#EDIT: also shout out again to the same sophomore tenor sax player for comforting me during my really bad panic attack on Monday

[violethursday]

Being the oldest sibling is nice and all, but I'd prefer if I was the younger/middle sibling instead. It's a lot of pressuring being the oldest (especially since I'm the firstborn daughter to immigrant parents who worked hard to get here) as you're the first one to do things, almost like a leader. Being a leader is very pressuring though, and I like being a follower more. With high school, it's nice hanging with the sophomores and seniors (surprisingly I don't really interact with the juniors as much). I get to listen to their difference experiences in life, and they can listen attentively to mine.

So yeah. I just wish that I had an older sibling(s) instead of me being the older sister to my younger sister. Too pressuring tbh.