#But like always I am never pleased and it won't suprise me if I decided to change them in the forever as well!!

[reksink]

A Gaggle of Children from a Tortured Mind of One

[nightdemon04]

First try at angst let me know what you think!

I gave this fanfic a very personal spin so i hope it's not too bad.

Angsty? Comfort? Idk you can decide

Warning! Self isolation, mention of sh and sh scars. If any of these trigger you please don't read.

Atsushi Nakajima x gn reader.

Enjoy!!

I splashed water on my face and look at myself in the mirror. Eyes puffy from my latest crying session, i took notice of the scars that are still there but atleast i didn't go that far this time. I was pulled out of my thoughts when my phone started ringing..

Probably Kunikida calling to see where I am, I really wish I hadn't plugged my phone in yesterday, it's been silent for the whole week. Now I'm going to have to explain to everyone why I'm missing for the week, not that any of them bothered to visit to see me. I'll just tell Kunikida I was sick and couldn't get out of bed.

I checked my phone only to see a lot of missed calls and unread messages, I'll answer later. I can't be bothered right now. I lay back in bed staring up, I don't know what happened for me to feel like this. I guess it started when I saw Dazai and the others in a bar without me, they couldn't even bother to invite me. It wasn't even their fault I was away on a mission but it just reminded me of my past and how that went.

Now i'm here talking to no one, going back to how it all was before i joined ADA. I always thought it was normal until i met the people I know now, I can't help let the past haunt me and ruin everything I've build so far.

I should probably atleast text Atsushi, he's probably worried sick about me. I'm suprised he hasn't shown up on my doorstep but I understand. I do live quite a bit away from him. I'm also glad he hasn't shown up, no idea what I'd do. I'm scared to face him. He's the love of my life, he's been there for me since he joined. He gave me the best birthday gift even though he didn't know me. I love him with all my heart so i don't want him to see me like this.

I rubbed my eyes hoping for the tears that I felt building up to dissappear. After a while i fell asleep again, only to be woken up by knocking on my door. I groggily open the door only to see Dazai. "Dazai? What are you doing here?" He pushed me aside and walked inside. He turned to look at me, grabbed my shoulders and started talking. "Get off ur ass, stop pitying yourself and get something done." i looked at him in shock unable to say something.

I felt the tears coming up again. Dazai kept staring at me. he wiped them away.

"Staying home and pitying yourself won't help you, it will make everything worse. Go work or go on a date with Atsushi, go to a store, go to a dog park, i don't know but stop it." He looked at me calmly but there was another emotion hidden deep inside of him. I couldn't say anything, just staring at him. He slapped my cheek softly snapping me out of it and i started nodding and softly said a "yes Dazai."

He looked at me so serious, I've never seen Dazai like this. It's honestly scary to see him like this. "I'll come to work tomorrow i promise." He suddenly smiled. "Good u need to help me with paperwork!" he winked at me.

Ofcourse what else did i expect. Suddenly his face dropped again "Y/N.. Don't let whatever happend stop you or push anyone away. Everyone was worried sick about you, come to us when you need help don't just isolate yourself." i nodded and hugged him tightly.

I felt him tense but slowly hug me back. "Don't ever hesitate to ask for help or advice, just don't wallow in self pity that's just stupid." i nodded again and let him go, he walked to my fridge and took out a bottle of water.

"I'm going now, i better see you at work tomorrow" he was almost past the door when Atsushi came inside panicking. "Y/N i saw your door open are yo- Dazai?" Atsushi is here now too? Just my luck.. "Hello and goodbye Atsushi" with that Dazai left quickly and Atsushi turned to me with confusion.

I just lifted my shoulders i didn't want to expose Dazai or even explain it all. "What are you doing here Atsushi?" He looked at me nervously. "I came to check up on you.. You haven't answered any of my texts and haven't been at work so I've been worried." He cares?

I decided to stop it here i might make a second part though. I've been struggling a lot with life so do excuse the rare updates.

Also I'm working on some headcannons but for some reason i just can't think if anything I'm going to ask some friends to help me cus i really don't have any idea how to tackle that. Either way i hope you liked the fic!

Stay healthy and safe!

Drink enough water and eat too!

[crowfromfoggyforest]

Guys, you need to read this poem. Rumbelle shippers, but also everyone else. (Rumbelle analysis below)

Is/Not by Margaret Atwood

Love is not a profession genteel or otherwise

sex is not dentistry the slick filling of aches and cavities

you are not my doctor you are not my cure,

nobody has that power, you are merely a fellow/traveller

Give up this medical concern, buttoned, attentive,

permit yourself anger and permit me mine

which needs neither your approval nor your suprise

which does not need to be made legal which is not against a disease

but against you, which does not need to be understood

or washed or cauterized, which needs instead

to be said and said. Permit me the present tense.

[and apparently there is a second part, unfortunately i can't find a correctly formatted version of it - but i guarantee you this block of text is worth reading:]

I am not a saint or a cripple, I am not a wound; now I will see whether I am a coward. I dispose of my good manners, you don't have to kiss my wrists. This is a journey, not a war, there is no outcome, I renounce predictions and aspirins, I resign the future as I would resign an expired passport: picture and signature gone along with holidays and safe returns. We're stuck here on this side of the border in this country of thumbed streets and stale buildings where there is nothing spectacular to see and the weather is ordinary where love occurs in its pure form only on the cheaper of the souvenirs where we must walk slowly, where we may not get anywhere or anything, where we keep going, fighting our ways, our way not out but through.

End of poem. I don't know if it's irrationnal how much Rumbelle i see in this. Please tell me you see it too. For me, the person talking is Rumple in season 5b. He has accepted who he is, that Belle can make him a better person, but not a completely different one. Now it's up to her to accept who he is, that she can't fix him. That he will always fight for what he wants, and not only the right way, that cruelty and anger are a part of him. And she also has to accept that she can't always be good and pure herself (- aka forgiving herself for pushing Gaston into the water). She has to stop forcing their love to be heroic and good. Instead, she needs to allow them both to live as they are, to allow their love to exist as it is.

And in the second part... you can't tell me you don't see Rumple in this. His whole life has been about grappling with who he is inside, who the world has convinced him he is: A coward. His life has made him a cripple, but he doesn't want to be like that anymore. He can't be a saint either, because he can't live with the vulnerability. He has decided that he can't live without his dark side - yes, there is good in him, but also evil, he will never be only one or the other. You could also say he has decided that he won't be defined by his past wounds anymore. He is now facing who he is, entirely, and time will tell if he really still is the coward everyone said he was. And he won't force anything, nor will he look into the future to see what their love will become. They're not in a fairytale anymore, they're in the grey real world, where life isn't as glorious and where they have no guarantee what they have is true love. No guarantee for a happy ending. But they still have to keep going, enjoy what they have, live in the present. And not solve their problems by trying to change who they are, but by accepting it, by accepting all their issues and working with and through them.

[mikadosekimura]

B-PROJECT KAIKAN* EVERYDAY CARD STORY Mikado Sekimura SR 「KAYAK」

「A&R-san, if you don't mind would you like to come with me tomorrow during your free time?」

01 HAWAII

Hikaru: Wah.. that suprised me, I didn't think chocolate could be salty?

What's wrong with the taste testing corner of that souvenir shop!?

Kazuna: There was also a cookie-shaped keychain mixed in with all of the cookies.

I'm glad that we were the ones trying it all. If some children had eaten them without realising, it would've been dangerous.

Mikado: Hmm… I'm a little concerned that such strange things keep happening.

Tatsuhiro: It's just a coincidence, right Onzai?

Momotaro: I hope so……

Hikaru: Wait a minute, Pi-chan!?

You said that in such a strange tone, could it be that something spiritual could be the cause?

Momotaro: …….

Hikaru: Why did you go silent!? You're scaring me! I won't be able to go to that souvenir shop anymore!

Mikado: Now, now…Hikarun. Please calm down. There are plenty of other souvenir shops around.

Tatsuhiro: Oh, there's a souvenir shop over there too. Should we go there?

Kazuna: A&R-san, is that okay with you?

A&R: Yes, there's still time until the meeting starts, so you can take your time to look around.

Hikaru: Alright! Well then let's get going!

INSIDE THE SOUVENIR STORE

Hikaru: Is there anything interesting?

Since it's a Hawaiian souvenir, it's nice to pick up something suprising!

Momotaro: It's just like Hikaru to want a souvenir to be interesting, it might be fun to receive it as well.

Kazuna: Hmm, it's nice if it's interesting but I think I'll choose a standard souvenir.

There are lots of delicious-looking things like cookies and chocolate.

Mikado: Hmm? These cookies are very colourful and cute aren't they?

Tatsuhiro: It looks like there is taste testing but… it just reminds me of the cookie-shaped keychain from earlier.

Mikado: However, if you're going to buy it as a souvenir, you'll want to try the taste, so I'm going to take the plunge here…..chomp!

Hm…! This is…!?

Hikaru: What happened Mikachi!?

Did it turn out to be a keychain again!?

Mikado: It has a gentle texture, a fruity taste, it's not too sweet so it's very easy to eat and it's the perfect size so that you can eat it in one bite!

Kazuna: Umm…so it was delicious?

Mikado: Yes! Let's buy some as souvenirs for Yashamaru-san and the others!

Tatsuhiro: Yashamaru-san would probably be more happy with this than an interesting souvenir.

Mikado: Yes, let's go to the checkout…eh? This price is……

Hikaru: Wait.. what is this?

They're ten times more expensive than the other ones!?

A&R: Does the fact that it's so expensive mean that it's that delicious?

Momotaro: It feels expensive for that price but it's a possible that they use better ingredients.

Mikado: Hmm… this price is high for a souvenir however, I am always indebted to Yashamaru-san……

……I decided

I think I'm going to get these cookies!

Hikaru: Wow, as expected from Mikachi!

He has a lot of manliness!

Mikado: Now, I'm going to checkout. Everyone, please wait here.

OUTSIDE THE SOUVENIR STORE

Mikado: I'm back.

Momotaro: Hm? You look relieved somehow, what's wrong?

Mikado: The cookies I brought earlier were just normal price. It seems that the price tag was put on the wrong item.

Hikaru: Huh? Is that so?

What a surprise~

Tatsuhiro: Well, we've brought souvenirs, so I guess it's time to go.

Mikado: Yes, let's.

……Oh? This poster is…

A&R: Mikado-san, what's wrong?

Mikado: It looks like you can try out kayaking. It looks very interesting.

A&R-san, if you don't mind would you like to come with me tomorrow during your free time?

A&R: Is that okay?

Mikado: Yes, of course.

A&R: I've never been kayaking, so I'm looking forward to it.

Mikado: If that's the case, let's get the others involved too!

02 BEACH

Yuta: I'm looking forward to going kayaking-!

Kento: Why me……

Yuta: Now…Kenken

You've been complaining all this time.

Kento: Isn't it because you forced me to come with you, Yuta?

Goshi: For once, I agree with Aizome.

He kept yelling until I said I'd go.

Yuta: After all, it's more fun to play together!

You really wanted to go kayaking right?

Goshi: Aah? Don't decide things on your own!

Momotaro: The 3 members of THRIVE are still close friends.

Mikado: As long as we get along well, Momotasu and I won't lose!

Right, Momotasu?

Momotaro: Friendships can't be compared with other peoples.

Mikado: W, wow what a reasonable argument!

However I think this kind of Momotasu is wonderful too!

A&R: It looks like everyone is about to start their kayaking experience.

Mikado: Oh, it looks like the teacher is here.

Instructor: Sorry to have kept you all waiting, first of all please form in pairs of twos.

Kento: Hey, if it's two people groups. Well then A&R, let's form a pair together.

Yuta: Eh- Kenken that's no fair! I want to be with A&R-chan!

Hey, A&R-chan, would you like to be a pair with me?

A&R: Um…

Goshi: This is stupid. Whoever you pair with is fine.

Kento: No, that's no good. Pairing up with another man? There's no way I could do something as horrible as that.

Yuta: Gochin will be teaming up with Kenken, so A&R-chan will be with me!

Goshi: Aah? Don't decide things on your own!

Momotaro: If this continues, I think things will get out of control.

Mikado: We have no choice then.

Everyone let's have a fair game of rock, paper, scissors. Let's decide.

Goshi: Tsk. It can't be helped so let's get it over and done with.

Mikado: Now, let's begin by nominating partners from the winners.

Well then, let's go?

Rock, paper……scissors!

Yuta: Ah! Mikarin wins!

Mikado Fufufu……

The goddess of victory smiled upon me!

Well then A&R-san, would you be my partner?

A&R: Yes! Let's work together!

Kento: Sekimura was aiming for A&R as well

Now I'll definitely avoid pairing with Goshi……

Goshi: That's my line!

Yuta: Well, let's have a second battle!

Rock, paper……scissors!

Momotaro: I'm with Ashu, please take care of me.

Yuta: Yeah, nice to meet you Momochin!

Let's do our best in the kayak!

Kento: Wait a minute! Why do I have to team up with Goshi, let's start over!

Goshi: That's my line!

Mikado: Now, now, it's decided so let's go tell the teacher about the pairings.

03 HOTEL

Hikaru: Ah~ his loco moco is soooo delicious!

Kazuna: This poke bowl is also delicious.

Hawaii has a lot of delicious foods.

Hikaru: Really!? I was wondering about that too~ Leader give me a bite!

Tatsuhiro: Don't eat too much and get an upset stomach.

Hikaru: It's okay!

…Now that I think about it, Mikachi and the others went to experience kayaking right?

Mikado: Yes. We went with everyone from THRIVE.

We decided to go kayaking in pairs and Momotasu and Yutaso were amazing together!

A&R: Both of them are very athletic so they got the hang of it very quickly.

Mikado: It was truly amazing to see them riding the kayak so leisurely!

Tatsuhiro: If Onzai and Yuuta were a pair, who did Sekimura pair up with?

Momotaro: Mika was paired with A&R and Kaneshiro was paired with Aizome. Kaneshiro and the others were arguing while they were in the kayak.

I saw him out of breath and he fell over a few times.

Kazuna: Is that right? Hehe, it does seem like those two. How was Mikado and the others?

A&R: Thanks to Mikado-san leading me, I was able to ride well.

Mikado-san also got the hang of it quickly, which was amazing!

Mikado: Tunk! It's an honour to receive praise from A&R-san! It was worth winning to pair with A&R-san in rock, paper, scissors! Besides, I was the one who asked for A&R-san.

Momotaro: Is that so?

Mikado: Yes, it's only natural that I would want to enjoy a resort with a wonderful person like you.

A&R-san, I had a lot of fun too. If you'd like, would you like to go with me again?

A&R: Thank you very much.

Hikaru: Yes, yes! I want to go too!

Tatsuhiro: That's right. I couldn't go this time but next time we have a chance to come to Hawaii, let's go together.

Mikado: I was planning to spend time with A&R-san alone for a moment, could you not get in my way?

Hikaru: I also want to hang out with A&R-chan more!

Mikado: It's not 「MooN」! That's not cute!

Hikaru: Muki! What are you doing-!

Kazuna: Fufu, it looks like everyone enjoyed Hawaii.

A&R: Yes! I think so too.

★ When Mikado say's 「MooN」 he means that the rest of MooNs isn't invited to everything, as their unit name is their last names put together. ★ Poke bowl is a dish of raw fish diced and mixed with sauce. ★ 'Muki' SFX is a screech or squeal noise, compared to of that of a monkey.

[fictionalmenmistress]

Shadow From The Window (Leonardo)

Imagine your scared of the dark and alone, but your sexy hero-in-the-half-shell comes to sleep at your side, after a long partol. Exausted, he forgets how easy you startle, and comforts you.

(SFW but blushy, leaning Fem!Reader/ but also gender-neutral, Bayverse Leo, no swearing, FLUFF, a lil spooky at the start but all sweet and completely handle-able. Its safe 💙)

(So, this is my first official post here and I'm so excited! First of all, HI EVERYONE! I'm so happy to have found my peoples and to be here uwu, I love you all. Hopefully, this brings you comfort to rest before bed, or in the middle of the night. Want me to do one for all the boys? Lemme know!💙)

I am writing this at 2-3 am, after imagining this scenario to comfort myself, settling down to rest. The thought of Leo hiding in the dark, makes the dark a lot less scary. (Tho I decided to write it instead of resting lol) LETS GET IT!

Its 3 am in your studio apartment.

You've been living in New York city for a while now, but its always been a hassle to fall asleep in your own place. That's been the hardest adjustment after leaving home... how scary it can be on your own. Truth be told, you're 'scared of the dark'. Not nescessarily scared of the darkness itself, but the shadows in the corner of the room... the random noises and things that go bump in the night... the mere thought in the back of your mind that something, as ridiculous as it sounds to others, will come and get you once your guard is down.

There you lied, stiff as a board on your back. The covers, pulled up to your neck, as you breathed in and out as silently as you could. Why did you still feel like you had to hide from monsters or bad guys in your own home? "Dang it, y/n..." you sighed, wiping the nervous cold sweat from your forehead, overheating internally from the anxiety.

"WHY... why did I have to watch that horror movie with Donnie?" You thought, internally shouting at yourself. "He said its not scary, that its 'too absurd to be plausible, and thus won't trigger a reaction of fear'. So much for a slow and steady introduction to the genre!"

You should have known when Raph said "Nope, I'm out." Donnie sat there the whole time, laughing at the movie at the scariest and most ill-timed moments... and you recall just glaring at him, teeth chattering, whispering to yourself:

"Yeah, he's cracked alright."

Just because something isn't scientifically proven, doesn't mean it can't happen... or hasn't happened, right?

"Ugh..." you groaned, curling your lips into a gremace, scared your groan was too loud amongst the unsettling silence. "I can't sleep with the lights on again..."

Glancing toward your phone, you noticed a blue light illuminate the screen, informing you that you got a new text. But that blue light... it instantly made you think of the blue-loving turtle you so dearly loved. The light of your life.

'Leo would protect me.'

Ah, that comforting reminder that you would feel so safe in your boyfriend's arms... if only he were here with you.

But... he wasn't. He was probably out on patrol, far away, and unable to come any time soon, even if he could.

"That's it." You said, taking and deep breath and mustering up all of your courage, throwing the covers off and dashing to the light switch.

*flick!* And... everything in the room was normal. It was comforting, but you scolded yourself for not accepting that everything was already secure, and nothing was lurking in the dark.

Everything was still, as you closed your curtains and lied back down in bed.

"Light on it is." You sighed, before the light suddenly flickered by itself.

"Oh crap-" you muttered, taking a gulp, as the power went out. "OH CRAP, ITS JUST LIKE THE MOVIE-"

Now, you felt screwed. You lied as still as possible, for what felt like forever, refusing to close your eyes. Dang it... DANG it!

Grabbing your phone light, you quickly tip-toed to the bathroom, trying to pee as fast as you could, so you could get back to your warm bed where it feels semi-safe.

As soon as you opened the bathroom door, you noticed your curtains flowing and twirling in the night wind. Street sounds from the never-sleeping city below echoed faintly through your widely-opened window.

"My window... is open?" You thought in horrified shock, examining your surroundings in the dark carefully.

You froze in your tracks, as your phone light turned itself off.

BATTERY TOO LOW TO USE FLASHLIGHT, PLEASE CHARGE.

A chill went down your spine, as you stood there in the center of everything, slowly backing to a corner, where you planned to crouch in the fetal position, so you could see all angles of the room for the rest of the night.

You took another step back, and another, before you bumped into a large mass, standing behind you.

'Not the wall...' your brain registered, feeling the heat of whomever or whatever this tall thing was, radiating against your back.

"Hello, beautiful~" A deep voice chuckled, startling you.

Jolting around, you saw a dark, tall shadow, looming before you.

The fear disoriented you, quickly rushing adrenaline through your body, as your fight or flight reacted. You quickly let out a shriek, chucking your dying phone at the shadow and darting quickly toward the window.

The shadow caught the phone instantly, with lightning fast reflex, as a large hand suddenly wrapped around your wrist, gently yet firmly pulling you back into the room before you crawled out onto the fire escape.

"WHOA, hey hey! Y/N easy! Its okay." A gentle, farmiliar voice assured, gently pulling you around to face him. "Its just me!"

"L-let go!" You whimpered, still not realizing who it was. "P-please..."

"Hey, its me..." he softly whispered, as your breath began to steady, blinking a couple of times as his identity fully set in. "Shh, sh sh sh." He lulled.

"L-Leo?" You squeaked in disbelief.

The figure slowly leaned into the moonlight, casting over you from the open window, revealing his GORGEOUS, icy blue eyes. Those intense-yet-soft eyes... that you knew and loved more than anyone else's. That comforting, strong, lovingly soft gaze, that instantly reassured you that you were safe.

"Your aim is getting better," he softly chuckled, smirking with his adorable grin. Leo slowly slid your phone before you, onto the moonlit sheets, barely revealing his outstretched, chiseled, manly hands. "I'm so sorry I scared you, love. I didn't mean to... I would never on purpose..."

Leo's voice sounded composed, but also ashamed and regretful, as he became more serious to apologise. He always spoke so softly to you...

"Leo, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to, I-" you desparately assured, bursting into tears. "I-"

"Hey hey, I should have knocked, or called. I'm sorry I scared you, sweetheart. I thought I would suprise you in a good way, not startle you." He murmured, reaching his large hands out to gently grasp you, holding you in his arms.

"Oh... I'm so happy to see you!" You sighed, falling against him.

"Donnie felt bad about that scary movie, he told me about how scared you were and begged me to check on you." He whispered, with that composed, reassuring voice.

"Oh Leo... you really came." You whispered, sniffling back your tears.

"Of course, my love... I came straight here after patrol. I would have come sooner, but Raph was getting his shell handed to him by this big..." he hesitated, biting his lip.

"Leo?" You asked, wondering why he stopped.

"-You know what? It doesn't matter." He gently corrected, changing the subject.

"What? What was it?" You innocently asked, curling up against his warm, sculpted chest.

You could feel Leo's skin grow warmer with a blush, as he slowly and sweetly welcomed your embrace, holding you close.

"I'll tell you during daylight. Just... sweetie, I'll never let anything bad happen to you, as long as I live. You're safe, whether I'm near or far. Okay, sweetheart?" Leo promised with his deep innocent voice, planting a soft kiss against your forehead.

Suddenly, you heard a generator power on through your front door, and the power flicked back on.

You could at last see him. See his muscled arms around you, and the tails of his worn out blue mask resting against his chest, along side you. His plastron... rising and falling as he took in slow breaths.

Leo was so careful holding you in his arms... like you were this precious, tiny thing, that he adored with his entire existance.

"Hey, you... you there?" He muttered, growing increasingly bashful in his tension.

"I'm here." You gently assured with a smile, before pulling away to examine his handsome face.

Leonardo. Sexy, handsome, justly-confident, fierce leader. This fearless, giant turtle mutant, who was unlike anyone else in the world. His jaw clenched from sudden bashful nervousness, as his gaze shyed away from your eyes. Your stare always overwhelmed him... it was such an intimate thing to meet his eyes.

Leo cleared his throat, as he slowly reached out to your face, ever-so-carefully wiping away a tear from your cheek, watching intently and focusing as he did so.

Over cautiously gentle so he wouldn't risk hurting you with his strength.

"There we go..." he softly whispered in satisfaction, sighing with a relieved smirk.

"Can you..." you began, with every ounce of security and confidence you could muster. "Can you... stay? With me, all of tonight?"

You felt your cheeks blush intensely, blooming red, as Leo bit on his bottom lip. His eyes widened, as he fully realized your question.

"Y-yeah, o-of course I can..." Leo answered, all of a sudden a thousand times more innocent and adorable, intensely flattered and touched that you wanted him to stay at your side. "Uh... I'll... uh-" he began, moving back from kneeling on your bed before you, aimlessly pacing into your tiny kitchen.

Leo usually was so bold and certain, organized and authoritative, when he was on the move.

You recalled how you had seen first-hand how he can lay out the strategy of attack for the boys. He could be flipping into action, or running through the rooftops as he did it, with perfect coordination in his speech and movements. But with you and only you, Leo wasn't able to get the words out when he was this nervous or bashful.

He had a tendancy to overthink things.

Leo wandered into the cupboard, beginning to steep some tea on the stove as his tongue caught up with his brain.

"Do you want... tea?" He gently asked, clearing his throat.

Such husband material...

"Ah, sure." You grinned, sweetly answering.

You realized how safe and secure you felt now, with him in the studio. You weren't alone anymore.

Leo didn't say much while he prepared the tea. He hyper-focused to distract himself from the nervousness of staying at your place, ALONE with you for the night. He paced around without speaking... doing little thoughtful things, like closing the window and locking it for you, shutting the closet and bathroom door, and picking out the perfect cups for the two of you, from your DC glass cup collection.

(Leo liked the Nightwing one since it was blue, and he always gave you the batgirl one, because you loved purple. He loved it when you would geek out and tell him how those heroes were the perfect couple... it reminded him of the both of you, and hoped that you gushed about him like that when he wasn't around.)

Leo brought the cups over, moving carefully with his eyes on the glass, gently placing one in your hand, and his own at your bedside.

"I"ll sleep right here, beside you." He thought out loud, examining the hardwood floor panels.

"Ah, Leo, you're not sleeping on the ground." You ordered, taking a long drink from your cup.

"Its no trouble," he assured, unlatching and taking off his belt and sword straps, placing them on your countertop. Leo sat down across from your bed, and began taking off his customized traditional ninja footwear, so all that remained were his pants and mask.

Why did this make you blush and get so flustered, the way he lifted those muscular arms over his head? Its not like he's taking anything revealing off...

"Modest like Leo... modest like Leo..." you whispered under your breath, recomposing your wandering thoughts.

He slowly walked up to you, lying you back and pulling your covers over you. Leo gently placed his hand against your cheek, staring deep into your eyes, as a soft smile rested over his lips.

He slowly nuzzled his nose beside yours, cherishing every small movement, before planting a soft kiss on your forehead. Then, he pulled away.

You felt your arms involuntarily reach out to him, taking his face into your hands. You both stared innocently into one another's eyes, before you made a bold move, planting your lips against his. You gently kissed Leo's lips, and he kissed you back, in the most respectful, admirable, and sentimental way possible.

Kissing Leo always felt so intimate and special... even as soft and innocent as it was. Leo made the tiny gestures special to you again.

"Leo, would you please... hold me?" You whispered, tightly closing your eyes and resting your forehead against his. "Please, sleep with me tonight."

"S-sleep with-" he panicked, turning vibrant red. For the first time that night, he realized that you were wearing blue pj's... and you looked gorgeous in them. Suddenly his heart began to pound through his chest, as his posture stiffened. "Sleep... together? Like... m-make love together?"

"Ah not like that!" You bashfully assured, unable to hide your shy grin. "Just... sleep together, at least for tonight."

He took a deep breath in, that sounded shaky, like the remenants of your kiss and closeness gave him the chills. The thought of you being together in the most close and intimate form made him overwhelmed, causing him to slightly tremble. Leo invoulintarily giggled, pecking a kiss against your nose, before he pulled his mask off.

"Alright." He grinned, suddenly much more eager and confident, leaning close to you as he set his mask on your night stand, switching off the light switch with a mere stretch.

Suddenly, it was dark again. But, a peaceful dark.

"Will you, Leo?" You muttered.

"Yes." He whispered, so softly and so intimately, gazing bravely into your eyes. "Yes, Y/N."

You beamed with joy, resituating to the side of your bed, curling up and watching Leo with an adorable, excited expression. Leo broke out a nervous, adorable chuckle, as he hesitantly sat down on your bed, realizing how massive he was on the size of it. He downed his tea like a shot, (wanting to finish it as fast as possible, so he could do this soft and intimate thing with you) and clearing his throat. Blushing, he slowly lied down on his back, slowly turning to his side that faced you, and hesitantly placing his hand over your shoulder, unsure of what was too much touch.

You giggled, sliding his hand on your waist, so you could sit up and pull the covers over him. "O-oh..." Leo murmured, stiffening up from his shyness.

This was very overwhelming to him, since he really liked taking things slow and was inexperienced to everything involving romance before you. But... you loved that. It was like everything was new to you again too. It endeared you beyond belief.

You lied on your side, examining his face one last time, as he examined yours, trailing your fingertip across his sharp jawline.

"I really love you..." he whispered, meaning every word.

"I really love you too, Leo." You softly agreed, as you continued to smile.

You and Leo talked quietly for a bit, sweet whispers between soulmates, as you scratched his shell and caressed his shoulders to help relieve his stress and tension. He would slowly drift off more and more, talking less and less, gifting you with tiny, soft, slow kisses, all over your face instead.

You both drifted off to sleep, and slept wonderfully side by side, as safe and sweet as can be, just the two of you.

And, as you found out in the morning, Leo was a total, clingy cuddler in his sleep. Throughout the night, he had nuzzled closer and closer, wrapping his arms around you and cradling you, until you were cozy against his body, sharing the same warmth.

💙 Sweet dreams.💙

[shelby-love]

JAY HALSTEAD

Mourning

Requested: yes

Prompts:  “I let you down. How am I supposed to forgive myself for that?” ; "We have to tell him. He deserves to know." ; "He won't be able to handle it. He'll self-destruct." ; "You are always the 1st priority to me.”

Warnings: heavy angst (mentions of blood, stab injury, detailed hospital arrival, miscarriage, death), sad

Authors note: This made me shed a tear. The ending is sad but hopefully positive. Good luck!

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You happily skip to work. Turns out your morning sickness is the first sign of your early pregnancy. You hold your still not visible belly and greet everyone in the district with a cheery voice.

Sargent Platt looks at you weirdly but decides not to press it as you lean against her reception desk. "Hello."

"What happened to you? You're glowing," She scans you top to bottom over the desk. You don't give her anything to make her suspect. With a bright smile and a wink you start waking up the stairs. You make the best of your current emotions because you know the moment you throw up again you'll have your day ruined.

You experienced the sickness quite early, but you went to the doctor after a full two weeks. You just didn't think anything of it. A yesterday it got so bad that you ditched Jay and drive yourself to the doctor's office. You're 7 weeks along.

You didn't mind. You knew Jay would be happy about this baby. A few months ago you brought up the subject and you two said that when you get pregnant, at whatever time or point in life, both of you will be happy whether or not the baby was planned.

"Good morning sunshine," Your boyfriend's voice startles you. He stands by the coffee machine with a cup of hot steamy coffee in his hands. He raises the cup, "You want some babe?"

"Nah I'm good," You approach him with the same glow and give him a kiss.

"Someone's happy," He notes and sits next to you at the table. You decided that, since today is Friday and you both don't have work tommorow you'd suprise him with the big news on a sunny Saturday.

Different ideas of how you'd tell him start blowing up in your head. One better than the other. He is going to be so happy.

You shrug innocently.

"Halstead, Y/LN. Noise complaint at abandoned building, thought you two might want to check out." Your Sargeant, Hank Voight announces. Since today started off calmly you just shrug and stand up. Those calls aren't that bad. "I'll have patrols near you two just in case."

"Don't worry we got this," Jay says and grabs you your jacket. You stand in front of him as he helps you put it on. An image flashes in your mind briefly. You with a big belly standing in front of Jay as he helps you put your jacket on. You smile.

"Alright. Let's go," You say and follow your boyfriend outside.

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You hold the flashlight above your gun. You can see Jay's light behind you and that incourages you to step in further. Both of you swore that you heard a woman scream. It was loud and clear. But even if your hearing was messing with you (it didn't because you both heard the same thing), in places like this one, unexpectedly, you can find a lot of dope. Different types of drugs all gathered up at one place. It was worth looking into for sure.

You and Jay decide to separate from each other just for a little bit. When your whole unit is together in situations like this one, Jay and you never separate. But you needed to cover as much ground as you could.

You turn several different corners and find no thing and no one. You move your hand to grab your radio. At that small moment, with calculated movements a masked person jumped at you with what looked like a knife. The look in his eyes gave you creeps and you didn't have time to react before he stabbed you.

Not once. Not twice.

Three, four, five, six times.

After that you could barely stay conscious. Blood was pouring out of you like Niagara falls. And so were your tears. They traveled down your face in messy streaks. My baby.

Then you hear a gun shot. The masked man fell right down next to you. You didn't know where to look. You clutched your stomach. He hurt my baby.

"Y/N babe look at me. Hey stay with me!" Jay's rough hand cupped the side of your face and clutched your bleeding stomach. Instead of holding his hand over yours because he wanted to feel the baby, he held it close because he didn't want you to bleed to death.

"We have an officer down, critical condition, stabbed by the offender! The offender is down dead shot fired by the police. I need an ambulance here immediately!!" Jay was barking orders into his radio like a crazy maniac. He didn't want to loose you.

"Baby please stay awake. Talk to me Y/N please!" Your head is lies in his lap. His shirt is now gone completely, it's nested at your bleeding belly already soaked completely. You're barely holding on, you keep gaging and vomiting blood. And just this morning you couldn't be happier for vomiting.

"I-I'm sorry Jay."

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"Doctor Rhodes! Stab victim, you're going to Baghdad!" Maggie instructed and Connor immediately fled towards the incoming patient.

"Y/N Y/LN, 22-year-old female. Heart rate 100, BP 50/30. Found diaphoretic, in respiratory distress, and covered in blood. 6 stab wounds to her abdomen. We performed intubation on the scene." Silvie Brett recited your dangerous condition as you were rolled into the Gaffney emergency department. Connor Rhodes was schocked to see you. "Page Will. Now."

Your vitals were jumping at dangerous heights. "Alright let's transfer on my count. One, two, three!"

"Jesus Christ... Y/N?" Will couldn't believe his eyes. Jay was just outside shaking because of your condition. Will read your stats on the monitor and came to assist Connor. Will pressed his stethoscope over your chest and listened carefully, "There's diminished breath sounds on the left side."

"Blood is gathering around her left lung. Alright, April give me the kit we need to do a tube thoracostomy." April did as Connor said and preped his request. He cut a small line with the scalpel and inserted the tube. Blood spilled everywhere.

"Give me the ultrasound." Will instructed and April handed him the transducer on which she put one some gel. Will glided the transducer across your belly to look for any more internal bleeding. "Her major organs seem to be fine..." then he moved it downwards and was shocked to see a small baby inside. "She was pregnant."

He looked outside towards Jay and immediately knew you didn't tell him. Hell, he didn't even know if you knew. The baby was still so small, but it did have a heartbeat before the stab wounds. Will cursed.

Your vitals dropped rapidly at that moment. "She's in V Fib!" Connor yelled.

"On it." Will immediately hopped onto the bed and started doing compressions. He kept repeating, c'mon Y/N c'mon. Jay who stood outside lost it completely when he saw what was happening. Security and Dr. Ethan Choi had to hold him down.

"Charge to 200," Connor said as he grabbed the the padels. "Everyone clear."

Will pulled away and Connor shocked you. Nothing. "Do it again."

After three more tried Connor wanted to announce asistoly. "No, no, no Y/N c'mon. Connor one more time."

"Will she's gone."

"No Connor one more damn time please!" Will was on the verge of crying. Connor nodded and charged them again. "Clear."

You were brought back to life. "Okay let's get her to the OR immediately! She needs a diagnostic laparotomy and a D&C."

You were rushed out. Will stood in the middle of the trauma room surrounded by blood. "How is she?" Jay had tears around his eyes, he was tense and uncontrollably shaking.

"I don't know Jay... I don't."

For a second it looked like Jay was going to punch him square in the face but instead Jay leaned against his brother's shoulder and cried like never before. "I was supposed to ask her to marry me tommorow."

Will's heart broke at his words.

But what broke him even more was the fact that his younger brother lost a baby he didn't even know he'd have.

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"She just went through a major surgery, I'd like to monitor her before we go any further." Connor told Jay. The whole Intelligence unit was there. Everyone was deeply concerned about you.

"What are we going to do Will?" Connor and he stood by your bed and watched your sleeping form.

"She knew about it I'm sure of it," Will said. "Let's talk to her when she wakes up. Page me when she does."

Will went to attend his other patients and after a few hours you woke up. "Hey Y/N how you doing?"

You tried to get used to the bright lights but with no avail. Everything seems foreign to you. Dark spots blurry your vision but you blink them away. My baby.

Tears spill down your cheeks uncontrollably. "M-my...baby."

Connor and Will share a look. "Y/N does Jay know?" Will asks you before he sits down next to you.

You shake your head. "I...I was only 7 weeks along." There's pressure in your throat which makes you cough, "I wanted to tell him tommorow." Your heart broke at your words. You blamed yourself for your recklessness.

Will sighed, "We have to tell him. He deserves to know."

You shake your head rapidly at that proposal, "He won't be able to handle it. He'll self-destruct." You know Jay. Maybe even better than Will. He would be heartbroken.

"Y/N as your doctors we have to tell him," Will fought back.

"As my doctors you have to keep my charts a secret." You tried to blink the tears away but they wouldn't go away. You were fighting a battle within yourself. You wanted to tell Jay but he's been through enough. "I lost my baby today. I found out that I was pregnant today."

"Y/N but Jay was the father of your baby. He has every right to know that he lost his child whether he knew about it or not." You understood where Will was coming from. The truth in his words hit you like a truck. He was right.

"Then...let me tell him Will," You squeeze his hand. "Let me."

"I'll go get Jay," Will announces and rushes out of your ICU room to get his brother. To get the love of your life.

"You're doing the right thing, Y/N. I'm so sorry for your loss." Connor says softly. You just nod weakly and turn your head away from him. Connor leaves not long after and you sob. Just this morning you were skipping to work, delighted about the news of your unborn baby. You did a stupid thing by going to work today. You put your weak hand over your mouth to muffle your sobs.

Drained you once again slip into unconsciousness.

"Hey Y/N take it easy..." Jay. He's helping you sit up on the bed a little. His eyes are red rimmed from crying and he looks like he didn't sleep for weeks. He's still in his grey shirt, it's covered in your blood. He didn't change because he never left your side. "God I was so worried."

You hold his hands in your lap and bring them to your lips. You press a small delicate kiss on both of his knuckles. "I'm so sorry baby."

You shake your head, "This isn't your fault Jay."

"Yes it is. I was supposed to protect you. I let you down. How am I supposed to forgive myself for that?" Tears gather around his eyes once more.

"Jay..." You try to pick your next words carefully. "Can you give me my bag?"

He turns his head and stands up. Your bag sits on one of the chairs in the corner. He grabs it and sits back next to you. "Open it. It's in one of the pockets."

The best way to tell him about it is to show him. You stop breathing as you watch him pull out the ultrasound from this morning. The shock on his face is enough for you to break down is cries. "I'm so sorry."

He holds your hand in his as he looks at it. At first, a smile broke out on his face but then it was replaced by devastation. He realized you lost your baby because of today. That fact that your baby died from stab wounds broke his heart. You almost died from those stab wounds.

His silence killed you. You wanted him to yell at you. Anything. Just not silence.

Jay Halstead is a strong man. But when it comes to you all of his guards come down and he shows you his heart. He was hurting now. He lost his child but he was in no way angry at you.

The two of you cried together. You mourned the loss of your unborn child.

You blamed yourself and he kept reassuring you. He didn't have the heart to tell you that turns out, there's a lot more to the abandoned building noise complaint and to the man who he shot dead. And he was going to find them all.

"You are always the 1st priority to me." He cupped your face and kissed the free spirited tears away. "We're going to get through this. I love you Y/N Y/LN."

He loved you more than the world. You smiled weekly and kissed him. You poured all your emotion into the kiss. You were scared and sad but you will get through this. With Jay by your side and one day, you will have a family.

[hoseokslefteyebrow]

The Serpent's Shadow || J.HS || 4

Pairing : Jung Hoseok X Reader

Genre :  Angst, prob fluff at some point

Summary : But how could the Serpent ever know? What's happening behind his back? In his own Shadow? Without looking back?

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This story is IN the Harry Potter time line!

( Deathly Hallows Part one & two)

Wordcount: 0.8k

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Hoseok looks at you for a moment, contemplating on whenether to tell you or not.

" I won't judge you. I know my Hobi. He would never do something like this unless he was forced to."  You told him, your eyes shining.

He looked at you for a hard second before speaking.

" What if I'm not your Hobi?" He asked, his voice giving you shivers.

" If you weren't, you wouldn't have saved me from Crow." You told him, crossing your arms.

" Crow?" A small amused smile made it's way to his face.

"Carrow, Crow same thing." You shrugged.

" Didn't know that you were scheming teachers now." He smirked.

You gave him a pointed look.

" Stop beating around the bush. Just- talk to me. Please." You said, concern swimming in your eyes.

Hoseok studied your honesty before taking a deep breath.

Hoseok sighed as he got up, stretching his arms as he awoke once again to the sound of his parents arguing downstairs.

ever since the return of He Who Must Not Be Named, his parents have been acting weird, leaving more than necessary, no matter the time. Only last night they were out at 11'. 

It was currently holiday, meaning he had more than enough time to spend with his friends. Maybe he'd even lay his feelings for a special someone out in the open, bit he wasn't quiet sure if he was ready for that. He wasn't a gryffindor like Taehyung after all, who shamelessly chases after his crush.

" He'll never listen! He never does." He heard the voice of his mother as he walked down the marble staircase in his pajamas.

Right away he knows they're talking about him. They always are when it's negative.

" We should still try."

an eerie voice suddenly virbates trough the air, he doesn't know who it is, but the voice gives him goosebumps.

" Hoseok, my boy. Do come out from that corner. We're talking about you after all." The voice says in the same eerie way.

He's even more suprised that the man knows his name, but he doesn't care all too much about it. He moves further down the stairs and stops in the opening of the door where his parents are, the man there isn't anyone he knows, but an unspoken name soon crooses his mind.

He Who Must Not Be Named.

The man gave him an even creepier smile, he was dressed in black robes and seemed far from innocent.

" Hello my dear boy. My name is Voldemort, I am sure you've heard about me. You shall adress me as the Dark Lord, as I will offer you a position in my army." The man- The Dark Lord speaks as if it's a happy thing.

​​Hoseok just swallows in response, but The Dark Lord doesn't seem to mind it. As if he had expected his reaction.

" I have a mission for you. I have heard from Draco Malfoy that you're a talented wizard. A strong one. Your mission will be simple. You shall kill Dumbledore for me." He smiles creepily again.

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" You refused? Than don't get me wrong, but how are you still alive? Doesn't he kill everyone who refuses?" You ask Hoseok in comcern.

He nods.

" He does. But he tough that I had potential. So instead he decided to 'train' me. The things he made me do.-" He cut himself off by closing his eyes snd clenching his fists, tears starting to form.

" I- I need you to know that I didn't want to do it. But it was them or me, Y/N. I don't want to die." Hoseok's sobbing now, his shoulders shaking slightly due to his emotions.

Now this was your Hobi. The Hobi who hated hurting other people. The hobi who liked to be with you all day. Who used to smile like sun and used to have the attitude of an angel. The one who everyone tough was misplaced in Slytherin until he beat someone up bcos they insulted one of his friends. The one who would never hurt you.

" Oh, hobi." You sigh, your insides throbbing for him.

You understood somewhat what he felt. You now knew what he was, but you'd never leave him, and he needed to know that.

You didn't give it a second tough before moving to hug him.

He didn't resist your affection, holding you close while he quietly sobbed in your neck while you held him gently and messed with his hair.

After a moment he calmed down and pulled away, looking at you with soft tenderness in his eyes.

" Why do you still want to be with me? Even after all I've done?" He asked sniffing.

You smiled sadly at him.

" Cause' I love you."

[ A/N: I know that all the chapters till now have been sad & I'm sorry bout it but I promise that there will be sum fluff in the next chapter.]

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[another-sonic-blog]

Stages: The Realization

Stages: Close Friends Pt.4: The Realization (Chapter 13)

ShadAmy (Friends to lovers Slow Burn)

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Previous: https://another-sonic-blog.tumblr.com/post/190590004465/stages-nothing

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      A couple of days later, Team Dark had made their way back home. They had finished their mission earlier than they expected and they couldn't wait to get back home. Rouge didn't tell Amy that they were going back this soon. She preferred to give the pink one a surprise at the Resistance.

They arrived a day ago at night, and Rouge decided to wait until the next day to visit her pink best friend. It was 6:00 p.m and she was hoping that she and Amy could go for dinner together.    She arrived at the Resistance building and clicked the code number in the keypad so they could let her in. It was the same number since years ago and Amy had never chanced it.    Rouge walked through the corridors, she expected to see agents walking around but considering that it was a Saturday and few agents were remaining on the Resistance, she didn't give it too much thought. She finally reached Amy's dorm and knocked on her door. A few seconds passed and the pink one opened the door, a surprising look on her face and Rouge was happy to have accomplished this mission as well.

"Suprise-"    But Amy had also surprised Rouge. She noticed that Amy had scratches and band-aids on her face and even bruises on her arms.

"What happened to you?!"

"Wait, is Shadow back too?" Amy asked immediately.

"Yes, but tell me, what happened-"

"Sorry Rouge, I need to get to him right now." Amy added, "Do you mind closing the Resistance for me? Is he in his apartment?"

"Yeah, I am guessing. But tell me, what-" Rouge never got to finish her sentences as Amy was already out of her door.

"Sorry Rouge! I'll tell you everything when I get back!"

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   Amy would have taken DR if it wasn't because Maria had stolen it ... again. The next day she arrived back home from Tail's house, she had found that her bike wasn't there, and because of that, she went to Shadow's apartment. Ready to fight again if that's what it took to get her bike back. When she got to Shadow's apartment, she found that his door was open and nothing was there. Shadow's luxury apartment was empty, nothing was left. She fought the urge of calling Shadow and telling him but the thought that he might mess up in his mission because of the news still hunted her mind.

So she decided to wait. She thought Rouge would tell her when Team Dark was planning to go back home. She was planning on telling him the bad news softly but instead, she was afraid now that Shadow had found it the hard way.

Shadow's apartment was on the other side of the city and with her running and bad transportation system, Amy made it to Shadow's apartment around 7:15 p.m.    The sun was already down and Amy breathed heavily as she finally spotted Shadow's apartment door open. She felt she could break at any moment, but she couldn't. She had to be strong for Shadow.    She opened the door more and it made a small creaking sound. Shadow was sitting in the middle of the empty living room. His fancy couch was no more, no TV, no lights, nothing. His apartment was completely empty. Amy wonders if Shadow knew by now that they had also stolen all of his bikes. Amy was glad that Shadow had taken his favorite bike with him, otherwise, Maria would have stolen it as well.

  His entire apartment was empty but Shadow had filled the living room with vodka bottles.    He was seated in the middle of the empty living room, staring at the wall. He had noticed Amy's presence and normally he would be ashamed of the state she found him in. However, he didn't care at the moment.

"I heard that drinking alcohol makes you forget," Shadow said, still not looking at Amy in the eyes. "But no matter how much I drink, I can't seem to forget a thing."

Being the ultimate life form, Shadow's body could detoxify his body faster. Even if he wanted to get drunk, his body would take down the effect really fast.

Amy felt her heart stop the moment she heard his voice. It had no hint of being sad, nor disappointed, nor angry. It was monotone and without emotion, almost dead like.    She didn't respond, mostly because she didn't know what to say. She got close to him trying to make him look at her. She sat down next to Shadow but he moved away at the closeness. As if he didn't want to be touched, as if he was afraid of contact.    Amy fought the tears of desperation, anger raised within her body, she had a tight grip on her fists and with determination, she placed herself in front of the hedgehog.

"She is not worth it," Amy said as she placed her hands on his shoulder.

"She was the only one who could ever love me," Shadow said, his eyes showed no glow, the intense fire he had within them had now disappeared. "I guess, I am not worthy of being loved."

Amy let a single teardrop fall from her right eye. She raised her voice, letting her thoughts be heard.

"I love you. I love the way you show kindness to people who don't deserve it. I love the way you care for me even when you know I can take care of myself. I love how excited you get for the simplest of things. I love how you wrinkle your nose every time you get annoyed."

  Amy took a big breath and added, "You are my friend and I love you, Shadow. You won't ever be able to understand how much you mean to me and others. If there was anyone in this world who is worthy of love ... It is you."

Shadow hadn't noticed but Amy had injuries all over her face and body. Her face had scratches that were barely closing, some bruises that were dominant mostly in her arms. Even so, Shadow found himself lost in the unique beauty Amy possed.

He was realizing too many things.

  There was a warm feeling rising up to his body and it made it's way to his heart. Amy was so sincere and vulnerable at that moment that Shadow's heart felt relieved. No one has ever been this open to him, no one has ever made him feel as loved as Amy had.

He waited for Maria to say things like that to him. He waited in vain, but now Amy was here. Saying things that came out of her mouth naturally because she actually felt it.

Amy loved him and even though it was the friendly type ... it is still meant the world him.

For you to love and to be loved back, it was a blessing indeed.

"I love you too," Shadow felt his voice crack. "You are the only friend I can trust ... So, please promise me. Promise you won't leave me."

Amy hugged Shadow as if she was protecting a lost child. She grabbed his face with both of her hands and whispered, "I promise."

  She placed her chin on top of Shadow's head giving him some sort of warm and Shadow placed his arms around her waist. They shared an intimate hug and after a few minutes, they separated.

"What happened to you?" Shadow said almost in a whisper.

Amy wasn't telling him, there was no way. "I fell off DR."

Shadow sighed once again, "Next time be more careful but I am glad you still have the bike."

Shadow noticed that Amy's face showed concern and asked, "You still have DR, right?"

Amy hesitated, she didn't know if lying to Shadow about the bike was a good idea. Mostly because he was eventually going to find out.

"She ... took it."

Shadow immediately stood up and headed towards the door.

"We need to find it," he said.

"Shadow, no, wait." Amy stopped him as she grabbed him by the arm. "It's not worth it."

"It is worth it, you gave me that bike. It's important to me-"

"I know it's important to you but please do this for me." Amy added, "Just let it go."

Shadow knew that there was more connotation to her words. She wasn't only asking him to let go of the bike, she was asking him of letting go of Maria, of his past.

If Shadow wanted to let go of Maria,  then he needed to grasp onto the future and right now, Amy is on his future.

Amy is his future.

"Fine." Shadow added, "But you need to do something for me."

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 Amy hesitated as she watched Shadow turn on his favorite back, BB. He was ready to go, he was only waiting on Amy to join him.

"Are you coming?" Shadow asked.

"Are you sure?" Amy's voice trembled a little, "You don't let anyone ride BB and-"

"I am sure."

Amy gulped as she walked towards Shadow. She made a little jump as she mounted the bike, she made a pause as she was reluctant to hold Shadow by his torso.

But due that it was necessary, she wrapped her arms around his firm torso, her chest touching his back. She took a deep breath as she smelled Shadow's cologne. Maybe, after all, it really wasn't his cologne but his natural scent.

Shadow began to move when he felt Amy's firm grasp around him. They rode the bike on an empty bridge that was above the ocean. Shadow always came here to clear out his mind and when he didn't want to be stopped from enjoying the ride.

Many things were going through his head and confidently he told Amy, "I don't want to go back there... to my apartment."

Amy knew that Shadow wouldn't be able to live with the memories. Just like before, he had left the home he had gotten with Maria and now he had to leave his apartment.

"I have nowhere to go," Shadow added. He meant it as of today. Shadow had the money to rent another apartment, but it was going to be a bit difficult to find a place that would let him stay on the first floor. Maybe, he could stay at a hotel for a couple of days-

"Live with me."

Shadow felt his heart skip a beat as he heard Amy whispered into his ear.  Once again, that warm feeling he couldn't describe overtook him. He threw a small smile at the pink one, accepting her offer.

They stayed silent, they didn't need to say anything. Shadow had never let anyone ride BB with him. It was something he wished he had done with Maria, but someone else was already leaving that dream with her. Now, he had Amy, her delicate hands placed firmly around his torso. Her chest lightly pressed against his back and her head laid softly in his shoulders. The relaxing crash of the waves against the bridge, Amy's intoxicating perfume filling his nostrils and the warmth she shared with him.

It was everything he could have wished for and more.

Amy noticed Shadow sniffing now and then, she knew that he was containing himself from letting tears come out of his eyes.  Although they never did, the thought still ached her heart. She hugged Shadow tightly and closed her eyes at the realization.

She didn't know exactly when it happened, she couldn't recall an exact moment where these feelings for Shadow began to overtake her. Maybe it was gradual, she didn't feel this way for him immediately. However, he had constantly shown her sides of him that intrigued her.

Shadow could be cold, but he was kind. He may not show it, but he cares. He may be stubborn, but he listens. Amy found his little defects entertaining and adorable even. There was not a single sense in Shadow's persona that Amy didn't like.

When she was telling him that she loved him as a friend, she was lying.

She did love him.

But not as a friend.

Amy took one last look at Shadow, his eyes were concentrating on the road. She began to wonder that if she looked at him long enough he would realize.

If she looked at him with loving eyes, will her feeling reach him?

Amy didn't know the answer to that and for now, she didn't need it.

Her most important question was already answered the moment she heard Shadow said 'I love you' to her.

And although he meant it platonically, for her ... it meant the entire world.

It was everything she wanted and more.

Amy closed her eyes one more time, enjoying the feeling of this realization.  

She was in love with Shadow the Hedgehog.

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A/N: First of all, I want to thank @lonelysadblob​  the artist who did the artwork above for letting me use it in this story! Thank you!

 I guess what I am trying to say with this chapter is that platonic love/ Friendship love is just as important and valid as romantic love. Now we are at the end of this arc and we are starting the final arc called 'Intimate Friends.' Amy has finally realized her feelings for Shadow but... What about Shadow? I guess we have to find out.

I want to thank everyone for reading this far and I hope this chapter was up to everyone's standards. It was sad but we ended in a beautiful note I believe.

Thank you.

Next: https://another-sonic-blog.tumblr.com/post/190713695345/stages-recovery

[leewaitingforler95-blog]

He finds out you're ticklish. (1D Members)

Harry: 

You and Harry were sitting on a picnic blanket and eating your favorite food one day at the park.  Harry reaches over to grab some food for himself and accidently scratches your side in the process. You let out a stifled giggle hoping Harry didn't notice. But unfortunatley for you, he did. "What was that (Y/N)?" asked Harry with a smirk. "Nothing!!" you said desperatley hoping to deter Harry's attention to your suprising reaction. Harry reaches over and wraps his arms around your waist with his head on your shoulder. "Oh, really?" "Then you wouldn't mind if I did this then?" said Harry as he started to squeeze your sides and tummy and waist line. "Eihehehehhehehehehehehe!!" "Stahahahap ihit Hahahaharry!" you giggled. Harry smiles playfully. "I don't think that was nothing (Y/N)!" said Harry as he continued to squeeze your sides playfully. This was going to be a fun day!

Louis:

It was an extremley hot summers morning and you were trying to read a book quietly on a deck chair outside the flat you and Louis shared. Unfortunatley though, Louis was being annoying and was pestering you on and on for some attention. "(Y/N)!!" "ENTERTAIN MEEEE!!!!! I'M BOOORRREEEDDD!!!!" Louis yelled down your ear repeatedley. But you didn't answer, you were desperate to finish your book as it had to be back to the library tommorow. "AHHHHHHHH!!!!!" Louis screamed in fustration. "It's sooo HOT!! And, i'm sooo booorrreeeddd!!!!!!!! Come swimming with me (Y/N)!!!" he moaned but you just ignored him yet again. "Fine! If you won't talk to me then i'll have to make you talk!" Louis sat down on your extended legs from you putting your legs up to relax, and faced your feet which were bare. He started to tickle your feet and you squirmed like a fish underneath him. "AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! STAHAHAP IHIHIHIT LOU I'M AHAHA THAHALKING NOHOHOW!!! STAHAHAHAHAP!!!" you squealed as Louis tickled your worst spot. "YES!!!" Louis shouted as he finally got your attention. "Now please come swimming with me or that will happen again but worse!" he pestered. "Uggghhhhh.... fine!" you moaned. Louis knew this would be good for future reference.

Niall:

You and Niall had just finished eating Nandos and you were both sitting on the sofa watching Nemo as it was your favorite Disney film. You were cuddling into Niall's side and you lay your head on his shoulder when suddenly, you shivered against Niall's body. "You cold love?" he asked concerned. You nodded curtly enough for Niall to see it. Niall grabbed a nearby blanket and started to tuck it around your delicate body but when he got by your sides and tummy he felt you squirm a little.        "Uhhh.. you okay (Y/N)?" he asked. "Umm.. y-yeah, just o-one thing though b-babe.... c-c-could you be m-more careful w-where your laying your h-h-hands h-hun?" you said quietly knowing soon that he would find out your deadly weakness. Niall looked down to where his hands were tucking the blanket into your body and smiled. "Awwwwww!" "Your ticklish honey!!!" he cooed as he started to poke you on your tummy and sides repeatedly while you squirmed beside him. "Nahahahahahahaha plehehehahsee quihihit ihihihit!!" you laughed. "Okay fine, just one more thing (Y/N)..... A RASBERRY!!" Niall said enthusiastically as he pushed you down and pulled your upperbody into his lap. "Nonononononononononono!!" "Niall baby, please don-AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!" "NOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!!" you screeched as he finished his dirty work on your now saliva covered tummy. Niall smiled evilly at you knowing that he now knew how to get you to do stuff for him. "Ugghhh... you are so gonna get it!"

Zayn:

You had somehow convinced Zayn to play hide and seek with you in the dark. "Come on (Y/N)!! Your not being fair!!" Zayn was secretley nervous you were gonna jump out, scare him and make him jump out of his skin again like the last time you played this game with him. Zayn could hear your muffled giggles from some where in the room but he just couldn't put his finger on it. When suddenly, he heard the creaking noise of a closet door opening and Zayn finally knew where you were hiding but pretended like he never heard it. You crawled back into your secret hiding spot thinking Zayn didn't know where you were. "He'll never find me here, he's terrible at hide and seek in the dark and he gives up all the time! Hehe!" you thought in your head. "Okay (Y/N)!!" "I give up, you win again babes!!" shouted Zayn as he hid down the side of the closet you were currently hiding in. "Okay!!" you shouted from the closet as you jumped out expecting to see Zayn but not finding him anywhere. Just as you were about to go and find your handsome boyfriend, Zayn pounced out of his hiding spot and sat on top of your body. "Hey babes!!!" Zayn said. "WHAT ON EARTH WAS THAT FOR ZAYNIE BUTT??!!" you screeched at him. "Hey, no shouting in my flat!!" "And i've decided that instead of you having all the fun, that I should have some fun for a change! Said Zayn with some emphasis on the 'I'. Zayn had always expected you were ticklish so he decided to test out his theory. "EEEEEIIIKKK!!!" "WHAHAHAHAT AHARE YOUHUHU DOING??" you asked him nervously. "Tickling you duuhhh!" "AHAHAHAHA!!" "WHEHEHELL STOHOHOHOP IHIHIT!!!!" you laughed. Now this was definatley going to come in handy!!

Liam:

Liam had just come off an interview with the press and you were waiting for him backstage. "Hey beautiful!" said Liam when he saw you. "Oh, get over it Lili i'm not beautiful." you say. Liam rolls his eyes and prepares for another argument about why he loves you and what he loves about you. "OF COURSE your beautiful." he argues as you walk hand in hand to his dressing room. "Oh yeah?" "I would love to see you try and prove your right which your NOT!" you say challengingly as you and Liam walk into his dressing room. "Oh, you wanna play that game do you (Y/N)??" said Liam with a smirk. "Sure....okay.... I can make you see that I AM right!" he said playfully as he wrestles you to the floor. "UGGHH!!!" Lili get offa meee!!" you moaned. "Nope!" "Sorry babes but you deserved this!" he stated. Liam had a feeling that you were ticklish so he decided now would be the perfect time to test it out on your vulnerable little body. ;D "Poke, poke, poke, poke, poke!!"said Liam as he poked your tummy and sides. "EiiiiiiiiII!!" "Dohohohohohon't dohohoho thahahat!!!!" you giggled. "I KNEW IT!!!" "HAHAHA!!" screamed Liam in victory. "knehehehehew whahahahat???" you said still giggling. "I had a big feeling you were ticklish and now I KNOW i'm right!!" said Liam as he continued his poking. "Nahahahahahahaha stahahahaha-AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!" you screamed as Liam had just trailed over your bellybutton. Liam looked shocked. He never knew you would be THIS ticklish!! Liam started drawing circles around your bellybutton. "AHAHAHAHAHAHA NAHAHAHA STAHAHAHAP YOUOHOHOHOU WERE RIGHIHIHIT NOHOHOHOW STAHAHAHAP!!" you screamed. Liam stopped. "I knew it!" he said. And, that was that.

[bizarrewritings-blog]

Knock Hard Life / Pt. 4

Bucky Barnes x reader

Being the new one is always problematic. Being the new one while thirsting over a new companion is even more problematic, especially when he shows no interest at all towards you.

Warnings: slight smut (blink and you'll miss it), Angst

A/N: The next part will be the last one sooo hope you enjoy this!

Pt. 1 | Pt. 2 | Pt. 3 | Pt. 4 | Pt. 5

The following night was rough. You've been tossing your body around the sheets for at least 3 hours resisting to fall asleep. You sighed heavily, sitting up and rubbing your palms over your face. Since you moved you always slept perfectly, the comfiness of the mattress lulling you to sleep easily. But even the softest sheets didn't bring you to doze off.

You turned on your bedsite lamp, picking up your favorite book from its place on the nightstand. Maybe this would help you to get a little sleepy. Making yourself comfortable against the headbord you started reading, almost immediately feeling in your own little world where only you and the story the pages infront of you pictured existed. You had no idea for long how you've been reading until a noise ripped you out of your trance, making you flinch. It was a knock at your door. Confused, you looked at the clock. 2:26 am. "Come in." You called, closing the book on your lap, still suspicious why someone would be up this time. Your features softened when a nervous looking Bucky took a step in your room. He wore a grey shirt to his sweatpants this time. Sadly.

"What's up Buck?" You asked, puzzled why he kept his gaze at the floor. You really thought he was finally over the 'I won't look at you' phase. "'M sorry for bothering you." He murmured, something lingering in his voice that you couldn't quite name. You crossed your leg under your blanket to sit up straighter, putting your book back on your nightstand. "You're not bothering. What's wrong?" He run a hand through his hair, his gaze still on his feet which were nervously scratching your grey carpet. "I normally go to Steve with stuff like this but...I walked by and your lights were on, and the talk we had in the kitchen was nice, so i thought... i don't know, if you want to...maybe I shouldn't have come..." He was unbelievably adorable when he was all nervous, but you really wanted him to form his thoughts into proper sentences. "If you want to talk, we can." That's when his gaze finally lifted from his feet to you. His eyes were a little puffy and red, the usual sparkling blue in his eyes turned to a cloudy grey. You gave him a sad smile, shifting a little to the side, petting the sheet to your left, telling him to sit down. He walked over to your bed slowly, sitting at the edge of the mattress. You giggled at his actions, making him throw a confused look at you. "You can sit on the bed normally, you know? You don't have to keep yourself so far from me." He only nodded, carefully taking his place beside you, making himself comfortable against the headboard as well. "Great. Now, talk." He took a breath before speaking. He told you about the nightmares he had for years, flashbacks of his years as The Winter Soldier, completely under another persons control. He talked about how the dreams where always different yet the same. Sometimes he would get pictured flashbacks of missions, the feared faces of people around him. Other times eveything would be a blurry imagine, but he heard the screaming, yelling, gunshots. And rarely he could feel the pain he went through everytime they messed with his brain, he even heard his own suffering screams.

You only looked at him while he talked, not saying anything. You wanted him to talk without being interrupted. When he finished you took all your confidence, carefully putting your hand in his flesh one, squeezing it lightly. He gave you a little confused look but didn't pull away. "I can never imagine the way you have to feel. It has to be absolutely horrific to be reminded of the things those bastards forced you to." You gave him a heart warming smile. "But you have to remember one thing. You're still here. You've made it through all of that and now you're here, being one of the toughest fighters the world has ever seen, with a group of friends everyone would love to have." He smiled brightly at your words, carefully squeezing your hand which still remained in his. "You're even better at these speeches than Steve." You both chuckled at that. The sound of his laugh spread warmth in your belly, it was such a beautiful thing to hear. You decided to be even bolder, shifting a little closer to him to lean your head on his shoulder. You felt him lightly tense again, his metal arm stirring lightly, but he relaxed soon after, making you sigh in relieve. None of you said anything, just enjoying each others company. You wanted to stay like this forever, the peaceful silence, the warmth of Buckys Hand around your own combined with the scent of him making your eyelids feel heavier by the second.

Bucky was the first to talk again. "Thank you, for all this. I hate bugging Steve all the time, waking him up and stuff, even if he says it's okay i still feel bad." You slightly nodded, you completely understood him. "I have to thank as well. You finally make me feel sleepy." You lifted your head from his shoulder to look at your alarm clock. 3:19 am. You really talked for almost an hour. You felt Bucky shift, his hand about to leave yours. "Maybe I should go then. But really, it was n-" "Wait." He stopped his movements, watching your face while you felt it going red. God you sounded really desperate there. "Y-You can stay if you want. You often stay at Steves as well right?" His eyebrows furrowed together in question. "How do you..." "Steve told me." You admitted. His face dropped a little, making it your turn to give him a questioned look. His gaze falling to his hand still intertwined with yours. "So you knew all of this and still had me explain it?" "No, no, i didn't know!" You instantly protested, fearing he might get mad at you for putting him through the misery of remembering all his dreams. You softly squeezed his hand, signaling him to look at you instead. His gaze met yours, a hurt expression on his face. "I promise, okay? He only told me you that when you had nightmares you would go to him to talk and sometimes staying there for the night. That's all. Really." Your eyes practically begged him to believe you. You didn't want him to go, you would do anything to convince him to stay. He took a breath before nodding. "Okay, okay. I'm...I'm sorry for accusing you like that." You sighed and shook your head. "It's alright, really." You ran your thumb over the back of his hand before lifting your gaze back to his eyes whose colour had returned to sparkling blue. "Stay, please." He smiled softly before nodding.

He stood up, the warmth of his hand leaving you. You shifted under your blanket to give him enough material to crawl under. After he joined you under the covers, laying on his back, he went full nervous again, you could almost see his rapid heartbeat trough the thin material of his shirt. You suppressed a chuckle but didn't accept that he wasn't at all close to you. With help of your new found confidence, wherever that came from, you lifted his arms and maneuvered yourself next to his body, your head on his chest. Now you could also hear his racing heart and you actually feared he might have a heart attack. He's an old man after all. "This okay for you?" You asked carefully as his heart didn't slow down. You feared you might have taken it too far. He answered by moving his flesh arm, which was laying somewhere behind your back until now, setting his hand at your hip, softly squeezing. You smiled at that, making yourself even more comfortable, soon after drifting off into your well deserved sleep.

Both of you actually slept longer that night, enjoying the comfort. What you didn't know was that at the same time you were the number one topic in the kitchen. "Has any of you seen Bucky?" Steve asked, nervously looking at Tony, Wanda and Sam. "Nope, barely see that guy." Sam shrugged. "His door is open and I usually always meet him here." The blonde stated, feared for his best friend. "Gym?" Wanda suggested. Steve just shook his head. "Already checked." "You know we have a AI in this house right?" Tony chuckled. "FRIDAY? Where is Barnes at the moment?" "Sergeant Barnes is asleep in Miss Y/L/Ns room." All four exchanged suprised glances. "Never thought Tin man would actually get laid." Tony laughed, Sam joining. Steve rolled his eyes with a smile. He was happy for you two but damn that went fast.

You woke up slowly, prying your eyes open to adjust to the dim light in your room. You tried to move but failed, something heavy keeping you in place. You turned your face, the glistening of metal catching your attention. Buckys left arm was draped around your waist, making you smile. Thank god it wasn't a dream. You managed to turn on your back, Buck immediately shifting even closer to you, pressing his body against your side with his face in your neck. You felt something hard against your thigh and gulped hard. Morning woods were awkward, but having Buckys pressed against you was torture. Suddenly the door swung open, making you jump. Steve entered the room, smiling wide. Bucky stirred in his sleep, slowly waking up with a mumbled "What the hell?"

"Good Morning, Lovebirds! I would've liked my best friend to tell me about this, but the AI took this job." Bucky and you both sat up, giving him a confused look. "What are you talking about?" The dark haired man rasped, the sleep still lingering in his voice. "Don't treat me like a goddamn fool, Buck. That between you two! I mean i knew you were meant for each other and as soon as Y/N told me she liked you I-" "STEVE!" You interrupted him with a shout, your eyes wide and entire face heating up. He shot you a confused glare before realizing. "Oh- You didn't...?" You let your head drop back against the headboard with a sigh. When you felt Buckys gaze you turned to look at him, Nervousness written over your face. "You like me?"