#Celia is supportive and reassuring and it wonderful

[professorlegaspi]

So crazy that Celia was raised as an only child but is an older sister and Neeghan was raised as an older sister but is the youngest child

[myceliacrochet]

11/6

I wanted to follow up and let you all know how I'm doing. Manal, Diana, Shorouq, Fatima, and Maryam helped me through this dark time. They reassured me that I am helping by reblogging and making art and posts. I've been seeing it help different campaigns.

Talk to Palestinians. They're wonderful people. They're just regular people. They need love at this time. They don't only need money. They definitely need that, but the need for emotional support is huge. They're exhausted :( They're traumatized

I am okay. The meds are helping. I'm still having a lot of trouble messaging everyone back. It's because there are so many people and I have trouble with messaging. I will keep trying to get back to people, and I am working on adding other people to work on the blog. I don't have to do it all myself,

We are a community. 🩷

So let's pull together in these dark days, okay pumpkin? I love you 🥰🩷🫂

Okay!

While you're here, here is my friend Mounir. @sham-amany

He's a teenager who is precious, kind, open, and so sweet and caring.

He's worried for his four-year-old sister, Sham.

They are terrified, they need relief.. They are freezing cold, hungry, and need basic supplies, and they need to get out of there.

Let's provide for these kids.

Mindy Mycelia (Celia)

P.S. Mounir requested that I ask the following bloggers to tell people about him and Sham, and/or reblog:

@tamamita @schoolhater98 @90-ghost @beserkerjewel @sayruq @northgazaupdates2

I would appreciate it so, so much if you could oblige.

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I feel so overwhelmed. I have no income, no stable place to live, and hundreds of people coming to me who need thousands of dollars each to avoid getting incinerated, starved, tortured. I make crochet -- when I can get supplies -- and I'm trying to make stickers, when I can get supplies... I'm not very employable and everything is so expensive and it's all falling on my roommate.

I need to hold a fundraising event

Everyone is either stretched to their limits helping or can't be bothered

I'm doing my best to reblog, follow, and react every single campaign I can that is either vetted or has a clean RIS. I'm telling myself that I'm doing enough by contributing art and promoting these campaigns, but the reality is people need money and I'm giving them condolences and things that may not help much.

I had a bit of success promoting Omar's campaign and foolishly believed I could get those kinds of results again. Tumblr staff is being beyond ruthless, attacking even the critical and dangerous vetting work people are risking their lives for on the ground.

I don't know what to tell people who are coming to me for help in what may be their last moments and I'm like "hey here have a shitty art I made that might make a miniscule difference but probably won't. All the best!" I try to respond through my actions instead of words because like Kurt Vonnegut said there's fucking nothing to say about genocide because no one's meant to say anything they're just meant to get blown up. So then I'm ignoring the people who most need help in the world, coldly turning away. So I say sorry and offer these small useless things as if it means anything and every day I lose less sanity and meaning in my life because doing less than what I can to help people not get genocided takes all the color out of my world. I can't imagine truly relaxing or enjoying anything until there's no genocide happening anymore, and I don't see that happening. I feel hopeless like I did in 2016 but this time there's no back door out.

Every time I start to work on something I feel hopeless like it won't work

I have to get my ass into gear, which means I need to:

- pick up my prescription for strattera, I guess I have that now. That will help me focus

- get back on my antidepressants as soon as Fatima's campaign hits $10,000. That will help me keep moving

- talk to other organizers so we can work together.

I am drowning, I am burning in this hxll created by my own culture. Every day they torture the children and the adults come into my DMs and scream help us please please someone help us.

All I can do is do my best every day. I'll keep moving forward

Doing something is better than doing nothing, gxddammit, which means I'm doing a good job I guess, it's just little comfort as I watch the children get engulfed in flames.

Like, I know I can't end all genocide on my own but there's got to be more effective things that I personally can do.

I guess I'll check out one of those lists of things you can do other than donating money

If anyone has yarn to donate and/or could cover shipping or help me find free yarn in my area, that would be so helpful. Because there's nothing I'd rather do than tune out and crochet most of the time and sell it for myself and others.

Please talk to me about how we can work together to help these precious people!!! I need to do more

@monstermashpotato @sylvianritual @gazavetters @determinate-negation @dlxxv-vetted-donations