#Does this technically count as backstory spoilers? Maybe. Do I care? *shrug*

[an-unloving-god]

Apollo: ...Sooooo.... that was a pretty big fight you had with your friend back there, and your mom. With a lot of harsh language too.

Ajay: Not my friend. Not my mom.

Apollo: Right, right. You seem pretty adamant on quitting this quest and leaving.

Ajay: I'm hot, I'm sweaty, I haven't bathed in three days, I have a head in my hands that's dripping blood on me, I haven't had a full meal since yesterday, and I'm feeling emotions I haven't felt in nine years. And I'm not talking to Luna.

Ajay: Really, I've accomplished what I set out to do and that was to make sure Jenny was safe. Whatever those three do now has nothing to do with me, I've got zero interest in this quest. The universe is stubborn and stupid, but so am I. I didn't need anyone then, and I don't want some big fix-it-all revelation about why I need anyone now.

Apollo: Oof. You're right. The universe is very stubborn. And sometimes it's also very stupid and makes mistakes...

Ajay: I since a "but" coming

Apollo: Buuut, what if the universe was also very sorry?

Ajay: ...Sorry?

Apollo: Mhm, sorry. For hurting you. For leaving you alone to defend yourself against a really harsh world when you were just a child. For making you think that you had to smother every part of yourself to survive. For never being there to ask if you were okay, or hugging you when someone should've. What if the universe is very sorry for the pain you had to go through?

Ajay: Even if it was, it won't matter in a few days. Emotions don't last forever.

Apollo: But it hurt then, it still hurts now, and that is what matters. You're in pain, and it's as simple as that. You don't have to rationalize it and hide it away. Your emotions use to play a big part in who you were as a child. I can't imagine that's changed no matter how hard they tried.

Apollo: So since emotions aren't the problem, then what is?

Ajay: ...Everything is so much, and I don't have anyone to tell me what I'm supposed to do or how to fix it. My guardians are gone- they were the only family I had left. I yelled at someone, probably hurt her feelings, I didn't mean most of it. My friends are hurt, my feelings are hurt, my head hurts.

Ajay: I thought that if I kept moving forward and dealing with everything, then it would all be fine and the pain would've been worth something. But now... I don't where I am, I don't know who I am or who I'm supposed to be, and I don't know what to do.

Apollo: Hmmmmm, then do nothing!

Ajay: Huh?

Apollo: Do nothing. Go nowhere. Be no one. The world really isn't spinning as fast as you think it is. The sun has been resting in the same spot for a few minutes now, I don't see why you can't rest here too. Maybe, when you're ready to move, you'll know what to do. And if you don't then I'm always here to help, and so is Jenny, her brothers, and your mother.

Ajay: Do nothing, go nowhere, be no one...

Apollo: Yup!

Ajay: ...Okay. I can do that.

Apollo: Good. You've been running for a long time, you know?

Ajay: Mhm.

Apollo: You deserve to rest. God's orders.

Ajay: For someone telling me to you sure are not letting a lot of resting occur

Apollo: Hey, I'll have your know that my voice very soothing and required for optimal rest! I could even sing you a lullaby with a lovely haiku

Ajay: Pfft, sure...

Apollo, watching Ajay sleep: ...Looks like I missed one... or two.

Luna: Good job. I probably wouldn't have been able to make them sleep so quickly.

Apollo: Magic touch

Luna: Magic touch, I'm sure. You have a lot more to apologize for and a lot more making up to do, Mr. Universe.

Luna: But I suppose I do as well.

Apollo: Yeah... we messed up, didn't we

Luna: Perhaps more than we knew. Nein would've known what to do.

Apollo: I guess we'll just need to learn from her

Luna: Maybe we do