#Been feeling really shitty lately so this is a lazy post but I couldn't not wish our queen a hpm fr

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Caldre yuri sleepovers??

What would they do, what games would callie like, would andrea make her sleep on the floor?

that kinda thing would be rlly cute!!

omg such a good idea!!! thx anon xx

I already think that caldre would sleep over all the time in canon, but this would happen even more if they were yuri. Sleepovers literally every weekend, sometimes during some weekdays if their parents are feeling nice. Picture the amount of time the girls spent together in the movie Thriteen, if ur familar. I think caldre as girls would feel free to spend that time together without toxic masculinity and the norm for female friendships.

They would mostly sleepover at Andrea's house because she doesn't have any younger siblings to bother them. At first, that's all they ever did. When they sleep over there, they spent more time inside the house and in Andrea's room and basement. Especially the basement. The basement is their hangout spot to do pretty much anything. Almost all of the Zero Day planning happened down there. That is were they spend the night together usually, too. Andrea sleeps on an old couch and Cal (I think Callie would still use the nickname), sleeps on couch cushions that they pull off the couch from its back, flush with where Andrea sleeps. So, yeah, Andrea makes her sleep on the floor. Sometimes Cal does bully Andrea into switching with her, or she falls asleep on the couch and Andrea just can't bring herself to move her. They only sleep in Andrea's room if they have been out all day and are too tired to set up the basement. Their, they both share the bed.

Andrea's parents are always so welcoming and like another home to Cal, but Andreas mom still came to Andrea one night to say that it's getting too much. Andrea, obv, was pissed and said some things that got them banned from any out of school hangouts for a week. But afterward, Andrea asked, "what if we went to Cal's instead?" and her mom couldn't argue w that.

So, they started to sleepover there on occasion. When they plan on staying the night at Cal's house, they typically go out because of Cal's siblings. That could be anything from walking in circles at the park for hours or lying to parents that they are going to hangout with other people so they can walk around in circles for hours AND mess w people or... I don't think they would do much lol. They spent a lot of time just being with each other, talking and planning and being losers lowkey. They both share Cal's twin bed to sleep and end up cuddling a lot. They pretend that the reason they haven't figured out a separate makeshift bed for Andrea to sleep in while she's over is not bc they enjoy sleeping so close but bc they are js lazy.

They do drugs a lot during sleepovers. Mainly weed but sometimes they get drunk if Andrea can get her hands on something. At Andrea's house they get high late at night in the basement. At Cal's they get high in some unused park and walk home when it has mostly worn off.

For sleepover activities that I haven't yet mentioned... they talk so much shit. They talk shit all the time but there is something special about talking shit at a girl sleepover. If you know you know. They play lots of video games together late into the night. Watch movies in Andrea's basement on a VHS player... mostly shitty horror or suspense. They rewatch their favorites a lot together when there is nothing else to say. Cal would like the video games a lot. I think she would try to get Andrea to play stupid slumber party games like spin the bottle (esp if they are intoxicated already) and truth or dare. To which Andrea responds that they are the only 2 people here, you fucking idiot.

I've written this in my prev caldre yuri posts, that Cal once messed up her hair really bad with box dye but Andrea helped her fix it with loads of clarifying shampoo. I think both events happened at one of their sleepovers.

They can get pretty touchy with eachother late at night. Leaning on, laying on, sometimes even full on cuddling that was not the result of sleep. Cal plays with Andrea's hair a lot too.

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I still have so much school trauma to work through and come to terms with. In general I accept what happened happened and I can't change the past. But on the other hand I'm so fucking angry at the system that failed me and even neurotypical kids. The educational system as it is now is not good. It's just test after test, essay after essay, constant deadlines, constant homework it's just not healthy. Learning should be fun. I loved learning new things as a kid, I was a hard worker. But then school just overworks you, just keeps demanding more eventhough you are at your limit. Even though your mental health is already shit because you are bullied like hell and nobody does something about it. Already shit because you don't have any close friends because you don't even know what to do anymore together with other people your age because you aren't really interested in most teenager stuff. Already shit because you are constantly suffering sensory overload from out of control loud classes, crowded hallways, people invading your personal space and purposeful scaring you by popping lunchbags and drink cartons. Some teachers are just 0 fun to listen to and make the subject they are teaching the most boring thing ever. Dreading whenever it's someone's birthday because it means there will be balloons everywhere which you are terrified of. Having to explain to teachers over and over why you can't do certain assignments or why you need more time. Physical education being the most shitty thing ever as I can never keep up with the others and it makes me feel pathetic. Also the exercises are often not fun for me at all. Just.. school did so much damage to me.. they denied for a very long time just how stressed I was because I still had good grades and behaved in class. My parents kept telling them how stressed I appeared at home. That my hair was falling out, that I was trembling that I didn't want to eat that I was struggling. But they just shoved the concerns away. It wasn't until I had a panic attack in class at school that they assigned someone to me to help me. But it was too little too late. I started going home early because I was just too mentally unwell. They started to question this as me slacking off because I was lazy or something even though I was grossly overworked. In the end I became suicidal and extremely depressed and stressed and hit rock bottom and stayed home. At first this was meant to be temporary but in the end I just dropped out because I couldn't take it anymore. It was a very dark time..and it took a lot of therapy and time to crawl out of it...school had destroyed my self image. I thought of myself as stupid and lazy and not good enough, never good enough no matter how hard I tried. I wondered if my classmates missed me, it they even noticed I wasn't around anymore. I never got closure on that. But luckily I made a new support system for myself online. There were some toxic friends in there at first but it's been a few years now that I've kicked them all out and I feel loved and cared about and seen. In may this year it will also be a year that I've lived on my own, in my own studio apartment without housemates and it also did wonders for me. I mean it's also been tough and brought new stressful things to deal with but I like being in control over my environment..I hope to get a dog in the future to help me with emotional stability (I miss having a dog on my lap and petting them the most I'm so touch starved but I'm not fond of touching people) and getting out more but I'm not ready yet. For now I have my lil fish guys and snail guys to look after and that's already nice

Anyway.. sorry for rambling..I just had to let that all out, it was building up too much. Ever since the sun started shining I feel like my brain is processing so much stuff in the bg i guess the book post triggered some of it to come outward

To my friends: even if we don't talk much, I love you all so much and I'm so happy to have you all in my life. You make me feel loved, appreciated and supported. You make me feel seen. I am so grateful to have a loving support system, even if I'm a lil shy to reach out sometimes still.

Just you guys are all great, remember that