#FUCK YOU JONNY AND FUCK YOUR FANTASTIC WRITING /nsrs
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Every day I think about episode 160 and cry. Like. Like. Jesus christ! The. Everything. Like. Every so often I think of TheOestOfOCsā€™ tag on their Dracula fusion fic, ā€œthis is still a fix it fic compared to canonā€ AND IT IS??? Fucking. Apparently Elias kidnapping Jon and turning him into a vampire and generally being the most awful person ever is a FIX IT FIC compared to what weā€™ve got.
And Iā€™m like, Iā€™m not complaining, I signed up for this, but like yeah, signed up for this (emotional ruin), but that doesnt make me HAPPIER ABOUT IT?
Okay, so, itā€™s three years, about. Starts in 2015, 2016. Ends in 2018. Because. Goddamnit. And itā€™s just. He gets eaten by fucking worms. You know that line, ā€œone hand on the gas release from the startā€? That line lives in my head rent free, because itā€™sā€¦ Elias is holding the cards, he has Jonā€™s fate in the bloody PALM OF HIS HAND and justā€¦ yknow how. Like. Fucked up Jon is in MAG 40? How he keeps asking them to Please Not Talk About The Worms, I Know About The Worms, Stop, I Beg Of Thee. And Elias is there, Elias is talking, Elias is seeing all of this and heā€™s just like ā€œjolly good, job well done, 11 more to go!ā€
And justā€¦ Sasha. Tim. Melanie, Martin. Basira and Daisy. Everyone who got caught in the crossfire. Sasha, who died, unintentionally on Eliasā€™ part, for a mark that was redundant. Tim, who died saving a world Elias knew was never in danger from the Unknowing. Melanie, who had to gouge her bloody eyes out, because Elias decided she was useful to him.
Useful. Fucking bastard.
And then, and then, season 3, right! God, Iā€™m just thinking about Jude Perryā€™s mark, because thatā€™s a burn, he probably didnā€™t go to a hospital, since he was on the run for a murder, so considering Lightless Flame nonsense, thatā€™s probably a severe burn that probably caused nerve damage, caused a difficulty moving that hand, presumably the right hand, because I donā€™t think they were doing a scouts handshake. And while I do try make all my blorbos left-handed, Jonā€™s most likely right-handed. And even if heā€™s not, he still probably canā€™t move his right-hand right because someone decided to end the world through him, like a fucking bastard! Thatā€™s what gets me, right. Itā€™s that everything, everything Jonā€™s bloody been through for Eliasā€™ plans is immortalized on his skin, with his scars. Psychological trauma just isnā€™t enough for him, there has to be a constant reminder every time Jon looks at himself.
And then! And then! Speaking of season 3, what the fuck was that second kidnapping? Like, first kidnapping was horrifying but it was ā€œfor the planā€ and the third kidnapping was in America and somehow ā€œnot that bad,ā€ yknow, compared to finding out youā€™re like, physically dependent on reading horror stories, and your fucking awful bastard of a boss decided to drop that bombshell on you while you were actively, yknow, GETTING SICK FROM IT! Oh Joy. But second kidnapping was a) redundant, heā€™d already gotten the Stranger mark. b) completely fixable.
Completely fucking fixable. Just. Tell them. Tell them where he is, or tell them thatā€™s heā€™s been kidnapped, if Elias doesnā€™t know, I think he did, because I think heā€™s exactly the kind of bastard who would just let it happen despite knowing exactly how to stop it.
And you know why? Why I think? Because thatā€™s easier, right. Itā€™s harder to be self-destructive, itā€™s harder to throw yourself into Situations, itā€™s harder to be isolated when you have one extra month to reconnect with your colleagues.
A month. Maybe the month would have done nothing. Maybe the month would have helped Jon and Tim. Or Jon and Melanie. Or Jon and Basira. Jon and Martin were already fine, and Jon and Daisy at that point isā€¦ ahā€¦ Nope.
And you think a month is bad? 6 months. And I know, everyone was suffering ā€” Martin especiallyā€” while Jon was gone, and I know that itā€™s other peopleā€™s trauma that heā€™s watching and actively perpetuating, but! Thatā€™s also traumatizing!! Itā€™s traumatic to have to watch other peopleā€™s worst nightmares for six months straight with no end in sight. Itā€™s traumatic to have to. Everything??? Fucking everything in MAG 120??? I can pull quotes but thatā€™ll detract from the rambliness of this. Iā€™ll do that sometime, I will.
And honestly, season 4 is just a fucking mess, itā€™s. Itā€™s. Iā€™m sad about it. Iā€™m Very sad about it, and. God. Like. Itā€™s just. Melanie hates him, and part of that is because Elias used him as a meat shield in MAG 101, not all, not most, but part. Jonā€™s a monster now, and heā€™s hurting people, and thereā€™s got to be a little voice in his head telling him heā€™s just like Elias when Elias is the one who made him like this. And theyā€™re tearing each other apart and Jon is diving into Situations and Elias is watching from prison all fucking smug and then MAG 158 happens, god. damn. MAG 158 happens.
ā€œI called you.ā€ Like a fucking dog. Like. Like. ā€œAre you scared, Jonā€ ā€œYesā€ ā€œGoodā€
I have the words for MAG 159. A bet. A fucking bet. A motherfucking bet. I do not think I need to detail how horrifying and dehumanizing and horrible that is???? I donā€™t think I need to do that.
A bet. A bet.
And it brings us back to MAG 160. Make him monologue every fucking time this happened, every fucking time Elias used him to end the world, marked him, canā€™t word. But. Horrifying. Jesus.
2, 3 years. ā€œYou are a living chronicle of terrorā€ what kind of fear. Over two years, just. Two fucking years.
But itā€™s not two. Not three.
Itā€™s his whole bloody life, his whole life, leading up to this. End the world. Spread it. This is it, his purpose, heā€™s spent so long hurting himself for a purpose.
And at the end, after everything heā€™s done, after everything thatā€™s been done to him, by Jonah Magnus, by the Web or fears or-
He canā€™t break free. He follows his purpose. He dances the steps he was assigned.
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