#DarkDestination

[sandspeeding]

@darkdestined​ hit the ღ

                  “What are you doing here? How did you even find this place? How long have you been ... it doesn’t even matter. What do you want?”

[scoxndrel]

darkdestined replied to your post: fun fact   han is hella protective of kids.  just...

if you want pre tfa ben/han feelings lemme know lol

*slides in here& you have my attention 

[halfasith]

CODE:// OUT OF CHARACTER

you guys know me too well. I used to play the joker at what was maddcg, I used to be a kilgrave at evilpriick, I used to be highly in the teen wolf fandom as teamcaptainalphawerewolf, I spent the beginning years of my time in the rp fandom as a stefan salvatore....my last venture was in the star wars fandom as kylo ren ( darkdestined ) and I played a padme amidala and so much more....

for the past blogs I’ve dubbed myself MURDERCORPSE, maybe that will ring bells....

i’ve had ups and downs here---in real life and with people on here.

BUT this time is different. I’ve always manged to do well and keep my distance from all the drama this place spawns never making friends, keeping things strictly rp “business” on here.

My life has changed DRASTICALLY. One month ago, I came out to my parents as a lesbian and I got kicked out and disowned. I’m now a homeless 20 year old lgbt youth in socal---with no money and no car. Everyday I wake up terrified of what’s going to happen to me next. I’m living with my aunt who took me in....but that doesn’t stop the nightmares, it doesn’t fix my often times crippling anxiety, and the voices in my head telling me maybe I CANT do this, maybe things WONT get better.... 

And then I managed to see Wonder Woman. And I reminded that I’m more than just this husk trying to survive. I love comics and reading. I love DC Comics, I’ve grown up watching JLA, JLAU, BTAS, YOUNG JUSTICE....etc. I’m still me somewhere underneath all this pain and fear....

I may not have my proud collection of comic books anymore ( my parents won’t allow me to come and get my things, or give me my car ), I might not have all the dceu movies special editions anymore....

But now I have this community....and I’m discovering my strength and hope through Bruce. Bruce who has suffered, bruce who has gone through the unimaginable time and time again. Bruce who has lost and lost, just to get back up, wake up and fight again. Bruce who made a family of his own, Bruce who learned his only way to cope to be productive, to not let his tragedy happen to someone else. Bruce who may not have healed all his wounds but has learned to live with the scars and the brittle aches that reverberate in his bones incessantly. 

I hope with this blog, it’s different. I can’t afford to isolate myself any longer. I need community, and I hope that through me learning about and digging into this character.....I learn something about myself and find a new love with bruce wayne. 

thank you for reading this, and I hope we can be friends. 

sidenote:

if you guys want to help in anyway I have this personal spiritual blog in which I do readings and such in which you can tip...or there’s a link to my paypal. I’m honestly not asking for anything. I just need to know I’m not alone more than anything, I really can’t afford to isolate myself when I know there are those out there who have had similar experiences.....

my family continues to terrorize me even after kicking me out and not allowing me to have anything. their goal is to prove to me that I’m nothing without them. which is not true. and that’s what I’m trying to prove. 

[scoxndrel]

RULES . answer  the  questions  in  a  new  post  &  tag  20  blogs  you  would  like  to  get  to  know  better.     (  repost  don’t  reblog !  ) TAGGED BY .     @saviorheart​.  thanks babe <3 TAGGING .     @stillsolo​  & @stcrredeyes​  & @galaxyslasthope​ & @coronatii​ & @ncrfherder​ & @senthope​  &  @darkdestined​  & @rebelsacrifice​   & anyone else that wants to do the thing. 

NICKNAME.     cally.  STAR SIGN.     virgo.  HEIGHT.     5′2 1/2 CURRENT TIME.     9:01 pm FAV MUSIC ARTIST.    trading yesterday, all time low & skillet ( this is as of current )  SONG STUCK IN YOUR HEAD.   umbrella  ( cover version )   j2. ft. jazelle LAST MOVIE WATCHED.   rogue. one LAST SHOW WATCHED.   twilight zone   ( my dad made me )  WHEN DID YOU CREATE YOUR BLOG.   jan 9th 2016  so like han is a little over a year old.  WHAT KIND OF STUFF DO YOU POST.     writing ?  gay  gif sets meta  random headcanons  ooc ramblings  OTHER BLOGS.   *cracks knuckles*    @ofdarkmagic​  & @ofdarkdust​  & @lordofthedead​ & @allcorners​  & @bookishbiker​  & @ladroxdelxmare​  & @xbonxcoeur​  & @starredhearts​  & @scienceisms​      i believe thats everything.  any other blogs of mine you may find are either old or closed lol.    retired recent  blogs include @itsonlylogiical​  ( deleting that one soon )  & @quickklepto​    oh & my personal is @fllyingsolo​  for those who care lmao.  WHY DID YOU CHOOSE YOUR URL.   umm cos han is a scondrel ?  yeah that about sums it up. much better then the url i started under which was spacexpirate   yeah i hated that url omg.  HOGWARTS HOUSE.     hufflepuff  POKEMON TEAM.  idk i know like nothing about pokemon so.   FAVORITE COLOR.   green.  i like really bright greens  & like dark olive greens  yeeeee  AVG HOURS SLEEP.     depends.  6-8 maybe ?? idk lol LUCKY NUMBER.     3 i think.  HOW MANY BLANKETS DO YOU SLEEP WITH?   i sleep in what my mom calls my nest so like i sleep with lots of blankets. one quilt under me one on top & 5 or 6 blankets next to me.  DREAM JOB.     disneyland worker tbh.  ( job which my bae eris has lol )  FOLLOWING.   395.   FOLLOWERS.   572.