#Also if Demi and the rest of my sisters polycule is out there ive never met u but i resent u sm rn

[atlasthebeloved]

Ugh. Rant ig

I have been wrapping presents for three straight days atp. My family wraps presents multiple times in assigned wrapping papers(kinda like pass the parcel) and now that im the oldest offspring of my mother living in the house I am holding the weight of getting all that done, comforting my mother through holiday related breakdowns, AND wrapping presents for the other people my mother has bought gifts for. Now, I have two younger siblings. How much younger, you may ask? 8 months. They are also 20 YEARS OLD at this point and other than the presents they bought for people one has wrapped maybe 10 and the other idk a whopping 2. I spent so much time and energy on this shit this year and have had multiple breakdown myslef, have gotten maybe 5 hours of sleep this week, and im currently sleeping on the floor of my room instead of the bed because all the things that go on the floor of my room (desk chair, laundry basket, etc.) I have put on my bed to make room to wrap on the floor of my 10 by 10 bedroom. Why dont I wrap in another room? My mother has the same size room and is fully taken up by a queen bed for her and my father and people still live in this house so the rest of it is off limits because ill be in the way. Who has the master bedroom, twice the size of mine with dare I say OODLES of space? The aforementioned younger siblings. Now before you think, maybe they dont know what you want them to do? We've done this our entire life and before this year they were able to help just fine, and also i have EXPLICITLY ASKED THEM TO HELP ON MULTIPLE OCCASIONS and if they get up at all they at most wrapped one or two before wandeeing of with some kind of excuse. I spent a total of 50 us dollars on their presents this year, and as a currently unemployed student, thats a lot. So next year they get some shit from 5 below in a fukin gift bag idk i just feel like crying cause I want to be loving Christmas and having a good time with my family but i just hate them all and I've given myself a cold and no one understands why I've been bursting into tears randomly all week. Ugh. Bahumbug ig. I have to wake up to get ready for brunch in like 1 hour.