#Fi x Parja

[nocturius8015ficore]

Parja and I 😁

Just being an happy couple. 🥰

Traditional ink, pentel brush and fine markers

Nocturius: I wasn't sure if I should post that one publicly as it might become a reference for Fi-enjoyers through the years. I still haven't fully decide how I imagine Parja.. I might change her appearance eventually. I kinda want her to look a bit Scandinavian/Saame. Resilient people living in harsh condition very wintery biome.

What see saw from The Clone Wars and Rebels about native Mandalorian was also in my thought process. But anyone can be Mandalorian. Not just white-blond/ginger folks from the TCW, or east-Asian looking ones like Sabine.

In any case, her ethnicity is not that much relevant. Parja is a strong tough woman. She love hard and hate hard. I want her design to reflect her personality. I've notice she is not super popular among the RC fans, but it's Fi's wife, and I do liked the story about her give so much attention, positivity and care as he could totally have been a vegetable to rest of his life.

PS: I'm totally cool with people shipping Fi differently in their Alternate Universe. Here on Fi-Core tho, is as close a possible as the original ''canon'' material.

[mandalorianhistorian]

Mandalorian couple’s

Boba fett x sintas vel imperial era

Etain x darman republic era

Bevin x medrit (fanart no official art :( ) legacy of the force after the vong war

Mirta Gev x ghes orade legacy of the force

koblus sornell X Haarm old republic era mandalorian wars

besany X ordo republic era (fanart)

Parja X fi republic era (fanart)

Laseema x Atin republic era (fanart)

I may have forgotten some so pls tell me if I have

[thesummerstorms]

But like... Etain and Dar have Kad. And in my Etain lives verse, they also have Koa and Scout. And in the verse with Rhedian, they also potentially have adopted kids although I don't know anything more specific than that.

But so, like, that's already 1- to 3 + X kids.

Moving down the line with Omega... I am actually kind of in the boat of "maybe Laseema and Atin don't WANT kids, Karen" just because I am so damn frustrated with the constant narration boo hooing that they can't have them. While also being all about everyone having babies. So. I'm not giving Atin any kids. Your headcanon can disagree if you choose.

Fi on the other hand I see as really wanting kids, just based on his interactions with Kad. I don't see him having them with Parja because they have all sorts of unhealthy stuff in canon, but someone some day. Maybe a boyfriend? Idk, let's just say Fi has at least 3 kids.

For Niner.... Listen, I know that it's more "normal" on average to want kids than not, especially as a Mandalorian, but as an aro/ace person who also reads Niner as aro/ace it's really important to me that Niner be complete without kids? Like, I'm way more willing to compromise on Atin and Laseema than Niner. So. No kids for Niner.

Corr... I don't know, honestly. Maybe say he adopts at least one kid, just to be on the safe side. 1 + Y kids for Corr?

That puts us on the Nulls next.

Gena has Ordo and Besany with one daughter, so we're gonna go 1 for them because Gena knows the most about Ordo.

I don't know where to put the rest of the Nulls on this spectrum though???? There are five of them left, but I haven't thought through their likely futures or relationships in that kind of depth.

And I'm gonna include Levet here because listen, he's adopted in as much as anyone. Levet is mentioned as late in the timeline as Legacy of the Force as still having a big farm bordering Beviin's and prone to loud, raucous gatherings with lots of drinking. So just based on that, I'm gonna say he had at least like four kids. It's a big farm and Mandalorians are prone to adopting if nothing else. And they definitely count as Kad's cousins.

You also have the potential of Rav's Vevut squad having families, but they aren't developed enough as characters for me to make guesses on.

Not including Delta here either as idk if Delta would consider themselves "part of the family" much less what their futures would look like, but I'm open to suggestions.

Did I miss anyone?

(also I know I left a lot of people blank, but (y+1) + (x+3) + 1 + 3 + 4 is already x+y+12 guys.)

[izzyovercoffee]

I’m having such a difficult time putting an Atin/Laseema playlist together ... B(

and a Fi/Parja one?

I try to keep ship playlists as different as possible, bc every relationship has their own distinct ... idk, melody? that should be a poetic union of the people involved, but that also means figuring out how x character sounds musically to me, and this is so time consuming B’)

[nocturius8015ficore]

Fanfiction #6: Of All the Things I've Lost

Nocturius: 6th Republic Commando fanfiction!

This story is a very intimate and a bit experimental one about Fi's slow recovery from his brain injury. It also talk about his early relationship with Parja. The format is 30 ''datapad entries'' spread on about 200 days, so I suggest you to read it SLOWLY and take the time to imagine and feel the gaps in your head.

Enjoy!

I'M ALSO ON Ao3! -> click HERE

Title: Of All the Things I've Lost

Fandom: Star Wars Republic Commando books by Karen Traviss

Characters: Fi Skirata, Parja Bralor, Bardan Jusik

Rating: Teens and up. **Sensible topic (depression/suicidal thoughts)**

Topic: Fi's brain injury, physical and psychological recovery, memory loss, love

Pitch: To help Fi getting better, Parja told Fi to keep a personal journal. It was one of his hardest mission.

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Of all the things I've lost by Fi-Core/Nocturius Between True Colors and Order 66 Around 550 to 750 days after the battle of Geonosis Kyrimorut, Mandalore -------------------------------

Fi’s datapad journal entry #001 Parja tol me to keep jornal. Feel dubm doin i. Hansss messy & shaky. Diffikultt to ritwe. Fiefk

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#002 Wgo is Parja? Missin my vode. ---

#003 Not sure wher i am. Where every1??? I scrared ---

#004 Knees hurt, I fell too ofte toda y ---

#005 Food good, happy belly, happi Fy!

--- #006 Parja makes me walk agan today. She kind & patient. She say I progess ---

#007 Bard’ika came today. Healing T-time! I wish I could takl to Dar about the bb… I miss my vode. I wan a to go home ---

#008 I’m so lost. Dont even know wehre home is. Where is Niner? Are they dead?! ---

#009 Parja is cute ❤ Hope she wont read that. oh well ---

#010 shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, osik, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, shab, copy-paste is my new friend! 😃

--- #011 I feel like osik. Im still unabll to put clothes by myself. All the Nulls are gone. I’m alonr with Parja. She is the 1 who helps me with that now. It's embarrasssing. Not the idea I had of a woman seeing my shebs for the first time… ---

#012 My legs hurt so much. I tried to walk by myself today. Feeling like I only have bones and no meat. Parja shaved me. I’m ugly as shab, way too skinny cheeks. At least I have nice hair growing back. Love when she brushes it. I might keep them long. 😝 ---

#013 Parja showed me how to cook uj cakes. I barely participated this time but she made me lick the spatula.😋 She said she will teach me bits by bits. It’s supposed to be good for me to have small goals like that. Not only work on physical or mental improvement but more ‘’day-to-day’’ and natural things. It’s the Mando way of life, she said. It was wonderful and fun. The freshly baked cakes are so tasty.🤤 Nothing like the ones Kal’buir smuggled on Kamino. ---

#014 I wish I was able to speak full sentences. Writing is getting easier if I take my time. It’s just frustrating, I sound like an idiot or a small child. My mind is getting clearer but I know I forget a lot. I suppose it’s good I know I do. I really hope I’ll continue to get better but my expectations are low. I’m supposed to be dead, they say.

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#015 I work very hard to get better at coordination. Still can’t take a shower by myself. It’s so embarrassing. It would be simpler if it was a droid doing it but they aren't as soft and delicate as her. I like her touching me, but it’s so wrong. I try to keep my thoughts straight, she is only taking care of me. I’m grateful she never made any comment about… shab. Stuff going on. I can’t help it. It’s all pretty messed up. ---

#016 Memory is a weird thingy, I remember my vode from Teroch squad like it was yesterday but I don’t remember WHAT I ate yesterday. My stomach does tho. Oh dear, that was way too spicy hot…

--- #017 Bard’ika healing therapy is literally a miracle I swear. I’ll never say anything bad about Jedi. Ever.

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#018 I spilled a full bowl of blue milk and cereal on Parja. So fierfek ashamed and angry about myself. Hate everything, hate myself, hate the shab of all. I never wanted to blow up something that hard in my life. A big ball of explosion would end all of this.

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#019 Fierfek. I don’t remember why I was sooo angry. Get a grip, trooper. It’s only wasted food. She’s not even mad at me. I want a hug right now, but no one is there except the nurse droid. I feel so lonely.

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#020 What is a soldier who can’t walk by himself? I’m useless. Actually I don’t want to fight. I just want people to leave me alone, I’m a burden. I don’t want to be alone really. I don’t know what I want. My mind so foggy. Kal’buir say I probably have some PTSD. I don’t know how to handle this.

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#021 The way she smiles at me. I wish I could stand up and hug her tight, but I can’t hold a shabla spoon without dropping my food. Could she truly loves me one day? Does she see me as a man? ‘Cause I can’t stop thinking about her in an un-jedi-ly way. My chest hurts.

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#022 Why my thoughts doesn’t align with my mouth? I’m supposed to be Fi-big-mouth-Skirata. More like Fi-big-never-able-to-finish-his-sentences-Di’kut. I don’t mind about my legs, I just want to be able to talk properly and not be so shabla lost all the time. I wish she could have seen me in my prime, I dunno. What is left of me anyway…

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#023 First 4 meters with no help. Parja kissed me on the cheek to congratulate me. Feel like osik, but I got a kiss. 😃😃😃

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#024 I can’t tell her how I feel. She will never want me. I’m a wreck. Stay focus trooper, the day you will be able to walk and dress yourself alone, she’ll be gone. She doesn't love you, she’s your nurse. That’s it. I wouldn't choose myself either. I can’t even make jokes. Maybe they should have left me behind. That healing process is so slow. I fear I’ll only get worse from here. My time is so short, I don’t have a lot of it ahead. What if the day I’m ok, I'm just too old for anything? She will move on and find another poor soul to fix.

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#025 Love beskar’gam. I look good in it, a cool skirt around my shebs and that spear. That will do it. Plus, I can hide everything I feel under the bucket like the good ol’ days.

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#026 Sometimes, I think of something clever, then laugh at my own jokes. Then I forget the so-called joke and don’t remember why that was funny in the first place. I don’t care too much about looking like a crazy lad. I’m just sad to not have been able to share it and be the only one laughing.

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#027 I can’t live like this. It’s not a life. What am I supposed to be?

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#028 I don’t remember how but this is the BEST DAY of my life. She kissed me. A real. Lovers. Kiss. On my fierfek lips. Oyaaaaaa it feels sooooooo good. ☺️☺️

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#029 The shab, Fi from yesterday, you drank 2 bottles of tihaar instead of water or had a funky dream? Won’t happen anytime soon…

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#030 WASNT A DREAM. SHE KISSED ME AGAIN. KANDOSIIIIIIIIIII! ❤️❤️ I love you Parja. You are my cyar’ika. I need to remember that. Fi, my boy Fi, you have a girl. Read that again and again. This is not a drill. Parja is your GIRLFRIEND. I love you I love you I love you.

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End

Fi-Core/Nocturius 5th of July 2024

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[nocturius8015ficore]

**UPDATED VERSION September 21**

Nocturius: Oh? What is it? A fanfiction on tumblr, how quaint!! :O

I did that one for the 1 month anniversary of my Fi-Core facebook page. I was pleasantly surprise to have the beginning of a community and nice interactions with other -Core pages. English is my second language (after French) so I was very insecure about writing actual fanfiction but after a bit of RP with some of my followers, I decide to try it anyway. It's just fanfictions, not a 5000$ writing contest...

So, I wanted to celebrate that anniversary with my followers, the story is a little bit 4th wall-breaking meta but roughly, it's just a sweet moment between Parja and Fi.

PS: The ''comlink party'' was just a Fi-Core facebook page thingy of us sharing ''glimmik music'' posts and talking osik around it. XD

tagging: @the-rain-on-kamino (tell me folks if you want me to tag you in the next one!)

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Fandom: Star Wars Republic Commando books by Karen Traviss

Characters: Fi Skirata and Parja

Rating: Family-friendly ** Fairly accessible to people who don't know RepCom **

Topic: Slice of life, anxiety, romance

Pitch: Fi is missing her wife after a few weeks of busy work. He fear she might be losing interest about their relationship.

It has been weeks since Parja got back from town. She has been busy at her workshop while Fi stayed with the aliit.

‘’ I should have gone with her. ‘’ said Fi to himself.

During winter, there wasn’t a lot of back and forth between locations. Clan Skirata lived in a hidden base called Kyrimorut. This was his home now. A real home. With family and friends. Everything Fi’s ever had dreamt for.

Well, almost. Niner, Darman and Delta squad were still stuck as Imperial Commandos. Still no news of Sev.

Fi was getting nervous, Parja was about to come back in any minute. He made an effort to look his best. Freshly shaved, tooth brushed, combed his mid-long haircut. However, his nervousness turned into actual anxiety.

‘’ Fierfek…What if she is getting bored of me already? ‘’

Parja and him were married since nearly the day the Republic turned into the Empire. But he was still injured back then. Nowadays, he technically didn’t need her to nurse him anymore. Getting better gave him very mixed feelings though. She used to take care of him like a devoted mom when he was in his worst state. Unable to walk, talk nor feed himself. It wasn’t the kind of love story he had imagined for himself. He was torn between his longing for attention and his wish to be fit for her. Be seen as a real man. He didn’t want pity-love, but would have taken it anyway. Clones usually weren’t that lucky.

Then she arrived. In full Mandalorian armor like most Mandalorian women did it for traveling. Fi looked at her and didn’t even try to hide his smile.

‘’ Don’t stand like this, help me with the grocerie’s bags! ‘’ she said, mildly amused, taking off her helmet.

‘’ Yes ma’am! ‘’

He was distracted by the sight of her thick braids and the cute kama around her thighs but snapped out his mind to help her.

‘’ What have you done while I was gone? ‘’

‘’ I’m… I’ve been useless. I only wrote and shared memes on my datapad... ‘’

‘’ No need to worry about it, that’s ok. Did you have fun? Did you make any new friends? ‘’

‘’  Mhh, yes actually! ‘’ said Fi, grinning. ‘’ I didn’t expect much at first, but the Facebook Star Wars coremunity is quite nice! I met other clones, kept in touch with Atin and Scorch on their -Core-pages.  Met sweet civilians like Jack, Amanda and Lacy who liked my post daily. I even met friendly Imperials! One of them was kind enough to share a comicbook with us. Another one sent us a barrel of spotchka and did a thingy with my avatar's face and his as a token of friendship.’’

‘’ That’s great! I couldn't be there for your comlink private party you threw the other day, but I brought something for you and your friends. Look in the box.‘’

Fi looked on the table and saw a big white box which smelled very nice.

‘’…Is that what I think it is? ‘’

‘’ Yep. Uj cakes with cinnamon and honey! You may share it with all your followers and the ones who are yet to come when they read that fic.‘’

She took one of the cakes, took a bite and fed the rest playfully to her overjoyed husband. Then she kissed him on the nose.

‘’ Happy 1 month anniversary to your Fi-Core page! ‘’

He kissed her on the forehead as she hugged him. His heartbeats went even faster when he felt her fingers unstrapping his armor plates.

‘’ ...and let’s have that private party! ‘’ she whispered to his ear.''

Fi-Core/Nocturius 5th of February 2024/ updated 21 September

[nocturius8015ficore]

Yes ma'am! On it ma'am! Happy to serve!

[nocturius8015ficore]

That's father's day and... well, I would like so much to be a buir one day. :'-)

[nocturius8015ficore]

**UPDATED VERSION September 24**

Nocturius: My second fanfiction about Fi and Parja. That one is a bit on a more serious tone, but it's full of sweetness. Enjoy. ^^

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Fandom: Star Wars Republic Commando books by Karen Traviss

Characters: Fi Skirata and Parja

Rating: Family-friendly ** Fairly accessible to people who don’t know RepCom **

Topic: Slice of life, dissociative disorder, anxiety, romance

Pitch: Parja found Fi alone outside and he looked like he is in a strange mood.

That was a cloudy day at Kyrimorut. Fi was outside, sitting on a low cobblestone wall. His eyes was unfocused, deep in his thoughts.

‘‘There you are, cyar’ika!’’ said his wife Parja, finally finding him. ‘’Why didn't you tell anyone you were there?’’

‘’So, do I need paperworks to leave my own house? A chaperone?’’ he said with a smirk, turning himself in his clown-clone-mode in a blink.

‘’You didn’t answer my messages. I was worried.’’

‘’I’m sorry about it… I think I left it somewhere.’’ his eyes were glazing again.

Parja looked at him, the datapad was next to him on the wall, very obvious. There was even the tiny bleeping light of unread notifications. She took it in her hands and sat by his side.

‘’It doesn’t matter, I’m here now.’’

‘’Yeah…’’

She put an arm around his waist.

‘’What is going on, Fi? You look lost.’’

‘’I’m fine.’’

‘’I know you better than that, sweety.’’ she smiled at him and held his hand.

He slowly looked down at their entangled hands and tilted his head to touch hers.

‘’You are right, I'm not fine. I’m worried. Full of doubts and fears.’’

‘’About what? The Empire?’’

‘’I’m not sure. My purpose here, my short life, you and me. Kad. Everything.’’

‘’If it’s everything, that only means you can’t do it all by yourself then. We are here, we can help.’’

‘’There is not much I can do. People already did so much for me, I don’t want to be a burden anymore. Especially not for you. I'm still young but I feel I’m in debt. What will it be in 10 years, when I’ll be an old man? ‘’

‘’In 10 years, you won’t be THAT old, even by clones standards, so you have enough to look forward to.’’

‘’What if I have nothing more to offer? I’m no longer a fighter, I’m half of the funny man I was…’’

‘’That’s not true. It’s not because you acknowledge other parts of yourself that mean you are less funny. You always had unrealistic expectations about how you should present yourself to the world. Yes, you tell less jokes, but it’s only because life IS hard. Negative emotions are important too. You have been through more osik’la than I could even imagine, Fi.’’

‘’We got a pretty messed up mind being trained by aiwas-baits. When you are expected to be over 97% accuracy shooting on target. More for a sniper like me. Displaying any weakness and you’re ‘’reconditioned’’. My squad, they counted on me. I had to be hard on myself my whole life to survive.’’

‘’Maybe it’s time for you to learn how to live instead of only surviving.’’

‘’I guess you are right…’’

Fi leaned toward his lover and let his lips touch hers. He let himself be absorbed by the softness of the moment, his eyes closed.

‘’Parja… you are everything.’’ he said in a breath before kissing her neck.’’

‘’Kar’tayl gar darasuum, time will slow for us I promise. Be with me, be in the moment.‘’

Fi-Core/Nocturius 5th of March 2024 / Updated 24th of September

[nocturius8015ficore]

I'm just a bit enthusiastic! 😁😁😁😁😁and horny

Shab, I love my wife! 🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵

[nocturius8015ficore]

[nocturius8015ficore]

CORR!! WE NEED TO TALK!!!

Oh dear, I'm so sorry my dear followers, that's what you got when you let someone TRAINED by the Nulls, exposed to your stuff when you go do the 'freshers.

5.

Fierfek,

Minutes.

Just dropping this here. ∼

[nocturius8015ficore]

Nocturius: Hello! I decided to update my fanfictions in a more convenient format. I wasn't aware what I was doing was not easy to read on a phone. Still a beginner on Tumblr! My bad. But hey, i'm happy to learn and improve. So I will reblog those already published.

**UPDATED VERSION September 21**

Nocturius: Oh? What is it? A fanfiction on tumblr, how quaint!! :O

I did that one for the 1 month anniversary of my Fi-Core facebook page. I was pleasantly surprise to have the beginning of a community and nice interactions with other -Core pages. English is my second language (after French) so I was very insecure about writing actual fanfiction but after a bit of RP with some of my followers, I decide to try it anyway. It's just fanfictions, not a 5000$ writing contest...

So, I wanted to celebrate that anniversary with my followers, the story is a little bit 4th wall-breaking meta but roughly, it's just a sweet moment between Parja and Fi.

PS: The ''comlink party'' was just a Fi-Core facebook page thingy of us sharing ''glimmik music'' posts and talking osik around it. XD

tagging: @the-rain-on-kamino (tell me folks if you want me to tag you in the next one!)

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Fandom: Star Wars Republic Commando books by Karen Traviss

Characters: Fi Skirata and Parja

Rating: Family-friendly ** Fairly accessible to people who don't know RepCom **

Topic: Slice of life, anxiety, romance

Pitch: Fi is missing her wife after a few weeks of busy work. He fear she might be losing interest about their relationship.

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It has been weeks since Parja got back from town. She has been busy at her workshop while Fi stayed with the aliit.

‘’ I should have gone with her. ‘’ said Fi to himself.

During winter, there wasn’t a lot of back and forth between locations. Clan Skirata lived in a hidden base called Kyrimorut. This was his home now. A real home. With family and friends. Everything Fi’s ever had dreamt for.

Well, almost. Niner, Darman and Delta squad were still stuck as Imperial Commandos. Still no news of Sev.

Fi was getting nervous, Parja was about to come back in any minute. He made an effort to look his best. Freshly shaved, tooth brushed, combed his mid-long haircut. However, his nervousness turned into actual anxiety.

‘’ Fierfek…What if she is getting bored of me already? ‘’

Parja and him were married since nearly the day the Republic turned into the Empire. But he was still injured back then. Nowadays, he technically didn’t need her to nurse him anymore. Getting better gave him very mixed feelings though. She used to take care of him like a devoted mom when he was in his worst state. Unable to walk, talk nor feed himself. It wasn’t the kind of love story he had imagined for himself. He was torn between his longing for attention and his wish to be fit for her. Be seen as a real man. He didn’t want pity-love, but would have taken it anyway. Clones usually weren’t that lucky.

Then she arrived. In full Mandalorian armor like most Mandalorian women did it for traveling. Fi looked at her and didn’t even try to hide his smile.

‘’ Don’t stand like this, help me with the grocerie’s bags! ‘’ she said, mildly amused, taking off her helmet.

‘’ Yes ma’am! ‘’

He was distracted by the sight of her thick braids and the cute kama around her thighs but snapped out his mind to help her.

‘’ What have you done while I was gone? ‘’

‘’ I’m… I’ve been useless. I only wrote and shared memes on my datapad... ‘’

‘’ No need to worry about it, that’s ok. Did you have fun? Did you make any new friends? ‘’

‘’  Mhh, yes actually! ‘’ said Fi, grinning. ‘’ I didn’t expect much at first, but the Facebook Star Wars coremunity is quite nice! I met other clones, kept in touch with Atin and Scorch on their -Core-pages.  Met sweet civilians like Jack, Amanda and Lacy who liked my post daily. I even met friendly Imperials! One of them was kind enough to share a comicbook with us. Another one sent us a barrel of spotchka and did a thingy with my avatar's face and his as a token of friendship.’’

‘’ That’s great! I couldn't be there for your comlink private party you threw the other day, but I brought something for you and your friends. Look in the box.‘’

Fi looked on the table and saw a big white box which smelled very nice.

‘’…Is that what I think it is? ‘’

‘’ Yep. Uj cakes with cinnamon and honey! You may share it with all your followers and the ones who are yet to come when they read that fic.‘’

She took one of the cakes, took a bite and fed the rest playfully to her overjoyed husband. Then she kissed him on the nose.

‘’ Happy 1 month anniversary to your Fi-Core page! ‘’

He kissed her on the forehead as she hugged him. His heartbeats went even faster when he felt her fingers unstrapping his armor plates.

‘’ ...and let’s have that private party! ‘’ she whispered to his ear.''

Fi-Core/Nocturius 5th of February 2024/ updated 21 September

[nocturius8015ficore]

More readable version! 🫡

**UPDATED VERSION September 24**

Nocturius: My second fanfiction about Fi and Parja. That one is a bit on a more serious tone, but it's full of sweetness. Enjoy. ^^

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Fandom: Star Wars Republic Commando books by Karen Traviss

Characters: Fi Skirata and Parja

Rating: Family-friendly ** Fairly accessible to people who don’t know RepCom **

Topic: Slice of life, dissociative disorder, anxiety, romance

Pitch: Parja found Fi alone outside and he looked like he is in a strange mood.

That was a cloudy day at Kyrimorut. Fi was outside, sitting on a low cobblestone wall. His eyes was unfocused, deep in his thoughts.

‘‘There you are, cyar’ika!’’ said his wife Parja, finally finding him. ‘’Why didn't you tell anyone you were there?’’

‘’So, do I need paperworks to leave my own house? A chaperone?’’ he said with a smirk, turning himself in his clown-clone-mode in a blink.

‘’You didn’t answer my messages. I was worried.’’

‘’I’m sorry about it… I think I left it somewhere.’’ his eyes were glazing again.

Parja looked at him, the datapad was next to him on the wall, very obvious. There was even the tiny bleeping light of unread notifications. She took it in her hands and sat by his side.

‘’It doesn’t matter, I’m here now.’’

‘’Yeah…’’

She put an arm around his waist.

‘’What is going on, Fi? You look lost.’’

‘’I’m fine.’’

‘’I know you better than that, sweety.’’ she smiled at him and held his hand.

He slowly looked down at their entangled hands and tilted his head to touch hers.

‘’You are right, I'm not fine. I’m worried. Full of doubts and fears.’’

‘’About what? The Empire?’’

‘’I’m not sure. My purpose here, my short life, you and me. Kad. Everything.’’

‘’If it’s everything, that only means you can’t do it all by yourself then. We are here, we can help.’’

‘’There is not much I can do. People already did so much for me, I don’t want to be a burden anymore. Especially not for you. I'm still young but I feel I’m in debt. What will it be in 10 years, when I’ll be an old man? ‘’

‘’In 10 years, you won’t be THAT old, even by clones standards, so you have enough to look forward to.’’

‘’What if I have nothing more to offer? I’m no longer a fighter, I’m half of the funny man I was…’’

‘’That’s not true. It’s not because you acknowledge other parts of yourself that mean you are less funny. You always had unrealistic expectations about how you should present yourself to the world. Yes, you tell less jokes, but it’s only because life IS hard. Negative emotions are important too. You have been through more osik’la than I could even imagine, Fi.’’

‘’We got a pretty messed up mind being trained by aiwas-baits. When you are expected to be over 97% accuracy shooting on target. More for a sniper like me. Displaying any weakness and you’re ‘’reconditioned’’. My squad, they counted on me. I had to be hard on myself my whole life to survive.’’

‘’Maybe it’s time for you to learn how to live instead of only surviving.’’

‘’I guess you are right…’’

Fi leaned toward his lover and let his lips touch hers. He let himself be absorbed by the softness of the moment, his eyes closed.

‘’Parja… you are everything.’’ he said in a breath before kissing her neck.’’

‘’Kar’tayl gar darasuum, time will slow for us I promise. Be with me, be in the moment.‘’

Fi-Core/Nocturius 5th of March 2024 / Updated 24th of September

[trixie2023]

I love Republic Commando. This is a sweet fic. 🥰

Nocturius: Oh? What is it? A fanfiction on tumblr! :O

I did that one for the 1 month anniversary of my Fi-Core facebook page. I was pleasantly surprise to have the beginning of a community and nice interactions with other core-pages. English is my second language (after French) so I was very insecure about writing actual fanfiction but after a bit of RP with some of my followers, I decide to try it anyway. It's just fanfictions, not a 5000$ writing contest...

So, I wanted to celebrate that anniversary with my followers, the story is a little bit 4th wall-breaking meta but roughly, it's just a sweet moment between Parja and Fi.

PS: The ''comlink party'' was just a Fi-Core facebook page thingy of us sharing ''glimmik music'' posts and talking osik around it. XD

tagging: @the-rain-on-kamino (tell me folks if you want me to tag you in the next one!)

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Characters: Fi Skirata and Parja

Rating: Family-friendly

Topic: Slice of life, anxiety, romance

Pitch: Fi is missing her wife after a few week of busy works. He fear she might be losing interest about their relationship.