#BUT THATS JUST HOW LIFE IS ! sometimes people misinterpret you or you slip up

[llumimoon]

SOMETIMES I think I’m sooooo cool and epic and other times I feel like I’m walking and talking around with a big ol clown nose and squeaky shoes and THATS JUST HOW LIFE IS !!!

[woennix]

Just a little qsmp discourse post, I've been thinking about it for a while and I just wanna share something.

I agree that everyone should have their own interpretations of characters and you don't need to keep up with EVERY pov to say what you think about a character, but I do think that people should be a lot more kinder with the interpretations they have of characters in general.

This comes mainly from seeing people talking badly about characters (the latest one qWilbur, but I've seen it time and time again, with characters I enjoy and characters I don't). This always ends up with people having more context for a character's actions than others, and others making a big judgement without seeing the whole picture, or people who actually try to listen and understand a character's motives but are still upset about it.

I do think disagreeing or even disliking characters is fair, I mean, I do dislike some characters, but ALL of them have motives and explanations for why they do what they do, and also ALL of them have done questionable things to eachother.

The thing is, if I try to, I can create a horrible narrative for EVERY character (I'm not joking, I'm pretty sure I can) where they are manipulative, self-centered, selfish, hypocritical... but telling everyone: ''This character is SO evil because of this specific one thing he did one time to my favourite character!!!'' when that was a cc having fun, or maybe a slip up etc, kinda kills the fun for the ccs. Something I feel some people not take into account is that this is minecraft improvised roleplay, where at the same time creators are meeting eachother and just playing and having fun.

Yes, lighthearted moments where people are joking around kind of are lore, but sometimes, ccs just wanna have fun. This happens a lot with qRoier, where obviously his joking attitude is integrated into the lore and his character is actually joking about a lot of stuff, but like, for example, him enjoying mines is like 90% the cc wanting to have fun, not his characters actually not giving a fuck about killing the eggs (just an example of some takes I've seen). Even though if we think about what he is doing realistically, it wouldn't be an absurd assumption to make that he doesn't care. Now, I think it should be interpreted as what it is,,, Roier enjoying and having fun in the server. What I mean to say is, is this lore? Yes it is, qRoier canonically enjoys mines. But also, are we going to overanalyze this and make assumptions on his character and actually apply real-life logic into how we interpret every interactions he has? I would say that's too much, and makes the server an only roleplaying server where creators can't just fuck around and have fun.

I will say to be clear, if someone wished to bring things into their interpretation of the character that are little details like these and make it a headcanon for themselves, thats completely fair! But that's not actually canon unless the ccs decides to make it canon, and it is important to make that distinction in my opinion.

Btw I chose the qRoier example beacuse I think it wasn't a very big deal (at least in my tl) but I do not mean to create or re-open a whole debate about his morality then if it was big, I am just using him as an example. And also I say this because multiple ccs have complained on some way or another about feeling a bit overwhelmed/upset with this kind of thing. Cellbit and Baghera complained about people misinterpreting their characters and projecting into canon things they didn't mean to do, and Roier has complained (albeit a bit jokingly) that things are too heavy and people are too intense with the lore.

Honestly if this didn't bother the ccs I would tell most people that even though I dislike what I see as mischaracterizations, you can go crazy lmao, but if it makes them not be able to enjoy roleplaying as much and being in general on the server, then yknow... It could be cool if we could find a way to criticize or say what we think about characters in a more contructive way that adjusts to the ccs' vision.

[bnhababyyyy]

Bro’s before that kinda bro

Part 2/?

5k words!!!! I did it!!!!😭

Synopsis: Day 2 of trying to woo your best friend over.

That morning you woke up to the sound of your blaring alarm. Your head began to pound as you slowly lifted your head from the unfinished work on your desk.

The clock read 8:05.

You felt a year of life leave your body.

You had exactly 20 minutes to get dressed and run to class.

You couldn’t tell if your migraine was caused by that suspicious energy drink or all your feelings for todoroki slapping you in the face last night.

Shaking your head you decided to forget about it and ask Mina where she got the drink later. Groaning you rushed as quickly as your head would allow you to move and put on your uniform. You multitasked brushing your teeth and packing your bag at the same time. Trying to at least make sure you had your bare essentials for class.

You did what you could with your hair to make it seem as though you ‘tried’. Nearly tripped over yourself as you struggled with your shoes. Then gave the room a quick once over before nodding and running out the room with only 10 minutes to spare.

The throbbing in your head only got worse as you ran to class. You could barely even see where you were going. The sun’s brightness burned against your eyes, people’s talking volumes rattled against your ear drums, and you were moving way too fast to keep up with any of it. You were just a mess today!

You bumped into a few poles and people, apologizing to both the inanimate and animate objects. Shoved yourself through a few groups of people and then finally! Reached your first period classroom. You slipped into the class with a group of your classmates and ran to your seat right as the minute bell rang.

You groaned laying your head on the desk trying to get in as much sleep as you possibly could. To think spending a fun time with Todoroki would somehow lead into this kind of a morning.

As soon as you closed your eyes you felt a light tap on your shoulder. You heavily lifted your head just to see it was the man putting you through this himself.

“Ah sorry (y/l/n) did I interrupt your sleeping?”

You lifted yourself up holding back groans of pain so he wouldn’t worry about you. “No, no! It’s fine! I wasn’t going to be able to sleep anyways.”

He smiled, “Good, I just wanted to apologize for sleeping when we were on the call last night.” He looked over at the clock to see how many seconds he had left “I really did want to stay up with you.”

“Oh don’t feel sorry about it! I’m the one who asked if we could do homework together anyways. I mean, that’s all I really wanted to do with you Todoroki,” You reassured.

He made a deep in thought facial expression as he looked at the floor. His mouth opened trying to say something that just wasn’t coming out. Even when he was using every brain cell to think you still found this lovable idiot the cutest guy in the room.

“I also wanted to talk to you about how-” The bell then rang and all the other students began finishing their conversations and walking back to their seats. You sat there shocked at how he wasn’t going to be able to finish. Todoroki however still stood there looking like he was debating on whether he should leave the conversation for later or finish it up now.

You sighed deciding to deal with the possibly serious question he had for a later time. “Don’t worry, we can just talk about this another time.”

He glanced at you for a moment then nodded walking back to his seat. Aizawa finally rolled into class and gave all of you the dreaded test. A few other students let out sounds of unhappiness as it was passed out.

You took a deep breath, steering your thoughts away from what it was he may have been trying to ask. Your vision kept going in and out as you tried so desperately to answer the first problem. You gave yourself a few face slaps every so often along with mental encouragement to just try and get through the first page without blacking out.

The test went by painfully slow but you were able to finish it. You somehow made it out alive without feeling alive. The rest of the day went something like that. Training made your head throb and all the other classes got you scolded at for drooping your head or falling asleep in class.

You just couldn’t wait to go back to the dorms. Maybe you could get a few ibuprofen from the girls before bed. You sneakily pulled out your phone during the boring lecture to text the girls.

You sat looking at the new message that popped up on your home screen at a complete loss for words. You couldn’t ditch them for him. It’s always Bro’s before… that kinda bro.

Your head began to throb and you massaged your forehead completely unsure of what to do. Why and how did this man do this to you! By a mere text!

After 10 minutes on debating what to do you decided on having Todoroki meet you in the nurses/ recovery girl room. You got up and quietly asked the teacher if you could leave, explaining your situation. The teacher reluctantly gave you a slip allowing you to leave the class. You quickly left the class and texted Todoroki where to meet you.

You decided to just walk into the recovery room, and ask for some actual treatment. Only to find a note on her desk that said ‘taking an early lunch break take whatever medication you need ^3^’

You felt a smile come over your face at the cute note she left for everyone. She sure did trust you guys. You decided to kill time and snoop around the room while waiting for him. Eventually the moving around got the best of you and your brain started to send some painful messages your way. You decided to try to sit down.

He came in a few minutes later, slowly closing the door behind him and figuring out that recovery girl wasn’t here either. He didn’t seem to notice you at all. You cleared your throat to try and grab his attention. He turned around trying to see where the noise came from. Once he saw you he put the note down and began walking over to you.

“Hey are you alright?” He asked.

“Yeah I’m fine. I was going to ask her to help me with my headache though,” you winced, not able to cover the blaring waves of pain anymore.

He gave you a concerned look before reaching over touching your forehead. “You don’t have a fever. Did you hurt yourself training?”

You could barely breathe. He was too close. He only got this close to your face in your dreams. You were inches away from kissing him. Did he not notice or think about how much of a hazard it was for him to be in kissing range??? The way he held your eyes with so much concern made it harder to resist.

The both of you stared at each other for a little too long. You decided to move your head away from him to avoid any spur of the moment decisions. You did not need another reason for a headache.

“Uhm wow ok. No-no I uhm.” you cleared your throat shifting away from his hand. “I’m fine! I’m fine. Let’s talk about what you texted me for though.”

Todoroki had a frustrated expression on his face. “Why do you say you’re fine when you’re not? We can talk about it tomorrow.” He looked up at you. “Do you mind if I touch you?”

“Woah! What!?”

You were in absolute shock. You truly didn’t know how to react! He couldn’t be so dense that he didn’t know the possible misinterpretation those words could give.

“Wow well I- I’m not sure I just. I don’t know if that’s- I What do you mean by-”

“I just feel like I somehow caused this. You wouldn’t be feeling like this by yourself if I had just stayed awake with you last night.”

You blinked confusion slowly replacing your embarrassment.

“Wait, what do you mean? Todo I thought I told you this morning. It’s not your fault.” You grabbed one of his hands. “I’m the one who kept you up. You don’t have to go out of your way for me when I owe you something.”

He was looking down at your hands. He shook his head still unconvinced by your words. He could be so stubborn sometimes.

“Please scoot over (y/l/n) I still want to pay you back.”

You shot a glare his way. He was not going to win this argument. “No Todoroki I accept your apology. So I’m going to pay you back next.”

“Then this is payment for listening to me about my nightmare,” He tested.

You held his stare, “You already paid me back when you stayed up with me! Just call a truce!”

His mind didn’t look like it would change any time soon, “Then you can just pay me back for this.”

“Wait what are you-”

You gasped when you felt two hands grab your waist as he shifted you over. You were now sitting away from your original side. With Todoroki now lifting himself up to sit in that same place. You two were both sitting up with your backs to the head board. You didn’t know whether to be mad you’d have to double pay him back. Or embarrassed at the fact he just touched your waist.

This man was definitely trying to kill you.

“Just lay your head on my lap.”

You flipped your head towards him a little too fast. “What! I’m not doing that. That’s- Thats just way too awkward.”

He cast a confused look that said he truly didn’t see anything wrong with what he asked. You rubbed your forehead in slight frustration. He made his typical thinking face when he was trying to figure something out.

“I mean what are you even trying to do anyways?” You asked.

He glanced over at you, then that ‘I’ve got it’ face came through. Ignoring your question he leaned over to push you forward to the end of the bed. You felt as he shuffled behind you. He didn’t even give you a chance to protest given he was already throwing his other leg behind you and holding your waist.

You were basically sitting.

In.

His

Lap.

And you still didn’t know what he was trying to do!!!! You felt as if your head was steaming and that you would faint at any more touching. Your back laid against his chest! His chest against your back! You didn’t know whether your head or your heart would pop first.

“I’m just going to get rid of the headache, ok?”

You stiffly nodded. Barely able to breathe, much less make a sound.

“It’d probably be better if you closed your eyes,” He said leaning over to try and look you in the eye.

You averted his eyes and looked at your lap. Taking in a shaky sigh. You closed your eyes. Still feeling just as stiff though.

He didn’t do anything for a moment. You desperately wanted to take a peek at him. That opportunity was cut short when you felt a warm hand go onto your temple.

You stiffened when you felt his other hand go to the same place on the other side. He didn’t activate the cool side. It felt like a regular hand temperature. You assumed it was probably a good thing he didn’t do that.

He began to massage very slowly and gently, probably to make sure he didn’t hurt you at all. The hands mostly rolled in circles over those parts for a while. He didn’t start to move his hands until you physically relaxed underneath him.

He began to slowly shift over to rubbing your forehead.You decided to just relax your body against his chest. Letting your shoulders down and body unstiffen. You happily sighed.

The heat from his hand really helped clear some pain out of the way. You just felt so happy in his arms. He then started to slide his hands down to your neck and shoulders.

You tried your best to adjust to the new placement. Controlling your breathing and thoughts. Relaxing until you began losing consciousness.

When you eventually woke up you didn’t feel any hands on your head or neck. You turned around to see that Todoroki was still sitting up behind you, just totally unconscious. You internally squealed at the sight behind you. He had such a cute sleeping face.

You didn’t want to wake him up from his wonderful sleep. He looked more relaxed than you’ve ever seen him before. You quickly looked through your pockets to find your phone. You had exactly 5 minutes before lunch.

The teacher was going to get on you for it you were sure. Your soon realized your head felt clear and in no pain at all. You turned around to look at him again. You already missed most of class…. you might as well let him sleep until lunch.

You nodded checking to see if your bag was with you still. Todoroki brought his bag too, so you guys wouldn’t have to worry about going back to class for it. You decided to text baku squad what happened until the bell rang.

You didn’t know what you should do. On one note it's kind of creepy. On another note, you don’t have any photos with you two hanging out together. You looked behind you to see that he was still asleep. This is what friends do though right? Take photos of each other…….?

You took plenty of photos of Mina and Momo when they weren’t paying attention! They also did the same back to you. So maybe this could be a new step in your friendship? You’d send the photos to him later obviously.

You shook your head clearing your mind of all your worries. It’d be fine! It’s not like he would leave you or something. His friends did it to him and posted it on Twitter all the time!

You took in a breath and positioned the phone into a selfie. You adjusted the camera until both you and Todoroki were in the frame. You flashed a smile and then took the photo. Boom! Done! You looked at the photo astonished you had the courage to even do it. It was actually a kind of cute photo.

You quickly sent it to the group chat and waited for them to respond. Your shuffling and moving about must have woken him up because you felt him shift behind you.

“Hey, did you sleep well?” You asked, turning over to look at him.

He rubbed his eyes and nodded like a child. “Did you?”

“Yeah thank you for helping me out. I appreciate it,”

“It would have been easier if you just let me help in the first place,” he lectured.

You rolled your eyes at him and shifted out of his lap. You stood up and began to stretch out. Trying to crack any joints that felt stiff. Todoroki continued to sit on the bed while checking the time.

“Oh I didn’t mean to sleep that long.”

You shrugged “It doesn’t matter, we can just tell them we felt too sick to come back or something.”

“Oh hey!” You looked up at him. “My head doesn’t hurt anymore. You think you can tell me about that thing you wanted to talk about this morning?”

He looked at you a little shocked you remembered. “Oh. Right.” He paused.

“I wanted to ask if we could-” he was interrupted once again. This time by Recovery girl opening the door and the bell ringing at the same time. You stood there shocked, that once again the question would be held for another time.

He closed his mouth into a thin line. Obviously annoyed by getting interrupted as well. You sighed, shaking your head.

“Ok, we can talk about this later then.” You laughed.

He nodded in response and began to walk out the room. Recovery girl gave you a wink “You don’t have to tell me what happened.”

Your mouth dropped “No! No! Nothing weird was happening we were just-”

She laughed and waved you off.

You walked over to the lunch room completely embarrassed. Once you got your food you spotted Mina waving to you and you smiled walking over to where she and the other girls sat.

“That photo was so cute! I can’t believe you don’t have any other photos of him!” Mina squealed as you sat down.

You held a finger to her mouth trying to get her to be a little less loud. “Yeah, it’s not that big of a deal though! He only sees me as a friend so it has no romantic meaning!”

She rolled her eyes. Giving you an “uh huh”. Ochaco leaned over to join in on the conversation.

“I can’t believe you haven’t confessed yet (y/n)! You’ve had a crush on him forever!” She said.

“Ochaco you're the last person I’d expect to tell me that.” You gestured your thumb towards Midoriya. “You still haven’t even confessed your feelings for him!”

Her face almost immediately flushed pink and she slowly began to levitate. Mina held on to her arm and tried to pull her back to earth. You giggled and pinched Ochaco’s flushed cheek.

“Oh I wish I had someone to crush on. You guys are just so lucky! Teenage romance is just such a fun part of life!” Momo said dreamily, laying her head on her cheek.

Jiro rolled her eyes, “you guys are so freakin’ sappy.”

You all continued to laugh and talk about boys. Once the conversations ended you guys listened to and shared other songs you enjoyed. You all of course listened to some classical music shared by Momo as well. The lunch bell soon rang and you all walked to your classes happily. Everything that happened in the nursing room soon left your mind.

You were able to finish the day up with much more ease than you began it with. At the end of the day you walked with Momo and Ochaco to your dorms. Not wanting to repeat the same mistake you made yesterday, you began working on your homework so you could get to sleep early.

You had turned off your phone so you could put all your attention to the homework at hand. You made an oath to yourself to start paying attention in class. You had been working for a few hours, taking breaks in between until you heard your ringtone go off.

You curiously picked up your phone to see who could be calling at this hour. Who else could it have possibly been other than Shoto Todoroki himself. You mentally prepared yourself so that you could talk to him. Taking a deep breath you pressed the answer button. It took a second for his screen to show up.

“Hi todo!” You smiled.

His face wasn’t on the screen yet, all you saw was the ceiling of his room. He started to shift his camera again and he rested it on top of an object that helped make his phone stand. You saw his head and torso again like the day before.

“Hey, do you still feel better?” He asked.

You nodded. You decided to rest your phone the same way he did.

“Yeah thanks again for helping me out. But what’s up?”

He seemed to be doing his homework as well. His desk looked so organized as it had his book and homework side by side.

“I wanted to check up and make sure you were ok.”

You quirked a brow, “That’s it? You could have just texted me.”

He gave an annoyed look, “I didn’t want to. Just appreciate how I’m checking up on you.”

You rolled your eyes. He was being so sassy.“Mhm well if that’s all you called me for I’m going to go. Goodnight!”

“No wait hold on. I called for something else too.”

“Oh what no way!” You fake gasped.

He shot a non serious glare your way. “I wanted to ask you the question. The one I tried asking this morning.”

You had totally forgotten about it! You got excited all of a sudden really wanting to know the information that had gotten interrupted so many times. What could he possibly ask? Would he surprise you and ask you out? Go on a date?! Ask you for your hand in marriage??? Ask for the homework…….

You gloomed at the thought of him really asking the last question. It was probably the most realistic thing that would come out of his mouth.

“Well since we're best friends now….” he looked away a little embarrassed. “No nevermind. That’s probably inappropriate.”

You were going to die. He was dragging this on way too long. No way we’re you going to let this man lead you on. You would rather die than not hear what he wanted to ask!

“No, tell me! I really want to know cmon Todo! Since we are best friends I can’t judge you for anything you say! You can’t judge me either though.”

He glanced at you, then went into his thinking face. Wow was this really that big of a deal for him?

Then he finally spoke.

“Ok. I wanted to know if we should call each other on a first name basis? Since were best friends?” He asked with the most serious face.

You felt shocked! This wasn’t that big of a deal to you until now. You never thought that you would get this far in your friendship with him. You could finally feel a few emotions kick in, all happy of course. The fact he valued your new stage of friendship so much really made you swoon. This was such a big deal.

“Oh my god! No, yeah definitely! That’s fine- I mean really great! Let’s do that.” You felt so giddy and couldn’t hold your smile back. This was such a huge step!

He gave a light smile, almost reassured at your response. “Good.” He sighed, leaning back into his seat.

You couldn’t help but continue to smile, “I didn’t know that stressed you out so much. You know I wouldn’t judge you right?”

“Yes, I know. I didn’t want to make this weird though.”

You both sat there in silence. Beginning to start homework when a thought had popped into your head.

“Ok but who’s going to say it first?”

He furrowed his eyebrows for what seemed like the 100th time that day. “Say what first?” He asked looking up from his homework.

You shook your head, “Who’s going to say the first name first!”

“Oh I’m sure it’ll be you.”

You felt taken aback, he had so much confidence in that. You blinked a few times as he went back to his homework.

“Aha, no no I think you will be the one to say my name first.”

He shook his head “I’m not guessing this, I know how you are. You’re going to say it by accident.”

You picked up the phone, now starting to really get into this heated debate. “That is such a lie! What proof do you have to support this?”

He playfully scoffed “I don’t have any on me at the moment but I just know you’ll say it first.”

“Okay. Ok. You wanna bet on it then?” You grinned.

“Depends, what are you trying to bet?”

You looked around trying to rack your brain for something interesting, “How about something like…. if you lose you have to cook for me. If I lose I cook for you.”

He looked like he was seriously thinking about this. “Do you know how to make soba?”

You shrugged, “I can ask someone for a recipe.”

He then nodded, “Ok, I’ll do it.” You laughed at how quickly responsed.

“But that doesn’t mean I’ll lose! You might not get those noodles!” You exclaimed.

He rolled his eyes, “Sure I won’t.”

He was just so sassy. You rolled your eyes back at him. Putting your phone back to continue your homework.

The night continued with you asking him questions about some of the homework and him helping you with it. You two mostly sat in silence trying to really focus on the loads of homework given to your class. You really did enjoy sitting in silence with him. The silence more so comforted you than it did make you feel awkward. You two had such a fantastic relationship. The only thing missing was the. You know. Dating part.

You truly didn’t know when or how you’d confess to him. But for right now this was fine.

You started to yawn and decided to tell him you were going to go to sleep. When you looked up however you saw that Todoroki had fallen asleep once again the same way he did last night. Was this a coincidence or was he going to be doing this continuously?

You sighed at how cute he looked and hovered over the end call button “Goodnight Todo.” You ended the call and gleamed at the sight in front of you. Hopefully this would be a continuous thing.

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Cocky Hero Pt 3

Okay it’s a series now. Sorry I don’t make the rules

Hawks x Reader

Warning - Alcohol use, a series so probably should read the first two parts

Summary - You keep playing the game and now Hawks is stepping up his own game

part one  part two part four

You feel weird waking up in the arms of the number 2 hero once again. You feel even weirder when he snuggles into your chest as your alarm blares.

"I don't want to be the bearer of bad news," You say you pull away slightly, "but I'm due in the office."

"Mm can't you just call in," He says. You chuckle.

"Unlike you my job doesn't wait for me," You say softly, "I'd let you stay but I don't trust you in my house alone." He sighs pulling away from you to lay back on the bed. Looking up to the ceiling as you climb out of bed to the bathroom. "Do you want a cab or do you plan on flying?" You say turning back to look at him.

"I'll fly," He says.

"Alright," You say, "I'll be in the shower."

You wave stepping into your bathroom. As you pull off the sandy blonds t-shirt you reach into shower to turn on the water. You climb in once the water gets hot. Enjoying the burning water as it hits your skin.

As you return to your room you're slightly surprised to see Hawks still laying in your bed. Now however he has his phone staring intensely at it.

"What's wrong?" You ask him, "you look like you're pouting."

"My sidekick is blowing my phone up," He groans, "work never seems to be done around here." He moves standing up to pull on his clothes as you move to your closet to get dressed. "So you in love with me yet?"

"Why would I be in love with you?" You ask him, "two hookups aren't gonna make me magically catch feelings."

"Hey don't forget the roses," He says. You roll your eyes.

"Hawks you're a nice guy but if you think that this is enough for you to win the game you are in for a rude awakening,"  You smirk. As you pull on your dress he moves towards you.

"Here let me help you with that," He says. You turn allowing him to zip the dress up for you.

"Are you ready?" You ask him.

"For?"

"To head out," You say, "I was serious about not letting you stay in my apartment. I barely know you."

"Oh come on," He groans.

"I'm serious you could be some weird panty thief or you could break something important," You say, "I'm not leaving you in my apartment alone. So when you're ready I'll walk you out."

"Let me fly you to work then," He says, "come on it'll be fun."

"Fun for you or for me?" You ask.

"For both of us," He says, "what do you have to lose?"

"I don't think so," You say, "don't want people to see us together and get the wrong idea. We don't want those rumors."

"Right," He says, "I- didn't think about that. Shit. Well I guess I'm going to go to work. I'll see you later?"

"If you're lucky," You say. You smirk lightly. He sighs lightly.

"You're breaking my heart babe," He says, "come on give me a little something." You lean closer to him pulling him into a soft kiss. He's clearly shocked at the action. But you break the kiss before he can full process what's happening. "Woah."

"Let's get you to work hero," You smile. You lead him out. Telling you the lobby security some bs about working with Hawks on some hero crap. But you know full well that at this point he's used to your crap with bringing home random people and slipping them out in the morning. "Bye Hawks."

He smiles as he spreads his wings out. Moving up into the sky. You smirk as you press your hand to the wall before stepping into your office. You see Kami smirking wildly at you.

"So I see my message worked," She says, "so when's the wedding?"

"Wedding?" You ask, "lame.. Nah we just hooked up again. Then we each went to work."

"What?" She says, "I saw you guys talking last night. Damn i thought that would work."

"Forcing me to interact with a guy you think is good for me won't make me settle down," You say, "it'll just piss me off... You can't trick me into giving up my game ya know."

"Game?" She asks, "Y/n this is your life ya know. Sometimes I think you don't seriously think about the consequences to your actions." You shrug.

"Maybe I don't," You say, "or maybe I've got a lot more going on underneath all this. Regardless it's not important. We should get to work."

"You always do that," She says, "you always make us move on! I wanna talk about you and you're life! We're friends and we've been friends for years. Just talk to me."

"I will," You say, "but not now okay? I mean this isn't the appropriate place to talk about all this."

"You're right," She sighs, "I'll get to work. Anything on the to do board for me?" You move grabbing a folder of reports for her to sign. She nods before moving off to her desk to get them done.

While you're working hard to finish all of your assignments. Hawks is sitting in the league's headquarters spacing out as Dabi talks about some Nomu crap. It's the same things he's been going on about the last week. Hawks can't stand to listen to it anymore. Thankfully today his minds somewhere else. Specifically on that kiss. It was short and sweet but man was it enough to capture his attention. He regrets not pulling you in for another one. But even more he regrets letting you get away with it. I mean here he is with you stuck on his mind while he can guarantee that you are cheerfully working with out giving him a passing thought. He's gonna lose at his own game. How could that even happen?

"Hawks you seem spaced out," Toga says, "you've been staring at the TV for like an hour. What's up?"

"Yeah man," Twice says, "what's going on? Don't tell me I don't care!"

"Nothing," Hawks says sitting up, "just ya know normal boring stuff. I'm trying to remember the last time I got groceries."

"Mmm not with that look in your eye~" Toga starts.

"Honest," He says, "I have nothing but boring thoughts up here."

Boring isn't the way he'd describe the thoughts that went through his head. It was a mix of filth and pure simpery.  He moves to at least pretend to be listening. He does have a job to be doing. He is a spy. He's supposed to be collecting information not daydreaming.  After a while he decided to just try to text the girl instead of letting her plague his mind.

Hawks - That's the first time you kissed me that wasn't while we were hooking up

               It was nice

              You're cute

             You know that?

Y/n - ....

        You already falling for me birdboy?

Hawks - You wish beautiful

                I'm not letting you win this easy

Y/n - I don't need you to let me win  

         I'll win on my own thank you

Hawks - Wow the ego on this on is insane

"Y/n are you busy?"

You look up from your keyboard over to Impression.

"Wow you are smiling like an idiot," Impression says, "what's that about?"

"Nothing," You say, "what did you need?"

"Uh you have a visitor and don't worry it's not who you think it is," Impression says. You notice a lady in a neat pantsuit behind him, "I'll leave you two alone." The woman offers me her hand.

"I'm Lana Okashi," She says, "I work for the Hero Commission. And I see that you have gotten very popular."

"Really?" You ask her, "in what way?"

"Well you are the best performing agent we have," She tells me.

"But thats not why you're here," You say, "I'm not dumb okay. I know when you guys visit and it's never good when you do. So spill why you're actually here."

She hands me her phone. A picture of Hawks and I at the club is pulled up.

"I assume you understand that we have only the best in mind for our heroes working for us," She says, "and we hope to avoid distractions for said heroes. Especially ones who work so closely with the commission like Hawks."

"So you think I'm a distraction?" You asks, "I'll take that as a compliment."

"Miss L/n I know you are known for having a cocky attitude but I'm sure you understand that being a distraction to the number 2 hero is damaging for our society," She says, "I mean while you are dragging him around how many people is he missing the opportunity to save?"

"You my friend are misinterpreting the relationship Hawks and I have," You say, "we are no more than friends. Are you telling me he can't have friends?" Your smirk is clearly evident. You know this commission bastards. They treat the heroes like tools rather than people. And you've had your fair share of run ins with them over how you handle Impressions publicity. "Now listen I'm sure you guys are pros at handling your heroes but do you ever stop and think about long term? About what happens when your puppets don't play along anymore."

If there is one thing the press gets right about you. It's that you are a bitch when you need to be. And well when the commission comes to mess in matters they don't need to well. It comes out in full force.

"I'm simply here to try to keep the peace," She says, "I can't have all of Japan suffering just so a whore can get the attention she's so desperately asks for."

You chuckle lightly.

"Oh you think you're so cute," You say, "flashy badge. Mean words. Catty. Now if you'll excuse me I have work to do. So security! Can you get this lady out?" The guards move from the door over to the woman.

"No need," She says, "I was just on my way out." Security escorts her anyway. Leaving you at your desk. Deeply annoyed. You are surprised one of those vultures came to express their opinions about you sleeping with Hawks. They have something to say anytime whispering fills the air about you ending up in a heroes bed. And no matter how many times you deal with one of them you won't ever get used to that attitude.

"Calling me a whore," You mumble angrily, "god who does she think she is?"

"The same girl who acts like heroes are simply toys to play with until they break," Kami says, "don't worry about her."

"I won't," You say avoiding looking over to the pro, "I don't let the pests bother me. Besides it's not like I care about what they say. What others think about my life style doesn't matter to me. I like having fun and playing my game. And if I distract a hero for an hour or two well whats it matter? There are about 400 others ready to save the day."

"That is true," She says, "well we better get back to work."

"Right," You say smiling at her. As she moves to head to her patrol. You pull your fun back out.

Y/n - I am very very frustrated

Hawks - Sexually or?

               Cause if you are I can help

               (;

Y/n - Normal frustration

Hawks - Wanna talk about it

Y/n - not exactly... but just know it's your fault

Hawks - Oh come on what did I do?

                I'm on my best behavior

Y/n - Not you directly. More like the commission.

Hawks - Did you piss them off?

               Wanna talk about it?

              I can call you

Y/n - While I'd love to tell you all about how much I hate the hero commission and their slave like labor for heroes I don't think now is the time I'm slammed over here

Hawks - I could fly by to keep you entertained in these trying times

Y/n - You wish

Hawks - Hey I have a suggestion

Y/n - ?

Hawks - We got to my place and vent about life over a glass of wine

Y/n - and end the night in your bed?

Hawks - How did you know?

Y/n - I'm not all the up for it tonight... it's a whine and reality tv show kinda night

Hawks - We don't have to have sex

                We can just talk

                I kinda just wanna see you

He's either playing his own card or he's working right into my next card.

Hawks - Of course it's up to you

Y/n - Well I mean I could always take a break from my busy life for you Hawks.

Hawks - I'll see you at mine then, about 6?

                Thats when you get off right?

Y/n - Yep

        I'll be there

       You better have good wine

Hawks - Only the best for you

You smile lightly as you sit your phone back down to focus. At closing time you found yourself a little excited to see Hawks. Even if it was just to drink and vent.  After waving goodbye to your coworkers you used your portal to slip inside the blond heroes house.

"Well there she is," Hawks says, "I thought you weren't going to show."

"I got held up," You tell him. As you walk towards him you see him pouring the wine into two glasses. He moves handing you one of them. "Thanks."

"Well lets vent," He says sitting down on his couch. It's the first time you've seen his living room for more than a second. Its actually really nice and neat. A total bachelor pad sure but even with all the cheesy elements of a bro house it's still really nice. You start to wonder if he has someone else design and clean it. You sit down beside him on the large couch. Laying back against a plush blanket that seems to pull you deeper into the couch. "How was your day?"

"Fine," You tell him, "other than some commission lady visiting me."

"About what?" He asks curiously.

"Oh ya know about you," You say as you swirl your drink lightly, "I'm distracting you apparently."

"They know about us hooking up?" He asks.

"Someone uploaded a picture online," You share, "it was taken down as quickly as it went up but they still got their hands on it."

"How hot is the pic?" he asks.

"Just us talking at the club," You tell him, "it could mean anything but they know my track record."

"Track record?"

"You aren't the only hero I've ever hookup with," You tell him, "you are the only one trying to beat me in my own game though. If that means anything to me."

"Its nice to hear I'm the first to challenge you," He says, "I guess I never realized how much of a player you are."

"No one does at first," You tell him, "most only realize it after it's too late. Thats my whole thing. Draw you in before you see how bad I am for you."

"Mmm thats kinda hot," He says, "the whole dangerous woman thing."

"Thank you," You say, "it's my thing ya know." You sip the wine as he watches you carefully.

"Why do you do it?" He asks me, "the whole player thing?"

"Honestly?" You asks him. He nods. "Okay well I simply just want to live it up. I'm young and in my prime. I want to have some fun with out any ties. Find who I am. Experiment. I was so focused on my future in high school and college that when I got my job at Impressions agency I just decided to finally let myself enjoy life."

"So this is relatively new for you?" He asks. You nod.

"Yeah I've been doing it for like two years," I tell him, "like a month after I graduated."

"Wow," He says.

"Yep and now I'm a pro," You tease, "unlike you."

"Oh come on I'm a pro," He says, "I've been doing this since I was 18."

"And you suck at it," You tease, "it's fine maybe you can learn from me." He chuckles. "So how was your day Hawks?"

"Same old same old," He says, "paper work. Mission stuff. All the same stuff. It feels unending."

"Yeah I feel that," You say, "and you must be even more burnt out then I am. I don't think I've seen you stop in years."

"Yeah pretty much running on empty here," He sighs, "honestly this is the least busy I've been in a while. And here I am spending all my time with you."

"I'm honored," You say sarcastically.

"You better be," He says, "I could be cruising hella and yet I'm giving all that up for you." You smile lightly.

"I wanna know something about you Hawks," You say looking carefully at him.

"Ask me anything."

"Do you like being a hero?"

He's taken back on how serious the question is. He thinks for a second.

"Yeah," he answers, "I think I do at least. I mean I don't think there was every really another option for me..." You watch him carefully. He just keeps going. "I enjoy the job and helping people. But ya know I don't stop. I'm going so fast and I don't see an end to all this. The breaks on it are broken so I feel the only way to stop is to crash."

"Who said the breaks are broken?" You ask him, "why not bring them back?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean why not look at your job a different way," You tell him, "you like saving people. And maybe it doesn't have to end with you crashing. Maybe you discover the breaks actually aren't broken and you get to stop the safe way and have a life after all this."

"But what if the breaks are broken?" he asks, "what if I'm destined to die in the end?"

"The breaks aren't broken," You say, "I have faith that you will get a happily ever after. You're gonna convince some poor girl to settle down with you and have cocky red winged babies." He chuckles lightly.

"You think I'll have kids?" He asks, "I never even pictured kids for myself."

"You can't keep your hands to yourself," You tell him, "there is no way you won't end up with kids."

"Wow you truly think I'm just some man whore," He says, "wow I'm a little offended." You laugh lightly at his tone. Whatever offense from the comment he took disappeared as he heard your laugh. He hadn't heard you actually laugh til right now.  It's angelic even.

"What?" You ask him. Confused as to why he's staring at you like that.

"Nothing," He says snapping back to the conversation, "alright its my turn to ask a question."

"Ask away," You say as you lift your cup to your lips.

"Why did you choose to become an agent? I mean that quirk of yours is hero material," He says, "what happened?" Your smile drops lightly. "Sore subject?"

"I got rejected from UA and from a couple other hero schools," You tell him, "the entrance exams were brutal for a quirk like mine. It's not combat it's rescue and when I tried to reapply to the program later in my years at UA I kept getting rejected. There was always someone stronger than me who could handle their quirk better than I could. So I gave up. I decided if I couldn't be a hero then I could help the heroes."

"UA is stupid as hell for rejecting you," He says, "because if we had a hero like you then Japan would be crime free."

You smile lightly.

"That's not true," You say.

"Think about it you could use the portals to transport the villains straight to jail," He tells me, "or stick just one limb in it to beat up someone. And think about partnering with other heroes. You could move them from one spot to another to work faster and handle emergencies faster. Those hero schools made a huge mistake rejecting you and they are gonna regret it."

"I hardly doubt that," You say to him, "besides so many kids dream of being a hero. And a lot of them end up like me settling for something else. I mean you're a hero you must of saw it when you were preparing."

He didn't. He didn't take the traditional path. He was forced into this career so he didn't realize how many people tried to get into this career and couldn't. If some many people wanted to do it why did he have to? No he shouldn't think of that.

"Right yeah," He says, "it's a shame though. How many people get barred from this job."

"It's why vigilantes exist," You say, "I actually considered becoming a vigilante but my mom was already sick at that point so I just decided to give up on it all together." You move sipping your wine.

"Do you have another question for me?" He asks wanting to change the subject.

"Sure," You say, "alright... why are you playing along with this game?"

"You're going for the hard questions," He says as you lean over pouring yourself another glass of wine, "you don't go easy do you?"

"Not often," You reply, "I'm just curious. I mean most people move on at this point."

"I don't want to give up," he says, "I wanna win."

"I respect that," You say, "I also respect that you are losing so bad." He rolls his eyes playfully.

"In your perspective sure," He says, "but in mine. Well man I'm doing pretty well. And I even think I'm growing on you."

"Like a rash," You say smirking.

"I'll take that as a compliment."

"Of course you will," You say, "you're too much sometimes you know."

"Okay my question now," He says, "have you ever been in a serious relationship?"

"Uh I dated this guy from my second year in highschool all the way up to the middle of my 2nd year of college," You tell him, "he dumped me because he said that I didn't make enough time in my life for him which was true. What about you?"

"I dated a chick for a little bit when I was 19 but it lasted like a month," He says, "never really bothered to do the whole relationship thing ya know."

"Does that count as my question?" You ask him.

"Well it's only fair," He says, "alright me again. Who was your favorite hero in bed?"

"Hmmm that's a hard one," You say thinking carefully, "Eraserhead. He was kinky as hell for a sleepy guy."

"You slept with Eraserhead?" He asks me, "how did that happen?!"

"It was easy Impression was on security for the sports festival last year and well I went with him to look at the kids for the internship and well I met Eraserhead and we started talking. He mentioned briefly that he remembered hearing about me when I was in college for some report on the dark side of heroes I did that blew up online. He wanted to talk about it. Share his experience. So we went out for drinks. One thing lead to another and we went to mine."

"Wow," He says, "I'm impressed. Honestly. But also tell me more about this report?"

"It's my turn to ask a question," You say to him, "my question is who the hell cleans this apartment? Cause there is no way you do."

"You caught me I have a maid," He says, "don't worry I don't sleep with her. I don't even see her most of the time. She comes in cleans then leaves."

"Hmm," You say, "must be nice."

"I've seen your apartment don't act like you don't have money," He says, "your apartment is a penthouse."

"It helps to work for a legacy agency some times," You tell him, "they pay nicely... I'm starving. I should probably get home and get some food."

"I have pizza on the way," He says, "I thought ahead. I hope you like cheese pizza."

"Sounds great to me," You say, "okay so your question."

"The report tell me about it."

You guys go back and forth for hours. Only stopping to enjoy your pizza. It's nice. You both are really enjoying it. You forget all about the game and instead its just two friends enjoying your time together. It isn't until you catch the time that you even think about ending the conversation.

"It's 2 am," You tell him, "oh my god I need to get home."

"You can stay here," He offers, "I have a guest bedroom."

"You don't want me to stay in your room?" You ask him.

"I mean if you want to I won't stop you," He says, "but I figured you'd be more comfortable in your own space."

"Thats really sweet," You say to him, "I'd like that."

"You want a shirt to sleep in?" You nod. He moves going to grab a shirt for you as you place the two wine glasses into the kitchen. When he comes back he moves leading you through the house to the guest room.

"I'll see you in the morning," He says.

"Night Hawks," you say to him. You move pecking his cheek. He smirks lightly.

"Night Y/n."

[theelliottsmiths]

I genuinely don’t understand where people get the whole “drama queen” from. Like, he’s a catastrophic communicator and embarrassing, but drama queen?! He’s always perfectly nice unless people ask him bullshit questions ... I just don’t understand?!

This got so long, for once I am genuinely sorry about making something so long.

I think a lot of people misinterpret his actions and things he says as him doing it for the sake of drama rather than there being actual regular issues.

To him, me, and probably also Till, the general band disagreements and the Mutter issue don't read like a lot of people read them. For a start, it wasn't/isn't all him (why do people love to ignore that Paul especially is just as much of a problem when it comes to guitarist disagreements? And the others played a part too), but also I think there are explanations that make way more sense than writing him off as just a drama queen.

Richard has a lot of trauma from being abused and emotionally neglected as a child, from the country he's from, from likely not being NT, from fleeing and essentially becoming a refugee. His thinking seems to be more black and white than is maybe useful. I'm not sure of his drug use timeline but that's also potentially a factor.

All of those things impact the way you communicate with people, how you handle criticism, how you go about relying on other people (he wasn't able to rely on people he should have as a kid and that doesn't just go away) and pretty much everything else that relates to the way the guys clash. That's not even touching on the problems the other guys have, including Paul and his trust issues.

So yeah, maybe he sees arguments as worse than they objectively are because he learned to expect that (though I'm pretty sure a lot of the 'it wasn't that bad' is damage control and time), but it's not to be dramatic or cause problems for the sake of causing problems or getting attention or anything else. It's how he genuinely reads the situation because of trauma and his sensitivity levels. Being a sensitive person and being a drama queen are not the same thing.

A lot of the Mutter situation was about Richard doing too much and the band feeling like they had to do it too to keep up: they didn't feel like the division of the band and work was working. So far I've never seen one of them say Richard directly caused the problem, just that what Richard was doing made the problems. That sounds like the same thing but it isn't, it's all about intent. Example: If someone answers a load of asks really well one day and it makes me feel bad because I have a large backlog and can take Forever to write back that's not the same as them saying anything about me/other people who haven't answered as many, you know? Yeah, eventually it became arguments that heavily involved and, depending on who you ask, targeted Richard, but he didn't cause it the way a lot of fans assume.

And then on Richards side, it wasn't that he set out to cause trouble: he was struggling with how intense his need to create and desire do do it Correctly was. A lot of that stems from his awful self esteem and feeling like if he isn't creating good things he has no worth. He's right when he calls himself a very creative person, and that's not always a useful thing. Imagine being a writer, writing maybe a book every five years, and then coauthoring with a much more prolific author like Stephen King. Stressful.

Mayhaps instead of blaming him we should say 'Oof sometimes people really need to take the time to learn to communicate effectively with each other huh?'. They all were contributing.

There's a quote, I'll see if I can dredge it up, about Paul or Schneider(?) basically having to do research to learn how to talk to Richard. I think it's a really important thing to keep in mind that other than maybe the occasional remark, which can be made towards anyone, they don't seem to see him as a drama queen. Occasionally dramatic (as everyone is, it's not the same), maybe overly sensitive for some of them, but they still love him. They're still friends.

Hes not melodramatic, expressing honestly and plainly things like not wanting to record another album because he's tired is not a bad thing. He says he hates touring, then he says he loves touring with Rammstein, and they're both true statements, he just doesn't hide his inconvenient or contradictory feelings the way a lot of people do. ~That's not drama~. Imagine me singing that with much drama and vibrato, ironically, as thats how I typed it.

The Drama Queen thing in this community seems to be half genuinely thinking that and half boiling them down like fictional characters for ease or because it's what people are used to. Richard is the dramatic one, Flake is the grumpy one, Paul is always a ray of sunshine etc. It's not true, that's not how people work in real life, but it's easy to slip into when you don't have a personal relationship with someone. No room for nuance or contradictions or change.

In summary: Richard is just a person and I'm very grateful he started Emigrate and learned to siphon off the need to create and control their creativity.

Sidenote: Schneider said in this interview that they never almost broke up and yet in the Mutter making of he completely contradicts himself.