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shawn-is-my-giant-jellybean · 4 years ago

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ONLY WANT YOU.

Pairing : Shawn Mendes × reader

Genre : Angst, smut, fluff

Warnings : Swearing, Daddy kink, thigh riding, unprotected sex, dom!Shawn, Self depreciation(very mild), oral (male receiving)

Summary : The reader and Shawn have an intense argument and then Shawn let's the reader know who's the one he wants.

You were more than worried now. It had been precisely 2 hours 14 minutes since Shawn left. You really managed to send him over the edge. You didn't want to. You didn't mean it. But you can't help it when all of the world is pining for what's not true. He's yours but no, everyone wants him and camila to be together.

Camila was such a lovely lady. You couldn't help but feel insecure. She was everything you'd want to be. Hell, she was beautiful and the worst part you wanted to hate her but you couldn't. She had that aura.

You and Shawn were in it for long. That's what you thought at least. You knew he was the one for you. And you believed you were too for him until recently.

Ever since the PR began after Senorita was out you couldn't help but question everything. Your bond with Shawn seemed to weaken. You found yourself distancing from him. You didn't want to. You never did. Everytime you saw an article in some shitty tabloid your breath got caught. You felt you couldn't breathe. You knew it was fake but guess these two were really good actors cause it didn't seem unreal it to you.

You tried to calm yourself. Remind yourself you were overanalysing the sitch. He is your boyfriend. He will be home soon. Then you can be in his strong arms and feel safe and secure. But none of it worked.

All this while, since the PR managers suggested this, Shawn had made sure to get you involved. Let you be a part of everything that's been happening or is going to in future. Make sure you're comfortable with it. And boy, did you say yes cause you didn't wanna hold him down. But now when he was not with you for the holidays, when he had to fly out every weekend to Miami you felt your nerves kick in.

You hated yourself for being such a hypocrite. Shawn never once made you feel secluded but your overthinker ass ravaged everything.

You were certain he hated you now. This was the longest you two had gone without talking after that intense a fight.

Shawn was back home after three months. You were so excited for him to be with you for a whole week now, until you saw that article. You knew it meant nothing but seeing your boyfriend sticking his tongue down another women's throat got the best of you. You didn't think it was going to affect you so bad when you said yes to the whole PR stuff but now you just didn't know how to feel.

You never told Shawn when your anxiety kicked in seeing him with her because you didn't want to seem like a hypocrite. But weren't you one?

You just suffered quietly. Tried to let it pass. It'd end soon. That's how you always calmed your raging nerves. You became quieter. Stopped being your bubbly self when Shawn called. He obviously noticed. He knew you better than you yourself. He just couldn't figure the issue cause you had so convincingly persuaded him to believe you were fine with it all.

"Hun, I'm home. " Shawn said as he closed the door after settling his luggage beside the shoe cabinet right at the entrance of your shared apartment.

When he got no response he was stressed. He expected you to pounce on him as soon as he opened the gate but there was no sign of you.

He kicked his shoes off and then remembered how it'd annoy you so much, laughed to himself and went back to put them in the cabinet before calling out for you again.

"Y/N, baby I'm home. "

He checked the living room. You weren't there. The kitchen next. No sign of you anywhere. He didn't expect you to be asleep cause it was just 7 and you were a night owl getting all pumped with energy as the clock hit 6 pm. This was your best time of the day and Shawn certainly had decided to make the best of it but you were nowhere to be found.

He wouldn't lie he was disappointed when you didn't fling yourself into his arms and peppered his face with cute wet kisses and were all clingy and lovey with him. He missed you so much.

He went to your bedroom, your shared room. Checked the whole house but there was no sign of you. He felt all that excitement dial down.

He decided to call you, obviously.

You didn't pick up.

He was worried now. He called your best friend cause you usually liked to hangout with her at evenings like this, discussing your medical school stuff and just chilling at times. She didn't pick up either. He called your mom and she told him that you were out with Y/F/N and she thought that he already knew.

Shawn was more than upset. He felt a little angry because you had been acting so not yourself and this was the least he could expect from you. There was something wrong obviously but why wouldn't you talk to him. Every time he tried to talk, you'd just make some excuse. He was tired now and this was what sent him over the edge. He tried calling you after an hour again. Just to get back a text saying "I'll be home late. Dinner's in the fridge. Don't wait for me. "

He was pissed off. Really bad.

You came home around 10:30 at night. You knew this wasn't fair to Shawn. After you saw that article you just couldn't. You had to let some seam off. Y/F/N called you and asked you if you'd wanna come to a small party they were throwing for Tom, a batchmate of yours Shawn had a huge disliking towards. Tom had asked you out cause he didn't know you had a boyfriend and he made it very clear that he liked you a lot. Shawn didn't take that well, obviously. He hated Tom's guts.

You wanted to get on his nerves after seeing the article. So you did.

You put on your sexiest one piece Shawn got for you year on your graduation day. The nerve of you. You informed your mom cause you knew Shawn would call her as you didn't plan on picking up his phone.

You opened the door with your key. The click noise made Shawn wake up from his light slumber.

You knew you had pulled off real shit and well consequences weren't gonna be good.

As you went inside. You saw the food was out on the counter but untouched. Shawn was in the living room, glaring at you.

"Where were you, Y/N? " He asked you with a voice dangerously low sending chills down your spine.

But heh you had enough liquid courage to be a douche at this point.

"Hello to you too. " You said in a rude tone.

"I said where the fuck were you, Y/N? It's been three goddamn hours. I have been so stressed what the hell is wrong with you. You didn't even care to tell me yourself. What the fuck?" He snapped at you moving towards you in the kitchen where you were pouring some water for yourself.

" I was at Tom's birthday party with Y/F/N." You said non chalantly.

His eyes shot up. Going wide.

" So you decided to go to that fucker's party instead of being with me. I'm home after three fucking months for fuck's sake." He yelled from across the counter.

You flinched hearing his tone but snapped right back. "Well what am I supposed to do Shawn? Sit here like a fool while you stick your tongue down her throat. All I see are pictures of you two making out every fucking where so am I just supposed to fucking wait for you after getting ten thousand notifications showing my boyfriend and his fucking girlfriend!? "

He took in a deep breath as if to not do anything wrong. The change on his face was scary. He just went from angry and worried to nothing. His face went expressionless. The tension getting thicker with every passing second.

You realised how wrong you were instantly. Hands flying to cover your mouth. " Shawn, i-... I am.. I didn't mean it. Bab-"

"You fucking meant it, Y/N. I can't even. You've got to be kidding me. " He took his Jeep's keys and headed for the gate. You tried to stop him by touching his shoulder but the look he gave you made you feel disgusted with yourself. He slammed the gate as he went out. Tears made their way down your cheeks smudging all your make up.

You sank down right where you were beside the kitchen counter. You hated yourself in this moment more than you ever had. The one person who always put your needs first, cared for you more than himself, you managed to make him hate you. You were certain he did.

You ran took your phone called Shawn. Over and over again. 5 calls went unanswered. You were perturbed. Didn't know what to do. Didn't know where he could be. You wanted to just be in his arms. You didn't deserve it but you felt home. His arms were your home. And you just ruined it all. Your baseless insecurities did.

You sat there helpless, loathing yourself. You don't know when sleep took over you. When you woke up it was 12. You got up in haste, drowning in worry. It had been an hour and a half since he left. You called him again and again to no avail. You lost the best thing you ever had and you knew you wouldn't be able to live with yourself after what you did.

You decided leaving was the best. He anyway wouldn't want you near him. Shawn deserved the world. He deserved the best. And then there was you who gave him nothing but hurled insults at him.

Tears didn't stop flowing at a point you felt you didn't have anymore left but you were wrong. You went up to your bedroom. Taking out a suitcase. You didn't want to bother him more. You weren't worth it.

You put in your essentials in the bag, moving to the closet after that. You changed into one of your hoodies. It was his. All of your clothes were basically his. You needed to wear them to feel home when he wasn't around. He loved them on you but now you weren't so sure. You anyway did it. One hoodie wouldn't upset him.

As you were done packing you checked the time it was over 2 hours. You wanted to die right at this moment. Shawn was not picking up your calls. You called Geoff earlier, he had no idea where Shawn was. Now you decided to call Karen. You didn't know what to do. You had already asked Andrew if Shawn was at the studio. You didn't want to stress everywhere cause Shawn didn't get mad easily but when he did it was bad. Extremely bad.

Just as you were about to call Karen you felt yourself being turned around, moved towards the closet door, a pair of strong arms pulling you and then his warm swollen lips being attached to yours. You melted right then. You didn't know how to respond. You couldn't believe it. Were you dreaming? But as you let it sink in, it was your Shawn kissing you. His smell invaded your senses making you feel alive again. Those lips moulded with yours felt like heaven. Tears made their way out of your eyes again. Lips starting to move against his. Hands going into his hair tugging at it as he devoured you. You didn't realize he was crying too until you opened your eyes. His eyes blood shot, cheeks tear stained. You hated you were the reason for his disheveled state. You hated yourself.

You broke the kiss. Not being able to look him in the eyes. Trying to catch your breath.

After a few minutes of total silence you figured this was goodbye. You started moving towards your suitcase.

As he saw what you were doing he let out a loud groan. He wanted to knock some sense into you and he decided he will.

He held your arm pulling you towards himself, asking with a hoarse voice "Where do you think you are going? "

"I'm sorry, Shawn. I just....you deserve better. I'll leave, I wanted to ask you if I can take this one hoodie? If you want it back I understand. I just didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't mean anything I said earlier. It just I was a little drunk you know it's I'm so terribly sorry. " You rambled didn't realising when you started sobbing.

You felt his arms wrap around you. Engulfing you in a loving hug. You broke down. He was still being so considerate when all you did was break his heart.

"Shush honey. Y/N, I am right here. You're not going anywhere."

"I am sorry. So sorry. I-.. I'll leave. "

"Baby, I said you are not going anywhere. I need you hun. You remember, it's forever." He said in his beautiful voice showing you his promise ring. The one you got him three months back. Just before he left.

You looked up at him through your crys. You wanted to see if he hated you or not. He could lie to you but his eyes could never. To your surprise all you saw was worry and love. A sense of relief washed over you. You released a breath you didn't know you were holding all this while.

"I love you baby. We are okay. I'm sorry I shouldn't have left like this."

"No no no Shawn. You.. I.... I'm so fucking terrible. I didn't mean anything earlier. I just wanted to I don't know I'm a fool. I was so scared I lost you forever. I'm so sorry. I love you so much. "

"No bub, I get where you're coming from. I understand. Just seeing you go to his birthday party made my blood boil. Seeing me with Camila, making out, holding hands I get it. I'm sorry. You should have told me, Y/N. I always wanted you to be comfortable with it. Although I shouldn't have put you in that spot when I know you won't ever say anything that's not in favour of my career. "

" I just didn't wanna hold you back, Shawn. I knew it was important but seeing you with her I just can't help but compare myself to her. I'm so pathetic. I hate myself. "

" Hey don't you ever say that about my baby. She's the best. Okay? Most beautiful, most caring, loving, selfless and she has the best legs. Her ass is so sexy. Her curves. Those lips I never wanna let go off. " He said his hands on your ass massaging it. You let out a low moan. It had been so long.

You wanted Shawn more than anything . His head dipped down to your neck, your head falling back. It felt unreal to be this close to him again. Especially after that sick stunt you pulled off.

He bit you at your soft spot and you jumped in his arms making him chuckle. He licked it to soothe it and you moaned. Not being able to control how overwhelmed you were after months of no physical contact with him.

"By the way that dress, baby. Not a smart move wearing it to Tom's birthday party, was it? " He said as his hands creeped up inside your hoodie sending shivers up your spine.

You just moaned in response only to receive a light tug at your bum.

"Words, honey. Use your words with me. " He said in that deep voice making your knees turn into jelly.

"Yes daddy. It was so stupid of me. Sorry daddy. " You said in your most innocent voice. Eyes looking glossy.

Shawn literally lost it there. Letting out a low growl. " Fuck Y/N." He turned you around. Making you face the mirror on your vanity. Your ass pressed onto his front. You could feel him already getting hard against your thigh. "Say it again." He commanded in a low voice. So you did feeling yourself getting wet. The pool in your panties becoming larger. "Mmm Daddy." You moaned as he moved your hair onto one side tilting your head so that he could assault your neck again. He knew how much you loved it when he did this.

"You know I wanted to take you right when you entered the house. Looking so pretty in that dress. Daddy got so worked up, baby. Only if you weren't being an annoying little brat." He said bringing his hand on your left boob cupping it under your hoodie.

"No bra? You're being very naughty I see."

"Sorrrryyy daddy. Sorry for being a little brat. I need you, daddy." You couldn't take his assault anymore. You whined. You just wanted him to fuck you into oblivion. Wanted him to be rough with you. Wanted to be close to him. As close that even air couldn't get in between the two of you.

"My hun is eager, I see. What do you want honey?" He asked.

"Want daddy to fuck me. Hard." You answered. Your eyes closed as he played with your tits. You could already feel yourself dripping on your thigh.

"Fuck baby. Getting daddy so hard huh? But do you deserve it after what you did."

"No daddy I have been bad. Very bad." You said. Extremely excited for what was in store for you. Shawn being a little rough and dominant always got you in the mood no matter when and where. That was his effect. The fact that only you got to see this side of the otherwise always a sweetheart gentle giant Shawn worked wonders on you. You loved it and he knew that.

"Hmm so kitten what is your punishment then?" Shawn whispered in your left ear. Making goosebumps arise on your body.

"Spanks, daddy. I have to count."

"Mm look at you being so good. How many do you deserve baby? "

"6 daddy? "

"Isn't that very less for what you did hun? Make it 10."

"Okay daddy."

He tugged at your hands as an indication for you to raise them so that he could take off his large hoodie of you. Leaving you only in your black lace panties. Looking at your almost naked body, Shawn couldn't help the moan that escaped his lips. Hands immediately cupping both your boobs. "So beautiful kitten."

"Thank you, daddy."

He proceeded on to take off his shirt. His biceps flexing in the process making your mouth water. You still were in a haze. This man, literally Adonis was yours? How'd you get so lucky? His flawless skin. The little hair peppering his chest. The defined pecs. His abs. You didn't even realise you were gawking at him. Literally with your mouth open. A chuckle brought you back to reality. Getting flushed instantly.

"Mmm definitely enjoying what you see hun. Come here." He said sitting at the edge of the bed opening his legs so that you could bend over his thighs. You did as told.

"Want these off baby. " He tugged at your panties. Before you could even move to get them off. He ripped them apart in half as if it was nothing. You got wetter if that was possible.

"Now bend." He said. You did as told. You bent over his lap.

"Count baby." He growled as his hand slapped your right ass cheek. A loud moan leaving your lips. "One."

Another spank at the same place. Making it become an angry red. "Two." You whined.

Shawn saw your wetness dripping down your thighs forcing a strangled moan out of him. His fingers immediately going to your freshly shaved pussy lips. "You are enjoying this so much kitten? " He asked as his fingers dipped in your folds, you almost screaming at the sudden action, then he took them in his mouth. You sublimated right that moment. If this wasn't the hottest thing you'd ever seen you didn't know what was. You felt pure bliss.

Still in that euphoria you didn't realize how time passed and his hand came in contact with your ass again. Harder than before.

"Three." You cried. Your ass blood red. Tears threatening to fall out of your eyes any second. Just for a second Shawn's demeanor faltered. He seemed to be having second thoughts. He couldn't hurt you. His hand soothingly titillating the area.

You, as if, read his thoughts and told him to continue. "It hurts so good, daddy." That was all he needed. "You're doing so good kitten. Just two more." With that his hand came down again not so hard this time. You moaned, loving the burning sensation.

He repeated the same with your left cheek. You started to cry by the time he was done. He took you in his arms. Making you face him. Straddling his lap. "Did so good for me baby." You rested your head on his shoulder. Your bare pussy against the rough fabric of his jeans. His thick thighs clenching. And you started to grind your self on his thigh. You didn't even realise when. The pleasure seeming to only increase with each thrust of your hips. You let out a moan at the same time as Shawn, it's what made reality dawn upon you. Your actions halted thinking he'd want to punish you, maybe.

When you looked into his eyes, they were darker than before, almost black, filled with insatiable hunger. A wave of confidence hit you. Your movements resumed. Your pace a little faster now. Your hands made way around his neck, wrapping them for support as he held you by your waist. His eyes boring into yours, you felt yourself melt. "I want you to get off my thigh, Y/N. Don't stop until you cum." He said in a voice that was enough to do it for you. He sounded so fucking sexy you couldn't even make sense of it. "Okay daddy." With that you increased your pace. His toned muscles flexing with your movements. It felt like heaven. You felt the fire burn in you. That familiar pit. Shawn kept on cooing filthy things in your ear sending you over the edge even faster. You held onto him for dear life as you came, nails digging in his skin. This was different. The way he responded to your actions. It felt unreal. It was beyond amazing.

"Felt so good daddy." You said as you went to kiss him. He captured your lips with his, kissing you with burning passion. You poured all your apologies, how ashamed you were of your unreasonable behavior, your unconditional love for him, all in that kiss. It conveying more than you could vocally have.

"Look at you hun, ruined daddy's pants huh? Looked like a goddess getting off of my thigh. You like it?"

"Loved it daddy. I love 'em."

He wrapped your legs around his waist as if you weighed nothing, standing up. He threw you on the bed. Taking his pants off along with his boxers. His thick member sprang out of the confines hitting his abdomen making the most unholy noise. You almost gasped at how terribly hard he was. It must be painful.

You scooted closer to him on the bed, reaching the edge. "Can I taste you, daddy? "

"Fuck. Go ahead baby."

"Mmm okay." You said as you reached for him. Getting in between his thighs. Making him sit on the bed and getting on your knees on the floor. You wanted to make him feel just as good as you felt. And boy were you determined.

You took his length in your hands. Spreading the precum all over it and your lips pulling out a pornographic moan off him. He stared at you in awe. Looking so pretty with his cock in your hands, on your knees for him. So wet, your juices dripping everywhere. It was nasty and he loved it.

You took his balls in your mouth, caressing his cock, all the prominent veins and the angry red tip making you salivate. You started running your hands up and down him. Sucking his balls. "Fuck honey, so good. Go on." He caressed your hair. "Always so good for me." You released his balls from your mouth with a pop sound and licked his underside from the base to the tip, feeling each vein. You took his tip in your mouth making him almost stop breathing. "Such a good girl, Y/N. Doing amazing." He moaned. It felt like music to your ears. You finally took him all in. He let out a loud whine. The warmth of your mouth making him dizzy. You started moving your head faster, almost releasing him fully then taking as much of him as you could until he hit the back of your throat. You loved giving Shawn a head. Hell you loved doing everything to him. Anything you did for him, with him was automatically your favorite. You felt what a dumbass you were to even think of leaving him. He's the best thing that has happened to you ever. He's your present and your future. You can't let yourself ruin that. Shawn abruptly stopped you. Pulling himself out of your mouth. You gave him a confused look. "What's wrong, Shawn?" "Not gonna last long, baby. Wanna feel you. Be inside you. Come here." He scooped you in his arms. Made you lay on the bed facing the vanity mirror. He came up beside you. His large body engulfing you as he spooned you. You reached down taking him in your hands, not being able to take anymore teasing. You needed him in you. Wanted to feel full again. It almost felt like the first time today. Your emotions all over the place, being so raw. You loved every microsecond of it. You lined him with yourself, almost about to take him in when Shawn took control. "Calm down. You know Y/N, good girls don't behave like this." "Sorry." You mumbled grumpily. His hand wrapped around your throat. Pressing lightly. Fuck, you got wetter if that was humanely even possible. You felt you might cum right then. "Sorry, what honey? Be good." "Sorry Daddy." "Mmm better." He said as he rubbed his tip at your slit. Teasing you like always. "So wet for me, honey. You've ruined all the sheets." You just moaned loudly in response incapable of forming a coherent sentence. He slowly pushed inside you. He was so fucking big. It hurt. He stretched you out so well. Relief washing you over. Feeling him in you made you feel complete. He stilled once he was inside letting you adjust. "Move baby? " He asked. "Mmm fuck. Yes daddy." You said.

His hand moved from your throat to your clit, rubbing you as he fucked you hard from behind. Your eyes started to close which as soon as he noticed he stopped. You whined so loudly at this it was almost shocking for you. "Open your eyes, baby if you want me to continue. Watch us in the mirror. Watch how daddy fucks you so good." And you saw the most obscene sight. His one hand rubbing your clit. You could see his cock move in and out of you. Other hand on your left boob pressing it hard. You couldn't help but whimper at the beautiful view. So dirty. You loved it.

His pace got faster as he dipped his neck into the crook of your neck leaving hickeys. Your hand reaching back holding onto his arm. Your nails scratching him, digging into his skin.

The feeling of bliss took over you as you yelled "I'm going to cum, Shawn." "Come for me, honey. I'm gonna cum too." His pace faltered becoming slower. He was close too. He rubbed your little nub faster, the nerves started burning at his assault.

"Aaah fuck fuck fuck daddy." With that you came all over him, him following you almost instantly. He let out a grunt as he came inside you, filling you up. Riding you both to the end of your orgasms.

He stayed like that for a few minutes. Not moving at all. Then he pulled out of you. Getting up to go to the bathroom like he always did. He came back with a wet towel, cleaning you up so gently. Then he cleaned himself up with the same towel. And you don't know but this always felt so intimate to you. More than all that you guys just did. Him cleaning you both up with the same towel made your heart flutter. You were so fallen for him you didn't know yourself.

He came back after dumping the towel with the dirty laundry.

As soon as he came to bed, you snuggled into his chest. He was your home. You felt so safe. No one could hurt you with him there. Not even you, yourself. He'd protect you.

A single tear slipped from your eye as you both lay in comfortable silence cuddled with each other. As he noticed it, in the sweetest voice ever he said "It's okay baby. You don't have to even think about what happened earlier, again. I knew it'd affect you badly and I still went for it. I knew if I asked you, you'd never say no. So it was me taking you for granted, hun. You're not at fault. It was me, baby. I put you in that spot."

"Oh shut up, Mendes. Always making me seem so good. It was my and only my fault. Don't you dare blame it on yourself. And I'm so so sorry. I won't ever doubt what we have. It's the most real thing I have felt in my whole 22 years of existence. I love you so much, words can't even express it."

"But you do in other ways. You know." He smirked making you roll your eyes, nudging him lightly in his chest.

"You riding my thigh was the most fucking hot view ever. Trust me, I almost came."

"Oh shut it and let me sleep." You said all flustered about what you did.

"One last thing, baby. "

"Hmm? "

"You're the only one I want. "

You cuddled more into him finally being able to fall asleep soundly in your home.

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laynefaire · 3 years ago

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Last Line/Snippet Challenge

I’ve been tagged by soooo many people, I’ve literally lost track. However, the last tag was from my lovely Mia @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed.

I’m tagging back @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed, and also @kingsofeverything @allwaswell16 @haztobegood @lululawrence @evilovesyou @homosociallyyours @jacaranda-bloom @greenfeelings and @infinitelymint

I finished Chapter 20 of Shadow Dancing at stupid o’clock this morning and sent it off to beta, so this is from that -

“Wait, son. Give them a few minutes as a family.” Zayn complied, allowing his mum to loop her arm through his. She held him close, lowering the volume of her voice, obviously in an effort to not be overheard. “So… Liam’s father… he’s turning over a new leaf? Warming to you?”

“I don’t know, Mum.” Zayn kept his eyes on the small group in front of them, trying to read their body language for any cues. “Liam seems to think he is. He apologised to Liam for the things he’s said in the past, and the way he’s treated him.”

“You don’t trust him, though.” Trisha said, her words matter of fact, as if the answer was foregone.

“I don’t know him well enough one way or the other. It’s not like how it is with Liam and Dad, you know? They’ve actually spent time in each other’s company, had the opportunity to get to know each other.” Zayn sighed. “I don’t think the man’s said more than a dozen words to me directly, and up until Liam was hospitalised, I’d never met him. All I have to go on is how upset he’s made Liam in the past. Well, that, and Louis’ opinion of him - which is far from favourable.”

“I know only what Karen has told me about the situation, but she’s steadfast in her belief that her husband is a good man.” Zayn felt the weight of his mum’s gaze, turning to meet her eyes. “Do you want my advice?”

“Always, Mum,” Zayn responded, then returned his attention to watching the interactions between Liam and his parents.

There’s a quote that became popular when I was a teenager - ‘trust, but verify’.”

Zayn snorted. “What the hell is that supposed to mean? If you trust someone, you trust them. You shouldn’t need to verify anything.”

“Well, at the time, it was used to discuss a political situation. However, in retrospect, my takeaway is that you can trust someone to do the right thing, but you recognize that they may not be able to meet your expectations.”

Zayn quirked an eyebrow, bit his lip, and shrugged.

“I don’t know, Mum. I’m not sure I can trust someone who would hurt their only son the way Geoff has in the past.There’s a really shitty history there.”

“Well, then, I’d say your best course of action may be to simply take things day by day.” Trisha squeezed Zayn’s arm in reassurance. “Step back and allow Liam and his father the space they need to figure this out. If Geoff’s change of heart isn’t sincere, he won’t be able to maintain the facade for long, and you’ll know for sure where you, and Liam, stand.”

“And if Liam refuses to see it?”

“Sweetheart, it’s been my experience that if you give someone leave to show you who they are, they will.” Trisha inclined her head in the direction of the trio walking in front of them. “While Liam obviously wants his father’s approval, I also believe that if Geoff is being disingenuous, Liam will see him for who he is.”

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incorrect-dishonored-quotes · 3 years ago

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hi i just saw your post about the representation in dishonored and i hope i don't come off as rude but uuh reading "phobia isn't a player" felt really really strange... are we going to ignore the "last night" letter from overseer darion which absolutely suggests that his relationship with the other overseer is dangerous and probably deemed a sin by the abbey (which is in turn heavily influenced by the catholic church no? not the most inclusive institution..) also if i remember correctly geoff had to kill someone because he feared for his status when his own relationship with a tyvian soldier was about to be revealed and most of the gang members are implied to have fled poverty, violence and the overall constraint society puts on outcasts. i totally understand the need for healthy representation but sadly that must also include the struggle... where i come from there is a lot of shit going wrong right now and being lgbt is in fact still dangerous for us so i'm very glad whenever i see certain characters in media having the same struggle and being able to overcome it... sometimes they don't and i feel that is life too ... idk what i'm trying to say here its just i really like your blog and you have a lot of attention in the fandom and i think its important to include the gritty stuff as well for if we don't it feels like we're reducing the games to fluffy little uwu au's and honestly there's enough of that around already which is totally fine and i love that too i hope i make sense.. sorry if this message feels like overstepping i still love your blog and thank you for making us laugh on a regular basis (:

The note about the 2 Overseers and Geoff Curnow's story are the only two odd ones out. You could argue the there's another pair of Overseers in dh2, but it's implied they're trying to keep the secret from their wives rather than the Abbey itself. But that's it. 2 stories out of the rest. Breanna wasn't outlasted for being a lesbian, she ran away from an arranged marriage and became a witch. Daud's tragedy wasnt because was ace, he was kidnapped by bad people as a child. Mindy and Wyman's gender is never doubted by others, and they remain in their places of authority and are respected by others. So the most part, there's less hardship in queer rep in these games.

I said in my reblog that recognizing the hardships of queer people is important sometimes. That because, surprise, queer people aren't safe. Anywhere. There are places more "accepting", (aka the "it's fine if I don't have to see it" mentality), but we are hate crimed everywhere. And if we want change, we have to bring it up, and we have to show it... But we don't do that bc we want to, but bc we have to. We do it for the cishets, actually. Putting in hardships is a desperate attempt to change a Karen's transphobic heart. And again, we need to do that, but that's ALL the rep is these days. It's always the "our love is forbidden" or "we can't let our parents know" or "I have this secret and I'm gonna tell you even though you're gonna betray me later bc we gotta keep the drama for the audience's attention" stories.

I wouldn't be complaining about other media if the hardship wasn't everywhere, both in reality and in fiction. It's tiring. We go to fiction to escape reality, so why even put in those themes in your story? Why even want more of it? Don't you want rep for you? Don't you want a break from telling Karen it's okay? Don't you want to be told that happiness is is achievable, and even if it's dangerous out there for you, that there are people that know it's not all hardship? Don't you want some Karens from a videogame company to tell you "We know it's okay. Here's some characters. They're complex like all humans, and their queer identies add to that. We hope we do you justice and find these characters endearing."????

In case you needed to be told: You are more than the hardships you're forced to go through.

-Tad

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jegulusofwesper · 3 years ago

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So @glitterxshlutt has never seen criminal minds so I asked her what she this their names, personalities and sexualities are.

Jason Gideon - “Steve, weirdo and bi”

Dave Rossi - “Geoff, his wife is having an affair, straight”

Aaron Hotchner - “Andy, thinks he’s a lady killer, straight but closeted bi” Aaron, Andy close enough right?

Spencer Reid - “Tyler, only people he can make friends with are kids, gay af”

Derek Morgan - “Maddox, he looks like a baddass but it’s a big teddy bear, pan- he loves everyone”

Matt Simmons - “dan, kinky, gay”

Stephen Walker - “Jason, he thinks he’s top dog but really he’s a dick, straight”

Luke Alvez - “Micheal, is a legit sun beam, asexual”

Will LaMontagne Jr. - “Adam. He thinks he’s a fuck boi but he’s a small dick no boi, he will fuck anything that’ll let him but that’s no one, pan” yano I think will might be her favourite 👀🤣

Grant Anderson - “Ted - short for edward, wants his daddies approval, closet gay”

Ashley Seaver - “caitlin, talks with a really annoying girly voice to make herself seem sexy, straight and boring only does missionary”

Jennifer Jareau - “Tyra, bubbly and kinda normal, closet bi”

Emily Prentiss - “Katie, tsundre for sure, lesbian queen 👑 (i like this one)”

Penelope Garcia - “Kelly, seems annoying at first but would legit do anything to help her friends, asexual”

Elle Greenaway - “Elaine, the annoying pick me girl, straight”

Tara Lewis - “Marie, top energy, bi queen, (milf)”

Alex Blake - “Karen, reallllllly annoying but gets the job done, so straight she doesn’t even touch herself”

Jordan Todd - “Emily, soft but will cut a bitch for her friends, Lesbean”

Kate Callahan - “Olivia, kinda annoying but also has the dankest memes, straight but kisses girls when drunk”

Savannah Hayes - “Bonnie, gentle and kind, straight but poly”

Beth Clemmons - “Jessica, perky and a shoulder to cry on, lesbian”

Haley Brooks/Hotchner - “Madeline, always crying about random stuff, emotional, straight”

Maeve Donovan - “Edie, total slut, pan”

Cat Adams - “Leanne, office goof, deffo bi but only been with men”

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simply-sams-things · 4 years ago

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Helloooo Hope you’re having an amazing day i loved shower with luke and since i saw you were accepting requests i was wondering if you could do one with 1D where the reader is one of them’s sister and she’s secretly dating one of them and her brother doesn’t know but he finds out and goes over protective of the reader. i’m really sorry if it’s too complicated. p.s. if there’s something you want to talk about i’m always there. have a great day.

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Umm hello YES i would love to do this my best friend and i were talking about this the other day and we just DIED becuase of it so im going to do it with liam and harry if thats alright with you and also im always open to talk :) I also just had coffee adn its 2pm were i live so im pumped - Sammy

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Overprotective much?

Okay so maybe dating your brothers band mate wasn’t a great idea but you see at the time it was and you both wanted to keep it on the down low anyways because of his whole being famous thing.

You and liam had been dating for a year today, which has been an amazing year and you both are surprised on how well it had been kept a secret from everyone else, that is until about 30 minutes ago.

Since it’s your one year you both decided to order take out and stay inside your apartment for the weekend with no interuptions. You told your family that you were having a girls weekend with your best friend and liam told the guys and he was with his sister Ruth and her family for the weekend. It was all going well until your idiotic brother decided to crash “girls weekend”. Around 10 there was a knock at the door and thinking it was your best friend who said she was coming over to grab her stuff from a few days before you and Liam both walked to the door not expecting it to be your brother.

“Hey- OH MY GOD YOUR NOT Y/BF/N” You shouted

“Liam what are you doing over here at Y/N’s without a shirt. Wait. WHERE IS YOUR SHIRT” Harry said as he stormed into your apartment. He started yelling at you both about how wrong it was to be together especially behind his back.

“You told me you were having a girls weekend and last time I checked Liam wasn’t a girl so tell me how long have you been trying to get in my sisters pants Liam!? Ever since we got together as a band because I swear to g-”

“HARRY” You shouted to shut him up. Harry was mad and it was understandable, but he was about to wake the whole complex up and you weren’t ready for another noise complaint just yet. “Liam can you go put your shirt on while I talk to him please?” you asked looking at your boyfriend who nodded and left giving you one last glance but didn’t bother to look at Harry who had been glaring at him since he walked into the apartment.

You looked at harry and gestered him to sit down on the couch and he di looking up at you. “Liam and I have been dating for a year Harry today is our anniversery thats why we told everyone we were doing something else so nobody could bother us.” he tried to cut you off. “But why-”

“Harry don’t, let me finish, we wanted to tell our families at first but when we started to date we wanted to see where it would go becuase you guys were still on tour, and then tour ended and we got so used to being in secret that we decided that we would wait till after today.” You sat down next to him.”We wanted to tell you, mum and Gemma first next weekend and then Karen, Geoff, Ruth ,and Nicola after you guys and then the rest of the boys we were going to tell after them. Thats why this weekend was to ourselves so we can discuss how we were going to tell you all and also celebrate our 1 year. And i understand why you’re mad at him for dating me but Har, I’ve never been more happy with someone he makes me so happy and I really love him H. I haven’t been this happy in a long time and you know that. We saved each other in some type of way

“Just please don’t be mad at him, if you want to be mad at anyone let it be me I was the one who said yes to our first date a year and a half ago. He was so nervous Harry because he didn’t want you to be mad at him. So please don’t be mad at him.” You finished and began to nervously play with your hands while waiting for your brothers answer.

“I’m not mad at you guys dating I’m upset because for over a year my baby sister has been happy and I couldn’t see that she that it was because of one of my bestfriends, and now that i think about it you guys make it really obvious, but if he makes you happy then i guess im alright with it also Liam you standing there behind us is really creepy mate” he said.

“Sorry” Liam said and sat down next to you and grabed your hand “but are you honestly fine with it Harry I mean I understand that because I’m your band mate but i really love her and I don’t wanna lose her” he was staring at you when he said the last part and yoy started to get teary eyed.

“Liam I’d rather have you date her than anyone else because i trust you” Harry explained “But that doesn’t mean I wont beat you up if you break her heart” He then got up and motioned for you guys to do the same and then procedded to pull you both into a hug.

“I could never break her heart H she means to much to me, if i did i would beat myself up for you”.

“Stop it you two before I cry even more” you chimed in giving out a watery laugh.

Harry let you go and headed to the front door, you and liam following along. “I guess i should say I’m sorry for sort of ruining your anniversery”

“I mean you sort of did but we forgive you besides its an all weekend thing for us, and Harry I swear if you tell anyone else before we get too I will murder you myself and blame Louis” you told him opening the door.

“Okay first off didn’t need to know what you guys are doing this weekend and second of all I won’t buggy, I trust you guys will when you are ready, Oh and also does Y/BF/N know? Because I really can’t have them winning-”

“Seem’s you’re already losing Harold” Y/BF/N said giving him a smirk. “I’ll get my sytuff some other time Y/N it’s not really important. Come on Harry lets leave the gross in love people alone” They said grabing his hand and walking away with Harry shouting

“HAPPY ANNIVERSERY YOU GUYS LOVE YOU BOTH AND hey will you let go of my hand- BYYEEEEE” you closed the door and laughed alongside Liam.

“You do know that if he told us to stop I wouldn’t have never let that happen right?” Liam asked after the laughing fit calmed down, you turned to him and went on your tippy toes and gave him a kiss.

“I know which is why everytime I say I love you I truly mean it bubs”

“I love you too my love” he leaned down again and kissed you and then he playfully grabbed your butt and you shreiked into the kiss and he started to laugh your favorite laugh.

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I hope you like this i honestly had so much fun writing this ! - Sammy

also i didn’t read through it so there probably is a lot of spelling mistakes oops

#liam payne x reader #harry styles x sister!reader #liam payne #simply-sams-things

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disparatevibes · 3 years ago

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2021 time capsule for my memories:

MUSIC

releases i loved from 2021

For Those I Love - For Those I Love

Home Is Where - I Became Birds

Low - HEY WHAT

Loraine James - Reflection

Japanese Breakfast - Jubilee

Helado Negro - Far In

Water From Your Eyes - Structure

Nala Sinephro - Space 1.8

Mdou Moctar - Afrique Victime

Porches - All Day Gentle Hold !

Hand Habits - Fun House

Lowertown - The Gaping Mouth

Floating Points/Pharoah Sanders/The London Symphony Orchestra - Promises

Rosie Lowe & Duval Timothy - Son

Black Midi - Cavalcade

Holly Humberstone - The Walls Are Way Too Thin

Indigo De Souza - Any Shape You Take

Cassandra Jenkins - An Overview on Phenomenal Nature

Pinegrove - Amperland, NY

Bartees Strange - Live at Studio 4

Claire Rousay - A Softer Focus

Yves Tumor - The Asymptotical World

Mannequin Pussy - Perfect

Richard Dawson & Circle - Henki

Samia - Scout

Nation of Language - A Way Forward

Matt Sweeney & Bonnie “Prince” Billy - Superwolves

Self Esteem - Prioritise Pleasure

Nick Cave & Warren Ellis - CARNAGE

Hannah Peel - Fir Wave

Lucy Dacus - Home Video

Wiki - Half God

L’Rain - Fatigue

Snow Ellet - suburban indie rock star

Runnner - Always Repeating

Tim Hecker - The North Water OST

great older releases i discovered in 2021

Joyce Manor - Never Hungover Again, Cody

Majical Cloudz - Impersonator, Are You Alone?

Out Hud - Let Us Never Speak Of It Again, STREET DAD

Pharoah Sanders - Karma

The Dead Texan - The Dead Texan

Brian Eno & Kevin Shields - The Weight of History/Only Once Away My Son

Sunset Rubdown - Shut Up I Am Dreaming

Herbert - Bodily Functions, Scale

Bat For Lashes - Two Suns, The Haunted Man

Julianna Barwick - Nepenthe

Huerco S. - For Those Of You Who Have Never (And Also Those Who Have)

Alex G - Race

Burial - Rival Dealer

Matt Sweeney & Bonnie “Prince” Billy - Superwolf

Hiss Golden Messenger - Haw, Heart Like A Levee

Destroyer - City of Daughters

Neon Indian - Psychic Chasms

Sam Amidon - All Is Well

Eno & Hyde - High Life

The John Lurie National Orchestra - The Invention Of Animals

BOOKS

books i loved this year

A Swim in a Pond in the Rain by George Saunders

Second Place by Rachel Cusk

The Hard Crowd by Rachel Kushner

Piranesi by Susanna Clarke

Bubblegum by Adam Levin

To Be A Man by Nicole Krauss

Festival Days by Jo Ann Beard

The Boys of My Youth by Jo Ann Beard

The Hatred of Poetry by Ben Lerner

Nutshell by Ian McEwan

Fraternity by Benjamin Nugent

The Country Life by Rachel Cusk

The Unconsoled by Kazuo Ishiguro

A Bright Ray of Darkness by Ethan Hawke (Audiobook)

Gold Custody by Barbara Bloom & Ben Lerner

“Sea Oak” by George Saunders

The Largesse of the Sea Maiden by Denis Johnson

books i liked this year

The History of Bones by John Lurie

So Much Blue by Percival Everett

Dear Life by Alice Munro

Zona by Geoff Dyer

Freedom by Jonathan Franzen

Battleborn by Claire Vaye Watkins

The Remains of the Day by Kazuo Ishiguro

Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro

No Art by Ben Lerner

Weather by Jenny Offill

Crying in H Mart by Michelle Zauner

The Undocumented Americans by Karla Cornejo Villavicencio

Don't Let Me Be Lonely by Claudia Rankine

Eileen by Ottessa Moshfegh

The Children Act by Ian McEwan

Tuff by Paul Beatty

The People In The Trees by Hanya Yanagihara

Best American Essays 2007 ed. by David Foster Wallace

St. Lucy's Home for Girls Raised by Wolves by Karen Russell

The Keep by Jennifer Egan

All That Man Is by David Szalay

On Freedom by Maggie Nelson

Remote Feed by David Gilbert

other books i read this year

No One Is Talking About This by Patricia Lockwood

Look At Me by Jennifer Egan

MOVIES

movies i loved this year

I’m Thinking of Ending Things

The French Dispatch

Nomadland

The Green Knight

Pig

Soul

Dick Johnson is Dead

The Power Of The Dog

Zola

Sound of Metal

The Card Counter

There Is No Evil

Titane

Spencer

The Killing of Two Lovers

Minari

French Exit

This Is Not A Burial, It's A Resurrection

LCD Soundsystem Holiday Special

Pinegrove: Amperland, NY

movies i liked this year

Lover's Rock

The Nest

Annette

Dune

David Byrne’s American Utopia

Wolfwalkers

Mangrove

Red, White and Blue

Alex Wheatle

Education

Reprise

Traffic

Identifying Features

Pusher II

Days of Being Wild

Slow Machine

Gunda

other movies i saw this year

Da 5 Bloods

On The Rocks

Limbo

The Year of the Everlasting Storm

Mank

TV SHOWS/COMEDY SPECIALS

shows i loved this year

Succession - Season 3

Mad Men (finally got round to this)

Painting with John

Fishing with John

Bo Burnham: Inside

Master of None - Season 3

Ramy

The Underground Railroad

Mrs. America

O.J. - Made in America

Chewing Gum

The Americans

30 Rock (second time through, still the best sitcom)

Mare of Easttown

The Great

What We Do In The Shadows

Rick & Morty - Season 5

The North Water

James Acaster: Cold Lasagne Hate Myself 1999

shows i liked this year

The Chair

The White Lotus

The Queen’s Gambit

The Good Lord Bird

Fargo – Season 4

Lovecraft Country

Tig Notaro: Drawn

other shows i saw this year

Squid Game

MISC

video games/board games

Halo Infinite

Red Dead Redemption 2

Twilight Imperium

7 Wonders

Wingspan

The Search For Planet X

podcasts

Welcome To LA

Heavyweight - Season 6

My Year in Mensa

The Organist

Invisibilia - Season 8

Wiretap

Floodlines

Aack Cast

The Experiment

The Ezra Klein Show

literature podcasts

The New Yorker: Fiction - Susan Choi Reads Jennifer Egan; Donald Antrim reads Donald Barthelme; Ben Lerner reads Julio Cortazar; Will Mackin reads George Saunders

The New Yorker: The Writer’s Voice - Adam Levin reads “A Lot Of Things Have Happened”; Colin Barrett reads “A Shooting in Rathreedane”; Greg Jackson reads “The Hollow”; Karen Russell reads “The Ghost Birds”; George Saunders reads “The Mom of Bold Action”; Sam Lipsyte reads “ My Apology”; Jonathan Lethem reads “The Crooked House”; Lauren Groff reads “ The Wind”; Jennifer Egan reads “What The Forest Remembers”

Between The Covers - Percival Everett: The Trees; Teju Cole: Fernweh

LRB Bookshop - Claire-Louise Bennett and Sheila Heti: Checkout 19; Rebecca Solnit and Mary Beard: Recollections of my Nonexistence; Rachel Kushner and Hal Foster: The Hard Crowd; Dana Spiotta and Alex Clark: Innocents and Others

fave gigs (not enough of them)

Nala Sinephro @ Horniman Museum and Gardens (best venue of all time)

Richard Dawson @ End of the Road (opener was a 15 minute acapella medieval tavern style folk song about a 17th century quilt-maker)

Richard Dawson @ Green Man

Hot Chip @ End of the Road (best sabotage cover of all time)

Porridge Radio @ End of the Road

Thundercat @ Green Man

Cassandra Jenkins @ The Louisiana

other great events

Green Man festival

End of the Road festival

Connor & Fiona McFarlane's wedding weekend

living with Jon, Abi, Sean and Louis for 3 weeks

lots of swimming in the avon

#yearend #2021 #lists #best of #faves #2021 faves

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whitmore · 4 years ago

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About your observation that every time there's a JLA/JSA interaction, there's always the same team ups: isn't it because Geoff writes most, if not all of them? He wrote virtue and vice, the Thanksgiving issue, and most of the post crisis JSA stuff, so.... He probably just likes how certain characters play off of each other.

yes. it wasn’t a bad thing lmao i love the parallels i just noted that like. it happens !! (i meant ‘for some reason’ in like a character, emotional-tie sense not a meta-writer sense. logistically alan would ‘team’ with kyle (which he does, occasionally. but the more standout parallels are with clark), clark would team with karen, i’d still team bruce w michael tbh but if not michael then ted, then court with zatanna or even kyle, and diana with kendra. like i was saying the parallels made weren’t clear cut or “meant to be”; there are other paths that could work.)

but like there’s also kindt and lemire like,, it’s not just johns who does it because they are GOOD parallels to make also like as i said i LIKE THE PARALLELS !!! i think they’d be stronger if we saw more interactions between them but my yearning heart is laid asunder again i suppose

actually i’m gonna spin this ask into a positive (bc i am so filled with love and i do not have time for negative vibes here) and talk about other justice league interactions with court that i adore

courtney and clark have a GOOD few interactions that make my heart SOAR. court really, really idolizes clark and he’s one of the few older superheroes that never discredits her for her age or lack of experience, and is literally ALWAYS thankful for her help. they’re not super close, but their interactions always mean the WORLD to me because he literally respects court so much

the best thing to come out of new-52 was the court and j’onn relationship, god i was FED. j’onn acknowledging courtney was going to be the one to save the justice league, the mind meld, the implication that courtney still had j’onn’s powers even after the split, COURTNEY BEING ABLE TO MIND LINK TO FIRESTORM ON HER OWN, j’onn about to wreck everyone’s shit because he was worried about courtney, COURTNEY GOING AFTER J’ONN EVEN IF IT WAS DANGEROUS, sorry but they make me go FERAL they parallel SO WELL and it’s so good and wholesome

court & diana are often a trio with karen and i love all three of them SO MUCH. they balance against each other SO WELL with diana and karen sticking around court like two moms who care for their impulsive star powered daughter. i think there’s a lot to be said about how their morals align but their levels of recklessness and playfulness vs order and organization contrast with each other but still manage to work REALLY well!! also like their conversation’s range from “thanksgiving is bad and here is why” to “u read rolling stone?? :o” and i just. i love them so much i do

court has so many friends i love them all so much i do

#asks #courtney whitmore #court & co.#they make me !!!! SCREAMS #anyway yeah like.. ik johns wrote them lmao #what's that post?#murphy's law of tumblr says that anything that can be misinterpreted will be misinterpreted #anyway. sending u love anon #Anonymous #*essay #sgessay

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loove-persevering · 6 years ago

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What It’s Like To Be You Pt 2

Description: Ok you really don’t have to read the first part for this to make sense but it would be appreciated! This is based of the song Like to be you by Shawn featuring Julia Michaels!

Part one should be near the top of my profile!!!! Sorry I’m new and don’t know how to link it yet:(

ENJOYYY

It had been about eight months since the night you ended things with Shawn. It had been eight long months of finding out a new way to live life, one without Shawn. The paparazzi was on me for the first two months or so after the breakup, I tried to stay in as much as I could to avoid being pictured and only went out when you knew that I would be safe and weren’t being stalked.

Shawn got a lot of press for the break up, him being newly single and on the market finally after almost two long years. I had seen all the questions his fans were asking about the breakup making their speculations about the situation, I had established a pretty good relationship with his fans during our relationship, commenting back to as many people as you could and liking edits of Shawn that they made. That being said some of the fans were thrilled to hear about the breakup while others were worried about how Shawn was taking it.

From what you could make out he was doing well, for the remainder of his break from tour after your break up he made a lot more appearances at clubs and as well as being linked to almost every model he was seen with. I knew Shawn and I didn’t think he would have moved on so quickly no matter what any news site was saying. It felt almost ironic to be checking up on him through the news, when you dated the last thing you looked at was the news not wanting to see all the rumors that were made about you and him.

Shawn didn’t try and contact you after that night, he called once right after I had left, leaving a voice message that you still had saved on your phone. Trying not to keep up with Shawn was almost impossible he was everywhere on the radio, the news, on twitter. He was back on tour now the American leg almost ending and you knew he would be coming back to Los Angeles soon after he went and saw his family. I kept in touch with Karen and Aaliyah but that became a bit more scarce as the months went on.

I had gotten a new lease at an apartment complex and had just got back from a night out with my friends, they were there for me after the breakup when I needed all the distraction I could get. I unlock the door pushing it open removing my purse and coat throwing them on the couch. I walk into my room and change into some shorts and an old tee shirt, I was putting my hair up when I heard a knock at the door. Confused I picked up my phone walking to the front door of my apartment, I look through the peep hole and I felt my heart stop right then.

Shawn.

He was here, right outside my door. He was wearing a light brown jacket his hands shoved in his pockets. He looked good.

He knocks at the door again, looking a bit more hesitant this time. I quickly take a step back taking a breath before answering the door, it doesn’t help it because as soon as I saw his face as I answered the door it felt like I didn’t know how to breath.

‘‘Shawn, hey,’‘ I say breathlessly.

‘‘Hey,’‘ He says. I lean against the door and we both kind of stand there awkwardly I look down at Shawn’s feet a nervous habit that he had pointed out when we first started dating. He said I always looked at peoples feet when I was nervous, which right now was true because I was insanely nervous. ‘‘Can I come in?’‘ He asks gesturing toward the inside of my apartment.

‘‘Yeah, of course.’‘ I say. I step aside widening the door so he could come in. When he walks in he looks uncomfortable like he didn’t feel confident which wasn’t the Shawn I knew. He was looking around taking glances at the pictures on my wall none of them were of him, and looking around the place. I had taken half our furniture as well as a few vases for around the house. ‘‘You look great Shawn,’‘ I say his name feeling foreign coming out of my mouth.

He turns around to face me, ‘’Yeah, you too,’’ He says reaching up clutching his shoulder.

‘‘Uhm, do you want a drink? a water or anything?’‘ I ask him turning around to the fridge quickly grabbing myself one and him even if he didn’t say he wanted one he was getting one. I hand him the water bottle our hands almost touching but not quite, ‘’Sorry if they’re not cold my fridge doesn’t get too cold,’’ I apologize.

He doesn’t say anything and I once again look down to the floor at his shoes, ‘’I kind of hate how awkward this is,’’ He says.

I look up at him and let out an exasperated laugh, ‘’Yeah, me too.’’ I sigh.

I take a seat at the table and so does he, ‘’You seem to be doing really well, I’m happy for you.’’ I force myself to say. I was happy for him but at the same time I felt I had to force myself to say it because I wasn’t any part of the reason for it.

'’It’s bullshit,’’ He says. My eyes widen and I look up at him surprised. ‘’It’s bullshit the way you left Y/N. I didn’t want you to leave and I told you that.’’ He says his face unreadable, ‘’I knew what was best for me, and it was you. Then you go and decide for me?’’ He asks looking up at me, I can finally see the hurt expression on his face. ‘’You have no idea what it’s been like for me without you.’’

I felt my heart skip a beat, he missed me. ‘’I did what I thought was best at the time,’’ I try to explain. ‘’What else was I suppose to do? Just wait for you to realize that I was waiting at home for you and when you finally decide to roll in and love me that would be enough?’’ I say, his accusations were getting to me, I did what I did out of love for him and respect for myself. ‘’I deserved more than that, I still do. You can’t just decide to love me when it’s convenient for you!’’ I say trying to calm myself down as I could feel my voice rising.

He doesn’t say anything for a few minutes, he coughs clearing his throat just before talking, ‘’I had no idea what it was like for you Y/N. I didn’t realize it I was getting caught up in the fame and the lifestyle.’’ He admits. ‘’These past eight months, these eight fucking months have been so hard without you.’’ He says gripping his water bottle tightly. I look down at the ground distracting myself looking at the pattern of the floor. ‘’I missed you so much,’’ He says and when I look up he was crying.

I felt the lump closing up my throat and I knew I was close to crying. ‘’I thought that-’’ I pause hearing how fragile and broken my voice sounded. ‘’I thought that it was the best thing for us at the time, but I miss you Shawn everyday,’’ I say making eye contact with him.

‘‘But I can’t go back to living like we were, it takes both of us Shawn. We both have to work to make this work.’‘ I emphasize. ‘‘These past few months you seemed so out there, are you telling me that was all just you pretending?’‘ I ask him.

‘’Of course it was Y/N’‘ He scoffs, ‘‘I realize now that I did neglect you, but I also realized that every night no matter how long I stayed out or who I went out with I was coming home to you,’‘ He explains, ‘‘I was coming home to you.’‘

‘‘But I wasn’t Shawn, you were home you being with me made it home and you were never there.’’ I see his lip quiver when I say it.

‘‘After you left I was so pissed, I knew you were the one who texted Brian and Geoff because that’s a totally you thing to do,’‘ He says a hint of a smile on his face as he looks up at me through his curls. ‘‘I was so pissed I remember punching the wall and I remember that I said some stupid shit,’‘ He says and I can tell it hurts him to have to recall that night.

‘‘But after everything, all you said and what you called me out for, it didn’t make me love you any less. I tried telling myself I hated you for leaving me and that you were just to stubborn to put up with it all,’‘ He says and I twitch my eyebrow up slightly offended, ‘‘But I was lying to myself, and Brian and Geoff we all knew I was lying.’‘ He sighs. ‘‘I knew you what you wanted and I knew that begging you to come back wouldn’t do anything so I did what you wanted. I went out and got drunk and did the rest of tour, went to all the events and now I’m here Y/N,’‘ He pauses. ‘‘I still ended up right back here with you.’‘

I had no words for what he just said, none at all came to mind. I just stared at him my face blank but I could still feel the tears dripping from my cheek and down my neck. ‘’You still want me?’’ I ask him softly my voice barely a whisper, ‘’Really?’’ I ask him in shock myself.

‘‘Just you,’‘ He says.

I take my hand placing it over my mouth trying to hold back a sob, I quickly get out of the chair as does he and he take his arms wrapping them around my body just like how he always use to. ‘’I love you, I missed you.’’ I say into his chest, I can feel him laugh his chest moving up and down. He pulls away slightly and takes his hand to my chin tilting it up before kissing me. It had been eight months so long since I had felt his lips and his warmth. I kiss him back putting my hand around his neck pulling him in as much as I could as if we couldn’t get any closer to each other.

When we pull away he rest his forehead on mine, ‘’Who gave you my address by the way?’’ I ask pulling away from him slightly.

‘‘Your mom,’‘ He says smiling, ‘‘We kept in touch she told me how you were doing,’‘

‘‘Gotta love her,’‘ I say laughing.

I look back up at him just taking him in and his new features that I had missed in the long months without him. I run my hands through his hair and down the side of his face finally feeling the one thing I had been missing and would hopefully never be again. I never knew if Shawn and I would come back to one another but I had always hoped we would, and that was exactly what this moment was everything I had lost coming back to me.

THE END!!!

Thanks for so much love on Part one Hope you all enjoy this one just as much! :)

#Shawn mendes imagine #shawn x reader #shawn mendes angst #shawn mendes fluff #Shawn Mendes #shawn mendes fanfiction #shawn mendes fic

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justapayneaway · 5 years ago

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Eh, I think they are just setting Geoff up to take the fall for the bullshit Liam has been put through over the past 10 years. There’s a certain blog talking about Liam and Geoff and masculinity in a way that makes my skin crawl. That blog always talks these sorts of things so that the fandom is prepped mentally for their lies.

I think that sometimes it’s the way Liam talks... It isn’t necessarily the things that might have happened, but the way he tells the story.

As I said in my previous answer, I do believe that Geoff and Karen are extremely supportive and they always appear in every important moment of Liam’s life. And it’s important that Liam has a good support system in his family. As we’ve seen today from Ruth’s tweet, we don’t know much about them... all we do know is that they worry about Liam as much as we do after all this negativity online!

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uncle-knobheads · 5 years ago

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some sad This Is Us quotes

Zayn: This isn’t the end of One Direction.

Liam: You hear of those bands who have come and gone. I don’t want to be one of them.

Jay: I want a Louis [cardboard stand-up], so then at night I can just go and say good night.

Karen, crying: [Liam] goes away for so long.

Zayn: ... knowing that there’s four of your best mates. It’s a great feeling to know that you’re not in it by yourself.

Zayn: There’s no rest. It’s just go, go, go.

Zayn: It’s so much cooler being in a band than by yourself simply because you’ve always got people to have a laugh with, people to share your experience with.

Niall: There’s no way I’d be able to do this solo. Can’t imagine being in a hotel room on my own. I’d be bored to death.

Harry: We rarely get a day off when we land in places, so it’s nice to just walk around and explore.

OT5 before every show: 3, 2, 1. We push!

Liam, about being a fireman if he wasn’t in the band: I just liked the idea of saving someone.

Zayn, while trapped in Nike: There you have it. This is what happens.

Zayn: I’ll try, but I’ll miss you too much Liam!

Liam: I spend every single day with these lads. It’s really weird to not have the other four lads around me.

Harry: Pretty much every other part of my life has changed, except for coming [home]. It’s just exactly the same.

Niall: We didn’t realize how much we miss our hometown and our family until we’re gone.

Harry: It’s nice to come here and spend time with people who know me.

Jay: This is the fifth day [Louis’] been home since he left two and a half years ago for X-Factor.

Geoff: That time went. I’ve missed it. I’ve missed it. ... [Liam’s] the only feller in the family. He’s gone.

Niall: I just wish that I could just go along each person and just, like, chat to them. With how busy the schedule is, it’s really frustrating that we can’t just stop and talk to them.

Julian: I hate to do this, dude. Zayn: What time is it, man? Julian: You’ve been asleep for ten minutes.

Paul: If you could imagine yourself being taken away at 16 or 17 years of age and being thrown into the spotlight.

Harry: There’s definitely times when you’re not completely enjoying it the whole time.

Harry: I struggle with the word [famous].

Liam: I worry about meeting somebody who’s truthful and who’s 100% just there because of me.

Louis: Isn’t that strange though? The best times of your life are now.

Louis: What’s mad is that one day we won’t be doing this. Zayn: Do you think we’ll still be mates? All: Yeah, I think so.

Liam: [Our parents] don’t get to see us a lot.

Zayn: You don’t get that [support/comraderie] if you’re a solo artist.

#one direction #1d #ot5 #ot4 #this is us #netflix doesn’t have the extended edition so this list is incomplete

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bigskydreaming · 5 years ago

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I will always prefer the Titans (literally any of their lineups, though my faves will always be the first gen Titans, and by that I mean everyone from the original five down through Red Star, Jesse Quick and the like) over the Justice League.

And so like, I’m really big on family vibes in my comic books of choice, so on the one hand I do like and am interested in the fact that over the past fifteen years, DC has given pretty much every one of the major Justice League heroes kids and marriages and families of their own, when previously, they were kept for decades as fairly solitary figures with supporting casts that included love interests but refused to ever let their heroes like...actually commit to any of those love interests in definitive, inarguable ways. (The major exception of course being Batman and his perpetual motion adoption machine, because he lives to screw the curve in any given context, and Hal because he sucks and who would marry him or reproduce with him ever, eww, why. Bring back Kyle 2kforever).

BUT.

On the other hand.

I’m SUPER eternally cranky (and also side-eyeing DC) about the fact that ALSO over the same period of the last fifteen years......DC has systematically killed off or erased every single one of the Titans’ kids, when like, the entire POINT of the Titans and what made them different from the Justice League is that they were more of a family than a superteam, and due to buttressing each other’s emotional growth in ways their emotionally constipated mentors were incapable of, a sizable number of the core Titans had settled down and gotten married and had kids like.....way back while their mentors were still trying to figure out how dating apps worked or whatever.

They killed Roy’s daughter.

They killed Garth’s wife and son.

They erased Wally’s wife and twin children.

They killed Donna’s son and ex-husband (though to be fair, this happened outside of that fifteen year time frame I referenced for everything else, but like, whatever, I’m still mad, Bobby was adorable, you suck DC).

They divorced Mal and Karen before they rebooted continuity with the New 52, FINALLY brought them back in Rebirth, had them married again and had Karen give birth to a daughter....and then promptly wrote them out of any active books and haven’t referenced them in the several years since they did that.

They killed Pantha and Baby Wildebeest, who aside from being Titans in their own right, were Leonid’s long time girlfriend-basically-married-in-all-but-name and basically-adopted kid.

And don’t even get me STARTED on all the shit they did to Grant, who before Geoff Johns decided ‘hey, I’m gonna move him over to the JSA and make him my new favorite torture doll to play with’ was practically Roy’s foster son in all but name.**

And then of course, every few years they teased Dick and Kory getting back together for an arc or two, waved references to their future daughter Ma’ri from the Kingdom Come universe like oh hey remember her (while also bringing over like, every other kid from the KC continuity, like, they made Offspring a thing, they introduced Damian who let’s be real, is basically Ibn, and etc. Like every one of that generation from KC has been introduced into main DC continuity at some point now EXCEPT for Ma’ri. They even introduced freaking MAGOG in the JSA book and used him for like, years. Wtf. MAGOG. Srsly). Because of course, each time they bring Dick and Kory back together they then turn right back around and make a point of writing how psych! Dick and Kory will never ever actually be a COUPLE again, they just sleep together occasionally, because lol right, like they were ever capable of putting their emotions aside and just doing a friends with benefits thing. Its DICK. And KORY. The two most emotional freaking people in the entire DC universe. Kory’s powers are literally FUELED by her emotions, specifically her positive emotions. Dick and Kory are not CAPABLE of dialing down their emotions around each other, that was always their PROBLEM in the first place. But I mean, whatever.

But yeah. So.

I just find it funny that Clark now has a kid and Bruce has three more kids and Arthur and Mera are having baby Artur again now for what, the fourth time? Seriously, that kid has been born four times, in like four different consecutive continuities. You know, if you guys would quit rebooting shit every five years, one of these times he MIGHT even make it to kindergarten before you regress him back to zygote stage and start that cycle all over again.

But meanwhile, in that exact same time period, DC managed (and felt it necessary) to either kill off, erase or write out the Titans’ EIGHT already existing kids and kill off, erase or write out FOUR of their already existing spouses.

Everything they’ve spent the last two decades building up the Justice League, their ‘main’ heroes to have, the Titans had ALREADY HAD since like, literally back in the 80s. Lian, Baby Wildebeest and Bobby were all born/created back in the 80s, Wally and Linda’s twins and Cerdian were created/born in the 90s, like most of these kids were around for twenty fucking years.

Ugh. Its so regressive and just...bad writing, bad creative decisions, and the more I think about why I have so much trouble getting back into any DC comics other than a couple of Batfamily titles, the more I trace it all back to the complete wipeout of like, the original Titans’ almost entire extended family. Because the Titans, as a unit, were practically a primary family group unto themselves, with their own individual extended families being like, secondary entities at times, by comparison.

And DC just....killed them all off, wiped out an entire generation of children of like, the only group of heroes’ that have ever managed to functionally have and maintain strong family units outside of the ones they originated with.

Whose idea was that? And why?

Its so dumb.

Ugh.

** And you REALLY don’t want to get me started on Kyle and Saarko and how I feel about THAT whole fucking shitstorm of a story. Hey who was it who thought that after everything else you’ve done to Kyle’s character, he really needed you to give him a kid who came back from the future intent on destroying everything and force Kyle to kill him to save the universe and only find out AFTER he did that that the guy he just killed was his future son, who now would never be born because two issues later you decided to have his girlfriend aka mother of his future son find out, blame Kyle, and freaking BRAND him while vowing unholy vengeance upon him and every other Green Lantern for what he’d unknowingly done? Like, seriously. Who came up with that story? I just wanna talk!

****Also, I know that Mirage has a daughter too, but on this blog, we don’t acknowledge Mirage as a Titan, or like, literally anything to do with her, because she’s a rapist and rapists can’t be Titans, its the law.

#rape cw

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lydia-yougowith-stiles · 6 years ago

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My Top Ships 2018

I really enjoyed writing this article last year. So here we go again. Check out my favorite ships from movies and TV this year.

12. The Goldbergs-Erica and Geoff

The Goldbergs has been one of my favorite sitcoms for a couple of years now and I have loved watching the development of Erica and Geoff’s relationship from a simple high school crush, to Erica discovering her feelings, to them now in the current season feeling like an old married couple at times. While they may still have their ups and downs I love how they are always there for one another and they are just adorable. Hope they’re in it for the long run like Geoff assumes they will be!

11. Throne of Glass-Chaol and Celaena

At the beginning of 2018 I started reading Sarah J. Maas’ fantasy novel Throne of Glass. Instantly I could see the love triangle emerge between the assassin Celaena, the crown prince Dorian and the head of the king’s guard Chaol. While book one looked more like Celaena and Dorian would be together I always held out hope for the latter. And then I read Crown of Midnight! That book was one of my overall favorites and I got to watch this relationship form. It was beautiful and then everything blew up. I started the third book in the series and was instantly disappointed because it felt like an entirely new series. So while I have stopped reading it since then Chaol and Celaena will forever be one of my favorite ships.

10. Supergirl-Kara and Mon-El

Mon-El returned to Supergirl last season and while Karamel was apart for the majority of the season viewers got to see a more mature Mon-El. There has always been much debate over his character as well as his relationship with Kara, but I have always been a fan of the Daxamite. In this season he returned to the present from the future where he was a part of the Legion of Superheroes and he was married. Kara, still recovering from the aftermath of season two, was thrilled to see him, but much had changed. While moments of this season were aggravating the two still had some great chemistry on screen. It was still very clear of their feelings for one another, but yet again Mon-El had to leave. This time taking Winn with him (which is a rant for another day). So while they might not have a future this is another ship that will always be one of my favorites.

9. Victoria-Lord Alfred and Drummond

This ship instantly pulled my heart strings and ultimately (SPOILER ALERT) crushed my soul. Lord Alfred and Edward Drummond’s relationship started in season one of Victoria, but truly got its own story line in season 2. As expected in this masterpiece drama there were twists and turns that kept this couple part. Given the time period two men could not be together and Drummond was engaged to be married to a woman. But what none of us saw coming was his death. I still cannot believe it. He will be truly missed in the newest season which will air in the new year.

8. Anne with an E-Anne and Gilbert

Netflix’s Anne with an E returned with a second season this year and we were blessed with more Shirbert moments between Anne Shirley and Gilbert Blythe. While the beginning of this season saw Gilbert at sea (going off from L.M. Montgomery’s novel), there were still some great moments between the two characters from Anne writing him letters about the “gold,” to Gilbert not noticing her hair and letting her know it was good to see her. And who could forget this important moment (above) from the finale. Fortunately for us the series has just gotten picked up for a third season. I cannot wait to see what’s in store next!

7. Daredevil-Matt and Karen

While against popular ships I found myself shipping Matt Murdock and Karen Page hard as I began season 1 of Daredevil this past spring. In season 1 I took every moment I could get between the two of them and then I was a little too excited when they got “together” in season 2. While it didn’t end well for the two of them there were some really great moments I find myself reliving on YouTube. I have not watched season 3 yet (mainly because I want to continue to watch the Marvel Netflix shows in order and I have only just finished The Defenders). With the recent news of the show being cancelled I can only hope these two end on good terms. (Even if it is not romantically as I may hope. Please no spoilers.)

6. Set it Up-Harper and Charlie

This romantic comedy quickly made its way into my heart and into my top 10 favorite movies (I KNOW). This is all thanks to its lead characters Harper and Charlie. These two assistants were witty, relatable and just had an overall great chemistry that I am upset they are not together in real life. I have honestly watched this movie far too many times and each time my love for this ship gets stronger. I feel like the movie ends too quick because I want to know more about what happens to them. It might ruin it but would it be too much to ask for a sequel, Netflix??

5. Legacies-All of them

Okay, so by saying ALL OF THEM I don’t think I’m necessarily cheating. This show is still in its beginning and still establishing itself. They are still finding their ships and we are discovering the characters. But I have to say I like so many of them that it’s hard to choose just one pairing. Julie Plec has done a FANTASTIC job of having a lot of her major cast interact with one another and they each bring out something different in one another’s characters. One day I’m shipping Hope and Josie and the next I like Hope and Raphael. You can really tell good writing and characters when you can like so many different combinations and not feel mad about it. If you aren’t watching Legacies make sure to tune into the CW because you are missing out.

4. The Originals-Klaus and Caroline

Yes, you did see this ship on my list from last year and that is because Klaus and Caroline are one of my top OTPs. I was excited to see Klaus on the Vampire Diaries so it is no surprise that I was beyond excited to hear of Caroline coming to the Originals in its final season. It was great to see the pair in the same room again. They were both parents now and had grown so much. Every time they recognized that in each other I got chills. So [SPOILER ALERT] while Klaus “had to die” I am extremely glad that he and Caroline got closure for their ship. In a way they were endgame and as a Klaroline fan, always and forever, that’s all a girl could ask for.

3. Dawson’s Creek-Pacey and Joey

Dawson’s Creek was my summer binge this year. I wanted something “retro” that was just about regular teens (no superhero powers or magic). Going into this show I obviously knew a good amount of spoilers seeing as how it started in the late 90s, so I knew that Pacey Witter and Joey Potter would eventually become a couple. I now just had to wait for the when...and while at times it might have felt excruciating, I took any and all moments between the two characters (even before season 3 when things really get set into motion). There is just something so great about a ship between two characters who “hated” each others guts and tease each other constantly. It was well worth the wait because these two have become one of my favorite all time ships. While I am permanently paused on season four (pre their first break up) I have watched a bunch of spoiler videos to know that these two wind up together, which warms the heart.

2. Brooklyn Nine-Nine-Amy and Jake

While looking for a new TV show to watch earlier this year it was suggested to watch Brooklyn Nine-Nine. (Only once I started binge-watching the show did it get cancelled and then thankfully renewed by NBC.) What a great choice it was to start watching this show. The void that was left by The Office and Parks and Rec was instantly filled by this sitcom. The characters and story-lines were hilarious and of course I couldn’t help but fall in love with the slow-burn of Amy and Jake. Again due to spoilers of coming into a show that already exists I knew the two would wind up together, but it was still so great to be a part of. The two are adorable and while the story line does not always revolve around their relationship you know they are still together by a quick line they say in a scene or two. They are just so right for each other. Right now I am catching up on season 5 (about mid-way right now) and I cannot wait to watch the next season premiering in January. So excited to see where their relationship is headed.

AND NUMBER 1 FOR 2018 GOES TO.....

1. THE 100-Bellamy and Clarke

That’s right last year’s number 2 became my number 1 in 2018! While separated for 6 years with Clarke on the ground and Bellamy in the sky the two found their way back to one another. You could definitely feel the tension between the two, which made complete sense after all their time apart but there was still something that brought them back together. My heart still melts when Bellamy finds out that Clarke is alive from Madi and seeing Clarke’s face when Bellamy tells Diyoza that she matters. This ship is the slowest burn of my life and while Jason Rothenberg may still claim that the two will never be (and that we should read the books for that) this latest season gave us Bellarke fans a reason to hope. From Octavia calling out Bellamy’s feelings and saving the traitor who he loves (OMG) to Clarke’s looks every time Bellamy and Echo were embracing. They are the first two to wake up out of the pods and meet Harper and Monty’s son. They are deeply connected and I can only hope for moments like this next season. For now I’ll just re-watch my favorite to hold me over (and that includes Bob and Eliza’s SDCC interviews which were adorable).

Here’s to another year. Cannot wait to see what is in store for 2019!!

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fawninhawkins · 6 years ago

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home ~ shawn mendes

idea: shawn’s female best friend notices his snap and can’t hold back anymore

a/n: this is my first piece for shawn, and my first piece in awhile but i gotta start (again) somewhere, it gets better as it goes on

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You sat on your couch scrolling through instagram when you got a text notification from your best friend Melinda.

melinda: look what your little boyf just posted on snap

you: oh god...

You knew she had to mean Shawn. You’d known him for 2 years now and were really close, he told you everything. You told him... most things.

Stomach doing small butterflies, you wondered why she alerted you that he’d posted. Your fingers clumsily opened Snapchat and swiped to the left to get to stories, Shawn’s name immediately caught your eye and you tapped on it to find he drew an emoji girlfriend in the plane seat across from him.

Rolling your eyes, you move back onto the page with your conversations and see a little blue chat from the pop star himself.

shawn: hey.. i’m bored, this plane is boringggg

You smiled at his message, usually you texted but since he was on a plane you supposed he was favoring snap.

you: can’t blame you, i’m not there

You teased him with a small smirk on your face. Waiting for his response left you perched on your couch with your knees pulled to your chest. But sure enough in a few moments his little bitmoji’s head popped up and indicated his impending message.

shawn: did you see my story?

you: yeah, what was that about??

shawn: just lonely, she’s my new gf. keeping me company

you: aw shawn, joking aside. r u ok?

shawn: i mean, yeah. i just miss home

you: and your emoji girlfriend represents home? i’m not sure i’m following

But you were following. He had been so lonely for so long, always stealing little touches wherever he could. He missed having a sounding board and someone to stand with him.

shawn: y/n i have to tell you something...

you: when is your plane landing

You and Shawn sent the messages simultaneously.

you: oh what is it??

shawn: i land at 7

shawn: ...oh never mind, i’ll see you soon

You shook your head in confusion when his bitmoji disappeared from the chat, showing he had closed it out. Why would he do that? You didn’t care that he was being odd and cryptic, you just knew that you wanted to do something nice for him.

It came to you then, you decided to call his parents and ask if you could take Aaliyah to come get him from the airport and surprise him, they of course said yes.

As Aaliyah climbed into your Jeep Grand Cherokee (a ridiculous birthday gift from Shawn that resulted in you being furious and simultaneously thankful) you hoped that Shawn wouldn’t make it out of the gate before you could get there. You budgeted to be there 45 minutes early. He had said that you were always there for him and you needed a car that wasn’t falling apart so he knew you’d be safe.

“Hey I’ve missed you so much!” Aaliyah called to you, she flung her arms around your shoulders. You squeezed her tightly and then gripped her shoulders and held her back from you so you could take her in.

“Oh my gosh, you look beautiful! Are you wearing makeup?” There was a hint of motherly concern in your voice but you were actually really proud of her and how tasteful it was.

A sheepish grin spread her cheeks and she nodded as you pulled away from the Mendes residence. “Mom said I could wear a little bit of makeup, just not too much.” She emphasized “too” and you could hear that she found it patronizing.

“Well you look beautiful.” You told her sincerely, reaching a hand over and patting hers. Aaliyah observed you from the side with a quiet smile ghosting her lips, “What?” You asked her suspiciously.

“Would you ever date Shawn?” Aaliyah’s voice was quiet but sure. She didn’t sound nervous or uncomfortable asking you such a personal question, she was nearly commanding.

“Aaliyah, I mean.” You paused, unsure of how to proceed. Did you want to tell her how you really felt, what if Shawn doesn’t feel the same way and she tells him? “Yes. He’s my best friend but I fell for him.” Honesty was the best policy.

“Thank god, I've been waiting for ages.” Aaliyah confessed. She quickly turned up the radio and started humming along contently, able to dismiss the emotionally potent question she just posed from her mind far more quickly than you could.

After the two of you entered the airport and went through the basic security, you found a place to sit and wait for Shawn that he’d be sure to pass.

“You should text Geoff and tell him where we are to make sure that Shawn comes our way.” Aaliyah suggested.

“Damn little one, I probably should’ve thought of that. Good catch.” You nudged her with your elbow and followed her advice, sending a quick text detailing your location. “All sent, I’ll let you know if he answers.”

Aaliyah laid down her cardigan and sat indian style in the stiff plastic seats. “So how come you and Shawn aren’t dating yet?” There she went again, asking hard questions.

“I don’t know, I mean I always had a little crush on him but I valued his friendship too much to ruin it. And I just don’t know if he feels the same way.” You shrugged and avoided her eyes as you supplied her with a more robust answer than you intended.

“You know he’s head-over-heels for you right?” Aaliyah looked at you with shock on her face, “You’re all he ever talks about, he asks Mom for advice about you all the time. The boy’s fucking whipped.”

“Aaliyah! Language!” You chastised her for her foul mouth, she’s only 14 after all. But then her words took effect, “He, he asks advice about me?” She just rolls her eyes and nods. Despite the sassy behavior, she was clearly happy for you. Your phone buzzed then:

Geoff: we’re rounding the corner, be ready.

“Ok, Aaliyah he’s coming, why don’t you get into position.” Aaliyah’s eyes lit up at your words and she jumped from her seat and ran over to the wall she knew her brother would soon round. For as much as they sometimes didn’t get along, Aaliyah and Shawn were the sweetest siblings you knew.

You hung back, staying over by yours and Aaliyah’s things so that she could have a moment with her brother. Finally you saw him, he looked like he just woke up from a nap but seemed refreshed otherwise. He was wearing a hoodie and had it pulled over his head, as well as a tight fitting pair of black jeans and somehow, he looked amazing.

Aaliyah jumped out from behind the wall and Shawn’s arms flew to his chest in fear, but he quickly registered that it was his sister. You saw them hug and him place a kiss on her forehead. It warmed your heart. Aaliyah and Shawn began catching up when she calls you over.

“Hey, get over here other surprise!” Shawn’s eyes followed her gesture and landed on you as you excitedly approached. His deep honey eyes lit up and his lips stretched into a large smile as your name tumbled from them.

“So you organized this huh?” Shawn mumbled through your hair as he enveloped you in his embrace. He held you tightly even as you loosened your grip to release him.

“I did actually. After you sent me those snaps I just kind of wanted to do something special for you,” You admitted to him as he finally released you. Something flashed behind his eyes but you couldn’t quite catch the emotion as he followed Aaliyah to go pick up your belongings.

You all gathered your things and made your way to the exit, getting stopped only by a few fans who requested pictures. The fans shot you confused looks but no one said anything.

“Shawn is there anything you need to do before we go home? Mom and Dad are making a welcome home roast.” Aaliyah called to him from the middle backseat, leaning forward with her elbows on her knees.

Shawn leaned over his shoulder and ruffled her hair up a bit, earning protests from her, “Nope, just want to go home and eat my weight in home cooked food.” You could see the giant grin plastered on his face even in your peripheral vision.

“Well boy do I have good news for you,” You interjected as you turned onto his street, “We’re here.” Your announcement earned cheers from the two Mendes’ sitting in your car and you just giggled.

Pulling the car carefully into the driveway you put it in park and turned it off. Aaliyah made quick work of the seat belt and flew out of the car toward the house screaming “Foooooooooood”. You and Shawn just looked at each other and then burst out laughing.

“Alright I guess I’ll help you get your things inside.” You told him shyly, feeling inhibited all of a sudden. Shawn cocked his head, causing his curls to bounce, and shot you a knowing look. You were never shy like this with him.

Coming around the side of the car, you popped the trunk, “Alright why don’t you take the guitars, my suitcases are really heavy.” As if to prove his point, Shawn lifted one from the car and huffed from exertion.

“Are you sure, you care about your guitars more than anything. I don’t really want to be the reason one breaks.” You knew how much his guitars meant to him and it made you legitimately nervous to carry them. A look of upset came over Shawn’s face that quickly dissipated.

“There are things I care about more.” Shawn whispered. You began carrying the two guitars toward the house but turned around when you heard his soft voice.

“What did you say?” You called to him. But he just dismissed you and told you nothing. Weird.

Manny and Karen greeted you at the door with hugs and helped you get everything to Shawn’s old room. After everything was settled and you’d returned to the main floor you began to make your way to the door. “Where do you think you’re going young lady?” Karen called to you in a stern voice. You turned to look at her sheepishly and found her with her hands placed firmly on her hips and a facial expression that told you you weren’t leaving anytime soon.

“You’re staying for dinner and the Mendes family game night right?” You looked at Manny shocked. You didn’t even realize you were invited. Shawn smiled and walked over to you, holding his hand out for your jacket.

“Of course she is Dad.” He answered for you. You slipped your jacket off and handed it to him with a quiet thank you.

Dinner was delicious and as Shawn, Aaliyah and Manny all went in to set up the games, you decided to help Karen with the dishes. “It was so delicious, you astonish me with your cooking every single time I’m over here Mrs. Mendes.” You shot her a sincere heart-warming smile. You absolutely adored Shawn’s family.

“Sweetie, you can call me Karen, I’ve known you for two years now.” She grinned at you as she passed you another plate to dry.

“Thank you Karen.” You obeyed her wishes and said her name sweetly. “You guys were so kind to have me over. I know how much you must miss him while he’s gone. God knows I do...” You rambled on and got lost in your thoughts.

“Sweetie, we love you. You’re a part of the family.” Karen reassured you as she shut off the water and dried her hands. Quietly and without looking at you she added, “I know for a fact that Shawn misses you every bit as much as you miss him.” When she finished she looked up at you with what you couldn’t describe as anything other than a shit-eating grin.

“What he-?” You began but Karen cut you off.

“He adores you so much, just you wait.” She winked at you and then pressed a hand to her mouth dramatically. “Oops, slip of the tongue.”

“Mom, Y/N. We’re all ready for you.” Shawn called from the living room. Karen shot you a quick wink and then disappeared to join her family. You trailed her a few feet back still digesting not only the food but her words.

As the two of you joined the rest of the family, you observe that there are two natural spaces left around the table to sit, inbetween Shawn and Aliyah or Manny and Aliyah but Karen is too fast and sits there. Forcing you to sit beside Shawn.

“Well? Come on Y/N?” Shawn called to you, patting the floor beside him. You smiled through the nervousness and joined him. “Are you alright.” Shawn leaned in close to you and filled your nose with his scent of vanilla and birchwood.

His voice is laced with concern and you take a deep breath to respond normally, “Yeah Shawn, I’m ok.” His eyes searched yours once you finally look at him but when you give him a humble smile his own face reflects yours.

Manny read the rules and you all began an intense game of monopoly. The game consisted of a lot of trash-talking:

Aaliyah proudly announcing “I have 3 sets of properties, I’m winninggggg.”

Manny grumbling, “Stop trying to buy me out, we get that you’re good.”

Shawn nudging you with his elbow and singing, “You’re in jaillllll, you’re in jaillll.”

And Karen just enjoying her family and laughing.

The game ended with Aaliyah sweeping the floor with everyone before she announced that she was heading to facetime her friends and then go to bed. Shawn left to change out of his jeans and into more comfortable clothes to watch tv.

“Alright kiddo, I’m wiped. I’m gonna head to bed but I want to thank you for being here for Shawn and for hanging out with our family today.” She smiled at you kindly and then bid her husband goodnight.

You took a seat on the couch as Manny picked up the remote and turned the tv on to get it to netflix. He quietly asked you, “So how are you doing?” You appreciated the question, he knew you didn’t have any family and sometimes it was hard to be around happy ones. It wasn’t ever hard to be around the Mendes’ though.

“I’m alright. School is out for now and I’m settled into the new apartment.” You answered him politely, shooting him a smile.

“I’m glad to hear that. You know I really appreciate what you did for Shawn and Aaliyah today. It was kind of you to want to surprise him but including his sister was wonderful. You gave them a beautiful memory today and I’m very thankful for it.” Manny’s words made your eyes mist and you blinked hard trying to dismiss them.

“It’s no problem, I just wanted to do something special for him. And Aaliyah is his little sister, I wouldn’t want to leave her out.” Manny just smiled at his words and shook his head. But before you could figure out why he seemed so amused Shawn walked back in.

“Well kids, I’m going to bed. Goodnight both of you and Shawn, we’re glad to have you home.” He ruffled Shawn’s hair as he walked out of the room, leaving the two of you in silence.

Shawn leaned over to pick up the remote and his shirt crept up, revealing a little bit of his muscular back. Your eyes rested there until he cleared his throat to speak, “So um I wanted to talk to you.”

“Oh?” Your voice faltered in the middle of your question. Wondering if he was going to say what you wanted him so desperately to say.

He looked at you intensely, his gorgeously chocolate eyes sparkling in the light of the tv. It felt like he could see all of you, like there was nothing you could hide from him. It made you really nervous. In a good way.

“The snaps, my post, everything. It’s… well. I’m crazy into you.” He blurted out. His words were soft and his face was suddenly less certain. “I’ve been into you for two years. When I’m not with you my chest aches and I couldn’t keep going without telling you. I care about your friendship so much but I can’t help but tell you in the chance that maybe you feel the same way,” he trailed off, eyes searching your face trying to read you.

“Shawn, I’ve been into you forever. Whenever you talk about wanting a girlfriend all I want is for you to be talking about me.” Your admission tumbled out of your mouth before you could stop it. And you honestly felt so relieved.

His face broke into a huge smile, “I was talking about you. You are so kind and thoughtful and smart and stunning and my family loves you. So will you, please, be my girl?” Shawn’s smile faltered as he awaited your response. He reached up and tucked a stray strand of hair behind your ear but let his hand linger on your face.

“Yes-” You answered him quietly. He immediately closed the space between you and him and pressed his soft lips against yours. Your surprise melted away and you calmly and gingerly rested your hands on his muscular chest. One of his hands settled on the nape of your neck, tangling in your hair and the other pressed against your lower back, pulling you against him.

When he broke the kiss he didn’t move far, instead resting his forehead against yours, both of your eyes still shut. It was incredibly intimate. You slowly opened your eyes and lifted a hand to his face, cupping his cheek. He leaned into it and then opened his eyes slowly. His face broke into a crooked smile and you ran your thumb over the edge of his lips. “That’s all I’ve wanted for longer than you know.”

You giggled softly, but you needed to request something of him, “I’ve missed you so much. Do you think we can just cuddle and watch a movie?”

Shawn nodded profusely and began scanning netflix, but his free hand searched for yours, snatching it. “Of course, if you think I’m letting you go any time soon you’re nuts.” He mumbled against your hand before kissing it.

You leaned back and pulled the lever that popped the end of the couch into a recliner, when you looked up you saw Shawn chose Thor: Ragnarok because he knew your love of Marvel. Moving back he laid down and opened his arms to you, “Come here.” You nodded and graciously climbed into his lap to be curled up in his embrace. “Grab that blanket will you?” Shawn’s request was soft and you reached over and spread the blanket over your cold bodies.

Within fifteen minutes you were nodding off. Shawn was just rubbing soothing circles into your arms and your eyelids grew heavier with each stroke. You were conscious just long enough to feel Shawn press a kiss into your hair and whisper, “I’m pretty sure you’re asleep, and I didn’t want to freak you out. But I love you, I have loved you for so long, sleep well sweetheart.” You swirled into the darkness with a content smile playing on your lips.

You woke up to a bright flash. “Shit, my flash was on.” Aaliyah giggled and you sat up, wiping the sleep from your eyes. Shawn shot up too.

“Aaliyah language.” Manny called from somewhere in the house.

“What-” His eyes were half closed and his hair was crazy and disheveled on top of his head. He looked adorable, and you knew you didn’t look much more put together.

“So are you guys like official now?” Aaliyah asked, plopping down on the couch next to you, seemingly not caring that the two of you were still semi-intertwined. Shawn looked to you with the most content smile on his face, it made your stomach flip that you had that effect on him.

“Yeah,” You grinned right back at him.

“I freaking knew it! I asked about it yesterday, I’m a psychic.” She grinned widely and looked at the evidence on her phone.

“Hey ‘liyah, will you please send it to me?” Shawn nudged his sister and she nodded in response before he turned back to you, “I want to make it my home screen.”

You groaned. “I probably look like a troll!” You whined.

“You’re the cutest troll I’ve ever seen though.” He smiled and smoothed back some of your particularly unruly hair.

“Hey kids, I can’t encourage ‘sleepovers’ but this seems innocent enough, I’m very glad you two finally figured it out.” Karen walked into the room and assessed the two of you. She put air quotes around the word sleep over and you blushed at what she was insinuating. “Anyway, Manny is making waffles, head into the kitchen for some breakfast.”

“Thanks mom,” Shawn politely thanked his mother before standing up to stretch, arching his back and revealed his lower abs, you bit your lip and reminded yourself that he was all yours now. It was crazy that this was happening.

He snapped you out of it when he extended his hand to help you up, “Come on let’s get some breakfast.” You grinned at him and accepted it, you were really dating him now, thank god you went to the airport.

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