#Estelle Lau

[cspasfan15]

TDA Orlando Predictions

Mini female

Top 20: navy Forrest, Elizabeth pugach, Amaya Rodriguez, Ella venerio, mila simunic, tinsley Wallace, Lainey Hess, Elliana macioce, Harper schwalb, Emma semtak, Reese braga, Marley Evans

Top 10: remi hilson, Antonia demartinis, Mikaela florez, leighton white, Amelia burres, lyric Simmons, Zoe ynguanzo

Top 3: Avery Altobelli, Sylvie win Szyndlar, Aliya yen, sienna dipietro

Mini Male

Top 3: jay ramos-Rivera, Rory Ross, Hudson Matthew’s, Isaiah santos

Junior Female

Top 20: Kendall brown, cydnee Abbott, Reagan Hess, Bianca rebellto, Elsie sandall, lily hackney, Estelle newsom, Leilani lawlor, Sara von rotz, Regan gerena

Top 10: olivia rose toneguzzo, madeleine shen, keringtyn spencer, ruby Arnold,Samantha geller, Berkeley scifres, Isabella zhong, Camila giraldo

Top 3: Helena olaerts, Anita Rodriguez, amabella tarrago, bristyn scifres

Junior male

Top 3: Gabriel gebara, Dylan Custodio, Josh Lundy, neo del corral

Teen Female

Top 20: ava d’ambrosio, miyah lagrant, Bella Rey d’armas, Jaya campagna Terrell, lekha rajkumar, savy luechtefeld, balbina cueva toussaint, joli du quenne, Brooklyn ladia, Stella eberts, Lilly Barajas

Top 10: desa jankes, Leila winker, braylynn grizzaffi, Hudson benayon, Hayley marshall, elie rabin

Top 3: Kylee casares, Bella rose Penrose, gracyn French, Giselle gandarilla

Teen Male

Top 20: Odin Baldwin, Nolan brinker, jack mckenzie, Holden griffin, nick d’ambrosio, Jayden hui, iain Cooke, jack Moore brown, Zolan laird

Top 10: Ryan Newman, Duane Ferguson, Sasha chernous, Anthony labritz, cam Williams, Angelo Durante, Jonathan archer

Top 3: Kylan wright, Blake metcalf, Kaden brown, garret sawyer

Senior female

Top 20: Elyse wingertsahn, Brooklyn law, Isabella bolivar Lopez, Ava Carroll, victoria reith, Gillian Gordon, Ellen grace olansen, sammi Chung

Top 10: preslie rosamond, sienna morris, Catherine Clayton, Savannah manning, Angel dimartino Palladio, Arianna quant, Lexi Blanchard, Ashley choy,

Top 3: Tatiana hagee, Sophie Garcia, dyllan Blackburn, sierra drayton

Senior male

Top 20: Patricio hoyo, Damian caraballo, Jayden lau, tyreke holt, Seth hendley, Anthony dessables, Alejandro Ruiz, Darius Goodson, Keaton Evans, Devon barner

Top 10: chance Phelps, skai llorente, cynsear epting, joshuah Rivera, Mekhi Johnson, Hugo Silva, Kaden Golding, Tristan gerzon, Jesse flaherty

Top 3: Nicholas bustos, Jackson roloff hafenbreadl, Sam Evans

[alldancersaretalented]

How many placing dancers won 1st at regionals (including Radix) - TDA Orlando

disclaimer: just thought it might be interesting, especially because certain dancers who won 4/4 times didn't place at all.

Minis that placed:

4/4: Avery Altobelli (1)

3/4: (0)

2/4: Mila Simunic, Mikaela Florez, Zoé Ynguanzo (3)

1/4: Ella Venerio, Amaya Rodriguez, Lainey Hess, Harper Schwalb, Navy Kate Forrest, Nyla McCarthy, Sheridan Kempton (7)

Dancers that won at regionals but didn't place in overalls at TDA ORL (only including dancers that scored a DJ's Pick!):

2/4: Lyric Simmons, Leighton White (2)

1/4: Mackenzie Presswood, Audrey Mikkelson, Elliana Macioce (3)

Juniors that placed:

4/4: Helena Olaerts (1)

3/4: Gabriel Gebara, Anita Rodriguez (2)

2/4: Dylan Custodio, Ellerie Cox, Lola Rodi (3)

1/4: Elsie Sandall, Amabella Tarrago, Neo Del Corral, Dakota Casteel, Victoria Oliveri, Samantha Geller, Isabella Zhong (7)

Dancers that won at regionals but didn't place in overalls at TDA ORL (only including dancers that scored a DJ's Pick!):

2/4: Kendall Brown, Collins Glenn (2)

1/4: Bianca Rebellato, Alexandra Mederos, Maddie Morton, Estelle Newsom, Paulina Sainz de Rozas Tamez, Grace McNeely (6)

Teens that placed:

4/4: Kylee Casares, Bella Rose Penrose (2)

3/4: Giselle Gandarilla, Desa Jankes (2)

2/4: Kylan Wright, Jacqueline Piles (2)

1/4: Gracyn French, Selah Wright, Hudson Benayon, Balbina Cueva Toussaint (4)

Dancers that won at regionals but didn't place in overalls at TDA ORL (only including dancers that scored a DJ's Pick!):

1/4: Ava D’Ambrosio, Jazmine Raine Werner, Joli DuQuenne (3)

Seniors that placed:

4/4: (0)

3/4: (0)

2/4: Jesse Flaherty, Jackson Roloff-Hafenbreadl, Sophie Garcia (3)

1/4: Sierra Drayton, Kennedy Clouse, Jayden Lau, Anthony Dessables (4)

Dancers that won at regionals but didn't place in overalls at TDA ORL (only including dancers that scored a DJ's Pick!):

3/4: Tatiana Hagee (1)

2/4: Savannah Manning (1)

1/4: Catherine Clayton, Patricio Hoyo, Victoria Reith (3)

[boroughshq]

WELCOME TO THE BOROUGHS, GIA! Hope the city is everything you dreamed it would be. Make sure to send your account in within 24 hours, and don't forget to follow the checklist as you get settled!

michelle yeoh as estelle lau

[ michelle yeoh, cis woman, she/her ] — whoa! ESTELLE LAU just stole my cab! not cool, but maybe they needed it more. they have lived in the city for 40 YEARS, working as a RESTAURANTEUR. that can’t be easy, especially at only 61 YEARS OLD. some people say they can be a little bit STOIC and A PERFECTIONIST, but I know them to be HUMBLE and EMPATHETIC. whatever. I guess I’ll catch the next cab. hope they like the ride back to MANHATTAN! — (gia, replacing andrea!)

[thecraggus]

Open Water (2003) isn't really a bad shark movie, it's a movie with sharks in it. #SharkWeak4 Review

Open Water (2003) isn't really a bad shark movie. It's a #SharkWeak4 bycatch. #Review

Like dolphins caught up in a tuna net, the trawl of the murky depths of bad shark movies occasionally hauls in something which either isn’t a terrible movie or, even rarer, isn’t really a shark movie. OPEN WATER is one of the latter. Based on (well, extrapolated from) the story of real-life couple Tom and Eileen Lonergan who, while on vacation in 1998 went out with a scuba diving group to dive…

[lifejustgotawkward]

365 Day Movie Challenge (2017) - #197: Open Water (2003) - dir. Chris Kentis

Good Lord, Open Water is terrifying. I have always had a fear of drowning, a worry heightened by the fact that I have never been able to let myself learn to swim (trust me, I have been trying my whole life). Despite this, I don’t usually feel this fear when watching movies about dangerous situations involving water. Not Titanic, not The Poseidon Adventure, not The Last Voyage, not even Dunkirk; I always separate the cinematic experience from real life. But something about the documentary-like verisimilitude of Open Water, in which a couple, Susan Watkins (Blanchard Ryan) and Daniel Kintner (Daniel Travis), are stranded in the middle of the shark-ridden depths of the Atlantic Ocean when their Caribbean scuba diving group’s boat leaves without them, hit me so much harder than I expected.

The raw simplicity of Susan and Daniel’s efforts to survive will slowly eat away at you. The two leads both do really well in roles that must have been both physically and emotionally taxing, but Blanchard Ryan does a particularly good job as Susan. (I would love to know why she hasn’t had a bigger film/TV career in the years since this breakthrough performance.) Open Water is the definition of independent filmmaking, a project made for a low budget ($500,000) but making the most of the intimacy inherent in the use of only two actors in one location for the bulk of the story. Mirroring the main characters embroiled in the film’s dilemma, Open Water was made by a couple: husband Chris Kentis wrote, directed and edited the film, and he served as co-cinematographer with his wife, Laura Lau; Laura, in turn, produced the film with her sister, Estelle. (You may also know Kentis and Lau’s two other films: the indie drama Grind (1997), starring Billy Crudup and Adrienne Shelly, and the horror flick Silent House (2011), starring Elizabeth Olsen.) Open Water is a work of fiction - albeit one based on elements of various true stories - but it will certainly make you think twice about the choices you make when you go on vacation.

[numbersagency]

Paging all agents, do you copy? It’s finally here! Acceptance day! Thank you to everyone for applying, it really means the world to me. With that, the following applicants have been accepted. You have 24 hours to send in your account. Please make sure to read through our guidelines and checklist. 

THEODORA WEBER aka AGENT WEAVER in CATEGORY 3 (CARLA GUGINO FC) by KATE

IMANI WASHINGTON aka AGENT PINK in CATEGORY 3 (MEAGAN GOODE FC) by ENCI

NOAH NAVARRO aka AGENT IRON in CATEGORY 2 (PETER GADIOT FC) by BETHANY

MALCOLM O'SULLIVAN aka AGENT HONEY in CATEGORY 5 (MADS MIKKELSEN FC) by KELLY

ESTELLE LAROCHE aka AGENT ORION in CATEGORY 4 (LEA SEYDOUX FC) by KAY

SÉBASTIAN ALAIN LŒWE aka AGENT PROTEUS in CATEGORY 5 (KEANU REEVES FC) by WREN

CASSANDRA BARLOW aka AGENT BARDOT in CATEGORY 1 (MARGOT ROBBIE FC) by PISCES

LYRA LAU aka AGENT NEMESIS in CATEGORY 4 (GEMMA CHAN FC) by HECATE

MICAELA LEONE aka AGENT JANUARY in CATEGORY 3 (TROIAN BELLISARIO FC) for CARO

ABRAHAM ANAHERA aka AGENT MARTYR in CATEGORY 4 (JEMAINE CLEMENT FC) for JUB

DELILAH SARGENT aka AGENT FORTUNA in CATEGORY 3 (ZOE KRAVITZ FC) for LIVIA

JULIAN ROMERO aka AGENT ROMEO in CATEGORY 4 (OSCAR ISAAC FC) for JAM

ARTEMISA “MISHA” FOX aka AGENT TRAVIATA in CATEGORY 3 (ANA DE ARMAS FC) for TARYN

ANDREA HOFFMAN aka AGENT HOFFA in CATEGORY 2 (JENNY SLATE FC) for HANNA

ZENJI SAITOU aka AGENT SAINT in CATEGORY 4 (ANDREW KOJI FC) for FAAYA

SELINA VALE aka AGENT DOMINO in CATEGORY 4 (RACHEL MCADAMS FC) for TALIA

EDWARD MADDEN aka AGENT HERRING in CATEGORY 3 (RYAN GOSLING FC) for CHLOE

JAMIE “JAMES” ANDERSON aka AGENT MALIBU in CATEGORY 4 (SEBASTIAN STAN FC) for MEG

BRUCE CHOI aka AGENT DOLOS in CATEGORY 3 (JI JIN HEE FC) for RED

ROSIE JIANG aka AGENT SILK in CATEGORY 5 (MICHELLE YEOH FC) for BUFFY

[braveryhearted]

new multi-muse ask meme!  

send me a   “🐆”  and i’ll randomize our muse lists and suggest a few random pairings for us to try out.

( accepting )

@despairfiles​ said: 🐆

Archer - Sephiroth ( lmao ) Dracula - Xelloss Musashi Miyamoto - Zelgadiss Greywords Valvatorez - Byakuya Kuchiki Van Helsing - Lau Lord El Melloi II - Hijikata Toshiro Angra Mainyu - Micaiah ( help us all ) Rufus Shinra - Nagi Usui ( lmao ) Dracula - Niles / Zero ( lmao ) Komaru Naegi - Law Angra Mainyu - Maya Amano Dracula - Madame Red Van Helsing - Ren Tsugura Kiritsugu Emiya - Hishima Sakazuki Van Helsing - Noctis Lucis Caelum Rufus Shinra - Noctis Lucis Caelum Van Helsing - Zelgadiss Greywords Kiritsugu Emiya - Dante Sparda Lord El Melloi II - Hatori Sohma Van Helsing - Micaiah Dracula - Micaiah Musashi Miyamoto - Ronald Knox Shirou Emiya - Law Shirou Emiya - Kyon Archer - Roy Mustang Raidou Kuzunoha XL - Labrys Lord El Melloi II - Takasugi Shinsuke Shirou Emiya - Saguru Hakuba Kiritsugu Emiya - Byakuya Kuchiki Musashi Miyamoto - Roy Mustang Archer - Aerith Gainsborough Dracula - Barnaby Brooks Jr. Musashi Miyamoto - Sougo Okita Shirou Emiya - Akihiko Sanada Dracula - Diego Brando Rantaro Amami - Tamaki Amajiki Rufus Shinra - Athena Cykes Kiritsugu Emiya - Alvin / Alfred Vint Svent Kyoko Kirigiri - Naoto Shirogane Kyoko Kirigiri - Kyon Rufus Shinra - Maya Amano Dracula - Nero de Angelo Van Helsing - Hishima Sakazuki Kyoko Kirigiri - Kyoko Mogami Van Helsing - Barnaby Brooks Jr. Shirou Emiya - Yuuki Sohma Kyoko Kirigiri - Saguru Hakuba Shirou Emiya - Estelle / Estellise Sidos Heurassein Musashi Miyamoto - Sebastian Michaelis Raidou Kuzunoha XL - Shoka Sakurane Dracula - Hijikata Toshiro Archer - Alphen Shirou Emiya - Death the Kid Archer - Sho Minamimoto Van Helsing - Maya Amano Van Helsing - Alphen Kyoko Kirigiri - Heiji Hattori Kyoko Kirigiri - Ling Yao Van Helsing - Ronald Knox Dracula - Alphen Kyoko Kirigiri - Shiho Miyano Archer - Gintoki Sakata Musashi Miyamoto - Niles / Zero Rufus Shinra - Dante Sparda Kiritsugu Emiya - Simon Blackquill Shirou Emiya - Heiji Hattori

[dolls-and-cats]

Hey y'all,

This is an article about Estelle Pau-On Lau, the mom of one of my friends. She died a couple of years ago. Like fictional Nanea, she witnessed the Pearl Harbor attack as a child living in Hawaii. And later, as a historian, she traveled to witness the signing of the Japanese peace treaty.

[soonwellbefoundfic]

being confused just takes control..

marlee.

"Why you not pick up? I worry for you!"

"I'm sorry, Lau." I spoke through a yawn. "I've been in and out of sleep."

"Where you is?"

His question made me pause. My eyes glazed over the span of the hotel suite I'd been calling home for nearly a week now.

"Bob!" He pressed.

"I'm not home." I told him, chewing my lip.

"I know that! I go there." His declaration shocked me. Last I'd checked he was in LA. "Where you is?"

"I don't wanna tell you," I muttered, scratching my scalp.

To say I'd let myself go would be a complete understatement. I hadn't put a comb to my head in days. My skin was dry and lacked its normal glow. The only thing I bothered to do was shower and to be honest I didn't want to do that. It was the sporadic spotting due to the abortion the forced me to clean myself.

"Why not?!"

"Because,” I paused with an inward sigh. “You're gonna tell your brother and I don't want to see him."

He blew out a sigh. "I not tell him anything!"

"You tell him everything." I stressed, rolling my eyes despite the fact that he couldn't see me.

"If you say dong tell him I won't."

"Whatever, Lau."

"Bob." He sighed. "I just need to see you okay."

"I'm fine."

"Marlee Estelle Bourgeois." I cringed at the name. At this point I'd go back to Nichols with no complaints.

I hesitated but caved, knowing he wouldn't let up. "If I tell you will you bring me food?"

"I bring whatever you need."

And he did.

Less than an hour later I was rummaging curiously through the bag he'd brought. Amongst all the items was the most important – sanitary napkins.

"I'm surprised you got the right ones. Larry always fucks up." His name on my tongue annoyed me.

I talked about him so much but it was difficult not to. So many areas of my life revolved around him. It was maddening.

"I better." Laurent smirked.

“True.” I mumbled, cracking open the Honeybun I'd requested. “Can you heat this for like, 15 seconds?”

Laurent wordlessly complied and when the sweet treat was to my liking he handed it back to me. I ate in silence mentally preparing myself for any questions my beloved brother would ask. He was too quiet and he was never quiet so that only meant that he had tons to say.

To my dismay, his silence lasted through my Honeybun and half my bag of Doritos. It was torturous. I wanted so badly to know what was going on in that head of his. My paranoia made me itch with a fear that Lau knew why I was here and what I'd done.

Could he smell the stench left from the sterile clinic in my pores? Did my body look different? Was I bathed in guilt? Apathy?

Not knowing where his head was killed me. His silence was torture. And the void it left needed to be filled.

“I want a divorce.” My lungs nearly popped from the pressure of saying the words aloud as I had never done so.

The declaration wasn't refreshing or liberating. I didn't feel better but worse. My biggest fear would play out because words were powerful. I'd put it out into the universe after fiddling with the thought for months and eventually it would materialize.

“Bob,” Lau started with a pained expression.

Seconds prior I'd craved his voice, or any sound from him, but now I didn't want to hear it. I knew his lips would spew words designed to alter my decision, or defend his brother.

“I'm getting a divorce.” I reiterated, refusing to let him say whatever he wanted to say.

My voice was stronger, full of purpose and my eyes full of tears.

"What are you doing?" He whirled around, seemingly surprised by my presence.

"I look through pictures." His eyes were warm, inviting and hopeful.

A few days had passed since my doctors appointment and I'd mostly avoided him. I was surprised yet appreciative that he let me. I needed the time. My thoughts were mostly redundant and my memories stagnant. It wasn't necessarily that I didn't know what I wanted it was more so the fact that I didn't know what to say to him.

My memories told the tale of a woman who evaded serious conversations – much like I was doing now. When Larry did his dirty work I solely acted on how I felt, I never said anything because I felt like he should've known. He out of all people was the closest to me. He was the sole person who had access to all parts of me. He was most in tune with my wants, my needs, the things that made me happy and the things that made me sad. He was most in tune with my emotions and with that fact came a responsibility. I expected him to know better and do better. And he didn't.

His lack of compassion led to my apathy. I kicked him out, then fled when I knew he would return, then aborted the child we'd conceived and finally filed for divorce – all without cluing him in because he of all people should have know why.

With the exception of the pregnancy I felt that explaining to him why my acts were a result of his actions was fruitless. He was an adult with common sense – he knew better. But now as I found myself repeating the same shit I wondered if I should take a different course of action. I was experiencing those same emotions that I'm sure I harbored in the past when we were actually falling apart but I didn't know how to express them. I didn't know what to say to him.

Was yelling at the top of my lungs as I stood before him the best tactic or was sitting and calm;y explaining a better route?

I was clueless, and as I watched him watch me I felt all the words I'd wanted to say retracing their steps away from the tip of my tongue. It took mere seconds for them to become a crowded mess in my brain again.

“Come see.”

I accepted the invitation, taking a seat opposite him on the coach. Being near him is the first step, I told myself hoping the words would eventually follow if I didn't try and force them.

The relief that flashed in his eyes nearly made me weep.

Despite everything he wanted me. Was this how I'd been with him in the past? Had I remained hopeful even as he pushed me away?

"I find this disk I forget all about." He explained gesturing towards the TV even as he looked at me.

My brows rose. "Disk?"

"You get scare of losing pictures or maybe damage them so you take to get backed up on DVD."

"Oooh." I nodded my understanding.

My eyes moved to the screen just in time to catch a picture of a younger Larry.

"You were so skinny.” I chuckled.

“You remember take these?” He quizzed and I narrowed my eyes on the cool toned photo of the twins.

“No.” I tilted my head as though it would jog my memory. “It's terrible.”

The picture was easily ten years old, and everything about it technically made me cringe. Then again, I was younger with none of the experience and expertise I had now. Mentally letting myself off of the hook, I peered at my husband and his twin, taking in the many ways they'd physically changed.

“Lau get so mad because he say you make me look better.” He cackled when the next picture came up.

“I probably did just to spite him.” I shrugged, as my gaze roamed over Larry's tattoo-less frame. “He was annoying as fuck back then.”

“I can't wait to tell him that!” He laughed. “Every time he see this picture my brother get mad and say the same thing. And you always deny but now you not remember you say the truth.”

His laughter brightened the room and I rolled my eyes with faux annoyance. “You bet not say shit to him.”

“He would get so mad! I swear!” He laughter hardened at the thought of agitating his twin.

Kissing my teeth, I playfully cut my eyes at him. “Go to the next picture.”

“Who is that?” I tilted my head, peering at me and a blonde haired girl that hadn't been in any of my memories.

Larry chuckled. “One of Lau's exes.”

The next picture was of me and another unfamiliar face. “Another ex?”

“Yeah.”

“What the fuck?” I shook my head with confusion. “Am I the president of Laurent's harem? Did I even like them?”

“I think you do,” He shrugged. “They both nice but not really talk to you after my twin be stupid.”

I made a sound in my throat but said nothing as Larry clicked forward to the next picture.

My breathing completely stopped when a younger me sans clothes and common sense consumed the screen. My eyes widened to double their size as I took in my too thin eyes brows, red tinged hair and thinner frame.

“Larry, what the fuck?!” His laughter filled the room yet again only this time I didn't find anything funny. I was confused. “Why the hell am I naked?!”

“I love this picture.” He sang as his eyes roam across the screen. “You don't remember this?”

“No!”

He chuckled. “You do this for my birthday.” His hand moved to his chin, rubbing the sparse hairs there as his eyes stared unmovingly at the screen. “This my favorite picture.”

“Who even took this? What was I even doing?” I was in utter disbelief.

This move totally sounded like something I would do for him but it was weird seeing it. Seeing me – my younger self, before marriage and failed pregnancies and stress from life posing candidly for my man, my love.

“You take. With time thing.” He explained, still looking at the screen.

“I don't remember my hair ever being red.” I noted, swallowing my initial shock.

“You change it fast.” My response took form as a distant sound in the back of my throat. “You send nudes always. I don't know why you so shocked.”

“This ain't just a nude.” I chuckled. “It was planned. This looks good.”

“Believe me,” He eyed me with a mischievous smirk. “They all look good.”

“I guess it's just weird seeing me at the stage of my life. I know this is when were happy.” My words were enough to disintegrate his smile.

“We go through a lot but I think we mostly always happy. I want you to know that.” His voice had taken on a solemn quality.

“I do.” I nodded. “But you know, the bad has a way of smudging out the good.”

“If you let it.” He muttered, switching to another picture.

“Wow.” I tooked in the aged photo. “I don't remember my granny much but I dreamed about her the other night.”

“What happen?”

“Uh – I was grown and she kept asking me about the baby.”

“Oh.” His voice and eyes dimmed.

“It kinda fucked with me but that's all my brain seems to do anyway.” I shrugged.

“You talk about her a lot – you used to.” Larry supplied the information with ease. “But she die when you young – 12 years old.”

“I loved her.” I knew that to be a fact.

I couldn't really remember or voice or envision her face without pictures but I knew she meant a lot to me. She was a safe haven, a major pillar in my life. She was my peace.

Larry slowly clicked to the next picture which dragged me further into my emotions. It was my mom and I. Sensing that he would skip it for the sake of my mental state, I grabbed the remote.

“I um –“ I cleared my throat as my eyes roamed the picture. “It was her birthday the other day.”

His expression told me he knew. “Why you not say anything?”

“Why didn't you?” I shot back and he shrugged. I didn't need his verbal answer because I already knew it. He didn't want to make me sadder than I already was.

“With losing my memory I kinda feel like I'm living some sort of weird ass second life. It's hard to explain but –“ I paused, peering at my mom. “It feels like my mom and my granny are only people that I've heard really detailed stories about. Like, you know how someone tells you about a person and you start to feel like you know them?”

He nodded as his eyes moved cautiously over my face. I could sense that he was waiting, and preparing himself, for me to crack. I wouldn't.

“That's how I feel. It's fucked up because I know my mom and granny – knew them. But it feels like I didn't. It feels like in this life,” I quoted with my fingers. “I'm super disconnected from them. My memories of them are sparse and far apart. It's weird.” I sighed, moving to the next picture before eyes that used to calm me like no other deduced me to tears.

“Chink,” Larry called only to be ignored.

“This bitch.” I hissed, eyeing a picture of Erin and I on somebody's beach.

“You know, we can not look at this right now.” Larry went for the remote but I quickly dodged him, switching to the next picture. “Come walk Millie with me and then we eat.”

“I'm fine, Larry.” He sighed but didn't protest as another picture of Erin and I came up.

“You remember a lot for her?”

“Hmmm.” I hummed. “I do but I swear in every memory me and her are fucking arguing.”

His brows rose. “Really?”

“Yeah, makes me wonder how we were ever even friends.”

“Maybe is just what you remember because you get along good with her. I mean, you fight sometimes like me and Lau but who don't.”

His words were hard to process and even harder to believe. My memories had shaped Erin to be more of a frenemy than anything.

“Well,” I sighed as another picture of my mom and I came up. I could tell it was around the time she started getting sicker. “She wasn't such a good friend after all was she?”

Larry knew exactly what I was talking about and I could tell from the look in his eyes that he didn't want to linger on the subject. He was smart.

“Where were we?” I paused on a picture of me in the pool.

He chuckled. “How you know I take this?”

“Wild guess.” I rolled my eyes.

“Tulum.”

“Old pictures of you make so happy.” I murmured, peering at a younger photo of him that I'd probably taken.

“Why?”

“I don't know.” I whispered the lie.

Old photos of Larry represented a love that was true – one without betrayal and lies and secrets. Old photos of him represented a time where he saw only me. A time where he considered himself to be deserving of my love and saw me as being equally as worthy of his – all of it. In the past I had no doubts or worries or fears – I had hope for a forever and Larry, then, embodied that. He'd been my future, my salvation – my remedy.

Silence drifted into the room and I did nothing to push it away. I used the silence to my advantage, focusing solely on bits and pieces of my past.

Jumbled up on this lone photo disk was everything. Things I'd forgotten, things I remembered. There were pictures of me as a lass, photos with family members I'd some how forgotten, pictures of the twins and all their awkwardness. The disk that I'd had made due to my paranoia was now acting as my saving grace.

It was proof that I had indeed lived a full life where I'd been happy and whole.

“What do you want to eat?” I quizzed, knowing I needed to talk to him. I'd look at pictures all day to avoid the task and I knew doing so was bad for both of us.

“It's a Brazillian spot down the street, or Mr. Chow.” I shook my head, knowing I didn't wanna go to Mr. Chow. That place put my mind too close to Pierre.

“I kinda want breakfast.”

“Cafeteria?”

“Yeah,” I muttered still halfheartedly clicking through the pictures.

“Okay, I walk Millie first then we–“ My gasp cut him off.

“Chink!” He called, seeing what I saw.

Acting fast, he went for the remote but it was too late. My eyes burned from familiarity, my heart ached from remembrance.

I dropped my face into my hands, wanting to unsee my bronzed skin, untamed hair and vivid green bikini because with those components came a protruding belly that housed a baby that hadn't made it. A precious baby boy named Laurent. An angel Larry had the chance to see and hold before he passed on.

My baby was only a part of my imagination. Up until this moment I'd never seen a picture of me pregnant. I had no stretch marks or maternity clothes. I had nothing but distant memories and the words of Larry.

“Fuck,” I whimpered, feeling Larry's arms along with a ton of dread wrapped around me.

Instead of soothing me he smothered me in angst, and regret. His warm hold felt constricting instead of comforting. His low murmurs echoed in my ears, morphing into rage filled howls. Even his scent that was usually tantalizing now reeked of bitterness and ire.

I winced as he apologized. His 'sorrys' and 'I didn't knows' pounded shards of repentance deeper into my heart. My pain coiled around my spine, blinding me with agony. With every second it intensified as the source shifted. Soon my tears weren't based on the child I'd just seen encased in my tanned belly – the one I'd lost. My tears now derived from the child that I hadn't allowed a chance to make my belly swell – the one I'd gotten rid of.

“I'm so sorry, Larry.” I croaked, my chest rattling as the words came to life on my tongue. “I'm sorry.”

“Marlee, it's okay, my baby.” He cooed, peppering kisses on my forehead.

He rocked me like a child, determined to dead my pain. He coddled and cosseted me when it should have been the other way around.

Larry was so many things. He was selfish and self-serving but nestled between the two was selflessness. It amazed and saddened me at the first same time.

In a matter of months I remembered a man who'd left me hanging when I needed him most while also experiencing a man who would carry me on his back to peace with his last bit of strength.

I could remember loosing our first child and feeling alone even though I wasn't. Larry had been there for me in every way yet I managed to push him away. We fought a lot and when we weren't fighting I was busy isolating myself. I remember feeling like loosing my baby affected only me, though Larry had lost the same thing. I'd blamed myself because it was my body that was designed to house and nurture our child and hadn't.

The second time around had been even more difficult. Reality had set in, making it apparent that I wouldn't be a mother without certain stipulations – stipulations that excluded my body as a whole. We had options, surrogacy and adoption, but I had no interest in either. And I think my failure to comply, mixed with my depression and overall poor attitude encouraged Larry to distance himself from. I didn't blame myself completely but I understood the part I played in that phase of our marriage.

By the third pregnancy, which was anything but planned, our marriage was inches away from the dumpster. In fact, immediately after the child was conceived what was left of our union deteriorated. My fears of both having another warped pregnancy and being alone led me to the abortion clinic. It had been a solo effort that Larry hadn't known about until after and in retrospect I felt terrible about it. And those feelings were raining down on me like shards of glass.

“Stop cry,” He urged as my wails grew in strength and sound, rattling my body. “Please don't cry, baby.” His lips were close to my ear, making it impossible for me to miss the pain webbed between his words.

He'd lost what I lost, I reminded myself. And he'd just seen the very same picture I'd seen yet instead of reacting to his own trauma he worked to rid of mine.

“Larry,” I murmured, freeing myself from his hold. “I'm so sorry.”

I was able to easily spot the confusion on his face even beyond the blur of my tears.

“Sorry – why baby?” He pulled me back to him but his eyes never flitted from my face.

“The abortion – I'm so sorry I got the abortion.” He froze and every part of him that was warm went cold.

His grip loosened before eventually falling away, leaving me to drift alone in my self-inflicted misery.

“Wha?” He blinked, furrowing sparse brows.

“I remembered,” I rasped.

A heavy bang at the door yanked me from my midday nap. Over and over a fist pounded at the door, fueling my anger and quickening my steps.

My quick movements caused a slight amount of pain to tug at my womb but my eagerness to figure out what the fuck was going on forced me to brush it off.

Not using my best judgment, I ignored both the peephole and ability of my own voice to figure out who the maniac on the other side of the door was.

I yanked the door open only to be met with the reddened face of my husband. His eyes were red and I couldn't tell if he'd been crying, if he was high or if he was suffering from extreme exhaustion.

"What you did?!"

"How did you find out where I was?" I asked though I already knew.

"I ask you one time and don't lie to me," His heat pressed against me as he moved forward. His anger pressed into my neck, making it hard to breathe. "Did you get abortion?"

The question was posed in the calmest manner but I saw right through it. I heard the slight rattle of his voice, felt his fury radiating off of his lengthy frame. And his fear, I could've smelled it from a mile away – it reeked, poisoning my suite with its pungent flare.

"Answer!"

My sharp intake of air soiled my calm façade just as his quivering voice had done his.

"If you're asking the question you already know the answer." I muttered numbly, moving away from him and further into the suite.

His hand curling around my wrist stopped me. "Say you lie, please?" He pleaded as his grip grew more constricting with every syllable. "Please," He begged.

I didn't respond. I couldn't.

"Marlee, please baby, tell me is not true." He was desperate for a truth I could not give him.

With a sigh, I dislodged my wrist, ignoring the present throb. "I can't carry children to term, Larry."

His neck nearly snapped in two as he jerked his head back. His nostrils threatened to tear as they flared and his every cranial vein pushed his skin to the limit, protruding dangerously.

"You said it yourself, my body can't carry kids." The 'private' conversation he'd had with his twin had nothing to do with this but I didn't care.

"You get abortion – yes or no?"

"Larry—"

"Yes or no?!" He roared, disturbing everything in the room.

"Yes!"

The silence that filled the space was deafening. The pressure made my eardrums pop and eyes water.

He was so still and so quiet that had I not been looking at him I would've been sure that he was gone. But he was wasn't. He was still there rooted in his spot as though he was glued there.

His eyes blazed with enough fire to wipe out of New York as he glared at me. I'd never seen so much disgust in his eyes – felt so much hate. My glare matched his, going against everything that I ever thought we would be.

Here we were, staring each other down, in a hotel suite I'd run away to after aborting his child, with enough heat and energy to build an atomic bomb. I never dreamed we'd turn into this. I never foresaw myself looking at him with such repulsion. I was nauseous and it had nothing to do with what I'd paid a doctor to do to me.

"I don't know why you mad – you don't even fucking want me." I snapped, pacing around his frozen frame. "Why don't you go have a baby with that Luzy bitch."

My words jolted him to life and within seconds he was in my face. His atomic heat melted away my resistance but I refused to crack. I refused to reveal that inside I was weeping and still longing for everything that he was.

“Don't ever say that shit to me again,” His voice was a low growl.

“Whatever.” I muttered, not knowing what part set him off the most – the part about him not wanting me or the part about Luzy.

“Y–you get pregnant and not tell me, Chink?” His voice cracked despite his effort to keep it steady.

“I called you, and where the fuck were you?! Where the fuck were you?” I pushed him and when that wasn’t enough I slammed a fist into his chest. “Huh?!”

“Stop touch me.”

“Fuck you, Larry!” My fist met his chest again.

“Fuck me?” His eyes blazed with fury. “You say fuck me when I come to you after find out that you get abortion? You my wife, Marlee.”

“And it seems that you only remember that when shit don’t go your way.” I scoffed. “I can’t have kids, Larry. I didn’t need your permission or approval to do what I did.”

“Is just as much my baby too, Marlee! How you so selfish?!”

“Selifish?”

“That’s what I say.” He deadpanned. “All this times we try for baby and it never be right because of whatever and you just get rid of one and it can be okay.”

A gnarly mixture of disbelief, anger and pain marred his face. His eyes blazed, showing his fury – they matched mine but our anger was rooted from two different places.

“And if it wasn’t?” I challenged only for him to refuse me an answer. “I can’t take another failed pregnancy, Larry. I’m not strong enough for that.”

“You say it like you have to be strong by yourself.”

“I don’t have you! Fuck you mean?!”

“I'm not you boyfriend or some guy you just fuck – I'm your husband!” He roared. “A decision like that can't be made without me!”

“Now you wanna be my husband.” My laughter was cold. “Get the fuck out.”

“I not leave until you tell me why you did what you did,” He growled, stepping even closer to me. “And why I go to Erin house to look for you and she tell me you have abortion?”

His admission knocked my world off its axis and nearly knocked me off my feet. My mouth fell open but nothing came out – not even a whisper of a breath..

“Answer!” He roared, pressing his forehead angrily to mine.

Ignoring both Larry and his rage, I moved away from him and over to the bed where I'd discarded a pair of sweats. Once they were covering my legs, I went for the pair of Jordans that hadn't housed my feet since I checked in days ago.

I felt Larry following me and heard his voice but my severe tunnel vision disabled my ability to react to him. Robotically I moved around the room, dressing and murmuring to myself. When I was dressed I spared him one last glance before leaving him alone in the suite.

His calls were all that followed me as I moved down the hall towards the elevator with my key card in my pocket and rage in my heart.

"A huge part of me feels like I made the right choice based on my physical ability to carry a child and my mental stability when it came to not being able to but—" I paused as Larry wiped at tears that wouldn't stop streaming. "I know my health wasn’t the only factor in my decision." I admitted to him for what I was sure to be the first time.

My memories painted a picture of an apathetic me, one who hadn't cared how Larry felt about the decision I'd made. I wanted redemption, though I was sure if I could do everything all over again I would've made the same choice while being more cognizant of Larry and his feelings.

"I was hurt and bitter and lonely but regardless of all of that I should have never excluded you from that decision." I sighed. “I'm sorry for that.”

“I forgive you.” I was more than positive that he'd said the words aloud moreso for himself than me. He needed that, and I understood.

“Thank you.” I whispered as his face nestled against my neck.

My hands moved to his scalp in an effort to comfort but deep down I knew there was nothing any part of me could do to make him feel at ease. I was lifting rugs, sending everything we'd swept under them flying everywhere. We were both uncomfortable – me because I was forcing myself to expose my deepest, most inner thoughts and him because I was bringing up shit he longed to forget.

"I remember thinking that you didn't want me and that you wanted Luzy because she could give you what I couldn't – and when she said that exact thing in those texts something in me died." I wanted to put him as close to knowing why I'd done what I'd done. He would never understand or relate but I wanted to grant him as much clarity as possible – even if he didn't want it.

"For years I felt like shit because I couldn't give you a baby. And I know it hurt you that I wouldn't try with other options like surrogacy." I sniffed, ignoring the fresh wave of tears that drifted down my face.

His lifted his head, peering at me with the saddest eyes I'd ever seen. They were damp and red but I knew he wouldn't cry. His selflessness would tug him away from his own emotions to tend to mine. And to prove my point, he reached out swiping my tears away with a gentle thumb.

"But I think you think I get mad and blame you and I don't." He insisted. "Yes, I want my way and I want baby but I understand and respect your feelings."

"Yet you went and told another woman about our... issues. You confided in her. You exposed my biggest flaw to her and," I wiped roughly at my face, completely over the waterworks. "I know you weren't being malicious but it felt like it."

"I just talk to her like my friend. I never complain or talk bad for you I just think I can trust her and tell her some things." He gripped my hand. “And I'm sorry for that. I know what she do embarrass you and make you look crazy and everything I say to her not right – I know this. Chink, I never love her or even want her – she just remind me of you when you happy and–“

“I hate when you say that.” I snatched my hand away from his. “Because I would never in a million years do what she did! So don't tell me that she reminded you of me. I'm not like that.”

“I'm sorry.” He quickly apologized and I nodded my acceptance.

Quiet consumed the room and I briefly wondered if we were even getting anywhere. We were exposing old wounds and saying things we should have said eons ago but for what? Were we trying to move on together? Or move on from each other? Was this closure? Or the peace we both longed for?

“How did this become us?” My questioned prompted more tears.

“We make so many mistakes.” He took my hand in his. “But I never stop loving you, Marlee.”

“How?!” I sniffed. “I did such a terrible thing to you.”

He frowned. “How you can ask me that when you love me no matter what I do? In the past and even stupid shit I do just 3 months ago?”

I shook my head. “I forgot everything – you never did.”

“And now you remember all the things I not want you to. So you don't love me anymore – because you remember?”  His next breath was dependent on my response.

“Of course I love you.” I was almost offended.

“So I supposed to stop love you after you make one mistake when you love me no matter how many dumb shit I do?” I didn't answer – I couldn't answer.

He stared at me with an almost peeved expression, making me feel foolish. I totally understood what he was saying but what I'd done – the way I'd done it – was a lot.

“What you do,” He sighed, looking off. “It kill me. It break my heart – bad. And for so long I live my life angry about it – angry about you not tell me, about how I find out, about how I never know why,” He trailed off as his eyes trailed over the open space of our livingroom.

“I'm still pissed.” He looked down at me, not bothering to tend to my tears this time around. “I pissed off that you didn't tell me, that I was not there to hold you and make sure you okay when you do it – and I'm pissed off because I never know if that baby was a healthy one.” He breathed a sigh that caused his body to vibrate.

“Larry–“ I whimpered only for his voice to stampede over mine.

“But I know your fear and I have that fear too so I would have never in my life asked you to even be pregnant long enough to know if that baby was healthy – I just wish so bad that I was a part of that decision.” His weeping eyes fell onto mine. “But I get it – I know you and everything I do and I get it. You wrong for it but you human. I put you through so much and not be there when you need me so you act  without me. I get it.” He was pounding the declaration into his own head. “But I'm still pissed.”

By now my tears had blurred my vision completely, making a mess of me. I sniffed and snotted, quaking against Larry as a mixture of guilt, angst and longing loomed in my lungs.

“Marlee, you have to forgive yourself.” Larry spoke, gripping my chin and raising my head. “This not about me forgive you – you have to forgive you first.”

“I can't.” I whined, covering my face with my hands.

“If you don't how you be happy – how we can be happy?” His speaking of a we made my soul quake.

I wanted so badly understand my feelings but I knew I never would, and because of that I wanted to bottle them up and toss them away. My memory wasn't sharp enough to understand. I felt disconnect from myself and damned near every decision that I'd ever made. The only thing I was sure I'd done right at this point was love Larry.

“I don't know.”

“I remember even when we young you feel like you don't deserve so many things – even me. You focus so much on all the bad that happen to you in your life that you try to push away the good because you think you not deserve it, or something bad happen to it.” He pulled my hands away from my face and stroked his fingers gently over my eyes, granting me sight. “You deserve everything you want, Chinky.”

He caressed my cheeks and stroked the pad of his thumb over my lips. “And I pray so hard to god that you still want me.”

-

I hope we can start brand new ‘cause I don’t wanna lose you..

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Books posted in September 2019

Here is the list of the 53 books that I posted on this site, JewishBookWorld.org in September 2019. The image above contains some of the covers. The bold links take you to the book’s page on Amazon; the “on this site” links to the book’s page on this site.

A.D.D Diaries of A Mad Curly Mixed Jew: funny stories and poems to live by by Emma Estrada (on this site)

And the Bride Closed the Door by Ronit Matalon (on this site)

Anya and the Dragon by Sofiya Paster­nack (on this site)

Braid­ed: A Jour­ney of A Thou­sand Challahs by Beth Rica­nati (on this site)

Buttons in my soup by Moshe Ziv (on this site)

The Challah That Took Over the House by Melissa Berg (on this site)

Chelm for the Holidays by Valerie Estelle Frankel (on this site)

The Chosen Wars: How Judaism Became an American Religion by Steven R. Weisman (on this site)

The Cut Out Girl: A Story of War and Family, Lost and Found by Bart van Es (on this site)

Faith After the Holocaust by Eliezer Berkovits (on this site)

The Fifth Column by Andrew Gross (on this site)

Finding Hagar: God’s Pursuit of a Runaway by Michael F Kuhn (on this site)

From Mesopotamia To Modernity: Ten Introductions To Jewish History And Literature by Burton Visotzky, David Fishman (on this site)

From the Cincinnati Reds to the Moscow Reds: The Memoirs of Irwin Weil by Irwin Weil (on this site)

Fun at Grandma Sadie’s: A Story for Rosh Hashanah by Sarah Mazor (on this site)

Gertrude Stein Has Arrived: The Homecoming of a Literary Legend by Roy Morris Jr. (on this site)

The Girl in the Haystack by Bryon MacWilliams (on this site)

Here All Along: Finding Meaning, Spirituality, and a Deeper Connection to Life–in Judaism by Sarah Hurwitz (on this site)

How Could She by Lau­ren Mechling (on this site)

How The Rosh Hashanah Challah Became Round by Sylvia B. Epstein (on this site)

How to Fight Anti-Semitism by Bari Weiss (on this site)

Hungarian Jewish Architects by Tibor Gottdank (on this site)

Invis­i­ble As Air by Zoe Fish­man (on this site)

Jackie and Jesse and Joni and Jae by Chris Barash (on this site)

The Jewish Cookbook by Leah Koenig (on this site)

Jewish High Holidays Activity Book (Full-Color Edition): Including Rosh Hashanah, Yom Kippur, Sukkot, Shemini Atzeret/Simchat Torah by Alex Man (on this site)

The Jews Should Keep Quiet: Franklin D. Roosevelt, Rabbi Stephen S. Wise, and the Holocaust by Rafael Medoff (on this site)

Joseph and the Way of Forgiveness by Stephen Mitchell (on this site)

Judaism Reclaimed: Philosophy and Theology in the Torah by Shmuel Phillips (on this site)

King of The Fruits – Children Story For Rosh Hashanah by Rachel Mintz (on this site)

The Last Train to London by Meg Waite Clayton (on this site)

Maimonides on Teshuvah: The Way of Repentance by Henry Abramson (on this site)

Maimonides’ Grand Epistle to the Scholars of Lunel: Ideology and Rhetoric by Charles H. Sheer (on this site)

The Mitzvah Gang and the Extraordinary Sukkah by Sarah Mazor (on this site)

My Mother’s Spice Cupboard: A Journey from Baghdad to Bombay to Bondi by Elana Benjamin (on this site)

A New Approach to Rosh Hashanah & Yom Kippur: Based On The Teachings of HaRav Yitzchak Berkovits Shlita by Moshe Kormornick, Zvi Gefen (on this site)

On Divi­sion by Goldie Gold­bloom (on this site)

Philo’s Heirs: Moses Maimonides and Thomas Aquinas by Luis Cortest (on this site)

Rabbi Joseph Dov Soloveitchik on the Experience of Prayer by Dov Schwartz (on this site)

Rereading The Rabbis: A Woman’s Voice by Judith Hauptman (on this site)

Romance Behind Judaica: Celebrating the Richness of the Jewish Calendar by Faydra Shapiro (on this site)

Rosh Hashana / Yom Kippur Guess Who? by Ariella Stern (on this site)

Schindler’s Listed: The Search for My Father’s Lost Gold by Mark Biederman with Randi Biederman (on this site)

Shanah Tovah, Grover! by Joni Kibort Sussman (on this site)

The Shofar – Adventure Story For Rosh Hashanah: Jewish New Year Holiday Story For Children by Rachel Mintz (on this site)

The Song of Songs: A Biography by Ilana Pardes (on this site)

The Song of the Jade Lily by Kirsty Man­ning (on this site)

Stavans Unbound: The Critic Between Two Canons by Bridget Kevane (on this site)

The Third Daughter by Talia Carn­er (on this site)

Tishrei’s Holidays-Activity Book for kids.: Coloring Pages. Mazes. The four species. Hidden words game and more by Ronit Tal Shaltiel (on this site)

To Destroy Jerusalem by Howard Kaplan (on this site)

Yitz Greenberg and Modern Orthodoxy: The Road Not Taken by Adam Ferziger, Miri Freud-Kandel, and Steven Bayme (on this site)

Yom Kippur Children’s Machzor by Noam Zimmerman (on this site)

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TOUS LES DIEUX DU CIEL

FILM. «Tous les dieux du ciel»

Réalisation et scénario : Quarxx. Principaux acteurs : Jean-Luc Couchard, Melanie Gaydos, Zélie Rixhon, Thierry Frémont, Albert Delpy. Durée : 1h41.

Même si l’histoire que raconte ce film, ainsi que les personnages et décors de celui-ci sont plutôt - et volontairement - laids, voire sordides, ce premier long-métrage est, au total, un beau film. Bien photographié et bien monté. Dans ce long métrage, au mélange assez détonnant de réalisme et d’onirisme, le spectateur finit par ne plus trop savoir, par moments, ce qui est «réel» et ce qui est (peut-être) rêvé ou fantasmé par tel ou tel des personnages. Ces derniers, pour la plupart, sont des marginaux - et c’est un thème cher au réalisateur et scénariste du film, Quarxx, qui aime «questionner la marge». À propos de son film, qu’il qualifie de «conte noir», Quarxx explique avoir voulu «maintenir un équilibre constant entre l’émotion et le malaise» et «créer une atmosphère étrange et déstabilisante», tout en «bousculant les codes aseptisés» du cinéma. < Je veux faire un cinéma âpre mais poignant >, ajoute-t-il. Sur un rythme plutôt lent, avec une violence sourde, mais qui, dans certaines scènes, explose brutalement, le film raconte l’histoire d’une fratrie dysfonctionnelle. Simon et sa s��ur Estelle, trentenaires, vivent ensemble, seuls, dans une ferme héritée de leurs parents et qui s’en à vau-lau. Vingt ans plus tôt, Estelle, jouant à la roulette russe en compagnie de son frère, avec le pistolet du père, s’est tiré une balle dans la tête. Ce qui l’a horriblement défigurée. (Le rôle est interprété par l’actrice américaine Melanie Gaydos, qui souffre de dysplasie ectodermique, une maladie génétique.) Depuis cet accident, Simon prend grand soin de sa sœur, mais d’une façon excessive et, pour ainsi dire, totalitaire, au point que, dans le film, il finit par embaucher un homme pour qu’il vienne la déflorer !

Il demande aux extraterrestres : «Quand est-ce que vous allez m’aider ?»

Dans cette vie si triste et misérable, le seul espoir de Simon, c’est que des extraterrestres viennent les chercher, sa sœur et lui. «Quand est-ce que vous allez m’aider ?», leur crie Simon. Une voisine, Zoé, 9 ans, tout aussi marginale que Simon et sa sœur, sympathise avec Estelle. Et va précipiter le dénouement. Dans la porcherie de Simon, elle découvre en effet un cadavre (c’est celui d’une assistance sociale que Simon a assassinée pour ne pas être séparé de sa sœur). Et Zoé va parler de sa découverte à la police. Quand les policiers pénètrent dans la chambre d’Estelle, Simon s’est tiré une balle dans la tête et a tenté d’égorger sa sœur. Tous deux survivront. Hospitalisés dans le même établissement. Dans un premier temps, Estelle va essayer de tuer son frère. Mais, quelque temps plus tard, c’est un bisou fraternel qu’elle déposera sur la joue de Simon, avant de s’endormir tendrement à ses côtés. Quarxx dit que ce scénario lui a été inspiré par une histoire vraie : voilà quelques années, dans une morgue, il avait photographié l’autopsie du cadavre d’une femme, que la police avait découvert chez le frère de cette dernière. Ce frère avait vécu avec ce cadavre pendant plusieurs semaines, car il ne pouvait se résoudre à se séparer de sa sœur.

LE RÉALISATEUR : également comédien, artiste peintre et photographe, Quarxx vit à Paris. Après des études de cinéma à l’université californienne UCLA, il a réalisé, en France, plusieurs courts ou moyens métrages, notamment «Un ciel bleu presque parfait», dont s’inspire «Tous les dieux du ciel», son premier long-métrage.

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Tanabata Fundraising Foundation

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The Tanabata Fundraising Foundation (TFF) International is a non-profit charity founded by Masami Ryu and Shigeru Miyakazu. The organization raises money for various causes by hosting an annual party on July 7th and auctioning various art pieces that have been donated to them by famous artists, photographers, designers, and etc. The foundation also hosts a variety of other charity events throughout the year. The TFF was established when the two founders were respectively 14 and 16 years old, and are currently in the process of preparing for their 8th annual party and auction.

With the ever increasing number of guests invited to each year’s party and the members all being introverts or ambiverts, Shigeru and the other core members of the TFF have jokingly asked Masami if she was planning to kill them with over stimulation.

Information

Founders: Masami Ryu and Shigeru Miyakazu

Established On: 2104 December 8

Age: 7 years -> 8 years

Headquarters: Sky Hills - Tower B, 77th Floor

Required Languages: English, Japanese

Name Reason:

Tanabata is not only the East Asia holiday for lovers such as the story of Orihime and Hikoboshi, but it is also the holiday of wishes.

Core Members

Masami Ryu

Shigeru Miyakazu

Hideyoshi Ryu-Toujou

Haruitsuki Ryu-Tsukimiya

Youichi/Yangyu Lucas Ryu/Liu

Daiki Tsuchie

Takumi Nicolas Ryu

Aleric Anthony Mason

Hercule Holmes

Emi Ichijouji-Kirizaki

Yukichi Hoshizora-Ryu | Seizaburo Ryu

Aaron James Vincent Philip Richard Grosvenor, Duke of Westminster

Benjamin “Benji” Lyon

Jacob Ernest Stidolph

Teizen Ichijouji

Kazuhiko Miyuki-Ryu

Kenshin Kirizaki

Jihyun Kim

Mingxiu Casper Yang

Mingqiu Brendon Yang

Leadership

Masami Ryu | Masai Ryu [劉 雅美 | 龍 正意, 21/22] - Co-Founder, Chairman, Guest and Event Coordinator

Shigeru Miyakazu  [宮和 茂, 23/24] - Co-Founder, Executive Director

Hideyoshi Ryu-Toujou [劉-搭乗 秀吉 , 23/24]- UK Branch Director, Head of Public Relations

Haruitsuki Ryu-Tsukimiya [劉-月宮 晴齋, 26/27] - France Branch Director, Head of Culinary Affairs

Youichi Lucas Ryu | Yangyi Lucas Liu [劉 陽一, 24/25]- China-Hong Kong Branch Director

Daiki Tsuchie [土惠 大貴, 35/36] - Head of Security

Hercule Holmes [28/29] - UK Branch Deputy Director, Head of Legal Affairs

Emi Ichijouji-Kirizaki [一乗寺-貴理崎 恵美, would be 33/34; 28 at time of death] - Guest Coordinator, Deceased

Takumi Nicolas Ryu [27/28] - USA Branch Director

Hedwig Saloman - Germany Branch Director, Non-founding Member

Anton Nikiforov - Russia Branch Director, Non-founding Member

Jihyun Kim - South Korea Branch Director, Suspended

Branches

Japan | Main Headquarters - Opened 2104

Masami Ryu - A-List Actress, Musician, Singer, Songwriter, Artist, Choreographer, Model, Maître Pâtissière (Master Pastry Chef), Honey Dreams Confectioneries & Pâtisserie Chairman/President, Dreams Entertainment & Productions Chairman, University Student

Shigeru Miyakazu - Neurosurgeon, Neurologist, Medical & Environmental Researcher, Biochemical & Environmental Engineer

Daiki Tsuchie - CEO of Ryu-Tsuchie Security Firm

Emi Ichijouji-Kirizaki - Professional Musician, Songwriter/Composer

Soichiro Ryu [劉 壮一朗, 40/41] - Professional Chef, Chef de Cuisine of Setsuna

Mitsuyoshi Ichijouji [一乗寺 光良, 41/42] - Elite Bureaucrat at Japan’s Ministry of Finance

Shokichi Ichijouji [一乗寺 翔吉, 38/39] - A-List Actor, Dreams Entertainment & Productions President/CEO

Yumi Ichijouji nee Hoshizora-Ryu [星空-劉 / 一乗寺 由美, 36/37] - Fashion Designer, Former Secret Agent/Assassin

Yukichi Hoshizora-Ryu | Seizaburo Ryu [星空-劉 裕吉 | 龍 精三郎, 33/34] - Bodyguard, Author, Nobel Laureate, Former Secret Agent/Assassin

Kei Hoshizora-Ryu [星空-劉 蛍, 28/29] - Game Developer, Ryu Group Executive Director, Former Secret Agent/Assassin

Kenshin Kirizaki [貴理崎 健信 44/45 ->47/48] - Bodyguard, Former Secret Agent Status Unknown, presumed dead

Satoru Ryu-Hoshigami [劉-星神 覚, 23/24] - Public Security Intelligence Agency - Security Police/Secret Agent

Teizen Ichijouji [一乗寺 帝善, 21/22] - University Student, Professional Musician, Songwriter, Idol

Kazuhiko Miyuki-Ryu [御幸-劉 和彦, 21/22] - University Student, Professional Baseball Player

Tomoe Fuji [福慈  巴衛, 21/22] - Idol, University Student

Ryuji Hisakata [久方 竜持, 21/22] - Idol, University Student, Fashion Designer

Reina Koizumi [古泉 麗な, 21/22] - University Medical Student, Medical Scribe

Naoki Mitsui [光井 尚樹, 23/24] - Professional Swimmer, Olympian

Chihiro Asakura | Emma [朝倉 千寛 | エマ, 21/22] - Art Student, Graphic Designer, Photographer

Katsuyuki Matsuoka [松岡 勝雪, 18/19 | 19/20] - Competitive Figure Skater, Olympian

Saeran Choi [최 세란, 21/22 | 22/23] - Professional Taste Tester, Pâtissier-in-training

Others

United Kingdom - Opened 2104

Hideyoshi Ryu-Toujou - Co-Owner & Head Designer of HIDE (HTR), MI6 Agent

Hercule Holmes - Employee of the Foreign & Commonwealth Office

Koharu Oshiba [大柴 心治, 23/24] - Professional Model, Photographer

Aleric Anthony Mason - Fashion Company Executive Director

Carina Tsuchie nee Leclair-Yoshida [土惠 カリーナ | カリーナ・ルクレール ・吉田, 33/34] - A-List Actress

Julien Cho [趙 줄리안, 27/28] - A-List Actor

Wallace Bones - MI6 Agent

Ailise Blakesley - MI5 Agent

Aaron James Vincent Philip Richard Grosvenor, Duke of Westminster [27/28] - British aristocrat, Physics Professor, Businessman (TFF’s Royal Patron)

Benjamin “Benji” Lyon [27/28]- Bodyguard, Aaron’s Chief Assistant/Secretary

Jacob Ernest Stidolph [27/28] - Art Consultant & Inspector, Lawyer

Mingxiu Casper Yang [楊 明秀, 25/26] - Professional Gamer, Former Actor (also Hong Kong member)

Mingqiu Brendon Yang [楊 明秋, 25/26] - A-List Actor, Former Competitive Ballroom Dancer (also Hong Kong member)

Others

France - Opened 2106

Haruitsuki Ryu-Tsukimiya - Professional Chef, Owner of Haru’s and Tsuki’s, Chef de Cuisine of Haru’s

Éliane Miyamoto - Winemaker/Vigneron

Grace Chevalier

Reinald Séverin

Demetri Kim

Amelia Bellamy

Clément Voclain

René Dufort

Estelle Zhou

Albert Rudolph

Suzu Tominaga

Others

China/Hong Kong - Opened 2107

Youichi Ryu | Yangyi Lucas Liu/Lau - A-List Actor

Xiurong Cherry Liu/Lau - A-List Actress, Singer

Lan Sara Chen

Huifang Vivian Zhu

Qiaoyu Elise Wong

Lihua Monique Yeung

Bingwen Christopher Sun

Mingzhu Lillian Zhao

Huizhong Michael Yuen

Airi Wu

Mingxiu Casper Yang [楊 明秀, 25/26] - Professional Gamer, Former Actor (also UK member)

Mingqiu Brendon Yang [楊 明秋, 25/26] - A-List Actor, Former Competitive Ballroom Dancer (also UK member)

Nene Akamine - Idol, Singer

Others

South Korea - Postponed for TBD

Jihyun Kim [Suspended] - Professional Photographer

Postponed because of incident during the 3rd Tanabata Party

United States of America - Opened 2109

Takumi Nicolas Ryu - Ryu Hospitality US Executive Director, Imperial New York Hotel Owner

Kazumi Fujiwara - United Nations Lawyer

Katsuyuki Matsuoka - Competitive Figure Skater

Aimie Lin

William Donovan

Collette Walker

Evelyn Aston

Julie Song

Penelope Choe

Valerie Moon

Others

Germany - Opened 2110

Hedwig Saloman

Viktor Fromm

Mika Yamazaki

Anina

Louise

Albririch

Zenzi

Johan

Eduard

Russia - Opened 2111

Anton Nikiforov

Anastasia Solovyov

Sofiya Plisetsky

Elena Volkov

Ivan Lebedev

Gennadi Morozov

Irina Belinsky

Nikolai Genrich

Mission | Causes

Suicide Prevention

Mental Illness Awareness, Education, Care, and Treatment

Child Abuse Recognition, Prevention, Care, Treatment, and Education

Domestic Abuse Recognition, Prevention, Care, and Treatment

Education and Protection of Underprivileged and Vulnerable Children

Promotion and Conservation of the Arts (Art, Theater, Calligraphy, Music, Dance, and etc.)

Cancer and Medical Research

Environmental Research, Protection, and Conservation

Animal Protection and Conservation

Feminism | Women’s Rights | Equal Rights

LGBTQ Rights, Support, and Protection

Support, Treatment, Rehabilitation, and Protection of Abuse Victims

Restoration and Renovation of residences in Low Income areas

Assisting Low Income  and Struggling Families and Individuals

Awards

Royal Society of Arts (RSA) - Albert Medal

World of Children - Humanitarian Award

Conrad N. Hilton Humanitarian Prize

AAMI Foundation & ACCE - Robert L. Morris Humanitarian Award

Nobel Peace Prize

Helen Keller Achievement Award

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Tanabata Party - Black Tie Party and Auction

Largest event the TFF holds annually

Party Date: July 7th, 16:00-24:00

Auction: 21:00

Auction Preview: July 6th, 15:00-18:00; July 7th, 10:00-14:00

Party Venue: Imperial Shining Hotel, Tokyo Prefecture

The Grand Ballroom

Max Capacity: 2000 (Banquet style), 2500 (Reception style)

Annual Revenue: 18+ million USD

1st Party Revenue: 2 million USD

The first party was held in London, England, United Kingdom

Dream Festival - Charity Music Concert/Festival

Concert Dates: August 29th-31st

Art Exhibitions - Multiple tours throughout the year

Works showcased are auctioned off at the Tanabata Party

Art pieces are donated by a series of famous artists throughout the world including artists within the TFF members

Charity Runs/Walks

Fashion Shows

Cooking Shows

Competitive food shows

All food is donated to homeless shelters

Celebrity cook offs

Cooking Class

Venue: Honey Dream Cafe - Sky Hills, Tokyo

Holiday sweets cooking classes

Only offered the two weeks prior to Christmas, Valentine’s Day, and White Day

Hosts: The Fallen (Masami and Teizen) + Kazuhiko + Honey Dreams Confectioneries + Haruitsuki and Soichiro (sometimes) + O☆SIS (Nene, Suzu, Mika, Masami, and Yui)

10 Students per class, 10 classes

Different recipes are set for each class; a poll is set up for the 2 most popular classes

Seats in the top 2 picks are auctioned off the month prior

Seats in the other classes are on first come, first served or chosen by lottery

Figure Skating Shows - 2 week tour

Theater

Multiple plays and musicals throughout the year

1st Party - 2105

Host and Head: Masami & Shigeru

Items with Highest bid price:

And Her Wish Filled the Sky - oil painting by Shigeru Miyakazu

New Hope - photograph by Masami/Ami Ryu

Guest Total: 125

2nd Party - 2106

Host and Head: Masami & Shigeru

Items with Highest bid price: 

Dying Breath - photograph by Koharu Oshiba

Cat’s Glory - sculpture by Wallace Bones

Handwritten copy of “Expert Playboy” Volume 1 by Yukichi Hoshizora-Ryu | Seizaburo Ryu

Guest Total: 268

3rd Party - 2107

Host and Head: Masami & Shigeru

Item with Highest bid price:

Lighting the Way - oil painting by Shigeru Miyakazu

Warrior’s Pride - photograph by Masami/Ami Ryu

Guest Total: 371

Tragic Incident: One of the guests assaulted and injured multiple members of the TFF, resulting in the death of one founding member and the comatose state of one of the co-founders. The incident also resulted in the cancellation of the South Korean branch and the suspension of member Jihyun Kim.

4th Party - 2108

Host and Head: Masami & Shigeru

Items with Highest bid price:

Rising from the Ashes - oil painting by Shigeru Miyakazu

The Dancing Dawn - photograph by Demetri Kim

Handwritten copy of “Skills of Love” Volume 1 by Yukichi Hoshizora-Ryu/Seizaburo Ryu

Guest Total: 484

5th Party - 2109

Host and Head: Masami & Shigeru

Items with Highest bid price:

And She Waits - oil painting by Shigeru Miyakazu

Ever Dreaming - sculpture by Airi Wu

Guest Total: 622

6th Party - 2110

Host and Head: Masami & Shigeru

Item with Highest bid price:

Innocence - oil painting by Shigeru

Supernova - graffiti piece by Colette Walker

Guest Total: 740

7th Party - 2111

Host and Head: Masami & Shigeru

Item with Highest bid price:

Silent Tears - oil painting by Shigeru

Guest Total: 882

8th Party - 2112

Host and Head: Masami & Shigeru

Item with Highest bid price:

Eclipse - oil painting by Shigeru

Guest Total: 1097

Main Guests:

International Gourmet Society [x7]

Health Researchers Association [x8]

Art and Culture Organizations [x8]

Environmentalists Organizations [x6]

Tokyo International Film Festival

Celebrities’ Rights Association [x8]

Artists of the Future Association [x7]

Animal Welfare and Protection Societies

Mental Health Organizations [x8]

Clean Water Organizations

International Photographers Associations [x8]

Minister of Health (Foreign and Domestic)

Minister of Environment (Foreign and Domestic)

Minister of Education (Foreign and Domestic)

Chairman of Fair Trade Commission (Foreign and Domestic)

Minister of Agriculture (Foreign and Domestic)

C&R International - Chairman Han [x5]

Ryu Group - Chairman Ryu and CEO Choe (Masami’s parents) [x8]

Tsukiba Culinary Academy ]x8]

Professional Gamers Association

International Debutante Ball Committee

Multitude of Celebrities and Social Elites

Rika’s Fundraising Association [x1]

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