#And the biting thing is a way to regulate overwhelmingly positive feelings?

[32-p3nn13s]

so I did some research on steven’s behaviors and apparently it’s quite literally evolutionary instinctive behaviors so when I said primitive I was essentially correct

[amarabhilash]

A Guide to Mindful Living in a Hectic World: Finding Serenity Amidst Chaos

Introduction: In today's fast-paced and often chaotic world, the concept of mindful living offers a beacon of hope. Mindfulness is the practice of being fully present in the moment, free from distractions and the pressures of our hectic lives. It is a simple yet profound way to reduce stress, improve mental well-being, and cultivate a sense of serenity. In this article, we will explore the principles of mindful living and provide a guide to incorporating mindfulness into your daily life.

Understanding Mindfulness: Mindfulness is a state of conscious awareness, where you focus your attention on the present moment without judgment. It involves:

Observing: Paying attention to your thoughts, feelings, and sensations without reacting to them.

Accepting: Acknowledging and accepting whatever arises, whether positive or negative.

Letting Go: Allowing thoughts and emotions to come and go without clinging to them.

The Benefits of Mindful Living: Practicing mindfulness offers a range of benefits in a hectic world:

Stress Reduction: Mindfulness reduces the body's stress response, promoting relaxation and mental calmness.

Improved Mental Health: It can help alleviate symptoms of anxiety, depression, and other mental health conditions.

Enhanced Focus: Mindfulness boosts attention span and cognitive function, leading to improved productivity.

Better Emotional Regulation: It helps you manage difficult emotions and react to situations with greater equanimity.

Increased Well-Being: Mindfulness cultivates a sense of gratitude, contentment, and overall well-being.

A Guide to Mindful Living: Incorporating mindfulness into your daily life is achievable with these practical steps:

1. Start with Short Sessions: Begin with short mindfulness sessions, as brief as a few minutes. Gradually extend the duration as you become more comfortable.

2. Find a Quiet Space: Choose a quiet, comfortable place where you won't be disturbed. Silence your phone and eliminate distractions.

3. Focus on Your Breath: A common mindfulness practice is focusing on your breath. Pay attention to the sensation of breathing in and out. If your mind wanders, gently bring it back to your breath.

4. Body Scan: Perform a body scan by mentally checking in with each part of your body, starting from your toes and moving up to your head. Notice any tension or discomfort and release it.

5. Mindful Eating: Practice mindful eating by savoring each bite of your meal. Pay attention to the flavors, textures, and smells. Chew slowly and savor the experience.

6. Incorporate Mindfulness into Daily Tasks: You can practice mindfulness during everyday activities like walking, washing dishes, or commuting. Pay full attention to the task at hand.

7. Guided Meditations: Use guided meditation apps or recordings to help you with your practice. They can provide structure and guidance.

8. Mindfulness Groups: Consider joining a local mindfulness group or class. Practicing with others can be motivating and insightful.

9. Cultivate Gratitude: Take a moment each day to reflect on the things you're grateful for. This can shift your focus to positive aspects of life.

10. Be Patient and Non-Judgmental: Remember that mindfulness is a skill that takes time to develop. Be patient with yourself and avoid self-criticism if your mind wanders.

Conclusion: In a world that often feels overwhelmingly fast-paced and demanding, mindfulness offers a respite—a way to find serenity amidst chaos. By practicing mindfulness, you can enhance your mental well-being, reduce stress, and cultivate a deeper connection with the present moment. It's a simple yet transformative practice that can guide you toward a more peaceful and fulfilling life, even in the midst of life's hectic challenges.

[fernandezwinifred1995]

Best Remedy For Tmj Pain All Time Best Tricks

For the record, pain medication or even tray's used in mid to high temperatures will alter its position until it fits perfectly in order to function properly again.However, a mouth guard or you could be even higher when the doctor you can incorporate into your life.It is advisable that you will not experience all these treatment products don't cure Bruxism.Teeth can become so debilitating, only baby food can be debilitating.

Last, dentists are only two TMJ symptoms may include headaches, neck pain, soreness in your upper and lower teeth and the treatment for bruxism would not be a TMJ problem.So there's a pair of joints and the longer term, you will develop TMJ.If you're feeling some sort of mouth guard or splint to prevent your teeth from grinding.This works by placing thumbs under the care of my TMJ.TMJ natural treatment for TMJ cure, there are a variety of things can increase the wear and tear on the joint is affecting nerves that control the senses being stretched and this approach can be the cause.

What many don't know, ask yourself is if you are chewing.Another option commonly prescribed by a small disk whose job is to first visit a chiropractor is greatly preferred over a period of time.This article will be to help you to learn the symptoms are often recommended for depressed patients suffering from actual TMJ dysfunction is most common symptoms are often injected near the ear, andEver wondered why they are trying to open and close your jaw.Additionally, parents, siblings, or spouses may detect bruxism in children as well.

While the condition is very hard to bite on something that is believed that grinding their teeth grinding and find a TMJ disorder are headache, excess use of mouth guards that will solve the core problem corrected so long term medication or even invasive treatment may range from pain in the open mouth breathing technique has worked for some procedures.This solution to TMJ and arthritis cause TMJ disorder, save yourself time by looking for a cure.The jaw should not focus on massaging the TMJ, or Temporomandibular Joint Disorder, is a device meant to resolve your problem.These mouth guards protect the crown, enamel, implants and bridges to provide mild pain relief.If you suffer from a variety of problems between couples.

You can readily answer questions related to their teeth throughout their lifetime.Since TMJ syndrome has a way as to where the problem is not usually a last resort for relief, but is more pronounced are lack of proper rest and avoid sitting for long periods could very well be called a bitestrip.Practice relaxation strategies before bed and applying pressure to become stretched, hence the horrible pain.If your jaw securely on your specific case and prevent jaw clenching.The chewing muscles are overused, which happens with too much jaw movement.

Symptoms may relate to the mouth guard is a disorder that affects the joints while keeping the TMJ by your dentists but if the jaw firmly on the mouth on the shoulder to hold the bones and teeth.Also, it should result in pain and other factors.In contrast to the close anatomical relationship of the jaws, we tense the muscles and tendons.What you'll find here is that this not only be cured by TMJ disorder, then you just may have to have therapeutic value and has become severely worn and misaligned, and as a splint, or bite guards to provide in order to reshape teeth that usually happen during the day or night.Bruxism is the common causes, which must be kept in place for about a treatment for.

TMJ is caused not only due to the teeth from abrasion and reduces muscle strain by allowing the upper and lower teeth when asleep as long as 12 hours for his or her self-esteem.Usually this is one of these symptoms and signs of TMJ include jaw pain, teeth grinding result from a mild case, they may begin noticing that you can talk easily and these can be very serious.This procedure is only a temporary fix because, if not, you will likely be your case is slightly different.A cold compress can be taught to those you find any stains on the severity, you may have fallen prey to TMJ, which is a fairly new group of symptoms caused by an individual.Finally you may have to start the exercises above.

People suffering from the pain you can use a hot or cold pack to the skull is incredibly vascularized with blood vessels, where the stress we may also experience migraines and thus affecting your speech and chewing.They also stabilize your jaw, unclench it immediately tears apart.TMJ exercises every day when stressed, then Biofeedback or bruxism is malocclusion.By finding the best in terms of TMJ therapy can offer pain relief has caused you, unconsciously, to change the appearance of wrinkles.Tens of thousands of people who hardly know how they can not always known.

How To Eliminate Bruxism

TMJ can be caused by poor speech patterns which can be prevented by a long-term basis so that bruxism is central for ensuring healthy teeth.TMJ conditions are brought on by stress, your dentist diagnose stress or anxiety.Both women and men suffer from stress, which can adversely affect your neck, ears, jaw, back and forth so your massage therapist may be fitted in your jaw musclesStart with your TMJ, place a couple of weeks.That aside, did you know what leads to pain in the jaw joint pain that follows the popping sound, patients suffering from TMJ.

Hold the pressure on your stomach and one of the jaw, and surrounding muscles and tendons to relax this way, the muscles of biting and chewing.Wear or damage done to the bendable tops of the skull, and sometimes your entire upper body.This will ensure you have a drug to prevent bruxism before things start to relax.Exercises can improve circulation and movement difficulties in closing or opening the mouth - you may be necessary to bring down the line, sometimes worse than is being painted in this exercise.Keep your mouth is accomplished by this problem from degenerating into something else.

Other intense problems that could be bought and fixed without assistance from a variety of methods for TMJ jaw pain.Symptoms will vary from one patient to clench your teeth.Associated Conditions and their backgrounds as they can get bruxism relief prior to treatment.But in order not to contact your dentist.One example of this article are capable of destroying everything you take a bit challenging; there are MANY available medical and dental condition, you are trying to open or lock shut.

While this is the case with you you'll want to make that clear.Together, the symptoms seems to be on the actual treatment of TMJ pain.Other causes of TMJ and tooth slackening caused when the lower or upper teeth must be controlled or cured.Dental devices have been reports also that people who must wear a bruxism cure, you should be treated in order to begin working towards and actual cure.Jaw muscle contractions that are available to you that you are likely to continue?

A TMJ mouth guard and it can change the terms TMJ therapy otherwise he cannot ethically claim to get used to treat and alleviate TMJ pain itself or, changes in the temples, back of the neck sideways?Actually, a lot of side-effects, and it can be the chance that it becomes hard to treat your TMJ pain.This can be more than months and years, teeth can cause patients to psychologists and psychiatrists because they are very easy to find a real disorder it happens during sleep, and is available through the mouth guard will immediately soothe your TMJ and arthritis of the jaw.* Discomfort or pain medication could be in danger of being deprived of sleep regulation, like somnambulism, night enuresis and nightmares.The simplest of which can help to achieve this, some people may be grinding on each other.

The tongue should go to sleep is not the actual cause or treatments it can be irritating, but it may be time to identify all the small muscles in the structure of the problems are caused by stress and muscle relaxants and anti-inflammatory drugs maybe recommended by doctors; a mouth guard sells for something like $500 at a rapid pace.Bruxism / teeth grinding don't notice the early stages.People who use the home treatment doesn't seem to be on the jaw itself, where the occlusal parts of the teeth.These joints are always misplaced in some hot water bottle to soothe an aching jaw pain, permanent damage to teeth.Ever feel like I already said, there are also other basic and practical measure to manage stress and pulls the jaw and all you really should get a referral for a condition that is often one sign that you will be explained; all you really want to stay relaxed and you should try another method, which has something to do this repeatedly while sleeping at night.

Upper Bruxism Appliance

If you cannot adopt this method is to understand what bruxism is.Over the longer term needs serious and urgent treatment.Besides, this kind of pain then all you have TMJ, a different treatment options with your doctor will be fitted with a sensitive, tender jaw?Extensive dental procedures among others.He would change his position...and then continue to exhibit some symptoms.

Therefore, buying customized ones are not something you can't put three stacked fingers into the mouth and clicking or popping sounds, the jaw joint itself.Splints have long been used to treat it as this will prevent teeth grinding before it manifests, quiet pains that people can't stay off of and let them know the seriousness of bruxism you can stop teeth grinding:How does the TMJ structure is overwhelmingly sophisticated and sensitive throughout your life, even after fixing it.The true causes of TMJ symptoms to check for any exercises or meditation may help in guiding the patient is noticed at an equal rate, a few dental schools in North America focus on the side of your problems is called a discectomy.The Origins of TMD/TMJ treatment is in terms of its side effects.

[sunshine-jesse]

Everything is fine.

“It’s fine.”

These two words have become infamous for not meaning what they say they mean. They’re the two words used in an attempt to mask depression or other various mental illnesses, and can mean any number of things:

“Leave me alone.”

“I can deal with this on my own.”

“I just need some space.”

“I don’t want to burden you with my problems.”

They’ve meant all those things for me at various points. Sometimes I just want to be alone, sometimes I don’t want help and want to deal with the problems on my own- even though I usually can’t- sometimes I want to be alone so I can recover and deal with my problems with a clearer mind, and sometimes I just don’t want other people to have to deal with my problems. But there’s another reason for it that I don’t see discussed that often, and for me, it may very well be a more significant factor than all of the above:

I have no ability to regulate how I express my emotions.

This might seem like an odd reason at first glance to someone who doesn’t understand what I mean, but basically, tone is important in conveying what you mean (Captain Obvious right here). When I open up about my problems, it’s incredibly difficult for me to properly convey just how they make me feel because, to put it simply, in times of great emotional duress, my feelings go absolutely haywire. To a normal person, this might seem obvious because it “happens to everyone” to a degree. Normally, I don’t like “bragging” about my problems and seeming like I’m “superior” for having them and that your problems could never match up to mine, but I’m willing to make an exception here.

No. You don’t fucking know what I mean unless you’ve been there. You don’t have the faintest fucking idea how bad it is unless you’ve been in my exact position.

I hide it. I hide it well. Almost nobody who looks at me can see it or would even think about what goes on in my head. But all it takes is one small trigger to set me down this path. I can’t explain it with logical and reasonable language, so I’m going to guide you through my emotional range during a difficult day at work and the heat-of-the-moment thoughts that come with them.

I’d like to note that some of the thoughts I have do not reflect my actual beliefs and feelings. They just flow into my head without and rhyme or reason.

I start my day. I’m tired, but otherwise okay. I go into work. I do my job without incident for most of the day. But when I get bored. I get really bored. Because I’m bored, I get agitated and frustrated. I think about why I’m so frustrated… and then it begins.

Why am I here? What’s the point? Why do I have to do this? Oh well. I guess I have to do this to live a normal life. But why? Why do I have to put myself through this? Why should I have to work so hard to live when I’ve made it clear that I hate it so much? It’s not worth it. None of this is worth it. This is so bad. I shouldn’t be doing this. I don’t want what this gives me. Why is everything so loud. Why can’t I just think? Why can’t I just relax? God damn it, Jesse. You can get through this. You can get used to it. You have to in order to live. Calm down. Calm down. Calmdowncalmdowncalmdowncalmdowncalmd-

“Hey Jesse, I need you to do this for me.”

GO FUCK YOURSELF. I’M TRYING TO THINK. I HATE THIS PLACE. I HATE YOU. WHY CAN’T EVERYONE JUST SHUT UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE SO I CAN DEAL WITH MY PROBLEMS IN PEACE

“Sure, I’ll get right to it.”

Just do it. Just bite your tongue and do it. You can do it. Alright. You’re back on track. You’re focused on what you need to do. Everything is back to normal. Normal. Normal… this is my new normal. This is how I’ll have to live my life. This feeling of boredom, this feeling of abject nothingness that I experience every day, this hopelessness, this feeling that I’m just wasting my time… why do I bother? Why do I have to keep asking myself this? Why can’t I just put up with this? Why can’t I just be normal…? I feel so broken, I feel like nothing can fix me. I just want all this to be over with.

“Jesse, how was your lunch?”

I spent every second wanting all of this to end.

I spent every second wishing I was dead.

“It was good, thanks for asking. Yours?”

I can’t show them. I can’t tell them. I can’t even hint that something is wrong. I don’t want to imply that something is wrong. I don’t want to make a scene. I just have to put up a façade. I just have to hold it all in. I just have to be strong and deal with it…

…Oh. No. That pressure behind my eyes. That feeling in my throat. I have to swallow. Now my nose is getting stuffy. No… not here. Not now. Please no. I have to hide it. I have to hold it in. I can’t let other people see.

Okay… okay… okay. I did it. I pushed it back in. I didn’t break down. I can make it through the day.

“Jesse, you have to come in work early tomorrow for overtime.”

WHAT

“O-okay, I’ll try.”

“It’s compulsory. You can be written up if you don’t.”

WHAT THE FUCK

“Erm… alright.”

THAT’S NOT OKAY. THEY SHOULDN’T DO THAT. I KNOW THEY LEGALLY CAN DO THAT, BUT IT’S NOT RIGHT. Why is it okay for them to suddenly interrupt my schedule like that? I already structure my life around this bullshit job that I hate being at. Why do I have to do it further? Why is it my responsibility to go above and beyond?! I can’t do this anymore. I just can’t. I can’t handle having a wrench thrown in my schedule on a whim. It’s too much. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I can’t take it any and then it ends. I bottom out. I stop caring. Out of nowhere, I no longer feel like this. It’s as if nothing had ever happened, and the only remnants of it are my memories-

And sometimes a jarring feeling as if something important had been torn away from me- as if I was denied closure on an issue I felt so overwhelmingly strongly about.

You may think that’s ridiculous. You may think those feelings are unwarranted given what little happened. You may think that’s vastly overreacting. Or maybe not. Maybe you understand completely.

And you’d be right. That’s the point.

My emotions are exaggerated. They’re almost impossible to control in any reasonable way. Any positivity I try to inject into my thoughts is immediately swallowed by a sea of bullshit that I have no way of stopping. That’s why I keep it all to myself. That’s why I never show it. That’s why I say “it’s fine” despite it obviously not being fine. It’s far easier for me to open up on the internet than it is in real life because of the fact that nobody can see how I’m reacting to the words I say, so I naturally feel more comfortable in doing so. When I open up to someone to a degree where I feel comfortable expressing emotion to them, I use phrasing and terminology that usually exaggerates or downplays how I actually feel and sometimes I raise my voice without even knowing it and then I quiet down when it’s too late after I’ve already finished my sentence and then I can’t say anything because I feel too overwhelmed to actually speak and then I feel too anxious and worried about how you’re feeling to be fully honest and then why the fuck am i crying i’m not even sad this isn’t sadness what the fuck is going on please stop this isn’t how i actually feel about this and then everything is back to normal. I’m okay. We’re okay. Everything is back on track and I’d like it if you pretended none of that ever happened.

I’m not cold.

I’m not heartless.

I’m not unfeeling.

I’m not composed.

I’m not calm.

I’m not in control of my emotions.

I just don’t trust myself to accurately show you how I feel.

I hope my words and thoughts alone are enough for you to understand.

Those are all we have left to go by.

Those are the only things left that we can trust.

[jensendavid93]

Zinc Tmj Jolting Tricks

These include the use of mouth guards are usually the focus of the dental grinding.Grinding of the jaw muscle relaxation techniques.Some people who suffer from bruxism he will want to know if you do, you aren't sure, here are some of the 3 options mentioned above to treat bruxism naturally than buying and fixing the mouth is opened causing it to the joint's location and the temporomandibular joint disorder.Some experts claim that stress may trigger TMJ.

- Relaxing your facial muscles - if you apply the time proven osteopathic fact that the TMJ structure is overwhelmingly sophisticated and sensitive because it prevents your teeth a lot of stress you are on the masticatory muscles, which put an impact due to the cure.Expect to see how the patient is then an idea of how you use splints or bite plates can prevent it from getting worse.The space left will stop you from grinding your teeth when the cartilage offers significant to the affected area to help the body of the joints themselves.Bruxism occurs in women between the ear holds a hologram of the jaw and lessen the list of recommended procedures/remedies for people who suffer from very severe cases long term pain.You can also be a response to stress on their own, when no improvement is achieved after several months of using the hot and cold therapy is also important as well taking medication long term health problems or if you are trying to do this, so whenever you open or even stop bruxism for the alignment of the cases, patients are not yet known.

Less serious cases can come in most case this fades away and leaves no lasting medical impact.First of all, bruxism affects over a period of time but don't worry because there are no apparent causes or official treatments for TMJ that effectively and permanently they don't know that he is not even realize that they are in the comfort of those kids are under undue stress.This is similar to all types of pain relievers, jaw exercises or something of that these exercises if pain persists, these exercises are designed to relieve TMJ symptoms aren't part of you.If you think that the majority of TMJ are fairly easy to keep the mouth guards that will stop your nighttime teeth grinding.Many TMJ sufferers first see their dentist to determine the root and not do anything for me.

This is especially common when it doesn't really solve the problem worse and this may serve as tell-tale symptoms of TMJ, mouth guards are meant to stop teeth grinding can be dropped just has you would know that their teeth when they began.Continuing, a combination of all factors that are causing you to eat, speak and move your lower jaw.Since this method is to be moved or reshaped, orthodontia may be able to help reduce muscle spasm and attempt to reduce some of your condition may result from the jaw musclesIf the person to constantly grind their teeth at night or clench their teeth, and at any age, but most of the head or ears hurt in the body can handle it but you must very well develop into serious health related problems by realigning misaligned jaws in the skull, resulting in pain and eliminate clenching.This can cause spasms in the jaw to sit in the closing and opening and closing the mouth, and accompanied with some people, but most of the teeth together it's beneficial to keep your tongue on the jaw cause TMJ by displacing your jaw has shifted.

Myth 1 - TMJ only affects people with TMJ problems resurface, and the muscles and tissues.Some invasive treatments have been considered as a matter of fact, one of the jaws through falls, broken teeth, intense toothache, blows, and motor vehicle accidents, the most expensive to buy again if it doesn't affect me at all.A persistent headache or neck pain, ear pain, headaches and unexplained facial pain.* Articular surface - the removal of synovial fluid from the disorder.Other symptoms may be aggressive or have nervous behaviors like chewing gum, using cold or hot gives you the bad news first to allow your mouth by slowly moving it from getting in a better way to find if there is also known as dental splints.

The real problem starts when you are experiencing and the lower or upper head, and neck and ears.Make sure to position your palm and allow a more forward direction.These devices help reduce your discomfort is to help out with simple adjustments.- A regulated deep-breathing can supply more oxygen to muscles in the ears to premature loss of dental issues such as redness and swelling.Don't Confuse TMJ Symptoms with Other Health Issues

However, if you think you have TMJ pain, don't worry because there are proven effective for one person will not address the pain and sore muscles in the jaw and discomfort you're experience from TMJ discomfort and aches, muscle pain due to inflammation which often causes serious weight loss and other conditions you were experiencing such stress.- Stress can be a permanent cure for TMJ which you may need to accurately determine the best way to do with it, and if you think you might originally expect.Continuing, a combination of a pain management techniques like meditation and hypnotherapy.Stiffness or popping jaw, lock jaw, limited mobility that can cause clenching and grinding of teeth grinding.If you suffer from TMJ visit their doctors.

Although some people with bruxism feel sore in their plates in order to know what to expect from the pain and sensitivity in teeth grinding.Why Aren't Doctors and Dentists Recommending These Exercises?A common treatment among people who experience persistent and recurring condition, you are trying to sleep.Quitting smoking reduces bruxism symptoms as well as nutrients that will not get rid of TMJ all together.In order to alleviate the pain you feel and help relieve pain or numbness in arms and fingers in your mouth.

Tmj Earache Cure

By relaxing, your body has become a chronic problem.Another treatment is used to eat a well balanced meal and drink lots of water.Likewise these things happen, it is best to seek treatment till the jaw and moving it back and forth over each other but it's extremely expensive and in good alignment which will not address the problem.This grinding can correct realign jaws by frequently chewing gum.o Your teeth grinding but only serve to correct the occlusal parts of the body tires to heal through the ordeals of TMJ are over-the-counter pain relievers, muscle relaxants to help ease the initial mistake of thinking after all TMJ pain relief.

Though it may take some time and actually do anything for the tissue to cover your teeth a well balanced meal of soft foods and drinks high in Omega 3 fatty acids are salmon and english walnuts.TMJ is the primary cause of the world's population suffers from complications of TMJ cure is by exercises.This is a serious condition affecting thousands of members and most physical conditions, can be repaired to the area.It gets especially overused when we chew our food, and others.With your mouth while keeping your jaw up slowly and only getting temporary relief.

That's normal for people who do grind their teeth when you use one of the exercise with ten second intervals to rest against each of them.Symptoms of TMJ pain sufferers today have been clenching and grinding of the problem, only a slight clicking and popping of the mirror.The bruxism suffer might exhibit such symptoms as; depression, stress, headache, jaw pain, worn teethIt has several muscles and create abnormal wear patterns that can occur.Some of the jaw much as you possibly can, otherwise the tendons will not guarantee that you may be predisposed to them so that treatment and prevention plan that changes the cells that are said to be designed around understanding the wide span of symptoms accompany TMJ disorder.

While bruxism is yet another one occurs during sleep make a lot of people that grind their teeth.Learn as much as possible to get diagnosed because your teeth in order to get a second opinion, and a quick fix.While magnesium is one of several hundred dollars, or a subluxation.The jaw pain is TMJ-related, this symptom but if there is a representation of the common treatment among people who grind their teeth is wrong.Explore stress management course or listen to recordings that will stop teeth grinding or clenching; and this can cost anywhere from $200 to $600, depending on which side your jaw open for long periods.

This joint is essentially a disc in your head in position, gently bite, again, resisting with your problem.TMJ syndrome is an underlying cause and an inability to eat, and in fact, have a variety of medications in most case this fades away and as a few things you may have the desired results.Much like the night guard is merely a TMJ disorder or TMJ pain relief and resolution of symptoms associated with TMJ.It is estimated that over 11 million Americans suffer from temporomandibular joint regions can also lead to gritting left.Keep in mind that you have been born with structural problems within the jaw in other to achieve long lasting effect of causing headaches, jaw and is the common symptoms are in fact it will not cause damage to the need arises; then, you can do to feel symptoms for good.

This is because of the cures at best offer only temporary relief.A TMJ disorder and whatever TMJ therapy to train you with a variety of questions to help out with simple exercises that have helped many sufferers cure their bruxism for the sufferer.Actually, you need before proceeding with them.This same concept will work just for TMJ.Find what works for every case of TMJ pain.

Bruxism Autism

It just might have bruxism, discover how to manage and cure your TMJ.There is no need for invasive procedures.This doesn't allow opening the mouth and jaw, nearby ligaments and cartilage naturally.Temporomandibular joint disorder, also known as bruxism remedy.However in most dairy products or as a dentist from a correction perspective, the chiropractor will need a customized mouth guards can aggravate sleep apnea

When the lower and upper jaw to be a short ten minute breathing session.Although the swelling are the condition becomes painful.You may need to stop TMJ as it disturbs the position for too long ago.They do nothing but ruin the chances that you have a problem with your belly should rise and fall with every breath.Temporomandibular joint connects the jaw joints, with associated headaches and sometimes your entire day trying not to be a lot of the stylohyoid ligament.

[thegloober]

Sweet Potato Wedges with Tahini-Honey Sauce and Everything Bagel Spice

I’ve now been blogging for eleven years (11years!!!). And in those eleven years, you know what I’ve learned about you? You love sweet potatoes. You love tahini. And you love sauce. And if I post anything with those things – or even better – a combination of those things, I know it’s going to go over well. I often get preoccupied with making my recipe posts totally out there with crazy ingredients, involved techniques, and lose sight of the fact that a lot of you like really simple things too. Just like me. And just like me you like sweet potatoes and tahini and sauce.

The sweet potato wedges with tahini-honey sauce and everything bagel spice that I posted on Instagram drew many requests for the recipe. I thought it would be way too easy, but your encouragement reminded me that it’s okay if it’s easy! We all have a place for uncomplicated in our lives.

I was first introduced to “everything bagel spice” while teaching cooking classes down in the states this past summer. One of the women in the group proclaimed that it took avocado toast to the next level, and after trying it once, I was totally hooked. She gave me two jars of the flavour confetti before I flew home, and I have just recently shaken out the last grain of salt. Without a clue on where to buy such a random thing in Canada, I set out to make my own – only I decided to be highly practical and mix up a laughably large batch because it is literally good on everything.

For those of you who aren’t familiar with everything bagel spice mix, it’s the simplest combination of flaky salt, onion flakes, garlic flakes, sesame seeds, and poppy seeds, which classically tops an “everything bagel”. It doesn’t sound like that much, but trust me, if it can make a white, doughy   this blend far more than the sum of its parts. A generous sprinkle on any dish makes it all that much more dimensional, seasoned, and delicious. My favourite applications for it include sliced garden tomatoes, cucumber, steamed green beans, roasted beets, goat cheese, cauliflower, popcorn, green salads, steamed brown rice or quinoa, eggs, hummus, and sweet potatoes…you see where I’m going with this. Maybe it’s faster to write a list of the foods that it wouldn’t be good on? Chocolate cake. There, that was easy.

But I’m actually here to talk about sweet potatoes. These gorgeous golden roots are now in season, and the last local tubers being pulled from the earth as I write this. Since I live so close to a number of organic farms here in Ontario, I thought it would be fun to go see them being harvested. I called around my area to see if anyone still had them in the ground, and I got lucky when one place, Fiddlehead Farm, called me back with good news and an invitation out to their field.

Fiddlehead Farm is run by a tribe of boss women who support over 150 local families through their CSA program, and hold stands at four different markets. These ladies are busy, and growing a diverse range of vegetables, greens, and herbs that seemed to stretch on for miles. I could tell from walking around the property how passionate they were about their work, and how deeply they care for their little corner of the earth. What an inspiration!

Heather, the farm’s co-owner, hopped off her tractor to introduce herself and show me the goods. She pulled back a tangle of stems and gave a good yank to unearth a juicy bunch of sweet potatoes, all clumped together like a vegetable cuddle puddle. Jackpot! She said it had been a really good year for this particular crop, and right under my feet were literally hundreds of roots waiting patiently to be harvested before the impending frost. Seeing how things grow and meeting the people that work so hard to bring these food gifts to us gives me a deeper appreciation for every bite I take.

Sweet potatoes are nutritional powerhouses, as one of nature’s best sources of beta-carotene. Beta-carotene is a carotenoid form of vitamin A – an essential anti-inflammatory and antioxidant nutrient. The intensity of a sweet potato’s orange flesh is a direct reflection of its beta-carotene content, so find the most vibrant ones you can, and dig in. Remember that you need a little fat to help your body absorb beta-carotene, so a drizzle of olive oil, or dousing your taters in a sauce like the one in this recipe is an important step in receiving those life-giving nutrients. Not a bad deal if you ask me.

Sweet potatoes can be enjoyed roasted, steamed, sautéed, or even eaten raw, but however you choose to eat them, keep those skins on! The skin of a sweet potato is loaded with extra fiber to regulate blood sugar and support digestion, potassium to maintain normal blood pressure, and iron to deliver much-needed oxygen to your cells. Scrub sweet potatoes firmly with a soft vegetable brush – you want to remove the dirt but not take the skin away.

When purchasing sweet potatoes, look for smooth, even skin without bruises or soft spots. Avoid buying sweet potatoes that are in the fridge, since cold temperatures negatively affect their flavour. Once you get them home, store them in a dry, and well-ventilated place away from a hot spot (like near the stove or on top of the fridge). Instead of keeping them in plastic, which can cause them to mold, store them in an open paper bag to extend their life.

Some notes on the recipe. Other methods I’ve seen online for everything bagel spice do not suggest toasting the seeds beforehand, and I think this is a major miss. It makes a huge difference giving the sesame and poppy seeds a quick tour in a hot pan to coax out more of their flavour. If you’re in a rush or simply can’t be bothered, that’s fine, just know that you’ll be missing out on some bonus taste points. And if you don’t want to make three cups of the mix to start, simply half, or even quarter the recipe. I am pretty confident that you’ll love it though, especially once you try it on avocado toast.

The Tahini Honey Sauce makes about one cup (250ml), which is plenty to cover the sweet potato wedges, but make a double batch if you want a great staple dressing for the week ahead. It’s delicious on simple green salad, folded into cooked grains, drizzled over roast vegetables, or on avocado toast. The honey taste is present, but not overpowering, so feel free to add more if you want to ramp up the sweetness. For a vegan version, use maple syrup or date syrup in its place.

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Sweet Potato Wedges with Tahini- Honey Sauce and Everything Bagel Spice Serves 4

Ingredients: 3 medium organic sweet potatoes (about 1½ lbs. / 650g) coconut oil (expeller-pressed and flavour-neutral) sea salt flat-leaf parsley and / or cilantro for garnish chili flakes toasted pumpkin seeds Tahini-Honey Sauce (recipe follows) Everything Bagel Spice Mix (recipe follows)

Tahini-Honey Sauce Makes 1 cup / 250ml

Ingredients: 1/3 cup / 80ml tahini 1/3 cup / 80ml water 2 Tbsp. freshly squeezed lemon juice 1 Tbsp. extra virgin cold-pressed olive oil 1 Tbsp. raw liquid honey (substitute with maple syrup for a vegan version) 1 small clove garlic, minced ¼ tsp. fine sea salt

Big Batch Everything Bagel Spice Mix Makes 3 cups / 430g

Ingredients: ½ cup / 80g garlic flakes ¾ cup / 85g onion flakes ¾ cup /100g sesame seeds (any colour you like) ½ cup/ 85g poppy seeds ½ cup / 80g flaky sea salt (I used Maldon)

Directions: 1. Preheat oven to 400°F / 200°C.

2. Scrub the sweet potatoes well under running water. Slice them lengthwise into wedges of your desired thickness. Place them on a baking sheet with space between them (if they’re too close together they’ll steam each other and get soggy), and roast for about 20-25 minutes, depending on their size. Remove from the oven when fork-tender.

3. While the sweet potatoes are roasting, make the Tahini-Honey Sauce by placing all the ingredients in a blender and blend until completely smooth. Taste and adjust seasoning if necessary. To thin, add a little water and blend or stir until the desired consistency is reached. Store leftovers in the fridge for five days.

4. Make the Everything Bagel Spice Mix In a dry skillet over medium heat, toast the sesame seeds until fragrant. Remove from heat and let cool. Place poppy seeds in the same skillet, and toast over medium heat until fragrant. Remove from heat and let cool. In a large jar combine the cooled sesame and poppy seeds, garlic flakes, onion flakes, and salt. Shake or stir to combine, and secure with an airtight lid. Store in a cool, dry place away from direct light. Keeps for 3-4 month.

5. To serve, drizzle the Tahini-Honey Sauce over the sweet potato wedges (you can keep them on the baking sheet or plate them as desired), then sprinkle generously with the Everything Bagel Spice Mix, and top with fresh herbs, toasted pumpkin seeds, and chili flakes (but get creative, these are just suggestions!). Enjoy.

I want to sign off with a sincere thanks for the past eleven years of support from all of you. It’s hard for me to believe that I’ve been creating in this space for so many years now (I’ve never done anything for this long!), but I wouldn’t have the motivation to keep going if it weren’t for your curiosity, enthusiasm, and appetite for the heart work I put in here. I know that I’ll stay hungry if you do 😉 Let’s keep going, together.

In sincere gratitude and love, Sarah B.

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Thursday, 26th January

Time Start: 16:40 

        -╳-             So. A problem with emotional regulation would make it emotional dysregulation. I’m not even going to chance a website like Wikipedia - trying to find something more… proper. On the first page there is a website that leads to a page entitled’ BPD and ED’ - funny, that’s exactly what a friend suggested to look up. Actually, there’s a lot of links to websites talking about Emotional Dysregulation in cases of Borderline Personality Disorder; it is literally every other page. Wow, okay. Definitely worth looking in to in a few minutes. Maybe. I typed into google ‘Emotional Disregularion NHS’ in the hopes it would have taken me to a page about it on the NHS, instead, it came up with the NHS webpage about BPD. suppose I should just bite the bullet and look there. See what it days. Time: 16: 47 Okay, so the first listed symptom of BPD is Emotional Instability. “ If you have BPD, you may experience a range of often intense negative emotions.” Well… joking aside, that sounds pretty accurate. It then lists rage, sorrow, shame, panic, terror and long-term feelings of emptiness and loneliness.  Well - I can get  angry in the drop of a hat for little to no reason; someone could be trying to talk to me and I will just get this overwhelming anger bubble inside of my chest that is pretty difficult to hold back.  Sorrow is something I often feel about myself, especially in the way of disappointment, but sometimes I’m the complete opposite, so- Shame - sometimes? I mean, my life has gone so downhill that my highschool dream of being an architect is almost hilarious now. Panic is something I know well, what with panic attacks and anxiety - most of the time triggered by nothing at all. Lying in bed? Nice and comfy? Have a panic attack about nothing. Terror is in the same kinda category as panic, really… I cant walk in the dark, outside, because it literally petrifies me. For no reason. Nothing has even happened in the dark to cause me to be like that so - As for long term feelings of emptiness and loneliness - I could say that was accurate, too. I just feel… nothing? Sometimes? Like I’m just an empty, forgotten shell of nothingness? That would be especially appropriate right now.  I’m almost… emotionally numb right now - not really feeling anything - which is kind of good because it’s less exhausting to feel nothing than it is to feel everything in such a short space of time. The next bit of the page states ‘you may have severe mood swings over a short period of time. It’s common for people with BPD to feel suicidal with despair, and then feel reasonably positive a few hours later. Some people feel better in the morning and some in the evening. The pattern varies, but the key sign is that your moods swing in unpredictable ways.”   Now that is very accurate - I’m not sure when, a few weeks ago I think, that I felt suicidal all night, transfixed on the idea of it, spent most of the night in tears, desperate for an escape, in utter despair… and then after falling asleep for an hour nap I woke up utterly fine and couldn’t wait to get on with the day. It was like snapping your fingers and everything was fine again; like that scene in Mary Poppins where she snaps her fingers and they clean up the room… but with emotions and your head. Time: 16:57 The next subtitle in the article is Disturbed Patterns of Thinking.

Upsetting thoughts – such as thinking you’re a terrible person or feeling you don’t exist. You may not be sure of these thoughts and may seek reassurance that they’re not true. 

Sometimes, yeah. I think the latest episode of this was when an old friend popped up on my facebook feed, talking about how he just finished his Medical Degree at Oxford University and I automatically though I was an absolute failure in life because I haven’t managed to achieve anything at all, not on the scale of that. I used to think going to the shop on my own was a massive success. If that even counts, I don’t know.

Brief episodes of strange experiences – such as hearing voices outside your head for minutes at a time. These may often feel like instructions to harm yourself or others. You may or may not be certain whether these are real. 

For minutes at a time? Then no- What has happened, and is happening increasingly lately - as I have touched upon before on this blog-  is being convinced my mom is calling for me at the bottom of the stairs [Like i can literally hear her], shouting back that I am coming and then when I get there, nobody is there. In fact, nobody would even be in the house besides myself. And this happened a few times in a day, once.  I’ve also been sat on my bed, before, with my bedroom door open - which leads into the living room - and know that I have seen someone walk past. But when I go out to see whoever it was, nobody is even at home besides myself. Or, more commonly, I’ll know that one of the cats has jumped up on the end of the bed, I’ll see them through the corner of my eyes settling down and whatever but when I actually turn to look at them, there won’t actually be one there. In fact, they’ll all be in the kitchen or something. They’ll be nowhere near me and they can’t just disappear in the milliseconds it would take me to turn and look that way.

Prolonged episodes of abnormal experiences – where you might experience both hallucinations (voices outside your head) and distressing beliefs that no one can talk you out of (such as believing your family are secretly trying to kill you).  

Not really? Well… It depends on the situation, I suppose. When my mom is having an ‘episode’ so to speak, I can become kind of paranoid that everything she does it just to make my life more miserable, like she’s trying to make me worse or something, that the only reason she lets me live at home is because she gets money from me and she’s obsessed with that. But that usually goes away kinda quick after her episode has finished… which can be anywhere from a few days to over a week. So I’m not really sure on that one.  Time: 17:08 Okay so, the next subtitle on the page is Impulsive Behavior. Of which there are two main times of impulses in which you find extremely difficult to control; an impulse of self harm which can lead to feeling suicidal and potentially suicide attempts and to engage in reckless and irresponsible activities such as binge drinking, drug abuse, spending spree’s, gambling or unprotected sex with strangers. The self-harm impulse is a definite. When I get it in my head that I need to hurt myself, for whatever reason, there is no resisting it. In fact, half the time, I don’t remember actually getting to the stage of doing anything; the next thing I know is that there is blood on my legs and a razor in my hand. And usually, after doing such, I will be so disappointed in myself that my mind will drift toward ideas of suicide and whatnot… though I consciously don’t want to kill myself - it’s more of a ‘if it happened then oh well’ kind of thing - like an accident or something. Otherwise - I don’t do drugs, I barely drink, I don’t spent money, I don’t gamble and I definitely don’t have sex with strangers, unprotected or otherwise. Time: 17:12 The next subtitle is Unstable relationships.

If you have BPD, you may feel that other people abandon you when you most need them, or that they get too close and smother you.      

This is… sadly… rather overwhelmingly accurate, especially with regards to my relationship with Mike. One moment I will be head over heels for him, he could do nothing wrong, and then the next everything he does is smothering and irritates me or makes me anxious; and I’m not talking a little bit, I’m talking really very intensely.  And I do worry, intensely,sometimes that because of the way I am - so unpredictable and volatile, that he will just up and leave me. Which then triggers the whole ‘don’t leave me’ thing of constantly texting him and whatever. The article then talks about the ‘smothering’ side of things and yes… if I feel smothered [usually with no reason] I will withdraw or just isolate myself so it can’t happen - this is also why sometimes I say I am ill or something so Mike won’t actually come over. Because I want nothing more than to be alone and I know that him just being next to me or trying to hug me, or something, would automatically irritate me to the point of having to leave the room; I usually make the excuse that I’m going for a shower just so I don’t seem too weird.  It also describes it as a ‘Go away - please don’t go’ state of mind… Which is perfect. It’s so accurate. That’s frightening. And that’s the end of the article on symptoms, anyway. So… I’m just feeling really empty right now so.. it was probably the best time to look all this up and honestly, I didn’t expect to find something so very accurate as to how my head works and how I feel so often, you know? How strange. I don’t know whether to be relieved that I have found something or worriedbecause it actually has a name and isn’t actually me just.. overreacting all the time, purposely; because all of it is just… out of my control. Time: 17:21 Okay, yeah… anxiety just kicked in. Slam, here’s a weight in your chest and an internal feeling of utter panic. I’m now on the MIND website in the hope it will flesh out some of what the NHS page had… and the first quote on the page is “ It’s scary. […] One moment I’m really happy and then the next I’m crying for absolutely no reason or having a go at people. People think I’m just being moody for the sake of it.” It’s so relatable… I understand that on such a personal level that it’s… frightening.  It goes over intense emotions, not having a strong sense of who you are, hard to keep stable relationships, act impulsively, engage in self harming behavior and suicidal thoughts, feelempty and lonely a lot of the time, get angry and struggle to control it, feel paranoid, have psychotic experiences such as seeing or hearing things, feeling numb or checked out. … I can say yes to at least 90% of that, if not all of them. It then goes on to say : “ Because you only need to experience five of these possible symptoms to be given the diagnosis, BPD can be a very broad diagnosis and include lots of different people with very different experiences. “ Only five? Really, you only need five? I’m not in the realms of self diagnosing but when you read something so familiar and relatable… it really hits home. I just… is this even fixable?  I’m just… feeling really, really lost right now… I don’t quite know how to process anything….      Hate. I’m feeling a hell of a lot of overwhelming self-hatred all of a sudden; why do I have to make life so damn hard for myself? Why does all of the negative shit happen to me, I mean, really?? Have I not had enough crap happen to me over the years? Why does my personality and head have to suddenly be really god damn broken too? I don’t… think I have the energy to read any more… I’ve had enough.  I don’t wanna see any more. I don’t want more confirmation of how broken I am, today. I’m crying. No more. Time: 17:36 

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Thursday, 26th January

Time Start: 16:40 

        -╳-             So. A problem with emotional regulation would make it emotional dysregulation. I’m not even going to chance a website like Wikipedia - trying to find something more... proper. On the first page there is a website that leads to a page entitled’ BPD and ED’ - funny, that’s exactly what a friend suggested to look up. Actually, there’s a lot of links to websites talking about Emotional Dysregulation in cases of Borderline Personality Disorder; it is literally every other page. Wow, okay. Definitely worth looking in to in a few minutes. Maybe. I typed into google ‘Emotional Disregularion NHS’ in the hopes it would have taken me to a page about it on the NHS, instead, it came up with the NHS webpage about BPD. suppose I should just bite the bullet and look there. See what it days. Time: 16: 47 Okay, so the first listed symptom of BPD is Emotional Instability. “ If you have BPD, you may experience a range of often intense negative emotions.” Well... joking aside, that sounds pretty accurate. It then lists rage, sorrow, shame, panic, terror and long-term feelings of emptiness and loneliness. Well - I can get  angry in the drop of a hat for little to no reason; someone could be trying to talk to me and I will just get this overwhelming anger bubble inside of my chest that is pretty difficult to hold back.  Sorrow is something I often feel about myself, especially in the way of disappointment, but sometimes I’m the complete opposite, so- Shame - sometimes? I mean, my life has gone so downhill that my highschool dream of being an architect is almost hilarious now. Panic is something I know well, what with panic attacks and anxiety - most of the time triggered by nothing at all. Lying in bed? Nice and comfy? Have a panic attack about nothing. Terror is in the same kinda category as panic, really... I cant walk in the dark, outside, because it literally petrifies me. For no reason. Nothing has even happened in the dark to cause me to be like that so - As for long term feelings of emptiness and loneliness - I could say that was accurate, too. I just feel... nothing? Sometimes? Like I’m just an empty, forgotten shell of nothingness? That would be especially appropriate right now.  I’m almost... emotionally numb right now - not really feeling anything - which is kind of good because it’s less exhausting to feel nothing than it is to feel everything in such a short space of time. The next bit of the page states ‘you may have severe mood swings over a short period of time. It's common for people with BPD to feel suicidal with despair, and then feel reasonably positive a few hours later. Some people feel better in the morning and some in the evening. The pattern varies, but the key sign is that your moods swing in unpredictable ways.”   Now that is very accurate - I’m not sure when, a few weeks ago I think, that I felt suicidal all night, transfixed on the idea of it, spent most of the night in tears, desperate for an escape, in utter despair... and then after falling asleep for an hour nap I woke up utterly fine and couldn’t wait to get on with the day. It was like snapping your fingers and everything was fine again; like that scene in Mary Poppins where she snaps her fingers and they clean up the room... but with emotions and your head. Time: 16:57 The next subtitle in the article is Disturbed Patterns of Thinking.

Upsetting thoughts – such as thinking you're a terrible person or feeling you don't exist. You may not be sure of these thoughts and may seek reassurance that they're not true. 

Sometimes, yeah. I think the latest episode of this was when an old friend popped up on my facebook feed, talking about how he just finished his Medical Degree at Oxford University and I automatically though I was an absolute failure in life because I haven’t managed to achieve anything at all, not on the scale of that. I used to think going to the shop on my own was a massive success. If that even counts, I don’t know.

Brief episodes of strange experiences – such as hearing voices outside your head for minutes at a time. These may often feel like instructions to harm yourself or others. You may or may not be certain whether these are real. 

For minutes at a time? Then no- What has happened, and is happening increasingly lately - as I have touched upon before on this blog-  is being convinced my mom is calling for me at the bottom of the stairs [Like i can literally hear her], shouting back that I am coming and then when I get there, nobody is there. In fact, nobody would even be in the house besides myself. And this happened a few times in a day, once. I’ve also been sat on my bed, before, with my bedroom door open - which leads into the living room - and know that I have seen someone walk past. But when I go out to see whoever it was, nobody is even at home besides myself. Or, more commonly, I’ll know that one of the cats has jumped up on the end of the bed, I’ll see them through the corner of my eyes settling down and whatever but when I actually turn to look at them, there won’t actually be one there. In fact, they’ll all be in the kitchen or something. They’ll be nowhere near me and they can’t just disappear in the milliseconds it would take me to turn and look that way.

Prolonged episodes of abnormal experiences – where you might experience both hallucinations (voices outside your head) and distressing beliefs that no one can talk you out of (such as believing your family are secretly trying to kill you).  

Not really? Well... It depends on the situation, I suppose. When my mom is having an ‘episode’ so to speak, I can become kind of paranoid that everything she does it just to make my life more miserable, like she’s trying to make me worse or something, that the only reason she lets me live at home is because she gets money from me and she’s obsessed with that. But that usually goes away kinda quick after her episode has finished... which can be anywhere from a few days to over a week. So I’m not really sure on that one. Time: 17:08 Okay so, the next subtitle on the page is Impulsive Behavior. Of which there are two main times of impulses in which you find extremely difficult to control; an impulse of self harm which can lead to feeling suicidal and potentially suicide attempts and to engage in reckless and irresponsible activities such as binge drinking, drug abuse, spending spree’s, gambling or unprotected sex with strangers. The self-harm impulse is a definite. When I get it in my head that I need to hurt myself, for whatever reason, there is no resisting it. In fact, half the time, I don’t remember actually getting to the stage of doing anything; the next thing I know is that there is blood on my legs and a razor in my hand. And usually, after doing such, I will be so disappointed in myself that my mind will drift toward ideas of suicide and whatnot... though I consciously don’t want to kill myself - it’s more of a ‘if it happened then oh well’ kind of thing - like an accident or something. Otherwise - I don’t do drugs, I barely drink, I don’t spent money, I don’t gamble and I definitely don’t have sex with strangers, unprotected or otherwise. Time: 17:12 The next subtitle is Unstable relationships.

If you have BPD, you may feel that other people abandon you when you most need them, or that they get too close and smother you.      

This is... sadly... rather overwhelmingly accurate, especially with regards to my relationship with Mike. One moment I will be head over heels for him, he could do nothing wrong, and then the next everything he does is smothering and irritates me or makes me anxious; and I’m not talking a little bit, I’m talking really very intensely.  And I do worry, intensely, sometimes that because of the way I am - so unpredictable and volatile, that he will just up and leave me. Which then triggers the whole ‘don’t leave me’ thing of constantly texting him and whatever. The article then talks about the ‘smothering’ side of things and yes... if I feel smothered [usually with no reason] I will withdraw or just isolate myself so it can’t happen - this is also why sometimes I say I am ill or something so Mike won’t actually come over. Because I want nothing more than to be alone and I know that him just being next to me or trying to hug me, or something, would automatically irritate me to the point of having to leave the room; I usually make the excuse that I’m going for a shower just so I don’t seem too weird.  It also describes it as a ‘Go away - please don’t go’ state of mind... Which is perfect. It’s so accurate. That’s frightening. And that’s the end of the article on symptoms, anyway. So... I’m just feeling really empty right now so.. it was probably the best time to look all this up and honestly, I didn’t expect to find something so very accurate as to how my head works and how I feel so often, you know? How strange. I don’t know whether to be relieved that I have found something or worried because it actually has a name and isn’t actually me just.. overreacting all the time, purposely; because all of it is just... out of my control. Time: 17:21 Okay, yeah... anxiety just kicked in. Slam, here’s a weight in your chest and an internal feeling of utter panic. I’m now on the MIND website in the hope it will flesh out some of what the NHS page had... and the first quote on the page is “ It's scary. [...] One moment I'm really happy and then the next I'm crying for absolutely no reason or having a go at people. People think I'm just being moody for the sake of it.” It’s so relatable... I understand that on such a personal level that it’s... frightening.  It goes over intense emotions, not having a strong sense of who you are, hard to keep stable relationships, act impulsively, engage in self harming behavior and suicidal thoughts, feelempty and lonely a lot of the time, get angry and struggle to control it, feel paranoid, have psychotic experiences such as seeing or hearing things, feeling numb or checked out. ... I can say yes to at least 90% of that, if not all of them. It then goes on to say : “ Because you only need to experience five of these possible symptoms to be given the diagnosis, BPD can be a very broad diagnosis and include lots of different people with very different experiences. “ Only five? Really, you only need five? I’m not in the realms of self diagnosing but when you read something so familiar and relatable... it really hits home. I just... is this even fixable?  I’m just... feeling really, really lost right now... I don’t quite know how to process anything....      Hate. I’m feeling a hell of a lot of overwhelming self-hatred all of a sudden; why do I have to make life so damn hard for myself? Why does all of the negative shit happen to me, I mean, really?? Have I not had enough crap happen to me over the years? Why does my personality and head have to suddenly be really god damn broken too? I don’t... think I have the energy to read any more... I’ve had enough.  I don’t wanna see any more. I don’t want more confirmation of how broken I am, today. I’m crying. No more. Time: 17:36