#EVERYTHINGGG THIS IS EVERYTHING TO MEEE

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I cannot post enough screaming images of little stickmen to explain to you the feelings I have for Dark City

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OVERSTIMULATED . AND ITS TERMIAL

[itsjusta]

March 16, 2021

its been a long time since i asked for reassurance and comfort doeee becos i know that at the end of the day, all i have is me and that i need to stay strong for myself doeee but i also know that there are people who can help me doe and u are one of the people that makes me feel safe and comforted doe 🥺 you are one of the people jd doe nga i know will always have my back and das why i asked u to say those things today doeee hehe i was contemplating jd if i will ask dat cos i’m shy to u doeee but hearing it from you will make me feel better doeee 🥺🥺 hahah idkkkk doe this afternoon i cried a lot doe cos i felt so uneasy and i feel so scared for the coming months doe :(( i feel so scared sa changes doeee and bsag ingon ko nga i let go tka (hahahhaha hayst kaya ko ba?!?!), i still feel so scared nga ikaw mismo dili na gusto makig keep in touch with me doeee 🥺🥺🥺 cos aishhh i think a hassle for you gyd doeee to talk to me sumtyms i feel like you’re tired of me naaa hahah i’m scared doe that u will not want me to be in ur life aishhh i think not man pd na mahitabo ryt???? but we dont know gyd doeee basin u will not see me as ur bff anymore hahah its okay doeeee its very scary but if that comes i will not hate u or blame u doeee i can never feel that way saimo doe!!! no matter what i’ve e experienced the past year becos of all this, all i have for u is positive feelings langgg okayyy hehe and aishhh if i also see dat di na gyd ka ganahan makig talk doe, i will respect u doeee

i just feel scared doeee hahah 4 months pa ayha mag 4th year doe and so many can change and im scared gyd that the changes will hurt so much :(( aishhh hahah but we’ve come a long way since our break up doeee and i’ve come a long way also in fighting all the pain!!! basta no matter what life will bring i will always have love for you gyd doe and u will always hold a part of meee hehe and ion ever wanna cut u off from my life doeee i still want u to be updated about me and i want to be updated in you too 🥺🥺

(im writing this at night na doeee)

this day was emotional doeee i cried a lor in the afternoon and at night!!! thank you doeee for granting my request even doe its an idiot oneee hehe thank u cos u dont make me feel like im weak or a samok one doeee huhu u can also ask for support and comfort from me okaaay u know i will always give it to u just like how u give to meee 🥺🥺🥺 even tho u will probably not come to me when u sad or angry or scared cos u have a gf naman, i’m always available doeee i’m always a call and chat away just like old times okaaay heheh u can even just come to my house diretso aishhh!!! and u also bring me a lot of comfort doe just by reading my diariesss cos it makes me feel like u’re there listening to all my rants just like before alsooo heheh makes me feel like the old times where we just chika everything doeee and dat makes me happy cos u still give an effort to read my idiot diariesss hehhehe my diaries lang gyd doe is where i can say everythinggg cos im shy to tell people about what i’m feeling now doe and its also not good to tell them about us doeee cos aish i know gyd us talking is just a secret doeee hahah ion want people to talk about u doeee heheh das why i try my best to endure everything doeee

edit: this after our call na doeee thank u sooo muuuuch doeeee for talking to me and giving me timeee 🥺🥺 super thankful for u doeee!! issa nag labad na ako head dis is when i know dat i’ve been crying too much 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ but aish i get happy when i hear ur happy and lively voice doeee heheh u a jolly person gyd and im happy na ure back to being so happy doeee

have a good morning!!! (cos i think u’ll read dis in the morning na hehe) and u ampiiing doeee dont be an idjot aish