except they knew. They knew he didn't, they've always known, but what else did they have?

They tried to do the show in hopes of making them happy, of fixing things. Sun and Moon, who used to be so far apart, grew closer through their show, even making Moon see his faults. So why should this be different? They thought, Eclipse would finally be their brother, just like they had been his. They thought, they could finally be happy, finally have everything they wanted.

Except they didn't. The thing that was meant to bring them closer broke them apart completely. Eclipse became more irritated, which made him drop his mask faster, which made him snap. And of course Lunar snapped back, until eventually, things spiraled out of control, until Eclipse went too far, and pushed Lunar over the edge, causing them to leave.

Eclipse called them a "science experiment gone rouge", and Lunar accepted that, because they know. It's all they've ever been to him, they are well aware of that fact. Their quiet acceptance of it is honestly heartbreaking.

And of course their acceptance causes Eclipse to snap, causes him to get defensive! He doesn't understand. He thinks, everyone is out to get him. He is so used to that, to being hated and despised, partially just for existing. The idea, of someone just sitting down and talking to him, trying to understand his perspective and telling him theirs is such an abstract concept to him!

And the there's Lunar's apology. They don't forgive him, because he hasn't earned it yet, but neither do they blame him. They actively acknowledge their own mistakes, apologizing for breaking his trust, and not doing what they were told, because there must've been a reason for it. Even trying to explain to him why they went against it, telling him their thought process!

Yet all this only causes more confusion for Eclipse, so he puts the blame on them, actively trying to make them snap, to lash out! Yet they don't fall for it, not anymore. They can see his actions for what they are now, because they have done the same thing! They've shouted at him before too, trying to get a reaction out of him!

AND THE THERE'S A FUCKING LINE THAT BROKE MY HEART- Lunar telling Eclipse, that he will probably hate them till the day they both die. And they accept it. They simply accept it, because there's nothing they can do, and they know that. If he didn't love them before, he probably never will. And the fact that he hasn't harmed them, hasn't lashed out yet, proves that he either wants something, or doesn't care anymore.

In their eyes, Eclipse will only ever bring harm upon them. In their eyes, the only reasons he wouldn't is, so he can either use them, or because he doesn't care even the tiniest bit about them, not even enough to hate them.

But there's also this line: " I would love to do nothing more than condemn you" He would love to, but he doesn't. Because I think he can't. And it is breaking me-

"I didn't act in self-defense. I acted the way, you did to me" Lunar realized, what happened- They realized, that they fell into the cycle of abuse, and now they are determined to break it- They won't be like him, they refuse- CAN YOU HEAR MY HEART BREAKING YET-

Then there's Eclipse's pride- And you already said it, but BY GOD- He is only proud of them, when they act like him. He is only proud of them, when they do exactly what he wants them to do. He was only proud of them, because they continued this dance of anger and hatred the two have found themselves in…

But the one thing that really got me was Lunar's question. They wonder, why they were ever scared of him, even seeming amused by it- It's so symbolic! It feels as though they grew from a child who saw a monster, to an adult seeing only a man in disguise! Even boldy asking him, if will hit them again.

And he doesn't. He acts like he "doesn't have time for that", but I think he doesn't want to.

And so Lunar watches him from afar, for just a moment, thinking he might have changed this time.

I AM GOING SO FUCKING INSANE, I CANNOT- I LOVE THIS SO MUCH- I WILL NEVER RECOVER FROM THIS-

I do want to point something out though!

Something I realized, while reminiscing about the Lunar and Eclipse show.

The thing is, that things would've always turned out that way. Eclipse's heart has already hardened, he was pushed over the edge, before Lunar was even created. He learned long ago, that love will bring him nowhere, that it will only break him apart. So instead he learned to bite, to tear his teeth through the people around him, before they could hurt him. Things never could've ended differently. Sure, Lunar could've stayed, but besides how unhealthy this would've been, theres the high chance, they might've ended up like Lunara. Eclipse was lonely, so instead of actually getting rid of Lunar, he likely just would've reset them, creating a cycle of it happening again, and again, and again, likely turning Eclipse more irritated and violent in the process, until Lunar would've snapped. Just a bit of angst, to end it off-

-Stardust

YESYYEYSYEYSYYESS YOU GET IT YOU GET ITTTT!!!!!!!

THE WHOLE EPISODE WAS SO MANY LAYERS AND THE GROWTH AND THE TRAGEDGY DOWN TO ITS VERY CORE AND ITS SO AAOAUAGGGGHHHH

YOU SUMMED IT ALL UP PERFECTLY IT MAKES ME UNWELL!!!! Lunar has grown so much and admitted so many things I truly didn't know if they'd ever admit out loud AND THEY EVEN SAID THE HEAVIER STUFF TO ECLIPSE'S FACE TOO!!!!!

THAT THEY WERE SCARED AND THEY DID BETRAY HIS TRUST AND THEY THOUGHT THE SHOW WOULD HELP AND THEY'LL LIKELY HATE HIM FOREVER AND THEY SAID IT ALL WITHOUT ANY SHAME DESPITE HOW MANY TIMES ECLIPSE TRIED TO TEAR THEM DOWN AAUAAHAGGGGGHHHHHH

AND ECLIPSE GHOD YEA ECLIPSE. I CAN'T EVENNN HIS WHOLE VIBE WAS SO TERRIBLY FASCINATING TO WATCH WHY IS HE LIKE THIS /POS

GRABS YOU BY THE SHOULDERS AND SHAKES YOU AROUND!!!!!!! THEY MAKE ME WANT TO SCREAAAAMMMMM AAUAGAGARRRERAAAAAA