#Eric dalano

[tumb1rprincess]

Aaaaagh, I’m close to crying and my chest is tight, this episode huuuuuuurt.

Eric’s statement was just so fucking sad. Him and Gerry unintentionally came to be so alike: forced to do bad things by Mary, stuck with Gertrude, stuck in a book that will never let them rest. And Eric just blames himself for how Mary treated him, like he thought it was understandable why she killed him after he blinded himself, he agreed that he was so useless. But the way he thought he would be safe from her bloodlust, the way he blinded himself so he could be with her and Gerry, and she just betrayed him in the end, oh it was so painful to listen to.

Jon’s “Fuck” and Martin’s “Fuck off” did make me laugh a little though. And just the idea of a romantic “let’s run away together” paired with “let’s gouge out our eyeballs” is kind of funny. But Martin’s hollow laugh and how quickly he calls Jon out just hurts. Jon doesn’t really want to do it and he was looking for an excuse not to. And Martin is in too deep to leave. Like, not blinding yourself is a reasonable thing to decline, but Jon still loves him and wants to be with him and Martin just can’t see it. Going back to the Lonely being like depression, this is a thing I feel a lot. People can say they care about me and want me around, but I don’t believe it. Martin doesn’t believe it either, he thinks nobody would care about him, even with Jon right in front of him. Ugh, I can’t stand all this heartache.