#Donald hates Cecil but he’s loyal to him to the end but also he deserves to beat his skull into the curb but he’ll whatever he can to ease-

[theduckeminence]

I wish to see more of Donald’s resentment and sense of hate after finding about the truth of his cybernetic body.

The idea of having lost his sense of self, the existential dread, the loss of autonomy and the right to die being nulled. I can imagine that when given the time, he contemplates on it and that horror, that resentment, that dread— all of it can concoct into an unspeakable anger. Rage maybe.

Anger for the fact that they did this to him. Anger for the fact that he can’t simply just die until they find no use for him anymore, and god knows whenever that’s gonna happen. Anger that he doesn’t even have the right to die, to rest in peace. That he will only live to be a tool and weapon for a nameless amount of time, to serve the government. To serve Cecil.

And I can imagine that though it’s not addressed between the two of them, Donald holds that against Cecil. Sure, the director of the GDA isn’t the only one to blame for what’s been done to Donald. And Donald knows he can’t do so much as resign or turn back or leave — even if he tried so hard to do so. It’s not like he can go against the gov’t as a whole, that’s just a fruitless fool’s play anyway. But that doesn’t erase the fact that he will continue to feel that resentment stir inside his sturdy, clanking chest. Nor does it evade the feeling of something worse cradled in his guts.

So, who else can he hold that feeling towards other than Cecil himself? The blame has to go to someone anyways. Even though it shouldn’t, and even though it’s childish at best.

And while it’s intrusive and unspeakable to think about, sometimes Donald wonders what it would be like to cave his metal fish into Cecil’s skull.