#Don't Forget Fate Exists And You're Chained To It Forever

[shinesurge]

sooo hype to get in the car and drive back across the southern united states again tomorrow

[silurisanguine]

Crows Bond for Life Playlist

My playlist as it currently is..keep checking back as i update it!

For my Lucanis Dellamorte/Spite/ Teleri De Riva fic (but works for Rookanis in general)

Full playlist link above or individual links to tracks below with excerpt lyrics that give the vibe i need.

Starset - Unbecoming Now I wait / This metamorphosis/ All that is left is the change/ Selfish fate/ I think you made me this /Under the water I wait.

Letdown - Empty

You don't know the hell I've been through/ You don't know the price I've paid / You can't see the walls I'm bracing time I'm facing / All my days

Shrouded King - what i've become Looking in the mirror now/ Don't recognize me somehow/ Wish I could turn back the clock /Sorry for what I've become

Sam Tinnez - Man or Monster

When you close your eyes, what do you see? /Do you hold the light or is darkness underneath? / In your hands, there's a touch that can heal /But in those same hands, is the power to kill

Breaking Benjamin - Feed the Wolf

I can feel the animal within /I chain the beast and crawl inside myself /I hear the call of violence /I sleep no more and die again /I lost it all

Pvris - What's wrong This skin don’t feel like home / It’s all overgrown / but you’ll never know /Take the mirror from the wall so I can’t see myself at all / Don’t wanna see another damn inch of my skull / Forget the poems of saints and ghosts / I’m the one I fear the most

Sophie Lloyd Featuring Lzzy Hale - Imposter Syndrome

I smile for a million faces /And wait for the mask to fall /I hide from my darkest demons / That don't exist after all /And my monsters are just shadows on the wall

Stone Sour - Through Glass

I'm looking at you through the glass /Don't know how much time has passed /Oh, god it feels like forever /But no one ever tells you / That forever feels like home /Sitting all alone inside your head

Asking Alexandria - Holding onto something more

I don't wanna look down, I can't get up /I'm sick of trying / All these haunted dreams have fucked me up / But I gotta learn to help myself

Tremonti - Just too much

To love, to pain, to thrive again / I always will, I'll feel it's right again / Take control and find that space between / Something to hold, it all begins with me

Hybrid - Every Word

Sometimes I run away / But sometimes I just want to stay / Sometimes I just want days / Where I'm watching every word you say

Sevendust - Everything

So, what do you wanna see? / I'm gonna make you believe / That I can be everything, yeah / I can be anything / I won’t change a fucking thing / Don’t walk away from me /No, you're my everything

Korn - Come Undone

Keep holding on when my brain's ticking like a bomb /Guess the black thoughts have come again to get me / Sweet bitter words unlike nothing I have heard

In This Moment - In the Air Tonight Well I was there and I saw what you did/ I saw it with my own two eyes/ So you can wipe off that grin /I know where you've been / It's all been a pack of lies

Tommee Profitt - Here I am

Get in my way / Lethal assassin / I bring the pain / You can't imagine Nothing but flames / This is what happens

Raign - Kiss Me a Thousand Times

Oh, you look at me like I'm trouble.../ I can't tear my eyes away. / If we take this breath with each other, / Will we share / Something we can't explain?

Teddy Swims - Lose Control

Out of my mind, how many times did I tell you / I'm no good at bein' alone? /Yeah, it's taken a toll on me, tryin' my best to keep / From tearin' the skin off my bones, don't you know

Hybrid - Blind Side

Running away running away /You know you've got to find yourself somebody someday /Take it away you take it away /There's nothing that I can do /You're always drifting /Turning away, turning away

Depeche Mode - Insight

This is the first chance /To put things right /Moving on Guided by the light /And the spirit of love /Is rising within me /Talking to you now /Telling you clearly /The fire still burns

Diamante - Sleepwalking

I feel you in my dreams /You're everywhere, you won't go easily I see you in my sleep /So I'm wide awake to keep you far from me / I keep sleepwalking just to breathe Sleep Theory - Numb Stuck in place as the walls close in / Plotting out my escape again /Crawling my way from a prison cell / No one can save me but myself / I know there's something more that I'm missing

Florence and the Machine - Cosmic Love

I took the stars from my eyes and then I made a map / And knew that, somehow, I could find my way back / Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too /So I stayed in the darkness with you

In This Moment - I would die for You

I can feel you under my skin / I feel hopeless, I'm addicted / I've never felt anything like this / I inhale you, I am weightless

Halestorm & I Prevail - Can U See Me in the Dark

Are you watching it all fall apart? /I needed your kiss of light (Light) To bring me to life (Life) / My eyes open wide for the first time / So I blackout the sun / The only way I know how to trust someone You sharpen your knife (Knife) /And enter the night / Your eyes open wide for the first time

In This Moment - All began with you

No life, no death / No force can separate us / No time, no space / No road I wouldn't walk for you / No place, no storms / No oceans in between us /Could take me away from you

Lady Gaga - Disease

Lay you down like one, two, three / Eyes roll back in ecstasy / I can smell your sickness, I can cure ya /Cure your disease

You're so tortured when you sleep / Plagued with all your memories / You reach out, and no one's there / Like a God without a prayer

Starset - Symbiotic

Torn into pieces/ i was seeking what could bring me back to life/ and i swore there were voices saying stop pretending / you will never feel alive / and then you came / it was like some synergy had fallen in place / of everything missing in me

Depeche Mode - Home

Here is a page from the emptiest stage / A cage or the heaviest cross ever made /A gauge of the deadliest trap ever laid / And I thank you for bringing me here /For showing me home, for singing these tears / Finally, I've found that I belong here

The Cure - Burn "Don't look, don't look," the shadows breathe / Whispering me away from you / "Don't wake at night to watch her sleep / You know that you will always lose / This trembling, adored / Tousled, birdmad girl"

YMIR - Rise

And if some of us start to fall /Just remember we fought for all Sacrifices were made / Pay respect in their name

Hybrid - Come back to me

All the burdens that I wear echo despair / Every waning heart is torn apart because of my fear / Water pulls me down I hold my breath as I go under / One last breath to turn me around, and yes it's you, my lover Raign - Dont let go

Don't let me go / Hold me in your beating heart / I won't let go /Forever is not enough / Let me lay my head down on the shadow by your side

The Score - Fighting For

We are the same underneath our skin / We all got demons that we hide within /Some nights, we all feel broken / Some nights, it all feels hopeless, yeah /Just know you're not alone

Depeche Mode - I Feel Loved

From the depths of my emptiness /Comes a feeling of inner bliss / I feel wanted, I feel desired /I can feel my soul on fire

Raign - Empire of Our Own

Lay, hours under love/ Bathing in the rush I need/ You blow my endorphins/ Fade, always on the run / But you would slip back in with ease / The place where life begins

[blackvahana]

Forever annoyed at being right

The big lesson lately is that a big part of my dissociation is that I am just not who I pretend to be. Who would've thought.

I feel so much better and like I exist more when I start cleaning around where my divination complex is. I feel better and like I exist more when I allow myself to be the sky. I sit here thinking about how it's not actually been an over exaggeration that I have never been on the literal same wavelength as people on this plane and never fit in not because I'm autistic but because I don't function like humans do. I naturally have always stayed connected to the Otherside and forcing myself to forget it has just... wow. who've thought. forced me to cut off parts of myself. It's not logical ideas on the world and how it works that need to be changed, trying to not see everyone as alien has closed my eyes. Forcing myself to not have other bodies has cut off my senses, because I work in the way that bodies are like limbs for me. They're a part of the whole.

The fucking fact that I'm next to my divination complex and since I started cleaning it - or. lev did - yesterday I can now access and open one of the eyes I realised was closed, and in here like. great. now I need to clean it because I can feel like I'm partly able to breathe, partly covered in rubble... Which is a microcosm of the whole thing at the moment. Years of being used as a weapon and emissary and guardian and being trained into shackling myself with chains and closing my eyes so I can be used... I say years. This has gone on for so long and now you're telling me I not only have to give a shit about myself but pull myself out of this? Lmfao. OK. Yay. You're telling me my worst enemy is my only way out and his pain is mine? You're yelling me after lifetimes of being a tool I have to become my own user and use myself? Wahey

Ultimately we have shit to do which shuts me up because this is never about us. This is always about every single person under us and around us and so on, it's always about the lives of many people so time to shut up and get in work mode. but. here's the thing. It's not about them. We also have to do this for ourselves

Either way. With Hermes back in my current active family... I'm going back to how I was around him - detached from spacetime, able to See, abstract, a messenger as he is between God and Man. And. I. Hate. That that's my natural state. I hate that I am bugger than this physical existence in the way that it's not an addition. It's not that I am a person who astral projects and sees into fate and stuff. I'm something that is fate crammed into a physical form - and I hate that that explains everything. I hate that my inability to fit in here isn't my fault. I hate that my natural state is multiple bodies, that I -

Looked outside and a cloud is literally a dick and balls that's the funniest shit thanks Hermes. Actually I can't even tell if it's Hermes or Lev and I wonder why

[sakuraswordly]

Spoiler Tsofph Season 10(Chapter2 Fake World) Sad Ending

Sonic: This is not the end......we did defeat Kujaku but not in our original timeline.

Punch: ........................

*Flashback*

Kujaku: You guys don't have the slightest clue what will happen if the fake world disappears, do you? It won't matter for normal people, since they don't remember anything anyway...If I were to disappear, all memories of the fake world would disappear with me, as would any recollection of the fate that awaits you. They won't remember anything including both Syaoran and Peter. Even if you save everyone in the real world to the original state, people including your friends from the fake world will vanish forever and never ever bring them back.

*End of Flashback*

Music background play: Knife

Punch: The other me.........Peter.........*Starts to break down and cry for losing them even Punch knows the result if she destroyed the fake world*

*Flashback*

Source: Levi told Punch about him and life in the underground with Isabel and Farlan. And told Punch how this world is cruel and in the end, he ends up alone. Levi knew how powerful Punch was and her life was very similar to his.(In Tsubasa of Phantasia, Isabel and Farlan are still alive thanks to Punch's group saving them) Levi will tell Punch everything what Kenny taught him and to not regret it like Levi did.

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Peter: You're going to live forever, right? Even after you've destroyed this timeline away?

Punch: That's right....

Peter: Then I'm not saying goodbye, either, because no matter what my heart will always be with yours, Punch.

Punch: Are you sure that you will always be with me? You're going to forget anyway.....

Peter: I won't. If the chain of memories comes apart, the link will still be there, right?

Punch: Maybe you're right.

Peter: I'll always love you.

Punch: And I'll always love you too, Peter.

*End of Flashback*

Punch starts to scream and cry and lets out all her emotions as a human. Sonic also start into deep sadness.

Punch: We won't forget them as long as we exist....right, Sonic?

Sonic: ........Um.....

Punch: I've been thinking lately. No matter how human my heart becomes, I am still non-human, a freak to all lives. Because of that....that makes us alone no matter how much we succeed.....we lose everything.......we will end up alone like this in the darkness....

Sonic: But even so.....

Punch: I won't forget everyone that I lost even their memories.

*Flashback*

Colette(Fake): Say....we will always be together right?, even if one day we fell apart?

Cerberus(Fake): What's up with that it's hilarious!

Viridi: Hey! Don't laugh! It's not funny!

Lloyd(Fake): Man...I'm really sick of looking at silly of Edward's face!

Isabel: You tell'em!

Levi: Hey......you want to die?

Envy: I'm ready for this!

Yue(Fake): That's not what stupid Lloyd means.

Yuri(Fake): Even so Lloyd is right.

*Everyone is laughing*

Vanellope: I'm just saying it looks that way, sheesh!

Shadow(Fake): Alright...who's ready for drinks then?

Bibble & Tinkerbell(Fake) & Terence(Fake): ME!!

L: Say mother(Punch)......now my meaning of life is to protect my friends here and now. Because I want to be together with everyone!

Historia: Me too....L.

C.C.(Fake): I think everyone too.

Peter: Just like me.

PUNCH: WE'LL ALWAYS BE TOGETHER!!

Everyone: Punch!!

*Everyone starts laughing with Punch*

*End of Flashback*

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PUNCH: Everyone... I realize now that I have friends as well. You don't have to save the world to find meaning in life... Sometimes, all you need is something simple, like someone to take care of. I'll keep on living no matter what so that I can protect you...

Cut to a scene where Gilgamesh lost Enkidu

*Crack Snap* The sound of thunder

But, is that so surprising? The fact that all life ends one day has nothing to do with Kujaku. Death is a natural occurrence in the cycle of life. Don't all humans and all lives realize this?

That's right....

Gilgamesh: (Someone that dearest the most....? That's right......Punch and Peter....! I can't give up now because of this nonsense death! I need to keep moving!)

to be continued.........