#BUT I WILL I SWEAR ITS NOT A WNAT ITS A NEED I W I L L FIGURE THIS OUT

[zaacoy]

hi tumblr here's a collection of me trying and failing to draw freenoodles kisses thumbss up, good evening and goonight freenoodles nation x]

[roguestarsailor]

brain dumping [ignore pls]

going to tour studios today (2)

one looks very promising but hes gonna be mad i cant move until june 20

thinking about sending a message to my landlord about leaving (and also have to beg him to send a letter of recommendation to the promising looking studio) but is it too premature?

i followed two of the people i talk most in the design team and THEY DONT WANT TO FOLLOW ME BACK

well one of them specifically accept my follow request BUT DIDNT FOLLOW ME BACK

im so confused and rethinking about our interactions and im like ohh he doesnt like me like a friend he only likes me as a coworker

im feeling sad about this (and i see how many mutual followers who are also our coworkers he follows so!!!) i guess we gotta stay coworkers-- feeling like i read the room wrong & embarrassed!!!

the other one im less pressed about cuz hes technically oversees everything i do?? but he's not technically my manager and sometimes he doesnt act like a managing person and more like a fellow coworker but regardless im actually ok if he doesnt accept cuz i feel like we see each other TOOOOO much

nyc seems so much more fun and im actually excited to go

im so stressed about money like im making no good financial decisions and idk what to do

im looking for jobs just to see what i can do

i need to freelance?? i gotta figure this out; i cannot sustain myself with only one job

which ISNT IT FUCKED THAT I MAKE SIX FIGURES AND I CANT EVEN GET A FUCKEN IN UNIT???? ISNT THAT ABSOLUTELY FUCKED?????

also just the studios i can afford are old as shit and not in the best part of town or i can find slightly better but i'd have to live w roommates..but like those should be CHOICES but right now its like my only options

and it makes me really mad at this city because me, making six figs, can barely find spaces i can afford and i swear i'm not spending frivolously; just using the 30% rule on rent expenses so yeah no shit theres so much homelessness around here!! who the fuck can afford these places????

dont get me started on how everyone thinks homelessness is the problem and NOT a symptom of the issue and i want to fight everyone; like yall think these prices are ok?? yes yall can pay it but SHOULD we??? its not good for ANYONE!!

this roommate search is hella stalling and i think ive made peace w what i have to do (and spend :( )

it'd be only 4 months of aggressive savings to make back what i lost so i am grateful to have padding financially and have a steady job

i wish my roommate moved out in winter so theres more inventory and i could get cheaper rent kljsfdfslkdj

my fucken god what is this city

i should have gone to NYC; i think i might find belonging over there much better

im stress eating; fudge ice cream and two pringles cans this week

this habit is really carried over from college aksdjklasd and i cannot stop it!!!

i should have found a husband instead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this fucken place makes me wnat to die

looking for a new career makes me want to dieeeeee

[concentrated-mug-of-me]

okay im gonna try ur welcome. one ask. all from memory. if i fuck up i fuck up.

good morning heartsville this is tank comin at ya the voice of reason the voice of the season here at WLUV the student run radio station here at heartsville high the heart of america its 7 am on the dot and a perfect 68 degrees out there to start the school year off right. just a reminder folks heartsvilles annual community picnic is this weekend so guys grab ur guy and girls grab ur girl and head on down to lookout lake. and if u dont have anyone to grab sounds like youve got some extra love on ur hands and i know one magical matchmaker who just aint gonna let you get away with that. so go get em zanna this ones for you!!!!

when the alarm clock rings u know ive got to start to sing thinkin bout the joy the days gonna bring love is all around it just has to be found my job is making sure ig gegs spread around. i knew the day of my birth that i was put on this eartj to make sure no one suffers extra love so you can leave it to me its my responsibility to pass it on to someone without enough. i seek out the truth im a love sleuth im goin undercover for a lover who might not find another and im lookin for clues and they might point to you so come on gimme ur extra love. hey cindy! who do we got on the schedule today? steve buckman a quarterback i dont know him he must be new well im sure he is feelin a bit lonely ill see what i can do.

two by two just like noah had to do the only trick to love is finding who belongs with who so come on lets start the arks about to depart we gotaa pick up some extra love. (mornin mornin hi hi whatever have a good day) whos got wxtra love? i spy (call call me see ya later whatever) mornin officer klotsky! mornin zanna was your date w dr green a success ohh you bet hes the perfect guy for meee yeah i thought he might be my gratitude to you i cant express all in a days work! we walkes thru the park holding hands hntil dark such a guy i jever thought id meet yeah life is so sweet when extra love is complete so now im keepin the beat down on love street.

zanna karla hi roberta zanna hi (ahatever) whos got extra loce? not i because we got some hreat news uh huh you wont believe this uh uh tell em karla yeah! i forget what it is we’ll be govethee forever oh yeah our loves here to stay uh huh i cant believe we met only yesterday ! e just wantes to thank you fof makinv us fall in love zanna! u know karla i cant actyally make two people fall in love. i can merely favikitate! good morning everyone good morning principal cooper. now zanna i trust you wont be meddling in anyones affairs this year now will you? now principal cooper would i ever meddle in anyone elses affairs? yes you would. ur darn right i would!

two by two just like noah had to do the only trick to love is finding who belongs with who oh well i better go my friend is waiting and so ill see uou later later later later shes so great i know. (hi hi hihi bye bye bye whatever) whos got extra love? mike does! i dont but theres this new guy in town perhaps youve seen him around. mike has a crush on him i dont you do he does okay i do but let me make this clear zanna dont interfere oh please no please no please no pleas no PLEASE heres what im gonna do. (please no!) friday ill walk by and say hi next week we’ll start to speak and boah blah blah blah just be a man forget this stupid plan and quit the delay i dont wanna scare him awayyy no ur just a chicken ow chicken ow HEY NEW GUY wuit it oww. come on! good luck on ur chess match today mike!

excuse me olease but ut seems ive lost my way how bout a map ill explain another day hi im zanna im steve new quarterback of the team howd u know a little birdy told me oh i see what brings u to the midwest a mikitary request my two dads r five star generals in the army ooo im impressed. so we move place to place base to base unpack the suitcase try to make a few friends and then pack up and leave again wherever ive been ive never seemed to fit in. well never fear uts clear you fit in here! so keep up that chin. thanks for the encouragemnet ill see u in class!

oh excuse me. no no its my fault. hey hi zanna kate how are you wait i cant im running late. breakfast sure wnat som yeah what a pptatt would be great. thanks! let me uh uh find you pleae dont a girl no thanks im doing fine. it it wont will change will not ur world ive got no time ive got sats acts aps and gpas and college applications w all those tribulations to get to university then a medical degree so i just cant b distracted by loves triviality. no! yiu just havent met the right girl yet u can philosophize and rationalize but theyre just alibis loves all u need just take it from me okay u can set me up great! when im 33! ill get u yet.

hey zanna!! hey mr dj! wont you play this song for meee from the way that ur beamjn i see that ur schemin to turn somebodys dream to realityy you know me so well well its not hard to tell ur always happy making dreams come trhe its what i do! well in spite of ur list theres always one guy u miss i do who? you i know u got dreams too. no time my friend.

hi zanna. hi candi hi buck hey zanna. whats on the clipboard for today well the school board .. well as im sure you know the schoolboard is meeting with the ciry council to discuss whether or not the linrary should be allowed to carry a copy of hearher has one mommy and one daddy. in my opinion .. oh and if you can think of anyone we could sure use another guy for this years musical. come along buck. yes candi.

the schoop musical, huh? i think i have just the right guy! i seek out the truth im a love sleuth im going undercover for a lover who might not find another and im lookin for coues and they might point to you so come on gimme ur extra love. [i almost fucked up here] well u can cocer your tracks thats a fact jack but you aint gonna shake me to fake or make me take a break from chasin you can duck off the trail but im hot on your trail so come on gimme ur extra love now baby dont try to run from the love gun ive got the place surrounded and bounded the hounds r all around it you may be on the lam from the love caravan but u aint getting away w your love!

cause this is heartsville high where i dream of a love that will stay heartsville high where nothings ever gonna get in my way heartsville high where ive a feeling loves about to begin i hope that this time im gonna fit in. HEY you over there dont be shy come iver here i bet you got extra love what you hoarding it for? lifes got so much in store for someone w extra love. dont try to hide you cant keep it inside you migt as well give up ur extra love cause if u want love to stay you gotta give it away you gotta give up give up give up hive uo your ectra looooooove give up your extra love!

this took me over half an hour to type.

dee,,,,,,,other than the typos (and the whatevers) this is accurate as far as i can tell and how did that all fit in one ask i swear there was a character limit