#BUT THERES STUFF I WANNA TELL YOU THAT MAYBE SHOULDNT BE FOR THE ENTIRE INTERNET

[woahajimes]

you know I don't really think i told you that?? im usually very picky about what to say about myself on the Internet. i remember ranting to you about high school?

also NO I WILL NOT show myself!!!! it is much much funnier this way!! at least for me :) anyway news: my hair is pink again, i got a septum piercing, asia is no longer the loml 🥺 (we're still v close friends tho), i moved from my small town to an Actual City (rome) and uhhhh nothing?? yeah that should be all. have a good day 👍🏻

(it's maki btw)

i would love to visit ROME

[liquidstar]

i kinda hate that we have a culture here on tumblr where people, especially minors, are pushed to have entire pages listing their trauma, mental/physical disabilities, and deeply personal information. like why do you care? why do you need detailed personal information about a persons private life? why do you need them to “prove” theyre mentally ill?

listen, i know it seems safe but there are people out there that are happy to use that sort of stuff against you. youre not obligated to share these things with anyone, no one online is entitled to know weather youre pro or self dx’d or why certain things trigger you. 

an about should be a short little list that tells people things on a need-to-know basis. they need to know your name, your age (or at least that youre a minor/adult), what pronouns to call you, and maybe some other things about your blog + fun facts. 

its not supposed to be an in-depth look into your psyche, you shouldnt be listing all your mental/psychical illnesses (again, ESPECIALLY if youre a minor) because its dangerous. you can totally still say youre disabled or mentally ill, and if you wanna tell people you have adhd or chronic pain or anything else because YOU feel its important theres nothing wrong with that!t

you dont NEED to say anything more than that, youre not OBLIGATED to provide any more details. You CAN if theres something you feel is important to note (ex. “i struggle with executive dysfunction so getting back to you may take a while”) but you dont owe anyone information about yourself. 

but dont feel obligated to tell people everything about you, strangers on the internet are not supposed to have this comprehensively detailed summary of your private life and mental state.

you never know who may be looking, what their intents may be, ESPECIALLY IF YOURE A MINOR, please just be careful with how much you put in your about. theres a difference between “hi, my name is jenny, im 16, and im autistic! please tag pictures of blood!” and “im kyle, im 15, and *long detailed list of triggers/mental illnesses and a backstory for all of them for complete strangers to read*” 

that info can EASILY be used against you! its ok to be vague!!! your about isnt a biography, its just there so your followers know what to expect and your mutuals know how to interact with you. yes, there are people out there who may feel entitled to this information but theyre irrelevant in the long run, no stranger who feels entitled to your personal info is a safe person. 

and im not shaming people who do this at all! its become kind of the norm, but it really really shouldnt be because of the potential risks of strangers online knowing all this deeply personal information they can use to get to you (ESPECIALLY IF YOURE A MINOR!!!). please dont overshare any type of personal info like that on your about. even if youre an adult you should be aware that youre setting an example here, and youre not invincible either. be careful with what you do and dont share, you dont need to share it all. 

keep things on a need-to-know basis!!!

[laldila-menu]

l’aldila#3

00:36 09/19/2020

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hey :). i hope youre doing okay. I think its been two weeks or a week idk ive lost count since ive last talked to you. actually its been eleven days i just counted, i hope you didnt erase yourself off the face of the internet because of me. bro i love you menu. i hope when you said i dont love you anymore that it wasnt it. ill wait. i realized that i truly was so selfish. when i go back to read our conversations i remind myself how bad a person i was and how i let my hormones take over our relationship. i told you on that december evening in the parking lot that i loved you. that conversation started by a text that you sent me. telling me id have to tell one of you that i dont like that person so that theyd could move on. by that time i had already made up my mind that it was you. i look for your picture everywhere, your text on my phone, your good morning texts and more. you, the oblique form of xyz. i didnt deserve you, still dont. i corrupted you and us. and back to my point about that night. after you texted me i told you. i told you that i was scared that if i told you how i felt, id want more than just what we had as friends from our relationship, which happened, and that i was scared id ruin any chance i could have with you in the future, which i dont know. it kinda sucks but is also kinda lit not knowing what God has planned for you. you make me feel some type of way. i hope i see you at some skatepark or randomly outside and that everything was just a fricking poopoo imagination and you had to fake it or something. i literally checked the white pages with your old number to see if maybe you got it back or something. i literally considered EMAILING you when you first shut down everything. EMAIL. goddamn i love you but maybe you blocked me from there too. dude i could be happy with anyone too like honestly. i have no feeling in me thats forcing me to say i want you. but if you were in my future as more than just my friend id be really fricking happy. and i dont wanna exaggerate my feelings/want to be with you, cause what if i get it and then i just throw it out like a toy. im content with anyway God has willed for me. More than content I am happy. whether im with you or not but AGAIN I FRICKING SUCK AND I WA TNTHAT THING SAPDJFH IOHWIJ HRF. whatever. lifes been interesting. i really wanna know whats up with you and your new school. i know so many people that go there apparently and i wonder how theyre treating you. if anyones hitting on you i swear i will break them . im sorry but i will. i want you to be mine. and idk what condition your bracelet is in, but mine is kinda like ripping one of the beads so im gonna glue it just in case. alright i think i should probably end this but seriosuly i miss your presence in my life as my friend. and maybe thats selfish but i love ou for you. i shouldnt have let you let me talk more and only listened to you. whats up with you? how do you honestly feel? hows stuff at home? what are your plans? and just one honest conversation with you. when you said for the first time in this relationship were gonna do what i want. i honestly felt like crap and didnt know if i was too assertive. i know i definitely was when it came to physical and i fucking hate that. sorry for cursing but i seriously hate myself for those sitatuions. anyways, i love you. 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxxxxxxxxx

i dont wanna fall out of love but i cant stop it for now, wonder what the future holds?

sincerely, 

l’aldila 

i cant believe you never listened to that song. like theres so much you still dont know about me and like wise so much more i dont know about you. dude i fricking love you. 

fucj i love you so much, so many songs remind me of you. you said you loved me too fast, summer(my time with you the best time of my entire year) ended too fast. we rushed man, next time im gonna trust my instincts. you made me vulnerable which is more than okay, i honestly liked it. i loved you, but then stuff changed, and i think i imagine kissing you a lot but recently i feel like my love for you went back to the innocent way it was at first. breaking my heart tearing my heart tearing me down 

heres the song.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_VJGBlSYabY

love you fr

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