#Ever since i read it I've been praying for its downfall

[liliaasyoursexyvampiredaddy]

I want more people to read Cry or Better Yet Beg.

Not because I like it, but because I want more people to hate it.

[skinnyminnie05]

Hey...

I haven't been active for so long and gained all the weight that I lost during oct and November (12 lbs) but I'm back now and more determined than ever

I'm gonna try and do it healthier this time. I feel like I sort of healed my food relationship a bit so it will be better for trying not to binge! Hopefully this stands true!

New plan:

run 4 miles a day(plus I walk around 10k steps in life)

->I already started this and lost 3 lbs in 2 days with it so im gonna start it up again tomorrow

2. I have a trip coming up next weekend so I'm gonna fast until then

->Ik that's a long time but it needs to be done bc my clothes r fitting weird and I don't even know anyone going so I need to be comfortable in my skin

3. after the trip I will have less than 800 cals a day

-> my foods will include: protein bars, coffee, sf popsicles, halo top ice cream(my fav thing ever), and fruits & veggies

4. I will weigh myself everyday and record it in my new journal I got for Christmas(I'll show u guys its so freaking cute)

5. I will take my vitamins every day (my mom got me some new vitamins and one works kinda like ozempic but its all natural)

6. I WILL NOT B1NG3 NO MATTER WHAT

-> It is my downfall every time and is what makes my relationship with food so horrible. Also it is straining my relationship with God because it is so gluttonous and sinful and destroying my life

7. I will pray every night

->Ik its not part of wl but it will def help me with everything including keeping on track and having good mental health

8. I will keep my room clean and shower every day(otherwise I end up b1ng3ing for some reason idk why it triggers me)

Thanks for reading! I can't wait to become a normal person bc this overweight bs is rlly not my vibe anymore like I'm done at this point I've been trying to loose this weight since I was in 8th grade

[receivedhope]

I’d love to hear some of your thoughts on Kurt, seasons 2 onwards.

Aw lmao, thank you for asking! Well... how long do you have lol.

Hm, trying to think about aspects of Kurt that are more present S2+ is a bit tricky because he is such a consistent character and is like the only person who is not constantly yanked around by the whims of whichever current episode writer to do whatever the plot demands. So I might take this opportunity to make a case for his more unpopular actions that are deemed ooc?

I think the biggest one of S3 is OMW - I've read multiple times that him seeking out the God Squad was kinda weird since he is atheistic, but I don't agree. It's kind of emotionally intense news to receive, that the homophobic bully who kissed you against your will last year and confessed to you on Vday just a few weeks ago is in the hospital for an attempted suicide - after deliberately ignoring his texts! So I think we could cut him some slack in any case.

I don't really agree with the assesment that he should've reached out to Blaine or Burt either, because Blaine would without question take Kurt's side (plus I'm actually not sure if Kurt ever told him about Karofsky's confession? Maybe I am just severely blanking and I'm only about to start rewatching S3, so. Feel free to correct me!) and I don't think Kurt wants to hear that right now. Kurt has a pretty active guilt conscience and internalizes all of his feelings before deciding to act on them. And Burt would take Kurt's side even more fiercely, plus I think he knows even less than Blaine - that is, Kurt never outed Dave to him so he does not know about the locker room kiss to begin with. Plus Burt already does not like Dave on top of that!

I'm not saying that Kurt wants to hear it's his fault, but he does blame himself, likely because he also struggled with passive suicidal thoughts (2009) and fully understands how alienating and downright dangerous it is to be known as the gay kid in Lima. So I think him reaching out to the God Squad (maybe even subconsciously to Mercedes, in a round about way) is very reasonable!

Oh S4 Hummelberry... I personally don't hate their friendship (or at least, don't like or hate it more than the average Kurt relationship) but I do wish Kurt didn't have to wear a muffler around her. I think that's also why Klaine is perceived so dysfunctional, because the story demands that Hummelberry don't go back into frenemies territory, so Blaine is like the only person Kurt is allowed to be messy with. But I also don't think it came out of left field, either?

I think Hummelberry was strongly hinted as early as Hairography. I think they are so similar in a lot of crucial ways that Kurt, who is insanely reserved and private, can open up to Rachel easily - he can externalize his feelings through her, bypassing this need to keep his heart strongly guarded with "I'm just giving advice to Rachel".

I do buy that they are so bipolar about each other too, flip-flopping between calling each other soulmates in the deleted yearbook scene and Rachel calling Kurt a "traitor who always secretly prayed for her downfall" in Trio. I actually wish we could've gotten more of this!

What I always found to be its saving grace is that I like this aspect of Kurt, that he is so sentimental for (and trauma bonded with) Rachel that it has the capacity to render him spineless? I find it really cute lol.

I also think Kurt is very susceptible to emotional manipulation - if you hit him with a sob enough story, he will 100% forgive you for whatever. And Rachel is so open about her misery it makes Kurt cave.

(Plus I think Rachel fits so neatly in Kurt's stan list so I buy that for that reason too.)

It just makes Kurt that much more sympathetic to me so I don't hate it as much, though I do wish that keeping him close to Rachel was not such a strong bottom line and could have been played around with more. I do prefer them as the frenemies they were in S1-2 and in the odd instances like Rachel running for senior class president as well and Diva.

As for S6, I don't hate that he is back at McKinley. The entirety of the season is themed around regression, so it makes sense that he runs back to the familiar misery of high school, in a way. What I find less talked about (perhaps due to S6 just not being a popular season) yet interesting enough to note here, is that I always thoight his inital plan for the work study year was so lazy to begin with (I say this with love because I think his laziness is also cute) since the retirement home did not have any high stakes to have to put on a great show and I feel most of the residents would go along with whatever Kurt wanted, so basically any complications or hardships you may face from a directing job are pretty much absent here LMAO. And then instead goes to coach a random ass glee club in the middle of nowhere like I KNOWWW his professors were like "Okay what the fuck is Kurt doing" between each other.

BUT! He is still stricken with grief plus went through another traumatic break up with Blaine. So, again, I'm willing to cut him slack.

I just think he is a pretty well rounded and well written character! And I get that I am lenient, maybe even blinded by favoritism masquerading as empathy, but I don't think his less rational choices are necessarily ooc.

Though I apologize if this response was not at all the one you were expecting LMAO...