#BECAUSE I HAVENT BEEN TAKING MY MEDS COS I FORGOT

[catfishofoldin99colours]

oh this week is gonna be a BAD time to be off my meds : - )

[heir-of-the-founders]

I need to call to reschedule an appointment that was supposed to be on the 15th cos of covid and the doc office called me literally the 4th and its currently the 13th and im procrastinating so hard abt this like even the mere though of calling to reschedule makes me start breathing hard like aaaaaaaahhhh

And its a pretty important appointment too, its a year after x ray checkup from when i fell off a bridge and broke my back and legs and stuff

And i kinda asked my mom to do it but she told me i was an adult so i could do it myself because she has work, like its not gonna take 2 minutes and like i dont have diagnosed really bad anxiety and i havent been able to take my anxiety meds because i accidently left them at her house when i moved out because she was being super toxic but then i couldnt take them for a month and when i tried taking them again they made me projectile vomit at 2 am every time i tried to take them so i cant take them anymore but the last time i went to my psychologist i forgot to reschedule and appointment and i cant even go to a regular doctor and ask for help because i dont HAVE a gp because mine left and the only other decent doc at my office isnt taking patients and ive literally only gone to that office my entire life and theres literally no one i can ask for help because i honestly dont think my dads been into the gp in like 20 years and im honestly not actually on speaking terms with my mother because she grounded me for months for not keeping my room clean because i literally broke some of my vertebrae and 3 of my leg bones and also a bunch of other stuff, like i literally almost died and she still yelled at me for being 'lazy' so theres no one i can ask for help because literally the only adult in my life that was actually responsible and cared about me was my EXCEL supervisor and i cant really talk to her anymore because i had to drop my excel credit because i cant do what i was doing at home because of fucking covid and i dont know what to do

Anyway yea i think not being able to talk to my friends has been getting to me a bit. Is anyone willing to bully me into calling the doctors office?