#Cas is the Sun

[try-set-me-on-fire]

there’s a design

to what I did and said

[lanevra]

[deansawthetvglow]

do you think, before the deal, castiel used to stand outside and close his eyes and tilt his face up to the sun? before the empty said "someday, when the sun shines down on your face, when you are truly happy, that's when i'll come?" do you think dean noticed him staying inside more, after? tried to encourage him to go out and garden? tried to invite him out to fish or walk or have a picnic? do you think dean saw it as a slight? except then, at night, castiel would join him on the hill above the bunker to stargaze, or sit beside him in his recliner in the deancave to binge a show and he'd think "maybe he's okay. maybe we're okay." do you think castiel started warming in the reflection of the sun, in the glow of the moon, because at least he could have that? at least he could have dean, sometimes, in secret, in the dark? a reflection of the light, so muted that it couldn't hurt him?

so it's ironic, then, that he'd be taken away underground, in a windowless room. that the only sources of light would be his own fading grace, the bulb of dean's soul, the sparks of a scythe scraping along the walls. that the sun would be long gone. that it would have been a metaphor.

how curious, to expect an angel to understand, when he understands so little.

[eastofedean]

I came to in a meadow, there was an old windmill with a garden near a quiet brook.

[a tear and a smile, kahlil gibran || the big empty, supernatural || what comes after, zoe adrien || the journey home, matthew wong || champs de soleil, claude monet || october, mary oliver || joseph campbell || colette, tr. by matthew ward, from the collected stories; “on tour,” || the sewer, vincent van gogh || a field of yellow flowers, vincent van gogh || frankenstein - or, the modern prometheus, mary shelley || why be happy when you could be normal?, jeanette winterson]

[bloodydeanwinchester]

one thing i really love about destiel fanfic is that no matter how fucking weird castiel is in a fic dean is ALWAYS embarrassingly into that shit

[wigglebox]

Suptober [Extended] - Day 23 || Hotels/Motels

[maxphotoarchive]

[sun-marie]

"Let's just enjoy our time together - however much we have."

[remembertheplunge]

I'm 60! How fucking odd

12/1/2015

Enjoyed Stockton. Wrote in Espresso’s Coffee House on Pacific Ave,. Read my new “age 40 pre World War Two” book. Age 40 was the entry to old age then. (Pre 1941). 

Per Terrance McKenna, at age 50, his Doctor told him, that  people his age in the 19th Century (1800-1899) were dead. I googled it. Age 49 and a few months was the average age of death in 1900.

I think 60 is the magic transition point.

40 is too much like 30. Kinda shallow. 50 is a bitch. I mean, the 50’s.

60 equals resolution.

I’v lived long enough to know.

12/5/2015

I hit the Mid Night Sun where I read at the bar about GrAY’s…of which I am one: Senior Gays over age 60.

This morning, here where I write at night in my bedroom, I thought “God, I’m 60! really? How fucking odd!"

End of entry

Notes 1/11/2025

I wrote the above blog when I was about 5 months into age 60. Now, I'm about 5 months from age 70. And, 60 seems young! And, I feel young! I'm looking forward to my 70's. I think it will be an expansive plain. The 60s have been a wild ride that deepened and broadened my soul. What dies now in the 40's and 50s is the assumptions of "of course" and of "I deserve". The being is freed and the body can bloom.

Terence McKenna, who died in 2000, was an author, lecturer and a mystic who "advocated for the responsible use of naturally occurring psychedelic plants". per Wikipedia. I've listened to some of his You Tube talks. He's a kick! Well with a try.

Please see photo of Empress's Cafe in the following blog.

[damn-these-eyes]

se habla

[tricoufamily]

THE BITCH IS BACK (jacques, not me fuck you)

next

[gloomingstar]

Hello gloomingstar! can u draw camp sun valley mike if you're okay with that^-^

Day 41...♡

[stygianheart]

When I say I’m a beginning artist I mean I’m a beginning artist. This shit took like 5 days.

Aight anyway that’s a scene from Chapter 11 of TSaTS so uh. Enjoy the out of context spoilers.

[minamill]

Happy Trans Day Of Visibility!

Viv (she/her) Sun-ok (they/them)

Sovann (he/they) André (he/him)

Dahlia (she/her) Farrah (she/her)

[notokbutthriving]

Rez is entirely too enamored with the wither twins

[jasminesilk]

Trinity Pham 🚬 All Outfits

Trin is a low budget fashion icon. The majority of her pieces are either thrifted or hand-me-downs, with the occasional fast fashion item because, hey, she's broke ok?