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trashratofgarbagehill · 2 months ago

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I find myself growing super frustrated with everything personal lately. Graduating doesn’t fix my burnout, I’m still struggling to recover from writing/editing a thesis for like 5+ hours a day for like 2 months. It’s hard to get back into personal projects when the thought of writing makes me angry, especially when my main WIP has given me writers block.

I’m hoping that this holiday break will be good for me. I feel happy for the most part but I keep trying to get back into what I feel born to do (create art) and it’s not working! Oh, well, no one ever said it’d be easy.

#Just yelling into the void sorry #It’s not much of a rant but I only rant to close friends #I have gc I usually talk about this stuff in but we’ve all been busy and I don’t want them to read it I don’t think. I don’t want like #An answer or comfort for this. My mom is the only one who knows how to talk to me abt this anyhow lol #A lot of other personal shit has been happening w friends too so it’s just frustrating. It’s whatever #I want to do everything all at once now that I have free time back and I can’t and for some reason that’s just like #Tearing me up inside. I had this idea that everything would be fixed once I got out of college #Get a gf. Get more friends. Be more social. Do amazing at work. Go out and explore #And I find myself frustratingly human. I get tired. I’m paying almost half of my monthly paycheck in student loans and I’m much more #Emotional now that I have the room to actually feel again. Horrible honestly #…. I’m getting there anyhow #Sorry for the rant I just needed to yell this somewhere

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