#Also the demonizing kaali maa thing is actually quite common in the area I live

[hinsaa-paramo-dharma]

So, when I was around 9, I made friends with this group of girls who were slightly older than me but really cool (according to little me atleast-), during that time, I was known as a "new girl who barely comes outside" in the colony and even if the girls were kind of disgusted by me at first (hey, I am kind of weird) I still didn't mind that and interacted with them because I really wanted friends. After some time, they became very nice to me or so I thought.

They were more interested in making fun of me than anything. I, being a stupid kid, didn't really cared and would just awkwardly laugh with them because I thought it was a normal friends behaviour or something. It kind of hurt me, yes but I just brushed that away. Most of the time, I was mocked for having trouble pronouncing certain words or for being a non-vegetarian ( I don't even get why did that matter so much-) or for worshipping Kaali Maa. Yup. They would introduce games where it would basically be pakdam-pakdai except the kid who's it will have to cover their face with their hair and make weird monster noises and they were Kaali Maa apparently just to spite me. I hated that but again, I thought it was how things went in that place or something. They would also make fun of me because my parents had me later in their lives...yeah weird.

Times went by and I started speaking up alot more. And vo isliye kilasne lag gye. Short mein ending batau toh, I was stabbed by a compass on my arm, which could have ended very badly agar unhone galat jagah chubo Diya hota toh-. I felt so betrayed by them because I had always thought of them as friends (which was my stupidity)

After that I kind of stopped interacting with people and trying to make friends, and ab dekho kitna difficult hai mere liye bus ek chotu sa interaction karna hi.

This sounds so pathetic lmao.