#And feeling ''more like a dude'' is entering an environment where I'm not misgendered/named | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

yoshistory · 5 months ago

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Realizing I am highly influenced by cognitive distortion of emotional reasoning wrt "I'm made to feel like I'm a girl" -> "I FEEL like I'm a girl, so I must be until I feel MORE like a dude" and sort of throwing all my shit out the window immediately.

#Reading my CBT stuff my therapist sent me and honestly I think I do. all of them #But emotional reasoning cracked me open a little #And feeling ''more like a dude'' is entering an environment where I'm not misgendered/named #Which is usually like. My house and the internet lol #Either that or like looking in the mirror and shit #But it melts off when I re-enter the environment where I'm not gendered correctly. And makes me concede to it #Reacting with emotional interpretation instead of being headstrong about myself even just internally #But knowing the wording for this is helping me change that. It's nice to walk around and feel like myself at work #I think this is also something cis people can experience and can lead to like toxic masculinity #IE 'get called a girl -> act emotionally to prove manhood'#And I know I'm not like unearthing new shit here but it's interesting to connect these lines and see them #And what it's called and motivated by beyond this. What it looks like in others. It's interesting #I think this might even be something cis people have MORE of a problem with if I'm being honest

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