#Angels before Man
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Happy birthday to both abm and @nicosraf here’s is some moocifer for u 😇 thanks for making my world a brighter place!
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It's my birthday! And Angels Before Man's second birthday from the original publishing! And almost three years since the original draft of it! Wow! Thank you all a million times for being here. Really, genuinely
I'd like for this extremely long post to be happier ! But a lot of people are really troubled by the United States election. There's a lot of fear-mongering online about what'll happen and a lot of real threats to marginalized people in the U.S. and abroad. I don't talk about my own identities a ton. I'm a gay, trans, Mexican from the US-Mex border. The vast majority of my family, community, and friends are immigrants of varying legal statuses. I could lose everything!! I fear for my family! My friends! For my body and my heart!
My mom called me yesterday morning, though, basically asking for an explanation. She told me she was shocked, she was scared, and I said that so was I, then we said, "Pos ni modo." Ni modo!! Oh well!!! What can we do now? We can keep doing what we've always done. Survive. That's all you really have to do at the end of the day, you know, survive.
My family is from a rough Mexican city that fell apart when I was little, a place where my own family has been kidnapped and bodies have been left mutilated in the street for everyone to see. The radio spoke in code to let you know not to go outside when things got really bad. There used to be mariachis in the street to greet American tourists but by the time I was little, they were mostly gone. Boarded up, abandoned stores and boarded up, abandoned homes. I remember being scared, and I remember not knowing what to do listening to a shoot out right outside. I remember my heart stopping when my family was stopped by the soldiers and they demanded money out of us for the first time.
(And I can talk also about living on the other side. The hyper policing, ICE, the racism when my school played against other schools, my parents forbidding me from speaking Spanish outside our Mexican enclave and to stay close to them, and I can talk about the aggression from the white nuns at my catholic school toward the latino kids, I can talk about having to see the border patrol every day just to go to school, I can even talk about Trump-supporters coming down to the border and making a mess of the place and I can talk and I can talk but why? what for??)
My family is all (mostly) still around. I'm here also. We're still here. All of that horrible stuff happened and is still happening to us y ni modo!! Ni modo ! The fight continues. You'll be fine if you allow yourself to be, and if you're not, then you really gave it your best shot, and the people around you will see that you did.
I know for a lot of people there might be the urge to spiral into doom and grieve, but you don't need to borrow the grief of the future. Today you can get up and roll up your sleeves and clean the house. That's what my parents tell me to do when I'm sad. Ponte a limpiar. Ponte a trabajar. I used to get mad at them for it, but in the end, you're only in charge of yourself and the places/things that you upkeep.
I was raised around nopales (prickly pear cacti) and, many years ago, I threw one out of my parent's house because I didn't know what to do with it. I didn't want it. I figured it'd get eaten by something or die somehow. The nopal started growing instead, and it's still there. It even grew a flower, though it hasn't given us a pear yet. My dad doesn't like the pears/tuna but my mom does, so we went out to check on it and while we were there, we heard a bird singing. He looked up and he told me it was a cenzontle and that it was singing a little song for the nopal. I had this thought about how even though I basically tried to kill it, the nopal was growing, thriving. it's an easy metaphor to make, but the earth gives you simple lessons sometimes.
(The monarchs pass by every year. They don't even do it legally. They cut the border line and don't wait their turn to talk to the Customs guys!!! They just fly overhead then look back at us like we're crazy. How can we explain this to them? How do I tell them that there's a place that hates us both)
All you have to do is survive. Whatever happens to me or my family or my friends, we will find a way to grow and find birds to sing along with. If there's so much grief in the future, then we can grieve when that time comes. In other words, canta y no llores. All you have to do is survive. Take it hour by the hour. Pick up the broom and get to work while you can.
Because I've talked too much, I wanted to remind everyone that my ebooks versions of my writing will always be free to read.
Maybe it'll come as a shock to you that a lot of ABM was about coping with losing a home forever, of remembering the feeling of wall paint that you will never feel again. But it's about survival too. I hope you all take care of yourselves as much as we can. This isn't a sad post! Go out and enjoy what you have! Go for a snack. Protect yourself however youre able to. I'm so lucky to have a birthday, to have lived this long. I hope my work will live on no matter how much the world might despise it. I've survived this far despite the world too, and so will ABM... I hope ! :)
#please forgive the long post#i dont really drop huge posts anymore but i figured expressing my feeling might help someone#sending you all a lot of love and comfort in this time#mine#and im sorry i couldnt get something super special done for today....#my birthday present today is to SLEEP#angels before man
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Sketched lucifer while listening to the 'angels before man' audiobook and decided to turn it into a complete illustration ✨️
A lot of trial and error when diving into a new thing– But for a first try, I'm pretty happy with this 🙂↕️
(Next time I actually might have to look for some clothing and jewellery references though 😭)
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A drawing for the book Angels Before Man by @nicosraf
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an angel (satan)
angels before man by @nicosraf
#slides in#hi this was a warm up and then uuuuhhhhh idk what happened ghost of moobaal possessed me ig#i should be prepping my thesis film for submission. my priorities are shit#angels#angels before man#abm#lucifer#abm lucifer#lucifer morningstar#lucifer satan#my demonolator friend is gonna yell at me for calling luci 'satan' hahdhsjhfjd sorry salem#satan#the devil#digital illustration#book illustration#illustration#religious imageries#religious imagery#my art
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angel of love, angel of michael
#angels before man#digital art#illustration#lucifer#digital painting#fanart#digital drawing#digital illustration#my art#hcjdjdhksjcg#pride#happy pride month#please read angels before man:))) it’s such a fun and not at all sad book
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Saw these shorts on instagram and u know I had to put them on Michael
#angels and man#angels before man#a&m#archangel michael#maybe one day I’ll make something that isn’t stupid again#mine
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“This, this here, could be worship. ‘This—’ Lucifer pressed an innocent kiss to the prince’s sweet, divine mouth. This could be religion.”
― rafael nicolás, Angels Before Man
I've been reading Angels Before Man again and it has made me cry just as much as the first time. I think about Lucifer pretty often and the fate he's been saddled with, I figured he's due some righteous anger
#angels before man#rafael nicolás#lucifer#digital illustration#illustration#he deserved the world#blasphemy is kinda sexy
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I think this is the first time as an adult I've made fanart for a book. So like- you know it's gotta be good.
Pretty please go read angels before man by @nicosraf ! It's absolutely gorgeous and got me down so bad for the idea of ftm Lucifer; also lots of plant symbolism 💖
He's 8.25 x 11.25" watercolor
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‼️ tw blood/gore
rosier x asmodeus
the angel of fruit and and the angel of friendship
#angels before man#angels before man spoiler#abm spoilers#rosier x asmodeus#abm rosier#abm asmodeus#spoilers#tw blood#cw: gore
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rosier, after bacchus by caravaggio c. 1596
#my beloved …. my favorite …#it always makes my art history degree happy to do things like this#he’s wearing ancient sumerian jewelry! a woman in ur wore things just like this!! so long ago!#my art#rosier#angels before man#rosier abm#abm#asmodeus#asmodeus abm#tw blood#asmodeus is barely there. sorry
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Lucifer drawn for @angelszines banner 💜
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hello!! special edition!
Angels Before Man is turning 2 years old (from its original release) and around 3 from its original drafting! i decided to make a special version with art by the incredible @ikkihuikki , an embossed cover based on the one I made to print the draft for myself, an introduction/retrospective, a bookmark with art by @duckhymn, a random surprise thing, and my siganture! ive never offered my signature before but i figured why not.
you can get it here:
Pre-orders open until I run out. More shipping info to come! I had a good idea but ive been increasing stock! I'll keep all buyers informed though
#sorry for the hold up posting here#ive been#ahhh#mine#special edition#angels before man#angels and man#angels trilogy
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“It was as if Lucifer weren’t more than an abstraction himself, an idea, a fantasy, the figment of a lonely, longing imagination.”
Still obsessed with @nicosraf Angels Before Man so here’s a little mockup of what I think Lucifer’s dawn wings would look like.
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October Shop Update ! I got preorders for the Angels Before Man print, new stickers and reprints/restocks up in the shop 💞 Sticker sale continues until tomorrow, waiting on stamps to send some out but I'll be sending out all the packages I can today :)
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death of the divine ✸
as your flatter talk shivers down my spine i hear the Holy One exposing all the lies (Lord, forgive me, i know my flesh needs to die) x
baal / lucifer / michael from angels before man and angels & man by @nicosraf
close-ups + work progress under the cut
og sketches
cleaned up sketch (i can't perceive my own messy sketch's coherency ok)
1st version. didn't like how thick the lineart and the colour palette isn't clicking with me. is so i scrapped it. decided i want to do frame/illuminated manuscript thingy so i added frame and re-centered michael.
i kind of winged it for the final version, so i don't have progress of me picking colour palette or compositions. idk how i did it, i just did it, it was hard. i had a bad day so i blanked out the entire day to just lose myself in this illustration. and then uh. tada.
now some close-ups:
and some notes:
i know i want lucifer's skin to come across as "gold", so i keep picking his colour in the orange spectrum. bcs yanno--the sun (morningstar). naturally baal is more red leaning, which i think also suits his lion associated imagery well (because lion -> strength card (in tarot deck) -> red. idk, it's how my brain is)
originally michael doesn't wear an armour. i decided last minute to put him in one because fuck it; (1) armour cool and (2) i am a masochist ig
both baal and lucifer wear lipgloss. this is entirely dedicated to rafael's (the author. not the angel.) suffering. they share lipgloss by kissing, you fools.
michael has "jellyfish" hairstyle because. the front bob kinda reminds me how catholic friars/monks in certain schoolings cut their hair in that bob hair? yknow the one?? ya?? anyway it's for that imagery.
both baal and lucifer's legs are caging michael. bcs they're what ground him (vices/temptations) ahahahahaa
i actually asked rafael (author not the angel) and he said he imagined baal is a brunette, which is the same like i had in mind. except that baal asked that he got depicted as a wizened old man/wizard. so now he gets a beard and his hair is white. (he also insisted i gave him a stylish beard)
if u look closely at the jewelries the demons wore; one of lucifer's rings and baal's visible earring have gemstones the colour of michael's eyes
in return, michael's sash is the colour of the demons
baal has a ring with heliodor (yellow) for lucifer, and lucifer has a(nother) ring with red ruby for baal
baal's other gemstones are topaz and lucifer's are yellow jasper
both demons have pearl necklaces. they're supposed to represent michael('s wings ahahahahahaahaha)
my headcanon is that michael's wings are brown like sparrow's actually. BUT during the war, god gave him more power and authority and my understanding is that he got tempered into a perfect sword; so his wings turned white. when book 3 came out and they finally bang (I FUCKING HOPE THEY DO. RAFAEL. THIS IS FOR YOU RAFAEL.) his wings will turn brown againehehhehe
lucifer's coat has wing-like cut at the ends to represent his no longer existing wingsbye
michael is blue because one time i shared this imagery with rafael; michael wearing blue because of the same reason virgin mary is depicted in blue. god's favourites are in blue; fated to suffer and be left behind.
fin.
#angels before man#abm#moobaalcifer#INSHAALLAH they have a 3way amin#archangel michael#lucifer#lucifer morningstar#baal demon#baal#moocifer#baalcifer#moobaal#(?)#baalchael#sounds cool djjdg#religious imagery#religious imageries#what catholicism does to u ig#art#illustration#digital illustration#book illustration#artist on tumblr#artist#angel#demon#my art
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