#AyDeTi

[actress4him]

Stabmas 2023

Welcome to a celebration piece for the Ides of March, featuring Kamaria 😈

Bruno (mentioned) belongs to @painful-pooch .

Contains: lady whump, blood, stabbing, implied noncon drugs, mild gore, referenced noncon touch, very brief self-deprecating thoughts, hurt no comfort

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Among blinding pain that seems to radiate from one end of her body to the other, the tip of a knife pressed into soft skin is hardly worth considering. It’s just a nuisance, another sensation to add to far too many.

She’s cold. She’s far too cold and far too bare, the unforgiving stone floor seeps into her skin like ice and she wants…

She wants a blanket.

She wants to be held.

She wants warm, calloused hands to caress her cheek and wrap around her waist and reassure her that everything is alright, everything will be alright, even if it’s not right now.

She doesn’t want anyone touching her, touch brings nothing but pain and fear and the very thought of hands on her makes her stomach churn, makes her want to scream and cry and scratch off her own skin.

But she’s so cold and so alone. Something burns in her veins that shouldn’t be there, but it doesn’t warm her. Her hand stretches out into an open, empty space that she can’t even see and is met with nothing but air. No one reaches back for her.

The knife presses in farther and breaks skin. Blood trickles out, and it’s like fire in its warmth, running down the side of her leg to drip onto the floor beneath her. There’s so much blood already. Her hair is stiff with it, dried patches of it cake her body. The smell is thick in the air.

She still doesn’t notice the pain. Not when her whole existence is pain, when she can’t remember a time that everything didn’t hurt and burning, throbbing, screaming pain encompasses everything she is and knows.

It’s not until the knife slides farther in, slicing through layers of skin and into muscle before pausing again, that it breaks through the fog. A low groan vibrates in her throat. Her head jerks to one side, and she tries to move the leg away from the source of pain but it feels somehow detached from her body.

Voices float through the air and swirl around her. Meaningless. One is shouting, perhaps, but the words are like a swarm of bees, muffled by the sound of her pulse pounding in her ears.

The knife cuts deeper.

Her back arches up off the ground and she chokes on what should be a scream. More blood runs down her leg. It’s gushing now, not trickling. The blade embedded in her thigh can only hold it back so much.

She wants Bruno. He said he wouldn’t leave her, but she doesn’t know where he is.

“Mai amachari, relintis ma nos.” Her words slur together as they stumble off her tongue. “Ey vourer moriti nos. Pralut aydeti.” A tear, hot like the blood on her leg, slides down her temple and pools in her ear.

He’s not here, he’s not here. If he was here he would help her. She doesn’t want to die without seeing him again.

Someone pushes the knife deeper still, until the cold hilt rests against her skin. She throws her head back, sobs ripping through her throat. “Pralut perlem’a moriti nos!”

Her fingernails scrape against the floor, digging up bits of dirt and half-dried blood. It won’t stop. The pain never ends, she can’t escape it. Her eyes open, letting more tears loose, and rove across the ceiling, but it’s all just a blur. None of it means anything, nothing makes sense except for pain.

Voices again. Someone is laughing, she thinks. The sound forms a pit deep in her stomach.

“-mari-!”

“Kam-ia!”

She wants Bruno.

Suddenly the knife is yanked back out of her leg, all at once, tearing sideways through new bits of flesh. Everything flashes to bright white. She doesn’t scream because she can’t breathe, can only jerk against the floor and make choking sounds while the blood flow triples.

She wants it to be over.

She deserves this.

She can’t take anymore, she needs it to end. She’s just waiting for darkness to take her away from the pain, but it won’t come. Whatever it is that burns inside her veins won’t let her go. No matter how much she wishes for escape, she’s trapped here - lost, alone, and cold.

She’s so cold.

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Translation of Vaya: “My love, don’t leave me. I don’t want to die. Please help me.” “Please don’t let me die!”

[monsenavejas27]

Ay de ti que te vayas antes de tiempo, lejos de mí.  Soñaré con tu regreso y en mi mirada tranquilidad.  Ay de ti que te vayas y en el olvido no encuentres más.  Yo estaré siempre contigo y entre suspiros regresarás.  Déjame mirarte más, aunque se quede en mi mente para siempre.  Déjame enterrarte aquí muy adentro de mi subconsciente, eternamente.  ¿Para qué olvidar lo que fuiste conmigo?  Para ti, recordar lo que somos juntos.  Ay de ti que no encuentres lo que tú sientes cerca de mí, yo estaré siempre contigo y entre  suspiros regresarás.  Déjame mirarte más aunque se quede en mi mente para siempre  Déjame enterrarte aquí muy adentro de mi subconsciente, eternamente.  Para qué olvidar lo que fuiste conmigo?  Para ti, recordar lo que somos juntos.

[helenvon]

Soñaré con tu regreso y en mi mirada tranquilidad. #AyDeTi #reyno

[lore20universe]

Ay de ti que te vayas y en el olvido, no encuentres mas, yo estaré siempre contigo y entre suspiros regresaras.

@lore20universe

[jbernyforemanu]

Déjame mirarte más, aunque sea quédate en mi mente...para siempre.  Déjame enterrarte aquí, muy adentro de mi subconsciente... eternamente

reyno

[romantico-hasta-el-hueso]

Dejame Enterrarte Aquí Muy Adentro De Mi Subconsciente Eternamente... Para Que Olvidar Lo Que Fuiste Conmigo Para ti,Recordar Lo Que Somos Juntos...

Ay De Ti - Reyno - Viaje Por Lo Eterno

[danbttygorse-blog]

[anisoptera-libelulasazules]

Déjame mirarte más, aunque sea quédate en mi mente para siempre. Déjame enterrarte aquí muy adentro de mi subconsciente, eternamente. ¿Para qué olvidar lo que fuiste conmigo?

[kateeworsnop]

Yo estaré siempre contigo, y entre suspiros regresaras #lgbt #reyno #aydeti

[estrella-lectora]

...Dejame mirarte más, aunque sea quedate en mi mente para siempre, dejame enterrarte aqui, muy adentro de mi subconciente eternamente...

Reyno

[rockandcase]

REYNO

Viaje Por Lo Eterno

1 Fugitivo 2 Dos Mundos 3 Nunca Me Dejes 4 Purifícame 5 Amarrado 6 Ahrimán 7 Viaje por Lo Eterno 8 Ay de Ti 9 Me Voy 10 Parte del Sol

Escucha Completo

[anisoptera-libelulasazules]

Déjame enterrarte aquí muy adentro de mi subconsciente, eternamente. 

[rockandcase]

Ay de ti que te vayas, antes de tiempo lejos de mi...