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msdk-00 · 1 year

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god when i go into yearning after a failed romantic endeavour im scraping the walls howling at the moon coughing up hairballs like i'm grateful for the experience but the Aftermath of horrific feelings for months and months makes me wanna throw up. i can logically be like it never would've been forever for reason a b and c but still i see their face and wanna delete every social media ever and live in a monastery until i'm normal about them again

#GODDDDD #GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i just do not know how to deal with it cuz i don't wanna go thru the feelings for the millionth time and possibly cry for the tenth time #but also what else is my option. just listen to music and ignore it and hope the feelings go away with time?#GAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#GAHHHHHHH GAHHHHH GAHHHHRRGRHRHHH!!!!!!!#he never posts face pics his face is always obscured but now. i suffer.#anyways do i feel this way to this intensy because of insecurity and wishing to b a different person w a different life #even though i put up a wall with him and i didn't know him deeply he was always so kind and fun and gentle and mature #and on top of that so cute. like pick A struggle. why is there none #I MISS HIM i didn't just lose a romantic interest he was also my only friend besides my roommates in korea lol #i almost wish we never did anything romantic because at least then there's a chance we would still be casual friends and we would still #message occasionally #i wanna hear his voice i wanna know what he's up to and what he's thinking about #blegh #i liked him so much #self #ㅁㅅ

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