#DIDI GÜVEN | MUSINGS

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INTRODUCING  —  DIDEM "DIDI" GÜVEN

“ NO LIVE ORGANISM CAN CONTINUE FOR LONG TO EXIST SANELY UNDER CONDITIONS OF ABSOLUTE REALITY. ” is that BAHAR SAHIN? oh no, that’s DIDEM “DIDI” GÜVEN, born on the 27TH of DECEMBER, 2022. i heard SHE/HER (CIS WOMAN) is a SOLDIER of THE WYOMING MILITIA. apparently, they can be SWEET-NATURED and OPTIMISTIC but also known to be DELUSIONAL and LOOPY. spends most of their free time BATTLING HER OWN MIND AND NEEDING A NAP, probably smells like SAND AND COTTON. is that a bite mark i see? no, must have been a trick of the light.

CHARACTER INSPO: annie cresta from hunger games. that's it, that's the vibe.

HISTORY: (tw for murder & mental illness)

Didem is an apocalypse baby, born after the doomsday. Usually, people who don't remember a life before zombies adapt more easily to the state of the world, but Didi grew up incredibly sheltered. Her parents did everything in their power to keep their kids safe, never letting them outside their QZ and not letting them see the infected. Her brother, a good few years older than her, had managed to get a few peeks of the outside world when they were kids, but for the most part, they stayed hidden.

Eventually, the QZ's went to shit, too. Didi's parents struggled to keep the illusion that "everything's okay!!!", as they were thrown out into the wild to fend for themselves, but they did their best. They grouped up with other families and they survived in abandoned buildings by scouting supplies.

By the time she was 14, she was still naive to the horrors of the world, still sheltered; she'd never even seen an infected up close. And then a horde of them attacked their group.

The infected rolled in at night, faster and more quietly than any of them could prepare for. There was screaming, crying, running. Her family ran, but it wasn't enough. Her brother helped Didi up into a tree where she could be safe, but he couldn't climb after her in time.

She watched, from high up in the branches, as her entire family was torn to pieces. Gnawed on, devoured, as they screamed for help, looking at her, reaching for her. She was fourteen, and she'd never even seen the infected before.

Her brain shut down. It activated the parachute of self-preservation, it had to detach itself to help her handle all of the horrible things she was seeing.

She didn't remember much of it then, it was all a blur. At some point days later, she came down from the tree, and stumbled around through life, finding people who would help her from time to time. All the while, she had one vivid belief in her brain -- her family was alive and well, she just had to find them.

Her brain built a delusion from denial, and most days, she was happier living in it. A few years after that, she stumbled into Leopold. Still deep in her delusions thinking her family was alive, she was ecstatic to find her brother. Somewhere in her mind, the memories of her dead brother seemed to vanish, and be replaced with Leo, the kind guy she found. She latched onto him, and luckily, he seemed willing to take care of her, too.

They found the grizzlies a while after that. Nowadays, Didem dips in and out of her delusional state; she spends most of the time believing her family is alive and that Leo is her biological older brother, but some days she'll wake up having to face the heavy burden of her grief. On those days, she's often confused, a bit loopy, a bit disconnected, and very sad. Overall, she's just doing her best to pull her weight in the grizzlies before Yen finds out that she's probably too soft for them.

PERSONALITY:

A BABY!!! she's soft because 90% of the time she believes her family is still out there and she just wants Leo to stop getting in trouble otherwise mom will yell at him, and then the other 10% she's just gonna be crying about it

every time that she slips out of delusion, and actually remembers things, she has to grieve her family all over again, because she can never process the grief in a healthy way. every time it gets too painful, her brain seems to shut down again, and back into the delusion she goes. and on those days, when she actually remembers, her memories are all jumbled up. things are confusing, she grows distant, and she usually will just cling onto Leo and rely on him to let her know what's real or not from her memories

when she IS in her delusion and grand denial, however, she's pretty easygoing! she just wants to help people however she can, she's friendly. she likes to think she takes care of Leo, to some extent. and honestly, even people who are mean to her, it probably goes right over her head, so she'll likely be nice to anyone.

EXTRAS & CONNECTIONS:

y'all know i'm whack at this part. but anyway, alright, anyone in the grizzlies please come thru !! she's probably seen as the village crazy lady, probably a good amount of people know she's delusional. SO give me whichever way your character would react, if they're annoyed by it, if they feel bad, if they wanna protecc or just,,, strangle her abt it. slklsdkj IDK GIVE ME ALL !! i'll update the channel if i can think of anything concrete rip