#Cant even rant to anyone about this because Ill be mocked or fucking outed against my will again | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

literaturess · 9 months ago

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Trying so bad to cope with the fact that it wouldn't matter if I found a nice girlfriend and who would possibly become my long term (hopefully lifelong) partner it would... it would still be obfuscated by the fact I can't at the moment (if not ever) come out to my family

#Like dont get me wrong I STILL want to be in a relationship despite this #But my cousin is literally 18 and he has a gf. And you know. He gets to talk about her at family gatherings #Everyone is saying how cute they are etc etc #Nobody is mocking them #I would kill to be able to just come home and happily tell my parents I have a gf now.#My mother knows but pretends that she doesnt. Told me she will not talk about if to anyone in the family #And that I shouldnt tell ANYONE EVER #And basically that I deserve to be bullied and mocked :)#I was fucking 14 #Not to be dramatic but I felt like I lost my mother that day #And even worse #If I can't even trust my own mother #Then who can I trust?#Life is hell #Cant even rant to anyone about this because Ill be mocked or fucking outed against my will again #L. log

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