#Also he just sounds really good 🙇🏻‍♀️

[seokmins]

[literatureloverx]

HIII>< Good day to you my dearest🤗🤗 Have you eaten? Drink? If not then please do! I know I said It might not be able to interact with you but like the weather is so bad in my country(there's like three storm rn), also some volcanic activities and some freaking illness going around rn😭😭 Whatever spiritual power there is hates my country cause what is this😭😭. Anywayyyy, I lost track again°>° well uh I just got suddenly curious on how, when, where fyodor and his darling got married. Like what was the process of it, the preparation, the people invited and such. I'm imagining it as somewhat very private event and very intimate (It's fyodor obv) Probably not a lot of people invited. It'll obviously be in a cathedral of sort with a priest and such. Ohh now I wonder how it'll work considering different cultures and religions (of darling). Like in my culture you can invite the whole village! Your distance cousin's friend might even be there😆 I'm kinda exaggerating but it does happen. Also the wedding clothes of darling and Fyodor! Ahhh I'm imagining Fyodor rn🥰🥰🥰

Also I'm really really sorry🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️ for overwhelming you with my ask! Well that's the end of it! Ig??? I'm going to do my projects now... Thank you for listening to my yapping and being so kind! 🫵❤️❤️❤️Truly you are amazing. I hope you have/gotten a good day🙏

Sincerely —🧛🏻‍♀️🫀Anon

Good day, my love, 🧛🏻‍♀️🫀-anon! ♥️ I’m doing well and hope the same for you. Please take care—it sounds truly concerning. 🥺

Regarding your request, I must admit I never thought about it either, lmao. By the way, you can invite the whole village in my culture too—though I wouldn’t do that! 😭 Close family and friends are all I need. ♥️ I wrote some headcanons, I hope you enjoy reading them!♥️

Also, I’ve come up with pictures for my 🍷💝-anon who needs visualizations.

Fyodor x ideal type fem!darling, marriage, wedding, visualisation, religious themes etc.

Fyodor & his darling’s wedding

The process would be very thorough, with high security measures and many people involved in the preparations.

As Fyodor’s little princess and soon-to-be bride, you won’t experience any discomfort because of it.

There will be plenty of people handling the arrangements for you.

All you need to do is relax, choose your wedding gown, select your jewelry from the exquisite vintage pieces Fyodor orders from around the world, and provide your preferences for the cake flavors and the flowers.

You’ll only need to engage in the preparations that interest you—your fiancé ensures that you’re always comfortable with everything that’s happening.

I don’t see either of you inviting many people due to security measures, and honestly, Fyodor has no one to invite.

So, it will likely be just the two of you, your close family (such as your parents and siblings), and the priest along with the staff who will be serving you.

Since you’re marrying Fyodor, it will naturally be very intimate and private. We can’t expect much glamour or razzamatazz.

The vows would be exchanged in the cathedral, and later you’d move to a medieval-themed setting for the wedding celebration.

There, you’d enjoy a meal and your wedding cake. Perhaps you might even dance to your favorite waltz—who knows?

Considering different cultures and his ideal type, your darling, being introverted and easygoing, would likely embrace Fyodor’s vision of their wedding.

This means there might be no village invitations, which could seem a bit sad, but it’s all part of Fyodor’s unique way of doing things.

~

Those are elegantly feminine. Fyodor would certainly admire the lace, as it’s traditionally seen as a symbol of femininity—something he would appreciate for its delicate beauty and timeless charm.

Those gowns are fine, but they show the maximum amount of flesh permissible for a cathedral setting, especially when marrying a traditional, possessive man like Fyodor.

You’d definitely need a veil if you choose to wear such a wedding gown.

Fyodor could wear just about anything, but here are some classic groom outfits. I can definitely see him opting for the white one, as most of his clothing is white and he associates himself with the color.

However, the darker outfit could also suit him, especially considering the official picture of him in a fancy dark-colored tuxedo.

Cathedral of Christ the Saviour in Moscow

[wannaeatramyeon]

Helloooo I just wanted to say I absolutely love your writing! I always look forward to your posts, they just make my day! When I‘m feeling down they cheer me up and when I‘m in high spirits they make me even happier. So keep up the good work :3

Btw I‘d also like to request the Lookism boys reacting to them accidentically hurting their S/O (especially Jake and Goo, I just love them) 🥹

If you don‘t want to it’s fine! I also just wanted to tell you I really appreciate your writing🫶🏻 Thx!

~Your fan

Hi Anon! SO SORRY FOR THE DELAY. I know it's been a while. Thank you so much for your kind words omg 🥹 your words are also a wonderful pickmeup for me too. I will work harder to keep making the most of this fixation with these silly boys 🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️ And don't worry, as long as I keep putting out bullshit for Lookism, there will always be some Jake and Goo cos they are my faaaaaves.

Accidentally hurting S/O: Goo, Jake, Gun, Samuel, Vin

Neither of you ever go full force in your spars together. The intent was to improve, not maim.

However, seeing a gap in your defensive stance, their right fist jabs out. Quick as lightning, hitting you in the ribcage.

Which you usually would be able to tank, except.

Fucking liver shot.

All your focus and drive is knocked out with that one hit. You're breathless, trying desperately to stay standing-

Goo x Reader

"Princess?"

Goo raises his eyebrows, a smirk gracing his features. It's not the first time you've manipulated him and then punched him as soon as he was within reach. No chance is he falling for it again.

At the sound of your whimpers, and pathetic sight of you head down, clutching your side, Goo finally backs down.

Surely he didn't hit you that hard, right? He thought you were much sturdier than that especially with all the trash talk coming out of your mouth.

"Cupcake, you ok?" The mirth isn't entirely gone from his voice, but he tilts your face up towards him and gasps at the tears in your eyes.

"My little baby! Did I hurt you?" his fingers come up to wipe the tears from your cheeks, "I didn't know you were so weak. Such a delicate little flower, my buttercup. I didn't even try, and you couldn't withstand that? My sweet darling."

Your tears dry quickly when you hear his words. More gloating than concern. "You asshole, that was a cheap shot."

"If you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen, sweetheart."

"Asshole," you repeat as he cackles like a hyena.

"C'mon," Goo gives you a loud obnoxious smooch on the forehead for your troubles, "Let your Goo bear look after you today."

Jake Kim x Reader

Jake realised the impact before you did. Already too late for his fist to change course and resulting in your face crumpling up in pain.

"Shit!" his hands come up, gingerly assessing the area and eyes frantically searching yours, "Y/N, are you ok?"

"No," you squeak out and Jake has never felt such panic before. Is that his life flashing before his eyes?

And then when your eyes well up with tears, lip starting to quiver, Jake feels his soul departing his body.

Shitshitshit-

The apologies tumble out.

Of course, you can't blame him. Accidents are a natural byproduct of sparring. Jake suffered a sprained ankle not too long ago, and you still can't bend your left middle finger fully.

You regain your breath as his hands rove all over to check for any other injuries. Needing to touch you and feel that you're still fine.

"Jake?" You interrupt his worried movements.

"Hmm?"

Probably an inopportune moment, yet even through the pain, it warms your heart seeing how much Jake cares about you. "Love you."

Oh. Jake wasn't expecting that. That's what you give him after a liver shot? You really are too adorable for words.

With a soft smile, he tells you he loves you too.

Gun Park x Reader

Clearly unimpressed, Gun watches you.

With anyone else, he would have called them pathetic, worthless and a waste of his time.

But with you, it's not time wasted. He would rather be with you, than not at all. Which he finds difficult to admit. That fact at complete odds with his drive and his self. A personal weakness he is willing to overlook.

From the offset, Gun could see there was zero possibility of you becoming his masterpiece. Simply put, you didn't have the body nor talent nor skill. When you first asked him to start sparring with you though, he acquiesced. Frankly, has he ever even said no to you.

You chance a peek at your boyfriend. Already you are expecting a look of disappointment, instead you see his retreating back, leaving you alone.

Tears spring to your eyes and you drop your head in shame. Damn, this hurts. You're no match for Gun, no match for most people really. Still, you've been trying to improve.

As you wallow, a blanket is wrapped around your shoulders. In the blink of an eye, Gun hoists you into an effortless bridal carry, calling you an idiot.

You know his words have no bite, his actions speak far louder.

Arms wrapping around his neck, the pain subsides as you nuzzle him.

Samuel Seo x Reader

Samuel feels it in his superiority complex first, always bubbling away and too deeply ingrained for anything else.

Incapacitating an opponent, dominating them, proving that he is better.

Followed quickly by fuck. This isn't an opponent. Not really. It's you.

"Y/N?" he holds you by the shoulders and you lean into it, your legs too weak to hold you up.

Samuel's eyes cloud with worry when you let out a feeble groan.

"Come on," he picks you up, maneuvering you into a fireman's lift with grace and you with anything but. Ass in the air, hair flopping down, still feeling waves of pain.

Samuel faintly recalls his packed calendar for the rest of his day. Meetings upon meetings. Calls and face-to-faces with vendors and investors and corporate fucks who can barely form a thought between them without a brainstorming meeting and a presentation.

"Ughhh Sammy I feel like shit," you gurgle from behind him, and that is all it takes for him to wipe his schedule clean.

None of it matters.

He'll be spending the rest of the day with you instead.

Vin Jin x Reader

Vin nudges you with his foot, "Get up."

In the end, your legs had crumpled beneath you until you're flat on the floor, hands clutched to your throbbing side.

At your lack of response, Vin tries again. "Get up you pussy."

Vin is Vin. An asshole to the end.

"Go away," your voice is weak, barely reaching his ears.

He squats down and squints through his shades, trying to get a closer look at what the hell is wrong with you. He barely even touched you.

"Yeesh, are you really this weak? You're no fun."

You can't bring yourself to say anything to that, just throwing a glare at him. So venomous that you hope it penetrates those stupid sunglasses and into his soul.

"Whatever, if this is what we're doing now." As if he wasn't the cause of your predicament, Vin lets out a melodramatic sigh and lies down beside you.

"You're such a loser," he says, even as he shuffles close, carefully positioning your head on his shoulder and pulling your body to his.

[anantaru]

so guys 🙋🏻‍♀️🌸 i have finished the entire new quest at last and omg 👼🏼 like this was outstanding!! you see, what i really enjoy about star rail is that it gives me similar vibes to hi3 in terms of the darkness in the plot, since hi3 is my favorite hoyo game i always love seeing stuff from it or just similar instances. SO YOU KNOW FOR A FACT I WAS SO HYPED WHEN ACHERON SHOWED UP 🤺 especially with the hi3 story with kiana as the mc being over and although i still love hi3 the most, kiana, mei and bronya, that trio, they were all the best characters together AAAARGHHH I SWEAR AND JUST THE ENTIRE STORY LINE WAS SOOO GOOD, I miss them all together as a trio and especially kiana, the best hoyo MC FOR LIFE. 🙋🏻‍♀️🩷

also 🤠 ^^ that frame with sunday and dr ratio like 😙😙 WAS SO FUNNY I HAD TO SS IT. 🤺

the amount of cutscenes we got to see again was so fun, it felt like watching a movie slowly unfold while you got to be a part of it 🩷 you can tell that hoyoverse gets better and better with each update on whatever game and that the cutscenes are always so well done (i always liked them but the constant upgrades ??? insane) 🙏🏻

+ the acheron one shotting aventurine lmao 🧎🏻‍♀️ it was my favorite though ngl HAHA 🙋🏻‍♀️🩷 no matter how much i like aventurine as a character, MEI OMG MEEEIIIIII 👹🩷 SHE WILL FOREVER BE MY LOVE LIKE I KNOW ITS ACHERON BUT YOU GET WHAT I MEAN !!!!! 🙇🏻‍♀️ LIKE THE CUTSCENE WITH HER HORNS OH MY GOOOD THE NOSTALGIA LIKE YES GO OFF SHOW THEM

also guys, idk but aventurine's boss fight, 🤠 i personally expected more like it was so easy to beat ?! I THOUGHT I WOULD STRUGGLE BUT HE DIED PRETTY QUICKLY BUT ITS FINE, I STILL LIKE HIS CHARACTER 🌸🙋🏻‍♀️. + i was happy hoyoverse showed us his backstory and took their time to flash it out and not gloss over it in idk one/two scenes, but they really took their time with it which was amazing 🩷

also jade looks so cool as well! the design is very pretty and i can't wait to see diamond too, or the rest of the ten stonehearts but they're hyping diamond up so much like another emanator?? yes please, i'm all in🧎🏻‍♀️🩷

this entire quest gave me movie vibes, you were on edge the entire time and even during side quests you had to take, it was still very intense. it actually took me quite a bit to finish it of course since i'm someone who doesn't skip dialog, but it was so worth it and the best way to relax after a long day of moving my body 🩷 just laying in bed, playing while drinking tea!!

what i wanted to say too, guys honestly sunday is not okay HAHAHAHAHAHAH 🌝 I MEAN LIKE you guys🧎🏻‍♀️, that shiver in his voice at times and you can tell he low-key doesn't even know how to handle all of that either, of course, for one he looks like everything is accounted for while in the other, he sounds like he's losing his mind and can we blame him ???? when he went "why did you kill her" and lowkey cussed gallagher out i was like damn 🤠 okay 😏 HAHA + i'm somebody that doesn't think too much about theories, instead i love eagerly waiting for the next patch!! so i'm excited for what's coming 🩷 + robin's song slaps.

last but not least 🤺 you see, gallagher wasn't really somebody i was very interested in, but damn the second he turned dangerous and spicy i went oh my oh hey what's up ?? 😏 giggles HAHA LIKE WHAT IS IT ABOUT MEN WHO ARE JUST SUDDENLY EVIL AND IDK MAYBE HE ISNT COMPLETELY RIGHT AAAAAA OOOOO UUUU WWWWW AAAAA but anyways, 🌸 the last cutscene low-key hurt me like what do you mean sunday gets off screened while i was saving up for him for what? 👹 ever since fuxuan like how can you do this to me + no way they're dead dead 🤠because the last conversation aventurine had with acheron was very important to the next patch i'm pretty sure! 🩷

all in all guys!! 🩷 this quest was beautifully done, it had a lot of hard, dark stuff and it reminded me a lot of hi3, that's why i give it a 10/10, very well done. 🌸🩷

[uglypastels]

I reaaalllyyyy love your writing and I was wondering if i could request a OPLA Buggy x reader story? I don't know if you do male readers too, if you do then I'd appreciate it. If not you can do it with a female or gn reader <33 if you want to write it at all of course!!

Reader is a feared pirate captain and is very known amongst the seas. He kinda has a thing for Buggy and everyone knows it. That's why for the most part the clown can do whatever he wants. The two of them engage in constant flirting and playful banter, annoying each other when they cross paths at sea and reader decides that it is a good day to pretend like he’s attacking Buggy’s ship just to pay him a visit.

When Buggy kidnapped Ruffy and his crew, reader was also in town and had been watching the whole scene unbeknownst to Buggy. He only wanted to make sure that everything is alright but ended up staying, just to watch him for some more time.

After the strawhats left and Buggy had put himself back together, his coat and hat were still lying around. So, reader put it on quietly, keeping the hat in his hands something he’d do often just to piss him off and partly because he liked the smell of the coat. Finally Buggy noticed him and firstly thought he’d be one of his crew mates. He starts to tell him to get out of his light but when he hears readers voice he freezes. Reader makes some flirty comment but Buggy is already pissed off and attacks him. (Not in a harmful way, more like play fighting. He really is pissed but wouldn’t hurt reader in a serious way) reader plays along and keeps a smirk on his face till Buggy pins him on the ground. They flirtfight a bit more and then reader could cheer him up/ tend his wounds from the fight with the strawhats. Fluffy content ☁️☁️

I’m sorry that this Is so long you can change the details if you don’t like it 🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️

no, but i actually love love love this whole idea. I'm not too experienced writing with male readers, so it might come out a bit gender-neutral, so you can read it as anything <3 hope you enjoy it!

warning: violence, violent thoughts, mention of [in-show] torture, flirting. slight choking. all in good fun. "sweetheart" nickname.

masterlist

Hiatus

You would have imagined he would see you sitting in the audience. Clapping just a bit louder than the rest, cheering and laughing that much more. Enjoying the spectacle that played out in front of you.

God, he really knows how to put on a show. Who else would come up with such brilliant torture tactics but the Genius Jester himself? The quartering had been a magnificent event to watch, not to mention the Tank of Doom.

He had been doing so well, but of course, those Strawhat idiots had to barge in and ruin everything. You wished you could have helped him, but you knew better than to intervene in Buggy's productions. He would have never forgiven you if you came in unannounced on the stage.

So, you patiently watched until the end, slipping behind the curtains as those bratty bastards continued on ruining your dearest Clown's empire, the only thing to bring you peace being the image of one day getting your and Buggy's revenge, presenting their heads on platters.

You waited in the dark corner for the Big Top to empty, and for Buggy to make his next entrance. Knowing the Clown, he would have bitten your hand off if you offered him your help with the crates in which his body parts were locked, so you held yourself back from revealing your presence until he was nearly done.

Then, you appeared out of the shadows. It had not been your intention to step right into the light coming from the tent's entryway, casting darkness over him.

'Get out of my LIGHT!' he yelled, mindlessly throwing back one of his trusty daggers. Despite him having had no insight into your position, the blade still managed to land right between your feet.

'Now, now, Bug,' you smiled, taking a few slow steps forward. 'Is that the way to greet an old friend?'

At the sound of your voice, Buggy's head jerked back, eyes wide open in surprise, but moments later, you saw the corners of the end of the red facepaint stretch wider into a hesitant smile as he thought his body for composure.

'You?' He cleared his throat. 'What are you doing here?'

'Heard the circus was in town. Thought I'd catch a show.'

'Well, the show's on hiatus. Sorry, you came all the way here for nothing, sweetheart.' He went back to the barrels and chests in search of his leg, but he shot back up in your direction at your next words:

'Oh, don't worry, Lightbug, I got here just in time for the last one.'

'You saw all that?' As Buggy looked at you this time, his eyes travelled over your entire body, keeping his gaze down to avoid your own compassionate stare.

'I'm afraid I did.'

Something in Buggy's face twitched before he smashed open one of the last closed cases that stood around him. The last parts of him shot up into the sky and connected back to the rest of his body, which he ensured with a small shake. Remaining painfully silent, he gave you another glance, finally noticing the piece of clothing you had picked up during your wait for his arrival.

'That's my jacket,' he stated.

'I know,' you smoothed out the sleeves, 'Always thought it looked so good, I couldn't help myself but try it on when the opportunity presented itself... What do you think?' You looked up expectantly, hoping to get some kind of reaction out of the pirate, but he just gave you another multifaceted look before turning away.

'I'm not in the mood for games.'

'Well, good we're not playing, then.' You tried to step forward to catch up to Buggy, but before you had the chance to reach him, something around him moved, and the next thing you knew, he had his hand around your throat.

'Then what,' he finally turned to face you, eyes bright and large with anger, 'the hell are you doing here?!'

The grip of his fingers was stern, filled with his emotions, but still full of that gentleness you knew he only carried around for you. As he kept his hold on your neck, you couldn't speak up, and so just let him come back up to you. Closer and closer until your faces were nearly against one another. With his smell of tobacco and cotton candy filling your senses, you inhaled deeply as Buggy released his hold on you.

'You know exactly why I'm here, Buggy.'

The cracks of emotions were showing through his makeup as the muscles in his face quivered. Not another word was spoken, as the words you spoke were all that needed to be said.

There was another beat of silence as the years of memories, the good as well as the bad ones, came over the two of you like a flood. Then, breaking down the final pieces of the dam, letting it all truly flush you over, Buggy grabbed you closer, closing that final space between you, pressing his lips against yours.

Just like he used to.

Just like you never thought he would again.

the end.

thank you for reading!! if you enjoyed, please comment and reblog with your thoughts. i'd love to hear them as it truly helps with writing motivation and inspiration.

[astroyongie]

✨Just some thoughts on the tea you just spilled: I’m a little late I know shh..✨

Nct

-…ooh boy that ain’t good…but I’m also not surprised?…sad to say but I just hope they’re being safe…also where the hell are they getting that shit from? Especially in Korea!

SKZ

-yeahh…thought I was the only one sending that…poor baby. But I feel like everyone, not only SKZ needs a break. Like an actual break.

Ateez

-Okay wow, mostly positive yay!! (I would gladly sell my left kidney for them)

-except for that….I have a feeling it’s Yeo…but it might be another member for some reason…idk I hope they’re okay 🥺

EXO

-okay idk that one made me laugh. Who could it be~ haha 😒

BTS

-have a feeling that’ll be RM…or Jungkook since he deleted is Insta…

Seventeen

-…🥹 I’m glad he’s taking time

GOT7

-Jackson or Yugyeom…has to be.

MX

-hmm I feel like this one’s kinda obvious about who it is…baby needs a hug and a therapist.

Treasure

- okay I don’t follow treasure at all and only know like 3 members 2-the ones that ‘left’ but 😬 yiiikesss…that’s a no from me…🚩🚩

Shinee

-bro that could be like all of them…but I’m feeling 2 specifically T and K

RV

- a trip? Ooooo whereeee?? ✈️

- Unless you mean..puff puff pass…kinda trip🥴

BP

-😮 girl…get. on. the.pill! One of my biggest fears omg eww, boys.

-unless it’s a music baby~🤰🏻

StayC

-ooohhh sounds like someone needs to keep their ego in line or get put in line

- also kinda makes me sad cause I really liked their music.

Ive

-I wonder whoooo could thaaat be~ (no hate💕)

Thank you for you’re hard work 🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️

(Emojis incase you don’t want to confirm anything directly ✨✨🤡✈️)

I will post it because I found your comments and theories quite interesting !! thank you so much for sharing !!

[starseungs]

i remind you of seungmin?!?! that's the biggest compliment ever like FR 😭😭😭 but yeah, seungmin likes writing in paragraphs tho especially the ones you read on their albums like thanking the people who helped them?? HSKSKSKSK wait i'm blushing right now. idk how seungmin would respond tho but i'm sure he would appreciate it and would say thank you, and gets shy after and then he would be like he work harder because he would definitely do that! he is really good with words too and smart, so he will accept the love and compliments though sometimes we would deny some facts which is true 😔 but i'm not seungmin so i'm not gonna decide for him 🙇🏻‍♀️ i always thought i resemble han jisung because that's what my friends keep telling me and idk why but seungmin? thank you so much!! i'll cry a river for that compliment 💖

so was i supposed to change my mind after this explanation cause to me this sounds exactly like what you do 😭😭😭 either way i can also get the jisung comparison!! after all no one will be the exact carbon copy of another person (maybe except their skzoo mascots cause why were they literally the same person as their fathers ...)

now that you mention it i wonder who i resemble like to others 🤔 i've heard i act like jisung too but maybe thats just cause he's practically a chameleon atp 🧍‍♀️ maybe a dash of hyune and i'd gladly be hyunsung's love child

[jokerownsmysoul]

I'm so late to this girl, once I'll catch up with all the pieces I've yet to review I hope I won't have to say that again! Istg. 🥹🫶🏻

I enjoyed this piece soo much! 😍 This is one of those stories I've wanted to read for years! 😂😂🙇🏻‍♀️🙈 As you know, Sarah meeting the Joker look ™ has always been a dream of mine. I've always been so curious about how she would react to see Arthur in this new outfit/character (I mean, I had one or two ideas... 👀), and what would be the reason why Arthur chooses to dress up as Joker in their own universe, in a background story written with your own unique pov. We all can write the same thing differently, make it special and unique, and I just really wanted to read this whole concept written by you, with them. When I first read this piece I found brilliant the idea that the reason that pushed Arthur to create this new character somehow came from Sarah, and not him. It was a wonderful change, since every time we read/fantasize about Arthur creating Joker in a better and happier circumstance, the idea comes from him most of the times. Which is something I love terribly, having Arthur getting in touch with his Joker persona the way he would with Carnival in happy times is one of the most beautiful things for me, yet it was very fun and interesting this time to read this concept knowing that somehow the reason on itself started from Sarah's plot and he followed along with his creativity, you know what I mean❣️

ALSO, I LOOOOVED that Sarah Holmes ™ came back! 😂😍💓💓 I could read a whole noir series of Sarah investigating through Gotham avenues. I always love to read about this side of her, I've missed it so much ❣️ and of course, it made me very nostalgic because I couldn't stop thinking about her investigation for the Wayne Case in WWH. To think that to write this request you create this whole rich background of a story tells a lot about the good writer you are. It made me genuinely so happy to see her do that again in this piece, I wouldn't mind getting more Sarah Holmes pieces. 🤭

While reading, I couldn't help but admire her. The passion she holds for her job is evident and clear in this piece, even if we knew that already I couldn't help but admire her again. I love the way she would put herself out there in the name to solve a case and help others, she's so passionate, and she manages to transfer her passion on Arthur too. I don't think it's something anyone would do to put themselves out there and take risks like she does, she does that because just like Arthur she loves her job, and I think that's really beautiful. 🥺💙 As for the hot part there's really nothing to say. Sarah reacted to him the way any of us would. 😂😂😮‍💨😮‍💨 Good for her 💀💀💀 read more as always 💃🏻

With a lot of help from Arthur, she'd softened on Halloween. - after reading WBH this line really hit me, obviously my mind went to those Mabel's pov paragraphs where you described what happened on Halloween. 🥺

He understood the holiday was hard for her, and he'd said he wanted to change that, the way she'd changed so much for him. - 💓💓💓💓

To make the season about them. - which is exactly the best! 🥺 I loved that he didn't focus on the holiday on itself but just the two of them enjoying each other, this is the best way to link better feelings and good memories to something.

It was a gesture so loving, so considerate, it sutured the scrapes of old. - beautiful line 💓

A favorite had ended with caramel sliding off Granny Smith apples, and their pajama bottoms sliding to the floor. - MORE OF THIS PLEASE

displaying the inner pinup she kept for her husband? Not a chance. - 🥰🥰🥰

(Latin would never not be a challenge. Fucking up was easy when half the C's sounded like K's.) - I would help her! 😂🥰

Clad in statement shoulder blazer and high-waisted jeans, her dress was trendier than the usual clientele. She was young, too. The baby fat of her cheeks straddled that awkward duck stage of childhood and senior year. Close cropped hair lent her a severe look her baby blues made hard to believe. -, you always have this ability to describe someone so well that makes the reader want to know everything about them. I found this description so lovely and I did grow curious to know more of her ❣️

And it was plain Miranda had been peppered with this question too often. As enterprising as this young woman seemed, she was still a girl, still finding her way in a world of a million crossroads. - loved this ❣️

"This next question can feel uneasy, but I do have to ask. Has your manager or boss ever asked for any favors that made you uncomfortable?" / "Good. And if he had, that'd be on him, not you." - I really appreciated that Sarah pointed it out! 🥺

He snagged her pen to draw triangular eyes on the squash's orange skin. / When he drove a serrated knife through the top, she held the pumpkin steady with both hands. - all I could thing about were his biceps flexing beneath his shirt. My bad. 😩

A round nose came next, traced around a drinking glass. A classic bucktoothed jack-o-lantern smile. - 🥰🥰🥰 I loved so much reading about Arthur carving pumpkin thank you for including this, it was a brief scene but it melted my heart 😭😭😭😭

"Would you help me with what I'm investigating? I need a man to test something." / His quirked brow asked what on earth she could be investigating. And if he could test it now. - what do you want to test, Arthur? 👀

changed into the forest leggings and oversized sweatshirt she'd stuck in her court bag. - it was so cute to imagine her! 😂

She'd spoken through a clenched smile. "I'll be sure to bake him a cake." - I love her humor. I've missed this sneaky side of her so much, reminded me of those chapters of WWH from her pov especially ❣️

"But what if he recognizes me?"/ Kindness was her usual reaction when he overestimated his own prominence. After all, he was immensely prominent to her. - 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙 I love it so much bruh 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 how could you ever forget him 🥹

"With your ingenuity, you're sure to come up with something. You did invent the best clown in Gotham." - he did 💙

"I think I figured out my new look," Arthur's animated voice called from the living room. Rhythmic footsteps fell across the carpet.

There he stood, lounging on the kitchen doorway by the dining nook, one hand in his pocket, the other braced on the wall. - ❗❗❗❗❗❗❗IT'S HAPPENING❗this description of his new look was perfect I loved it so much 🤩🤩🤩

He'd slicked his chestnut waves into submission - girlll this line is so 😳😳😳

"Hm?" She underlined 19891 and looked up. Her jaw dropped. - 😂😂😂 fair.

This smile extended well past Arthur's dimples to decorate his cheeks - I loved how you described this smile by mentioning his dimples 💓💓💓

Wild and carefree, it'd broken its bars. The perfect analogy to his self-assuredness blossoming over the years. - 🥰🥰🥰🥰

The same trousers he'd worn the night she remembered like yesterday. His beguiling beauty. His hesitant but hungry body pressed into hers in the elevator. The belt loops her greedy fingers hooked through... - 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 LOVED THIS

This clown wasn't as innocent as Carnival. Mischief lurked beneath the surface, a roguish tease. The private side of the man she knew revealed. - 🙇🏻‍♀️🧘🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🧘🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🧘🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🧘🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️

"Accessio." She got the hard C right this time. - this was so cute 🥺🥺🥺

"Or how you've taken my favorite parts of Carnival and combined them with that suit." - THIS IS SO CUTEEEEEEEEEE he really took the best parts! 🥺💙

"Mr. Jingles? Buster?" - I was hoping to see Mr. Jingles mentioned somewhere, I loved that ❣️ too innocent of a name for him, but it was adorable to see it taken in consideration 🥺💙 Buster! Loved this too 🥰

"Heat prickled the nape of her neck. "Arthur Harris." / Though she adored having his name, that he'd chosen her maiden made her feel as treasured as his journal. - I loved that he chose her maiden name of all the possible choices. You made it original and heartfelt and lovely, with a name idea only you could get. That's why I've always wanted to read this concept from you! It was lovely 🥺 Arthur Harris sounds SOOO good! 😭😭😭 It feels like it was made for him 🥺 and it sounds also very hot for the clown it was picked for 😩

"You've worn it four years in a row." / "You've made love to me in it four years in a row." - 😂😂😂 as we say in Italy, never change a winning team. I would use it too if that's what it meant 💀💀💀

Intent on grabbing those belt loops again and laying him - 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 what a lucky woman

His nearness made her senses spin. / Except for common sense. - the way this is worded made me chuckle. I loved it 😂

A deep frown, exasperation even his painted-on smile couldn't conceal. "Pantyhose?" - poor man. No stockings for him this time. 😂

"Don't rip these. They're my last pair." - DID HE RIP THEM BEFORE OR WHAT???? I WOULD LIKE TO SEE IT 🙇🏻‍♀️

His breath shivered against her tender flesh, nose dragging through her downy curls, dark and now peppered with red. Wanton gleam in his stare, he smiled. - this is so hot! Damn 😩😩😩😩😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

Carded through his curls and traced his sideburn. - I want 🙇🏻‍♀️

Liquid heat had streaked makeup from his chin, smudged the margins of his pristine smile, blended ivory and crimson into a pleasing pink. - 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯 HELP THIS IS SO HOT

The generous streaks of white where her inner thighs had met his cheeks. - getting stained patches of make up on your skin will never stop being so hot. For me one of the best things to write when it comes to smuts where he's wearing make up 🙈

Awareness speared her, excitement startled a gasp. He was touching himself. Touching himself while kissing her most intimate secret, where she was wet and desperate. That this would so thoroughly inspire him spurred her on. - 🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨

The chair thudded across the linoleum. Thump. Thump. Thump. - poor neighbors! 😂😂 That was so sensual to picture. 😩👌🏻

his hips locked with hers, their jutting angles softened by polyester. - ❣️❣️❣️❣️

The pull of her tresses shifted to a gentle cradling, a place of safety where she could dissolve. Her body melted into his and her world was filled with him. - loved the feeling of peace and comfort reading this gave me 🥺💙💙💙

The two of them were an absolute mess. - the proof that they just had a very good fuck. 😂 Again, I never get tired of this whole getting-stained-by-his-make up thing. 🙈💓

"I, uh. I think you found your disguise." - 🤭🤭

Giggling, she grasped his tie and pulled him in for a kiss, then pulled him into the apartment and kissed him again. - aaaaahhhhhh *screams* WHAT A MOOD! 😭 I loved this so much, made my tummy flutter 🥺💙

"Busy but nice. The kid I told you about, Charlie, got to go home today." - it made me so happy to read this idk 🥺

He stretched his arms above his head, out to the sides. On a yawn, he turned to the kitchen. "What smells so good?" - ❣️❣️❣️

"Thanks for your assistance, enterprising husband." Y/N hugged him tight about the middle. "You more than earned that cake." - the article was adorable, I found so sweet that Miranda thanked not only her but also Arthur. "enterprising husband" made me dizzy ❣️💓

He plucked a corner from the dessert and plopped it in his mouth. Twisting in her arms, he took her hand, stepped back to study her. He rolled the dark purple mesh of her sleeves between forefinger and thumb. "You know, you're a cute witch. Are you gonna put a spell on me?" - I can't even tell you how dizzy this paragraph made me and how hard I was blushing. I loved this 🙈 it was so cute that Sarah did change her costume after all when he asked. 🥰 Something tells me that even if she did, he's going to make love to her no matter what her costume is. 😂

"Actually, there's a love potion in the dough. Sugar and spice and honey that's nice." She curved towards him, kissed him once more. - 💓💓💓💓💓 this whole scene made my tummy flutter, what a lucky woman 🥺

His hold on her tightened, as though he were reading her mind. Eyelashes lowered, she bit her bottom lip. "Would you put the suit and teal shirt back on? I want to take them off you." - ❗❗❗❗❗❗mood❗❗❗❗❗❗ what 🗣️ a 🗣️ lucky 🗣️ woman 🗣️

This piece was incredible girl, not just the smut itself, the whole investigating plot was so brilliant. It's even more brilliant if you think that you came up with it only to write a smut with Arthur full Joker. Your mind 👑👑👑 I WANT TO DRAW THIS

Heebie Jeebies

Summary: It’s the Halloween season and Y/N’s working against the clock. After she recruits Arthur for help, the new look he creates sends shivers down both their spines.

Words: 4,852

Warnings: Swearing, Smut

A/N: @iartsometimes​ made this request a few months ago. It’s taken all this time to figure out how to get Arthur in that getup without his life falling apart. 😂 Thank you for the challenge! I hope you enjoy this story! Much gratitude to @sweet-nothings04​ for beta-reading, summary assistance, and such helpful feedback! 😃

“Terry, for the last time: I am not wearing a costume to the office.”

“Come on!” Hands behind head, Terry leaned back in his chair and put his heels on his desk. “Kim and I need a Curly.”

“You’re stooge enough for two,” Y/N said. The man might have the ability to cajole her into seasonal fundraising coupon books for his son’s index of little league teams, but he’d never sell her on this.

“You’re gonna be the only stick in the mud. You know that, right?”

She shoved a rubber fingertip on her pointer. “One of us has to meet clients without scaring them off.”

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[psychewritesbs]

Your analysis of Nine and Twelve was great! Thank you so much :) You seemed to really enjoy answering the last question so if I may, can I ask about your thoughts on Lisa? She gets so much hate on the internet that I frankly don’t think she deserves. In my opinion she’s the most tragic character of them all.

Also, do you believe Lisa has an eating disorder? It’s a fan theory that has some traction, the most damning evidence being that she threw her food in the toilet and nearly retched the second her mom texted her asking if her lunch was good.

First, sorry it’s taken this long to publish my response. I started writing this response back when you first asked, and then I did not like what I had written. In situations like that I like to create distance from my work so I stepped away from the draft and only got back to it today.

Second, thank you ♥️🙇🏻‍♀️✨. I did totally enjoy writing my response bahaha. I had wanted to write about Zankyou after I finished re-watching it this last time, but had not gotten around to it yet because I had a million other essays I am either working on or want to write. When your ask came through it was the perfect excuse to nerd out on an anime that I absolutely love.

Just like with your previous question, I had no opinion on the matter. After I went back looking at scenes with Lisa, I have to say that while I can see why she’s disliked, I very much agree with you. Lisa’s character is very nuanced and very quiet, just like she is.

You can expect word vomit in defense of Mishima Lisa under the cut...

In defense of Mishima Lisa

From my perspective, Lisa isn’t a deuteragonist or supporting character, but rather one of the protagonists playing an equally important role as Nine and Twelve. 

In a sense, you could say Zankyou is told from her perspective as the anime ends with her voice, which is an important part of the story and her character arc, narrating how she was affected by her involvement with Nine and Twelve.

An involvement that begins with Lisa declaring with conviction to Nine “shinitakunai!”--I don’t want to die, in the first episode. To which Nine tells her that from the resonance of the sound of her voice he assumes she must be standing in one of the stairways. 

What Nine was referring to in that moment was the terror in Lisa’s voice resonating in the stairway. A terror which, in episode 9, Lisa faces, thus leading to her accepting her own mortality.

Seriously Watanabe. What a fcking genius.

In a nutshell, Lisa is the best of both Nine and Twelve. She is the third element introduced into an otherwise soulless duo.

If Nine is the brain/mind of the operation and Twelve is the body/heart, then, like the other Watanabe heroines in their respective trio, Lisa is the soul.

Watanabe and finding harmony in 3′s

After my last post, I thought it was interesting that Watanabe’s heroines are actually different character tropes. Where all of the males in his stories stick to the same tropes for the most part, he seems to explore different tropes through the females.

Faye Valentine is a ditzy femme fatale.

Fuu is cute, spirited and feisty with zero sex appeal compared to Faye.

And then there’s Lisa...

I have to admit that upon first impression Lisa appears to be a pushover and a very meek person. I am inclined to say this is done on purpose because of the character development she experiences throughout the show. Character development that, as I mentioned earlier, is incredibly nuanced and quiet--so much so that it is easy to miss.

This is what makes Watanabe a genius in my eyes. The way he shows Lisa’s character development is so in character with who she is.

Compared to Watanabe’s other heroines, Lisa is understated, she messes up royally, and is pretty much “useless”. It’s, really, no wonder she’s not popular with the fandom. 

Whether others like her or not is, of course, a matter of personal opinion. Having re-watched her scenes, however, I have to say that, out of the Watanabe heroines I have seen up until now, I personally really like her the most for the same reason Zankyou is my favorite Watanabe anime--to me she’s the most human one.

But before I gush on and on about Lisa, let’s talk about your other question.

Does Lisa have an eating disorder?

Maybe?

You could say it is implied that she has an eating disorder because she threw away her bento. However, I am reluctant to jump on board that train because we only see this happen once. 

For example, Nine is constantly telling Twelve not to get too involved with Lisa--thus implying Nine knows Twelve well enough to have to continuously remind him not to get involved. This is a pattern. Lisa throwing away her food is not a pattern.

I am more inclined to believe that Lisa felt grossed out by the food because her mom was the one who cooked it. The act of throwing the food away was in itself symbolic of Lisa’s desire to create much needed boundaries and reject her mother’s toxic behavior. 

By flushing her food down the toilet, perhaps Lisa felt like she could just flush her mom down the toilet--this behavior of running away from her troubles is consistent with Lisa’s character.

That being said, to me, it also looked like Lisa feeling sick was a visceral reaction as though the food was itself disgusting and not necessarily because she is bulimic. Also, if I remember correctly (and I could be totally wrong), behaviorally, bulimics only barf after having eaten and Lisa did not even touch her food.

All of these thoughts got me wondering about what else Watanabe would be implying through this scene. All I could think of was that perhaps Lisa’s mother uses food to manipulate her or something along those lines. Since Lisa can’t cook to save her life, I wonder whether her mom was trying to keep her dependent on her as much as possible so that Lisa would not abandon her--her mother’s fear of abandonment is another pattern. 

Of course, this is just speculation on my behalf.

But I only thought about this because I thought it was really interesting that the bento box was super cute and beautifully organized. It was like a breath of fresh air in an otherwise depressing bathroom stall. 

For that reason, I can’t say with 100% certainty whether she does or doesn’t have an eating disorder. I’d call it 50/50. 

However, I am personally more inclined to think Watanabe meant to show how toxic the mother/daughter relationship is and how Lisa is trying to separate herself from it.

“Meek means being powerful without taking action”

(Source--I did not actually read the article but felt like the quote is on point with what I want to say about Lisa).

To me, Lisa is someone whose kindness gets confused for weakness. She is quiet, submissive, soft spoken and timid--all characteristics that, at least in the west, are looked down upon. 

Again, compared to the other Watanabe heroines, Lisa appears to be the kind of person who is bullied and does not stand up for herself. Unlike Faye and Fuu, Lisa appears to be a bystander in her own life rather than an active participant.

The first time we see her she is being bullied by her classmates. But far from being someone who does not stand up for herself, I see Lisa as actually trying to have some agency in her dilemma.

For one, I thought it was interesting she was barefoot. Meaning, either the bullies let her take her shoes off, or there was some pre-meditation on her behalf that went into this moment. I am assuming she knew she was outnumbered and would be pushed into the swimming pool, and thus decided to take off her socks and shoes.

Second, when Twelve intervenes, her response is that she was the one who decided to jump into the pool with her clothes on because of the hot weather. To me, the way she voices this shows that she is trying to have some agency over what is happening to her.

Like, “ok these girls are bullying me, but I am choosing to go along with it of my own free will because I am outnumbered.”

The problem with her mentality is that it does not get the bullies off her back. Rather, it keeps her stuck in a vicious, toxic cycle of co-dependence. Just like with her mom.

That is why I see Lisa as someone who just wants to be left alone to live her life in peace. It is other people’s agency that get in the way of her desire. Whether she is getting bullied at school, or whether her mom is trying to control her, someone is always infringing upon her boundaries and she does not quite know  how to enforce them other than by running away. 

Running away and locking herself up, as we see happen multiple times throughout the series, is the little bit of reprieve she gets from the problems in her life.

Funny enough, just as she is wishing for everyone to disappear while hiding in the bathroom, the lights turn off in the government building. 

Because of this, I can see how she saw this as a sign that Nine and Twelve could save her from her life. Ironically, as we all know, she basically gets dragged into their conflict and nearly dies because of it.

This girl just can’t seem to catch a break. 

When Nine gives her the choice to join them, he tells her “you can’t go back” (modorenai). These words scare her because she intuitively knows them to be true--she will no longer be able to go back to who she used to be.

I think that Lisa choosing to run away from home marks the beginning of this change in her. 

Running away from home was another attempt to assert some sort of agency over her life. Ironically, as was to be expected, she came to realize just how helpless she truly is as she aimlessly wanders the streets of Tokyo before Twelve, who has been stalking her, finds her.

In her helplessness she fantasizes about someone coming to save her from her life and her decisions. This is totally the worst thing she could want for because it means she has actually regressed and is still stuck in co-dependent dynamics.

That co-dependent dynamic is now with Twelve. 

Enter the glorious motorcycle scene.

I just love this scene so much because both Twelve and Lisa are caught up in this gorgeous fantasy in which Twelve gets to be both a normal teenager with a crush and a Knight in Shining Armor, while Lisa gets to be his fair lady. 

Together, they share a moment of freedom from the matters that weigh them down in their lives.

Unfortunately for them, the reality of the matter is that Twelve is keenly aware of his mortality and Lisa is getting dragged along into a situation beyond her very human aspirations.

Lisa, the best of Nine and Twelve

I can’t say with 100% certainty what Watanabe’s intentions were, but I have to wonder whether we are meant to like Lisa at the beginning.

Like... to be disliked (at least initially) could be the point of her character. 

Why do I think that? 

I am not sure whether you read the Jujutsu Kaisen manga, but there are a couple of characters the fandom loves to hate while missing the point that we are meant to dislike them by design. 

One of these characters is a girl who is rather weak-minded. The fandom hates her actions because, to be fair, they are quite despicable when you have no context or don’t understand the nuance of her character. Nuance which Gege Akutami, the mangaka, feeds you in small increments as the story progresses.

I feel like this method of writing characters is very Watanabe-like. 

Seeing as, again, Lisa is very likely meant to bring harmony to Nine and Twelve’s dynamic as a third character, to me, in addition to bringing out the best in them, she also represents the best of both Nine and Twelve. 

However, we can only appreciate this nuance as the story progresses and she interacts with them.

Twelve sees Lisa’s hope

When it comes to Twelve, he is attracted to her for two reasons: Her eyes remind him of the eyes of the kids at the institution, and her voice’s color is a pale yellow.

If you noticed, compared to Nine, Twelve wears a lot of yellow, which is very fitting with his character being cheerful. So I thought it was interesting that a character like Lisa who had been depicted as meek from the start, would have a voice that is pale yellow as Twelve says she does.

Yellow is typically associated with hope (von)/optimism, brightness, warmth, and happiness (just to name some of the color’s positive traits). Traits I don’t think many of us would associate with Lisa’s personality. But that’s only because Twelve can see something in her voice that we can’t--her emotional self. 

When you look at Lisa through the lens of the color yellow, even if it’s a pale yellow, you start to see Lisa as someone whose actions are driven by hope and optimism.

Everything from being willing to jump into the pool with her clothes on, to running away from her home, to volunteering to help Nine and Twelve, is fueled by Lisa’s hope and optimism.

The fact that her voice is pale yellow might symbolize that she struggles to remain hopeful in the face of what she experiences in her daily life both at school and home. Her hope might wane, but she remains hopeful non the less.

I don’t think it’s a coincidence that in the Ferris wheel scene, Von is playing in the background. In fact, the Ferris wheel scene is a stark contrast from the fantasy that Twelve and Lisa were living just a few episodes prior.

The Ferris wheel scene is the culmination of the consequences that Twelve and Lisa have to pay for their actions in the real world. Lisa has to pay for her clumsiness, while Twelve has to pay for getting Lisa involved.

To me, the Ferris wheel itself represents the merry go round of life. Twelve and Lisa happen to find themselves climbing near the highest point of the Ferris wheel as the situation reaches its climax.

The situation is dire. We know from the dialogue that, unlike in the motorcycle scene, there is no way that Twelve can save Lisa with the time remaining. Twelve does not get to be a Knight, and Lisa is no fair lady.

And yet Von is playing in the background underscoring how even in the darkest of winter nights, as Von’s lyrics say:

Where something grows there is hope. All that heals hold hope. From shackles of ice she emerges. From a cold sky she crawls.

I did not finish looking into it in depth, but I thought it was interesting that Twelve’s fake name, Hisami Touji, has the kanji for “winter” in it. Seeing as the Japanese give meaning to their names with kanji symbols, I have to wonder what Twelve was trying to communicate when he chose that specific kanji that represents winter (冬) to depict the specific phonetic sound in the syllable “tou” for “Toji”. 

In other words, Twelve could have used other kanji with the phonetic sound for “tou” like the kanji for tower (塔) or sugar (糖) just to name a few.

I think this speaks to this whole idea behind Von being about hope breaking through in bleak situations, and fits rather well with Twelve’s character. We think of Twelve as a happy-go-lucky kid, but as I wrote in my last analysis of the character, he is quite vicious too. 

To me, his fake name having the kanji for winter adds a new dimension to Twelve’s character. He’s not the happy kid he pretends to be, He is a human who struggles to find hope and meaning and acts cheerful and remains hopeful in spite of his existential angst.

And perhaps that is why he wants to connect with Lisa so badly. Twelve has found in Lisa a kindred spirit. Someone who, in spite of her circumstances, continues to hope. 

Honestly, in retrospect, I feel like I am only scratching the surface of the symbolism of Twelve’s character, Lisa’s character, Von, how Von brought them together, and the growth they both experience as a result.

But, to quote this one Twitter user who so eloquently said...

“Terror in Resonance. Von. Ferris wheel. God tier moment.”

It is in episode 9, as I mentioned earlier, that Lisa shows us how much she’s grown. She owned up to her mistakes, acknowledged that Nine and Twelve have an important mission that she had no business getting involved in, and accepted her mortality. 

After all she has gone through, this is her bravest moment yet.

This is a Lisa that is taking agency over her life and destiny instead of getting dragged around by other’s agendas. Just like in the pool scene, she is asserting her agency over the situation but on a whole new level.

And just like Twelve was inspired by her response when he first met her, Twelve is inspired again by her resolution. 

If you watch the scene again (because why wouldn’t you want to watch it again?), when Lisa tells Twelve to leave her behind, Twelve starts moving faster and more desperately as though her words, her hope in this hopeless situation makes it all the more important that he save her.

All is silent, hope ignites.

But I like to think that having heard Twelve’s confession “ore wa...”, Lisa found the acceptance and connection she did not know she had been longing for.

This, in turn, gave her the inner-peace and inner-strength to save herself for once. Twelve might be the one who gets her out of the situation, but even with a bomb tied to her chest, Lisa is finally free.

Nine sees Lisa’s hope too

So I wrote my notes for this answer a few weeks ago and can’t quite put into words this dynamic right now. 

Heck... even reading my chicken scratch wasn’t easy 😂😂.

I would have to go re-watch their interactions and I am kind of short of time and really want to publish this essay. So I am going to do my best here...

Read all that to mean: I did not pay as much attention to Nine and Lisa’s dynamic because I shamelessly love Twelve and Lisa’s dynamic. Watanabe has a tendency to create romantic tension between two of the characters in the trio and my favorite Watanabe pairing is Twelve and Lisa. 

In fact, I have to wonder whether I ended up writing about the Twelve + Lisa dynamic more than about Lisa but... honestly, I am not sure I could write about Lisa without writing about how Twelve (or Nine for that matter) changed her.

In the words of my mentor, Carl G. Jung:

“The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed” - Carl Jung, Modern Man in Search of Soul.

BUT, if I remember correctly, Twelve was very much interested in using Lisa to help Nine process some of his trauma around having abandoned Five.

While Nine was initially reluctant to accept Lisa, always reasoning that nothing good can come for anyone who gets involved with them, he eventually opens up to her.

I am not sure that Nine also saw Lisa’s hope in the same way that Twelve saw it, but I like to think he was impressed by her determination to not back down even in the face of danger.

If you recall, Twelve tells Lisa that Nine is a sadist. I am generalizing here but sadistic characters typically have an incredibly vulnerable side to them. Their sadism is thus a defense mechanism to protect that vulnerability from getting hurt.

“If I hurt you first, you can’t hurt me”.

In a sense you could say Lisa softens Nine. 

Above all, I have to say that I believe that Twelve walking away from the operation to knowingly walk into a trap to save Lisa was a chess move that Nine had not predicted. This in turn must have shocked him to the core and helped him to re-think the situation.

Nine, Twelve and Lisa in a nutshell

Despite saying she wants for everyone to disappear, what Lisa truly wants is to be accepted and to belong. Like Nine and Twelve, she is experiencing the poignant and very human desire to belong and be remembered/cherished for the mere fact of existing--something she does not have at either school or home but found with Twelve and Nine.

That is why I see Zankyou no Terror as a story about human connection first, and second as a story about two teenage boys blowing sh1t up.

In the end, Lisa is a very human character interacting with two practically superhuman teenage boys. As such, I dare say she makes them both more human. Twelve gets to have a normal teenage boy experience with her, while Nine gets to face his inner demons and open up.

They all grow each other in one way or another.

But more importantly, as someone who is always thinking through a Depth Psychology lens, I personally think that not liking Lisa is also a rejection of our own inadequacies.

Why? Because to me, liking Lisa as a character means accepting yourself as a flawed human. As I mentioned before, she is one hell of a flawed human and I have to admit that as such she balances Twelve and Nine rather well.

How different would Zankyou be if she was a badass like Faye or spunky like Fuu? 

One last random treat

So with all of the controversy surrounding the Cowboy Bebop live action I started consuming Cowboy Bebop content on Youtube. 

Lo and behold the following scene from Faye’s past...

I can’t say Faye Valentine attended the same high school as Lisa with 100% certainty, but their uniforms sure look similar. 

I don’t think this symbolizes anything important in particular. 

I am just sharing this because I love it when authors drop little Easter eggs like this with characters from one series making a cameo in another. In this case, the school uniforms are very similar.

Anyways! Thank you for reading and I would love to hear your thoughts too!!

p.s. I have to say I loved writing this one even more than Nine and Twelve’s analysis. 

[seokmins]

Surprise, it's me! The healing you've sent my way did its job, I think. Was suddenly in the mood to do things, go out, get shitfaced with friends (doing a GoSe drinking game, of all things). All thanks to your magical powers! 🥳 How are you, though?

I just noticed that your username underwent a change after all! 😁 It's the holiday spirit, it gets the best of us 😘

I am like "miss you" every time I hear Baekhyun's voice in any track, solo, EXO oder SuperM, so I absolutely get it! And Taemin also needs to come back asap, that precious human being. I mean SHINee overall is doing fine in his absence, as expected, because they are SHINee, duh, but there is still something missing. I want them all free and together again.

Who my other two ults are, you ask? Firstly there is Jay B from GOT7 and secondly -- and that might thrill you (or not, idk) -- it's DK. It's a longer story how he got in there, but idk if you are interested. But yeah, it's those three and I think I've chosen wisely (unless Baekhyun or Seokmin give me secondhand embarrassment, but I will suffer through that with fondness). Who are your ults?

I've heard that there is new stuff in the works for KARD. They just did a tour, I think, and they've got a new management/CEO, so it's understandable that they haven't had a cb yet. They probably had to settle in first.

Ooof, that list of songs you sent. All those songs really float my boat. So I guess you are more into the uptempo stuff than the quieter, ballad-sy songs?

Surprise!!

So good to hear you're doing well <3 that sounds like a lot of fun and I'm super glad hehe! I'm doing okay ~ hanging in there 💪🏻

yes!! i decided to be a bit festive for the holidays haha but I'll go back to normal afterwards <3

Omg yes, i saw smth on spotify about baekyun so that's super exciting, when i have more time I'll have to look into it 👁️ and omg ik it's been ages since we had taemin back let alone shinee altogether freed ahah, like you said they can sincerely hold their own but we need them together to be complete!!

mr jay b is such good taste 🫦 i think his vocal color is just so distinct and lovely to listen to and I've loved a lot of his solo releases!! also omg seokmin hehe i love that and ofc if you want to share i'd be interested in listening <3 ajskdjf yes we must all suffer from secondhand embarrassment unfortunately 😭 which is okay as long as they are not getting into any terrible scandals or doing horrific things on the side 🙇🏻‍♀️

as for my ults ajksdjf i'm terrible i usually go for vocal and/or subunits but like at this point I've lost track of mostly everyone 😭 which i feel bad for but it's so hard for me to stay updated on everyone esp w/ how much content svt gives us but i'd say like booseoksoon, 3racha, and a few from ateez/nct/monsta x are in there too </3

i'm glad to hear that about kard! I wish them nothing but success and good luck, i know they are pretty generally loved outside of south Korea so i hope to see them tour more places near me, that would be nice! but i hope the transition isn't too rough.

ooh i'm glad!! technically yeah, if i'm actively listening to music i prefer upbeat things esp cuz i usually am doing a lot of active work around the house or outside. but i do love ballads i just don't listen to them as often 😭 more so if I'm like driving somewhere long or just chilling haha.

[134340am]

AMSDSANKJNFEN BYE. Im changing my url to tsunami now ✋ im actually crying bc of laughter this made my day TT it is a mix between nanami + tina! He got me into jjk :,) with the cd audio drama thingy hahaha im gonna sob

Your blog is very nice and comforting!! i really like the meet the team section! it is very cute 🥹 I do the same with my wallet and recipes and it is a mess lmfao

His hair looks so silky omg and his hands LOOK SO DAINTY 😮‍💨 he is dwarfed by that shirt and he looks so cute :( is it only me or does he give short person energy?? 😭 I'm saving that pic of gojo for inspo </3 hope you're having a good day/night!!

AHHHHH NOT TSUNAMI SHWNDBJWSJ tinami is way nicer imo 😤 ignore my silly little tsunami suggestion

oooo what’s the cd audio drama thing? i only watched jjk this year (+ i’m not a manga reader 🙈) so i’m a lil behind!

THANK U BUBS i love the meet the team page too it’s my favourite (and also the max limit of my creativity lol nothing’s gonna top this ever again) 🥺 was thinking if i should put yuuta there too but i couldn’t think of a role to give him!!! maybe… just an anxious sleep deprived regular? LOL or pastry sampler 🙇🏻‍♀️

(this reminds me i need to clear out my wallet too… i’ll do it later and report back to u to keep myself accountable)

😤😤😤 he looks……. a little cute. just a little. wittle bit. short person vibes — not really, at least not for me, since i discovered this picture:

OK I KNOW IT SOUNDS LIKE I SAVE PHOTOS OF HIM RELIGIOUSLY BUT I PROMISE I DON’T i only have two pics of gojo in my phone and this is the second n final one 😠 so don’t u dare think otherwise

love u tho thank u for sending in an ask to chat w me <3

[byeol-ssi]

hello hello byeolie!! (i hope its okay i call you that!!) sorry for my late reply, i was catching up on homework this whole weekend!! but in general, my day went pretty good! i hung out with friends, played genshin, and then did homework! i have spring break coming up so im trying to get things done so i can just slack off during my break 🤣 but how have you been lately?

BUT YESS ME TOOO i have so much on my list because of tiktok its so bad 😭😭 especially when it includes the villainess or reincarnation tropes like TTT theyre basically asking me to read it at that point 😩 im excited for u to read insos law (no rush or pressure ofc!!) and that series got me into manhwa so i always have a soft spot for it hehe. for ibthr, literally same??? I FEEL LIKE I NEED TISSUES AS WELL BECAUSE EVERY TIME I SEE SPOILERS, ITS ALWAYS HIM SHIRTLESS LIKE ?!?!?! put ur shirt back on pls even tho im simping, its bad for my heart 😭

AND THATS OKAY!! yess we can learn together!! im slowly trying to figure it out 🤣 but my friend said not to worry about artifacts until im ar 45, since i wouldnt get good artifacts until then (if that makes sense), but i lowkey cant wait because my characters are somewhat weak because of the damage 😭 also since i reached inazuma, THE MOBS ARE SO HARD LIKE TTTTTT I GET THE BIGGEST HEADACHE FROM TRYING TO EXPLORE INAZUMA I SWEAR

raiden is coming soon, so im excited!! im not sure if i will get her without spending money LMAOO only because i always reach hard pity when im wishing, so we will see 😭 but for the quest, hmmm — i think i really like the liyue arch !! that was enjoyable (because childe showed up 😩) and i had fun fighting osial and stuff. for the character hangouts (as bad as it sounds, i hate doing them lolol) i liked venti’s the most! i thought it was pretty bittersweet and i also liked playing venti in the trial for the domain!! i hated zhongli’s tho because i did not like fighting azhdaha 💀 it took me a full 10 minutes just to fight him and i had the biggest headache after LOLOL. but for the zhongli question, i actually really like playing him!! his shield is very very helpful and i don’t have to dodge when playing 💀 i just full on tank everything since his shield really good! like when fighting azhdaha and stuff, the only reason i didnt die was because of zhongli’s shield 😩 i love his burst too because its just a random meatball flying out of no where 💀💀 although, i dont really enjoy playing polearms (because i have bad weapons and never pull any LMAOO) so i mainly use zhongli as a shield and burst support!

FOR SCARAMOUCHE NO ME TOO!!! HE IS COMING HOME TO ME (if he becomes playable) NO QUESTIONS ASKED!!! im crossing my fingers with you and hope he does 😭😭 as for the team comp, honestly as long as it works, i would be happy!! and you have diluc and venti, youre so lucky!! i love those two so much 😭😭 i really want venti, he looks so much fun to play!

for me, i run keqing, zhongli, and bennett! for the fourth person, im still testing out different characters and usually it changes depending on what enemies i face!! i switch between jean and kaeya a lot tho!! or sometimes i’ll run a xiao, jean, xiangling, and bennett when i feel like switching it up! 🤣 but ahhh i really want fischl since she helps a lot but i havent been able to pull her 😭 ive only been pulling thoma and as much as i love him, i want fischl 😭😭

SORRY I KEEP BABBLING BUT IM DONE I SWEAR 😭😭😭 anyways, have a good day/night(?) and i will talk to next time!! (also i never realized how long my messages are so to anyone scrolling thru, im so sorry 🙇🏻‍♀️)

— 💭 anonnie.

hello, hello, and yes, of course!! <33 no worries, and i'm glad to hear that you've been doing well! i've been doing okay, also trying to finish some work so i can squeeze in some writing and reading!

the titles are certainly getting longer with every newly released manhwa, it's getting harder and harder to write it down on my TBR 🤣 and that sounds so sweet, i'm looking forward to reading it sm! i can't really recall which my first manhwa was, but i think it was either doctor elise or raelina?

AND YES, THE AUTHOR OF IBTHR DEFINITELY WANTS US TO HEAD FOR THE HOSPITAL 🤧 i haven't caught up yet, but i did see a picture of him in tiktok with his buttons hanging on for dear life 🧎‍♀️

i was given the same advice! i just haven't found the time yet to fully commit to farming artifacts, and focused on doing quests until my levels went up 💀 and now i also have a little trouble finishing mobs and bosses.

RAIDEN'S BANNER IS AVAILABLE NOW, SO I'M CROSSING MY FINGERS THAT SHE COMES HOME FOR YOU!! hopefully at early pity, but nevertheless, tell me how your pulls go! hoping that fischl also tags along and comes home even without the up bonus!

i also enjoyed the liyue archon quest the most! and yes, i dislike fighting azdhaha too but i needed to farm him multiple times for my xiao 🥲 i always find myself hovering over the pull button on zhongli's banner during it's last day, but decide against it in the end just because i fear scaramouche will be announced.

SPEAKING OF SCARAAA 😭 i've been wanting crumbs so much, and i hope mihoyo ultimately chooses to make him playable! I'M READY TO OFFER THEM MY MONEY HSKASJA

venti was my first ever 5 star!! sobs, i got him waaay back when the game was first released, so he's always had a special place in my heart. AAA, YOU HAVE JEAN? none of my friends nor i have her, and i've always found her to be so pretty and she seems fun to play with, especially her em skill!! again, i'm hoping raiden comes home!!

I DON'T MIND AT ALL, i could chat with you forever!! thank you so much for this, and i can't wait to hear your news and talk to you again!! wishing you luck, love! <33

[curekibouka]

I’m sorry I’m only reading this now 🙇🏻‍♀️

Waaaaaaaaaaah who else is on the verge of crying throughout this whole chapter?! The number of times you try to emphasise that Varian is a poor little boy who lost everything did strike me as a little redundant but it’s effective enough in prying open that door and making all my emotions flow out T^T

Parts I like:

- the part Arianna wonders if Varian spent his birthday in the cell was the first part that caused me to make an awkward whimpering sound at 1am. Followed by many.

- Arianna wanting to be motherly. Especially when Varian doesn’t have a mother. Like. I want this to canonically happen now.

- When you said Varian’s hand often slip, shattering glass and trust. I read that sentence again and clutched my heart because it hurts, and it’s kinda relatable too. Maybe not being good at handling objects carefully and not being good at handling relationships carefully in real life are really similar but really different too.

- “I’ll make them hear me!”

Me: Yea... we hear you T^T

- The paragraph about how the toughest villains are the ones we can see ourselves in and any sentences following the same concept. It’s a concept that I really like, and you lead up to it really smoothly too. When I put these kind of deep messages in my fics, they often feel out of place so I’m totally jotting down notes from this XD

- Again, something that is relatable in real life. Blaming someone else because you’ve already gone far beyond what a simple “I’m sorry” can fix. I... 😭😭😭

- “they’re what slip”

- Friggin hell the comparison between Frederic and Varian. Aaaaa someone should’ve done this earlier, seriously! It’s so accurate! And it’s also so unfair, why did Varian have to suffer through all this when Frederic so easily got the problem solved. Because he’s wiser? Older? Has more power? It. Like. Just. Seriously hurts.

- The last sentence. It’s deep and painfully true. And if it’s tying into the next chapter then I’m probably gonna cry even more next time. Thus this is added to my followed stories on ff.net 😉

Stolen Sunlight (Ch3)

Fandom: Tangled | Tangled the Series | Rapunzel’s Tangled Adventure

Fic Summary: Arianna never thought she’d find herself afraid of a fourteen-year-old boy, but the events of Secret of the Sundrop won’t seem to leave her.

She needs to talk to Varian in prison. Not for his sake…but for her own.

Character focus: Arianna

Notes: 

Aaand here comes another internal monologue-heavy chapter XD

This was probably the chapter that gave me the most trouble when attempting to edit over the years, so this feels really good to finish! (At least a version of it, I may edit it more as time goes on XD). I would have liked to cut down the internal monologue, but I decided to just keep it in for now. I also kind of wanted to split this chapter into more than one to make it more palatable, but the ideas tie into each other so much I felt like I couldn’t really do that? By the time the next chapter came out, the connections between ideas would be lost? I don’t know…

The next chapter should have more dialogue XD But be warned it may take longer, as now we’re getting to the part I haven’t really written. 

All your support for this fic has been such a HUGE help in giving me motivation to continue!! I definitely wouldn’t have posted the next chapters so fast without all your support!! So thank you all so so SO much!!!! 

Also! I forgot to mention the songs I like for this story! I’ve been writing this for so many years I have a list of songs for this fic XD but the two songs I thing fit most for this fic (especially the themes in this chapter) are “Towards the Sun” by Rihanna and “The Sun is Rising” by Britt Nicole.

P.S. I’m thinking of creating a Tangled-specific side blog (mostly as a Tangled-only writing blog, but I’ll likely reblog other Tangled related things there too), do you guys have any ideas for urls? The one I like the most right now is “two-words-where-one-will-do” XD

Chapter 3: Burglarize, Criticize, Sympathize

When she arrives at the dungeon’s door, carrying notebook between her hands, it is almost nightfall. The last of the day is at her back, urging her onwards. Her shoes tick against the tiles as she ventures down the hall.

Everything looks different during the day. At night the navy air was a haze, clouding her thoughts, magnifying all the negative feelings within her. Now her head is clear, and the waning blue day urges her onward, fueling all the positivity and determination in her.

“Your majesty,” the guards hold their halberds higher, puffing out their chests, as if to show they’re strong for this kingdom, “Is there something we do for you this evening?”

“Thank you, Stan, Pete.” She folds her hands and inclines her head in a sort of bow to each of them. “There is, in fact.”

They stand expectantly for her request.

“You can let me into the dungeon.”

They glance at each other.

“Of course, your majesty,” Stan bows, reaching for the door.

“Um…May we ask what this is about?” Pete steps forward, more hesitant.

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