#Again I'm terribly sorry that I haven't been answering I've been procrastinating this for so long

[teal-skull]

"spotify wrapped is HERE! send me a number 1-100 and I’ll tell you the song it corresponds with on my top 100 playlist"

Number 1, 4 and 6 🥺

I'm so deeply sorry that it took this long to answer!

No. 1: Ghost divison - Sabaton No. 4: Master of Illusion - Battle beast

No. 6. Attero Dominatus - Sabaton

A huge thank you for the ask! <3

[thenamesmobu]

ARRIIIIIGHTTTTT Sorry for the bit of wait there BDJSHDJS procrastinated a bit there in the morning, but here we are back again with the first part. If you don't know what I'm talking abt here, this morning (in my timezone) someone asked how Devin just suddenly retired like that. I haven't really been spilling lore about my Narrator, so I'm taking the chance to explain it now. The prologue to the lore is right

over here which I highly suggest on reading first before this because I've just introduced my tsp oc that I hadn't reveal in my Tumblr up untill this point. Now after all the wait, enjoy

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Part 1: Mentor and Apprentice

A long time had passed and Agus had come to slowly accept his new place of home. He came to accept the Parable, he came to accept William, Devin, including Ellios and Nara who are Devin's siblings ( @callixspod and @tsuru-yasunaga 's Narrators (sorry for the tag you guys)). He wasn't as spunky and rude as he was before, though he is much more calmer now, he still gets into arguments with Devin that had may or may not changed into simple bickerings.

Agus would never admit this out loud, but he began to see Devin as a father figure and Devin (unknowingly) treats him like his son, albeit like a son who's going through a terrible rebellious phase. Agus' relationship with Devin and William would grow for the better overtime and he began to let himself be happy after a long time. He still acts very cocky however, never admitting how he looks up to Devin and would always bad mouth him whenever a question was asked on what he thought of him. William helped him dramatically on calming his emotions and he would often go to him after arguments he had with Devin.

Agus suddenly visited his office while Dev was in the middle of writing a story. When asked what was up, the answer caught Devin off guard for a moment. Agus asked him to learn how to code under the guidance of him.

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AAAAND THERE YA HAVE IT, FOLKS. PART 1 IS COMPLETE. I'll be doing the second one the next day, along with posting the new Narrator's design. I assume you guys already know who the new Narrator is by now, and I can't wait to show you guys his design. I'll be seeing you all on the next post, stay tuned✌️

[thequirkychameleon]

31/08/22 - The Blip

It's almost reaching the end of the first month since year 4 of medical school started and almost 2 weeks of placements have passed. It has gone by so quick but all my days feel like they speed past like this. Sorry, I'm trying to think of what to say cos i've been wanting to post in like forever and now that I'm doing this my INFJ brain is thinking of all the different things i wanna write faster than i actually can write or articulate.

Anyways, placements are going alright. It was long anticipated since this moment finally feels like i am studying to become a doctor, although 'overwhelming' is a complete understatement and the feelings of imposter syndrome appear in waves. It's hard to take initiative on placement to do things as many things involve supervision or teaching and I just feel bad pestering the busy doctors/nurse/staff who are there to look after patients. I was very happy last week as everything was new and I learned to do new skills such as venipuncture and ECGs, however this week I haven't really pushed myself and feel more like an idiot wallflower who can't answer any bloody question that the consultant asks in a ward round that they now don't even acknowledge my existence. Gosh I'm so dramatic I'm cringingggg.

I am currently drowning in procrastination when i probably should be going through the billion online content or contributing to extracurricular commitments or engaging in social activity hence I decided to post, but honestly it's really hard to think of things to say when I'm feeling like a zombie - burnt out ALREADY. i've been wanting to write in my diary for months or do something creative but just haven't due to this burnout, which is usually due to my studies or giving time to others rather than myself which i cant help. It's not usual of me to feel this pessimistic because i do consider myself an optimistic individual generally. I would love to be able to have the time to do my home workouts, stretches, read a book (can't remember the last time I finished a book i know terrible) or even eat healthily again - time is truly of the essence. if time allowed it or there was no such concept I would LOVE to just escape my room and ponder into the outdoors alone with my earphones and smell freedom without worrying about tomorrow. It's honestly the little things in life that lifts you.

I am literally so motivated to learn more in terms of googling what i don't know while on placement and i make a list, but after a whole day on placement who has energy to do work when they come back?? And let's not even talk about my sleep pattern... thank god we have to wear face-masks on placements cos the amount of times I yawned while seeing patients on a ward round. Why do they offer mental wellbeing support at the uni when your timetable doesn't even allow you time to even seek it or process how you're feeling?While a lot of my medical knowledge is coming back to me that i had forgotten due to a year of intercalation, I realise the more you know, the more you don't know and the past 3 years of uni life feels like an actual blip. Hopefully the next time I post it would be a positive one.

Take care of yourselves :)

On a positive note, I'm looking forward to travel back to my OG flat (currently living in hospital accommodation in a different town) this weekend and meet my friends - i need some healthy interaction! As a side note, I would love some online like-minded friends on here and feel free to send any questions!! 

'Cause I'm in a field of dandelions, wishin' on every one that you'd be mine'