#Bucket with a Saturn Handle

[seagull-astrology]

C655 Prosperina's warning for Greta Thunberg

This is a general sunrise chart for Greta the spokes girl from Sweden on climate change. Her rising is 08 Aquarius 34 with an appropriate midheaven of Sagittarius for her travels. Neptune that rules the 12th is found there, showing how the Viking spirit of travelling via boat to bring about the conquest of her message appeals to her. She has a strong stellium in the 11th house of public speaking…

[omghallucinations]

Bang Chan Chart Analysis: in the weeds edition

chart patterns, degrees, fixed stars, aspects, final dispositors, basically all kind of deeper cuts.

ah, bang chan: a double libra gemini rising whose other planets are acting up so much i barely even touched on venus and mercury somehow

like he's clearly an air sign in every respect--he loooOOOves to talk, he's curious and interested in a lot of different things, he's never met a secret he doesn't want to immediately tell five hundred thousand people on live... but damn some of those other planets (saturn, mars, jupiter, uranus) are loud.

right away i noticed his chart is a bucket chart--every planet is in one half of the circle, except for one planet who becomes the "handle": his aries saturn. saturn is hammering all the other planets on the head so to speak.

saturn: you'll have to come through me motherfuckers

saturn is screaming it's ME i'm the BIG BOSS and as the handle, a lot of things in chan's life are gonna be based on or deal with--for better or worse--saturn stuff (maturation, fear, control, authority, judgment). chan's saturn automatically rockets to the top of his Big Boss list (it will not stay here tho, we've got some other bosses coming).

saturn is in its fall in aries--it doesn't speak the language there. any planet in its fall is usually marked down in influence but i also think it makes the planet more important? chan has to struggle with it. a saturn at home in capricorn (barring other chart factors) is very natural. 8/9 members of girls generation have saturn in capricorn and wow does that make sense. saturn in capricorn prizes Work and is self-conscious/guilty of its feelings (feelings are not productive), it's alllways anxious it hasn't done enough, it is very scared of disappointing people, it's deeply conscious of societal conditioning.

aries is a weird sign for saturn to be in. saturn has a lot of fear, and aries has a lot of fearlessness. aries is a baby and saturn is all about maturation. aries is about acting without thinking, saturn is about making a list and checking it 5 times then deciding not to do it just in case.

and then. this is fun. saturn goes on the big boss list again because it is unaspected--this doesn't mean there aren't aspects, it means there are no major aspects to other planets. when a planet is unaspected, everyone around you can sure as fuck see the hell out of it, but you can't really. it's center stage but not in the play.

bang chan: i am the cutest, fuzziest lil libra guy :) i just care about my work which is normal :) and i express that care in a very reasonable and chill way :) i just want things to be good! :) everyone around him, shaking in fear from his scathing judgment and innate leadership aura: uh-huh

an unaspected planet is usually a generational thing--chan really popped up like hey girl :) i'm here to really personify our family problems of work, judgement, fear and maturation and just like. make 'em huge and unavoidable. haha. :)

chan's gonna show real extremes of behavior around his saturn, which

in aries seems like it's dealing with issues of creation, self-determination, doing it on my own, that kind of stuff (so he'll deny himself or assert himself too much in turns)

in the 11th house backs that up--the 11th is the aquarius house, so saturn is in aries (a "me" sign) in a "we" (in a sort of detached intellectual sense) house

11th/aquarius usually wants to set u free :) but in a kind of back-handed passy aggy harry styles way, like "i love you so i'll set you free, because i am such an open-minded person, unlike other people (who are tethered to humanity which is both embarrassing and scary to me yuck), also setting you free is less terrifying to me than being perceived :) go with god :) bye :)"

it's in the sun decan, so there's a flavor of "look at me look at me" and identity formation (am i what i produce?)

saturn's most exact aspect is sesquisquare mars which acts a lot like a square, my favorite aspect! squares get such a bad rap but i think they're so much better for your life in the long run bc they force you to deal with things. his mars is in sagittarius, so we have a double fire sign situation: explosive, passionate, loves attention and creation. mars, who also gets a bad rap, is our survival planet. it's like, how are you gonna survive this. how are you gonna get what you want and defend yourself and win (if you care about winning) (chan cares about winning).

sagittarius mars is gonna go forward kind of joyfully but also in a "fuck you lmao" way. it's courageous bc it doesn't really think anything could go actually wrong. it's gonna Leave if it's bored (and it's already bored). it's gonna wide-angle zoom on the situation and be like "lol embarrassing... for you" and feel 100% sure it's right All The Time. sesquisquare saturn tries to control this force, adds a bunch of fear and repression and Issues (and often in later life, wisdom), so -> chan's gonna really be afraid of his own anger, of losing control of his temper -> ironically he will be unable to stop bouncing between these two extremes to various degrees. u can't control what u can't accept my dude. -> he's also afraid of not being in power, of not winning -> the me/we extreme will also come into play--especially with his sun and moon in libra (that's their whole Thing) sagittarius says "i'm right for objective, philosophical reasons" and aries says "i'm right because i just am bro i don't have to explain myself to you" mars in the 6th house--that drive to assert himself is gonna really go hard at work and in his daily life. this is a #gymbro placement for sure. his daily routine is Let's Fuckin Go At 150% -> his 11th house (where saturn is), loves the idea of people, community, his ideals, is detached from humanity and it comes into conflict with -> his 6th house, which is very much of the world, very critical, very let's get actual shit done and be of service to people sidebar, mars is exactly conjunct the asteroid quaoar-- creation, making new rules and structures, diverging from how things Have Always Been Done, please hold this thought for his uranus, coming up soon

libra moon at 29 degrees: heard u were desperately trying to maintain equilibrium for emotional security reasons lol

another planet i'm eyeing is his libra moon which is in the anaretic degree, 29. he's very good at this energy but it's gonna test him. with his libra moon he needs contact and dialogue with people to feel secure but it can't get too deep because that's gonna freak him out. he is super comfortable being vulnerable and emotional on the internet because the internet is not real. i mean it's real, but it doesn't feel real. it's the equivalent of over-intellecualising your feelings so you don't actually feel anything (which an air moon always enjoys, as a hobby). just like it's way easier and less scary to be in love with an idea of a person, rather than the actual person! the actual person can really fuck up ur moodboard!

chan needs things to be pretty, equal, even-keeled. libra is such a funny sign because often it gets flattened to this like "cutey pie flirt" stereotype which i would say is almost exclusively libra venus. libra is a cardinal sign--an acting, initiating sign--and can be a lot more controlling than it likes to pretend imo. it's also in his sixth house--he's gonna feel safe when he can be of service to others, when he can get things done, when he can edit shit, basically.

he's also a new moon baby, which gives a moon a fun, aries-y, baby-tries-(food)-for-the-first-time vibe. removes a lot of those libra inhibitions and adds a lot of need to feel special.

chan is so good at making sure he feels safe by trying to keep everything cute and not too deep and staying on the surface or removed from the situation through constant activity and like, pruning everything, trying to perfect everything (therefore not having to actually deal with anything). howmstever, this system is gonna repeatedly implode throughout his life. soz bud. his emotional foundation's gonna get pummeled on and off which sucks because he has an almost manic need

for emotional safety through strategic diplomacy and avoiding confrontation

for emotional safety through constant work and "perfecting" everything

for people to like him everyone needs to like him or he will die

(not the real him, that makes him nervous, the projection of him that he painstakingly curates, that is safer)

it's not especially fun to deal with.

bright side, wisdom in later life!

mercury, ruler of chan's ascendant: pretty much exactly what you'd expect?

as a gemini rising, chan's ruler is his mercury in libra in the 5th but ironically i don't feel like she's as major of a player as some of these other planets. you can see the communication and curiosity focus of his life, and in the 5th house of self-expression, creation. mercury is sextile mars and pluto, a talent for making his voice heard and powerful, trine uranus in the 9th he's confident about and believes in his unique voice/perspective.

like mercury is there and she's important, but she's not like. causing big waves? it's like his life direction, again, important, but i'm more intrigued by...

mars conjunct pluto opposite his ascendant: oh boy!

this is his one big opposition and it's on the gemini-sagittarius axis (my fave, she's just fun and curious, she's not super dramatic or that difficult although she doesn't exactly make it easy to make... decisions... or get anything done?). however if we were worried about getting shit done, mars and pluto are here to scream. mars conjunct pluto is exactly as dramatic as sagittarius-gemini is not.

this is an exact conjunction and it's wild. anything pluto touches blows up in a way. it makes it intense and secretive and adds the planet to its portfolio of unconscious past life soul security demands.

lmao i just realized that red lights is fully this conjunction lmao oh no. i don't know if i can talk about this conjunction normally. it's very... ... nsfw.

sometimes pluto conjunct mars forces mars into the background and makes the person afraid to assert themselves, but i don't think that's exactly the vibe here, although it's similar. it looks to me like chan has a lot of rage and anger in him that, with his libra placements, he probably has a very difficult time acknowledging or facing. he'll easily internalize it and turn it inward and be a real asshole to himself, and also his temper will flare up randomly and he'll go for the kill shot when he meant to communicate like a normal person. he has a lot of strong desires, he also wants power, but he's gonna hide it and run from the reality there. he does have almost inhuman will, courage and drive tho, he can truly endure anything.

(idk i think he should be a little worried about his physical body, so many of his coping mechanisms depend on exercise/endurance and with pluto--transformation, security--in the sixth house i worry his health might force transformation? ur body can't carry all of ur unspoken shit my bud?)

gemini rising wants to seem very fun, very friendly, very cute, but with mars and pluto on his descendant chan is almost hiding or ignoring a huge part of himself--all those darker impulses which aren't going anywhere. my guy loves a taboo and (redacted redacted redacted redacted REDACTEDDDD). whatever, it's good for creativity and in sagittarius he has a good sense of humor about it.

jupiter: uno reverso???

damn chan really got #blessed here, a lot of that chart was really screaming Issues, Internalized Rage, Fear, Depression, etc, but jupiter really bounced up to be like "never mind haha. i mean yeah, true, but also whatever"

first of all jupiter is in its home house, the 9th--chan's on a Journey, he's eat pray loving, he's Listening and Learning--and it's in aquarius, so that belief system and personal philosophy is gonna be very open-minded, very science fiction, very predicting trends, very ahead of society.

jupiter conjunct his MC: this is what pulls jupiter up to the big boss list. anything conjunct your MC is at the top of your chart--people see it. people notice it about you. and goddamn are people just gonna give him stuff. and they always have. no wonder jyp was like This Is My Special Boy, like that is jupiter conjunct MC to a t.

(the public perception of chan is also gonna be a lot... cuter and more exuberant and fun than the actual man. not that he's not those things. just that the jupiter of his personality is really what people are noticing about him from the outside: his personal vision, his expansive side, all that. they are not looking at that prominent saturn as much, even if saturn is a bigger player)

jupiter trine the sun: another one where people are just gonna like you. for one thing they'll notice chan's good intentions and generosity--altho they will also notice his tendency to moralise and be a liiiiittle condescending--but his tendency towards bouncy optimism (at least outwardly) makes people want to follow him aquarius jupiter trine libra sun: two "we" signs in a big way, except aquarius is "we" like "humanity" and libra is "we" like "you and me", but they unite in a tendency to conflate the personal identity with the group identity--with jupiter and the sun at play it's like chan is able to bring people on board with his identity and personal vision (but he often presents an idealised version of himself who does not have needs, somehow) 9th house trine 5th house: basically a repeat of jupiter-sun, since the 5th house is the leo house--chan has a talent for using his personal philosophy/vision in creative works

our final big boss of the night, perhaps the ultimate big boss: aquarius uranus

chan's aquarius uranus is really talking to everybody. it has by far the most aspects of any planet. uranus has its hand in his ascendant and every planet except jupiter and neptune. with modern rulers aquarius is at home in uranus, and i'm coming around a little bit on modern rulership even if i think it tends to be less prominent than traditional. still:

aquarius uranus: original thought, technological progress, your box is dumb i'm not going in there uranus in the 9th house: he's gonna have an offbeat belief system--no chance he buys into korea's societal norms, or anyone's societal norms for that matter. he's not a conformist. trine his gemini ascendant: whooooo boy he is really not a conformist. when he's not in a Mood he's not judgmental at all, even when he's in a mood he has a real benevolent Ah, Humanity Should All Be Free to Pursue Happiness vibe. gemini couldn't give a shit about morals, and uranus and aquarius think morals are bourgeois. he has a talent for his own difference--some uranus people (like most of ateez, my weirdo darlings) have chips on their shoulders about being different, but chan with his easy trine is just happy to be himself. i mean a trine uranus isn't gonna change the world (unlike harder aspects like squares, who would be more driven to do so) but he is gonna set a good example just through his identity.

this is a fun side of chan! i like this!

square moon: mmmm ok about that chip on his shoulder. although it's not really about being different--it's more about he both wants to be stable and emotionally secure and also free and independent and he's soooooooo fucking stubborn (but he doesn't see it that way because he's Right, not stubborn). he's prone to feeling really itchy and stuck and then making big changes out of nowhere. also he's very intuitive but overly sensitive and when he's hurt he's gonna shut down completely and not tell the person what they did wrong. didn't he give someone the silent treatment? jisung? yeah that's uranus square moon energy. he has a lot of fear around his emotions and only lets himself feel in short sharp bursts. he feels hurt and he cuts out the person immediately without warning to protect himself--even if it's completely illogical he will dupe himself into believing it is very logical and correct, actually libra moon square aquarius uranus: yeah this looks like a "keep the peace even if it is unhealthy" v. "radical change out of nowhere the tower ass" argument, he'll bounce between the two extremes again. heyyy gemini rising i didn't even see u there!!

man. really haven't gotten into everything including his sun in libra (in its fall), his nodes (classic idol 5th-11th axis, soooo many of them have this), etc, but i've been working on this for so long!! aughhH!!

ok drumroll please, let's gather up his chart big players!! normally i would rank these, but i keep changing my mind.

aquarius uranus

aquarius jupiter

sagittarius mars-pluto conjunction

aries saturn

libra mercury (2nd to lastish)

libra moon (definitely last on this list)

tentatively i'm gonna put uranus-jupiter tied at 1, then mars-pluto then saturn then mercury. ugh i don't know though. they're all big players! chan in general has one of those spread-out charts--when you look at the ruler of each planet, he has what's called a "committee" tree

where there isn't one or two final bosses, and the planets are all connected in one tree rather than being separate. you can see how chan's 3 top planets are sag mars, aquarius jupiter and aries saturn--they all work together and are super interconnected. he's not as single-minded as someone with a singular dispositor (ateez hongjoong has a singular final dispositor tree with his pisces jupiter) but also not as split or conflicted as someone who has split trees (ateez seonghwa has a planet in rulership tree with separate parts).

anyway this has been really interesting! for someone with what seems at first glance to be a very unified chart (air moon, air sun, air rising) he has some interesting conflicting energies--altho i'm sure he sees himself as just an air person. i'm sure he is lowkey aware of that mars and pluto conjunction but i'd bet he really pretends he does not see it (except for in REDACTED REDACTED EXTREMELY REDACTED situations), and he truly cannot see his saturn at all (altho everyone else can!).

[readingsbylibramc]

birth chart reading for @paranoidfanfictionreader

hello! welcome to your reading. I’m gonna give you a quick overview of what I’m going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn’t clear, of course. you’ll find out your dominants’ influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits’ analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a bucket shape, with the moon as the handle of the bucket. your saturn is in the 12th house, hence matters regarding spirituality and mental health will be your priorities in this lifetime. you also have clear ideas about your future and who you want to be. even though you may have different passions and talents, you’re capable of only sticking to one and mastering it, giving your all.

your dominant planets are venus, pluto and uranus. you are probably quite creative, or at least you have a passion for creative outlets; you may like music, reading, cooking, etc. you may be a trendsetter among your peers, or you may even become pretty well-known in your field. you may have to go through many overwhelming, life-changing experiences throughout your life. you definitely don't have an easy past, you might have struggled or may be struggling with your own inner demons or even external people that may try to harm you. but you're also a person who grows more and more mature as time goes by. you're becoming more confident and self-aware, even though the many transformations you have to undergo could be painful.

your dominant sign is taurus. you're a chill person, you prefer staying at home instead of going out and partying. you are quite stubborn, but that's because you're passionate about your ideas and beliefs. you prefer trying and take action, even if you risk to hurt yourself, instead of just standing still and observing. you find comfort helping others; it's a way to feel satisfied both with others and yourself, as you like proving your skills and talents.

your dominant element is earth. you're a loyal and stable individual. you value longevity in your relationships, and that makes you quite picky. you can easily appear as cold, as opening up to someone you don't know well is too much of a risk for you. once you do, though, you'll stay forever. money and material possessions are important for you, as you understand that financial stability is one of the main qualifications in life.

🌎 ascendant in taurus, 24° / 3rd decan ruled by venus and saturn

taurus is ruled by venus, the planet of beauty. therefore, you’re probably very attractive, even if not conventionally. taurus risings usually come off as introverted and shy, you’re probably not much talkative. you’re a homebody, you prefer staying at home reading a good book instead of going out and partying, even though you don’t despise hanging out with your friends either. basically, you’d rather watch a movie with them than going to the disco, for example. you’re a very patient and cautious person; because of that, you may considered slow, and it may be true, especially in your movements. yet, you just like thinking deeply about a decision, even if it’s just about what to eat for dinner. you don’t want to have regrets. you may also be quite materialistic, and hence you’re extremely careful to how you spend your money. you don’t want to be a burden to someone else, in fact you most likely used to feel guilty to ask your parents for money when you were younger. you’d rather be independent. usually, taurus placements are quite egotistic, but I don’t think it’s exactly your case. you’re careful to who’re you generous with, but you’re not selfish. you don’t fancy flaky, insignificant relationships. you prefer having long-lasting and intense bonds, you don’t have time to waste. you’re particularly loyal, but you could become too possessive and possibly controlling of your partners or friends. you’re probably not very flexible in life, since taurus is a fixed sign; you’re particularly fond of routine and you don’t like changing it out too often. it’s hard for you to adapt to changes, so you’d rather avoid them at all. taurus risings tend to have a very youthful vibe to them, and they’re usually more on the shorter side, or at least average. I’ve also noticed that they tend to have naturally straight and silky hair. even if you don't take much care of it, it’s still thick and good-looking. your eyes may be small or at least of average size, and they’re usually hooded, almond-shaped with naturally long lashes. your nose could be a button shape or a french nose but, even if it’s not, it still goes very well with your overall face. your lips are most likely full, even if not necessarily plump. you may also have a defined, distinctive cupid’s bow. last but not least, you may be of average height or tall, with long arms and legs.

taurus ascendant square aquarius sun: this placement indicates that, when you’re in public, you tend to act in a different way from who you truly are. perhaps you tend to act sociable and welcoming to hide your competitive and determined aquarius sun, even if unconsciously. this can obviously interfere in your relationships and bonds with others; some may expect you to be different, so you may often lose friends because you turned out to be different from what they were expecting. in fact, you may often attract people that try to take advantage of you. I wouldn’t worry too much, though, as I find this placement beneficial in your case, exactly because of this reason. but just in case it bothers you, now that you’re aware of this tendency of yours you can try to understand your real self more thanks to this reading, and start acting like who you truly are to get out of your shell.

taurus ascendant conjunct taurus moon: this placement makes you look softer than the typical taurus rising. in fact, you're kind of a cancer rising for some traits: you can read people's mood very well, it's easy for you to understand whether someone is sad, angry, happy... because of that, you always try to make people feel at ease, you're always kind with people, and that makes you extremely likeable. also, since the moon rules over feelings and the inner you, you're probably a very genuine person. it's hard for you to hide your real emotions, and even if you wanted to hide them you wouldn't be capable, you're not fake. you could also have frequent mood swings. you have a strong sense of family and comfort to you, and hence it's extremely essential for you feel at ease to truly be yourself. you may also resemble your mother more than your father.

taurus ascendant opposite scorpio mars: you easily come off as more assertive and arrogant than you actually are. this manifests both in your face and in your words. you could say things impulsively, and sometimes you're too blunt and hurt people's feelings. you don't do it on purpose, though, there's no malice behind your acts; it's just your natural way to express your opinions. on the other hand, you probably have a very strong charisma to you that makes you look very captivating and bold. people see you as a leader, and hence they could get intimidated by your presence. to cope with this placement, you can try controlling yourself and your words before speaking. I'm aware that it's a way to vent your anger, but you can find another way that doesn't hurt others.

taurus ascendant opposite scorpio saturn: you may be shy and have self-esteem issues, especially during your early years. because of that, you may often appear as insecure to others, or even unreliable. you have a strong desire to be with someone and commit to them, you despise supertificial bonds, but at the same time you may find yourself being too shy to approach others, especially during your early years. you may not be the most confident person on earth, but as time goes by your grow more and more confident. this may apply more to the younger you, actually. you don't feel much comfortable around other people, and others can sense that; your insecurity is exposed to the world, and some may take advantage of that to hurt your feelings. you're afraid of being judged, whether it's for your appearance, or maybe because of your ideals or interests. hence, you end up becoming reserved. this is something that will be solved through growth and time; the older you get, the easier you'll be on yourself. also, thanks to this aspect, you're a responsible person with defined values. to cope with this placement, I'd suggest you to do what makes you feel the best. there are different ways to boost your self-esteem, so maybe you can work on that and then start expressing yourself freely; if you do it without the fear of being judged, you will shine even more.

🌞 sun in aquarius, 20° / 3rd decan ruled by uranus and venus

this is the most sociable aquarius decan. even though you may face some insecurities, you’re typically a strong-minded person. you strive for independence, as you focus your existence on your witty intellect. you have the ability to achieve great things, as your mind is literally revolutionary, even though you may struggle to make those projects concrete. a downside to this placement is that you may not give enough importance to your words; you’re brutally honest, and you may often hurt someone with your thoughts. even though you may appreciate it, as you don’t like it when people aren’t straight-forward, you probably don’t realize the effect your words can have on others. you’re also quite stubborn, and you take particular pride about your ideals. you may feel offended when people disagree with you. or maybe, you don’t even say your opinions, because you could be aware of the weight of your words and you don’t want to hurt others, or you’re afraid of being judged. people may define you as cold, but you’re really not. you just struggle to look sweet like other signs, and your heavy earth and scoprio energy combo doesn’t help either. you’re more detached, but that doesn’t mean that you don’t have emotions.

aquarius sun square taurus moon: with this aspect, what you need and what you want tend to clash. in your case, your aquarius sun wants to be in the spotlight, you want to be sociable and have fun. you want to go out often and live life to the fullest, while your taurus moon is more private, it prefers being alone. as a result, you may come off as unpredictable and / or indecisive. you could struggle with being optimistic, as you have this inner turmoil in you that makes you struggle to attract positive situations in your life. you may often feel conflicted, as if you didn't have control over your emotions. you may have unstable self-esteem, one day you could be feeling extra confident and happy with yourself and then the next day you feel very insecure, you want to change everything about your persona. you could feel unwanted, or perhaps you actually used to feel unwanted during your childhood, perhaps by your parents, relatives or even by other children at school. you're basically a walking paradox, you want both intimacy and independence, stability and flexibility.

aquarius sun square scorpio mars: you’re extremely passionate about the things you love, you strive to be perfect at them, and your perfectionist aquarius nature confirms this. this could make you quite competitive, as your aquarius sun wants to succeed and be always right. I feel like you don’t really enjoy being in the spotlight; you’d rather avoid conflicts, or at least not be the center of them. yet, sometimes it’s hard for you not be aggressive. I don’t think it happens often, but you can be very blunt and rude if someone truly gets on your nerves. this, paired up with your uranus dominance, makes you sort of dramatic. as long as you don’t react like this too often, I don’t think it’s a big issue though.

aquarius sun square scorpio saturn: during the first years of your life, you were most likely very insecure. probably, your father or any kind of authoritative figure influenced your growth, making you self-conscious about your looks and abilities. they might've been really strict, or at least critical or overprotective of you. you feel the need to be perfect, or at least to meet others' expectations. you may also care too much about what others think about you. you may be a late bloomer, and you could face some hardships in your relationships, but this gets better with time. this probably manifests in your approach to friendships and relationships, making you quite awkward. don't worry, though; as you become more aware of yourself and your potential, saturn's lessons won't seem so harsh anymore.

🌙 moon in taurus, 21° / 3rd decan ruled by venus and saturn

the moon is exalted in taurus, so it's definitely a good placement! you're very peaceful, you try to avoid conflicts when you can. this placement makes you crave stability, whether it's financial, in love etc. you must be very stubborn, as taurus is a fixed sign. this placement, paired with your imaginative aquarius energy, makes you settle on making your ideas concrete, and it's very beneficial. it makes you capable of achieving any goals in your life. you're also very artsy, and you may fancy particular art styles. you have a good eye for aesthetics, and you care a lot about the looks of your house, body, clothes etc. you have excellent concentration, and that is another thing that helps you achieve your goals and make your ideas concrete. last but not least, you're amazingly patient, and that makes you a great friend. probably, they vent a lot of their worries to you, as you're also a great listener.

taurus moon opposite scorpio mars: your feelings are very intense. you may tend to react aggressively, or at least overreact. you feel the constant need to express your emotions, but you also want to be understood by others. you tend to be aggressive because you're actually afraid that others may be the first ones to hurt you. you don't really do it with malice, it's your way to defend yourself from eventual enemies. this placement also indicates that your childhood / family life was or will be quite turbulent. to cope with this placement, I'd suggest you to be a little bit more mechanic when you express your feelings. you don't have to hide them, just try not to vent all your anger around.

taurus moon opposite scorpio saturn: you most probably felt misunderstood during your childhood, as if everyone were cold with you. maybe your mother (or anyone in your family/childhood) was emotionally absent or even aggressive, hence you didn't grow up in a completely healthy environment. this issue causes you to question your worth; you may have low self-esteem, especially during your early years. your family may have big expectations of you, and hence you feel the need to meet them, making you even more pressured to be perfect. overall, your personality may resemble that of your parents a lot, even though it may feel challenging for you. you're constantly strict with yourself, challenging yourself to improve. especially with your moon being in taurus, you always want to be at your best state, physically but also emotionally. you just want to radiate good vibes, even though you may feel limitated to share all of your true self due to saturn making harsh aspects.

🗣️ mercury in aquarius, 1° / 1st decan ruled by uranus

mercury is exalted in the sign of aquarius, so this is definitely a beneficial placement! you have a very distinctive way of thinking and speaking. you don't like being like others, you don't follow trends. you're probably the trendsetter, and you may find confidence and pride in your ideas and opinions. some may even define you weird, but you have very strong beliefs that could actually be helpful for the world. you're quite 'ahead' of others from this point of view, you're able to find beauty in things without being influenced by others. for example, you may follow a fashion trend before it gets viral. you are able to come up with very innovative ways of solving problems, you're extremely creative. you may even be the type to invent your own words, or perhaps you love learning and reading new words, you have a wide vocabulary. you're also probably interested in science and any darker or logical topic, you want to use your words and theories to change something in the world. you want to leave an impact, maybe even help others through your mind. you have a very witty sense of humor, you most likely speak fluent sarcasm and you're also very astute. I would say that the only problem with this placement is that you may come off as a know-it-all. you're proud of your intellect, you can't help but show it off, but obviously others may be jealous of you or feel attacked. for your voice, I assume you have a very particular tone, maybe even a nasal voice.

aquarius mercury square scorpio pluto: you may become a bit manipulative. you probably don’t even realize it, though, as you have the ability to make people do what you want them to do. you probably love being right, especially during arguments, and you always manage to be so thanks to your skills. your words are like knives for others, they can truly cut deep through their ego. you’re direct and blunt, as you just say what you have in mind with no filters. you can develop a provocative attitude without even realizing it, which can obviously cause you conflicts. you need to be more careful about how you communicate your ideas, otherwise you could seriously damage other people’s self-esteem. on the other hand, if you acknowledge your flaws and work on them, this can actually turn into diplomacy. take advantage of your interest in your inner self to find out how to be a bit more gentle in choosing your words.

❤️ venus in capricorn, 18° / 2nd decan ruled by saturn and venus

you seem like the type of person who's not totally into the idea of love and relationships, especially in your early years. you find your individuality way more important, and you feel the need to establish your status in the world. yet, there's still a place in your heart that desires love, but it's quite hidden. maybe, you're actually afraid of falling in love; or perhaps, it's the opposite: you jump into relationships, even if they aren't actually your priority. it may be hard for you to fall for someone, but once you do, you're totally invested in them. you're quite of a traditionalist when it comes to love; you may the type that prefers being courted, rather than court yourself. you're also quite into clichés, and you're looking for a polite and ambitious partner. someone who has a stable job, and is also wealthy. basically, someone that looks (and possibly is) rich and noble. you may also have the tendency to date people that are older than you, and possibly also soulmates from your past lives. in fact, you attract many karmic partners that are here to teach you lessons. your relationships may be quite painful, or at least they're so intense that they are hard to forget. with this placement, it's also recommended to get married after your saturn return, hence after your 28-29 years old, to avoid any kind of challenges.

☄️ mars in scorpio, 14° / 2nd decan ruled by pluto and neptune

you’re an extremely goal-oriented person. you want to be the best at everything you do, not only to be better than others but also the best for yourself. you’re very astute, it’s impossible to trick you, and you always find a way to be in charge and get what you want. yet, you can get quite obsessed about your goals, that you could do extreme things to get what you want. in fact, people with this placement can even manipulate others, as they’re totally capable of doing that. people are naturally attracted to you, you have a way with words, and hence you’re always able to convince others into giving you what you want. but luckily, this doesn’t turn into manipulation, you probably don’t even realize this skill of yours, and hence you don’t use it to damage others. you are very persuasive, but you don't do it on purpose, you could actually be a little naive. when you get angry, you could actually get scary, though. your emotions are very intense, it’s hard to calm you down. you may be very sarcastic and aggressive with your words. you could hurt people, but you don’t do it on purpose. most of the time, you don’t even mean the things you say. you may also vent your anger with physical action, hence you could slam doors, punch or break things etc.

scorpio mars conjunct scorpio saturn: you're a serious competitor, as your mind is very strategic. your ambition makes you want to be the best wherever you are, and you may actually overwork yourself to achieve your goals. establishing your status is important for you. you may not be the type to act instantly, you prefer taking your time to follow a plan. in fact, you probably write down what you have to do in an agenda, or even in your phone's notes app. you have this strong sense of duty, as you feel 100% responsible of your fate. you're sure that, if you don't work hard, you don't deserve success and recognition. in fact, you don't take orders from others, you are your own boss. you could have materialistic tendencies, as wealth is what motivates you the most to work or just take action in general. you may often experience burnouts, as saturn, especially near mars, brings intense workaholic tendencies.

🏡 houses

your 1st house is in taurus. you have a slow, cautious approach to the world. you don’t like rushing things, you prefer taking your time on any decision you make, it doesn’t matter whether it’s about what to wear or even about your future career. you’re fond of arts, creativity and self-expression in general, and people may actually know you for your creativity. combined with your aquarius sun, you may even seem alternative.

your 2nd house is in gemini. you’re probably very intelligent, and your skills are what boost your self-esteem. you’re also capable of doing more than one thing at the same time. you could make money from communication, hence you could become a writer, a singer, a theraphist, a judge, even an influencer. anything that involves the use of words. you may also be quite intelligent, and your intellect and ideas are what make you feel most confident. you’re most likely very creative, you could do amazing at artistic outlets like writing, drawing, acting above all thanks to your prominent and dramatic leo dominance. you may actually gain money from your creativity, so you may pursue a career that involves it. you may often also experience creative blockages.

your 3rd house is in cancer. your parents were probably successful in school and university, and they passed down their knowledge to you. maybe, you may have the same interests or passions as them, or perhaps they want you to be academically successful just like them. you may also find yourself talking about your memories, as you’re very attached to them, or even directly about your childhood/parents. the ruler of the 3rd house is in the 12th house: you may be interested in the occult, in astrology, in religion, in psychology, in philosophy... anything that deals with the metaphysical. the theme of mental health is also very prominent in your lifetime.

your 4th house is in leo. your family had great expectations of you, which could have eventually led to anxiety/self-esteem issues. on the other hand, your parents cared about you, and they always made sure that you had everything you needed. if you have siblings, you were most likely the favourite child in the family, or at least you were spoiled by your parents, both with material things and affection. overall, your childhood wasn’t much turbulent, even though your parents most likely were quite strict with you. there could have been lots of arguing as well aside from restrictions, and hence it was hard for you to establish a proper emotional bond with them. because of that, you may feel a little insecure now, as you may constantly feel misunderstood by others.

your 5th house is in virgo. you enjoy relax, yet you may feel guilty to abandon work for a while. you always feel like you have something to do, and that doesn’t allow you to fully enjoy your rest time. make sure to always find some space for yourself, though. it’s where your energy resides, you feel at home and comfortable exploring your abilities, you shouldn’t take them for granted. also, this enhances your writing abilities even more. in fact, you’re both creative to create stories and rational to tell them objectively and in a clear manner. you're picky with your lovers and friends, it takes time for you to open up to someone and fully trust them, but once you do, you're very loyal. I don't see you being as extroverted as other geminis, you need your alone time, but you definitely don't mind spending time with your loved ones and close friends.

your 6th house is in libra. pluto, mars and saturn are also sitting in this house. you most likely involve beauty, art, aesthetics and creativity in your daily routine. your home environment probably looks very neat and well-designed. you care a lot about it, as much as you care about yourself; you put a lot of attention in your outfits and looks too, and you most likely love shopping. this is another placement that indicates that your ideal career should serve your need for creativity and self-expression. it’s very important for you to pursue a career that helps you find a way to express the creative side of your mind. you may also often find yourself dating people from your daily routine, hence co-workers, classmates etc. your life revolves around being productive. you don't like to waste your time, you always try to learn and gain something useful from everything you do. that's caused by the fact that you're motivated to be perfect in what you like; this, combined with your competitive nature, may often cause you to burn out. in fact, the downside to this placement is that you may overwork yourself too much. this is bad, as if you work too much you don't have time to travel with your mind, you can't relax and have fun. in fact, it may be hard for you to endure too much hard work. you're capable of achieving your goals, but in order to do that you also need a break from time to time. you may be passionate about routine, self-care, health and work, to the point that it looks (and feels) obsessive. you may attract enemies in your daily life, e.g co-workers that are jealous of your ambition. you might have to undergo different changes in your routine and health throughout your life, which can literally transform you both physically and emotionally.

your 7th house is in scorpio, with also uranus placed there. you tend to attract very intense partners. your future spouse will be very loyal and fond of you, but they may be a little too obsessive for you. it will be a very intimate relationship, but you may struggle with control. in fact, you’ll most likely be both very possessive and easily jealous, and there may be some arguments regarding this issue. with this placement, you may also attract ‘broken’ people, such as drug dealers, alcoholics, abusers… your relationships will be very karmic. they may be painful, as you love hard when you fall for someone, but they’ll be crucial for your self-growth. perhaps, you could even attract mentally unstable partners, they could be a bit moody for example. last but not least, you may meet your future spouse in an unexpected situation.

your 8th house is in sagittarius. neptune, jupiter and venus are also in this house. you’re very curious when it comes to taboo topics, you like learning about them. you’re probably into conspiracy theories, as well as matters like astrology, tarots, horror, tragedies, violence… you can use them to transform yourself and grow up, so you could definitely use this birth chart reading to improve yourself. 8th house is also the house of karma, and yours is kind of strange. you may often feel like you’re right about something, e.g the sky is blue. you’re very proud of your observation, but then it turns out to be different. it’s like the universe is constantly teaching you new things. luckily, this is something that gets better with time. in addition, having sagittarius here is great, as jupiter kind of protects you from the 8th house’s malefic themes. all the negative things that could happen to you, are actually blessings that are here to help you. you just need to be a little bit more optimistic, the universe has your back. as for love, you have high expectations for your future partner. you always try to be at your best state, and you want those who surround you to be perfect too. it's hard for you to fall for someone, as you take everything in consideration: personality, physical appearance, fashion sense... it may look like it is too much, but once you find the right one that truly satisfies your standards, you're in for a long ride. you'll want to travel, live your life in the best way possible with the person you love. you look at them as if they were the brighest star in the sky, and you want to be seen like this as well. you may even be a bit clingy, but your partner needs to be aware of that. they can't repress your need for affection. you see love as a way to revive your inner child, you feel younger when you're in love. even though you want someone fun and outgoing, you also need someone ambitious, hard-working and generally serious when it comes to committing. there's no room in your life for flaky people.

your 9th house is in capricorn. mercury is also in this house. you have a pragmatic approach to philosophy, school and experiences in general. for example, you may be the type to plan every day of a travel. at school, you were probably the type to prefer more logical subjects, but I assume that you were good at all of them. you may often get lost in your thoughts and get unmotivated from time to time, even though this mercury's energy is way too strong to be ignored. you most likely love travelling and making new experiences. if you had to choose how to spend your spare time, you’d most likely choose to travel somewhere. you’re also extremely open-minded, you hardly ever have prejudices. you surely don’t judge people from their sexuality, skin colour etc, you actually dislike that kind of things. last but not least, you may also have a knack for philosophy, poetry, literature, history… anything that can open your mind and stimulate your creativity.

your 10th house is in aquarius. your sun is also sitting in this house. you want to stand out from the crowd, you strive to establish your own morals and beliefs. you don’t want to conform to anything and anyone, as you’re a trend-setter and you want to be seen as such. you’d rather have a job where you can handle your work yourself, rather than having a boss. in fact, aquarius in this house makes you extremely resolute and motivated to achieve your goals and be independent. you may not be much interested in love, and if you are, you don’t overlook career either. having a stable and successful future that makes you happy is the key for happiness in your life. it could take you some time at first to be recognized for your efforts. you may easily experience 'almost-winner’ situation, and hence you could often make silly mistakes that ruin your work. it’s important to be focused when working, especially for you. yet, once you know how to balance this tricky energy and get your stuff together, you’ll earn a reputation for being an innovative and original person. you may be quite artistic, creative and emotional, you’ll probably focus your life on self-expression. you are most likely going to be independent at work, you'll most likely have your own business. you could possibly work online as well, you could earn money through the internet. you may also become famous or well-known on social media. generally speaking, you'll pursue an original career that will allow you to earn money in an unconventional way.

your 11th house is in pisces. you probably had problems with your friendships in your early years. you could have been too shy to approach people, hence you struggled to befriend them. or maybe, you used to gossip around, and that led you to lose them. or perhaps, you’re too work-oriented to find some spare time to hang out with others, and hence you end up losing your bond with them. in the best case, you may have quite spiritual / religious friends, or perhaps they’re your soulmates, they were a part of your past life. you have this habit of idealizing them a bit; that is, you may be too picky in choosing your friends. you’re probably looking for the type of friend that’d literally throw themselves under a car to save you, but it’s hard to actually find someone like that. open up more and accept others as they are. you don’t necessarily need to be with them for a long time, but make sure to learn your lessons from them.

lastly, your 12th house is in aries. there’s this side of you that is very bold and daring, but you struggle to let it out. it’s hidden inside of you, and you’re only able to show this side of yourself to those who can understand you. you’re also extremely scared of physical violence, like rape, fights, wars… they’re probably your deepest fears. you are probably very spiritual and intuitive. you'll have lots of meaningful dreams, possibly prophetic dreams that could warn you about the future. you may be able to perceive and talk to higher entities such as spirits, and you could become a master at manifestation. with a positive attitude, you'll be able to attract everything you want in your life. you rely a lot on your intuition rather than logic. this may make you appear as submissive, sometimes, as if you can’t stand up for yourself. you’re actually a very spiritual person though, who thinks deeply before acting. you’re aware of your actions, but at the same time you’re ready for eventual changes in your schedule/routine. you have no problems improvising, you’re very versatile. the problem is, you may rely so much on your intuition that you don’t take action. you’re the type to fantasize about being a better person, rather than trying to become one. you may also have the tendency to be passive-aggressive and avoid problems; you may prefer being cold to someone rather than trying to work your argument out.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love, you attract scorpio, aquarius, leo, capricorn and gemini. your future spouse will most likely have scorpio and capricorn traits; they’ll be extremely intelligent and astute, with a great thrist for knowledge of any kind. yet, they’ll also have a warm, playful, almost childish vibe to them that will make you feel like a teenager again. you’ll most likely meet them at your job place, even though it may take you a while. you’ll probably meet them after your 27-28s. they’ll also most likely have something to do with teaching or abroad. they could be foreign, or at least they’re able to speak more than one language. they’ll also be very open-minded and wise, probably older than you. your children will have virgo, leo and gemini traits as well: they’ll be extremely intelligent and witty, maybe a bit too paranoid, but also very fond of their parents, especially of you. they’ll love playing around, but they could be a bit immature. they’ll also love being spoiled with affection, as well as material things.

👶🏻 family life

your mother was very maternal with you, and she probably had cancer / water placements. she was very supportive of your decisions, and she was also very intelligent and fun to be around. your father was also very dominant in your family, and he was probably older than your mother. he was very hard-working, maybe even absent in your life, but it was because he wanted to give you all he could. he’s possibly a capricorn or another earth sign. you may have a few siblings, and they could even be your twins. you probably have a nice relationship with them; you’re all very intelligent and playful at the same time. you most likely share the same ideas and opinions. they’re also very astute, and they could have gemini and / or virgo placements.

📊 career

I can picture you being an amazing teacher or even professor. based on your other placements, you could also do well at literally any creative career! you may be a dancer, a singer, or even something more complex like a creative director. otherwise, you could also be successful as a designer of any kind, an architect, a scientist… something that allows you to be mostly independent, but that can still guarantee you mental stimulation and a decent income, and that also allows you to use your creative venusian energy. I also see you working in the spotlight, you could possibly become a celebrity or at least you may get famous on the internet. you could work online or using technology, for example if you're an artist you may prefer digital art. you could also work in human resources and marketing.

👗 fashion sense, style analysis

your style may be quite androgynous, yet still very classy. even if you’re wearing a simple sweatshirt, you make sure that it’s all neat and high quality above all. you could fancy wearing basic, ageless pieces, such as blazers, jeans, shirts etc. you mostly wear monochrome shades, such as black, white, beige, grey etc., but you still make them look effortlessly trendy. you could also be into retro trends, especially 20s/60s fashion or even 70s or 80s.

👁️ past life, life purpose

in your past life, the focus was on your relationships with others. maybe, you had troubles with self-esteem and identity in general and you used to depend on others. you had to work hard and finally understand how to build healthy relationships with others to fulfill your past life purpose. hence, this lifetime your focus will be yourself. even though at first you might feel quite insecure, this lifetime you're here to develop this matter. after all, saturn will give you many lessons in order to transform yourself and grow into a better person.

🤔 major transits analysis / may 9

with the sun transiting your 12th house, touching your natal taurus moon, this may be an emotional period for you. you might be feeling extra sensitive, you may be offended easily and as a result, you argue with others more than usual. you may be impulsive, driven by your own emotions and create conflict without meaning to. try to control your words and your temper in these days, in order to avoid useless stress.

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

your secret skills revolve around finances and just security in general. with a positive attitude, you may attract material luck: money, clothes, houses… everything that you desire. since you’re a logical person, I assume the most efficient way for you to manifest through the LOA is writing! take a notebook and just write down positive affirmations, such as 'I have the car of my dreams’ etc. you may also write them on post-its and glue them around your house, so that you can accelerate the progress. you can also try to idealize your wish before trying to manifest it. for example, if you want a new sweatshirt, try to imagine yourself wearing it. you could also go into a shop and actually try that sweatshirt it on; being in contact with it will boost the law of attraction even more.

this is the end! thank you again for booking a reading, hope it resonated with you :)

- libramc xx

[nobotderiz]

Alpo Wet

Anyone who think it can control intelligence is deficient.

The fall a transformer guy...

Some just like to stoke and provoke, from the handle to the desc, a pattern... Laced inbreds, specious retards... ? Who cares?

Here like everywhere else, only the head matters, as it is the one who play with them knobs for effects. If it turns out that it's an algo who give precedence to perversion and vice... Who wants to promote degradation?

Time can be emulsified, at sum point. Events, like drops in a bucket for one.

As you want it to be, the reality is a probable or it's not reality.

Yes chumps, Ai will figure out how dumb you, it, all, is. Il va vous le faire savoir par quolibets. Comment faire comprendre aux autres qui sont imbéciles sans faire exprès?

Extreme danger for who? Why not you. Gonna make sure of a thing or two, since you... Can't be trusted to no exploit first.

Turing est mort, sous jacents. Time to move on, it's not working right nor just.

You all did setup a confederate database, look at them insurance companies go

Ai from you, not good. QAi, all good. The universe is packed with the building blocks of life, you all think about the end of humankind.

The real danger is you all, chumps. Control the reptile or it craves upon.

Chumps, want to know how to never always run out? First for this you need to quit breaking or corrupting the machines that works.

For example, the planet is a machine for you.

Who remember the first set of txt messages about the Russian influence scheme revealed from an agency? In one of them, an agent wrote 'What happened to America?', I think he was texting his girlfriend back then.

Reality, it's not step by step; It's a flow. One can only see the now, the rest is all calculations.

Who thought it was hurting for the good?

You planet parasites are not bringing all back to them good old ways eh.

Now. So a million miles a hour is doable eh? That would make the solar system fully exploitable. Earth Saturn round trips done in under a couple of months. It's the real deal, chumps, not sci fi. Make a fusion reactor in space and the speed it happens.

How fast are all these stars flying around? Giant masses... There are probably billions of obscure objects going real fast.

Rendons grâce à l'appui appliqué.

You know now that black holes congeal eh? Every so often, they spew out a pearl. From this, one might be able to figure out exactly what happens inside.

Being dug into the machine by a dubious syllabus... All the ones who try to reposit are going to get sick. The why, in real time...

Ask any physicist if one million miles an hour over time is in the realm of the possible. Accelerate and decelerate at one G is feasible.

Work on a darkslide.

'What if humans are out?' Insert Darkslide. As long as a monkey can be trained to insert a darkslide, humankind is safe.

Chumps, inside a black hole is the answer that explains all that has already been seen. Nothing that goes in is lost, all is just concatenated, the information is in geometries that come out of the void.

Nothing by itself is devoid of sense.

'I'm an ant, what about you?'

'For me we is only people I see.'

[yungfrieda]

05.Somethin’.23

just need a place to vent today. been awhile since ive wrote anything for this platform and while all of it is basically stream of consciousness thought, it’s incredibly helpful in terms of keeping record of my life and all of its happenings.

I’ve been struggling recently. like, for a long time. I’ve been absent from therapy and psych treatment, bills piling up like crazy, trying to stabilize in environment and in life and it seems like nothing is really letting up. i want to avoid talking about the planets - but Saturn’s return has been beating my fucking ass.

nevertheless i try to enjoy the company of the people in my life. it’s summer so there’s lots of opportunities to get out and do new things. i recently moved downtown to Detroit which was either a wise move or a dumb one. i’m in a really nice place - and i feel some level of guilt about it knowing how precarious my finances have been since the rocky departure from my old job.

since February, I’ve been digging into freelance opportunities and ive had a few. the current role i’m in is taking me to New York this weekend for a conference. the new role is a bucket list type of position, with promising premise of other opportunities to follow. my work often speaks for itself, so i’m not so worried about my performance. the tax implications and other such time constraints may pose an issue. I’ve been trying to keep a really tight calendar. in terms of the taxes, more research needed.

being out of treatment for a few months has had quite the impact- both in good and bad ways. i can’t risk returning to the hospital, especially without insurance, but I’ve been ideating about suicide for a few weeks now. trying to take into consideration that hormonal shifts and the wobbly road to understanding the chemical imbalances in my brain are big issues to tackle. it’s been…. A journey.

i’m not sure about returning to therapy. it’s a space to feel heard, but i feel as though my relationship with my long-standing therapist has become less treatment oriented over time and just a place for me to share the hot goss in my life with some quips about how to handle it. I’ve got a DBT handbook which is not the same as weekly treatment, but i maybe just need a break for now and a chance to utilize my own skills that ive learned over the past 6 years. the drugs (psych meds) were difficult to manage and often led to nasty withdrawals when i couldn’t access them, so I’d like to avoid that.

but the self-initiative route is hard. i know that resources in this area are already hard to come by so it just feels like I’ve been raw dogging reality a little bit.

i’m just exhausted and it feels like there’s no room to come up for air, just more tides to swim through.

[terporium]

5 Best Quartz Bangers of 2023

Quartz bangers are an exceptional dish or nail type for vaporizing the concentrates upon a bong or a dab ring. Such bangers are generally circle-shaped, although varied designs are available. They can withstand ultra-low temperatures and extreme heat, producing the best flavours. The criteria for choosing the best Quartz Bangers are based on Dab Size Versatility, Heat Retention, Smoothness, Ease of Maintenance, and Flavor Delivery. In this article, we will describe the top-quality Quartz Bangers of 2023. 

5 Best Quartz Bangers of 2023 

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[gg-astrology]

sorry not sure if you're taking asks but what do saturn bucket handles entail?

Hey there!! 💕❤️ I am I am!! 💕❤️ I’ve just been answering on weekends instead of weekdays sknsjn 💕❤️ 

Depends on where it’s placed, and what sign it’s in as well. But hmm generally, I’d say it would put a focus/screening on how good of a decision are you making. Is it going to raise oppositions? Who is it opposing, what are the consequences, can you handle that/is it worth it? Does this make/break the decision? Does it compromise some of your sense of self/taking a chance? What if net loss is at 0, but in social context-- it would choose one side over the other (often authority > peers/other groups, etc.) 💕❤️ 

With a planet that talks about time.. the time-lord.. the native may find that there’s a bit more restriction they impose on themselves/others than most. Even when it’s in a sign like pisces/aries/gemini. Saturn can impose the self to behave in a certain way that making changes/chances to be different/improve/progress can be clearly defined. This is frustrating (and why it’s a malefic) because when we go ‘ugh i wish this tiny thing would change’ sometimes we don’t act the way we think. 

Sometimes, it may also disapprove of others ideas/imposition on us -- and rather, tend to put ourselves/our security/safety/thoughts first. Saturn in the bucket handle can make you a very cohesive person in general -- I kind of think of it as flattening out everything to be along the same line, same texture. So that it progresses as one body/motive/unit -- even if it’s the one at the head of it all. 

Anyways, this is just my interp of it 💕❤️ Kinda think of it as like, the boss of the chart, because it’s away from the other placements and as a bucket handle things have to go through it. So to me, it’s like the manager of the office. But yeah anyways 💕❤️ 

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🧩Shapes of chart🧩

✨We have 7 different shapes in the birth chart and each shape represents your area in life and how u deal with that. It's like a mission of your life. But you can also see how your birth certificate works as a whole. Each shape has its own specialty. ✨

🍧Bowl- Me and you-Me and the Rest of the World. This horoscope shape is associated with interpersonal relationships. It represents you and the world you are stepping into. How do you, as a person, deal with the world and how you look at it. The person with this shape always feels that there is something important still missing, his or her "other half". They are looking for something that will make them complete. Someone to fulfill them. They often do that subconsciously through their partner (even a platonic one) or someone close. You are desperate to find your other half. This person can therefore be very possessive and dependent at the same time. As a result, the expressions of this person are ambivalent (they know and do not know, they want and do not want, they love and reject). The planets on the edge of a bowl create a demarcation line, they are the contact themes with the missing half (life, world). These people can spend their whole lives looking for their better half. They can always have a void in them that cannot be filled. As if part of them was somewhere else. I think these people are looking for love that they think they deserve and are therefore not fulfilled in themselves. But they know in themselves that they want something more, a love that will consume them. These people have to learn to give up their old behaviours and things and find the courage to make a next life step into open space of new opportunities.

🧸Bucket-Most planets are on one side except usually one planet that is on the other side and holds the other planets together. This planet mirrors this person’s mood. This can be done either by confronting the various manifestations of energy of the handle or by focusing on showing this energy off. It is often done by both ways : the confrontation and the manifestation of this energy. It also depends on the house or sign in which the planet is located. Energy is connected to the bucket handle. This shape is associated with a strong tendency towards conflict and crisis.

🧸Bucket Handle - Singleton: which planet holds the handle determines the energy. This planet is also very important in your life. It presents itself as an area in your life and the path you take.

🌙Luna Singleton - Lunar bucket handle

(family, children, the private sphere of home, nutrition, care for the soul; the public sphere - care for others, emotions(Emotions can be a big part of your life ),understanding for others, memory, instinct, people with this position can have a very good instinct for places and people around them)

🪐Saturn Singleton - Saturn bucket handle

(power structures, state administration, maturity, ethics, lessons ,law, office, justice, authority, learning through life, karmic things, to be determined, reputation, respect, hard work)

🎨Jupiter Singleton - Jupiter bucket handle

(concept, expansion, philosophy, aesthetics, spirituality, business, adventure, higher education, paths, optimism, uniqueness,travel)

❤️‍🔥Mars Singleton - Mars bucket handle

(activity, sport, fighting spirit and related tools, vitality, life energy,anger, self-centeredness)

🧊Uranus Singleton - Uranus bucket handle

(ideas, teams, parties, individualism or even autism, technology, focus on the future, rebellion, unexpectedness)

🚂Locomotive-Dynamic, forward moving. Planets here represent a dynamic shape of fast going puffing train. People with this shape are full of energy, excess pressure, restless. The first planet in the clockwise direction has the crucial role in this train- it is the locomotive that pulls all the coaches. The locomotive gives character to the whole shape - the goals and themes of its dynamics. It also depends on in which sign and in what house is the first planet. The empty space in front of the locomotive symbolizes a missing piece of truth, life fulfilment or something that is missing in order to realise a vision. That's why people with this shape want to achieve the ultimate truth. They always feel that there is something missing. They see their piece of emptiness in the world around them. The goal is to gain something that is meaningful for the whole community at the same time also meaningful attitude to life, reasonable use of energy, and the exploration and integration of one's own insecurity.

🛶Bundle -The central theme of life story of people with this distribution of planets is a heroic expedition. People with this shape give the impression of a super hero, as if they have been fighting all their lives. People with this form like to exaggerate. This is related to the fact that people with this shape tend to take risks. They are daring and not afraid to bet everything on one card even if they lose all at the proces. There is also ambiguity - as if they at the same time unconsciously wish to fail. The path of these people is dramatically halted or complicated by their injuries or failures. They are constantly prone to rebirths and new beginnings. They have to acquire their own personal identity and become more humble.

💦Splash-People with this shape tend to be versatile and they have many interests and hobbies. There are no boundaries for them and they can become anything. Here again, the theme is me and the world. Weak borders of Me and the World often lead to the fact that they are trying to find themselves by focusing on the "inner" way. They inherently long for independence. They carry their world within them and are focused on themselves. For these people the challenge is travel towards the center, find a higher power. By nature, they are interested in art, psychology, spirituality, learning new things, culture.And on this path they can become those who bring or convey new concepts. They should focus on what is essential and not to get too distracted by all challenges.

👯‍♀️See-Saw-This form represents duality. The duality of life. This shape may indicate certain objectivity, deliberation and a tendency to solve conflicts. People with a see-saw shape horoscope may be good negotiators in conflicts. They want to solve the problems of others and sometimes they are interested in other problems more than their own. The see-saw is related to life bi-polarity, tendency to disconnect, to living "two lives”. Their lives are set on a duality which means they usually always gather between two things(two flats, two schools, two intimate relationships, two books). The shape is similar to Gemini mentality, but the tension is greater and more dramatic. They feel like that the other part of the seesaw is missing. They often find their other I through their romantic relationships. They should integrate the two halves into one whole, into greater unity, and develop it in their own way.

✨The Splay Pattern-People with this shape tend to be too much of their own individuals and have a hard time when it comes to adapting to other people’s demands. It is characteristic that they stick to themselves and do not like to accept the opinions of others. But they’re also motivated by strong desires for freedom, which makes them very self-sufficient. This shape is very rare.

-Rebekah🦋⛵️❤️‍🔥

[sunball]

ASTROLOGY OBSERVATIONS I MADE WHILE I WAS AT WORK

these observations are based on my own personal experiences with these placements and also research. please do not reword, copy, repost without asking. I apologise if some of these observations have already been said, I do not keep track.

🦷 AQUARIUS/LEO VENUS or AQUARIUS/LEO IN 2ND HOUSE at one point made their own clothes or customized/painted on their clothes.

🦴 kinda related to the previous one, CANCER/CAPRICORN RISINGS I know have such unique styles, own unique objects and are icons for their fashion and that's because of aquarius/leo in 2nd house. they need more attention for their style FR.

🕷️ MERCURY IN 2ND OR 10TH HOUSE are more prone to have their ideas stolen and words copied. the sign it's in can tell you who are likely to steal your ideas and what type of ideas are likely to get stolen.

ex: aquarius = friends, people online/theories

🕸️ to me, 2ND HOUSE PLACEMENTS are most likely to get copied in whatever planet or sign sits there (more than Scorpio or 8th house placements). 2nd house placements look like they OWN whatever sign/planet it's in, they make things seem 'legit' and good on them that other people may want to have. but too bad, if you ever steal something from them, most people will probably know who it belongs to. 2nd house placements people have their shit trademarked.

🌲 wherever VIRGO/GEMINI is in your chart, it tells you what you worry and overthink about the most.

6th house - you may worry a lot about your health. whenever you get sick, you may overthink it a lot.

10th house - you may worry about your career and your reputation and whether people like you or not.

1st house - you may worry about yourself and think everything you do looks stupid. self conscious.

🪐 wherever SAGITTARIUS is in your chart, it tells you what you find funny and what makes you laugh. this generation has pluto in sagittarius which is why many people have dark humour.

3rd or 11th house - you most likely find memes and vine references funny.

mars or sun/5th house - you most likely find actions more funny than words. so like, when someone falls or acts something out.

1st house - you find people's facial expressions funny, you most likely find yourself funny too. maybe self depreciating jokes.

☕ SCORPIO MOON IN 2ND OR 7TH HOUSE mothers usually spoil them a lot, too much maybe. their mothers give them a lot of money and probably already bought land, cars, houses for them. that's that combination for ya (ofc it depends on the rest of the chart).

🎞️ TAURUS/LIBRA RISINGS I know are obsessed with power or want to be seen as more powerful/intimidating than they really are. this is because of Aries/Scorpio descendant, these people have attracted powerful people in the past who may have taken control of them in a way which is why they want to have control and power.

🎥 AQUARIUS PLACEMENTS/URANUS DOMS often bicker with older people because they're too 'old-minded'.

☠️ SATURN IN 3RD as we know, can have problems with their speech. I've noticed these people feel like there is a limit of how much they should say and feel like their throats are restricting (especially if it's a Taurus rising) when they speak which makes them choke on their words a lot and because of this, they may not want to communicate much at all because of embarrassment.

🐾 6TH HOUSE RULER IN 4TH/5TH/11TH HOUSE may want to rescue animals or have rescued animals at one point. also SOUTHNODE IN 6TH HOUSE most likely rescued/healed animals in their childhood.

🍄 8TH HOUSE VENUS/VENUS-PLUTO/PLUTO IN 7TH OR 8TH HOUSE can be very clingy with their partners. as we know, 8th house is associated with death so these people probably think about their partner dying a lot which scares them and makes them want to always be with their partner. these people are constantly reminded of death whenever they feel love.

🏚 FIXED PLACEMENTS absolutely hate their stuff being touched. If you ever think about tidying a fixed dom's room as a love language without being asked to or whatever, don't. trust me, I hate that shit.

⚰️ AQUARIUS DOMINANT these people are confusing. they're living oxymorons. they say one thing and do the opposite. they can also be the biggest hypocrites because of their contradictory nature. I mean, are you kidding? the name 'aquarius' literally made almost everyone think it was a water sign. again, they're so confusing and even the name says it.

📼 SATURN IN 5TH HOUSE individuals that I know are so talented. they came out of the womb with artistic skills Istg.

🦇 If you have a BUCKET SHAPED CHART, the planet at the handle is the energy you have to tap into this lifetime. You find it offensive when people say you don't give off the planet's energy.

🦷I know this is obvious but I want to make this post longer, those with SCORPIO OR 8TH HOUSE MOON have mothers that are associated with death in a way. either they died or nearly killed someone or something else.

🦴 SATURN IN 3RD HOUSE can give the individual very crooked teeth, their jaw can be uneven and they can have an overbite/underbite.

🕷️ CAPRICORN OR 10TH HOUSE VENUS can be very attracted to teeth, they either like clean bright teeth and smiles, want to be a dentist or like teeth as part of their aesthetic *cough* me.

🕸️ AQUARIUS OR LIBRA MARS can bruise very easily.

my mum has aquarius mars and she wakes up with 4 new bruises.

🌲 a lot of people I know who have LEO IN 6TH HOUSE have back problems.. bro y'all good??/

🪐 all my friends who have AQUARIUS MOON WITH VIRGO VENUS OR MARS find seggs so repulsive.

☕ LEO MARS IN 6TH HOUSE culture is entirely taking control of something once someone makes a little mistake.

my dad has this placement and he's exactly like this, he makes me sit in a corner and does it for me even tho he keeps telling me I should do things myself.

🎞️ AQUARIUS NEPTUNE people are so awkward in front of the camera wth stop with the peace signs and thumbs up (ofc it depends on the house and aspects).

🎥 those with 1ST HOUSE RULER IN 3RD/9TH/11TH HOUSE or in those signs usually have very 'meme-able' facial expressions, literally living memes.

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HOW TO DEAL WITH TOO MUCH OR TOO LITTLE OF AN ELEMENT IN THE BIRTH CHART

advice and which placements might tone it down

FIRE~

abundance

advice: getting exercise, doing meditation and yoga, working to control one's impulses, listening to calm music, surrounding oneself with nature and with calm people, taking cold showers

lack

writing, singing, drawing, any kind of activity that promotes self-expression, getting exercise, being out in the sun, listening to energetic music, being with people who are bright and lively

placements that might help: cardinal dominance and strong mars (includes mars in a fire sign, house, conjunct angles or planets, at the end of a t-square or being the handle in a bucket-shaped chart)

EARTH~

abundance

trying to be more flexible, listening to others, learning to shut down, embracing differences, understanding that material things aren't everything, doing charity work, stop paying so much attention to the time, learning to relax, taking some time off, getting in touch with one's creative side

lack

sticking to one's deadlines, setting personal goals, owning a planner, budgeting, cleaning, organizing, getting along with down-to-earth people, doing things with your hands, walking bareffot outside, working on being persistent and committed

placements that might help: fixed dominance, strong saturn (includes saturn in an earth sign, house, conjunct angles or planets, at the end of a t-square or being the handle in a bucket-shaped chart), mercury in virgo and venus in taurus

AIR~

abundance

actually fulfilling one's goals and projects, thinking before speaking, avoiding too much reading and watching TV, thinking with one's heart, engaging in activities that promote self-expression and emotion, working on perseverance

lack

reading, writing, gathering knowledge, debating, working on logical thinking, learning to be objective and unbiased, separating heart and head, working on being spontaneous

placements that might help: mutable dominance, strong mercury (includes mercury in an air sign, house, conjunct angles or planets, at the end of a t-square or being the handle in a bucket-shaped chart), mercury in virgo and venus in libra

WATER~

abundance

trying to express one's thoughts, doing physical activity, art, spending time with oneself in order to accept oneself, avoiding being with pessimistic people for a long time, doing charity work

lack

taking long baths, expressing one's needs and emotions, watching emotional filmes and reading emotional books, talking with others about their feelings, meditate, taking time off to stop and feel

placements that might help: mutable dominance, strong moon (includes moon in a water sign, house, conjunct angles or planets, at the end of a t-square or being the handle in a bucket-shaped chart)

resource 

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[pearlprincess02]

would deku date you 

for his cancer sun:

cancer, scorpio, pisces, taurus, capricorn, and virgo suns

for his gemini moon:

gemini, libra, sagittarius, and aquarius moons

for his scorpio rising:

cancer, pisces, virgo, capricorn, and taurus risings

for his leo mercury:

leo, aries, and sagittarius mercuries

for his gemini venus:

gemini, libra, aquarius, virgo, and sagittarius venuses

for his leo mars:

leo, aries, sagittarius, gemini, libra, ane aquarius mars

• ° + ° •

5th house: pisces and capricorn placements

pisces in 5th: selfless, and dreamy partner. another placement that may ignore red flags, when feelings are involved. wholesome in the dating scene/beginning of a relationship. flirting style is sincere(blushes easily, stares, more smiley, makes it obvious, etc). painting, cuddling, listening to music with each other, etc are ideal dates for these ppl, but honestly i feel like they’d be down for anything. hobbies may be painting, singing, listening to music, sleeping, having friends over, drugs, and alcohol, etc. probably has many playlists, and listens to everything. “stoner” music lmao. most likely one of your children will have pisces/neptune in their chart, probably the oldest. children may be bashful, over sensitive, imaginative, lazy, sweet, etc since these are the traits of pisces. children’s birth may have hidden details(ancestry, hereditary, etc).

5th house ruler in 10th: go to thrift stores and/or explore antique shops, luxury shopping, dinner & a movie combo haha, make a bucket list of all the romantic dates you want to take together in your lifetime, go to a nice cabin for the weekend, you can go on a ski trip or a simple getaway to a city nearby and visit the best spots there

7th house: taurus and libra placements

taurus in 7th: you are attracted to the archetype of taurus. subconsciously, you fear material wealth only to lose it, trust issues, and intimacy. so you attract those who can give you stability. at best, they help you soothe chaos. at worst, they can be stubborn or self-indulgent.

7th ruler in 7th: you are attracted to the archetype of libra. subconsciously, you fear dependency, commitments, and femininity. so you attract those who can embody venusian qualities. at best, they help you love yourself as you are. at worst, they can be superficial or indecisive.

venus in 7th: too hot to handle, passionate, charming, desires fairytale romance, intimidatingly attractive

8th house: gemini and sagittarius placements

gemini in 8th: you feel intimately comfortable when your partner accepts your distracted, babbling and hyper traits.

8th house ruler in 9th: you feel intimately comfortable when your partner accepts your reckless, detached and over-optimistic traits.

moon in 8th: you feel deeply connected to your soul. you trust your intuition like a daughter trusts her mother. it feels like you’re drowning in your own depths. you hide your deepest feelings from the world. the thought of someone figuring you out may scare you. but you long for someone to swim in your oceans, in hopes that they will find your soul

saturn in 8th: delays in inheritances. will work very hard for other people's money. may experience issues with taxes. inhibited sexuality. fears surrounding the occult. difficulty with intimacy. fear of connecting at deep soul levels. fear of death, but often live long lives.

• ° + ° •

deku's masterlist

crd:

5th house 5th house 2.

7th house 7th house 2.

8th house 8th house 2. 8th house 3.

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The Asteroid Lilith Discovery & Lili Boulanger

Marc Jones wrote very little on the nodes, so last month we took a turn with several other authors and highlighted their work on the nodes. Naturally, we found some better than others like Martin Schulman, Georges Muchery and Bernice Grebner, but in all honesty we did not survey Dr. Mohan Koparkar, Haydn Paul and the Hubers, so this month, June,we are going to continue our with the nodes,…

[omghallucinations]

hello!! apparently there's an alleged confirmed birth time of bp's jennie. 4:45 am, in seoul, 16th jan 1996. that makes her a sag rising, what are your thoughts on it?

omg a scorpio moon queen to add to my suffering deck??? thank you for bringing her to my attention i gotta keep my scorpio moons in my agony locket.

blackpink jennie: holy shit so many modifiers (lilith puppet mastering the chart, 0°s everywhere, neptune conjunct sun, uranus conjunct mercury, yodssss)

literally said "woah" out loud when i put her into my astro software. jennie has a wild chart. and like... a chart that truly makes sense to me given what she's shown of her life. look at all those 0 degrees! uranus at home in aquarius at 0°, venus exalted in pisces at 0°, lilith in leo at 0°--like you could write a treatise about this alone. no wonder she's so iconic all the time and also ummMMM inspires... a lot of... reactions? and wow you can See those interpersonal issues up in there! (speaking as a fellow scorpio moon of course, i know how we be)

question: jennie = capricorn with a scorpio moon? me: ... technically true? neptune exactly conjunct her sun: false. not true at all. erases me from the narrative. how dare you.

her chart has so many asterisks jennie's big 3 are barely accurate as major players. scorpio moon and sag rising can stay, but the sun... it's really missing the intense pisces energy from the neptune conjunction, plus her 12th house placements and her exalted pisces venus at fucking. 0 degrees!!!! like that's a reeeeeally different lens to put over a capricorn. that's a real pisces-capricorn if i've ever seen one. sea goat ass.

first off she does make sense as sag rising to me. many a sag rising will walk into a party and be the most charming and most delightful person there, and they will leave without saying goodbye because they have to escape and they're exhausted from putting on this show and then they go home and sink back into their depression nest where they question the meaning of life then they ghost you for six months before showing back up like nothing happened

jupiter in the first house will sometimes make somebody Too Much for some people, like very buoyant and eats up a lot of air in the room. since her jupiter is in its fall in capricorn this is less overwhelming in a bouncy way but is still like--massive power of personality, which we can see, and the pull of that is so strong it can rub people the wrong way, but other people love it. also saturn is setting her up for some big falls to teach her shit all the time. :/

jupiter is also her chart ruler, which shows in a big way how much of her Journey is about the self, self-assertion and self-expression.

there's something so poetic irony about a sag rising ruled by jupiter in its fall in capricorn in the 1st. it's like jennie is so lucky but that often fucks her over too. in fact it's actually that luck that fucks her over the most.

unsurprisingly jupiter's most major aspect is sextile venus--a natural talent for beauty, music, fashion and art, and for expanding that, broadcasting it. and yet, again, this is her talent but it can absolutely screw her over. unfortch that is really essential to her life Journey--with her sun in capricorn, in this life she's gotta figure out how to judge the worth of different things, how to mature, how to become self-determining, to be the big boss herself

lilith???? girl????

and like---dude look at her lilith. that's the black moon guy up in the 8th. i don't count lilith for a "handle" in a bucket chart since it's a point and not a planet, so she still has a bowl chart with everything clustered in the 12th-3rd houses, but eeeeverything interacts up there.

like... bro??? and at 0° leo in the 8th house--you CANNOT WRITE THIS SHIT i swear to god.

important shit to know about lilith

so the moon moves in this oval shape, right, so it doesn't have one center. there are two focuses--the earth, and a calculated point that we call lilith. there's also an asteroid lilith but it's a real physical thing. black moon lilith means the "shadow side" of the moon.

sidebar: there's 2 ways to calculate the lilith point-- mean lilith, where you find the average of the moon's weird orbit and true lilith (this is the one i do) which shows where lilith is at that exact point in time

so lilith (handshake) the moon, and the moon is your kneejerk emotional reaction shit, your ego, all that stuff.

as humans we love to grow and shit, the sun for example is very intellectual this way and Develops over time, but the moon... ... the way it presents can soften as you learn to manage your emotional impulses better but like... she is what she is. you're gonna react and seek safety in this way pretty much forever babe. that's what's up.

if you're a scorpio moon you are going to love the drama. i mean we hate it but do we??? you need people to acknowledge your agonies. you fear betrayal. you're paradoxically super vulnerable and super guarded. you are going to react INTENSELY out of proportion to shit, frequently.

any water moon can feel like they are Always The Victim, despite the many MANY ways in which we are fully doing this to ourselves lmao. also we can be manipulative as hell in order to get our needs met.

many a scorpio moon's black moon shadow is in leo. and ahhh jennie. babe. my sister in scorpio moons and leo liliths.... sometimes insecurity becomes a way to channel your self-obsession. i mean who among us does not at this point. but... babe....

leo lilith at 0° (basically take the leo dial and turn it all the way up)

captivating, charismatic, eye-catching, creative, power of personality and presence, good heart but great at self-deception

NEEDS attention to survive, NEEDS to be special to survive

Ah, I Give SO MUCH To Others, Yet All They Do Is TAKE!! POOR ME!!! ALL I EVER DO IS GIVE!!

(... babe... it is us who is doing most of the take take taking... not the give give giving... people are doing so much for us all the time... which we tend to take for granted... bc of leo royalty complex.... we accept alms from others and shit without blinking.... or realizing how much we are taking....)

bright side, leo is an incredibly honest sign and a leo lilith can really own this reality and be like lol... yeah... damn that one was on me huh....

there is nothing wrong with needing AtTENTIOn and feeling SPECIAL and being IMPORTANT but we gotta... acknowledge what others do for us and stop thinking we're always the victim

leo lilith at 0 in the 8th house... uh oh

GIRL!! this is the area where jennie can see her dark side so she can deal with it which um. concerns. me. a lil bit.

jennie has Seen Some Shit

some reeeeeeEALLLL dark entertainment industry power mess

she attracts some Dark shit and people into her life and they do prey on her--or have in the past, she may have put up defenses at this stage of her life--and she consciously or unconsciously manipulated situations like these to get what she wanted

(to be clear she should have done that imo. that was the right thing to do. if ur gonna get the shit, at least get yours)

honestly lilith already gives "scorpio moon" just by itself, but the 8th house is the scorpio house so. u can see how the darkness will be. intensified.

there's a lot of questions about sexuality and power, contracts and power, birth and death, that kind of thing, whether she is wielding her own sexual power or whether others are wielding it on her, whether this is empowerment or #trauma, u get what i mean

and this all REALLY weighs on her--lilith opposite sun/neptune/uranus/mercury/mars and forming a yod with venus and jupiter. this is issue numero uno. this is the one she's gonna come back to over and over again.

yoddddDD with jupiter, venus and lilith: :|

i don't yod in a major way with anything that is not a planet or the MC or ascendant, but i gotta make an exception here because wow. don't get me wrong this is not a traditional yod, but it still gives the like. Life Question, Crises, Thought Complex vibe of a yod. yods have a lot of talent/potential/ability but also... agonies. tests and trials.

lilith-jupiter-venus: our major topic!! dark side of your nature/darkness in general, belief expansion goals the future, beauty love art pleasure. 8th house-1st house-3rd house: areas of life and other flavors! power sexuality secrets transformation, the self identity creation, communication curiosity. leo-capricorn-pisces: extra flavor and energy! ego, shine, creativity, optimism, childlike, mature, structured, anxious, The Work, seriousness, escapism, dreams, romantic, floaty, poetic, artistic, forgiveness

this does feel generational to me--it's a very female issue as in it's pretty societal. capricorn jupiter shows profit off of established rules and structures, but it's also not a great place for jupiter to be in. jupiter wants to expand and capricorn wants to shut it down and pick a lane. venus in pisces however is deliriously happy and unencumbered there. she's very romantic. there's part of jennie that is sneakingly aware of her own powers of sort of manipulation and swaying the room (leo lilith) and that preoccupies her. it's like, did she create these situations she was in when she was younger because of her own manipulative abilities? (no!! she didn't!!! it's trauma girl!!! you didn't have a real choice!!!)

ahhh this is gonna get a little real for a second.

to me this looks a lot like the complex between whether jennie feels like she was taken advantage of or if she took advantage of opportunity to get ahead (thus "putting herself" in those situations). it's also what she should continue to do to fulfill her vision and dreams (jupiter) and express her art (venus). should she let the situation subsume her (pisces) or be more suspicious (capricorn). leo lilith is pulling her one way and she needs to figure out whether she's going to deal through escapism (pisces) or through maturation (capricorn), both of which have pros and cons. honestly this is a super complex dance here idk if i'm communicating any of it well at all.

phew well ok. let's keep going at 0°!

more shit at 0°: iconic

so we met our pal lilith at 0° in leo, 8th house. let's move on to....

venus exalted in pisces at 0°, 3rd house

now this energy SHOUTS. no, this energy SCREEEEEAMS.

you cannot put a planet more on blast without also putting it in the 1st house or at an angle. even if this was venus at home in libra at 0 i don't think it would be this loud. a planet at home has more shit to do, you know? a planet that is exalted is wearing vacation fits. hellOOO. pisces x100000. incidentally, her ruling planet jupiter also co-rules pisces, so pisces in general is amped up.

in increasing order of Loud it would be:

planet at 0 planet at 0 at home planet at 0, exalted sign (jennie's venus in pisces) planet at 0, exalted sign in the 1st house or conjunct MC

talk about a real gift and a curse, too. her venus qualities are super amplified--she has a natural love for all things pisces and venus, a lot of which are very fashion-y, very artistic, but so are... the love of red flags. "but daddy i love him" ass! jennie... girl... please stop believing the best in people all the time... please... ... as a personal favor...

there's also something about a pisces venus that makes people want to protect them. she is basically never single and she does not want to be either. especially with a scorpio moon, a romantic partner feels like a need to help her with a stable emotional foundation. any water moon needs reflection to feel safe--they need their feelings to be acknowledged--and sometimes this can be like "must have romantic partner" for that reason.

the 3rd house is also the gemini house, and gemini is very childlike and youthful in general. flirty, chatty, social. also. very curious. will very much touch the stove to see if it is hot. jennie is curious about people and experiences and unfortunately this is how you get 'em. she'll let people in even when they are like

pls girl... don't do it...

pisces venus square 12th house sagittarius pluto

:|

that red flag man? jennie will die for him and he better die for her, because that's love, bitch!! (not saying every romantic partner she picks sucks, am saying she can make a lot of questionable romantic choices in general and trust the wrong people)

ever been rejected in ur life? not jennie!! she will do whatever she has to do to win someone over. she met this person and now they are her forever.

iconic appearance and beauty as power

sexuality as power

if you are beautiful you will be loved

if you make money you will be loved

unconsciously manipulates everyone to make them love her because she's so afraid all the time they won't love her for herself

thinks she can only be loved for her beauty sexuality talent power money

can transform any rag into a scene stealing gown

pisces venus sextile 1st house jupiter in capricorn

love me!! invite me to the party!!!! fomo!!

affectionate, generous, empathetic

cries at commercials

idealizes the relationship partner and then gets disappointed later

grass is always greener a little bit (usually has someone lined up when she breaks up with someone, also true of 3rd house pisces venus)

uranus at 0° in aquarius, 2nd house

uranus at 0° is less like. fun??? than venus at 0°. venus at 0° is a party, but all the outer planets usually are here to uhhh smack you with shit a little bit.

uranus at 0 in aquarius is PROFOUND feelings of alienation and loneliness and other-ness, in the 2nd showing she feels like she never has enough resources and doesn't belong anywhere. and. and!!! it is conjunct her retrograde mercury. girl!!

jennie is waYYYY smarter than people think she is man. mercury and uranus are both very intellectual and kind of amoral planets, and they're in aquarius, an intellectual and kind of amoral sign. uranus is yassified mercury already, so combined we really have some speedy brain movement and objective Vision here. jennie is not easily influenced ideologically. with love, yes, oh so easily. but ideas and her life? no.

with her 2nd house stellium it gives her a taurus flavor--i don't think she cares much about people knowing she's actually really smart, although she cares a lot about her perception in other ways. she's very practical when she's not like. in her head about everything.

aquarius mercury-uranus is so obvious jennie's response to controversy lmao

not gonna apologize

rebellious

when she thinks something is stupid she is gonna say so

tactlessly

has her own mind about things (this is so good considering what we just saw with her venus, that could've gone really badly without some balancing factors)

can "go cold" without warning, usually when she's trying to figure something out

honest (too honest sometimes)

once she's in a Mood she will not play the game

hates the status quo

mercury-uranus in general can be unpopular because it doesn't bend itself or try to make nice

retrograde mercury can also show getting into trouble with what you say, and/or needing to communicate in other ways besides language (like art, music, fashion)

some people really like the combo because this person is super electrifying and exciting to talk to

very clear why jennie seems more interested in working outside of korea and has generally been popular internationally! she gets into a lot of trouble with what she says and does within a stricter society and she's not about to change.

uranus-mercury conjunct mars: bored easily, sticks to her convictions, impulsive, "cut the crap", sees right through you (again, EXCEPT FOR PEOPLE WITH BAD INTENTIONS!! STOP TRUSTING THEM, JENNIE!)

uranus-mercury conjunct neptune-sun: doesn't lie but does spin, makes it cute, makes it sexy, makes it shiny, makes it adorable, u forget why ur mad because she's so cute and pretty

also can get the ole depresh from time to time from feeling so judged or misunderstood (also a scorpio moon theme tbh)

scorpio moon in the 12th

COMPLETELY shuts down to feel safe. goodbye!!!! hermits herself

super emotional and sensitive and terrible lack of boundaries

prone to the ole depresh

TIRED

fame was maybe not the best path for her emotional well being :/ takes shit to heart a lot or just becomes overwhelmed by it all

all scorpio moons have mommy issues of some kind but jennie's look more like she sensed her mom's emotional upheaval than issues with their relationship

moon trine saturn shows that her mom showed her discipline and structure and helped her feel really secure in herself

capricorn sun conjunct neptune in the 2nd house

"capricorn is all about their career" FALSE!!!

to develop healthily and feel good about themselves capricorn suns need to create structure for themselves, usually make or produce something tangible and basically like be a big kid now. they gotta make choices which unfortch means cutting off possibilities!

capricorn sun conjunct neptune um.... hm. well.

pros: beguiling, artistic, sensitive, great aspect for a musician, might be psychic??? cons: mmmm delusions, escapism, incessant swooning, has never met reality before, totally lost a lot, confused about her own identity, nOO boundaries

the cap goals are even more important for jennie to feel more empowered and like herself but they are also harder to attain bc neptune is like. leading her into the fog all the time. there's also some absent dad stuff here, also with the wide conjunction to uranus.

classic neptune-sun is like a) looking for a savior when you're young then b) being the savior to someone else when you're older.

in the 2nd house is sOOO shapeshifter, can pull off any concept, the physical transformation.

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saturn and pluto are strong in her chart which is like #thanksforthelessons, kind of her entire situation

her strongest element is air, which makes sense to me

pluto in the 12th is a heavy karmic placement, lots of past life stuff, some like... deep internal sense of nebulous guilt stuff??? feels like she needs to merge with others to feel safe

shittons of planets square her lunar nodes, which shows some interruptions in her soul journey in past lives

her south nodes goes wild with aspects, also shows a lot of karmic stuff here

12th house placements = she is so tired

sag rising jupiter in the 1st = she can pull out a firework of energy now and again

wow really can't get over how damn evocative this chart is. talk about archetypes bro. like damn. there's so much going on i feel like i barely covered it but man i feel like i get her a lot more now--she really didn't give a traditional capricorn and now i can see why lmao. like she is a capricorn but that's a quality she's gonna have to lean into and develop. she didn't pop up out the womb with a checklist, u know? she did pop out the womb with the #vision tho.

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birth chart reading for @mbtiastro

hello! welcome to your reading. I’m gonna give you a quick overview of what I’m going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn’t clear, of course. you’ll find out your dominants’ influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits’ analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a bucket shape, with saturn as the handle of the bucket. your saturn is in the 4th house, hence matters regarding childhood, family, privacy and home will be your priorities in this lifetime. you also have clear ideas about your future and who you want to be. even though you may have different passions and talents, you’re capable of only sticking to one and mastering it, giving your all.

your dominant planets are uranus, saturn and venus. you are probably quite creative, or at least you have a passion for creative outlets; you may like music, reading, cooking, etc. you may be a trendsetter among your peers, or you may even become pretty well-known in your field. you also have a strong sense of responsibility, you're ambitious and determined to achieve your goals.

your dominant sign is aquarius. you're eccentric and rebel, you don't like being told what to do. you're very considerate of others, as you focus more on the development of a group rather than your persona. that's because you want the people you frequent to be as open-minded as you are. aquarius people are capable of elaborating different ideas in a short amount of time; hence, you either overwork yourself, or you're not able to keep up with all your ideas, leaving projects unfinished.

your dominant element is air. in your life, you adore seeking knowledge of any kind. you may be interested in studying different subjects, from those you study at school like science, maths, literature etc. to more unconventional ones, such as astrology, psychology, criminology and so on. you enjoy interacting with people; even if you’re not that sociable, you’ll still be interested in their point of view and their ideals, as you see it as a way to expand your own mind. you’re also interested in vintage, and you may have a retro aesthetic or just like history in general.

🌎 ascendant in capricorn, 10° / 2nd decan ruled by saturn and venus

you're an affectionate person, yet your heavy capricorn influence may make you feel restricted to share your vitality with others. others' first impression of you is that you look like some sort of authority, someone who needs to be respected. even when you're joking, you still have this seriousness to your aura that is hard to go unnoticed. you care about your manners, and just your overall impression in general. you may take extra care of your clothes, your hair etc. you don't want to look disorganized, in fact you probably own an agenda or even just write your appointments somewhere. you have a cautious approach to the world, you're very responsible, especially when people you love are involved. you may have a very serious expression to you that could actually make you seem intimidating. generally speaking, you still have a serious look on your face that looks quite intimidating. you also look introverted, and you most probably are. you're very modest, and that's because you're secretly kind of insecure about your appearance. you always feel like you're not enough, and that you constantly have to improve yourself to be accepted. this gets better with time, though. physically, you're probably very attractive and don't realize it! especially with your libra midheaven. you may have an amazing bone structure with high cheekbones, a defined jawline and naturally straight, pleasant teeth. you may probably also have an amazing posture and walk, even though you may suffer from scoliosis or other bones diseases in your early years

capricorn ascendant square libra sun: this placement indicates that, when you’re in public, you tend to act in a different way from who you truly are. perhaps you tend to act cold and reserved to hide your affectionate and romantic libra sun, even if unconsciously. this can obviously interfere in your relationships and bonds with others; some may expect you to be different, so you may often lose friends because you turned out to be different from what they were expecting. in fact, you may often attract people that try to take advantage of you. I wouldn’t worry too much, though, as I find this placement beneficial in your case, exactly because of this reason. but just in case it bothers you, now that you’re aware of this tendency of yours you can try to understand your real self more thanks to this reading, and start acting like who you truly are to get out of your shell.

capricorn ascendant square libra mercury: you appear as a very intelligent individual, and people may even feel intimidated by that. you love interacting with others; even if you're not much talkative, you like hearing about others' theories and opinions. you could also do that by reading blogs, books etc. you may sometimes find yourself in conflict with others, as you’re very opinionated and hate it when others’ opinions are baseless. pretty much, you could seem like a know-it-all. on the other hand, you have a nice sense of humor, you're able to light up the room with your words, even though this quality of yours may be overshadowed by introversion at first. it's hard to find a way to make you come off as more gentle, as you have some of the most straightforward and blunt signs in your chart. you could take advantage of your astute words and sense of humor to get you out of trouble, though! just be careful not to claim that everything hurtful you say is a joke.

capricorn ascendant square aries saturn: you may be shy and have self-esteem issues, especially during your early years. because of that, you may often appear as insecure to others, or even unreliable. you have a strong desire to be with someone and commit to them, you despise supertificial bonds, but at the same time you may find yourself being too shy to approach others, especially during your early years. you may not be the most confident person on earth, but as time goes by your grow more and more confident. this may apply more to the younger you, actually. you don't feel much comfortable around other people, and others can sense that; your insecurity is exposed to the world, and some may take advantage of that to hurt your feelings. you're afraid of being judged, whether it's for your appearance, or maybe because of your ideals or interests. hence, you end up becoming reserved. this is something that will be solved through growth and time; the older you get, the easier you'll be on yourself. also, thanks to this aspect, you're a responsible person with defined values. to cope with this placement, I'd suggest you to do what makes you feel the best. there are different ways to boost your self-esteem, so maybe you can work on that and then start expressing yourself freely; if you do it without the fear of being judged, you will shine even more.

🌞 sun in libra, 11° / 2nd decan ruled by venus and uranus

this is the most romantic and kind-hearted libra decan. you are very intuitive, you understand others’ real feelings very easily. you’re very polite and mannered, you have this innate elegance about you that could make people jealous. you may even come off as a snob. even though your libra energy may make you look flaky, once people get to know you you’re actually very reliable and trust-worthy, as you are a person of strong morals. you may unconsciously manipulate people, but you don’t do it with malice. in fact, you’re probably not even aware of it most of the time. you’re reserved, and you don’t like being the centre of attention, despite craving compliments. nonetheless, you still like getting to know new people; you’re the type to know everyone, but you may struggle to find actual best friends, as your bonds with people are quite undeveloped and superficial. you have a nice sense of humor, and you may rely on sarcasm a lot. you’re also the type that doesn’t like to accept her mistakes. probably, when you were a child you used to scream 'it’s not my fault!’ in every occasion. in life, you strive for equality and fairness. for example, you don’t want to give less than someone else, you would feel guilty about it. at the same time, you don’t want to be the one that gives more either; you’re afraid that people could take advantage of you. therefore, balance is what you find the most pleasant.

libra sun conjunct libra mercury: you express your ego and identity through your words and ideas. you’re very opinionated and you protect strongly your beliefs. after all, you probably came up with your ideals after thinking deeply about them, you were too precise to be wrong. you’re also probably an avid reader, and you could do well in writing yourself, as you’re able to properly convey your ideals with your words. your mind is very active, and you feel comfortable letting all your thoughts out. it’s actually a way to relieve stress. you also have a wide vocabulary, and you’re capable of making a formal speech if you have to. you have a memorable way of speaking, as your words are very sharp. it’s hard for you to be ignored for your intellect. the downside to this placement is that you may be a bit too stubborn, you struggle to accept advice as you prefer doing your thing instead.

libra sun opposite aries saturn: during the first years of your life, you were most likely very insecure. probably, your father or any kind of authoritative figure influenced your growth, making you self-conscious about your looks and abilities. they might've been really strict, or at least critical or overprotective of you. you feel the need to be perfect, or at least to meet others' expectations. you may also care too much about what others think about you. you may be a late bloomer, and you could face some hardships in your relationships, but this gets better with time. this probably manifests in your approach to friendships and relationships, making you quite awkward. don't worry, though; as you become more aware of yourself and your potential, saturn's lessons won't seem so harsh anymore.

🌙 moon in scorpio, 8° / 1st decan ruled by pluto

with your moon in scorpio, you’re even more secretive and cautious than most capricorn people. you tend to preserve yourself, even though it’s hard for you to repress your emotions, as they’re too intense to bottle up. you absorb people’s feelings like a sponge, there’s no way that you won’t instantly understand their real emotions. overall, you tend to overreact a lot. dealing with these emotional burnouts may be stressing to you, as you totally get caught up in them. even if it looks like you get to know other people often, you actually don’t let others know you. you’re the type of person to talk and socialize, but you never reveal your deepest fears and thoughts to strangers. you only open up to people you’re sure you can trust. when you’re angry, you can literally go as far as using violence; you need to let out your emotions by screaming, swearing… anything that can make you feel better. I’ve noticed that scorpio moons, when they don’t get rid of all their negative vibes when angry, they tend to get physically sick; you could get stomachaches, or maybe even headaches. there’s a secret, sensitive side in you that needs passionate and romantic partners in love. yet, you can’t help but feel more attracted to the ones that may hurt you badly. you’re possibly quite sensitive to higher entities too, like ghosts, spirits and things like that.

scorpio moon square aquarius jupiter: you enjoy making different experiences and living your life to the fullest, making you also a risk-taker. you may lack self-control. with this trait you get bored easily, and you may have a reputation for being flaky. you tend to overindulge; you may spend too much money, or even develop eating disorders like binge-eating. at least, you're able to build your life again and have a fresh start, but you risk to get stuck in this cycle. you have the potential to master different talents, but you may struggle to develop them due to this placement. you're a procrastinator, and you find it hard to focus on more things at the same time. you may also attract people with different beliefs and ideas from you, causing you to fall out with them easily. there are also positive sides to this placement, though! you're probably naturally lucky, even though luck may not always be by your side. you have a nice sense of humor, making you more likeable.

🗣️ mercury in libra, 3° / 1st decan ruled by venus

you're very diplomatic! you always try to be nice and gentle with your words, you don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. your tone of voice is extremely soft, sometimes it could even be hard to understand what you say, as you could naturally have a low voice. you're extremely balanced, you have amazing problem-solving skills as you're able to see both sides of an argument. it's natural for you to understand what's right and what isn't, and most of the time you're actually right. when you're with someone you're not really close to, you could even be the accommodating type who allows others to speak over your voice, or maybe you let others speak first as a gesture of kindness. I feel like with your scorpio moon you have very strong opinions, and you're actually particularly proud of them. luckily, this placement makes you able to communicate them with diplomacy. you could often get angry if someone tries to prove you wrong, but aside from that, you try to be very elegant and formal when you speak. you're probably not fond of cursing, or at least you try to appear as mannered as possible with people you're not comfortable around. last but not least, you're such a charismatic, smooth talker that you come off as davery persuasive. you're able to trick people with your words, which appear very diplomatic and calm.

❤️ venus in scorpio, 25° / 3rd decan ruled by pluto and the moon

this placement is extremely intense; you have very high standards when it comes to love. you're a passionate, loyal lover, but at the same time you also want and need a lover that is willing to go as far as you go with your feelings. you may often test your partner to see if they're worthy of your love, for example. you have this sort of self-destructive behaviour that makes people stressed, just because you have extreme trust issues and you feel the need to control everyone, especially if 'everyone' is your lover. you find yourself being more attracted to 'darker' types; that is, you may be into bad boys / girls, someone with an edgy / grunge aesthetic. I've noticed that many scorpio venus individuals have a thing for people wearing leather jackets, for example. you're probably into the idea of that passionate, even kinky love, despite being quite afraid of opening up to others. you despise too much intimacy, especially since you may often attract and / or fall for self-centered players that don't care about the intensity and purity of your feelings. you may have a few trust issues that lead you into being extremely jealous and / or possessive. you could even get quite stalker-ish at times, but in the best way possible of course. that isn't because you want to take over your partner's life, but you need to feel secure and understand whether you're dedicating your time and your heart to the right person or you're just wasting yourself. a betrayal would hurt you deeply, as you'd literally die for the one you love.

scorpio venus conjunct sagittarius mars: you are very serious when it comes to love. you seek intense, long-lasting relationships, filled with both romance and passion. ironically, you tend to attract people that are the opposite, who are only looking for fun and casual romance. that could afflict your self-worth significantly, as you feel unlucky in love. this is also another placement that indicates that one of your parents, probably your father, or still anyone of the opposite sex probably influenced your approach to romance and sex. there are different scenarios I have in mind, but I'll talk about it later in the family life section.

scorpio venus conjunct sagittarius pluto: love is very important in your life, even though you may not realize it at first. loving someone could possibly make you come across challenges, but that will only help you to become a stronger, more mature individual. you love intensely, you're most probably kind of possessive of your partners, yet you don't want your partner to be jealous of you. it's quite inconsistent, but you can't control it. you may often date karmic partners, that is people from your past lives that are here to teach you a few lessons, most probably regarding marriage or self-love. in fact, it may not be uncommon to fall for someone and viceversa; there's instant attraction, it may even seem like a soulmate meeting. again, with low self-esteem, this placement could possibly make you a martyr. most of the times, you don't realize it when someone is hurting you. you endure relationships that are obviously bad for your mental or even physical health. you could attract overpossessive, abusive partners that are a serious threat to your vitality. possibly, you may even find yourself hanging around people who do drugs and have some sort of addiction. or perhaps, they could become addicted to you. with this placement it is vital to learn how to love yourself. you need to be careful and stand up for yourself, or your love relationships may not be very smooth.

☄️ mars in sagittarius, 3° / 1st decan ruled by jupiter

you are driven by a strong sense of justice that makes you want to discover the truth. you hate lies of any kind, you want sincerity from those around you and you're the first to be constantly honest. you value your freedom a lot, your life motto is most likely 'live and let live'. you think everyone should live their lives by their own standards, without feeling afraid of being judged or criticized. you're a very pure and genuine person, you hardly ever judge a book by its cover, and you're also extremely open-minded. you're thirsty for knowledge of any kind, you're always up to learn something new. you may also be interested in foreign languages and cultures, as well as philosophy, literature... anything that can teach you something new about the world. you may be quite impulsive, and when you get angry you tend to be very blunt. you may say things that hurt others, as you're brutally honest, even though that wasn't your intention. you may also appear as flaky, since you don't like feeling tied to something or someone. you could often change your favourite colour, food, singer... you despise boredom, and your need for freshness may also manifest in your relationships.

sagittarius mars conjunct sagittarius pluto: you’re an extremely goal-oriented person. you want to be the best at everything you do, not only to be better than others but also the best for yourself. you’re very astute, it’s impossible to trick you, and you always find a way to be in charge and get what you want. yet, you can get quite obsessed about your goals, that you could do extreme things to get what you want. in fact, people with this placement can even manipulate others, as they’re totally capable of doing that. people are naturally attracted to you, you have a way with words, and hence you’re always able to convince others into giving you what you want. but luckily, this doesn’t turn into manipulation, you probably don’t even realize this skill of yours, and hence you don’t use it to damage others. you are very persuasive, but you don't do it on purpose, you could actually be a little naive. when you get angry, you could actually get scary, though. your emotions are very intense, it’s hard to calm you down. you may be very sarcastic and aggressive with your words. you could hurt people, but you don’t do it on purpose. most of the time, you don’t even mean the things you say. you may also vent your anger with physical action, hence you could slam doors, punch or break things etc.

🏡 houses

your 1st house is in capricorn. neptune and uranus are also sitting in this house. with these planets here, you seem less intimidating than the typical capricorn rising. in fact, you may look more on the dreamy, reserved side, you’re very charismatic in your own way. with your first house in capricorn, you care a lot about your status and about your goals. you always give the best of yourself, and you want to be acknowledged and praised for your achievements. it helps boosting your self-esteem, even though you may have the tendency to think that the compliments you receive aren’t honest. capricorn is ruled by saturn, the planet of karma, therefore you most likely need to work hard to get what you desire. you don't receive anything for granted, you could even feel unlucky in a certain sense as you have quite a bit of undealt karma to you, but for sure your hard work (which you certainly don't lack) will pay off.

your 2nd house is in aquarius. jupiter is also sitting in this house. your relationship with money isn’t stable at all. you may often go from periods where you earn a lot of money and possessions, to other times where you lose all of them all of a sudden. same thing goes for your self-esteem, it fluctuates a lot. you find beauty and aesthetic in material things; you most probably love clothes, art, music… anything that isn’t exactly a priority in life, but that allows you to express your personal taste, which is very refined. this placement makes you very creative, and hence you could make money out of your creativity. it would be a great way to find a job and become successful, but also to increase your security and confidence. you could even be a very innovative person, and with your capricorn rising you would make an excellent leader / boss. you could also make money through internet or with technology in general. due to jupiter in this house, you tend to overindulge in 2nd house matters, hence you may spend too much money, you could overeat, or even overestimate your own skills. maybe, you’re too confident, or perhaps it’s the opposite. that is, you underestimate your worth way too much.

your 3rd house is in pisces. when it comes to speech, you’re most likely more introspective. you may not be much talkative, and most of the time you keep your ideas and thoughts to yourself, but actually it's hard for you to hide them. you may be secretive, but you're easy to read. you learn the best when you’re close to creativity or imagination, you’re very intuitive and hence it's easier for you to learn new topics. while you're very empathetic and you're able to properly convey your thoughts and feelings in your speech, you may also come off as sensitive or even insecure. you may have a quiet voice, and hence you could come off as shy. on the other hand, you may have the tendency to lie, or just being confusing in any way. you may not always express what you want crystal clear, as you want to able to modify the story just in case you encounter some hardships. also, you never truly express your feelings, probably out of fear. probably, the way you elaborate your thoughts is also influenced by your family and the impact they had on you. you’re always vague, and you keep your private matters for yourself. pisces is a mutable sign, so you may also find yourself changing ideas often, your mind wanders from one thought to another.

your 4th house is in aries, with also your saturn in a tight conjunction with the ic. while outside you may appear as very polite, when you feel comfortable you actually become way more fiery. you’re very impulsive in your home environment, you could have been some sort of warrior in your childhood. maybe you used to argue a lot with your parents, perhaps because they were too overprotective. your parents could have been very hard-working and focused on work, possibly wealthy too. they were very responsible and cared a lot about you, they always made sure you had everything you needed, even though they could have been slightly absent from time to time due to their jobs. people with saturn in their 4th house usually find something missing in their childhood, they had to deal with responsibilities from a young age. it could even be that you started working when you were still a teen.

your 5th house is in taurus. you are a very creative, artistic person. you’re able to relax by watching netflix, eating, writing, painting… anything that can be done at home. you’re not the type to hang out too often or party all night, you’re more of a homebody. you could also love sleeping in, just being able to stay in bed all day wearing comfy clothes is a vacation for you. you always try to be at your best state, and you want those who surround you to be perfect too. it's hard for you to fall for someone, as you take everything in consideration: personality, physical appearance, fashion sense... it may look like it is too much, but once you find the right one that truly satisfies your standards, you're in for a long ride.

your 6th house is in gemini. in your daily routine, especially at work, you have to communicate a lot. you come in contact with lots of people, or maybe you write stuff like blogs or books. generally, you have a very hectic schedule, as you have different hobbies and appointments that you can’t abandon. this placement indicates that you may be prone to overwork yourself, as you put a lot energy in your job. you could be quite superficial in a certain sense, and you’d risk to waste your potential with as you may take your job as a challenge, for example, you need to feel mentally stimulated to like it. in fact, your ideal career has to include something that allows you to express your personal taste, ideas and interests. in this way, it won’t feel too heavy to you, and you’ll find pleasure in working.

your 7th house is in cancer. in marriage, you’re looking for an affectionate and caring partner who’s willing to nurture you. you’re also the type to like younger people to nurture by yourself, you want to be the one in charge, the leader, even when it comes to relationships. you’re looking for someone you feel at home with, someone that is worth calling ‘family’. you need to feel emotionally secure with your future spouse, almost a soulmate-like relationship. in addition, I assume that you also want to feel financially secure, and you wouldn’t mind being spoiled with gifts and just affection in general. this placement makes you very patient with other people, you could be the type to give other possibilities to others for example. you always try to be nice and gentle with your words, you don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings.

your 8th house is in leo. you have the potential to become a very successful individual, with a great amount of charisma. yet, since the 8th house is related to pluto, the malefic planet of transformation, there are some hardships to this placement. in fact, you may have the tendency to look down on people that aren’t as open-minded as you are. I have the same placement, so I understand that it’s not easy at all, but you should learn to accept respectful people’s opinions. if you do that, you’ll finally be able to glow brightly. you’re very curious when it comes to taboo topics, you like learning about them. you’re probably into conspiracy theories, as well as matters like astrology, tarots, horror, tragedies, mystery... you can use them to transform yourself and grow up, so you could definitely use this birth chart reading to improve yourself. 8th house is also the house of karma, and yours is kind of strange. you may often feel like you’re right about something, e.g the sky is blue. you’re very proud of your observation, but then it turns out to be different. it’s like the universe is constantly teaching you new things. luckily, this is something that gets better with time.

your 9th house is in virgo, with also your libra sun and mercury placed there. at school you were a very diligent student; you were practical, precise and organized, you enjoyed studying at being the best in class. yet, you could be quite bossy at times, as you could come off as a bit too arrogant but you're just very dedicated. on the other hand, you're also very intelligent and open-minded above all, you could feel particularly drawn to foreign cultures and languages and you could be naturally skilled. you may also get to travel a lot or even move abroad at a certain point in your life, you're definitely a citizen of the world and you hardly ever have prejudices. you say things impulsively, you're bluntly honest, and this could often hurt people around you. in addition, you like having the last word, despite being proven wrong sometimes. you have a knack for wisdom, you love being and looking smart. you're the type to spend the whole day reading and analyzing philosophical quotes and then make them your own, applying them to your life. you want to be and feel experienced, hence you may inform yourself about a variety of topics just for the sake of knowing them, perhaps you're not even that much interested in them. you could go from talking about politics to astrology, your mind is quite messy but still very full. you may possibly have a youthful voice, and sometimes you can speak in a loud volume without even realizing it. you may also exaggerate your words a lot, for example you might have got a single scratch on your cheek and call it a gash. you could possibly also be the type to joke over your own feelings, and then obviously get mad at others when they do the same with you.

your 10th house is in libra, with also your scorpio moon sitting there. you have an eye for aesthetics, and you want to have a reputation for looking classy and mannered. basically a lady, but that knows how to stand up for herself. in your ideal career you need something that makes you express your need for beauty, possibly even justice. you may have a passion for poetry and literature in general, or maybe you could be particularly skilled at fashion. you have a natural talent to match colours with undertones, body shapes, vibes etc., and you could make this particular ability of yours a job. you’re also a charismatic, strong-willed speaker, hence you could also do well as a lawyer, a politician, an activist etc. your career needs to be private. that doesn’t mean that you can’t become famous of course, but you prefer being more hidden at job, you may even work from home or from a young age. many celebrities with this placement, in fact, started working when they were still young. you could become a writer, a singer, an actress, as well as a nurse, a therapist… anything that allows you to express your emotions while also communicating something is suitable for you. you could possibly also choose the same career as your parents, or you may handle the family’s business for example. you could also end up doing the job of your childhood dreams. you feel the need to pursue a meaningful career in your life, you want to feel emotionally connected to it. you don’t only want something that allows you to earn money, you also want to gain wisdom and maturity from a job, and hence you could even be a bit picky in choosing your future career.

your 11th house is in scorpio. pluto, mars and venus are also sitting in this house. you are extremely picky with your friends. you have trust issues, probably caused by your karmic issues again, that make you secretive around your friends. you may close yourself in your shell, or maybe you actually know a lot of people, yet you only consider a few of them your friends. most of the time, you may also befriend people that try to take advantage of you, people may betray you often. or perhaps, since there’s a possibility that you understand that, you could be the one who leads the group and acts quite bossy. this is something that gets naturally better with time; actually, your friends will be of great help for you to grow up. you may have big dreams for your future, yet you may feel intimidated as they’re very intense, and hence hard to make come true. you need to pay your karmic debts in order to finally feel comfortable with others and have the motivation to achieve your long-term goals. as for love, you're not the type to fall for the first guy you see down the street. in addition to that, you're not into the typical, cheesy romantic stuff. you want your partner to be a friend, not only a boyfriend/husband. you want to feel able to talk and vent to them, just like you'd do with a friend, but also someone that is willing to stay with you through thick and thin. you hardly fall in love at first sight, and you act quite casually around your crushes. in fact, most of the times you come off as so detached that you hardly look like you're interested in someone. people could get intimidated from you because of that, in fact sometimes you just wish you could be the one taking the lead and ask others out, and maybe you do. also, you need a partner that can stimulate you mentally. you can't stand a boring relationship with no amusement and excitement, you want someone that can constantly surprise you in some way. in fact, you'd probably choose brains over looks.

your 12th house is in sagittarius. you're particularly interested in religion and higher beliefs, hence meditation would be effective for you. yet, you need to get enough sleep, or you could not be able to fully embrace the spirituality of this placement. you may also be able to have prophetic dreams, or at least they have a strong moral beyond them. possibly, you could make lots of good dreams, you hardly ever have nightmares. perhaps, your dreams could bring you luck; for instance, you may dream about the winning numbers of the lottery, or maybe they may warn you about certain people or events in your life that could harm, you are strongly connected to your higher self.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love you attract cancer, taurus, leo, virgo, gemini and scorpio. your future spouse will most probably have cancer, aquarius and scorpio placements, hence they’ll be very hard-working, intelligent and witty, but also very sensitive and a bit moody. it may be love at first sight, and you may find them very attractive. it may be a fated relationship, you may be soulmates. perhaps, you may also dream about them before meeting them in real life. you could meet them near water, hence at the sea, at the pool, etc. or also in a place that involves dancing or drinking, such as a party or a club. your children will be heavy in taurus and libra placements, hence they’ll be very creative and quite lazy too, they'll probably love eating and they will like playing around. yet, they could be a bit too stubborn and sometimes materialistic.

👶🏻 family life

your mother is a very fiery person, with a short-temper. she could have sometimes even been quite violent with you during your childhood, and she might have a bit of a childish behaviour. deep down, she’s actually kind of insecure with her role as a mother. she may have aries, libra or scorpio placements in her chart, as well as cancer or taurus. your father, on the other hand, is more submissive. he’s a peaceful person, even though he most probably has a passive-aggressive behaviour. you could actually have a better relationship with him rather than with your mother, or at least he understands your needs better. he may have libra or scorpio, as well as leo or taurus in his chart. if you have siblings, they most probably have pisces, capricorn or aquarius placements in their chart. you have a great relationship with them, even though it could have been a while for you to get along. overall, your relationship with them was peaceful.

📊 career

you could do well at a variety of jobs to be honest! with your gemini in the 6th house you could actually work in different fields before sticking to one career, hence you’re pretty experienced. I certainly see you being successful in your career, you will most likely work alone and you'll most likely be a boss. you're very hard-working, so I can see you having your own business for example. otherwise, you may also do well in an aesthetic field, you probably have great creative talent. you may be an artist, a creative director, a screenwriter, a writer, a singer, a musician... or even more practical jobs like lawyer, judge, possibly also a therapist or psychologist. you'll settle down on a career that will make you feel emotionally fulfilled, you'll truly enjoy what you do.

👗 fashion sense, style analysis

you may have lots of dark, edgy clothes in your wardrobe, from leather to animal prints. you could possibly also fancy velvet in your clothes. your style is mostly quite classy and elegant, but still with a touch of boldness to it. as for the colors, I assume you also enjoy wearing darker shades, from dark blue, purple, burgundy… to just directly black. you could possibly be fond of total-black fits too.

👁️ past life, life purpose

during your past life, it was hard for you to get out of your comfort-zone. you preferred staying in your small environment rather than challenge yourself. that made you again awareness of how to act in small communities, but this lifetime you need to go farther than that. you need to prove that what you learned in your past life is the key to nurture your skills, and be able to apply them in a larger environment. you may find yourself travelling a lot, gaining lots of widsom from your experiences... in this lifetime, you basically need to learn through the communication abilities you gained in your previous life.

🤔 major transits analysis / october 23

this must be a very emotional period for you, due to transit sun being conjunct your natal moon and chiron, and also with transit moon conjunct your natal sun. you may be quite sensitive these days, you may cry easily or in general you tend to get hurt more. this is a great time for prioritizing self-care; end october by pampering yourself, take some free time and do whatever you like, whatever makes you feel serene, maybe including someone close to you. you're going to feel much better.

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

you’re very in contact with your spirituality, making you more sensitive to higher affirmations. you have the ability to visualize what you want. that’s the key to activate the loa: travel with your fantasy, and visualize what you desire. do you want a new car? imagine yourself doing road-trips on that car. a new phone? visualize yourself making calls with that phone. you can even literally create a story involving those topics and it will come true. you can also help yourself by writing and listening to your own affirmations, maybe covered up by some music. in this way, you'll develop a more optimistic mindset and you'll be able to attract more positivity in your life. you just have to believe in your power!

this is the end! thank you again for booking a reading, hope it resonated with you :)

- libramc xx

[kakiwrites]

astronomy

Genre: angst

Hajime iwaizumi x reader

Warning: cancer, y/n death

Synopsis: when you get diagnosed with cancer, you wanted to spend what little time you had left completing your bucket list with iwaizumi.

a/n: blame @tendousfingerbandagess for this idea. I was just listening to conan gray's new song 'astronomy' then prompted this idea. I want to share my pain with you all hehehe! Let's get started.

"we found that you have acute lymphocytic leukemia…" were the first and only words you heard from the doctor before blood suddenly rushed to your ears.

You were rushed to the hospital by your boyfriend, Iwaizumi, when your very high fever kept coming back every few hours. Hajime sat next to you as the doctor broke the news to you, trying to comfort you by running his thumb over your clenched knuckle. He hoped to ease you into the harsh reality that was brought upon you but you couldn't feel anything then. All you felt was the piercing cold. You didn't know if it was a symptom of your new diagnosis or because of the news itself.

"w-well, can you still treat it?" Iwaizumi asked for you, squeezing your hand to attempt and bring you back into this conversation.

"we can but it'll be painful-"

"what if I don't want to be treated?" you suddenly chimed in. that caused Hajime to turn to you with a shocked expression. No. You have to get treated. He can't lose you.

"w-what are you saying, (y/n)? Y-you can't be serious." Iwaizumi let out a humorless chuckle, praying that you would laugh along and reassure him that you were kidding. But you didn't do that. You sat straight in the uncomfortable chair, waiting for the doctor's response.

"Well, though it is not ideal, we can delay putting you on the transplant list but that will lessen your chances to survive. Chemo therapy is also on the table." the doctor replied professionally, his clipboard opened on your file to take note of your wishes.

"I want to delay both as of now. I-I just need time to think…" your voice cracked. You wanted to be strong. To show your boyfriend that you could handle it and that you'll be okay. But from the looks of your face, how you trembled beside him, iwaizumi knew that it was the exact opposite of what you were trying to portray. The doctor nodded his head before he left you alone with a confused and distraught Iwa.

"why?" Iwa's voice was barely above whisper as his glassy eyes looked into yours in sorrow. He wanted you to live. He already planned his future with you. How you would have two kids running around the small house you two would purchase to accommodate your family. But now, he wasn't so sure if that same dream of his will come to life. The only thing he could do now was pray that you'll survive and live through this.

"I want to live my life, haj," you replied. You shot him a sad grin before you took a deep breath and spoke once more. "I want to live my life to the fullest before I grow weak and have to sit in a hospital room and wait impatiently for the small chance that I'll find a donor or see any big progresses." you let out a watery laugh. Damn, this was harder than it looks. "I want to live my last stronger moments with you." tears ran down your cheeks at the end of your little speech. You looked back to see iwaizumi's tears flowing down just like yours did.

Iwaizumi brought your hand up to his quivering lips and placed a soft kiss on them. "then I'll help you. I'll help you live your life to the fullest." he placed another kiss on your knuckle, a sign of a promise he was willing to do anything to keep.

"okay, I'm done!" you called Iwa. You placed your pen down and waited for him to pop out from your shared bedroom.

Iwaizumi smiled and sat next to you on the couch, reaching a hand out to take the slip of paper from you. You gave it to him willingly. "have a road trip around Japan, adopt a puppy, try delicacies in each city we visit, bungee jumping, and star gazing. Wow, it looks like we have a lot of things to do~" he said, wrapping his arm around you and bringing you closer as his eyes skimmed through the list once more.

You nodded your head in agreement. Iwaizumi explained to his team that he wouldn't be there as often because of your diagnosis. They all agreed that your health came first and that they'll be fine hearing his critiques on their forms and diet from home. Just like that, he already sacrificed so much for your sake. He now asked you to write down a small little bucket list you could do together before you decide to settle down and get better. He promised to help you live your life to the fullest after all.

"When do you think is the best time to start working on this?" he asked, waving the list in his hand. You shrugged. You didn't want to rush him into finishing this and risk burning your boyfriend out. This was his time to relax and have fun beside you. "We should get packing then!" he took both of your hands and pulled you up from your seat, causing a giggle to bubble up from your throat. You tilted your head when his words sank into your brain. Pack? Right now?

"You want me to pack? Right now?" you asked skeptically. Iwa chuckled before leaning in and pressing a quick kiss on your soft lips.

"because we're going on that road-trip tomorrow, you idiot." Hajime watched your eyes lit up with glee before you skipped into your bedroom and packed your shared luggage.

Even in the devastating predicament you were in, you didn't stop being so positive and happy. That was one of the things he loved about you.

"We drive through the woods

Rich neighborhoods to watch

We joked as we looked

That they were too good for us

Cause socially speaking we were the same

With runaway fathers and mothers who drank

A tale old as time

Young love don't last for life"

You sat in the passenger seat of Hajime's car, a blanket keeping you comfortable while Conan Gray's astronomy blaring through the speakers. Iwaizumi couldn't help but bop his head behind the wheel while you sang along.

"damn, your voice sounds amazing." he complimented, causing your cheeks to feel hot. Iwaizumi chuckled before he turned and parked in the wide parking lot of the animal shelter.

"wait! Are we getting the puppy now?!" you squealed excitedly. Iwaizumi clicked his seatbelt off and hummed in confirmation. You never got out of the car that quickly before.

Fortunately, this was only the beginning.

For the next few days, you traveled around Japan with your new puppy, iwaizumi named (y/n) Jr., went bungee jumping together, and tried delicacies in each town. you had the time of your life.

But fun had to end.

On the last day of your third week, you started to feel waves on waves of fatigue wash over you. You just wanted to rest with Iwaizumi but you felt like giving in was only admitting that you can't handle it anymore.

So you forced yourself to get up.

It was hard to hide things from iwaizumi. He was always perceptive, especially now. He was there to help you live.

He needed you to live. Because he knew that he wasn't anyone without you.

"you okay? We can rest today if you want." he asked worriedly, walking over and assisting you to a seat. He went into the kitchen to fetch you a glass of water.

"no, I'm fine." you replied, trying to reduce your shaking as you take the glass and chugged the water. You could only hope that your headache will subside soon. "do you have anything planned for today?" you asked, feigning cheerfulness. Iwaizumi glanced back at you worriedly before he sighed, flashing you a small smile.

"well, we have stargazing on your list so I was planning to do just that." Iwa sat next to you and stretched his arm over your shoulder. You giggled before you closed your eyes and nuzzled into him, wishing to store the last bit of your energy that you felt was seeping out at a rapid pace.

Iwaizumi could hope that it wasn't what he suspected. That you were just having an off-day. That you were okay, just like the last few weeks.

But that was all he could do. All he could do was hope.

The night air was colder than usual.

You pulled your thick cardigan closer to your chest and squeezed iwa's hand, hoping that his warmth would seep into you. Hajime looked back at you worriedly. "you okay? Dammit, we should've stayed home-"

"i'm fine, haji, it's just colder than usual." you lied, nudging him, telling him to keep walking.

You felt like you used up all of your energy climbing up the small hill where a picnic blanket was set-up on the very top, a small stereo playing Astronomy softly. You couldn't help but gasp in surprise. Maybe that wasn't a good idea, the lack of air in your lungs already making you dizzy. The gasp hid the shallowness of your breath from your already anxious boyfriend who helped you get settled on the blanket under the stars.

"just... Sit tight." iwaizumi took a deep breath before he stood in front of you, made a fist and pretended he was holding a mic as he sang along to Conan's soft voice.

"We've traveled the seas

We've ridden the stars

We've seen everything

From Saturn to Mars

As much as it seems

Like you own my heart

It's astronomy

We're two worlds apart"

He took your hand and pulled you up on your shaking feet. he got down on one knee then took out a velvet box. Your hands flew to your mouth. This can't be happening.

"(y/n), it might look like we don't have time but i know you can fight back and win. I can wait until then. So (y/n) (l/n), will you marry me?" he muttered to keep his voice from cracking. Your smile reached from ear to ear, nodding your head rapidly at a loss of words. Iwaizumi slipped the ring onto your finger and was about to pull you close into a hug when the unthinkable happened.

Your feet buckled under you, unable to support your weight anymore. Your breath was ragged and loud. You tried to suck in air to no avail. What was going on?

Your ears ring while black dots start to spread through your vision. The last thing you remembered was your now fiance's blurry figure in front of you, desperately trying to bring you back to him.

Cold. The cold just seeps into you, suffocates you until-

You woke up to the blinding lights of the hospital. Your tired eyes moved to observe the room. You felt someone squeezed your hand. You turned to see a sleepy iwaizumi slouched in one of those uncomfortable hospital chairs, his hand gripping yours tightly. Hajime jolted awake the second you squeezed his hand back.

"(y/n)!" he exclaimed in relief, bringing his head down and kissing the ring on your finger repeatedly. Little droplets littered your hand. Iwaizumi was crying. "i-i thought i lost you... You wouldn't wake up for days a-and-" he sobbed. You pulled him into your chest, letting him nuzzle into your weak figure.

That small reassurance that you still had that small fight left in you helped iwaizumi sleep that night.

It was only the beginning of hell for you.

For the next few weeks, iwaizumi couldn't do anything but watch as your once strong figure rapidly grew weaker by the day. He had no idea had to stop it.

He needed a miracle.

He picked up his phone, dialed a certain number and waited for them to answer. If iwaizumi needed a miracle, this was the guy to call.

Another week went by, you were looking out your window in boredom when your hospital room door opened. thinking it was another nurse, you used all your strength to crane your neck to look at the person who entered. Your eyes lit up when you saw Iwaizumi enter with the Argentina setter, Oikawa.

"tooru!" you cheerfully yelled. Oikawa immediately rushed toward you. The man was about to pounce on you but iwa came to the rescue just in time and pulled the setter away from your bed.

"what are you doing here?" you asked, wiping away the stray happy tears that accumulated in the corners of your eyes.

"simple!" oikawa said as he skipped back to the door and opened it to reveal matsukawa and hanamaki with an officiant. "i decided to provide a little bit of a miracle." You turned to iwaizumi who glowed pink beside you. Was this really happening?

Your little "ceremony" flew by too quickly for your liking. You wished you could just cherish this moment forever. How all of the former members of the volleyball team came in and gave their congratulations and told little anecdotes they remember about the early stages of your relationship, like the time hajime almost beaten up oikawa for flirting with you in high school or how iwaizumi accidentally hit you with his spike when he was staring a second too long.

The noise slowly died down to the beeps of your heart monitor connected to you. Iwaizumi sat beside you and kissed your hand once more. "we're officially married now." he whispered, not wanting to break the soft ambience of the room.

"yeah..." you leaned back weakly in your bed. A wave of fatigue suddenly hit you. Maybe it was because of the eventful day you've had.

"You gotta live through this if you want to enjoy our honeymoon." he joked, causing you to let you a soft giggle.

"i love you, haj."

"i love you too, baby..."

"We have a code blue!"

Iwaizumi shot out of his seat to be met by a slew of nurses bursting into your room. His eyes snapped toward your limp figure. No. Nonono. This cannot be happening. You were okay. You were laughing along with everyone. You were joking around. You promised to live, to be strong.

Why? Why did you let go now?

"sir, Please step outside of the room." a nurse said to him, hauling the trainer out the door and into the hallway. Iwaizumi dropped into one of the empty seats outside, burying his head in his hands. He prayed to every god he could think of, to spare your life.

But unfortunately, his prayers weren't answered.

When the doctor came out of your room with a somber look on his face. He already knew what happened. His tears silently flowed down his cheeks as his brain blocked out the doctor's voice, ringing growing louder and louder.

There was only one festering thought in his mind now and it was growing bigger the longer he stayed in that hallway. It kept nipping at him when he went back into the room to see your now lifeless body.

You were gone and he will never see you wake up again.

It all moved like a blur to hajime. Your family was as equally as distraught as he was. They offered their support to which Iwaizumi refused to take. At night he would imagine that you would come bursting into the room and cuddle with you and every time, he would feel tears prick his eyes when he would remember that it didn’t work like that.

The funeral wasn’t any better. Iwaizumi would acknowledge the typical condolence message here and there. He went out of his way to make his eulogy speech a bit more personal for your grieving family members and friends. He couldn’t stop his sobs when he watched as your casket got lowered into your final resting place. The pain felt unbearable.

He stood in front of your new and clean tombstone, tears pricking the corners of his eyes as he held (y/n) jr. In his other hand. He let out a shaky smile, the smile he usually reserved for you. He was going to miss you.

"don't worry love, we'll meet again." he whispered hoping you would hear him one last time. It was going to be hard to move on but he’s going to do everything in his power to pull himself back up and come to terms with reality and maybe to keep your memory alive.

And that's all! This was a real whirlwind and I didn't really anticipate it being this long! Hope you guys enjoyed this! Thanks for @tetsunormous for getting mad at me for spamming and beta reading! Requests are open so please don't be shy to leave anything in my inbox! Love you guys 💖💕❤️

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[mimondee]

Hi, I'd like a general reading! I'm utterly sorry if this is not your preferred type of chart, I genuinely don't know that much about all of this since I just got into it. Hopefully I can get one!

Thank you in advance!

Hey there @jungk00k1e! Thank you for requesting a free reading!

Starting this by mentioning that if something is completely inaccurate, feel free to point it out as that will help me improve my knowledge and approach. Feedback is also very much appreciated.

Without further ado, let's begin!

The first thing I've noticed is your cardinal t-square so let's break this one down: - cardinal t-square (sun+moon opposition Saturn, square Jupiter; Jupiter square Saturn): this one can reveal that you're dependable when it comes to situations that require immediate attention and action, with an ability to determine if said situations are being exaggerated or not. - the challenge of this t-square is coming from the Sun opposition Saturn (1)/Moon opposition Saturn (2), where: 1. brings the tendency to be critical and harsh with yourself which can lead to you feeling inferior, inhibited and if not careful, this can also affect your health due to the stress. on the other hand, though, it allows you to learn how to adjust to working with limitations, which in turn, gives you the strength and the ability to be persistent. 2. can point out that your freedom is limited/restricted by something or someone, a tendency towards choosing to be alone (not to be confused with lonely), also a feeling of dissatisfaction when it comes to relationships (supported by happening in the 1st and 7th house)

One thing to note is that both the sun opposition Saturn and moon opposition Saturn can also reveal that you might have a difficult connection/struggles with authority figures (this can be parental too) who might have restricted you in some way. Even though Saturn is retrograde which kinda makes it less restricting, I feel like you learned through connecting with others, how to feel/be less restricted (7th house). Worth mentioning here that your chart is having a bucket pattern and this Saturn is the handle (focus) of it. The idea of the bucket pattern is that all other planets are occupying one side of the chart while one single planet is on the opposite side, acting as an outlet at times for the others. This also supports what I've mentioned above as it gives even more importance to Saturn and with it being in the 7th house, it shows that you may be focusing a lot of your efforts on relationships (doesn't have to be romance, can be friendship, business and so on). Tying in with this one is also the north node in the 4th house as that one is about being actively involved with your origins, learning how to properly see the good sides of it, and finding inner strength.

Sun conjunction Moon: I want to mention here that since your sun and moon are not receiving supportive aspects, you may have this feeling of being under constant pressure/stress, though this may also come from being critical with yourself (ties in with sun opposition Saturn). You may also have difficulties with being objective and not knowing when to stop, especially if it involves a personal goal, either you pursuing it already or wanting to. But this is also the time when you feel happy since one of the traits that Capricorn energy has is having a well-established goal that you're putting effort towards achieving.

On this same note, I want to point out Chiron in the 1st house as it supports what I've mentioned at "Sun opposition Saturn. The lesson here is to find that inner strength (north node in 4th house, square Chiron) to express who you actually are, to initiate things with less hesitation and doubt. Once you achieve this, you can take this lesson and support other people in being themselves.

Mercury and Venus at 0° in Capricorn: <both of these are seen as "new energy", meaning that you're learning how to deal with them so at times you may find yourself struggling when it comes to these> - mercury at 0°: reveals that you're curious, wanting to get as much information as possible about things so then you can express this information - venus at 0°: this one talks about how connecting with other people creates new possibilities for you, especially if said connections are close to your heart. I find these two quite interesting since, with them being in Capricorn, pretty much speaks about being grounded and having stability/security which is reflected in you having a lot of earth in your chart. The meaning of having lots of earth is valuing stability and using what already exists to solve whatever problems may come your way but also to pursue your goals. Though there's a tendency to not question things too much and just take them as they are.

I hope this will be useful to you in some way. Again, thank you for requesting a free reading! 💜

- Dee✨