#Daily reminder that I hate and loathe Sidious with the power of a trillion stars igniting and exploding into supernovas

[polgarawolf1]

Welp. I mean, this is because Anakin knows, deep down (whether he wants to admit it to Skeevy Sheev or not) that Obi-Wan loves him and supports him and will continue to do so, no matter how much of a brat he is. The High Council Masters, on the other hand, are still kind of borderline scary for Anakin. They're those extremely responsible adults who originally didn't think he should be trained but ultimately changed their minds about it. He desperately wants to reinforce any positive thinking they might have about him because a part of him (the part that Skeevy Sheev encourages) is fearful about them changing their minds (and afraid that maybe he isn't really cut out to be a Jedi). And eventually this fear morphs into anger, which is why, in SW: TCW and RotS, we see him increasingly lashing out about the High Coucil Masters and how they're wrong and they don't treat him right or fairly, etc. (On the flip side of the whole anger/fear that we all know Skeevy Sheev reinforces at every possible opportunity, there's probably also a part of Anakin that increasingly realizes that the High Council Masters actually do like and trust him, much like Obi-Wan, and that, even when he constantly tests boundaries with them to see if they'll break, really, what he's doing is reaffirming to himself that there's room here for him and he actually is wanted and belongs.)

There is something really weird to me about how AOTC portrayed nineteen-year-old Anakin as much more docile and calm to the Jedi Council than he was to Obi-Wan and someone who meditated when he was troubled and who genuinely tried to discuss his nightmares with Obi-Wan, but fandom would have you believe he resists mediating at all costs, refusing to ever even hint at his feelings, and someone who’d skateboard into a Jedi Council meeting thirty minutes late wearing a backwards hat with a boom box blasting heavy metal on his shoulder.

I just notice these things, is all.