#DAZAI LOOKS SO GOOD IM WEEPING

[osarina]

ANYWAY GUYS SOMEONE SCREAM WITH ME ABOUT THIS!!!!

[osarina]

Hello again fyo tysm for answering my last message like, I was so shy about it 😔😭

Anyway I was thinking about Dazai and I think about a kindergarten au vsisbausjwveoqjwjpw (wild keyboard hits)

Just imagine! Little Dazai Osamu a cute (not in a weird way😭) kindergarten boy who is walking to his first day in his new school very bored in the way BUT THEN in the other side of the street he see a cute girl (reader) and she see like his age and he was like:omg who is this pretty girl (or idn I'm not good writing reactions ��😭😭) the little girl turn to another street and leave he alone in the street and in all the way at the school his can't get out of his mind this like girl then Dazai get into his new Kindergarten (with all the another's agency members) and sit alone in a corner of smth (poor baby boy 💓) AND THEN he see the same little girl of the street, she is in a large table with other kids (I think about Yosano, Kenji, Naomi and Tanizaki) talking, playing and painting or smth like that, and then he was all the class thinking about talk to her but he is too shy to do it (Poor baby boy X2). That is time to lunch and he is not eating anything he is just reading a suicide book so Reader see this weird boy who is not eating anything and think: "maybe he forgot he's food " and she feels bad about it so she take her food and get up from the table and walk to the lonely table whit Dazai, she say hi and ask Dazai why he is not eating in lunch time and what is he's name but Dazai is too confused for her presence so he is just quiet looking at her, reader think thad Dazai is just shy so she offer her food to Dazai and say that they can share together

And from there and obode they became friends and I think they would be that children who promised marry when there were older whit candy rings an is so 😭💓😭💓

Or idn tell what you think about this 😭😭

DON'T BE SHYYYYY I LOVE WHEN YOU GUYS SEND ME STUFF

stop ill actually weep im so in love with childhood friend aus like the idea of little baby dazai not having any friends bc they all think he's strange, and then new girl!reader comes along and dazai wants so badly to be friends with her but he's just so used to not having friends that he 1) doesn't know how to go about it and 2) getting to that mentality that maybe he just wasn't meant to have friends. BUT THEN READER SEES HIM ALL ALONE AND GOES OVER TO HIM SOBSSSSS and dazai is just so wide eyed because he's like wow is this really happening :') and he's just a little itty bitty BABY UGH ILL CRY childhood friends has my heart truly

[osarina]

(uh, this is rlly long im so sorry qwq)

OMG THAT LAST CHAPTER HAD ME FEELING SM CARINA U CANT DO THIS TO ME !!!! LITERALLY THE FIRST FEW PARAGRAPHS IN I HADTA WALK AROUND BC I WAS SO OVERWHELMED I LOVED IT SM !!! N THOSE LAST FEW LINES. DONTDOTHISTOME I S A W THE "BEAST AU COMPLIANT" TAG ON UU IM GONNA SOB MY EYES OUT DURING IT I JUST KNOW !!!

gonna leave some of my fave few lines n my thoughts abt them from this chapter (ok these arent all of em, bc if i put all of em it'd be the whole 50k words of this series SO ITS JUST THIS CHAPTER)

"because how could he possibly belong amongst people who are so unfailingly good that it makes his tainted heart stick out like a sore thumb?"

STOP NO DONT DO THIS TO MEEEEEE throughout the whole fic u perfectly captured his thought process n how he denies his own capacity for change n how he HAS changed from when he was 18 BUT THIS LINE MADE ME TEAR UPPPPPP

"He is so completely and irrevocably in love with you that Dazai doesn’t think he’ll ever be able to live in a world without you. The thought alone makes his skin crawl and his chest cave in."

self-explanatory

“Are you calling me ugly?” 

u gorgeous, gorgeous man ilysm yes you look like a rat but i'll swaddle u up in blankets n clean u up

the whole graveyard scene. DO YOU WANT ME TO CRY HELLO

“You were a kid, Osamu. You’re not some incarnate of evil for ending up where you did, you were failed by all of the adults in your life,”

ok nvm crying this hit me like a truck

"Humans cannot live without a heart, so if he’s to give you his, it’s only fair that you give him your own—though realistically, yours has already been his for a long time."

i feel like this mightve been ur fave line, but if it wasnt IT STILL IS MINE BC OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD QWQ

ranpos lil rant was so funny he's literally me frfr

“Yeah… ha, look at us, in jail at the same time! Couple goals, huh?” 

i giggled

PLS READER INVITING EVERYONE JUST TO AVOID GETTING INTERROGATED UMMM RELATABLE LMFAO

these are just some of them BUT JUST IN GENERAL, UR WRITING IS JUST MAGICAL ITS EVERYTHING IVE EVER WANTED TO READ N I LOVELOVELOVEEEE THIS SERIES N ALL UR WORKS (n u /p) SM !!! I CANT WAIT FOR UNREAL UNEARTH, I JUST KNOW IT'LL BE AMAZING !!!

RED HOW MANY TIMES MUST I TELL YOU NOT TO APOLOGIZE I LITERALLY ADORE YOU IM GOING TO WEEP OMG

honestly the first scene of dazai’s pov was one of my favs to write because it pisses me off so much whenever he’s excluded from the ada panels in the manga fjsjdjsjjd so i NEEDED the opportunity to hit home that that is his FAMILY idc what asagiri says the ada is that boys family and he deserves it 🥹🤞

UGHHHHH STOP BECAUSE WHENEVER I WRITE CANONZAI ITS SO HARD TO KEEP ON THAT THIN LINE OF HIS INABILITY TO ACCEPT HIS OWN GROWTH WHILE ALSO HAVING HIM ACKNOWLEDGING ODA’S LAST WISH FOR HIM SO I REWROTE SO MANY OF HIS POVS SEVERAL TIMES BECAUSE I FELT LIKE I WASNT GRASPING IT ALL PROPERLY

the graveyard scene was one of the 3 scenes i started writing for 🥹 i literally was weeping when i finally got to it

AND ALSO THE YOU WERE A KID LINE UGHHHHHHHH BRO when i tell you that’s something that i literally want to scream at him and shake his shoulders like he was FOURTEEN WHEN MORI BROUGHT HIM IN AFTER HIS ATTEMPT !!!!! FOURTEEN !!!!! HE WAS A BABY IT MAKES ME SO SAD WHEN HE FRAMES HIMSELF AS SOME IRREDEEMABLE MONSTER WHEN HE ONLY TURNED OUT THE WAY HE DID BECAUSE HE HAD NO ADULTS IN HIS LIFE SETTING HIM ON THE RIGHT TRACK ugh im gonna weep again i will always be dazai’s #1 defender, i will fight him himself idc he was only a lil baby :’)

oh my god fun fact i actually almost deleted that line about the heart, i don’t even know why like i was rereading it right before i post and i second guessed myself because i was like ‘i don’t think it rlly flows’ but then i decided against removing it because i liked the line in general SO IM WEEPING AGAIB

bro ranpo needs a promotion for real the headaches this man must get because of people not listening to him 💀

HDOSJDJSJDJJD THE COUPLES GOAL LINE WHEN I TELL YOU I SNORTED WRITING IT HELPPPPP I WAS GIGGLING SO HARD

RED ILYSM IM BUNDLING YOU IN THE SOFTEST BLANKETS AND GIVING YOU A FOREHEAD KISS

i’m so excited for unreal unearth like honestly it’s my pride and joy, i’m so pleased with how my beast!dazai characterization has come out so far and i’m hoping everyone else is going to like it too 🥹 if not ill simply die HAHAH JK JK JK no but really i’m so very excited for it

[osarina]

Hello! Hope you’re having a good day so far, also just read the last installment of badlands (y e a h). I just wanted to say (and affirm continuously) that you are such a great writer - I’d go so far as to say you are one of a kind - to be writing such intricate details about a character that is as complex as Dazai is. Although the badlands series does follow the canonical events, you still twisted it in a different but interesting way, PRETTY DAMN SUCCESSFULLY might I add. So thank you so much for the series in its entirety, it not only made me look forward to Friday evenings but also made me understand Dazai in a deeper way if that makes sense. Not much of an ask but I will wrap it up here, THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU DESERVE THE WORLD AND MOREEEE AAAAAAHHHHHH <3 <3 <3

OH MY GOD WHEN I TELL YOU THIS IS THE COMPLIMENT EVER IM GENUINELY ABOUT TO CRY STOP THANK YOU SO MUCH LIKE LITERALLY WORDS CANNOT CONVEY HOW GIDDY THIS MADE ME FEEL TO READ BECAUSE okay like obviously dazai is SUCH a complex character and i love him for it but it also makes me so nervous because everyone has different interpretations of his character and he’s a character so many people are passionate about that it just MAKES ME NERVOUS OK, so genuinely compliments about his characterization makes me weep because it’s always the thing i’m most anxious about because i genuinely love that boy soooo much and i just want to do him justice ╥﹏╥ SO THANK YOU SO MUCH BECAUSE YOU LITERALLY MADE MY WHOLE DAY IM WEEPING

[osarina]

Hiiiiii 💞💞💞💞

Fyo i really love all your Dazai au's I literally cried and feel sad for like 2 weeks with waterloo end

I really love how you interpret Dazai like I see a lot of people who don't wet all he's character so it don't feel like Dazai BUT YOU I mean is like you write Dazai better thant Asagiri

YoI really look up to you and I hope one day I can be that talent like you (and maybe 1 day I can write about my oc's an crossovers)

Sorry if I make feel uncomfortable with my comment I just want to say how I admire you wathever have a nice day/afternoon/night remember drink water and eat healthy 💓💓💓💓

(Sorry for the bad grammar English is not my first language so I don't speak/write it very well)

(I see somebody talking about Madoka so here is her character Madoka is the pink hair one and Homura the black hair girl)

STOP IT OMG YOU HAVE ME BLUSHING SO HARD RIGHT NOW I LOVE YOU <3333 i'm giving you all of the hugs and cuddles as an apology for making you cry </3 and i would LOVE to read about your ocs, so if you ever do decide to write and post for them, toss me a tag so i can check it out!!

and im not uncomfortable at all, this was so sweet truly my heart feels so nice and warm right now!! you're always welcome here in my inbox <3 i hope you have a good day as well

(DON'T APOLOGIZE!!! YOU WERE PERFECT)

((STOPPPPP THEY'RE SO CUTE OML IM WEEPING)

[osarina]

Hey fyo hope your job is going well and about :>>> ALSO OMG HAPPY DAZAI DAYYY I LUB HIM SOO MUCH ❤️

Also Pls PLS listen to ilomilo by bille eilish like OMG I was letting it play in the background while I reread badlands and SERIOUSLY every. Single. Line matches that gorgeous story! I really think you would appreciate as a fellow dazai simp ;)

REALLY REALLY excited for the fyozai series even when I really wanted skk :< but I would like to see the power struggle between those two brilliant imbeciles very much

Another thing I am excited about is that one ask you answered with the idea of reader with baby zai AHHH I was daydreaming for DAYS about that one and you reaaaally should make it happen pretty pws 🥺

I know this is very long but I was nervous abt sending this....so hope you have a great time whatever you do and I wish you contentment 💗 k byeeee

HELLO TUMBLR USER SNOWSILVER2000 IVE MISSED YOU

i must go listen to it as soon as i get home, ive never heard that song before, i just took a look at the lyrics and i SEEEEE what you mean but i must listen to it to hear it for myself.

I'M SOOOO EXCITED FOR THE FYOZAI SERIES, actually fun fact i was leaning toward the skk series myself but the people have spoken so fyozai it is. it's going to be so good trust, ive got the whole thing outlined and started writing the first chapter the other day, but now im fixated on the civilian dazai series LOLLL so it might be ab it

omg :') the babyzai ask, when i tell u i was thinking about that for dayssss i want a little minature dazai soooooo bad i'll weep. honestly i was debating writing something on it but i haven't decided how id want it to end and i have soo many other projects right now so im hesitant to start another

TO BE NERVOUS ABOUT SENDING ME ASKSSSS PLS I LOVE TALKING TO YOU IM SENDING U SO MANY SMOOCHES

[osarina]

HI HI HELLO PT2 PT2 PT2 HERE AHHHHH

oh my god ofc dazais motivator would be to annoy poor kuni 😭😭😭 (jokes kinda on him tho :3) and thus the unfortunate part about being associated w him is the entire ada questioning our sanity <\3 yosano would be best wingwoman tho cause shes the coolest outta the lot :D

and, ofc, i have to write paragraphs about dazai and his atrociously charming behavior. (time for the 3am rambles pt 2) hrggh the dazai. good lord where do i even begin.. like wtfhshbshs hes actually so sweet when hes in love what! fluff fluff fluff everywhere. and im so interested to see where the plot will go like will that govt official dude guy be bad (i forgot his name </3) will we be in peril ooooo. i dont trust him cause the dazai always has good instincts. anyways back on dazai hrrghhh shsjsnnsjs carina ur writing sobs cries bsnsjejs looks at u thru tears of pure joy u have given me one more reason to look forward to fridays!!!

sobbingf cause im late again if u dont mind pls put me on ur taglist for bsd posts i want to get the noti and go straight to ur inbox and ramble there

TUMBLR USER MINOMIKN WELCOME BACK I'VE MISSED YOUUUUU o(〒﹏〒)o

HAHAH DAZAI DOING EVERYTHING HE CAN TO GET UNDER KUNIKIDA'S SKIN DJFAHSDIUFHSUD IT KILLS ME and yosano o(〒﹏〒)o she's so sweet i love her sm, she just wants to see dazai happy </333

dazai is so :'))) he's just a boy in LOVEEEEE, he is so entirely enamored and refuses to even admit it to himself yet. it's ok tho because he will soon!!! trust!!! no but he's genuinely so fun to write, i'll always adore writing for him because even though he's so complex he's just so :'))) sighs dreamy.

you will probably end up being disappointed about the gov plot jahfasufhsidfua i ended up dropping the ball on it, i had such grand plan for it but ended up scrapping it because if i did it, i'd have to extend the fic an extra like 2-3 chapters and i didn't want to do that because i was already too excited to start uu HAHAH

I WILL DEFINITELY TAG YOU <333 ILYSM I WEEP I WEEP I WEEP