#Cant begin to explain how I missed drawing these rats

[ligh5hog]

They're comforting him <3

[screechingtrashcalzonewombat]

"Apopalictic Astral Asending" Reavaluate disassociate my self worth...

The galaxies have birthed an uncontrollable being ....

I've feel as tho Ive seen myself split in two ..

Witch side do u wanna see if ur lucky I'll let you choose .

Cause in the end I loose..

One of hate one of love could both be from up above..

Or down below ...

I've began to show signs of delusions as half my mind goes an tells me it's only mild confusion. As my body fights my brain an heart to escape theys terrible illusions.

Yet the other half tries to start a fusion of body an mind an all the suddently my thoughts are no longer mine..

But a evil so Divine that its wound it's way threw time itself I've fealt the damage the energy dealt. I've yelped in anquish an pain been stuck for 7 long years in the rain with nothing to gain .. I can barely fathom to explain im not fully on earth I'm on another astral plane but i fear i flew out of my lane I've gone insane never wanted fame Ever fealt like bat man I mean oops Bruce Wayne. Nah fuck hes spoiled a wet rat infact I'm more like hulk duck when I'm near i wearly see I'm drowning inside my mind but no one can hear my dear I fear I've lost control again but cant compute I've been booted out of the system I've clawed hit an kicked to try to get to the top but i outta of known I've been ripped an thrown from my throne ive been shown what this beast can do but who woulda thought a demon bought my soul ..a jackal a goul.....you'll see me shift into numbness I suposse it was my own dumbness for being to open now cause of me my body an mind are broken an stole. as I weep an shutter an i try to speak but only stutter I found myself weak in defeat ....as ik this demon reaching its peak will plunder an pillage the town I've found I'm bound to this beast nowhere to run not north south or east I can run it will feast on my soul until the end of time ..

For diamonds cannot compare to the rarity of a soul nor a bowl of Ruby's an jems rolled in gold .....

A bold statement you say........

.. theres no ray of light here they stole it away buried it in your mind but how can u define being locked trapped in yourself ...

You've dealt your own fate ...

Wanting ansers u dint deserve ..

Did you like your just dessert's...no?

Dose it hurt ..... After you itll kill children's childhood freinds like bernie & eart ....whent bizzirk an bashed there brains makeing bloody rains

curking on everyone with cutlery forks an knifes* slice *cook big bird with chives after I've shanked him 900 times... 100 more woulda been devine serve him drink to dry alone cooked an ripped him to the bone but not quite alone u may not be home inside but u can still watch...I thought I taught u better than to close ur eyes dont beg or look surprised look away an I'll adopt another stray to do the same a slow sweet death cure's my hunger anyway

.the wines innocents blood bitter sweet to the taste of the tounge

no one thought it capable I seemed...looked ...so young..

They dint know it had just begun it wasn't me but the evil half committing crime with glee an fleeing repetavidly revealingly images to my mind of times & crimes so sickening I thought I'd die forever scetched seered into my mind .binded with no power as one towers over you using your power you cowar for how dose one define the disasbalment of there an every defined mind while ur inner demon dines on flesh making a mess of your vessel you cant even wrestle your way to the light to stay only break down in defeat that your so far away you've became an internal mess cant even stand on ur feet the beast has u chained in defeat u cry an apologize looking for answers as of how to stop.....an then...you hear a voice .." you outta stayed silent instead of talk back. U shouldn't of complained do u still think ur life used to be pain...... . Ur a sack of shit ur wit is less than that of an ant not to rant but I'm not done yet I have ur soul now I'm never letting go no no no I have plenty more so much to show many souls to reap an emotions to subdue after all u said yes.....

...did you forget ur the one who started this.

mess ......you dressed your mind with fantasy an fiction word to the wise never mess with other worldly friction an your itching for a way out but I doubt ull get there before the end of time .after all you had a devil an an angel on ur shoulder an you chose wrong this time. Only took 666 times but I'm patient an always waiting for 6 years hating an burning flesh waiting for a prayer a call after all Lucifer was once an angel an the most beautiful you just dint get to see from what angle he had beauty wrath an determination but u humans resulted in his isolation incarsorason. So now we will end up being humanity's enialation when were done there entire selves with evaporate for the demons have released self hate to pro create creatures in confidence we annihilate the fate of the human race at least the trace slight like us able to bust threw dementions so weve mentioned a start to find the inordinary soul an heart ......humanity was doomed from the start.. you stole our purpose our reason to be......humans sit in sin an glee.

Your humanitys Pride is overbearing never genuinely caring ..

Greed is sweeping the nation its reached ever state an it's got a hot heaping plate of corruption for mankind's consumption greed is grotesque in its steps of the darkest quest to corupt ur mind an want. .want..want until that's all you are is wanting more

Lusting over losely draped garments you've tarnished ur soul .

Envy of what you do not posses but for all you know that information an life would make you a mess but ud still test ur envious tendencies.....

Glutton glutton what have you gained it's not knowledge no for it's to plain rather glutton uve found a urge that wont go away....

Wrath an vengeance blood draw too no one stops till some dies him or you....

Sloth last but not least cant forget you cause uuuh wait what that fuck do u do....you sleep an sulk sit slither out of simple tasks an that's why ur not 1st no ur last like humanity just ask ....

So soon the day will draw near the the number 4 is what you should fear our dear old freinds were sending up for a visit so they can reddit ur fate for each a horse an a trait the first out the door with bow in hand riding a white horse with bow in hand

..

Conquest the start of the final test leading the restthere dark version of light on a white stallion he leads the way an soon will follow hades anyway.

War was next on a red steed he rode prepared to purge an quench new blood for the wars an battels would just begin brother against brother an close of kin witch to win?

Famine foe of all on a black horse with the courses hair so fair merely bone but dont let his appearance fool you hes for he is full devouring your greed taking away everything you want or need an now ur rationed to nearly starvation stretching farther than destination world wide sensation...

Pleage reaper of souls slowly apears steadly trotting riding a very sickly steed looking pale an almost gruesome green with sores an sickness best keep a distance. For he shall be the bringer of death an reap you all one by one to the four you shall fall...

Will you be spared are you true....

Are you happy with your life what did you do...?

Rapture no you still must die.....

Say good by to this earthy chapter theres so much more that manifest after.

But only your earthly husk must rust an fall your all energy of grate mass....

It's time to take the task of self evolvment an enjoy an enlightened installment

this world was just step wrench ur third eye wide open an accept the token of eternal life.

Grinded it to atoms a flash of dust all together ur a self fulfilling must memory pass u in a rush.....

. sudently ur bodysuit is gone ....

But it dint felt like it quite belonged.

You were 7 grams of light matter to be exact an sudently you've cracked the atmosphere ..steering energetic waves my metal psyche caves to the new information flying threw stars consolations.

Suddently speeding at the sound of light the stratosphere seems to disapear ..

My fear is gonewithout a trace an freedom transferred in its place

but am waved in infatuation to find out about out true destination...

Restoration of the soul the goal of a higher self being achieved as I crash into the sun 1500°

I feel a warmth like no other each being hues of light I might of missed earth if not I heard a voice but a mental push no need for speech just thinking it shall be done said by the the brightest in the sun.

Rejoice at last but ur journeys yet to pass ..

This is merely were you start ....

Our flames grew high with frantic waves not wanting to give up the new life we were just gave

Suddenly our flames grew dim as we felt a swirling deep from withn sudently the surface of the sun turned to tin an bent in a cracked an caved with itself our time an space sending us ascending in alignment the same assignment.

Because the sun has begun to change ina twisted way a black hole some could say.

As all of our astral beings were ripped an tore apart at the seams we all merged an formed one all knowing creative being an sudently everything I've know has little matter I'm past a point of human chatter i understand infinity the holy trinity I down in the milky way an experienced every life I've relived it twice I've spliced my genetics into over 2000 million beings I've seen good an bad in between experienced every tragedy to build my strength an studyd every thesis an theory thread an chain nearly drove my vessel insane even took knifes threw my veins in anger yet it failed I was just a trailer.ive seen love hate an anger

Comprehension compasing many others I have love an understanding past many beings there anger seems to brush by me cause I'm with 2000 souls an minds that have formed one to reach a state I can medidate in the milky way an force your negative away .

Our astral self has accumulated complete power an understanding by costuming to our full potential our old body's merely a rental.

Gentle at first then bursted into power showered in knowledge I know now much that I wondered before but now I want more an I've thought till I an 2000 shared beings head hurt cause my girth of knowledge will now never be enough it's tough cause now I must find .... how to ascend again but for now i must defend my vast mind defind crime ...?

Keeping 2000 vast voices locked away so I can focus an try to learn anyway leaning in to vast places is I the 1st 2nd or 3rd or other many plains I cant quiet place I'm traveling threw them all searching for everything I couldn't before .

This life isent like the countless other this life I like it has interesting teathers

I've surpass Angel's an there feathers an vison of a hawk.

I've surpass demonds and there demonic temping talk ..

I've walked on water as I was ripped apart an I felt my self rebuilt every cell of my being got hit with rods of power lightning not even myself can fight me god like abilities the universe as built in me theres ben a spiritual shift a tilt in me somthing generations of DNA sprawled out in a numerical display my old life experiences is the price I pay so that I can be god even if only for a day

I think I'll sit an think somewere in the outter spink of the universe I've cursed myself with knowledge an now I'm aware step into my astral space....

If you dare...

[kappasigmalife]

Eternal Purgatory: Chp 7 Mind, Body and Soul

 Eternal Purgatory: Chp 7 Mind, Body and Soul

Paul awakens around 4pm after stoning with reefer the entire night and notices chris looking at psychology books from the library in the living room.

“what are you doing?  you don’t take psych.”

“last night I went somewhere that I don’t understand in the slightest.” Paul raises his eyebrow asking Chris to explain what exactly happened to him. As chris explains paul just looks at him as if hes making it up and proclaims even he doesn’t know much of robbys mind, asking how he could enter his subconscious.

Chris looks at him confused and retorts that he thinks robby may of just done it on his own and might be expressing his power to them, as he as found in a emotional state. Paul strokes his chin wondering if he might be capable of helping out with it. As the two converse, robby wakes up and sees chris and effectively looks the other way.

“morning paul, morning chris, how’d you sleep?” Paul looks at robby confused.

“fine thanks” Chris begins getting a little worried.

“find anything in your dreams big guy?”

Robby shrugs and says he found nothing strange as he slept and goes to get coffee. Brendan walks in wearing a Pikachu onesie and looks at paul and chris. Paul chuckles at seeing a chubby man dressed as a pokemon while chris thinks he looks adorable. Reefer pops up telling chris that the dean needs to speak to him immediately.

“oh good, another meeting with the holy man of assholes.” Reefer laughs as he looks at the tablet

“it truly hurts my heart to have you go through so much shit.” Chris rolls his eyes and walks to campus to the office only to see Alicia sitting at the waiting area holding papers.

“oh hey weren’t you at the party a month ago.” Alicia shrugs and looks at him.

“why yes I was why do you ask?” Chris replies

“because you seemed familiar and were talking to Brendan the whole time.” Alicia looks at chris and sees the connection linked between the two of them.

“yes hes my brother, im transferring from another school, and need to get registered for the winter so better now than later.” Chris looks at her confused.

“he never mentioned a sister, or family for that matter, we’ve been together 2 months” Alicia puts her arm on chris’s shoulder and looks him dead in the eyes

“theres a lot you don’t know about him, but until that day the truth comes out, that line with continue to shrink.” Chris looks annoyed and confused and wonders what she meant until Arthur calls him in. as chris walks in he locks the door and asks chris what he saw in robbys head. Refusing to disclose any personal matters, Arthur pulls out robbys file and explains that he is a rare case, an egnigma to purgatory as files are compiled based on memory but robbys is almost blank, aside from age, location, date of birth and name. chris looks and notices no details of his death and realizes that robby is effectively being repressed, perhaps by his own death or his past. Arthur notes that there was a concern over chris as well pulling out a roster of students and his name being crossed out.

“something has happened to you not in this world but the former earth you came from, it appears your not dead, but very much alive. I know nothing of the notion and I recommend seeing what is going on by going to the human world.” Chris looks at Arthur and wonders what the hell he means by traveling to the human world as if it was possible to do so. Back at the house robby looks at a empty journal and brushes off the dust. Taking out a pen he draws two entries, one finding a rat, and the other of the dark void that almost enveloped Chris. As helen notices robby and their eyes meet, he slams the book shut and walks out telling her not to touch the journal.

“that is a private matter that only I will accompany to, please respect it.” Helen looks at the journal on the floor and notices that it’s a leather bound drawing book that has his named carved inside of it.

“what the fuck is going on with this place.” as chris walks back to campus he notices that he will need to get to the human world and check on his body. as he contemplates how to do so he calls paul. Paul tells him that there are two ways to enter the human world but one takes a adnormally long time the other is in and out. he mentions he can wait for the eclipse in May, or he could be taken there through a portal.

“itll cost ya 500 for a round trip, so will you ride express, or wait a month for a opportunity to appear for a few minutes.” Chris forks over the money and tells paul to bring him now. Paul takes chris to the house were they enter the tv and go through a strange dimension crossing over worlds. As they arrive they enter through a hospital monitor and looks around.

“good thing no one can see us, Paul go into that computer and find my room.”

Paul checks the computer and sees Chris is in ICU, room 23 and takes him over. As the two look in the room, chris sees his mother, father, and younger brother s sitting in chairs watching comedy central.

“well im pulling the cover down and seeing whats up.” As chris pulls down the covers, he sees that his body is covered in frostbite and hes missing his right leg. Appalled he looks at his charts saying that he was in the freezer overnight but barely alive. His father had requested he be kept on life support and taken to icu to be evaluated until he awakens. Chris takes a deep breath and merely wishes to see his father get beaten down.

“Of all the horrible and atrocious things this man did to me, he cant even let me die in peace without making me suffer. I cant go back to the world like this, itll be agony until I die for real.” Paul pats him on the back and says he has the solution.

“I can cause a malfunction in the machine that’ll take you out, no pain, no nothing, just your body dies and you come back.”

Chris looks at paul

“sure, but I want to do something real quick with my body.” Back at the house, robby is smoking with reefer and asking for advice on what occurred in his dream.

“chris was there, and he was opening doors in my head, what does that even mean.” Reefer looks at him as if he has two heads and just lets out a puff of smoke retorting.

“I don’t know man, it appears that maybe he seeped into your brain, unlocking lost memories of forgotten times and wishing to finally awaken what you lost when you got here, or your secretly gay for him.” Robby glares at him as helen wonders where chris and paul ran off too.

“oh right, I was supposed to let you know, chris and paul headed to the human world to kill chris’s mortal body on life support.” Helen with her jaw dropped

“WHAT!!!!!!”

Reefer takes another hit plainly stating.

“You heard me.” robby and helen look at one another and wonder if chris will return to the human world or if paul really would kill chris. Brendan walks in wondering when chris will get back, considering they had dinner plans at  new Italian restaurant, with robby telling him the situation, Brendan walks out and punches a wall.

“what the fuck Arthur, you could of killed chris in the human world you all powerful holy shit!!!” helen grows curious if its romantic Brendan wants chris back in purgatory, or disturbed he wants him to die. Robby shrugs and says to let it run its course as its nothing more than simple solution to a complex situation.

Back in the human world, paul enters the life support machine and awaits for chris to tell him when hes ready. Chris then enters his body and slowly opens his eyes, looking at his family. He tells his mother, hes sorry he didn’t spend more time with her, telling his little brother to not end up the way their father did, and finally asking their father to come closer so he may talk to him. As his father approaches, chris grabs him by the collar and pulls him close screaming in his ear.

“ITS ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!!”

As chris finishes, paul turns off the machine, killing chris’s mortal body and the two looking as his family crys over him.

“a shame your leaving your family like this, but living would have been terrible.” Chris replies stating that hes happier where he is.

“it doesn’t matter to me, I feel remorse for my mother and brother, my fater however, deserves to hear those as my last words.” Paul looks at Chris thinking of how vindictive he is and looks on as his father slumps over shocked and appalled.

“im impressed, didn’t think youd do that but its hilarious to see that man in pieces.” Chris smiles saying hes happy its done as the two enter the monitor and return to the human world. Chris is welcomed by Brendan with a hug and a kiss with robby curious of what it was like to get a second chance. Chris tells him there isn’t anything hed give for a second chance at life as purgatory already gave that to him. Paul tosses chris a bass guitar and tells him now that the sentimental shits gone, its time to start playing.