#Evanora Harkness can suck my ASS

[lilithschosen]

You write angst so well, do you have any other angsty headcanons for Agatha?

👁️👄👁️ i had this thought the other day actually and was just waiting to expand on it

Agatha had Nicky out of a drunken one night stand with some dude she never knew and never wanted to know, solely because her mother told her she'd understand why her mother "wanted the best" for her when she had a child. that she'd never know "true love" until she had a child of her own.

when Nicky is born, she feels it. she gets it. the little, defenseless, pink, screaming thing that gets swaddled and placed on her chest has her believe it. she's never known a love like this, something so pure and raw and true.

she tries to live more authentically, for him. she dresses more masculine, tosses out the ugly sweaters and tighter clothes that her mother insisted she should wear. as he gets older it gets easier. she explains that mama doesn't like boys (but loves him), that sometimes families have two daddies or two mommies. that it's totally normal. when he asks, innocently, at 3 where his other mother is, Agatha just bursts into tears.

she tries dating, genuinely tries but no one sticks. she doesn't feel for anyone as deeply as she'd want, and certainly never brings anyone home to meet Nicky.

when he dies, she feels at fault. she feels like her mother was right all along. she shouldn't be trying to live in her sin, that she should've been happy with her child and that's that. she doesn't revert back to what her mother wished of her, the god fearing girl in dresses and skirts, but she hides away from the word "lesbian" and holds herself back. she doesn't let her mind descend into those urges, suppresses the yearning, and swallows down any bit of sapphicness she has inside

until Rio walks in through the precinct doors, standing with her sunglasses on, and that fucking badge around her neck.

Agatha feels it. her heart skips a beat, her breath gets stuck in her throat. something about a fed of all people gets a rise out of her, and not in the way she'd prefer. it had been too long since she had lost her son, but her heart aches in a way similar way.

when she kisses Rio for the first time, when Rio shows up on her doorstep with pizza in an attempt to become friendlier, she feels so elated and so proud of herself for giving into the urges she tried to pray away for ages. she knows deep down Nicky would be proud too.

[asterinthesiren]

THEORIES and THOUGHTS: AGATHA

This is the second part of my theories post, the first being about Billy! Again, this is going to be a three parter, because literally I have too many thoughts to contain in one post (I mean I can but that'll be entirely too long for y'all to read lmao)

Part 1 Billy | Part 2 Agatha | Part 3 Trial and Next Ep

Of course as always special mention to @justmonty because without her none of these theories would have been cooked at all! Hi queen ily

Alright HERE WE GO!

Next is our beloved problematic fave, middle-aged lesbian, Agatha Harkness. She is still shrouded in a lot of mystery, but the latest episode revealed a LOT about her.

So what we've learned is that Evanora Harkness is a bitch who never loved Agatha in the first place, the trial in the 1600s was way more layered than we thought, and that Nicky was at least 3 years old (remember the Ouija board instructions? ages 3 and up)(although that could also be a mention for the maiden, mother, crone thing, but it could be both! I digress)

Agatha cannot control her absorption magic, that is a fact. She begged Evanora to teach her how to control it, but she outright refused. And that's what she said in the trial too: "I cannot control it! If only you would teach me!" (Post here and amazing ass edit here). So we can conclude that this has been her struggle from the get-go. NOW, I POSIT:

WHAT IF the reason her mother hated her so much was because even in the womb she couldn't control her magic? What if instead of that power being her magic, it was a curse: to suck the power/life out of everyone who dares harm her? THEREFORE, knowing that Evanora was abusive from the start, what if Agatha's magic responded naturally to the abuse and started hurting whoever it was that tried to harm her--which in this case, is Evanora. Then, it was never a thirst for power; it was a curse.

Knowing Agatha, who internalizes so much trauma, what if the reason why she's so "evil" is because of her distorted thinking: "You think of me as a monster? Fine, I'll be one." Her love affair with Rio now fits the puzzle perfectly because Rio is the only one who can withstand that curse. This post sums it up perfectly: “Agatha is a soul who was meant to live but who everyone wanted dead - how could Death not fall in love with her?”

MORE THAN THAT, Death is so much like Agatha in this sense:

(thanks to @justmonty for sending me this!)

So knowing all this, that Agatha can't control her absorption magic...

What if that's how Nicky died?

Nicky, the young baby witch, still learning how to handle his magic, blasts Agatha with a small bit of his magic as she's trying to teach him...

And Agatha, fully knowing the consequences, but can't control herself otherwise (nor know how to give back the magic she absorbed)...

The rest is history.

AND THAT, my friends, is why Agatha was so hell-bent on finding the Darkhold, which from what we know of it so far, has resurrection spells. Beyond that, what if she wanted to try and break her curse, or learn how to control it, through the Darkhold?

Imagine: she had never once delved into dark magic ever, has already begged the most knowledgeable witch she knew to teach her how to control her magic, but not only does she get shunned by her, she gets shunned by her entire community and nearly gets executed from it. At this point, she accepts her fate: "If you think me evil, then let me be fucking evil."

Then she finally finds something to love and to live for--only for him to die at her hands through a curse that she has no control over.

AND THEN, she hears about the Darkhold. A sliver of hope against the bleakness of her existence--and still, it ended up turning her even more insane and cursed. Now, because of a witch who could have definitely helped her get her son back, all of her power and sense of self is gone.

Now here's a theory: what if Evanora got r*ped by a demon, and their offspring is Agatha?

I'm not saying Agatha is Mephisto's daughter, I'm just pointing out (with the help of @justmonty) that it would make a lot of sense why Evanora hated her so much. AND, going back to my first post about color theory, Agatha's magic colors would now make more sense: Evanora had blue magic, and let's say that whichever demon is her father had red magic.

What do red and blue make? PURPLE.

I rest my case.