#About the fanfic... i was hoping to get it done today butttt i had no motivation.... but i did start on it.

[nighkinty]

Boredom got to me...

Art block has been killing me lately omfg

Anyways uh I drew Nightmare using lasso fill tool. It turned out better than I thought it would.

I love the lasso tool sm ISTFG it's amazing.

Nightmare belongs to @/Jokublog

YO @/Jokublog CAN I LEGALLY ADOPT YOUR AU :D (IM JOKING... I'm too obsessed with Dreamtale...)

[hongism]

F, N, & X for fanfic asks?? p.s. ily 💕

F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

hhhhhh i suck at dialogue buTTTT i think i have two that i really like:

from aphelion (unreleased)

“It would never work.”

“I know. I’m not asking it to.”

“We just aren’t compatible. Too different in some regards, too similar in most. You know, personality types and star signs and all that bullshit.”

“Oh, so you believe in compatibility tests now, Min Yoongi?”

“I never said—”

“Just the fact that you said we aren’t compatible tells me that you have checked.”

Silence.

“Tell me one thing, please, Yoongi-ssi?”

“I told you to drop the honorific.”

“Does that mean you wanted it to work out?”

“What?”

“By taking the tests and checking compatibility. You wouldn’t have checked unless you wanted a certain answer.”

“I was just curious.” Too late for him to deny the fact at this point.

“But what made you curious?”

Yoongi presses his lips together, the question catching him off guard.

“Hoseok would be a good match. Namjoon too.”

“Yoongi.”

“Or Jungkook.” Had to slip it in there.

“Yoongi.”

“You did.”

“Pardon?”

from finding beauty:

“If I knew that, do you think they would still be here? Taehyung, Jimin, Seokjin, Yoongi, Hoseok, Y/N. Would any of them be here if I knew that? And what of the others? Don’t they deserve that release too? The people who deserve that release most? We’re all reaching for it, trying to connect who we are and who we want to be, stretching to reach this ideal version of ourselves that only we know. Perhaps connecting those dots and looking up to see the constellation of your life is the answer to your question. It’s far easier said than done though, and I have my own thoughts about it, but obviously they haven’t done me any good in all my time here.”

“What are they?” Jungkook inquires, head falling to the side as he asks the question.

“If I can’t love the reflection in the mirror or feel as though my body is a home and not a cage, accept my mind as an ally and not an enemy, then I don’t deserve to leave. I need to love myself for who I am today, who I was yesterday, and who I hope to become in the future. Those versions of myself create the constellation of my life. I need to accept that. We all have to. The ugly bits, the parts we want to hide from reality, things we don’t want anyone to know about — if we bare it all, what’s left? What weapons do the minds that are not our own have? If they can’t use anything against us anymore, then won’t we win?”

N: Is there a fic you wish someone else would write (or finish) for you?

is all of them an option jk jk jk i love writing all my fics and all the ideas, ther’s just a lot of times where i wish that the ideas and words came to me easier i’m looking at you not your typical flower shop story pls

X: A character you enjoy making suffer.

whew there’s honestly quite a few, and some y’all don’t even know about sooooo OOF it’ll be a list basically of the best babes who get to Suffer™ (someone suffers in every fic i write and i have zero shame about it)

jungkook in finding beauty

taehyung in not your typical flower shop story

jimin in aphelion (in the parts that haven’t seen the light of day and idek if they ever will tbh)

yeosang in colours of love heh

wooyoung in my space pirates au (that still doesn’t have a title r i p)

reader in my bodyguard samurai seonghwa idea that is mega suffering rn just as much as seonghwa and the reader finna be in the fic

[myheartdesires-fanfics-blog]

Punishment  Steve Rogers x Reader

Warnings: cussing, mocking (is that even a warning??), fluff (again, is that even a warning??), crying, sadness

Characters: Steve Rogers, Tony Stark, Clint Barton, Reader (I think that's it)

Summary: Steve has been treating (Y/n) differently than the rest of the team, which ends up with (Y/n) finding out why exactly that is.

A/N: So this is kinda terrible butttt I'm trying my best! Also this is kinda cheesy, like majority of my fanfics are tbh. Anyways, I am sorry about the spelling/grammar errors that I am sure are in here.

“I thought you were supposed to be good at this (y/n)?”

 “I thought you were supposed to train me, not kill me.”

You and Steve together had been training ever since your last mission two weeks ago. Before then, you trained by yourself, but you make one tiny mistake and your leader thinks you aren’t capable of training on your own. What you did wasn’t even that bad, well maybe it was, but still you didn’t think that hand-to-hand combat with Captain America was a just punishment. It wasn’t your fault that the guard you were fighting got the upper hand and escaped..then blew up the facility the whole team was in. Everyone got out with no fatalities, but since the information the team needed blew up along with the rest of the building, Cap was not very pleased with you. Your punishment, training with Steve until he thinks that you are ready to train by yourself again.

You were currently laying on your back on the mat with Steve hovering in front of you. He offered you his hand, you took it, groaning as you stood. You started to walk to the bench, but Steve stopped you as soon as you turned around.

 “Where are you going?” he asked sternly.

 “There’s this thing called water, and people drink it when they are thirsty and working out.” you retorted, not even turning around to face him.

 “You didn’t ask if you could take a break.”

 “So now I need your permission to drink water? What’s next, are you going to start chaperoning me when I go to the bathroom?” You rolled your eyes, snatched your arm from his grip, and walked to the bench. You sat down and started to drink from your water bottle.

 “Are we done for today?” you asked once you downed all of your water.

“No, we still have 30 more minutes.” he replied, standing in front of you with his arms crossed, a frown forming on his stern face.

You stood up and walked to the mat.

You couldn’t wait for this punishment to be over. You hated training with other people. They were too distracting. You needed solitude to train or else you would be off your game.

 You got into a fighting stance, your right leg in front of you, and your left leg behind you. You put your fists up, and waited for Steve to take his stance. Without warning, Steve kicked your chest, sending you flying onto the mat. When he started to come towards you, you kicked his chest in return, but only sent him back an inch or two. You quickly got up and swung your right fist at his face, hitting him directly in the jaw. He was so in shock by your sudden strength, that he didn’t have time to fight back. You used this to your advantage. You spun around and kicked him in the stomach sending him flying onto the mat.

 “Oh would you look at that, it’s been 30 minutes.” you said, smirking as you did.

You walked over to the bench, grabbed your bag, and walked out of the training room, leaving a speechless Steve lying on the mat.

 -TIMESKIP-

You and Clint were sitting in the kitchen talking about your plans for the day when Steve walked in. You glanced at him, but quickly looked away when you saw that he looked in your direction. He walked over to the fridge and started to take out ingredients for a sandwich.

You were starting to feel bad for acting the way you did during your last training session, but he never worked anyone as hard as he worked you and you were tired of being treated like this. Everyone on the team has made mistakes, but when they would happen he would usually tell them that they can’t go on the next mission or he let them off with a warning, so you didn’t understand why your punishment was any different from the other’s.

“Hey Capsicle, I heard you took a pretty rough beating from (Y/n) earlier.” Tony said walking into the kitchen, giving you a wink as he passed you. Steve pretended like he didn’t hear him and continued to make his sandwich, though it was obvious that he had heard him, for his body tensed when Tony mentioned the session.

 “I wouldn’t call it a beating, it was just training.” you said, trying to get him to lay off of Steve. You might be upset with Steve, but he didn’t deserve to be mistreated over such a small thing.

 “No, it was a beating. I saw it.” Tony replied, pulling out his tablet and showing you and Clint the footage from the training session.

“Damn Cap, you really got your ass handed to you, didn’t ya?” Clint chuckled, staring at the footage.

 Steve glanced over to the three of you, and walked out the kitchen, leaving his sandwich behind on the counter as he did. You quickly got up and chased after him, and followed him to the door of his bedroom.

You then grabbed his arm forcing him to face you.“Steve what’s going on? Is it because of the footage, because I can easily hack into the system and delete it.” you said staring at him, still holding his arm.

He didn’t reply, instead he just stared at you with a look you have never seen on him before.

His silence was starting to make you angry. Why wouldn’t he just tell you what’s going on?

 “Stop staring at me and tell me what’s wrong.” you demanded.

 He still did not respond to you, instead he narrowed his eyes at you as if he was trying to read you.  

 “Damnit, why do you do this to me?! You are always more strict with me, and you always act different with me! What did I do to deserve this?!” you screamed at him, tears threatening to escape from your eyes. You yanked your hand off his arm and stormed to your room, leaving a speechless Steve behind...again.

 -TIMESKIP-

You laid in bed crying and thinking about what had happened for an hour, and you ignored everyone’s attempts to come and comfort you. No one knew what had happened, but they assumed it was bad because you never cry. What happened was really not that bad, but you had been upset with Steve before the altercation, so it only made things worse for you.

 You heard a knock at your door and you were going to ignore it until you heard Steve’s voice. “(Y/n), may I come in?”

After debating with yourself for a few seconds, you decided to cave so you let out a muffled “yes”.

You didn’t want to face him, so you kept your back turned towards the door. You heard your door open then close, and footsteps come towards you. Steve squatted so he could be face to face with you, which made his eyes widen in shock.

 Geez do I really look that bad?

He moved a piece of hair out of your face and behind your ear.

 “(Y/n), I’m so sorry.” he whispered, looking back into your eyes after taking in your depressing form.

 You avoided eye contact with him by closing your eyes, because you knew that you would break down if you even attempted to glance at him.

“I didn’t mean to to make you so upset, I just...I didn’t know how to express the feelings I feel towards you..I hoped that..us training together..would..maybe..make us become closer..or..I don’t know..it was a terrible thing to do to you.” he said cautiously placing his hand on yours. You didn’t move, you were still trying to process what he had just said.

Did he really like you, or was he just trying to make you feel better? You never really thought of Steve in that way until now. Of course you found him really cute, and sweet, and his laugh is like music to your ears, and God that smile of his made you weak at the knees.

 Maybe you did feel the same, but he was your leader, you couldn’t be in a relationship with him...right?

“(Y/n), look at me..please.” You opened your eyes and met his. “I love you. I love you so much. I feel terrible for the way I’ve been acting towards you. I just..I didn’t know...if you felt..the same..so I figured if I acted like a leader towards you all the time then you wouldn’t notice my true feelings.” He rambled in one breath. He looked like he was going to cry, and you could tell that he truly meant what he was saying and that he truly was hurting over treating you so horribly.

 You sat up and looked at him with a sympathetic look plastered on your face, and moved your free hand to place it on his cheek. “Steve..I..I like you. I know that you love me, but I never really thought about us like that before..but now that I am..I think that we should make this..us..work. If you want to of course.”

His face lit up with joy, and he nodded his head vigorously. He resembled an excited puppy who just got rescued from a storm.

 He moved in to kiss you, but stopped centimeters away from your lips. “May I?”

You laughed and grabbed him by the back of his neck and pulled him to you, closing the gap between the two of you.

When you two finally parted for air, you rested your forehead on his, smiling like an idiot.

 “You don’t have to train with me anymore, if you don’t want too.”He said, sounding a little disappointed as he did so.

“I actually could get used to it.” you chuckled as you pulled him in for another kiss.

[vosueh]

Hi, sorry for bothering you! I wanted to ask when you are going to update your fic? Im really looking forward to this and I searched your blog for a similar ask, only to disiver that it was 2 weeks old LOL. I cant wait for the update, as it is one of the best Fanfics I´ve read in a long time (sry, my english is bad)

Sorry for bothering you (again). I just wanted to ask if you got my ask…? (about 2 days ago) If so, im sorry for asking and if you did not answer on purpose I am sorry for bothering you again!  

Sorry!!! :c I use the tumblr app more often than the website so it’s always wonky about letting me know when I’ve gotten asks! I actually only noticed these asks because I decided to open tumblr on my laptop today…

But since that 2 week old ask was about Doesn’t Make It Okay, I think you’re asking about that fic, right?

If so, I was actually hoping to have updated it over the weekend because I’m only 2 scenes left from finishing (the bare-bones outline by itself was two whole, single-spaced pages long consisting of 9 scenes in total– fml). But, the chapter without those 2 scenes is already longer than any other I’ve written, so sorry it’s been taking me awhile :c

I really really want to have it done by last weekend, but since I haven’t had a day off from either going to school or going to work in the last 2 months, I’ve been tempted to request sundays off from work just so I actually could have time for my hobbies (which are literally just writing and art). If not, I still might be able to have it finished by this weekend just by working on it while I’m at school, butttt so far that’s what I’ve been doing and I’m already hella late xc

But! It’s already almost done, so I’m reallllllly trying to finish it up!! I’m gonna try my damnest to get it done asap because I’m already so close!

(also, I hope this ask wasn’t about Thought I Could Leave You, because that’s a whole different story to explain. If it was, feel free to message me again, I just didn’t want to make this answer longer than it already is by explain both! cx )