#Fuck I miss you

[at-the-end-you-fight-alone]

Was ist wenn ich dir sage das ich Dich will? Dich für immer in meinem Leben? Egal wie, Hauptsache du bist Teil davon.

[crystalclean4]

High on meth, i wore a tie for the first time in my life today..i still think about you…

[thescummanifesto]

i want HIM / he's all gone

[dead-girl-screaming]

Since you're gone, I've got freedom back.

I'm trying to enjoy my life.

Fucking here, fucking there.

But the truth is...

I fucking miss you so much...

[thesweetescapism]

Almost texted you a YT video. Forgot we weren’t speaking for a minute.

[loveeeofmine]

The words aren’t flowing tonight but I want you to know I thought of your arms. I wish my brain coupled the bad with the good. It’s stuck on you shuffling towards me in the dim light of our apartment offering me a hug. Im not sure if I accepted the hug but I’m regretting any that I missed. This hasn’t gotten easier.

[scarlettriot]

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[thoughtsnfeelingsofacloudedmind]

Bits and pieces of you everywhere.

Ouizi Mural, Chicago | Jenny Lam 

[at-the-end-you-fight-alone]

Würde alles geben um dich noch einmal zu spüren, deine Stimme nochmal zu hören.

[layton-heritage-posts]

DONALD TRUMP GOT SHOT AT!!!

Do you think Professor Layton took the shot or why are you sending me this???

[inlovewithadeadman]

There is an oddness to grief. A comfort and a distress that comes with numbness. Events that should be upsetting are merely objectively peculiar.

I’m sitting in a brewery drinking a golden ale that he would have ordered then ceded to me as it is too bitter for his palate. Ramble On is playing over the PA, a song he loved. All I want to do it tell him about this place I feel he would love.

Already a potentially tear jerking experience, I recall that the first place I ever saw his band play is nearby. I look to see if it is still open. Of course, it is not. A dive bar with just enough room for a 3 piece band, they did not survive the pandemic. A new place now occupies the space. I look for the address thinking I’d stop by and say good bye to a place integral to a sizable piece of my life thus far; and there it is.

The universe perversely foreshadowing my future, inly visible in hindsight. The street number. 6910.

The exact number of days from when we started dating to his death.

I feel like I should cry or be upset, but instead I’m numb. Comfortingly and upsettingly numb.

[alanaisalive]

Now that Eurovision is over, I want you all, especially the Americans, to take a good hard look at how the voting results turned out when people boycotted the event.

In the UK, the viewing figures were down about 2 million people compared to last year. Up to 2 million people made the conscious decision to not watch and not vote because of Israel's inclusion.

The final results of the public vote, Israel came in first place in the UK and got 12 points. Because the only people watching and voting were people who backed Israel or at least didn’t care one way or another.

This doesn't matter. It's a music contest. The boycott was still the right thing to do because it is just a show at the end of the day, and the viewing figures have more impact than the results.

But it is also a good object lesson to show you what happens if you boycott a vote over something that does matter. Choosing not to vote in, let's say, a presidential election will have similar results.

[deareric]

Hey, Eric. You’re probably thinking, “WTF, J. Why are you writing letters to me on Tumblr?” TBH, a medium told me too. I’ve been having a rough time dealing with your death. She told me it’s because I feel guilty because we were toxic, which is true but damn, the good times were worth it.

Today, I missed how much you scare anyone who puts me in a fucked up mood. A few hours ago, I lost my shit at the dog park because this husky peed on Peppa Ann. I bopped the dog on its nose with my umbrella. The lady who owns the dog watched it all happen and she didn’t even apologize, and my new dude M, didn’t do shit either.

I know if you were there, that woman would have left in tears. She would have been too traumatize to go back and probably would get goosebumps just driving passed it. I fucking miss how you would put the fear in people.

M thought I was ignoring him but I was just lost in thought of you. I left soon after when I saw that people weren’t closing the gate behind them at a dog park as if dogs aren’t going to wander out into the street. I didn’t even say goodbye to M.

He’s texting me now that he’s “sorry that happened”. And I’m not responding to him. I know I’m being unfair but I don’t want to talk to anyone who isn’t you right now.

[endusviolence]

Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

[thoughtsnfeelingsofacloudedmind]

All but forgotten what that feels like, to fill you up with that many butterflies.

You’ll always be my girl 😞

[lumplkinz]