#Especially since I've got the room to have a 2nd cat now

[paladincecil]

This little cat is trying to adopt me by hanging outside my door most days and greeting me with the tiniest little meow I've ever heard

[becauseimanicequeen]

A Short Note About the Timelines/Realities Bleeding Through in 4 Minutes

I opened up my dash around midnight last night (for the first time since the Olympics started) and saw general confusion around the Tonkla/timelines situation. I didn't have the time (or energy) to write about it then, but I do have some time right now. So, I thought I would give my 2 cents about it.

I've written my thoughts on the timelines/realities showing up in the first 3 episodes in a previous post (I'll expand on that post in reblogs as new episodes are released). What so many reacted to in this episode were, to me, the different timelines/realities bleeding through into each other.

This isn't the first time we've seen timelines bleed through. One of them is clearly revealed in this week's episode (Tonkla seeing his dead black cat in ep 1). But there have been other occasions as well.

Every time Great experiences his 4-minute phenomenon (which Den calls it in his research), Great's present situation (which I believe is the patient having a cardiac arrest in the ICU at the beginning of ep 1) is bleeding through:

The first time he has his 4MP (the hit-and-run in ep 1), there's a shot sounding as he "leaves his body" and is sent back in time. I think that sound is the sound of the defibrillator used on him in the present.

The second time (at the hospital in ep 1), there were blinking lights behind him, which could indicate the lights flashing in the ICU at the beginning of ep 1 where the patient (Great) was flatlining.

During his 3rd 4MP (where Title beats the shit out of Dome in ep 2), we can hear a sound that sounds like a heart monitor when a heart flatlines.

During his 4th 4MP (at the basketball court with Tyme in ep 3), there's another shot that sounds and Great's body visibly jerks as if he was hit, so, probably another shot of the defibrillator.

The 5th time (when he argues with Tyme at the hospital in ep 4) is the most interesting and confusing to me, at this point, because they focused so much on the train (which might have some other significance). I'm not sure about this one, but some images flashed white, which might be "the light at the end of the tunnel"?

During the 6th time (when Nan was shot in ep 4), there was another sound that sounded like a heart monitor when a heart flatlines and then we got a mix of shots, electrical sparks, and some of his images flashing in white, which feels like a mix of it all.

There's also the first time Great feels iffy in the elevator in the 1st episode (which isn't a 4MP). There's a shot and a brief sound of a heart flatlining.

But it doesn't just bleed through for Great or Tonkla either. We also have Tyme.

As we saw in the 1st episode, Tyme is dying at an abandoned site where there's a thunderstorm. As far as I can remember, thunder (and lightning) shows up:

When Tyme is in Manee's room in the 2nd episode, specifically when she talks about her son being in debt and taking his life and when Tyme realizes the flowers are from Great.

When he and Great get out of the car on the bridge in the 4th episode, especially when Great screams excitedly.

I think we'll see more thunder/lightning in the coming episodes if this truly is his present bleeding through and not just a coincidence.

Now, what does all this mean?

I have no fucking idea. (Well, it might depend on which character has the point-of-view, which I mentioned in my long-ass timelines/realities post, but I'm not sure...)

It will be fun to try and figure it out, though.

[therk900]

🌼September TC Challenge (Day 1-30)🌼

1 - Are you generally nervous around your tc, or are you more relaxed and comfortable around them? I find I’m more relaxed around them. I am a nervous wreck sometimes but those moments are rare!

2 - Is your tc an introvert or an extrovert? How about you? They are both extroverts while I’m an introvert 

3 - Does your tc use emojis or emoticons when communicating with you? If so, what have they used? if not, what do you think they’d use? S used emojis when he sent personal emails to me! Especially the “😊” emoji. B doesn’t really send emojis. If he did, it would most likely be the thumbs up one or the “😀” emoji

4 - What’s the biggest or most important thing your tc has taught you, ether in terms of life lessons or the subject matter of their class? B: Build my way up so I can do public speaking S: Don’t let shit get to my head!!

5 - Does your tc have a classroom / office, or are they “floating” (using a cart or something and moving from place to place)? What does their teaching space look like? B has an office and it's quite neat, with a couple books here and there. S has 2 offices since he teaches 2 subjects. I have seen one but I’m guessing the other one is neat since he is a neat person in general!

6 - What was your favourite assignment in your tc’s class and why? Are they a harsh grader? For B, I have 2 favourite projects! For one, we got make a homemade magazine about a topic. I got 80% on it! And for the 2nd one, we got to make a creative story which had to follow a simulator timeline of a movie we had watched as a class. I got a 70% on it! With S, we got to do a role play type thing! I got a 73% on it which was good

7 - Do you and your tc have any inside jokes? are they shared by other people (classmates, other teachers, etc) or is it just between you two? Not really

8 - If your tc was an animal, what animal would they be? I feel like S would be a deer and B would be a friendly bear

9 - How do you feel about being in the tcc? Are you afraid of getting caught, etc? Sometimes I am afraid of getting caught since a couple of friends uses Tumblr, so I try and be careful about what I post. But I like being in the tcc.

10 - How long have you been having teacher crushes? How many tc’s have you had in total, and how long have you been in the tcc? I've been liking teachers for 1 and a half years now. I’ve had 4 tc’s in total which is something. I’ve been in the tcc for nearly 2 years now

11 - Is your tc’s room close to the front of your school / campus, or is it more towards the back? Their offices are both at the front of the school which is convenient!

12- Are you shorter or taller than your tc? Both taller than me! S completely towers over me

13 -  does your tc have any pets at home? how many and what animals? B used to have a ginger cat

14 - Does your tc have a blackboard or a whiteboard in their room? What color chalk/marker do they use the most? They both use whiteboards and they mainly used black and red markers

15 - Besides your blog, do you vent about your feelings towards your tc in any other way? I have a mini diary that I use on my computer for things that I don’t put on here. I go more into depth about things there and read back on them every once in a while

16 - Are there any students you’re jealous of in terms of their relationship to your tc? Not really

17 - Imagine that you and your tc were born in the same year. How many days apart would your birthdays be? I would have no clue. Maybe a couple months apart

18 - Have you ever gotten in trouble with your tc? If so, what happened? Never have! Hopefully never will!

19 - Is your tc’s hair curly or straight, and is it short, medium, or long? Both of their hair is straight and short. B’s hair is slightly longer and a tiny bit wavier than S’ hair. 

20- what web browser does your tc use? what kind of phone/computer do they have? I think they both use a HP laptop, so the Microsoft windows web browser. As for phones, they both have apple phones, so safari or google

21- Are there any calendar dates that are special to you because of your tc? Not yet! 

22 - Do any celebrities or fictional characters look like or remind you of your tc? Kind of. There was this one guy on instagram who reminded me of S a tiny bit. There is someone that looks like B as well, but I don’t know who it was. Hopefully I remember soon!

23 - Is your tc’s room/office number even or odd? I have no idea

24 - What do you think sets your tc apart from other teachers at your school? Their personality and looks

25 - Do you like the teachers who are “neighbors” with your tc (that is teachers who have rooms next to your tc)? Yes but no. There are teachers in the same room as each other.

26 - Have you ever suspected someone you know irl of having a teacher crush (either on your tc or on a different teacher)? If so, have you ever confronted them about it? Not really

27 - Do you pass by your tc’s room or office on your way to class frequently? Do you see them around campus a lot? I see them around a lot, but I don’t pass their office tons. I pass B's office sometimes when i have classes in the same building as his office.

28 - Is teaching your tc’s first job, or did they have another job before being a teacher? Have they ever taught at another school before? I know that S has had other jobs before teaching at my school. I think it’s the same for B, but i'm not sure

29 - What things keep you happy and occupied over break when you miss your tc? If you’ve graduated or will no longer be seeing your tc in school, how are you handling the situation? I keep myself busy over the breaks by drawing or doing things on my laptop

30 - What is the sweetest thing they told you or did for you? B liking my drawings and S giving me life advise 

[myalternativelife5524]

here I am, posting in God's only know how long, and I am going to be 'whining'....

But seriously, I am on the verge of having a major panic attack. A little background, I am still living with my 'stepbrother' (his dad and my mom are dating, and right now I'm using that term loosely) my mom, brother, and sister are living in the 2nd house that paul('stepdad') owns, while I'm living I the 1st one with zac..

anyways, my mom has about had it with her living situation, too much to unpack there right now, and she called me earlier saying she was done, she can't do it anymore, she's had it. Now before anyone jumps to conclusions, Paul is not physically abusing her, nor is he mentally or emotionally... not that I can tell... she has told me it's basically turned into a roommate type of relationship, that there's no spark or romance and she's tired of not having that kind of relationship anymore.

It sounds so damn selfish of me, because if they break up, that puts me in a weird position, because while Paul hasn't done anything untowards to me, I couldn't continue living in this house with Zac and potentially Paul, since he will probably move back in to this house... nor can I stand moving back in with my mom, I love her to death, but I'm so used to basically living by myself. Add to that , that I've got so much crap, plus my own cat, that I wouldn't fit in that smaller house...

Speaking of cats, one of the older ones keeps peeing in places he shouldn't be,like by the front door, in the dining room, possibly in my brother's chair(recliner) and it's not helping my mom with her mental health, she's not sleeping well because she's always watching this cat to make sure he's not pissing somewhere . My sister refuses to take him to the spca/shelter because she believes they'll put him down... Paul's sister works for a animal clinic and said they've got a month long waiting list to see any cats, but suggested getting extra litter boxes to see if that helps curb the cat pissing wherever he wants...

But getting back to the paranoia about moving... I do not have the means to live by myself,even in a studio or one bedroom apartment, the rent is simply way too much for me to do alone... I don't think Paul would kick me out should he and mom actually break up, but like I stated earlier, I wouldn't feel right living in the house with my moms ex boyfriend...

I'm also panicking because I have SO much stuff I need to go thru. And I can't do it alone.. I'm sitting here typing and trying to not burst into tears about something that hasn't happened yet, and possibly might not happen..

I have another friend that would let me move in with her in a heartbeat, but she's already got her hands full, and not much space in her house , especially not for another cat as well..

I wish I could find a better paying job with more hours so I can save up money to move, even move out of buffalo. I'm 37 years old, and I'm freaking out... the fuck.