#BEST MC IM TELLIN YOU

[forhope]

   :[  @malicedarkened​ asked:  Alright, lightning-blast to his head, he’d admit it — he loved Astral and Yuma. Showing it was a concern often plagued across the edges of his mind, that he didn’t express it enough (when was the last time he even said it?) That stopped today. If human tradition allowed for one day in the year to be unapologetically sappy, now was the best time and excuse.

   “I love you.” 

   It came out faster and more forceful than Mist was expecting, freezing once the words out. Well, no backing out now. 

   “ You both.. obviously you know, what you’ve done. Helped. For me. Shown and done more than I… more than you…. I don’t - want to think about, if you hadn’t… if we weren’t. What we are. Just. Thanks. ” ( happy seasons uwu 💙)  ]:

   Rare  was  the  days  when  the  duo  had  the  chance  to  form  the  embodiment  of  their  bond  in  a  peaceful  circumstance,  rarer  were  such  warm  words  shared  from  Astral’s  found  brother.  It  seemed  the  holiday  season  had  allowed  both  to  transpire !

   Zexal’s  aura  flared  as  the  duo  shared  in  the  heartfelt  moment,  a  hand  raising  to  the  warrior’s  chest  as  a  smile  grew  upon  their  face.  Yuma  kept  himself  from  interrupting  until  Mist’s  words  fumbled  themselves  out  in  full.  Once  they  were  said  and  done,  the  warrior  lunged  forward,  trapping  the  number  in  a  tight  embrace.

   It  was  hard  to  imagine  the  time  Before  mist  had  grown  so  close  to  them,  before  he  had  joined  their  odd  little..  soul-  family??  Bond?? Thing????  Yuma  didn’t  know  a  good  word  for  it.  Regardless,  Mist  had  grown  a  lot  since  they  pulled  him  from  that  web  of  chaos  and  strings.  He’d  gotten  nicer,  warmer,  and  though  he’d  never  lost  his  bite  he’d  grown  to  be  a  dependable  friend,  and  more.  Astral  let  out  a  content  hum  as  Yuma  made  Zexal  snuggle  close.  No  escape !

   “  We  love  you  as  well,  Mist..  Brother.  “               “  Yeah,  don’  worry..  we  love  you,  spooky  mc  grumpiness  side  and  all !   “                       “  Y u m a -  “                           “  WHAAAT?!  IM  TELLIN’  HIM  I  LOVE  HIM  BACK !!  “

[sakiyo]

i see the Itadori pfp and i am SWOONING

AS YOU SHOULD ‼️‼️

[leo-interactive-fiction]

So hear is an interesting one Leo. What type of chess players are the ROs? Are the aggressive, cautious, offensive, defensive? And how would they do against an Mc who is near master level

Ohh, interesting haha. Let’s see...

E: They’d be overly cautious and doubtful of their moves, especially knowing the MC is so good at the game. They may jump at what they think is a good opportunity and wince when they realize you countered it, “I shouldn’t have done that, should I?”

R: As an aristocratic pastime, they’re quite experienced with the game. Their pattern recognition and observational skills make them a tricky opponent. Against the MC, you may find they’re much more calculated than they usually let on. “How about a little wager to make things interesting? If I win, I get a free ticket to tell you to do any one thing I want. You’re confident in your skill, right?”

L: Though chess isn’t really popularized in Hospur, there are similarly tiled board games that L can pull fundamentals from. Yet despite not having any advanced knowledge of the game, they still give you a run for your money with quick reasoning and extreme foresight while they play a calm and simple strategy. “Though I can’t compare to you, I will do my best to make this a learning experience for the both of us.”

V: Strategy isn’t their strongest suit, but the incredible boldness and aggression of their moves has a way of unnerving you as they sacrifice nearly every piece in a ruthless campaign towards your king. “As long as the commander survives, the mission continues. Sacrifices are a necessary expense of war.”

P: They’re aggressive in their attack, but not so much that they blindly jump into any set up you place. You’re surprised to find they temper their knee jerk reactions a lot more when you place them at a defensive, and adapt incredibly quick under any pressure you provide. No matter the situation you may put them in, it doesn’t stop their shit talking. “You think I care how good you are at a stupid board game? You’ll shut the fuck up about it when I win.”

M: Though they’re much slower to move than any other person you’ve faced, it’s not due to ignorance. In fact, you find they make set ups several moves past what even you would consider, playing the extreme long game. Even as you recognize the high level plays, M maintains an airheaded expression. “I’m...not that...good...so...please go easy...”

Ra: They play extremely rapidly and erratically, bouncing pieces around the board in a seemingly random fashion. It’s not until they’ve checked your king that you realize they went by some extremely convoluted system to do what you would have in a couple moves, using your long-built expectations against higher-skilled players against you. “Do you recognize this set up? It’s the same one you used 59 days ago. I memorized it and moved everything to the same place!”

S: They kinda ditzy around the board. They don’t even know how half the pieces are supposed to move, showcased when they get surprised to find the pawn doesn’t capture in a straight line. “What kinda backwards crap is that? Ya tellin’ me I can’t beat a guy right in front of me, but by some magic I can reach over and get ‘im if they’re further away?”

F: They’re much more cautious than you imagined, not taking any unnecessary risks that would endanger their pieces. They play a very quiet game, and wait for you to make the first capture. You path out the complex web of baits and traps they plan for you to fall into, a sense of dread creeping up your spine as F laces their fingers together with keen patience. “It believe it is your turn. My time is quite valuable, so I suggest you do not keep me waiting.”

Thank ya for the ask! Hope you enjoy!

[dyoxide]

im in a good mood so i put together my personal 200 songs list, everything is in a spotify playlist already but if you want to read my rankings i’ll put it below. it isnt really based on what’s “best” or like most culturally significant cause im not trying to spend that much time, so it’s basically just in order of significance to my own style. also i made it on spotify so there are probably some un-streamable songs that would’ve made the list but whatever

frank ocean - seigfried

burial - come down to us

kanye west - hold my liquor

kendrick lamar - sing about me, i’m dying of thirst

beyoncé - drunk in love

burial - ashtray wasp

sufjan stevens - death with dignity

frank ocean - pyramids

playboi carti - no time

lana del rey - venice bitch

lone - pineapple crush

azealia banks - soda

frank ocean - chanel

four tet - lush

yves tumor - honesty

machinedrum - gunshotta

moodymann - lyk u use 2

young thug - hercules

future - march madness

beach house - silver soul

chief keef - war

dj koze - pick up

playboi carti - beef

burial - rodent

lil uzi vert - dark queen

frank ocean - skyline to

tee grizzley - first day out

baths - ossuary

doon kanda - axolotl

erykah badu - phone down

nina kraviz - working

fka twigs - give up

sza - normal girl

nicki minaj - four door aventador

tinashe - superlove

kanye west - no more parties in la

sky ferreira - everything is embarrassing

lil ugly mane - on doing an evil deed blues

clams casino - natural

crystal castles - plague

kendrick lamar - untitled 07

xxyyxx - alone

oneohtrix point never - replica

blue iverson - soulseek

young nudy - ea

yves tumor - limerence

playboi carti - location

babyfather - deep

against all logic - you are going to love me and scream

the carters - summer

perfume genius - otherside

burial - stolen dog

maxo kream - roaches

sophie - msmsmsm

ryuichi sakamoto - andata

solange - losing you

drake - no tellin

gunna - sold out dates

blood orange - evp

beyoncé - party

rick ross - mc hammer

sufjan stevens - futile devices

lana del rey - terrence loves you

quay dash - queen of ny

trippie redd - 1400/999 freestyle

grimes - flesh without blood

waka flocka flame - 50k

sky ferreira - i blame myself

young thug - hot

rico nasty - hockey

teams - alchemy

megan thee stallion - freak nasty

charli xcx - track 10

the knife - full of fire

future - the percocet & stripper joint

lana del rey - sad girl

elysia crampton - dummy track

azealia banks - no problems

a$ap ferg - shabba

kelela - enough

beyoncé - party

rae sremmurd - take it or leave it

lil peep - beamer boy

zomby - euphoria

chief keef - baby whats wrong with you

odd future - oldie

meek mill - jump out the face

kilo kish - self importance

freddie gibbs - thuggin

aphex twin - aisatsana [102]

actress - the lord’s graffiti

laurel halo - chance of rain

vessel - argo (for maggie)

moodymann - freeki muthafucka

dj rashad - drank, kush, barz

young thug - just might be

kendrick lamar - feel.

kelela - all the way down

tinashe - sunburn

lady gaga - scheiße

delroy edwards - love is in the air

blood orange - you’re not good enough

maxo kream - pop another

earl sweatshirt - chum

leon vynehall - drinking it in again (chapter iv)

skee mask - 50 euro to break boost

arca - thievery

partynextdoor - wus good/curious

nicolas jaar - no

rezzett - worst ever contender

special request - soundboy killer

junglepussy - i just want it

sporting life - triple-double no assists

laurel halo - airsick

salem - king night

gucci mane - actavis

a tribe called quest - we the people….

blood orange - christopher & 6th

keith ape - it g ma remix

charli xcx - secret

grouper - lighthouse

grimes - rosa

dold - eva

roman flügel - song with blue

nickelus f - i got up

freddie gibbs - practice

lil b - i love you

buddy ross - runnin around

travis scott - 3500

tyler the creator - lone

alice glass - without love

solange - don’t wish me well

kadhja bonet - nobody other

lil uzi vert - canadian goose

sega bodega - daddy

amnesia scanner - as too wrong

oneohtrix point never - meet your creator

andy stott - faith in strangers

laurel halo - throw

a$ap rocky - fashion killa

bonobo - eyesdown (machinedrum remix)

curren$y - fashionably late

shinichi atobe - so good, so right 2

delroy edwards - for club use only

sd laika - great god plan

nina kraviz - fire

baba stiltz - beirut

arca - brokeup

crystal castles - vietnam

aphex twin - abundance10edit

james ferraro - eternal condition

caribou - silver

zomby - things fall apart

galcher lustwerk - i neva seen

m.i.a. - double bubble trouble

skream - where you should be

lil ugly mane - wishmaster

archy marshall - buffed sky

balam acab - motion

lanark artefax - styx

christian scott atunde adjuah - ruler rebel

salem - king night

shxcxchcxsh - monolithic conclusion

sepalcure - pencil pimp

logos - wut it do

tirzah - fine again

lorenzo senni - win in the flat world

compton white - mainland

barker - filter bubbles

sega bodega - boyz n the hood

x-coast - mango bay

shygirl - msry

tv girl - cigarettes out the window

hiatus kaiyote - molasses

kelsey lu - dreams

actress - our

hiele - gestures

croatian amor - love means taking action

dean blunt & inga copeland - 9

jamie xx - the rest is noise

sade - babyfather

drake - look what you’ve done

kendrick lamar - ronald reagan era

machine girl - crystalline chute

the field - cupid’s head

dj rashad - let it go

huerco s. - 'iińzhiid

s. maharba - w.i.g.t.s.

purity ring - obedear

chynna - fuck wit me

jitwam - yesiknw

emeralds - now you see me

daphni - sizzling

lone - re-schooling

tnght - higher ground

lotic - resilience

forest swords - the highest flood

pional - we have been waiting for you

patricia - the words are just sounds

marie davidson - so right

[prohaus]

30+

A challenge that had been dead a long time ago 

and I don’t have a diverse playlist. But here we go!

1.      A song you like with a color in the title Black Balloons Reprise – Flying Lotus, Denzel Curry

My favourite performance from Curry and production from Lotus. “Life is the ugliest bitch I ever messed with But she quick to down that nut back like Nesquik”

2.      A song you like with a number in the title A Tale of 2 Citiez – J. Cole

“Anybody is a killer, all you gotta do is push 'em to the limits”. Now give me the watch.

3.      A song that reminds you of summertime Sangria Wine – Pharrell Williams, Camilla Cabello

Cmon, it’s Pharell. “Let's float around like the fruit at the top”

4.      A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about Somebody Else – VERITE

“I'm looking through you while you're looking through your phone and leaving with somebody else”

5.      A song that needs to be played LOUD m.A.A.d city – Kendrick Lama, MC Eiht

“This is not a rap on how I'm slingin' crack or move cocaine”. YAWK YAWK YAWK YAWK

6.      A song that makes you want to dance Man Don’t Dance – Big Shaq

Dance, no. Rambling while also pointing my finger in the air, yes.

7.      A song to drive to Easy – Mac Ayres

Probably a bad idea, since im get lost in music a lot, one of the reasons why I got my first accident because I was freestyling while I was riding my bike.

“I can say that loving you is easy. I don't need to prove a single thing”

8.      A song about drugs or alcohol Swimming Pools – Kendrick Lamar

Well, there is a lot…

“I am your conscience, if you do not hear me. Then you will be history, Kendrick. I know that you're nauseous right now”

9.      A song that makes you happy Scars to Your Beautiful – Alessia Cara

“But there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark. You should know you're beautiful just the way you are”

Me beautiful :3

10.  A song that makes you sad See You Again – Tyler, The Creator, Kali Uchis

“I can only see your face when I close my eyes. Can I get a kiss? And can you make it last forever?”

11.  A song that you never get tired of Wesley’s Theory – Kendrick Lamar

I never get tired of this opening track, it’s really cool for me. Hell, I never get tired playing this album (TPAB) from front to back no skip.

“At first, I did love you. But now I just wanna fuck. Late nights thinkin' of you. Until I get my nut”

12.  A song from your preteen years Dangdut Is The Music of My Country – Project Pop

The first record that I (with my parents) bought wkwk.

“Semua orang macam diciptakan. Cakep atau jelek semua punya perasaan”

13.  One of your favorite 70’s songs Hotel California – Eagles

“Welcome to the Hotel California. Such a lovely place (Such a lovely place). Such a lovely face”

14.  A song that you would be loved played at your wedding Off Deez – JID, J. Cole

“Get off my dick, get off my dick. 40 my hip, loadin' my clip. Cannabis, cannabis, roll up my spliff”

Just kidding, it’s probably:

Say My Name – NIKI

“Soon as we get into the room. I know just what you like, just what to do”

15.  A song that is a cover by another artist Take On Me – Weezer

Cmon it’s “take on me”.

16.  One of your favorite classical songs Ain’t That A Kick In The Head – Dean Martin

Thanks Fallout New Vegas.

“The room was completely black. I hugged her and she hugged back”

17.  A song that would sing a duet with on karaoke Funky Sundays - AdhesiveWombat

18.  A song from the year that you were born Changes – Tupac Shakur, Talent

A posthumous release by the classic legend.

“First ship 'em dope and let 'em deal to brothers. Give 'em guns, step back, watch 'em kill each other. "It's time to fight back," that's what Huey said. Two shots in the dark, now Huey's dead. I got love for my brother. But we can never go nowhere unless we share with each other”

19.  A song that makes you think about life Sing About Me, I’m Dying of Thirst – Kendrick Lamar

From the beats to the lyrics, it’s just beautiful. “Just promise me you'll tell this story when you make it big. And if I die before your album drop, I hope …”

20.  A song that has many meanings to you What Can We Do – Anderson .Paak, Nate Dogg

Probably one of the coolest production by Paak. But sure hell, this song makes me cry. Thanks Nate Dogg. “It's the rap singer, the hook master”

21.  A favorite song with a person’s name in the title CLOUT COBAIN – Denzel Curry

Another side of Mr. Curry. “I just wanna feel myself, you want me to kill myself. Man, I been on my own, Lord, I'ma need some help”

22.  A song that moves you forward Till I Collapse – Eminem, Nate Dogg

Since high school, this is my jam whenever I feel down, hell even when I was brokenhearted. “You bizzles forgot, Slizzle does not give a fuck”

23.  A song that you think everybody should listen to u – Kendrick Lamar

Just listen. No Skip.

“Loving you is complicated, loving you is complicated. I place blame on you still, place shame on you still. Feel like you ain't shit, feel like you don't feel”

24.  A song by a band you wish was still together So Fresh, So Clean – OutKast

This is not a band, but I hope they still make stuff together. “Those huge baby eyes, get to runnin' off at they mouth. And tellin' me everything that's on your nasty mind”

25.  A song by an artist no longer living 2009 – Mac Miller

…

“And sometimes, sometimes I wish I took a simpler route. Instead of havin' demons that's as big as my house, mhmm”

26.  A song that makes you want to fall in love Vintage – NIKI

My favourite from Ms. Zefanya. “Wait a minute, my head's a mess. Please don't tell me you like my dress. Why am I wishin' we were wearing less?”

27.  A song that breaks your heart Let Her Go -  6LACK

“It's a shame, how could I be runnin' games?. After all the trials, after everythin'. Wedding ring, I can change your last name. But I can't let 'em get my baby outta pain”

28.  A song by an artist with a voice that you love G.O.M.D – J. Cole (Live Version)

I am part of the people that overrate Mr. Cole…

“So every day I thank the man upstairs. That I ain't you and you ain't me. Get off my dick, whoa”

29.  A song that you remember from your childhood Not Afraid – Eminem

It’s one of the first hip-hop song that I know, and from that day I know Marshall is on of the G.O.A.T, despite this is not his best record.

“Forget the Earth, he's got the urge to pull his dick from the dirt. And fuck the whole universe”

30.  A song that reminds you of yourself RICKY – Denzel Curry

A song about family, that without their advice and support, I am nothing. “My daddy said, "Trust no man but your brothers. And never leave your day ones in the gutter". My daddy said, "Treat young girls like your mother". My mama said, "Trust no ho, use a rubber"

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Nice nice, only 5 out of 30 are from K-Dot.

Here:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1UqXxXH4qWkgXc2KggPirv

[itscaramelli]

hello, been a while since i write and post. was thinking to launch my article + hashtag series but, i guess i have something a lot better for my 2nd bloggiversary.

as some of you might know, i recently just attended a campus conference; unashamed. so yes, this post today is going to be about that trip. how i got there, the people i met, how i think the city is, what i’ve learned and what God spoke to me personally :) so here it goes.

i love the aftermath of what the conference gave me. im still singing the songs in my head, picturing the visuals in my mind and having the chills from the Word i heard.

Aug 1st - 6th, 2017

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Day 1

our flight was at 2pm in the afternoon, we had a 3-4 hours layover in KL so we arrived at MNL at around 2am in the morning :’) THEN GUESS WHAT, we had few committees from the conference waited for us just to greet and welcome us in the airport on our arrival. that’s just the thing about the people there, they’re VERY welcoming and caring.

yes. it was undeniably tiring, i was unbearably exhausted but was cautiously excited of what’s gonna happen for the next few days. i personally got myself ready for this. i emptied my mind and heart to be filled with what God will give to me during the conference.

for first-timers like us, i knew we should be ready for any unexpected adventures. everything went well until we arrived in our apartment’s concierge; we couldn’t get in to our room as smooth as i imagined. it was around 3am and cuz i didn’t have the information about the room’s number yet, we called the owner of the apartment whom i been contacting through airbnb. YOU KNOW WHAT. turns out she was in labor. no kidding, no exaggeration. she legit was picking up my call and answering me in labor pain 😭💜 this is how extra and dedicated are the people there i’m tellin you.

long story short we finally got our keys, did little re-arrangements for the room and then we went to bed 💤 it was about 4am in the morning.

we got up at about 12noon to look straight for food lol 😂 speaking of which, we stayed in Pasay City. the food around the apartment was either fried chicken or pizza. so yes, you guessed it right, we had fried chicken for lunch.

the gates are opened at 2pm, so after a quick briefing in our tower lobby 2.15, we (with fellow indonesian delegates) walked together to the arena.

i honestly didn’t know what im gonna get myself into. i’ve never attended a campus conference before, so i was pretty much just ready for about anything. then, we were finally there, lining up at the entrance to get in…

they welcomed us with acoustic percussions session which they could invite us to dance along with them.

and that’s one of the things i really loved about the conference; they were really focused on students/youth that the tools they were using to attract us are 100% relatable.

we got there at about 4pm so we had to wait for 2 hours tops til the conference really starts. BUT IT DIDN’T FEEL THAT LONG AT ALL. as you all might know, i showed a glimpse of the ambience of the arena in my facebook posts (and more on this one!); that’s really nothing compared to the real thing, really.

they had videos of what to do and what not to keep us entertained, they also had videos of games which we can react to (basically to shout or dance or wave) and it was fun. they really kept our excitement going.

then they opened the praise & worship session with I’ll Never Walk Alone, it was soooOooooooOo uplifting. it really shows that they’ve thought everything through.

*tune in to Victory Worship’s Beautiful Love to get in my mood!*

the first session reminded me of how God had taken away the shame in me. i, we, were living in sin. sin brought shame. shame takes away our honor, while God actually gave security, talents & skills, which reflects in His image. and shame will try to make us go make an attempt to try with our own efforts to get that. when humanity decided to rebel against God, they immediately signs that they refuse what God has given us, the identity He had given us.

after hearing this message, the Holy Spirit gave me a vision of the things i’ve bothered myself with. the things that made me ashamed of myself in front of God. the lies that it had brought to me which made me who i am today.

then i felt Him. i felt Him saying “I have forgotten all of that. Melissa, you are MY daughter. you are ACCEPTED in My eyes. Don’t ever doubt My love for you. I have forgotten what you did wrong, it’s your turn to do the same.”

tears streamed down my face lyk craayyyyy D’:

God really touched my heart and made me understand that im worth far more than the shame i had built on myself. He has given me a new identity, my shame is covered by His great and everlasting love. no reason for me to be ashamed now.

so after the conference that night, we went to the mall for Jolibee :3

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Day 2

they are opening the gate at 12noon that day and the conference will start at 4pm, so we gotta get ready a lil earlier than the day before.

we had a few plans for lunch that day but didnt manage to do any of it lol #sleepdeprived. since we also wanted to get the merch while knowing it’s gonna be a long line ahead of us for it, so we decided to get lunch in a place near the apartment.

we got in the arena at around 1.30pm i guess, and then went straight for the merchhh! it was a long line, but it was worth it. their merch were really cool and comfy. i wike it.

we always start the session with a praise and worship session. honestly, i rarely listen and haven’t really familarize myself with the church’s own music. so for the past 2 days, we were kinda blanked out. but, the good thing is they repeated the same songs on different sessions that it actually got stuck in our heads little by little.

after day 1, i actually got the revelation of how i should see my church back home in Bali. i feel like now i know the potential of what my church is going to be like. i got to the understanding of being there in the arena feels more like reuniting with the big ENC family. we talk about the same things, we speak the same ‘language’ and we serve the same faithful God <3

session 2 was about being unashamed of God Himself. it hit me just by the title of the message. i love how the conference have its own flow to make us understand in being shame-free. i learned that when we are already unashamed, free from the burden of shame, we can help others to do the same.

to live fearlessly unashamed is to live FULL of the Holy Spirit. God has called me to live a life of fullness, nothing half portioned. when i focus on God, i can see beyond my obstacles.

instead of being ashamed of God, i need to be proud. God has given me the spirit of boldness and love, that’s what happens when i focus on what God has given me. i use that to bring others back to Him, to let others love Him and experience His love. there’s no substitute in living/having the Word; i can’t love God FOR others.

with a lil greeting from few new MCs, we continued to the next session.

this time they talked about being unashamed of the Gospel. here’s what i’ve learned about it; the Gospel works because God MAKES IT WORK. it’s not me nor what i did, but God’s only power.

reasons to be unashamed of the Gospel; first, clarity of the message. meaning, let’s not put too much on our shoulders. Jesus is the message, i shud be telling about Him and what He’s done. second; conviction of Its truth. the Gospel is TRUE no matter they believe it or not. i shudnt hesitate to ask questions/to explore the Word together with fellow world changers :) next; confidence of Its power. the power is in the Gospel, not in me. focus on sharing about Jesus so that i can overcome my obstacles. next reason to be unashamed of the Gospel; compassion for the lost. 

God has a heart for the lost, He wants me to feel the same. and why was i ashamed of the Gospel u ask? cuz i was too focused on myself (on my cant’s and wont’s that i waste time on doubting myself, basically relying on public opinion) rather than the people who are longing for Jesus. 

i have been entrusted with an important duty and have been FILLED with the greatest power, so NO REASON TO BE ASHAMED.

we’re continuing the day to the worship night. during the 2-hour break we got the chance to reunite with the 10Days team from Baguio who visited Bali not so long ago <3 felt so gooood to be with this family again!

it was Campus Day that day, so we were supposed to wear our campus attires/uniforms. cuz lé lack of information i had, we didnt pack any of ours. so me, i decided to change to one of the tees i bought earlier.

now that i have His spirit, the next session was about having the power to preach the gospel. the Holy Spirit gives me boldness. let HIS WORD 'cut out’ into (their) hearts, it’s NOT my job to do that.

the spirit that we’re bringing home is the supposed to be like a volcano not matchsticks. we’ll always have to be ready to explode and let that spirit run through, not easily blown by raging winds. #weareTeka #notTeFiti #datDisneyreferencetho #sorry?

worship night started. we were literally just singing worship songs, speaking in tounge and declaring prophetic words. that part of the night really strengthened the message i have heard from the previous sessions.

there was a part where we were asked to just kneel down and be still to hear from God. im always looking forward to that, cuz i really want to experience hearing directly from God. but like how i’ve mentioned before, God has His own way to communicate with me. 

so on that complete silence while kneeling down, i didnt hear anything.

but when we started to go back standing up, while they’re singing worship songs in the background and prophetic words to strengthen, God started to picture faces in my heads. faces of the people i know and the people i’ve never even met before. faces of people from around the world.

those people i know, are my friends in college. my best friends whom i’ve spent most of my time with back in college. God was showing me how precious they are to me and to Him. God made me understand His heart for them, and not only that, on that very second He started to pour out His heart into mine. i started crying because God made me feel their pain in need of the Salvation. God refreshed me their back stories to remind me they’ve survived life, and they’ve survived for a reason. and that reason is to come back and reunite with Christ.

God changed my heart since that night. God made me see the importance of this mandate He left us to do. im fired up and revived by the Truth that has set me free from shame, and made my spirit rise to be ready to go home and do what needed to be done all this time.

we ended the night with a celebration, praising and worshipping God. the feeling of celebration synchronised with my heart, which was rejoicing knowing im living in a great and powerful purpose. it was a life-changing night for me. i went home with a happy, full and free heart.

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Day 3

same like day 2, we needed to be at the arena at 2pm at least.

different from me and my brother, Jeremy, we had Arrows to attend to that morning. the service starts at 9am so we went from our apartment at 7.30am to be on time there when the gate opens.

Arrows (in Ministry) is a community of Pastors’ Kids in the church worldwide. 

soooooo they served us great breakfast there. breakfast is my favorite meal of the day and there are a lot of foods to choose from i was so happy lol =)) but as you know i cant eat that much anyway, so i literally just had cereal and milk.

it was all good til i heard that we had to sit with complete strangers in one table hahahahaha. shud i even talk about this again? im a full-on introvert :)) just ask me to say hi to people i’ve never met before, and i could faint hahahaha kidding. but yes, please im speaking for fellow introverts on the face of this planet; we don’t like people, we love them :)))

it was not easy sure, but remembering what happened to me the night before i think i got this. so yea, i ended up in this table of 7 of us (new friends!) i guess? it was great to be around the friends who understands and who gets it. we all know the 'pressure’ and it was nice to hear their experiences and how they overcome their hard times.

personally i was never pressured with the pastor’s kid title by my parents. i already understood my role as God’s child and that is not different than any other God’s children in the world. since i was little i’ve never felt so excluded. i’ve never felt i had to be an example BECAUSE im a pastor’s kid, but its because i shud be the salt and light. then when it’s about dealing with meeting people’s expectations, what i understand is that im not a people-pleaser, im a Jesus-pleaser. *grins*

indonesian delegates are wearing indonesia themed/written attire that day. so before heading to the arena together with the bus, i and Jeremy had to change first.

it was a bitter-sweet feeling cuz it was the last day of the conference, but i also can’t wait to go home and share what has impacted me here. as i’ve mentioned before, they never made us feel like we’re waiting cuz they had these videos that kept us entertained.

they made us shout when we see our country’s name on the screen. how convenient??? we were wearing our country’s tees :“)))))

we had Victory Worship to lead us in praise & worship that final day! :))

the fifth session was shared by a Japanese pastor, he introduced us few Japanese words that we can actually use in discipleship. twas fun :3

from that session, using the story of Zacchaeus, we need to know some similarities here. both the campus and Jericho is a strategic place to start to change the world. God is in the business for destroying strongholds. and in the end, God wins :) Jesus engaged with Zacc(haeus), the very opposite person from who Jesus is. but He sees the potential in Zacc.

to have the heart to engage the campus, i need to see the pain of the lost. understand their need of Jesus and His salvation. then i see the potential in the Gospel to transform lives, not me or the people im reaching.

reach the campus by engaging the lost as lifestyle. because discipleship is a life-time process.

we ended that session with a powerful faith declaration.

the next session reminded me that we’re not only should impact our friends in the campus/school but also the people around us who we meet everyday.

what i’ve learned is that engaging the community is not meant to be intimidating and the Gospel is the power of God for Salvation. we are NOT the power, just vessels. so i need to put my confidence in God. cuz when i step out to help others, God will take care of me.

Jesus engaged the community. we engage the community to show what we look like, how we are about; reflecting heaven. it means we don’t always succeed. im not perfect, but im serving a perfect God.

to do it, i need to learn to wait on the Lord. go not with idea, but with faith and power from God. that’s the thing about us, we only carry the power. when i connect with God, i’ll realise who is the power and who is the carrier.

lastly, i need to remind myself that this is all about God. and im doing it to display His splendor.

on day two and day three, they had a halftime show during the break. that day, they chose pairs to represent each patron to play a game on the stage. its like a 'complete the lyrics’ kinda game. i was in the blue patron, our representatives lost but tsokeh!

we were supposed to bring flashlights or something that lights up that day. little did we know, that we’re actually going to use that for during the interval.

*tune in to The Beat by Victory Worship~*

the video got into a moment where it tells us to light up our flashlights while they ask things like; "are you unashamed of God?”, “are you unashamed of the gospel?”, and all we did was shout. and im telling you; i was not just shouting for the euphoria, but i was releasing my excitement cuz i know im free from shame itself and i cant wait to SHARE THE GOSPEL!!!

the video didn’t end there. after asking those questions, they wrote there “look around you. you are not alone.” (DUDEEEEEE WHAT?? HOW WAS I NOT SUPPOSED TO BE EMOTIONAL THAT TIME???!!) i held JJ, Em and Ryan on the shoulders reminding them the same thing :“) the final session hasn’t started yet and i was already crying whattttt.

aaannnddddd the final session is here. #bittersweet :’) they opened with Victory Worship’s “The Beat” sung by soloists in VARIOUS LANGUAGES in the world. MY EMOTION– I CANNOT EXPLAIN IT. :”””””””””

from that final session, ive learned that Jesus’ last words were meant to show His end-game; for us, all of us, to live in the Kingdom of God where the devil has no power.

Jesus directed His disciples to a specific place for missions; Galilee. irreligious, insubordinate and interracial Galilee. that’s where God wants His Kingdom to be settled on. there was a clear purpose why Jesus chose the mountain of Galilee, its cuz that’s where all the wrong things happen. 

His mission of bringing His 12 disciples was to send the TEENAGERS! WOOTS!!

we are not saved from something, we are saved FOR something.

the discipleship message is and has always been about Jesus. when we make disciples, we’re bringing Jesus to spread Jesus. so that His Kingdom is brought to this world. the method to do is teaching. teaching is about a personal journey through a personal relationship. we make disciples as we journey though life together.

the moment when im doing the right thing, thats where temptation will find its way to me. so i gotta keep that spirit and keep my eyes on Jesus at all times. and reminding myself that Jesus promises all authority for me to be His daughter.

dat bitter-sweet feeling so strong tho :”) the conference has ended, but it’s just the beginning now!

after everything’s done we were asked to leave the arena immediately but you know me imma take as many pictures i cud, keeping dem memories bruhhh!

we had dinner with the 10Days team from SWM ’16 who went to Bali last year. we ate at this pizza place called Yellow Cab :3 good food with awesome and loving fransss <3 #reunited

after that we went for a coffee (not me) and played game cards there. one thing i’ve learned from the people there is that; they stay up late! hahaha we were still at that coffee shop over 11.30pm and people haven’t stopped coming in.

thought we stopped there? nope. we, well some of us, decided to go karaoke somewhere near the arena. but we were wrong. it was more than 4km, we walked for almost an hour i guess??? but then we didn’t karaoke after all cuz it was too late and the minimum use for the room was for 3 hours so. yep we walked back :) fun…

what a DAY. we got back in our apartment then directly went to bed.

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Day 4 (last day)

we had plans with the Dionglays for that afternoon :3 we were sent an uber to go to the Every Nation building in BGC.

we were taken to the cafeteria as soon as we arrived. had lunch and then we were toured around the building, took pictures in front of the infamous world map and then sat in for a while in the prayer training. in that very prayer training, we got new friends and got a chance to partner up with them in prayer.

i personally loved the building, it’s like seeing the future! hahah everything is in its place and so organised. the atmosphere was so welcoming i didn’t want to go out :’)

but we did, we did few walks around the BGC and i started to realize that the EN building is literally surrounded by campuses and world embassies… was kinda speechless, it’s like God showed His obvious purpose for them to be placed there. <3

the rest of the day was funnnnn, we went to Market Market then had Philippines authentic cuisine for dinner. i enjoyed and loved every minute, it’s like reuniting with family.

went home with a full heart and tummy :3

and of course i didn’t go pack then sleep. i was legit polaroid photo hunting with Ems. didn’t go anywhere far, we went downstairs to the playground and pool area tryna get the best shots we could get. #lastnight #gottamakeitcount

packed then went to bed at around 1am? i forgot! x)

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Day 5

going homeeee :(: flight was at 12noon, so we needed to be there at least at 9am.

yes, that was a Sunday. but church service was impossible to attend, so we did a mini worship & sharing sesh in the apartment before we took off.

our kuya managed to get us some friends to help us for our airport trip. didn’t pay attention to the ticket, we actually got off at the wrong airport terminal =)) i panicked cuz i can’t have anymore spontaneous adventures that time :’)))) but God made everything go smooth afterwards, we made it in time for check in and baggage drop.

our flight to KL was 1 hour delayed, so when we got in KL we didn’t get that long layover we expected. it was good but kinda disappointing(?) cuz we actually prepared few things to do while waiting at the KL airport =‘)) but the faster the better righttttt???!!

after flights for more than 5 hours in total, WE WERE FINALLY HOME <3 <3 <3 welcomed by our families, who were ready to hear what we’d experienced for the last 5 dayssss!

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MY HEART IS FULL.

i can’t thank God enough for the opportunity for me to go there.

Manila is absolutely home away from home. everybody there is family whom i hold dear close in my heart <3

special shoutouts!

to the Salazars & the Dionglays for taking care of us there and managed everything to make sure we got back home safely.

to my fellow indonesian delegates; it was good to be with you guys again <3

to the 10Days team from Baguio, ate Rona, ate Sha, kuya Geoff, and Kneekie; thank you for slipping in time to reunite with us!

to the SWM16 10Days team; thank you for the delicious dinner and also tagging us along to your alumni reunion awww

to my ENC Pastor, my awesome uncle, Ps. Ari; for sending me <3

to my family for letting me do diz and made everything possible! IM SO GRATEFULLLLL <3

to Jj, Em and Ryan; LET’S CHANGE THE CAMPUS AND CHANGE THE WORLD.

have a sweet day.

xx,

Caramelly.

[youngjaes-arch]

okay, since a few of you have asked i’m going to post what happened to me at the meet!!! it’ll be long so it’s under the cut ~ i’m going to tag y’all right here tho!

@slay-bum (bitcH every time i saw jackwang I thought of your ass bye), @back2u and @frostbittemyheart idk why i can’t @ you properly 

omg i hope a lot of you see them live and can experience the same happiness i have tonight~

FIRST I WENT TO THE FASHION OUTLET TO HANGOUT AND MAYBE RUN INTO GOT7 AND THAT DIDN’T HAPPEN BUT WHEN I GOT BACK MY MOM AND I GOT READY TO HEAD OUT AND WHEN WE DID IT WAS COLD AS HELL AND WOW I HATE, but after a while @namsjuhyuk and her sweetest friend @isabellac127 came and got in line with me and my mom and istg i love them so much (if you’re reading this hi i love you i hope you got my ugly quality bambam and yugyeom pictures and videos :’))) i tried to keep y’all in mind), after waiting in line and talking, 6:00 finally came around and we got in pretty quickly. When getting inside the venue we found our seats easily and sat down to wait! 

LOOK AT US I LOVE US I HAD SO MUCH FUN WITH YOU TWO AND I HOPE WE CAN SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN SOON !!!!!!!

When the boys came on iT WENT CRAZY LIKE THE FLOOR WAS SHAKING AND I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE BUT IM OKAY, IM BARELY ALIVE RN TYPING THIS THO... anyway, after a bit I was determined to get waves from as many of them as I could! It wasn’t too far into the meet and I was waving at Jinyoung, when he smiled at me and waved back... believe me, at first I was like... “wow, he gonna wave at everyone BUT me???” and then my mom smacks me and goes “HE WAVED AT YOU!!” so like damn thanks Jinyoung!!! A while after that I was looking around again, to see if anyone was looking my way, and again, Jinyoung was! I smiled and waved and he laughed and waved at me again, he probably got tired of me trying so hard bc me too Jinyoung...

Halfway through the meet, I was standing partly in the aisle and by my seat, not far enough in the aisle that I’d get in trouble, but enough to stand out. I looked up from where I was standing and saw BamBam looking at me... idk why but I got super awkward and gave him like a super shy wave and he just smiled at me and waved back, I got embARRESSED and looked down and just smiled and when I looked back up he was still looking at me smiling and giggling and he waved at me again and like ofc i waved back wow.

Okay,,,,,,,, low key I’m disappointed in Yugyeom and Youngjae... they BOTH looked at me when I waved at them and they just.... ignored me, it happened more than once so I promise I’m not like “OPPA IGNORED ME !!!!!11!!1131!” even people next to me were like “he’s looking at you !!” They did smile though, so I’M NOT GONNA COMPLAIN IM SIODFJAS. Jaebum seemed a bit tired and istg I wanted to fight someone because he was having so much fun, but he just acted out of it and he was looking at people, but not really looking at anyone... idk I just want to hold him....

When it got to the Home Run encore, I got as close to the stage as I could and bITCH !!!! Jinyoung almost took my phone, but he looked at me and just reached passed me and grabbed another person’s :’)))) he literally looked me in the eye while taking someone else’s phone ! but ya know what, he was so close to me that if I wanted to I could’ve kissed him. A bit after that, Jackson was walking around in my direction and he kind of looked at me and the people around me and looked back over at me and pointed at me and then some other people and istg I died. IM HIGH KEY MAD BC THE SAME PERSON THAT GOT THEIR PHONE PICKED BY JINYOUNG GOT JACKSON’S TOWEL AND THEY WERE STANDING RIGHT BEHIND ME LIKE ON TOP OF ME AND TRYING REALLY HARD NOT TO BE SALTY BECAUSE IM SO GRATEFUL I WAS EVEN ABLE TO GO OMG OKAY, MOVING ON TO WHAT REALLY MATTERS!!! PHOTO OP~

Alright, so ..... when i got up on stage the last two were Mark and Jinyoung and I thought I was going to sit in Jinyoung’s section, which I would’ve been perfectly content with, but I ended up being the second person in Mark’s section. As soon as I sat my ass in the chair I turned around and looked at Mark and he did his cute little face scrunch smile and I ignored it as best I could and said to him “I really just want to tell you I love you a lot,” he just blushed and smiled and bowed saying thank you very timidly, but no I wasn’t done, I shook my head and laughed a little before I told him “no, you don’t understand. You’re legitimately a very important person to me and you mean the world to me, I love you a lot.” He seemed very shocked and flustered, he bowed again and smiled so wide I thought I was going to pass out before saying “Thank you, I love you too” in the world’s quietest voice. AND THEN JINYOUNG - this bitch - walked up to me, and since I was turned in the chair, my hand was on the top of it, and he grabbed my hand and smiled his dAMN SMILE and said “Thank you! Thank you!” and I swear to god I didn’t know what to do because,,,,, did Park Jinyoung just.... try to steal me from Mark ??? I was so in shock that I automatically squeeze his hand and I’m yelling at him “Jinyoung!!! I love you too, Jinyoung! I love you!” and he just smiled and laughed bc it was time for the picture and he just held my hand during the picture even though I wasn’t in his section omg. Also, my mom wAS in his section and she said he put his arm around her and idk like.... pls don’t try to flirt with my momma when you’re holding my hand.. :’)))

AND THEN (ya there’s more omg) when I was walking away I stopped in front of Jackson and yelled at him (at this point staff was yelling at me telling me to leave but idgaf) “Jackson!!!” he turned around and walked up to me with a huge smile on his face reaching his hand out to me and bitch as bad as I wanted to hold that soft, gentle hand, I ignored it and told him “It’s my mother’s birthday today and she loves you!” and I turned around and pointed to my mom and his face just started glOWING and he walked up to her and bowed and was like “Happy Birthday!!!!” and held her hand while smiling and bowing and I just... he looked so happy to be wishing her a good birthday.

I’m so sorry this is so long but idk... i just want you all to know that I’m so happy and idk they all looked so good, but tired and .... I LOVE THEM MORE THAN ANYONE EVER

So, in conclusion, I love GOT7 more now and I never thought that was possible. 

I’m answering all of Shelby’s questions here omg, i love you !!!!

“PLS TELL US EVERY LIL DETAIL ALL OF IT HOW DO morks lashes look irl? how is boomx3 sound when ur ears are being engulfed by it?? Does jaebum really look as shoft close up as he does in pics?? how blessed do u feel knowin jy said he thinks chicago fans have more lov n passion now than even last time??how much did yj voice shake u irl?? how was it to seein the most fun spirited meme lengendsyugbam? is my baby jackson as absolutely beautifully warm n sexily hot as the sun tself like i image :“) im so happy for u and u wouldnt be annoyin a soul tellin us abt how amazin ur experience was ESP if it made u happy n u wanna share <#” 

SHELBY SHUT I LOVE YOU SO FCKN ASFDKJAS OKAY HERE WE GO!

- Mark’s eyelashes looked so beautiful like the rest of his face, i cannot believe how small.... he really is.... he’s still bigger than me.... but so.... tiny.... his eyes are so beautiful and i could get lost wow

- LISTEN I’LL POST A VID OF BOOMX3 IF YOU WANT SO YOU CAN SEE FOR YOURSELF WOW I ALMOST.... D I ED

- jaebum looks softer irl than in pictures so..... kms... like how much softer can a human get ???

- LISTEN LSIEFTSN JINYOUNGS SPEECH KILLD MY SOUL I LOVE HIMS O MCUH

- hA YOUNGJAE IDK A YOUNGJAE HE... REALLY FUCKED ME UP OTNIGHT

- :’)))))))))))))))))))))) idk a wangkong i fckn hate him he was sweet and cuddly the entire time... my fave thing he did was when bambam couldn’t say his partner’s name... they were playing the game and the MC was asking the crowd for advice and bambam said “leave my girl alone” and jackson caLLED HIS ASS OUT AND SAID “how’s she your girl when you don’t even know her name” and bam literally stood there in shock and went “you’re right” istg my favorite thing.

- I LITERALLY LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND SO MANY OF YOU HAVE BEEN SO SUPPORTIVE OF ME SEEING THEM AND WISHING ME WELL AND I CANNOT EXPRESS HOW MUCH IT MEANS TO ME AND IDK I FEEL LIKE JACKSON WANG RN.