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Hold My Hand: John Wick x Reader Chapter 124

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The weather today is actual perfection. It’s warm and sunny but just enough breeze that it’s not too hot, so you’ve been spending most of the day out on the patio reading a few magazines that John picked up for you. He’s at work today but he should be home pretty soon. He really didn’t even need to go in today, but he loves working at the shop. He’s probably worked there more than you lately -- to be fair, you are pretty pregnant.

Your pregnancy is almost over, which is a little bittersweet. It just went by so damn fast. You thought you’d have a super relaxed pregnancy but you feel like you haven’t really...relaxed. You got to relax a little in Greece, but it was cut short. Now that it’s the final few weeks, you hope to relax more. You still have a few things to get done, but you’re not going to stress over them.

Nope. Not at all. Well…maybe. Yeah, you probably will.

John’s Mustang can be heard from down the street, so you know he’s coming home now. Bleu perks up and begins to wag his tail when John pulls into the driveway, then he gets up, grabs his tennis ball in his mouth and quickly rushes over to John as he parks the car. You watch the neon ball as it gets thrown across the yard, then you laugh when Bleu takes off and chases it.

“Hey,” you smile as you look over at John, and he gestures to you stretched out across the love seat, “Yeah, I’m relaxing.”

John jokingly gasps, “What?”

“I know, right?” you laugh as you close the magazine and put it down, “I feel like I haven’t just chilled out, so I’m doing that now.”

“You picked a great day for it,” he says, kissing you as he lifts you legs and sits down on the loveseat with you. He rubs your legs as he looks around the yard, then he looks at you and rubs your belly, “So, what have my girls been up to?”

You gesture to yourself, “This is literally it. Remember, relaxing.”

“Right,” he laughs, nodding his head, “Well, I was thinking about it earlier and we never got in for our hospital tour.”

“John!” you groan as you tilt your head back and close your eyes, “I’m relaxing! I don’t need to go to the hospital and see everything I’ve already seen.”

John nods his head when you look at him, then he shrugs a little, “I get that, but I need to see everything. I need to know where you’ll be, who I go to when I need to get help for you, I need to know what floor to bring you to, where the baby is going to be and what they do with her if something goes wrong. I need to know every detail.”

You smile softly as you nod since he’s right, “Okay, yeah, let’s do it.”

“I just want to know that you two will be taken care of.” he says, and you smile as you nod your head. “I’m still going to be with you the whole time, but I’m putting a lot of trust in these doctors and nurses to take care of you and her.”

You sit up more and lean over to kiss him, “I know, I am as well. Doctor Mendez has our trust though. She knows what she’s doing.”

John nods his head as he looks down at your hands and rotates your ring, then he looks over at you, “I can’t lose you.”

“You won’t. I’m having a baby, not ripping myself open -- well, I…I mean, I kind of am,” you say, and John lets out a small laugh, “I’m just having a baby. People do it all day long, every single day. I’m nervous too, but I’m going to be in the best hands and I’ll have you by my side the entire time.”

“So, you’ll call them in a bit?” he asks as you laugh.

“I will,” you smile as you move to lean your head against his shoulder, “I’ll try to get us in tomorrow.”

“Thank you,” John whispers and leans his cheek against the top of your head.

You were able to get a tour scheduled for today and John is thrilled about it. You understand why he’s so nervous and you honestly are a bit nervous too. This is uncharted waters for both you and John, but even more so for him. He never thought he’d be having a baby, so of course this stuff was never on his mind. He’s worried about what will happen if something goes wrong, which isn’t unusual at all. It’s completely understandable as to why he wants to make sure this place is safe for you. He loves the hell out of you!

Holding John’s hand, you walk into the front doors of the hospital and immediately spot a nurse in light blue scrubs with some sort of cartoon characters on them. She smiles when you look at her, then she walks over and reaches out to shake your hand.

“I’m Corinne. You’re the Wicks?” she asks, and you nod as you furrow your brow just a little and wonder how the hell she knew that.

“I’m Y/N, and this is John.”

Corinne smiles as she shakes his hand, “It’s nice to meet you two.”

“It’s nice to meet you too.” John smiles, then he places his hand on your back.

“So, you’ve obviously parked,” she laughs, gesturing over your shoulder, “If you aren’t able to park yourself and walk in, you’re more than welcome to pull up and the valet will park your car for you. Why don’t we head upstairs so I can show you around?”

You nod your head and take John’s hand, then you follow Corinne to the elevator, “Do you do a lot of these tours?”

“I do,” she nods as she stands in the elevator with you, “We’ll be going up to the ninth floor, by the way. Yeah, I do these tours twice a week all day long.”

“That must be exhausting,” John jokes, and you let out a small laugh.

Corinne shrugs, “Yeah, but it’s nice to help new parents feel at ease. Having a baby can be so scary, so if I can help them relax a little, it makes me feel like I’ve done a good job.”

The elevator dings when you get to the ninth floor, and John holds your hand and looks back to make sure you’re okay as he follows behind Corinne. You pick up the pace a little to keep up with John’s long legs, but he slows down when you tug his hand a little.

“Once up here, come to this desk and check in. A nurse will be notified and will quickly come out to get you and determine whether or not you’re in active labor.” she smiles, then she looks down at the papers in her hand, “It says here that you have a private birthing room.”

“We do.” you nod, and John places his hand on your back again, rubbing the lower spot that always gets sore. You’re pretty sure he just does it subconsciously now.

Corinne smiles, then she gestures for you to follow her down the hallway, “Since you have a private room, everything will be done right in here! Labor, delivery, postpartum. We have a comfortable bed for mom, a pull out couch for your guest to stay overnight, and all of the birthing accessories you may need, such as birthing balls, a tub, and squatting bars. We have large windows to allow some natural light, but there’s curtains if it’s too bright for you.”

“This is nice,” John whispers, and you nod as you look around.

You walk over to the bed and lightly touch it as you walk past, then you smile when you see the warming bed that your baby will be placed in after she’s born. There’s a whiteboard on the wall as well where they’ll write her name, time of birth, and her height and weight.

It’s starting to settle in a little more now. You’re having a freaking baby in a few weeks!

“Once baby is born, they’ll get an ID bracelet that matches mom that they’ll wear for their entire stay.” she says, and John nods his head as he listens intently. “We don’t have a nursery, so baby will be in the room with you at all times, which most parents love.”

“Yeah, I want her with us the whole time.” John says as he looks at you, and you nod your head in agreement. “Uh, what about any tests she’ll need?”

Corinne nods, “They’ll come here to do that.”

“And if something were to…go wrong,” John says, and Corinne smiles softly.

“A surgery room is just right down the hall,” she says as John nods and holds his breath. “We’re here to make sure that your labor and delivery goes as smoothly as possible. Your health and safety is our top priority. If you have any questions during, or even beforehand, just let us know. So many people worry about bothering us with questions, but we don’t mind! We’re here to help!”

You look over at John and smile, then you look at Corinne, “We have a nephew who is just over one, is he allowed to come visit? Wait, sorry, I made it sound like he’ll be driving himself. Obviously he’ll be with his parents.”

Corinne laughs, “Of course! We just ask that they check in downstairs on the ground level, then come up and stay in the waiting room until you’re ready to see them.”

You look over at John and shrug a little since you can’t really think of anything else to ask, and he takes a step closer to you and wraps his arm around your shoulder.

“Can she eat after giving birth?” John asks, and you laugh loudly. “It’s a big concern of hers.”

“Yes, absolutely! Of course if your doctor suggests otherwise, then we’ll take that into consideration, but yes, you may eat. We have a cafeteria here, but most people nowadays like to just order something from somewhere else. There’s plenty around here.”

John nods his head, then he looks over at you, “Are cameras allowed?”

“Of course.” she nods, then she lets out a small laugh when you playfully roll your eyes.

“And I’m allowed to stay the night?”

Corinne nods, “Of course, Mr. Wick. As for checking out, we like you to stay for 24 hours so we can get a good look at mom and baby, then you’re free to go.”

You nod your head, then you shrug again when you look at John, “I don’t think I really have any other questions.”

“If you think of any, just give us a call!” she smiles, and you nod. “If you’re ready, I’ll show you to the cafeteria.”

You’re not really sure you need to see the cafeteria, but John smiles when he looks down at you, then he nods his head and takes your hand.

The rest of the tour went well, and John thought of about ten more questions that he needed answers to. Corinne was very sweet and did a great job at reassuring John that you and the baby will be just fine. He seems a lot more relaxed now, but he still seems like he has something on his mind. He, of course, hasn’t said anything though.

You just had a quick little lunch with your mom while John stayed back home to work on some stuff, but you’re excited to see him. These past few weeks you’ve been feeling a little more clingy than usual, but he doesn’t seem to mind.

“Babe?” you call out to John, “You downstairs?”

“Yeah, I’m down here.”

You smile as you head downstairs to see what John is doing, “Hey, so, I need some guns for hire.”

John sets his bookbinding tools down and looks at you with his brow furrowed and a hint of a smile on his face, “Excuse me?”

“Well, see, there was a really annoying guy at the cafe,” you say as John laughs, then you shake your head, “Nah, I just got a big box on the front step and I can’t pick it up, so I need some guns.”

John laughs when you squeeze his biceps, “That’s the worst joke you’ve ever told.”

“Worse than the time I printed out brown E’s and told you I had some brownies for you?”

“Well,” John tilts his head from side to side, “Maybe not.”

You laugh quietly as you cup his face to kiss him, then you look at the book he’s working on, “This book looks nice.”

John holds it up so you can see the intricate design on the spine of it, then he looks at you, “Think they’ll like it?”

“I do,” you nod, then you stand next to him and gently open it, “The Jungle Book.”

“The client’s wife is pregnant and they have a jungle themed room for their baby.” he says, and you smile as you look at him, “So, he wanted to get her this so they can read it to their baby.”

You smile as you look down at the book, “They’ll love that, and they’ll love this cover. It’s beautiful.”

John leans over to kiss you and take the book from you, but you pull it away and smile when he laughs, “Stop teasing me, Mrs. Wick.”

“You look very handsome today.” you whisper as a smile tugs at John’s lips, and he smiles wider when you lick your lips.

He knows you want him.

You hold John’s gaze for a moment, then you raise your eyebrows as John sits up more. You bite your bottom lip as you move closer to stand between his legs, then you lean down and kiss him, wrapping your arms around each other.

“I think you should take me to our bedroom,” you whisper in his ear, and he leans back to look at you, “Unless you wanna take me here.”

“Here will do just fine,” he says softly as he moves his hands up your thighs underneath your dress. He grips your ass as he leans up to kiss you, then he holds your gaze as he tugs your underwear down until they fall down to your ankles.

Inhaling deeply, you slide your hands up John’s biceps to his shoulders then down to his pecs before you reach down to pull his shirt over his head. John is watching your every move with the most intense and lust filled gaze, and you shiver a little when you look back into his eyes.

John slides his hand between your legs as you lean back a little and put your right leg over his lap, then you bite your lip to curb a moan when John flicks his fingers over your clit. You hum as you tilt your head back and close your eyes, then you laugh when John pulls your strap down on your dress so he can see your breasts.

“Come here,” John stands up and leads you over to the couch, and you bite your lip when you see his jeans snug against the erection in his pants.

“What do you want?”

John looks into your eyes as you pull your dress off, then he gently touches your cheek, “I want you to get on your knees.”

You smirk as you look at him, then you kneel down in front of him while he unzips his jeans to pull himself out. John lets out a small laugh as you look up at him, then you reach out to stroke him in your hand as he looks down and watches. You take him into your mouth while maintaining eye contact with him, but he eventually closes his eyes and tilts his head back, letting out a small moan.

“Fuck…” he whispers as he looks down at you, then he reaches out to move your hair a little before placing his hand on your head, “Yeah, keep doing that.”

You take John deep in your throat and nearly gag, then you sit back and stroke him as you catch your breath for a moment. He reaches down to help you stand up, then he sits down on the couch to get his shoes and pants off.

You wait for John to get ready for you, then you hold John’s hands as you straddle his waist, “You still think I’m sexy, right?”

“Yes! Absolutely. Always,” he whispers, and you smile softly as you lean against his chest and kiss him. He reaches between the two of you but keeps his lips pressed to yours, then he slowly slips himself between your legs as you let out a small moan. “Shit, you feel good.”

“You’re so hard. Fuck, you feel so good!” your eyes roll shut as you tilt your head back, and you suck on your bottom lip and hum when you feel John’s lips all over your neck and chest. The moment his tongue glides over your nipple, you moan loudly and roll your hips faster. “Mm, I love you.”

John watches you intensely as you look at him, and he looks down at your lips when you part them to let out a moan, which causes John to smile proudly. You rest your arm on John’s shoulder as he shifts in position a little, and you smile when you look at him.

“You’re so beautiful,” John whispers softly as he moves your hair away from your face, “I don’t know why you ever question it.”

You shrug, “Just get a little insecure sometimes.”

“Well, don’t ever think that I don’t think you’re beautiful,” he whispers as you smile, “You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever laid my eyes on.”

“Thanks, baby.”

“Can you lay down?” he asks softly, and you nod your head. You lay down on the couch and prop yourself up enough as to not put pressure on your spine, then you smile when John leans down to kiss you. He slips back between your legs with a low moan, then he leans down to kiss you again, “Perfect fit.”

Your eyes roll shut as John looks down at you, and you smile and open your eyes to look at him, “God damn, you’re perfect.”

“Yeah?” John leans closer for more as his eyes twinkle a little.

Any time this man gets a bit of praise, he can’t help but ask for more. He needs more.

Nodding your head, you reach up and cup his face, “You’re fucking me well. You always do. You always know exactly what I want and how I want it. You fit so well between my legs.”

John smiles as he leans down to kiss you, “And you’re such a good girl.”

“My man…” you whisper, then you run your tongue over your top lip as he smiles, “So good to me.”

Pumping his hips harder, John furrows his brow and closes his eyes, then he looks down at you and holds your gaze as you both feverishly grasp one another and kiss. You moan loudly into John’s mouth when he slows his thrusts so you can feel every inch of him, and your body jolts when you feel his thumb rubbing circles on your clit. Your eyes roll shut as you allow the pleasure to take over and you hum when John leans down to kiss your chest and neck, sucking on all the right spots. He moves up to the spot behind your ear that drives you crazy, and you moan loudly as you cling to his back, leaving marks behind on his skin.

“Harder, John,” you whisper to him, and he begins to thrust his hips at a more intense rate, which causes you to let out several loud moans. You look up at him and try your best to hold his gaze, but your eyes roll shut again, “You feel so good inside of me, baby. Please don’t stop!”

John lets out a small laugh, “Can’t promise that.”

You slide your hands up John’s chest and smile at him, “Come whenever you’re ready.”

“About to be,” he chuckles again, then he leans down and kisses you as he moans against your lips. He cups your face in his hand as he kisses you, then he reaches down and maintains eye contact as he rubs your clit, causing you to moan loudly and shake as you come.

“Oh, fuck!” you moan loudly, clinging to John, then you nod your head and look at him, “Keep going, keep fucking me.”

John puts his head down and groans as he watches himself, then he looks up at you before he clenches his jaw and squeezes his eyes shut, jerking his hips hard before they shutter as he fills you up.

“Oh, fuck.” John moans, then he lets out a big breath and looks at you before he chuckles a little, “Fuck, you’re amazing.”

“I didn’t do much but lay here.”

John shakes his head and kisses you again, “So amazing, baby.”

You smile as John kisses your cheek and gets off of you, then he helps you sit up so you can get cleaned up in the bathroom. You grab some tissue for him and bring them out, then you grab your underwear and dress to put them back on.

John lets out a small breath and looks over at you just as you pull your summer dress back on, “I really did need to do some work.”

“Well,” you laugh as you look at him, “My husband is sexy. Not my fault.”

Letting out a small laugh, John gets up and pulls his boxers back on, then he leans down to kiss you. As John puts his shirt back on, you catch a glimpse of the nail marks you’ve left on his back, so you walk over to him and gently touch them.

“Sorry,” you whisper, and John looks over his shoulder, “I left a few little marks behind.”

John chuckles, “I sure don’t mind. They don’t hurt.”

“Maybe I need to cut my nails…” you say, looking down at your deep red nail polish.

“No, no, I like them,” he takes your hands and kisses them as you smile at him. He leans down to kiss you, then he sighs a little, “I just need to finish these books by tomorrow.”

“Sorry to have distracted you.”

John nudges your chin, “I welcome any distractions from you, peach.”

You smile as you walk over to John’s workbench and sit down on the stool, then you prop your head up and watch as John sits next to you to continue his work. He reaches over and pats your thigh when he realizes you’re going to hang out with him for a bit, then he leans over and kisses you.

Taking your phone out of your purse, you set it down on the workbench, then you walk over to grab some paper that John keeps in a clear plastic container. You grab a few different colored pens and a pair of scissors, then you walk over and sit down beside John.

“What are you working on?”

You take a deep breath as you set everything out, “I was thinking about writing some reviews for books at the shop. You know, so people can see what other people think of the books. Like, something along the lines of ‘if you like Stranger Things, then you’ll love this book about aliens and…a misfit group of kids’ or something, I don’t know. Is that dumb?”

John smiles softly, “No, of course not.”

“I just thought it’d make people a little more interested in a book if they could see what other people think of them, you know?” you shrug a little as John look at you, “Is that okay with you?”

“It’s your shop too. Do whatever you want.” he smiles, leaning over to kiss you. “You gonna write a review about that one book you read?”

You laugh, “Yeah, just gonna write that I read it in two days and threw it across the room when I finished it because I hated it so much.”

“I’ve never seen you so upset before about a book. You throwing it actually made me jump a little, I wasn’t expecting it.” John laughs and reaches over to move your hair away from your face, “It was a pretty shitty ending.”

“I wanted them to end up together.” you whisper as he rubs his thumb against your cheek and down to your bottom lip, “I hate when they don’t end up together.”

“You little romantic.” he says, soft and quiet.

You close your eyes as you smile, then you look at him, “Yeah. You too though.”

“Yeah,” he laughs, nodding his head, “Me too.”

The nice warm weather didn’t last long since it’s currently storming today. You planned on inviting Jimmy and Tess over for a barbecue tonight, but you’re not sure that’s going to happen now.

You’re still trying to relax as much as you can, so you’re currently sitting on the back patio listening to the rain. You were reading a magazine, but the sound of rain always puts you to sleep. Your eyes grow heavy as you tilt your head back against the loveseat, but you jolt up when you hear the door squeak.

“Sorry,” John grimaces, “I didn’t mean to wake you. I didn’t know you were asleep.”

“It’s okay,” you whisper, then you sit up and lean against his shoulder when he sits next to you. You close your eyes as you curl up as best as you can next to John, then you hold his hand and smile to yourself, “I’ll probably fall asleep now for sure.”

John chuckles, “Go ahead. I just finished the last of my books. I’ll need to drop a few of them off this afternoon though.”

“Oh,” you look up at him and nod, “I can go with you.”

Nodding his head, John smiles, “Sounds good. Are we still on for tonight?”

You shrug, “Haven’t talked to Tess.”

“I was…doing a lot of thinking earlier…”

“Uh oh.” you tease as John laughs, “What about?”

John lets go of your hand and wraps it around your shoulder, “I think it’s time we let Tess go at the shop.”

“What?” you sit up and look at him, “Why?”

“She works only a few times a week, and half the time, she’ll make up an excuse as to why she can’t come in. I know she doesn’t want to be there anymore. When she’s there, she’s friendly, of course, but her heart isn’t there anymore.” he says, and you nod a little, “She’s staying because she doesn’t want to hurt your feelings. She’d rather be at home with Finn, and I can’t blame her for that.”

You look out at the rain for a moment, then you nod as you sit back and look at your belly, “Yeah, I mean, I’ll be the same once she’s born, but I don’t want us to get rid of the bookshop. I still love it. I still want to work there. It’s my dream to own that place.”

“It’s different for us. We own it.” he says, and you nod your head, “I just know Tess doesn’t want to hurt your feelings. I’ve talked to Jimmy about it as well. He’s more than happy for her to be at home with Finn.”

“Daycare is insanely expensive.” you joke, and John laughs a little. “I know she’d be so much happier with Finn. She only works like one day anyway.”

John nods, “And if she’s gone, we can afford to pay the other employees more as well.”

“That’s a really good idea.” you say, and John shrugs. You inhale deeply and nod your head, “Yeah, let’s invite them over for dinner and tell her.”

“Sounds like a plan, peach.”

You smile as you look over at him, “You don’t mind that I don’t work that much, do you?”

“No, of course not.” he laughs, shaking his head, “You’re pregnant for starters, and I don’t expect you to go there when you don’t feel well.”

“I know, but you bought the shop for me so I wouldn’t lose my job…”

John smiles softly, then he shakes his head, “I bought it for you because it’s your dream to own a bookshop. I wanted to help make your dream come true, and now it’s my dream too. It’s our dream.”

You close your eyes and jut out your bottom lip as John laughs, “That was really sweet.”

“The employees do such a good job there that half the time, I don’t even know what I’m doing there. Grace knows the place like the back of her hand. She’s good.”

You look down at your belly and nod, “I still plan on working there, but for the most part, I just wanna be a stay at home mom, so I don’t miss out on anything with her.”

“I love that,” John says, smiling when you look at him, “And I want that too. I don’t want to miss anything either. I’m not worried about the shop or how often you work there. I genuinely like working there. I like working there when you’re not there and when you are there. Well, I especially like working there when you’re there.”

You scoff when John winks, “Yeah, yeah.”

“I’m not worried about it, peach. The shop is doing really well,” he says, and you nod your head as you look over at him. “Wanna tag along while I drop off these books?”

“Definitely.” you nod, then you gesture to yourself on the couch, “You’re gonna have to pull me up.”

John smiles as he gets up, “I can do that.”

John and Jimmy have been talking for the past ten minutes about all the renovations Jimmy plans to do at home, and Tess looks a little nervous to say the least. You smile when she looks at you, and you furrow your brow a little.

“You’ve never been with a carpenter…” she says, and you laugh, “Their house always looks like shit while they work on 45 other projects.”

Jimmy laughs as he nudges Tess’ shoulder, “You already know I’m following through with this. Look at our living room! It looks great.”

“Yeah, true,” Tess laughs, then she shrugs, “Just don’t want you to bite off more than you can chew.”

“Nah,” Jimmy smiles as he leans over to kiss her cheek, “We finished the living room and we’ll be working on the kitchen next. We’re sticking with our gold and green color scheme.”

You nod, “The living room looks great. I love the color. I want us to get a little more bold with color in the living room. I’ve slowly been adding some color to the house. I think some really cool wallpaper would look good on that wall over there with some pictures and a shelf.”

John laughs as he shakes his head, “She’s changing her mind on everything lately. The other night I had to talk her out of changing the baby’s room. She suddenly wanted an animal theme in there.”

“God, remember how sterile and boring your house was before she moved in?” Tess says, and you look over at John and laugh. “It was so freaking boring.”

“Sure was,” you nod, and John laughs, “I’m helping John embrace color in the house and in his wardrobe.”

John looks down at his blue shirt and laughs, “It’s sort of working.”

“Did you have your tour of the hospital?”

“We did! It was really good. They actually changed quite a bit since you had Finn. They remodeled the private rooms and they’re super nice. The beds are bigger too.”

Tess scoffs, “Figures.”

“John asked every question under the sun, but the woman who showed us around was super nice.” you say, and John nods his head. “She knew who we were right when we walked in and I remember wondering how the hell she knew who we were, and it occurred to me about three hours later.”

John laughs when you gesture to him, “I can’t help it that people know me.”

“Yeah, she was super helpful though. Oh, when you come to visit us, you just have to check in on the ground level, then come up to the labor and delivery floor. And I asked, Finny is more than welcome to come as well!” you smile, then you look over at Finn on the floor as he plays with his toys.

Tess smiles as she looks over at Finn, “He’s gonna love to meet his cousin!”

You take a deep breath as you look over at John and take his hand, then you look at Tess when John gives you a small nod, “So, John and I were talking earlier, and Tess, we think that it’s time for you to…leave the shop.”

Tess’ smile fades on her face as she grows concerned, “Why?”

“You don’t want to be there anymore -- and that’s totally fine!” you say as you reach over for her hand, “You want to be home with Finn. We don’t blame you for that.”

“I don’t want to…hurt your feelings.”

You shake your head, “My feelings aren’t hurt at all. I want you to be happy. I want you to be able to spend time with Finn! We both know how important it is for us to not miss out on anything.”

Tess nods as she tears up a little, “We’ll still hang out all the time, right?”

“Tess, you rarely work now and we still hang out all the time. We see each other literally every day.”

“Well, I like it that way.” she says as you laugh, then she looks at John before she looks at you again, “Are you sure?”

John nods his head, “We are. Y/N won’t work much either once the baby is born.”

“I plan on spending so much time with her, and hopefully you and Finn.” you say, and Tess nods her head.

Tess sits up as she sniffles a little, then she smiles when she looks at Jimmy, “Are you sure?”

“I am,” he nods, wrapping his arm around her. “I want what’s best for you.”

You smile when she looks back at you, then you laugh, “I mean, life won’t be too different since you didn’t show up half the time.”

Tess laughs loudly, “Hey, parenthood is still really fucking hard a year later. I call Jimmy about 15 times a day when he’s at work.”

“I’m sure,” you laugh as you look down at your belly, “I’ll be entering that pretty soon, I hope.”

“Just a few more weeks,” Jimmy smiles, then he high fives John as you chuckle. “You nervous, man?”

John nods his head, “Very nervous. I’m trying to remain calm.”

“I’m trying to relax more,” you say, shaking your head as you grimace, “Not sure if it’s working so far. I feel like my pregnancy just went by so fast but it was so hectic, you know? I had my hemorrhage and was on bedrest for four weeks, which isn’t really that long, but after I was off of it, we had Benji and Harper, then everything just flew by. I feel like I haven’t really had time to just chill out.”

“Well, I was wondering if you wanted me to take some more maternity pictures of you…” Tess says, and you nod your head. “I found a few really cool places, so I thought we could do that this weekend.”

You nod your head, “Yeah, that sounds fun.”

John smiles when you look over at him, “That’ll be nice for you. I got a lot of work to get done in the wardrobe upstairs, so that’s perfect.”

Jimmy smiles, “Yeah, let me see what you’ve done so far.”

You watch as John and Jimmy head upstairs to the spare room, then you look over at Tess, “So, how are things?”

“Really good.” she nods, then she sits back on the couch, “Jimmy has a family reunion coming up soon, so I’m excited to meet more of his family. I’ve only met a few of his family members so far. I hope there’s some kids for Finn to play with. It’ll be nice for him to have some cousins. Obviously Jimmy is an only child but he has cousins, so you get what I mean. They’d be Finn’s second cousins, I think. I’m just excited for Finn to have some more family since…I don’t have any. He’ll never know my side.”

“Uh, excuse you?”

Tess laughs as she shoves your shoulder a little, “No, I mean my parents’ sides. Obviously we have mom’s side.”

“Yeah,” you nod as you look at her, then you rub your belly, “He’ll have a new cousin soon though!”

Tess smiles as she leans over and puts her ear to your belly, “I can’t wait to meet her!”

“Hopefully she can stay in there for a few more weeks,” you say, then you laugh as Tess kisses your stomach, “Hopefully she doesn’t stay in there for too long though. I’ve been watching so many labor and delivery videos on YouTube the past week, and I’m getting so freaking anxious to meet her. I just want her to get here already, but I know these last few weeks are really important.”

“Yeah, stay in there as long as you can,” Tess says to your belly, “It’s not that great out here.”

You laugh as you nudge her, “John is so excited. Every day he comes home with cute little outfits and shoes he’s bought for her. He keeps telling her to hurry up. It’s sweet.”

“It’s gonna be a brand new world for him soon.” Tess smiles, then she sits up and looks at John as he comes down to the living room with Jimmy, “He’ll love it. You both will.”

You smile as you look over at him, “I think so too.”

The whole relaxation thing hasn’t gone according to plan. You’re trying! You’re definitely trying, it’s just…not working. You feel like a ball of anxiety tonight and you can’t figure out why. Well, there is the whole having a baby in a few short weeks thing, so maybe that’s it. Yeah, that’s probably it.

You sigh as you toss a book onto the coffee table and get up, then you head up to the baby’s room and look around. You smile as you walk over to the dresser and see the outfits that John has bought lately, and you hold them up and laugh just thinking about how your tiny baby will be wearing these outfits soon and how sweet and proud John is every time he comes home with something new.

The smile on your face slowly fades as you sit down in the rocking chair, and you bite your lip nervously before you put your head down and begin to cry. You put your hand over your mouth to muffle the sound so John doesn’t hear, then you get up and quietly close the door before you walk over to look out the window.

There are so many thoughts going through your head lately, so many things to do, so many things that you’re worried about. It’s hard. It’s very hard to quiet your thoughts lately. As your due date gets closer, the more you feel this anxiety over everything.

What if something does go wrong? What happens if you hemorrhage again? What if something is wrong with your baby? What if you don’t end up being as maternal as you think you’ll be? John seems so natural at all of this, while you seem to just be fumbling alongside him. Will he think you’re a terrible mom? These are reoccurring thoughts that haven’t gone away throughout your entire pregnancy.

There’s just so much going through your head. You don’t regret getting pregnant one bit, so that’s definitely not something that you’re thinking about. But you can’t deny how scary life is about to be. It’s going to be so different. You and John are going to have a freaking baby! There will be a tiny little human just hanging out in the house with you two from now on. It’s terrifying! Her life is literally in your hands, and it’s really scary. It’s scary and you just hope that you do alright by her.

You look down at your belly and let out a tearful laugh, “I love you, bug. I hope you’ll be proud to be mine. You’ll love your dad, no doubt. I just hope you like me too.”

“She’s gonna love you,” John whispers, and you close your eyes when he wraps his arms around your waist. “Don’t even worry about that.”

“What if she hates me when she’s older?”

John chuckles, “She won’t. She’s gonna love you, peach. You’re her mom.”

“Yeah…” you nod as you inhale deeply and turn around to look at him, “Why did you sneak up on me?”

“Just because I’ve been busy all day doesn’t mean I haven’t noticed that you’ve been feeling anxious.” he says, and you roll your eyes as you laugh, “I know you like the back of my hand.”

You look down as John places his hands on your belly, then you hold his gaze, “You really think she’s gonna like me?”

“I do,” he nods, and you smile a little, “We’re both pretty crazy about you.”

John cups your face in his hands as you close your eyes, then you feel him pressing soft kisses to your cheeks and forehead. He wraps his arms around you and holds tight to you, and you melt a bit in his embrace.

“So much for relaxing.”

“Tell me what I can do to help,” John whispers, rubbing your back, “I’ll do anything you need me to.”

You smile a little over how amazing John is, then you tilt your head back and look at him, “It’s just anxiety over all of the what ifs. I’m sure--”

“The moment she’s put into your arms, I’m sure it’ll all go away.”

“That’s what I’ve heard.”

John smiles softly, “And if it doesn’t, I’m right here. We’re a team, baby. I’m not letting you go.”

You immediately tear up again as you nod, and John leans down to kiss you. You lean your forehead against his lips as you cry softly, then you cup his face and smile at him.

God, he’s the best.

“You’re my favorite.”

John lets out a small laugh as he looks at you, “You’re my favorite too. Always.”

Tilting your head back, you hold his gaze and smile a little, “Think I’m gonna take a bath.”

“Okay.” he says softly, then he kisses your forehead before you leave.

You’ve set up some candles in the bathroom and turned the lights off in hopes of it helping you relax and it’s working. A little. The bath is warm and full of bubbles, and the whole bathroom smells like flowers from it. You inhale deeply and sink into the tub more to rest your head against the little bathtub pillow, but you start to laugh when you feel your belly move a little.

“I know, you love when momma gets in the water. I think you’re gonna be a little fish.” you say as you look at your belly moving. You place your hand on your lower right side, and you smile when you feel her little foot press against your palm, “I can’t wait to meet you. I really think you’re gonna love it here. You have a great family. Grandma and Grandpa can’t wait to meet you, and Aunt Tess is going to spoil you rotten. You and Finny are going to be the best of friends too! We can’t forget crazy Uncle Jimmy. He’s a real goofball. You’ll like him. You have a daddy who is crazy about you, and I just know you’ll love your big brother, Bleu.”

Your belly continues to stretch and move as the baby practically does flips and dances around, and you smile every time you feel her foot press against your hand.

“It’s getting awfully small in there, isn’t it?” you laugh quietly, “You’re growing like a little weed in there, so I think you should hurry up and come out already. Well, maybe wait a few more weeks.”

The door squeaks open a little as John pokes his head in, then he puts his hand out and grimaces as he backs out, “Sorry, I just wanted to check on you.”

“You can come in, babe.” you laugh, looking back at him, “She’s moving like crazy right now.”

John comes into the bathroom and kneels down beside the bathtub to place his hand on your belly, then he laughs when he feels her kicking and moving. He leans up a little and presses his lips to your belly a few times, then he laughs again.

“She’s really moving right now,” he laughs, then he nods, “You’re in the water. Our little fish.”

A smile spreads across your face as John rubs your belly, then you look over at him and smile wider when he leans up to kiss you several times. He rubs your belly as he kisses you, then he sits down on the floor beside the tub.

“So, you and Tess are going to take some pictures?”

“Yeah,” you nod as you look at him, “It’ll be a good idea to get some pictures since at this point, she could come at any time now. I’d love it if you came too so we could get some of us.”

John nods, “Yeah, of course.”

Sitting up in the tub, you shift and get comfortable again, then you laugh when you realize John’s hand has not moved from your stomach the entire time.

“You’re gonna be such a great dad.” you whisper to him, and he smiles softly.

“You’re gonna be a great mom.”

You smile as you nod your head, then you look down as you both rub your belly. John reaches up and grabs your boob as you laugh, then you give him a disapproving look that makes him laugh.

“You can’t keep your hands to yourself, Wick.”

“My wife is sexy,” he laughs, then he winks, “Not my fault.”

You laugh as you roll your eyes a little, then you lean over to kiss him, “When Tess and Jimmy were over the other day, she told me she’s going to a family reunion.”

“Can you imagine meeting all of Jimmy’s family? Him and his dad are exactly the same.” John says, and you laugh, “I wouldn’t be surprised if they’re all like that.”

“He’s a good guy.” you smile, nodding your head, “I’m glad that Tess has him. She’s excited to go to the family reunion. She’s happy that Finn will have a lot more family since she obviously doesn’t have any on her side.”

John shifts on the floor a little and nods as he holds your gaze.

You take a deep breath and sigh, “You know, all my life, Tess has been there. She’s always been a part of my life. I’ve never known a time when she wasn’t. Even before her parents passed away, we were always together. I kind of forget that she’s not my biological sister sometimes.”

“Me too,” John says, and you look at him, “You two are a lot alike.”

“When she mentioned that Finn wouldn’t know any of her family, it took me a split second to remember that…she’s not blood related to me, so she’s right. He won’t know her family. She doesn’t want him to know that side of her family because they were so awful to her and my mom after everything happened.” you sigh a little, “And I get it. I wouldn’t want that either.”

John nods his head, then he cocks up his eyebrow a little, “I know where you’re going, but this isn’t one of those things where you think Tess is a better fit for me, because you tried that before.”

“No!” you laugh loudly as you shake your head, “No! You’re mine. No one else can have you.”

“Okay, good. Because she’s not a better fit for me. No one is. It’s you. Only you.” John smiles as he leans up to kiss you. “I don’t want anyone but you.”

You smile softly as you lean over the tub and prop your head up, “Good.”

John tilts your head down so he can kiss the top of it, then he sits back and leans against the tub, waiting for you to finish.

After a few moments of silence, you look at John and shrug a little, “You don’t think about your family?”

“Not really.” he says without thinking, almost like he was expecting you to ask, then he shrugs, “You can’t imagine not wondering because you’ve always had your family, so to think about not having them all of the sudden is weird to you. I’ve grown up with no family, I’ve come to terms with it.”

“There’s no part of you that wonders about it? Bug is gonna grow up and have no blood relatives on your side. That doesn’t bother you?” you say, then you close your eyes, “Sorry, that came out way harsher and more aggressive than intended.”

John squeezes your hand to reassure that it was fine, then he nods, “Of course I’ve wondered before. I don’t know them, so I don’t know what kind of people they are. I’m completely fine with only having you, our family, and our children. It’s enough for me.”

“Is it?”

“Yes, absolutely.” he nods, rubbing your hand, “If she doesn’t grow up and know my family, that’s fine with me. She’s going to be so loved by our family that she won’t even care.”

You smile as you nod your head, then you lean into the palm of John’s hand when he cups your face, “I love you.”

“I love you too.” he whispers, rubbing his thumb against your cheek, “Blood doesn’t mean anything. Tess is your sister whether she’s blood related or not. Dan is your dad whether he’s blood related or not. Your family is my family too. You’ve made it that way. It’s because of you that I feel that way. I love them all.”

Nodding your head, you look down and laugh since, of course, John made you cry with how sweet he is. You look up at him as he smiles proudly, then he sits up a little more so he can kiss you.

“Are you getting cold?” he asks, and you nod your head. “Let’s get you out.”

You pull the plug on the tub and get up while John turns the light on and gets a towel for you, then you blow out the candles and wrap the towel around yourself as best as you can with your belly. John heads into the bedroom and begins to get out some pajamas for you, and you smile when you dry yourself off.

“Hey,” you furrow your brow, “When have I said Tess was better for you?”

John laughs, “A while ago. You said her and I have a lot in common since we both have dealt with loss and we don’t have much family. You implied that we’d be a better fit.”

“Ew.” you scrunch your face up and laugh, “Sick.”

“My reaction as well.” John laughs as he sits down on the bed and watches you pull on your pajamas, “She really is like a little sister to me.”

You smile as you walk over and sit next to him, “She thinks of you as a big brother too. Big brother John Wick.”

John laughs, shaking his head, “Never thought I’d hear that.”

“How about husband?” you ask as he looks at you, “Well, I mean, you know…after.”

Shaking his head, John laughs, “No, definitely not after. Honored to be yours, peach.”

“Honored to be yours, babe.” you smile as you lean up to kiss him, then you cock up your eyebrow, “How about…dad?”

“Yeah, definitely never thought I’d hear that.” he says, placing his hand on your belly, “But I’m glad I get to. Really, really glad that I get to.”

You smile as you place your hand over his, “Not long now.”

“Can’t wait.”

#john wick x reader #john wick x you #john wick x y/n #john wick imagine #fic: hold my hand #fun fact i actually did throw a book across the room bc i was mad at how it ended #lmao it sat in the same spot for like 2 weeks before i finally picked it up #anyway baby wick is coming so soon i can't believe it #she's 37 weeks preg here so like...seriously it's coming so soon wtf fjdsklf;js #anyway enjoy!!! and have a good weekend!!<33333

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