#DO YOU KNOW ABOUT MR INSANITY??? ABOUT MITO???

[amica-aenigmata-naboo]

Mito

Christian Yu x Y/N - drabble - 848 WC

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Warnings: DID, Mito, depression, hurt comfort, idk man I'm stoned as shit

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The bed felt cold and empty, so much so that it woke you up. You felt around with your eyes closed, grunting when you found nothing. You forced your eyes open, adjusting to the darkness. You could hear the pitter patter of rain against the large windows that encompassed one entire wall of the bedroom. A crackle of thunder and burst of lightning showed you where Christian was. He was looking out the window at the city below. 

“Baby?” You called out to him, but he didn’t answer.

You threw the blankets back, shivering slightly when your feet met the cold floor. You walked over to him, he looked far away. 

“Christian?” you said again in a soft voice. He turned to look at you. His face was tense, the bags under his eyes were heavy, he looked… sad. You had never seen him go through a low in the few months you had been together but you recognized the signs he had told you about. 

“Mito?” you questioned.

His lips twitched up slightly but his eyes dropped, “Ever so perceptive.” he turned back to the window watching the rain.

“Are you alright?” you ask. You wanted to hold him but you weren’t sure if Mito would like that so you decided against it. 

“He has no idea the hole you’ll leave behind…” he whispered to himself.

Your eyebrows scrunched up, “”Leave? What do you mean?” you watched the rain with him so he didn’t feel like he was being observed.

“Everyone leaves eventually. Mito, Christian, Mr. Insanity. We’re all too much. And when you leave… which you will… the hole you’ll leave inside Christian… inside all of us…” he spoke clearly but you could hear the sadness and disappointment in his voice.

Your heart cracked, “Mito, I’m never leaving. I… I love Christian… I love all of you even if I don’t know you or Mr. Insanity the way I know Christian. You’re not too much, you just need a little extra care in different areas and that’s ok. It’s ok to ask for help and it’s ok to feel shitty. I’ll always be here as long as you’ll all have me.” you said, turning to look at him. There was no room to question your words, your voice holding every bit of sincerity they could. You reached for his hand slowly, giving him time to pull away if he wanted to. You held him gently, thumb smoothing over his knuckles. 

“Promise?” he whispered, you heard the sniffle he tried to stifle.  

You smiled up at him, “I promise. Cross my heart and hope to die.” you said as you drew an “X” over your heart. Mito gave a small smile. “You smile differently than Christian.” you said, gently tracing a finger over his bottom lip. 

“How so?” he said, his eyes holding fear, wondering if he had done something wrong. 

“Yours is softer. Less toothy. Gentle, kind.” you held his cheek, rubbing your thumb over his cheek bone hypnotically. 

He leaned into your palm, kissing it softly. He tentatively reached out to you, pulling you closer so you were pressed against each other. 

Your arms draped themselves around his neck. “Your eyes are different too.” you whispered.

“Oh yeah?” he said, raising an eyebrow at you.

“Mhm… subtle, sleepy… a little scared, quite cautious…” you said, gazing into his brown eyes. 

He looked down, you had seen him, truly seen him and he didn’t know what to do or how to feel.

You tilted his chin up with your finger, “You didn’t let me finish… I see darkness yet resilience that shines through… I see tenderness and passion. And I love everything I see in you. You matter to me Mito. I want you to know that, I need you to know that.” 

Mito leaned down, stealing your breath before he connected his lips to yours. It was cautious but you felt the sentiment behind it. He pulled away after a moment, eyes quickly finding yours and searching them.

“I hope that was alright?” he asked, worried he might have crossed a boundary.

“That was lovely… I kinda want to do it again.” you said with a slight tease in your voice as you smiled at him.

Even in the darkness you could see Mito blush, he leaned down and captured your lips once again. Delightfully soft, but this held more intention, more comfortability. He pulled away when he could no longer stand the air loss. You both panted a bit as you caught your breaths. 

“We should go to bed, we have to be up soon if were going to make it to Jeju Island by noon.” you said gently leading him back to bed. 

He nodded, shuffling behind you before crawling back inside the warm little cocoon you had made yourselves. He laid his head on your chest, holding you close. You tangle your hand in his hair, gently massaging him as he dozed off. 

“Love you…” he mumbled.

You smiled, “Love you…” you kissed his head, falling asleep when his breathing evened out. 

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Naboo's Note:

Hey girly pops! First fic outside of the BG3 universe. So down bad for this man. Wrote this high so if there are mistakes that's my alibi. Love ya'll, thank you for all the likes, comments, reblogs, and requests! XOXOXOXOXO!!!!!

[fyeahdprian]

DPR IAN talks about 'So I Danced' and MITO lore and inspirations on Instagram Live 9/15/2023

Uploaded: September 15, 2023

Special Appearance: Ian's mom Jane 👩🏻 and Lori 🐶

Main Points

Bipolar sometimes goes hand in hand with DID

Deciding to be personal when making music

Mito likes the doll a fan gifted.

Can never get used to the pain of switching.

Considered whether Putting focus on and personalizing the disorder could make it worse

Tried to fix the condition in his mid twenties but learned it's something he has to live with.

He's asked if he's had breakfast: sparkling lime water ✨️ 🍋 💧

Advice about moving forward: look down, look around, don't look too far ahead. Look for things to be grateful for.

Not good at playing Super Smash Bros.

About 10 more years of lore?

Who is Mito?

Moodswings In This Order

Mito has a deeper voice and wasn't always called Mito.

Mito appears during high stress and low energy (?) moments.

He is the guardian who had to put up with the worst experiences.

Ian always felt like he was living with other people.

As Mito he feels nothing, empty, like a smashed mirror. The shattered pieces are different versions of himself. Character based on real life experiences. Mito is born from dark experiences.

First time he saw Mito was when he was recorded on So Beautiful. After that Ian sees everything that has unfolded in front of him. Why is mito depicting him as a fallen angel? Who lied about it?

Mito has a more biblical experience of religion.

Mito is who he turns to when he experiences extreme dips. And can only turn into Mito after Mr Insanity. He loses track of time and sense of place. Everything seems black and white, he is the persona who can deal with the darkness.

Mito has chosen some of the tattoos, on his hand and back.

Mito 1 in so beautiful, creates versions of himself.

Mito is mayor of town. Psychic?

Who is Mr Insanity?

Experiences hallucinations when he is in manic high moments, can't sleep,

Extreme highs are more dangerous than extreme lows. Doesn't fully blackout as Mr Insanity. Insanity is more dangerous than Mito. He is the stirrer of stimulus.

Push yourself to your limit, feel like everything is aligning and can't sleep until you do the thing.

Three times had to use an emergency kick like a survival instinct where you can summon your last ultimate fighter where the true Insanity came out during life or death situation. Destructive self where he can't sleep.

Who is Mr Green?

Core character. Currently a mystery.

When does a switch occur?

From Mr Insanity to Mito.

Doesn't know how to switch to Mito. A manic high state where insanity switches to Mito. Feels like something big about to happen. Example: when he boarded a plane he felt like something big was going to happen then there is a transitional period where insanity changes to Mito.

He has protocols for when he goes on stage and does interviews. Example: look in the mirror.

When he comes out of a switch he feels like he ran a marathon, takes a few days, longer than before to come back to himself. He has good, supportive people who are there for him when he switches.

How to Manage the condition / switches?

Stay healthy, have people around you who you trust.

Haven't learned when to stop but has learned how to balance.

Unknowingly switches when he experiences stressful / critical moments.

Experiences black outs when he switches. Feels like a dream. Stays indoors when he blacks out.

Don't assume you understand what everyone is going through

A few years ago he started allowing his team to record his blackouts. Sometimes can't tell if he's dealing with bipolar or DID in the moments. Sometimes hard to believe he was the other persona. You have a core you.

Fear in the unknown, don't have control over the blackouts, fear of saying mean things to people you love. Different knowledge bank.

Ian, Mito, and Mr Insanity have different boundaries

Do something new and different for inspiration

Talks about his highs, lows, guardians

What happens if you shatter?

Mito splintered into 3 during 2022 tour, where switches and cycles happened about every 30 minutes. Mito became dormant while this splintered version was in charge.

Three times had to use an emergency kick like a survival instinct where you can summon your last ultimate fighter where the true Insanity came out during life or death situation. Destructive self where he can't sleep.

Lori can tell when he switches.

What is the other side?

The consciousness, whatever you have compartmentalized is hidden behind closed doors. Existing universe that can only be reached by dreaming. Learned to lucid dream as a kid. Dream library bank with continuity. Places and characters. A lot of doors in dreams when lucid dreaming. Wrong door can lead to a nightmare. Longer he lucid dreamed he would blackout, hard to differentiate what's right or wrong. Green asteroid.

Peanut butter and tears representation of wandering through the doors. Early stages of mr insanity. Not crazy yet. Origins of insanity. Ian travels to the other side. First door .. realizes he can't get out and cease to exist the longer he stays in the other side. Towns and mythical and nightmares exist. Who dwells in his consciousness? Mito the guardian angel. In so I danced insanity is with the green inflatable emerald city. Mito 2 is future insanity and is completely blind. Emerald city is reference to wizard of oz. Insanity is a class clown. What happens when insanity takes on more than he can handle. Insanity is on the run and found a psychic to help. A heist is being planned with his friend the green.

A long time ago he had a hard time getting on stage. He has a protocol for stages and interviews. He knows he's going to switch again. Learning to coexist with the switches, feels like he's run a marathon when he's back from a switch, takes a lot to come back. Sometimes takes a week to switch back. Whatever is compartments behind a door must come out. Insanity meets Mito. While story will unfold for another 10 years. What happens if Mito destroys Insanity. Has only put out things he has gone through. Feels like he's at war. Mito and Insanity say shit about each other.

[fyeahdprian]

Singer DPR IAN reflects on 'Dear Insanity,' being open about mental health

October 11, 2023

Since he was young, Christian Yu, better known as DPR IAN, has always dreamed big.

https://www.instagram.com/dprian

"I was always the one to be very on the edge, very adventurous, and I don't think that's ever disappeared," the 33-year-old says. "I've always liked to imagine a lot."

This imaginative nature has manifested throughout DPR IAN's life, making its mark in his work as a singer-songwriter, director and creative. IAN's latest EP "Dear Insanity...", out now, captures his essence as a storyteller, diving deeper into the expansive universe he creates within his music.

"For me, this whole EP just encompasses a journey into your consciousness," he says.

Meet DPR IAN

IAN was born and raised in Australia. Though he is currently based in Los Angeles, IAN is one of several artists under Dream Perfect Regime, or DPR, which based in Seoul, South Korea.

Since its inception, the collective has become known worldwide for its dynamic multimedia work and roster of talent, with IAN serving as its chief director and editor. In 2021, IAN released his debut EP "Moodswings in This Order", followed by his first studio album "Moodswings inTo Order" in 2022.  

IAN's ethos is personified by his creativity. Through his releases, IAN has meticulously constructed his own universe, which he calls "The Other Side."

He has come to represent his mental health through the personas "MITO" and "Mr. Insanity," with the former serving as the "the main attraction" of his discography, says IAN. His second EP "Dear Insanity..." expands the story of MITO and Mr. Insanity, chronicling the artist's introspection.

'Dear Insanity...' lays foundation between MITO and Mr. Insanity

The seven tracks on "Dear Insanity..." detail IAN's journey as each acts as a "snapshot" into certain moments of his life.

When IAN was a teenager, he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. This has influenced his creative work, with it serving as an outlet and extension of himself.

"MITO represents my manic lows and Mr. Insanity had to rebuttal that, so representing my manic highs," he said.

He likens this to Batman and the Joker.

"You understand the Joker more by looking at Batman and seeing it through his eyes of how he sees the Joker and vice versa," IAN says. He wanted to do the same for MITO and Mr. Insanity, building a foundation between the two.

"For me, it's to have people further understand who MITO is," he says. "I had to show them what he was fighting up against."

Links by way of layers

Storytelling is a key aspect to IAN's work, whether it be visually or sonically. With this, he opens the door for deeper understanding of his past.

"The deeper you go in, I sometimes feel like there are certain things that you unravel, that you had no idea about," he says.

IAN portrays this unraveling in a fanciful, inventive way with bright visuals, as well as via distinct tones and genres. This underscores the intricate approach of IAN's art. Everything has its link and can be drawn back to an earlier point.

"I've always loved being taken on a journey because essentially that means you're linking so many things," he says. "I thought, 'Why just make a concept that's going to change every single time?'"

The intersection of comfort and relatability

IAN hasn't shied away from vulnerability. But he recognizes the responsibility that comes with being open.

Showing the highs means you also have show the lows and IAN is cautious of this. "If you've been vulnerable, you can't always share the goods," he says, adding he remains careful of what he speaks about.

With his work, IAN believes he provides something to relate to. "I don't think what I do solves problems. I think what I do gives people relatability," he said. "It's just that comfort in knowing, 'Oh my artist also feels exactly what I'm feeling.'"

"With my understanding and knowledge of learning as I go, I can also just give my two cents of what I'm discovering," he says.