#BUT IT WAS CURSED TO BE A 2012 OTO.ME ... amnesia the potential i would demand for you if i could remake the series today

[dangaer]

this has been on my mind since yesterday but tbqh ikk.i's dynamic with his fanclub, rik.a in particular, is a lot more than hatred with him forced to put up with them.

at his core, ikk.i views himself as a self fulfilled prophecy following the wish he made to the heavens. simply put, he believes he holds a lot of responsibility towards those who fall under the charm of his eyes, and therefore holds a majority, if not the same amount for the actions they take in the very same way. it's a shared responsibility, something in which would have never happened if he didn't make a wish in the first place, and therefore is one of the leading factors on why he chooses to interact and humour them, even if the way of love is something that makes him uncomfortable, or something that he cannot recuperate.

rik.a is very much an important part of this, perhaps the one he would feel slightly more positive back, simply because of their history. ikk.i and rik.a are labeled as childhood friends, meaning that she has seen the ikk.i 'before' the wish, a more insecure and unloved version of himself. while he may dislike her actions now, and find it appalling how she handles the club, there is still a part of him who is always going to know rik.a as the girl he grew up with, the girl who stood by his side all those years ago. while she has changed, there is always a part of his heart in particular that will hold the fun memories of her, the happy times and her love.

on a broader scale, alongside his guilt and the general positive emotions he secretly harbours for the past of the members, it should be noted that ikk.i particularly views the clubs, and any other girl who falls for his eyes love, as a cruel rendition of his own love from the gods. when ikk.i loves someone, that is it. he wouldn't let anyone stand in the way of him and his love, even if he has to fight for it. seeing the rather obsessive, toxic side of this from the girls in the club ... it almost feels like a shackle, a warning to ikk.i: dont you ever fall in love, because this could be you in the same way.